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  1. Public Bookmark 15

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    John’s in the shed again and it still smells of stale wet. The detonator in his hand creaks the exact same as it had the first time. His heart lurches the same when Aaron speaks, like a bird in a cage.

    A glance at his watch— 0723.

    “Thought we could have a bit of brekkie in bed.”

    It always takes more than one rehab stint to curb an addict.

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    23 May 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 8

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    When the story’s almost over, Max’s eyes are wide with wonder. “Pretty eyes and an impressive tolerance for your psychosexual daddy issues? Jesus, you’re so screwed.”

    It’s a testament to the gravity of the situation that Robert lets that blatant blasphemy go, though not without vowing to himself to remember to piss in Max’s coffee in the morning. 

    “And the worst part,” Robert starts, mouth dry as he realises he’s finally going to voice aloud the illicit secret he can barely admit to himself, “is that he’s my soulmate.”

    “Oh shit!”

    Oh shit indeed. 

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    20 May 2026

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    Maybe if the video ended there, Shane thought, it would be okay. Okayish. Still incriminating. Still a fucking disaster. Still embarrassing, to have his breakup with this beautiful actress filmed and disseminated on Reddit of all fucking places, but not a nail in his coffin, burying him alive. But the video didn’t end there.

    “Can I ask if you’ve ever been with another guy?” she had to ask.

    And he, tears visible in his eyes, had to nod.

    Just once. Just a single nod.

    Why did he have to nod?

    “Have you ever told anyone that before?” He shook his head. “Was it different? With a guy?”

    “Of course.”

    Of course.

    “Was it better?”

    “Yes.”

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    Shane’s conversation with Rose is secretly recorded. Months later, after the All-Star game and Ilya’s confession in Russian, the video gets leaked online. Shane is outed to the world while Ilya is in Russia, and must now finish the 2016-2017 season with the entire world in on his secret.

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    02 May 2026

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    “I turned the other cheek every fucking time. I still got tossed on my ass the second I went too far over the line, and threatened by the commissioner, and told to kill myself on just about every social media platform because my nightmare that I’d get outed came true. And you, after everything you did, got to come out to a supportive team and fans, get a slap on the wrist, and have your happy fucking ending.”

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    An exploration of Shane Hollander's struggle against racism and homophobia in hockey, and how others come to understand it

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    02 May 2026

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    “Luch-Shane,” Ilya says, catching himself only at the last moment before he breaks their no pet names in the workplace rule. “Why don’t you get some air, yes? We can-”

    Shane’s anxiety takes a quick backseat to annoyance once more, at being handled like a child instead of a grown man, like he hasn’t been doing this just as long as Ilya, like he needs someone to tell him when to take a break.

    Like he deserved to have everything taken away from him because he couldn’t handle it to start with.

    “I’m fine,” he says, voice icy.

    The step he takes away is too big, farther than he meant to get from Ilya’s side, and the air between them feels both charged and icy.

    He isn’t quite bold enough to try and fix it.

    (shane is married and on the same team as his husband) (and all it cost him was his whole career and the life he spent years building beforehand) (but it's fine, really) (it's all so very, very fucking fine)

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    02 May 2026