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  1. Public Bookmark 78

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    Tonight was the night. They rode in the back of a car to the Ottawa club together, feeling nervous with neither speaking. This would be their first public outing as a couple, together, when everyone knew.

    Shane’s anxiety is through the roof but Ilya’s presence always finds a way to calm it.

    As long as Ilya was with him the whole night; where was he?

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    Shane gets assaulted at the club and divulges in self-harm in attempts to forget all about it. Ilya struggles to know how to help him.

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    14 May 2026

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    Ellie is content like this, Joel busy doing something, and her just sitting with him, watching. It reminds her of after Silver Lake, when Joel would drag her around because she couldn’t stand being without him. She thinks back to the first time she woke up and couldn’t feel Joel’s presence at her back. She had rolled over, expecting to find him sitting across from her, stoking the fire, only to notice that Joel’s sleeping bag was empty, and he was nowhere to be seen. She remembers the fear, that all encompassing fear she’d felt thinking that David had come and snatched him away from her, just like he snatched everything else from her. That fear had been mixed with white hot anger, and she had clung onto her sleeping bag so tight, she’d almost ripped holes in it. She’d cried, hard, and only calmed down once Joel had returned. She remembers the trembling, and the shaking, but mostly the feeling of being held by strong, yet gentle arms. She also remembers when she came to later that night, and apologised to Joel for acting so childish.

    “You have nothin’ to apologise for, baby,” he’d said, running his fingers through her hair in a way that always helps her calm down, even now. “You’ve done nothin’ wrong,”.

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    24 Apr 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 45

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    24 Apr 2026

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    love it

  4. Public Bookmark 11

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    Whumptober 2024 fics & prompts in order:

    pale through pathless ways - race against the clock

    dust before the dreams gone cold - sunburn

    lady lazarus - not realizing they’re injured

    some unimaginable bird - sleep deprivation

    starved in desert wild - starvation

    a quartz contentment - childhood trauma

    the death of myth-making - emotional angst

    leafmold paradise - nightmares

    enough of dying species - recovery

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    23 Apr 2026