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    But Ghost didn’t seem to mind, quietly filling the kettle before setting it to boil, those dark eyes watching as John paced the kitchen, one arm flailing about in the air, the other locked tight around his half-melted pint of rocky road.

    He told Ghost he was stressed. That the entire MacTavish clan was coming into town, which meant awkward hugs, judgmental stares, and nosy questions from people he hadn’t seen in years. John could handle all of that, he really could.

    But what he couldn’t handle was the questions. Why he hadn’t settled down yet, why he didn’t have a nice Scottish girl on his arm.

    Why he wasn’t married with a child on the way, because Ethel and James weren’t getting younger, and John was already too old. For fuck’s sake.

    “Maybe I don’t want to bring home a wee lass,” John had snapped, voice cracking as he dug his spoon in harder than necessary, a brown, congealed clump of freezer-burned rocky road flying onto the floor. “Maybe I don’t even like women, has anyone considered that?”

    And there, in less than twenty words, John had completely outed himself. 

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    05 Sep 2025

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    Ghost, under threat of another psychological evaluation from both his CO and therapist, has been forced to partake in a penpal programme with another soldier in order to "practise empathy" and "re-establish human connection." He hates it until he doesn't.

    MacTavish willingly volunteers for the SAS's new penpal programme because what the hell, it could be fun. And when his penpal ends up being adorably emotionally constipated, well, that certainly doesn't hurt.

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    08 Jun 2025

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    Ghost nods to himself when the straps are secured, then comes to Soap’s head. He grips his jaw firmly and pets over his ears, his hair, until Soap is doe-eyed and lax in his hold. “I’m going to get my examination tools now,” Ghost tells him, his voice low and hypnotic, his eyes so dark they’re almost black, unblinking. He’s so strong, his presence is enough to bring Soap to heel so easily. Soap nods dumbly, wetting his lips. “Some of the items I want to use may be uncomfortable, even frightening at first. I want you to tell me if anything hurts, or if you’re in genuine distress. Otherwise, I’ll continue my exam until I’m satisfied.” He pauses to let the words sink in. “Do you understand, Johnny?”

    Soap’s mouth is so wet with saliva, his tongue so heavy. He swallows and makes himself nod. “Aye.” Ghost arches a brow. “I understand. Sir. I’ll be good.”

    “I know you will,” Ghost soothes, his fingers brushing Soap’s brow, the bridge of his nose, his blushing cheeks, the corners of his mouth. Under the hinge of his jaw to make him show his throat. “You’re a good boy, I know you are.”

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    04 May 2025

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    “Listen,” Price starts after a long beat of tense quiet, “take a look at the numbers, Ghost. Watch some of his videos. They're good, and you guys would work well together.” Ghost goes to protest, but Price raises a hand to stop him, “Seriously. Call it a gut feeling, manager intuition– whatever you want. But I've been in this industry for too long not to recognize potential when I see it.”

    “It's gonna be a no. I'm not fuckin’ working with him.”

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    Simon Riley, aka Ghost online, has been in the adult video industry for a long, long time. It pays his bills and keeps a roof over his head, and even though the job doesn't excite him, he's content with that. There's no need to change what's not broken.

    Enter: John MacTavish, an up-and-coming solo pornstar known as Soap.

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    02 Sep 2024

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    In those last split seconds before it ends, there is intimacy.

    In that shuddering gasp between stability and unimaginable force, a glance shared with another man - all those conversations you wanted to have but didn’t, all that useless yearning directed at nothing - his hand instinctively presses to the front of your kit in a pale echo of wish, of a boy’s last cry for his mother. Or a pat for a job well done; an impotent display of brotherhood at the edge of reality.

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    Simon and John struggle to lean on each other after their mutual discharge, navigating their trauma, feelings, and what it means to be intimate with another man.

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    09 Apr 2024