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    Shane and Jackie die. Ilya and Hayden become friends.

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    1988: Uther Pendragon moves to the little town of Ealdor with his little boy, Arthur, and his wife, Ygraine du Bois.

    1999: Arthur Pendragon is found wandering the streets calling out for his friend, Merlin. He turns in his father, Uther Pendragon, and claims that Uther killed Merlin.

    2009: The zombie apocalypse. Merlin's come back, and nothing is the same.

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    Shane is in the front pew. His face is—Ilya does not have words for what Shane's face is doing. He has seen Shane angry and afraid and exhausted and soft and undone. He has never seen this: living at the very bottom of a person, surfacing only when every single thing above it has given way.

    This is what it looks like when Shane has nothing left to manage.

    Ilya reaches for him.

    His hand passes through air.

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    Or: Ilya Rozanov turns the same age his mother was when she died. Featuring strange dreams, tarot readings, and a woman with her back to him who keeps appearing where she shouldn’t.

    A man who spent twenty years preparing to die, and one husband who refuses to let him.

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    14 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 6

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    Ilya was already half-asleep when his mother came into his room, sat on the edge of his bed and buried her face in his hair. Her gold cross touched his cheek.

    “Will you ever forgive me, Ilyusha?” she asked.

    The next day, she vanished, leaving nothing behind. Everyone assumed she was dead.

    Years later, Ilya sees her again. In Ottawa, of all places.

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    14 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 85

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    In a world where Shane doesn't get hurt after the All Stars game, Ilya manages to end things. He knows anything real between them is impossible, and anything less than real is just agonizing torture.

    Years later, Ilya wakes up in a world he doesn't belong.

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    13 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 1

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    A lesser creature could never have borne it: the waiting.

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    13 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 79

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    Shane Hollander wakes up in the hospital with some gaps in his memory. They're not Ilya Rozanov shaped. In fact, Ilya Rozanov is the only thing he does remember.

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    12 Jun 2026