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    Shane Hollander hated changes. Changes brought him anxiety and panic attacks. Coming out to his parents like this changed everything.

    This is a story set at the cottage after Shane and Ilya had their dinner with Shane's parents and it looks into Shane's anxiety caused by his dad walking in on them.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is in love, closeted, catastrophically lonely, and apparently incapable of referring to Shane Hollander in present tense.

    The Centaurs come to a- given the circumstances- reasonable conclusion.

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    Five times the Centaurs thought Ilya Rozanov was mourning his dead wife, and the one time they discovered his wife was actually Shane Hollander.
    Shane, for the record, is alive and really confused.

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    24 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 14

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    “How would you feel if I started the carnivore diet?”

    Shane paused from drying the cutlery at the sink. Placing the tea towel down, he faced his fiance with narrowed eyes. He was sitting on a stool across the kitchen island, watching Instagram reels loud as hell.

    “What?”

    Shrugging, Ilya turned around his phone showing some influencer eating a stick of butter.

    “Like… I just eat steak, eggs, butter-”

    “I would kill you,” Shane said plainly.

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    hollanov version of my outsider POV!

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    20 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 66

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    Shane Hollander drunk dials his fiancé whose phone was commandeered by the Ottawa Centaurs the second they saw "Jane" flash across the screen.
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    For all he teases Shane about being the most boring man on the planet, it's really what Ilya loves most about him. With Shane, there is a certain security in the boring-ness of it all. Ilya knows that before his game, Shane put his right sock on before his left and drank his disgusting green smoothie, and Ilya knows that, win or lose, he will end up curled up in his hotel bed going over game footage, analyzing every move he made. He also knows that through all of this, the weight of a ring will sit on a chain around his neck. While its a seemingly newer addition to the boring routine, its a reminder of Ilya's favorite constant in Shane's life; the fact that through every step in his day for the past 11 years he has loved Ilya Rozanov.

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    15 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 7

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    Self-harm isn't always associated with depression; sometimes it's just a bad habit.

    Shane Hollander's journey through self-harm.

     

    Note: Chapter 2 is an extension of Chapter 1. Chapter 1 is a finished and finalized storyline.

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    13 Jun 2026