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“No, when you—when you smile like that,” Gi-hun says, shuddering. “It makes me miss him.”
“Who?” In-ho asks. He can’t help it, Gi-hun always piques his curiosity. “Jung-bae sshi? Sang-woo sshi?” He uses their real names for once. After hearing some of Gi-hun’s stories on the rare occasions he felt like sharing, In-ho can't help but use their names in place of their numbers. It makes In-ho feel like he knows them, too.
He's often thought about shooting Jung-bae with shaking hands, watching the hopelessness in his eyes as he turned to face Gi-hun. But what felt like pricks of guilt then, feels like sharp pains in his chest these days. He rolls around at night, and thinks, and feels. It’s a mystery why.
In-ho looks at Gi-hun sitting in front of him, the visceral reaction to Jung-bae’s name still strong as ever.
Is it really a mystery anymore? The influence of Seong Gi-hun and the thousand souls he carries with him is quite strong.
or: gi-hun and in-ho make it out alive, but gi-hun wants nothing to do with the latter. unfortunately, in-ho has other plans.
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feels like we buried alive something that never died by fantasize
Fandoms: Never Have I Ever (TV)
05 Jun 2023
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“And why would your vocabulary ever be the standard?”
She tries to pretend like she doesn’t notice his fingers resting on her skin for longer than normal. “I’m a reader,” he says, “in case you didn’t know.”
Of course, she knows.
for ben, she has saved poems underneath her skin
or, six times ben and devi talk about the boink, and the one time they finally take the next step
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so in love that you act insane (and that's the way i loved you) by fantasize
Fandoms: Never Have I Ever (TV)
30 Jul 2021
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“Give me a break,” he says in a deep, weighty tone. “I doubt you’d be a delight if your whole thing with Paxton came to an end.”
Devi wonders whether he deserves to know the truth, because she doesn’t really feel like making him feel less pathetic at the expense of her own dignity, but alas, she decides on capitulating to the angel on her shoulder.
“It did.”
Ben widens his eyes, and then immediately tries returning to his resting poker face—unsuccessfully. “Oh.”
or; after both of their respective relationships come to an end, ben and devi are left to pick up the pieces with each other.
(title from 'the way i loved you' by taylor swift)
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you took my broken melody (and now, i hear a symphony) by fantasize
Fandoms: Never Have I Ever (TV)
04 Jul 2021
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“What if I play something,” she mumbles, “while you sing?”
Somewhere within the churning swamp that is Ben’s mind right now, is a solid fragment of stage fright, like a piece of debris or a makeshift raft. He’s conditioned himself to feel proud and to never acknowledge his insecurities, despite the fact that he has plenty. Having to sing in front of Devi wouldn’t make any of it better.
Still, he takes one look at her hopeful gaze, the earthiness of her brown orbs coaxing him to agree, and he decides it would be better if he went along.
“Fine,” he sighs. “But you can’t play some Mozart, fancy-pancy type of stuff.”
A laugh rips out of her. “Oh my God, dude, how the fuck does someone sing to Mozart?”
“In my defense, you're crazy. I never know what to expect,” says Ben. He lets his lip curl ineptly. “Just don’t look at me while I sing, okay? I would prefer not to be perceived while I'm wailing like a donkey.”
“Alright, alright,” she relents.
(title from 'i hear a symphony' by cody fry)
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That relief is short lived though, and immediately destroyed when he raises his phone, showing her a certain picture of cue cards pinned onto a board. “Did you really make a pros and cons list to decide between Paxton and I?”
Devi groans. “Oh no.”
He bursts into laughter at her satisfying glare of embarrassment. “Paxton would be so flattered. Body 100. Face 100. Probably good at sex—”
“Please, those are great pros. Your competition is so much better than you,” remarks Devi, taking a huge scoop of ice cream. She silently hopes it’ll make him regret his teasing.
Ben doesn’t seem to care about the unfair loss of ice cream. “Hairy forearms under cons though? You’re lying to yourself, David. You love these.”
Devi pretends to seem indifferent. “The truth hurts, Gross. Your forearms are no match for mine.”
(title from 'willow' by taylor swift)