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  1. Rec 70

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    I am not asking to be happy. I have never asked for that. I am only asking to be different. Please, Lord, make me different. Make me the thing they need me to be. Remove from me this— this affliction, this error, this deviation from Your design. I do not understand why You made me this way if You did not mean for me to be this way. And if You meant for me to be this way then I do not understand why, why, why is it a sin. And if it is a sin then I am a sinner, so then forgive me but I cannot repent for something I have never done, can I, can I repent for a feeling, can a man be damned for the direction of his hunger, for the frequency of his loneliness, for wanting the wrong mouth, the wrong hands, for lying awake in the dark imagining—

    He turns onto his side.

    —imagining his shirt open to the second button and the skin underneath warm, and if I pressed my mouth there I would feel his pulse and it would be fast, would it be fast, would his heart beat faster if I—

    Or: Park Sunghoon meets Sim Jaeyun on the Titanic.

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    28 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    how lucky i am to live in a world where i find fanfiction, i find enhypen, i find the most talented writers on the planet who change the course of my worldview and who sink their teeth into the deepest recesses of my mind and who do this for free and completely out of their own volition. beautiful, haunting, this work will stick with me for a very long time.

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    Mark spent almost a full 24 hours with Haechan, and still texted him to ask for more, pincered between everyday conversation. Don’t forget the dip, manager out next Thursday, did you take my charger?

    Haechanie:
    i’ve got your dip
    it was my charger first

    He never got a reply to the other question.

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    18 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    HOLY SHIT

  3. Rec 77

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    Taesan has always been beautiful, always breath-taking in a way that left Jaehyun speechless.

    OR: that one slow burn friends to lovers myungtae college au

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    16 Apr 2026

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    Sunghoon wasn't prepared for his ex-boyfriend to move into the apartment across from his; not after the boy had disappeared without explanation three years ago, just when he needed him most.
    The door that adults forced them to close at the end of their teenage years opens again, giving way to everything: unhealed wounds, unresolved misunderstandings, and perhaps, an unextinguished love.
    Sunoo, with the last of his scarce strength, insists on getting closer. Sunghoon, immersed in the demands of early adulthood and a routine of sudden responsibilities, resists experiencing for a second time that pain that pushed him to the limit before.
    But seeking answers becomes inevitable, just as it becomes inevitable to break a little more when obtaining them.

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    22 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    oh my god.

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    Jake scratches the nape of his neck. “And who is this hyung you’re talking about? I’ll level with you, I do need a place, but I think it’s still my right to know who I’ll actually be living with. I won’t be shacking up with someone crazy, will I?”

    Jongseong laughs. “Judge for yourself. You’ll be living with my cousin. Lee Heeseung. I’m sure you know him.”

    Good fucking god.

    Sim Jaeyun answers an apartment ad written by Park Jongseong. Except Jongseong’s not going to be his roommate at all. The guy he’ll truly be living with? Jongseong’s cousin—Heeseung.

    Also known as: a chronicle of Heejake falling in love, seen through the lens of 15 songs on their house playlist.

    (I really tried to make it a 5+1 fic, but Heejake’s shared 15—I could never have let it go.)

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    21 Feb 2026