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  1. Public Bookmark 77

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    Hollander, does, famously, take Rozanov apart

    And I made some artwork :)

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    This is an NSFW Hollanov art collection.
    New chapter = New artwork

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    08 Jul 2026

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  2. Rec *

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    Shane's heart learned Ilya's name and forgot how to beat for anything else.

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    08 Jul 2026

  3. Rec *

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    Shane is drunk, concussed, and hiding in a phone booth when he calls the only number he knows by heart.

    The man who answers is not Hayden Pike.

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    06 Jul 2026

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    a collection of less/not safe for work artworks ive done that would get me nuked in real time if i posted them on certain socials

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    05 Jul 2026

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    “What did you actually think?”

    He can’t help it. He looks at Ilya. Ilya only stares at him. “I say that now, in hindsight. Back then, I wasn’t thinking. Not really. It would come to me in waves, the anxiety, the fear. Most of the time,” he says. “I was just…”

    “Waiting for me to speak?” Ilya offers.

    Shane shakes his head, “I was trying to make it to tomorrow with you alive.”

    or,
    Ilya and Shane work to find themselves, and each other, again after Ilya's suicide attempt.

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    05 Jul 2026

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    Ilya and Shane are broke roommates, until Ilya discovers streaming and starts making bank jerking off for the viewers
    Naturally, he offers his good friend Shane a chance at making money the same way
    And if they touch each other a little it’s only because of the tips, not because they are into each other

    ~~~~~~

    Shane and Ilya are both completely straight here
    #ISwearrr

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    04 Jul 2026

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  7. Rec *

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    "He saw the corners of Ilya's lips curve up ever so slightly in that infuriating, tiny hint of a smile. “Goodbye, Shane Hollander.”

    Shane could only ogle as Ilya walked away. Fuck. His ass was fat. This was so bad.

    Shane Hollander, star athlete, D1 hockey team captain, campus heartthrob, was being completely undone by a brooding Slavic art major that he would probably crawl on his fucking knees and bark for."

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    Shane is ready for another boring semester where he has to pretend like he cares about anything other than hockey. Until he sits down next to a mysterious Russian art student who also happens to be the hottest guy Shane has ever seen.

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    04 Jul 2026

  8. Public Bookmark 39

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    A collection of my fanart for Heated Rivalry. This includes fanart for fanfics as well. Not all will be explicit. Tags will be updated as related content is added.
    Please do not share these images anywhere outside of an adult community without proper filtering.

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    04 Jul 2026

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  9. Rec *

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    04 Jul 2026

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  10. Rec *

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    “Who are you talking to?” Sveta is looking with a raised eyebrow, at Ilya’s delighted face.

    “Ah, I am talking to my catfish.”

    “What do you mean, your catfish?” Ilya angles the phone so Sveta can see the shirtless picture on the screen.

    “This guy is pretending to be Shane Hollander on Grindr. It’s pretty funny. He’s cropped the face out, but he’s using pictures from the billboard next to my apartment.”

    Or: Ilya Rozanov is sure he's being catfished- why would the real Shane Hollander be on Grindr, talking to random university of Ottawa students? But the more he talks to Wayne, the more he starts to like him, and the more he wishes Wayne would just come clean so they can finally be together.

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    25 Jun 2026

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    Shane has been hiding his designation for his entire NHL career. It's been hard, but its been worth it.

    Then a single moment makes everything come tumbling down.

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    19 Jun 2026

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  12. Rec *

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    Shane Hollander only goes to the café near the rink because his daughter loves the hot chocolate.

    The fact that Ilya Rozanov remembers Louise’s order, gives her free cookies, and looks suspiciously happy whenever they walk in is completely irrelevant.

    Louise, however, seems to think the barista would fit perfectly into their little family.

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    18 Jun 2026

  13. Rec *

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    In 2008, Shane Hollander lost to Ilya Rozanov. Fresh-faced, hungry. Like he’d been living off victory points that were scraps compared to the real thing, compared to beating Rozanov, the first man in the world to make him feel second-best. Back then, he’d thought that was the only thing he felt, too. That the electric pulse jostling between them in the gym some time later was a trick of the mind. It was like seeing sky above for the first time. See you at the draft. Life in that paper body.

    or: Ilya comes back. This is the crux of it.

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    18 Jun 2026

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    the long game of gloom and despair

  14. Rec *

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    Ilya shrugged, but he looked sheepish as he rubbed the back of his neck with his thick fingers. “I thought you have—the scars?”

    “Well…” Shane smiled, “Hockey kept me in shape enough that I didn’t really have to work hard to get rid of my—uh…”

    Ilya raised a cocky brow, the universe now perfectly balanced again as Shane faltered and Ilya caught his footing.

    “What, you are afraid to say the word boobs, Hollander? No wonder you are gay man.”

    Shane Hollander is a trans man, and these are snippets from his life.

    From playing pretend in elementary school, to getting his first binder, to navigating his relationship with Ilya- it's all documented here.

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    17 Jun 2026

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  15. Rec *

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    What if Shane never got injured?
    What if Ilya decided to finally take a step back?
    What if the 5th best player of MLH was suddenly spotted hanging out hockey's golden boy Shane Hollander?
    What if Ilya had a few feelings about it?

    —×—

    Ilya is aware of Sebastian Hawthorne like he's aware of all the top 10 players of the league. Though he knows no one can come close to him and Hollander, he still likes to keep an eye out for them.

    Hawthorne, or as his teammates call him, Hawk, joined the Toronto Guardians during his Rookie season and has been there for the past six seasons. He's the assistant captain.

    “It's like he’s already seen the play unfold five seconds ahead,” Shane had once complained to Ilya over the phone after a particularly nasty loss against the Guardians some seasons back. Ilya then got the impression that Shane didn't like him either.

    So imagine his surprise when the picture of Hollander and Hawk shows up on his feed: laughing and practically having the time of their lives while leaving a high-end bakery.

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    07 Jun 2026

  16. Rec *

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    It was during this hysterical lament that Ilya realized what was wrong, what was off. The initial softness, the confusion, the vulnerability. It was out of character — Shane was so often in control of himself, of what he said, even when emotions were high . . . with one exception.

    If Ilya fucked him particularly . . . intensely, if he got Shane feeling a lot, he'd get soft afterwards. Quiet, a little ditzy, emotional. The first time it'd happened — or the first time he'd recognized it — was years ago in Las Vegas after winning MVP. He remembered the look on Hollander's face when he left — wide and teary-eyed, lip trembling, tripping over himself.

    Since then, with a little trial and error, Ilya had learned how to manage it. Had grown to love it. If he treated him right, he could buff away all of Shane's sharp edges and be left with the soft, gooey inside. Floating and tethering himself to Ilya.

    Now, Shane was out there, floating, without anyone to tether himself to. Falling. And suddenly Ilya was panicking, too.

    or: shane, trying to get over rozanov, has sex with someone else and and falls into subdrop. scared and confused, he calls ilya.

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    06 Jun 2026

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  17. Rec *

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    Shane's life has always been about hockey. No back-up plans, no other interests.
    Until tragedy strikes and an injury ends his career before it can even begin.

    But it's from that tragedy that a new path blossoms in front of him. He gets back on his feet, he finds a boyfriend and life seems good enough.
    It will take a tattoo artist from the new shop next to his to show him that good is definitely not enough anymore.

    or: The Flower Shop x Tattoo Parlor AU that has been marinating in my head for a while.

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    05 Jun 2026

  18. This has been deleted, sorry!

    03 Jun 2026

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  19. Public Bookmark 40

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    03 Jun 2026

  20. Rec *

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    “What do you want me to say, exactly?” Shane asked, his voice very different from the one they’d usually get for interviews. Less polite and less guarded. “Do you want me to stand here and tell you details of my sex life?”

    Someone chuckled awkwardly and when no one said anything, Shane threw his arms out to the side just as Harris made his way towards the disaster.

    Shane looked the reporter straight in the eyes. “Sure! My sex life is fantastic. My husband is hot. Ten out of ten. Any more questions?”

    Or the one time Shane Hollander was the problem

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    30 May 2026

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