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June 2010. Ilya Rozanov is delayed after the CCM shoot. By the time he gets to the locker room, Shane Hollander is out of the showers and Ilya’s entire plan is ruined.
Only not quite fully ruined. Hollander invites him to dinner with his parents as a thank you for arranging the shoot and Ilya, in a burst of insanity, agrees. He hits it off with Yuna and David. They all exchange numbers. He and Hollander become friends.
At no point does Ilya stop wanting more from him.June 2016. Ilya Rozanov is a superstar. A Cup winner. An MVP. Women want him, men want to be him. He’s fucking miserable.
He’s in love with his best friend. He can’t deny it anymore. Only now Shane is dating a movie star and happier than Ilya’s ever seen him. Ilya can’t ruin that for him, can’t ruin their friendship by asking for what he knows Shane can’t give. No matter how much it kills him.A charity event in San Francisco. A catastrophic computer failure. A fateful decision to drive, not fly. Two days in a car, just the two of them. Alone. Together.
Ilya’s sick with excitement and with dread, because how can he keep his secrets with Shane so close for so long?What he doesn’t know is that Shane has secrets too.
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03 Jul 2026
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one of the most beautiful ways [to exercise choice] by Potrix
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
01 Apr 2026
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Ilya doesn’t remember slamming his fist down on the counter. Or even making the decision to do so. The thing he won’t ever be able to forget, however?
Is the quiet, almost inaudible intake of breath from behind him. The wide-eyed expression of pure, unadulterated fear on Dima’s face when Ilya, ripping the headphones off his head, whirls around to look at him. Dima’s defensive stance, his tense shoulders, his harsh breathing, the wariness with which he’s staring at Ilya as if Ilya’s—as if he’s everything Dima’s ever been afraid of in his life, made real and palpable right in front of him.
[5 times Ilya has to contend with the heartbreaking fact that his nephew is terrified of him, plus the 1 time he realizes that might not actually be true anymore.]
[Can be read as a standalone.]
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- Part 6 of heartache and safety
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30 Jun 2026
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who will love a little sparrow by weeb_grass
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
27 Jun 2026
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Spring of 2016: Ilya loses a father.
Summer of 2016: Ilya loses a brother.
Fall of 2016: Ilya gains a daughter, a lover, and a friend.
Or: another "what if Ilya gained custody of his niece" fic.
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29 Jun 2026
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Lily's Pilates class is joined by someone new.
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17 Jun 2026
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ay, recházame (oh, reject me) by vanillatunamelt for blankjournals
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
20 Apr 2026
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Shane
Last chance. Take your tank top back.Lily
no, it's a fucking gift
keep itShane
Fine.
I'll show you what I do with gifts from alphas like you.Lily
what the hell is that supposed to mean???
hollander
fuckShane doesn't get injured after Tampa, and Ilya breaks up with him to save both their hearts. (Un?)Fortunately for Ilya, Shane isn't letting him go without a fight.
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22 May 2026