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    “Sorry, Yoshiki,” Hikaru groans as tears come out of one eye and more of him comes out of the other. “Ughh, I don’t – ”

    Yoshiki can see how hard he’s trying to calm himself down, but it just isn’t working.

    “It’s ok,” Yoshiki says, quiet. “It’s ok. Instead of shovin’ it back inside completely, can you try just...lettin’ it out? Just a little bit?”

    He has no clue how any of this works, but maybe a half-measure is better than trying to force it all at once.

    “Okay,” Hikaru says, but it sounds like a sob. More of the unknowable, incomprehensible swirl leaks out into the dark room.

    “Yoshiki – shit – ‘m sorry but can I…” Hikaru’s face – what’s visible behind the bloom of him – twists in a small kind of agony. “Can I touch you? Not much. Just – ”

    It's been years since Hikaru first took the body of Yoshiki's dead best friend. Despite everything - every horror and hurt - they managed to find a home in each other. Not quite friends or family. More and not. What they have is complicated, but precious.

    But when Yoshiki escapes their small town – to college, to Tokyo – Hikaru follows. And things start to change for them both.

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    20 Nov 2025

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    Ever since Felix was young: fast learner, sore loser. Stamina like a wolf. The lung capacity of a kid who used to cry for hours. Now he trains every single day. Sylvain should’ve known. Chisel that into his gravestone.

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    Sylvain is taken for a ride.

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    24 Oct 2025

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    It was times like these when Felix almost preferred Dimitri to accompany him to the baths. At least Dimitri knew better than to annoy him when he was at his most vulnerable. Felix’s silence would have gone unnoticed, accepted even, but Sylvain was unfortunately well-versed in Felix’s non-verbal language.

    “You’ve jerked off, haven’t you?” Sylvain asked a few moments later, curious.

    “I’m not talking about this with you,” Felix replied tersely, dumping a basin of water over his head.

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    Sylvain teaches Felix about sex.

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    22 Oct 2025

  4. Rec 65

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    “I don’t think that spell was as harmless as I thought.”

    He heard Felix shift. “You think that’s the reason you’re…”

    Sylvain bit back a groan as another wave of pain coursed through his body. “Yeah.”

    “What kind of spell makes people horny?” Felix said, dubious.

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    02 Oct 2025

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    Sylvain doesn’t have to talk to speak to Felix, not after a childhood of friendship and then a war spent stepping carefully in each other’s blind spots like lovesick, antagonistic shadows.

    Or: a story about reconstructing your world and yourself.

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    27 Sep 2025