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    When Shane takes a hard hit on the ice, he wakes up three days later to find his reality has been shattered. But the truth is, it wasn’t reality at all. Just an elaborate set of false memories conjured by a brain injury. 'False memory syndrome' they call it. Shane calls it a nightmare he couldn't have imagined.

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    Shane doesn’t have amnesia. Instead, he wakes up wanting his boyfriend only to realize his brain concocted a bunch of fake memories of a nine year situationship and Shane has no idea how to live in his actual reality that Ilya hasn’t been a part of. Luckily, Ilya is…curious.

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    23 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 22

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    Shane was looking forward to All-Stars. Rose helped him understand some things and he was hoping to talk to Rozanov, apologise for freaking out.

    But then Rozanov is hurt bad; Shane can't stop watching the video of his final, confused moments on the ice, especially the part where he says his name is "Ilya Hollander." Viewers can't decide if he's still trying to chirp or just addled from the head injury.

    When he overhears Marlow say Rozanov is not going to wake up, Shane is floored; he's losing everything that matters and no one even knows.

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    22 Jun 2026

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    "And is like I said, very easy to do. You just lay back and let someone else do work. Could do it in my sleep, would not be problem at all for me to come hands-free.”

    Hollander scowled, full competitive personality shining through. “Prove it.”

    “Fine, I will,” Ilya snapped back.

    Hollander's eyes went wide, and so did Ilya's when he realized what he had promised. His words hung in the air between them, suddenly heavy with implication.

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    Ilya doesn't think switching with Hollander one time for the sake of settling a bet will change anything about their arrangement, and it certainly wouldn't make him discover anything about himself. Afterall, it would only be one time, right?

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    22 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 45

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    It's the last game of the 2018 season for Boston and the last game for their captain, Ilya Rozanov. With Shane in the audience, watching and cheering on his boyfriend. What started as a celebration soon turned into pain, chaos and blood on the ice.

    See warnings, NO MAJOR CHARACTER DEATH!

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    17 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is in love, closeted, catastrophically lonely, and apparently incapable of referring to Shane Hollander in present tense.

    The Centaurs come to a- given the circumstances- reasonable conclusion.

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    Five times the Centaurs thought Ilya Rozanov was mourning his dead wife, and the one time they discovered his wife was actually Shane Hollander.
    Shane, for the record, is alive and really confused.

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    15 Jun 2026