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you talk of the pain like it's all alright by perchancetosleep
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
28 Mar 2026
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As soon as Ilya realizes that he has to kill himself, his brain immediately latches onto one indisputable fact: someone is going to have to find his body. There is no way around that, but not even the premature guilt for whoever has the unpleasant task is enough to talk him out of it, anymore.
If he hadn’t ghosted Galina, she’d probably tell him that he cares so much about it because of his own experience finding his mother. She’d also probably tell him that the fact that losing Shane Hollander is enough to make him kill himself means that he’s got a long, nonoptional date with a padded room clogging up his calendar for the foreseeable future. She already has a lot of fucking opinions about Shane and their fucked up situation, and Ilya really is fucking sick of hearing about it because he will not let her ruin the one good fucking thing he has.
Had.
(or: there is no plane crash. there is still a catastrophe.)
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11 May 2026
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The one where Shane tries to be perfect, Ilya pushes too hard, and an entire hockey team helps search a mountain when one of their own goes missing.
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- Part 1 of More Than the Game
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- English
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- 41,128
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- 6/6
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11 May 2026
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A cancer diagnosis forces Shane and Ilya to stop pretending they have time. They don’t slowly fall into each other—they crash into it, trying to make up for seven years of almosts and what-ifs. But illness doesn’t magically fix who they are. The same walls, fears, and habits that kept them apart are still there—only now they have to face them while fighting something much bigger than themselves.
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- Part 2 of Something Worth Hanging
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- English
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- 177,890
- Chapters:
- 37/37
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13 Apr 2026
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Until You Breathe Again by underthewolfstars
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
08 Apr 2026
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Yuna's hand meets Ilya’s. The rivalry status that the league had painted over her son's relationship with the Russian now cast aside. They clutch to each other in silent acknowledgement of their shared pain, hope and fear in what had just manifested before their eyes. There's a uniting force in pain and grief—It's one that wipes slates clean, makes you forgive, makes you love harder and appreciate more than you ever thought possible. Everything she ever knew or felt about the Russian whose hand she now clung to was dissolved
Shane Hollander briefly dies on the ice after the hit from Marlow in the Montreal vs Boston Game. Ilya handles his emotions poorly and has a very public meltdown revealing their relationship to the world.
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- Part 1 of underthewolfstars hollanov fics
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- English
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- 17,948
- Chapters:
- 6/6
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- 1,074
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08 Apr 2026
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ghosts we've always known by impetuous
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
27 Jan 2026
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“Seeing you smile like that, it makes me want to give you all of this,” he called out, making a sweeping gesture across the ice.
Shane turned back to look at him, eyes bright, and laughed. “Canadian Tire Centre? I know you’re rich, Rozanov, but an entire arena is a pretty big real estate investment.”
Ilya pushed off, skating to a stop in front of him, knowing his expression had morphed into something serious. “Hockey, Hollander. It should have been yours.”
Or, everything that happens when your dreams don’t come true.
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- 69,624
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- 18/18
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19 Mar 2026
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What We Refuse to Lose in the Fight by WatchingKnight_911
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
26 Feb 2026
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“How long has this been here?” Shane asked.
Ilya frowned. “What?”
“This,” Shane said, pressing gently.
Ilya flinched, more surprised than hurt. He twisted awkwardly, reaching back, fingers searching. “I don’t feel anything.”
“You don’t feel that?” Shane asked. His voice sounded wrong to his own ears.
Ilya sighed, irritation creeping in. “You’re poking me. Of course I feel that.”
“Ilya.”
“It’s probably nothing,” Ilya said, already pulling away, sitting up. “Muscle knot. I don’t know.”
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Ilya is used to surviving alone. Shane won’t let him. When illness forces their lives to change overnight, they learn what marriage really means. Not in vows, but in the relentless decision to stay.- Language:
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- 84,466
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- 46/46
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26 Feb 2026
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This has an MCD—but I promise I would never let them die in vain. I believe that beauty can be born from tragedy, and this story comes with the promise of a happy ending.
If you can’t put your faith in me, please put your faith in them:
“This was, hands down, the most heartbreaking, soul destroying, gut wrenching piece of writing, that is also simultaneously breathtakingly beautiful, to possibly ever exist.”
“Your views on life that you able to impart on your world is also incredible, with some of them making me stop and genuinely consider.”
“The way I look at life and love and endings...you changed that for me.”
“This story is so steady and comforting, even through the pain because you face it head-on, without flinching, with love and care and a gentle hand.”
“It is a beautiful and honest portrayal of how they cherish every moment, and make the most of every day.”
“I feel this story, with all its iterations, is inherently human. And that touches people who yearn for this kind of connection and family.”
“So many words in this story have comforted me, and honestly I don't think there are any words that could describe how much this story has helped me.”
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- Part 2 of Built to Break
- Language:
- English
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- 181,353
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- 46/46
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25 Feb 2026
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24 Jan 2026
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NHL vs. cop slide by sapphic_sprout
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
30 Dec 2025
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ESPN @ESPN
Video leaked of Boston Raiders player Cliff Marleau (@CMarleauRaiders) taking a nighttime tumble down the infamous Boston "cop slide."OR
Going down the "cop slide" becomes a trend among NHL players when visiting Boston, and Ilya may or may not be responsible, but no one can prove it.
[4/6/26 - podfic now available!]
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- English
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- 6,474
- Chapters:
- 3/3
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- 14
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- 990
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04 Jan 2026
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There's Nothing That I Wouldn't Do by lucianowriter
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
18 Dec 2025
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Shane and Ilya are hooking up post game when Shane's blood sugar drops. Ilya steps up despite only just now finding out Shane has Type 1 Diabetes
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- Part 2 of The Highs and Lows of Shane Hollander
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30 Dec 2025
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Ilya died, yes, but then the doctors saved him. Cardiopulmonary resuscitation in the ambulance, three electric shocks, two emergency surgeries, twenty-six units of blood. Ilya died, but then he came back.
If only Shane could get his subconscious to understand that.
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- Part 1 of my anonymous heated rivalry fic
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- English
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- 13,090
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- 1/1
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- 1
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- 570
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- 11,940
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26 Dec 2025
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Fanning the Flames by cjr2
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
11 Dec 2025
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The Voyageurs ask Shane to join FanMail in order to foster a better connection with fans. Internet sleuths start to notice some interesting details in the background of Shane’s videos, and then the internet does...what the internet does.
Or Shane and Ilya are granted an opportunity to come out on their own terms. Sort of. And in they do it in a very Ilya way. (Surprisingly, it is Shane’s idea)
- Language:
- English
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- 21,185
- Chapters:
- 3/3
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- 53
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- 3,235
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- 61,259
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16 Dec 2025
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Through Our Eyes by ForAllTheWallflowers
Fandoms: Heartstopper (Webcomic), Heartstopper (TV)
26 Jan 2023
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Nick’s head ducks a little and he’s clearly remembering last year, when Charlie had been outed as gay to the entire school. When a bunch of year twelve rugby lads had bullied him into an attempted suicide. But Nick had never said one bad thing about him. As a rule, Charlie stayed far away from jocks, but even though they had never spoken, Nick had never seemed to be like the rest.
His eyes were kind.
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02 Dec 2025
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A crash ends Charles Leclerc’s driving career, but not his ties to Ferrari. Returning as a race engineer, he’s forced to rebuild his life in the shadow of pain and loss. Then Max Verstappen steps back into his orbit—bringing friendship, tension, and the spark of something more. As rivals turn teammates, will their bond stay professional, or become the romance Max has longed for?
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- Part 1 of The Love We Found
- Language:
- English
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- 124,575
- Chapters:
- 63/63
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- 796
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02 Nov 2025
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Nick Nelson was just the boy in the year above — rugby captain, quiet smile, never spoke to Charlie Spring. Until he went missing. The fifth teen to vanish in three months. And when Nick is finally found, scared and silent and entirely different, Charlie realizes their story is only beginning. They were strangers. Now, they’re trying to rebuild something neither of them has ever had: safety. Trust. Maybe even love.
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13 Oct 2025
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Charlie Spring always dreamed of becoming a police officer, a plan he shared with his best friend Tao since childhood. But when they finally begin training, the pressure is heavier than expected and so is the presence of Officer Nick Nelson. Charlie and Nick clash immediately, but underneath the tension, something deeper begins to spark something Charlie never anticipated.
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09 Oct 2025
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Queer Intentions had gathered a lot of attention and fame over the last year, and now with their first EP out and charting and a tour starting in a few weeks, it would only get worse. Charlie already had a pretty love/hate relationship with the whole thing. He was happy to be a drummer, and playing live was amazing, but people were invasive and loud and wanted a lot from him all the time.
That included fans, the record label, all his new managers and assistants, and a million other people.
“How long till I see you?” Charlie asked, despite knowing the exact countdown of days left in his head. Nick would be coming to him in 12 long days and then he’d have 4 weeks of Nick on tour with them. He wanted a change of subject, not to be reminded of what his life was going to be like very soon.
“12 long, long days,” Nick sighed. “And trust me, I’m ready to tell everyone to screw it and head down there right now,” he grumbled.
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- 10/10
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07 Oct 2025
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And They Were Roommates by Anonymous
Fandoms: Heartstopper (TV), Heartstopper (Webcomic)
26 Nov 2022
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"I don’t think I’m really going to… fit in here.”
“We’re all here for the same reasons, right? We all belong.”
“Yeah, but I’m not…” Crazy, Nick wants to say, but he bites his tongue. The thing is, Charlie doesn’t seem crazy, either.
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Nick Nelson attempts suicide. In the psych ward of the hospital that saves him, his new roommate is Charlie Spring.
- Language:
- English
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- 54,801
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- 19/19
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28 Sep 2025
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The Tokyo Olympics are over. Nick has left France for the UK, where he will rejoin the British gymnastics team in his pursuit of the 2024 Olympics. Charlie is well on the road to recovery from the ill-timed knee injury that dashed his 2020 Olympic hopes, and is now once again training alongside his best friend. Oh, and they're boyfriends now!
Nick and Charlie may finally be ready to be together, but is the rest of the gymnastics world? Can they have their happily-ever-after and make their Olympic dreams come true, or will they have to choose?
This fic will make no sense unless you've read part 1!
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- Part 2 of Take the Leap
- Language:
- English
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- 149,905
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- 22/22
- Comments:
- 1,086
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- 633
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- 30,901
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24 Sep 2025
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Waiting for My Real Life to Begin by Yojfull
Fandoms: Heartstopper (TV), Heartstopper (Webcomic)
09 Aug 2024
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Nick - an ex-rugby player, forced to retire by injury
Charlie - A music producer with no more job and a shitty ex
Their lives have upended - what next?
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 88,684
- Chapters:
- 28/28
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- 2,068
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- 953
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21 Sep 2025