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  1. Public Bookmark 18

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    “You’re so lovely like this,” Guanheng groans into his ear. “So pretty.” He is the only person in this town who thinks Dejun is pretty.

    “You’re annoying,” Dejun tells him, but his eyelids flutter closed as Guanheng spreads his legs and gets him dripping wet. “I hate you.”

    “I love you,” Guanheng tells him. “I love you.”

    It is a week later when Dejun comes home in the early morning to his parents dead in their bed. It is a week later when the collectors come for him and he has not even a penny to his name. It is a week later when he stands on Guanheng’s doorstep and tells him: I have nothing, I can’t give you anything, I am nothing.

    It is Guanheng who draws him close. Who says, I love you, I love you, I will keep you, you don’t have to give me anything… tell me you love me, Jun, that’s enough… you are enough, you are enough… just tell me you love me and I’m yours…

    In the dream Dejun doesn’t tell anyone about, he is allowed to say it back.

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    Dejun; the outlaw. Guanheng; the bartender. Thirteen years between them. All the times Guanheng cares for him and the one time Dejun can take care of him right back.

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    11 Feb 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 29

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    3 times Pran calls Pat by something other than his name after becoming boyfriends and the one time Pat does it.

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    18 Feb 2024

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    “I was just thinking,” Pat says, “I could set my sexy picture as your phone wallpaper before you find yourself missing me too badly.”

    “Tough luck, friend,” Pran replies, but it’s no fun teasing Pat when the look in his eyes turns genuinely dejected, “because it’s set to you already.”

    “Since when?”

    “Last night.”

    “Before or after I had the pleasure of ejaculating into your eye socket?”

    “After.”

    “Wow,” Pat says, “you must really love me then.”

    Pran shrugs. “And what if I do?”

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    After graduation, Pran takes Pat back to the seaside.

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    18 Nov 2023

  4. Public Bookmark 33

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    With Pat’s propensity to think on his feet and be spontaneous with most things, Pran had imagined their potential first kiss while pretending to date to be like this: in public, in front of their friends, a situation that required them to lock lips in a true fake out fashion.

    What Pran doesn't expect is how simple this kiss could be with just the two of them at breakfast, starting with Pat sliding behind him, a palm on his waist and his breath warm on Pran's neck before saying, “Good morning, boyfriend.”

    Or: Pat is awfully honest, but that's okay, because it works in Pran's favor.

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    20 Oct 2023

  5. Public Bookmark 53

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    ‘Pat? Is this still you?’ the message says.

    Pat, with fingers that inexplicably tremble, types a reply on his phone: ‘still me’.

    Ten years after they break up and nine years after abandoning his acting career at its very peak, Pat receives a message from Pran in an effort to reconnect. They do, and it goes well enough that Pran finds himself on a plane to visit Pat in his new life in a remote corner of the world.

    In a small log cabin in the middle of a forest, Pat and Pran tries to mend in ten days what ten years had ruined.

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    03 Oct 2023