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    While trying to write to his friend studying abroad in Moscow, Shane Hollander accidentally reaches Ilya Rozanov.

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    28 Apr 2026

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    Sidney hated to admit it to himself, but now it was as much part of his daily routine as his Peanut Butter and Jelly sandwich. The cold metal in his hand was his version of a comfort blanket.

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    16 Apr 2026

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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    09 Apr 2026

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    Ilya doesn’t even realize when Arthur slips from his thoughts. There’s no sharp turn, no clear moment where the article stops being about a little boy who loves reptiles and starts being about the man lying beside him in bed. It just… happens. The way his mind always seems to find Shane eventually, like water finding its lowest point.

    a character study on shane’s undiagnosed autism

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    24 Mar 2026

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    “How did you know that Novikov needed tape earlier?” Ilya asked as he came back up. “He did not say anything himself, yes? Or you would not have texted me about it.”

    I heard him say it in Russian to himself,” Shane replied with a grin, switching to Russian.

    Ilya’s face lit up like a Christmas tree. “You did? And you understood him?

    Yes! I was so happy that I understood what he said. Of course, I had to tell you because nobody knows I can speak Russian.

    Yes, it would be suspicious.

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    A new Russian player, Dimitri Novikov, is drafted onto the Ottawa Centaurs in the same season that Shane Hollander is unceremoniously traded from the Montreal Voyageurs. His reasons for leaving Montreal are unclear, and the reasons he chose Ottawa are even less so. However, as Dimitri begins to suspect that Shane secretly knows Russian, his curiosity ends up getting him wrapped up in a relationship he didn’t even know existed. But perhaps a little turbulence is what Shane and Ilya needed to realize their relationship is strong enough to weather anything that comes their way.

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    23 Feb 2026