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• idol. by alea iacta est (highway1009)

  Fandoms: ENHYPEN (Band)  

  • Mature
  • Major Character Death
  • M/M, Gen
  • Work in Progress

  13 Nov 2025

  Tags

  • Major Character Death
  • Nishimura Riki | Ni-ki & Everyone
  • Nishimura Riki | Ni-ki
  • ENHYPEN Ensemble
  • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
  • References to No Longer Human - Dazai Osamu (Novel 1948)
  • Nishimura Riki | Ni-ki-Centric
  • Nishimura Riki | Ni-ki Needs a Hug
  • Hurt Nishimura Riki | Ni-ki
  • Good Leader Yang Jungwon (ENHYPEN)
  • Protective ENHYPEN
  • ENHYPEN Ensemble Being Assholes
  • they love and care for riki sm tho
  • riki just can’t see it
  • Suicide
  • Suicide Notes
  • Depression
  • Unreliable Narrator
  • Diary/Journal
  • Song: Idol (YOASOBI)
  • Song: Nobody (Mitski)
  • no beta we die like riki
  • Minor Park Jongseong | Jay/Yang Jungwon
  • Minor Lee Heeseung/Sim Jaeyun | Jake
  • Minor Kim Sunoo/Park Sunghoon (ENHYPEN)
  • Body Horror
  • Panic Attacks
  • Mental Health Issues

  Summary

  “I thought, ‘I want to die. I want to die more than ever before. There’s no chance now of a recovery. No matter what sort of thing I do, no matter what I do, it’s sure to be a failure, just a final coating applied to my shame. That dream of going on bicycles to see a waterfall framed in summer leaves—it was not for the likes of me. All that can happen now is that one foul, humiliating sin will be piled on another, and my sufferings will become only the more acute. I want to die. I must die. Living itself is the source of sin.’”

  —No Longer Human, Osamu Dazai

  OR: riki flees life into the hands of death. told in the narratives of the diary entries that riki left behind, plus the other enhypen members perspectives.

  Series

  • Part 1 of diary entry #0
  • Part 1 of shit, this is red too

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  3,900

  Chapters:

  2/?

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