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    A cancer diagnosis forces Shane and Ilya to stop pretending they have time. They don’t slowly fall into each other—they crash into it, trying to make up for seven years of almosts and what-ifs. But illness doesn’t magically fix who they are. The same walls, fears, and habits that kept them apart are still there—only now they have to face them while fighting something much bigger than themselves.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    Shane scoffs, throwing his hands up. “I just want to figure this out. We have to live together, we should be—“

    “We should be what?” Ilya laughs. “Braiding each other’s hair like girls, yes?”

    “No. I just don’t think we need to be so hostile.

    “I don’t like you,” Ilya says plainly. “You are irritating, and you are boring. In two years, we will be done with hockey and college, and neither of us will have existed to each other. Let it be that.”

    (Or: Ilya Rozanov is a rich kid who has been kicked out of another university. His new university, while not bad, tries to give him a new roommate. Shane Hollander is a sweetheart who hasn't had an easy life after the loss of both of his parents. After doing some ugly things to make ends meet, all he wants is a normal, happy college experience and an education that would make his mom proud, while trying to balance the hideous things still chasing him.)

    *rape/noncon is not between shane and Ilya*

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    07 Jun 2026

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    During his first World Juniors, Canada's Shane Hollander met America's Carter Vaughan in the hotel lobby and the rest is history.

    This story is a look at a Shane with a best friend who tugs him out of his shell, a friend who pushes him to expand his circle, who helps him find the confidence to stand up for himself. His journey isn't without pitfalls, but one change, one extra person solidly in his corner who loves every jagged piece of him, takes him to new places and lets him take new risks.

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    Or: what would happen if Carter 'Ally' Vaughan was Shane's best friend and maybe, just maybe, the gays were a little messier?

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    15 May 2026

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    Even after getting married, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are still a secret. No one, aside from their most trusted people, knows about their relationship.
    Sick of hiding, they make a plan to soft launch their relationship for the world to lose its mind about it.
    If that goes as smoothly as they plan it, is for their future selves to find out.

    sequel fic for infiltrators, but can be read as a standalone story

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    05 May 2026

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    “Is it your wedding day?”
    Shane sputters. “Sorry?”
    “The tuxedo,” she points out. “You look like you just got married.”
    “Oh,” Shane says dumbly, glancing down at his rumpled suit. “No,” he adds.
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    Or the one where that one night in Vegas gets a little out of hand for Ilya and Shane and a marriage by accident could turn into one of convenience. And maybe, something more.

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    26 Apr 2026