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    Luca Haas grew up idolizing two hockey legends: Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander.
    Now he’s on their team, skating beside them every day—and trying very hard not to embarrass himself in front of his captain.

    Unfortunately, Luca has never been particularly good at hiding his crush.

    Ilya notices everything.
    Shane notices too.

    Eventually, curiosity turns into an invitation.

     

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    The handprints keep flashing in his mind. Dark against Shane’s skin. Fingers splayed. Too deliberate to be an accident.

    Bruises happen. Hockey players bruise like breathing is involuntary. Like ice is cold.

    But those had not been from a hit or a fall or a puck to the wrong place.

    Those were hands.

    Ilya’s hands.

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    Set six months after the events of the original story, Shane Hollander is now a nineteen-year-old NHL rookie and assistant captain of the struggling Montreal Metros. In private, he is living a secret double life in a relationship with his former professor Ilya Rozanov.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

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    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    11 Apr 2026

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    16/16 chapters so far and yes it’s a 10/10 fic so far

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    Sixteen years ago at the height of Shane Hollander's career, he disappeared. Now years later invites to a wedding for a ‘Luca Hollander’ end up on the doorstep of many people of the past, many of which have their names etched in his father’s diary. Inviting them all with the intention of finally getting to know more about his father, and finally finding out who his fathers soulmate was.

    Will this be the wedding of the century without even knowing it or go down in a dumpster fire?

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    21 May 2026

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    Ilya let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “I want to be perfect for you, Shane. To make up for all the time we lost.”

    “I don’t want perfect,” Shane said quietly, stroking Ilya’s cheek. “I want something real. Something that we fight to make work, because we want it so much. Because being together is so much fucking better than being without each other.”

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    Ten years ago, Shane and Ilya loved each other in secret and let each other go anyway.

    Now Shane, captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, is a single dad to four-year-old Ollie, and good at pretending he doesn’t think about the man he lost when they were younger and terrified of the fallout of being caught. Then one chance meeting turns into drinks, lingering looks, old feelings, and suddenly Ilya Rozanov is everywhere again.

    Some things, it turns out, never really leave you.

    As Shane and Ilya fall back into each other’s lives - and into something softer, steadier, and openly theirs this time — they realise maybe they’re finally ready for the life they used to dream about.

    Or: two hockey players who were each other’s first love reconnect ten years later and slowly build the family they always wanted.

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    21 May 2026