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    After coming out to Rose, Shane decides he doesn't want to lie anymore, even if he isn't sure coming out will mean he gets happily ever after with Ilya. When coming out to the Voyageurs leaves him wondering what his future in Montreal might look like, he lets himself be a little selfish, he lets himself wonder if there might be somewhere else he might be happy. If Montreal wants to get rid of a generational player, he's not about to stop them, especially if it means he can get a little closer to joy.

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    Or: Shane Hollander leaves Montreal in search of something better.

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    12 Feb 2026

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    In this exclusive profile, spend the day on a lakeshore in Ottawa. Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are finally ready to introduce themselves.

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    10 Feb 2026

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    “Well, you are getting something from me. Two things actually: Life-changing sex skills and an opportunity to fuck me—”

    “—Oh, give me a break—”

    “—But,” Ilya says. “What am I getting out of this?”

    “The opportunity to f-fuck me,” Hollander snaps, and yeah, a pretty fair point.

    ilya is failing a class, shane is failing at exploring his sexuality. despite their seven-year-long animosity on the ice, they turn to each other for guidance. a deal is struck.

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    01 Feb 2026

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    “How long has this been here?” Shane asked.

    Ilya frowned. “What?”

    “This,” Shane said, pressing gently.

    Ilya flinched, more surprised than hurt. He twisted awkwardly, reaching back, fingers searching. “I don’t feel anything.”

    “You don’t feel that?” Shane asked. His voice sounded wrong to his own ears.

    Ilya sighed, irritation creeping in. “You’re poking me. Of course I feel that.”

    “Ilya.”

    “It’s probably nothing,” Ilya said, already pulling away, sitting up. “Muscle knot. I don’t know.”

     

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    Ilya is used to surviving alone. Shane won’t let him. When illness forces their lives to change overnight, they learn what marriage really means. Not in vows, but in the relentless decision to stay.

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    27 Jan 2026

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    Jack thought his first year in the NHL would be 100% about hockey, but the reality is so much more complicated. (AU where the Goodbye for the Summer comics didn’t happen, because I had already written 80K words of this. But just because it’s canon doesn’t mean we can’t still enjoy long, angsty, get-together stories, amirite?)

    Alternate summary, courtesy of Dracavia: What if Bad Bob didn't say anything at graduation?

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    11 Jan 2026

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    Long long hockey bffs to lovers