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Buck realizes that he isn't in a fight with someone, he is not in anyones debt. He is free. Nobody needs him anymore. he is free to go. He needs to write 7 Letters and then he can finally go.
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Buck's tired of feeling this way. The way he feels everyday. He leaves the grocery store after running into the 118. He leaves feeling more worse than he ever has. He gets in his car and drives.
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25 Jun 2026
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Buck and Eddie's conversation in 03x06 'Monsters' ends differently, with Eddie telling Buck he can't fix anything. Buck takes this hard and after already feeling like he was drowning, tries to take his own life. Luckily, Athena arrives in time to save Buck, and slowly pieces start to fall together again. However, Eddie doesn't seem to want to move on.
This is my first fic and I've been working on it for a while!
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24 Jun 2026
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Buck calls Eddie. Listens into the silence. There's no answer, and he shouldn't feel so crushed, but he does. The thought of letting go of his arm and letting the blood drain from the wound is appealing. Buck almost gives in to it.
"Buck?" But-- Eddie answers him. He really does. Buck immediately forgets what he was thinking. He wants to say, "I miss you, Eddie," or "Do you want to talk for a while before I bleed to death in a godforsaken place?" His eyes get wet because whatever he says - Eddie will probably drop it as soon as he hears it. He uses a forbidden technique.
"Hey," every inch of his body tenses. He's afraid he's missing a chance. "Can you give me Chris? A couple minutes. Please"
Eddie doesn't say anything, and Buck feels himself breaking from the non-physical pain. Of course Eddie won't give him Chris. Of course he'll just drop it and go on doing what he was doing before. Of course, because they don't need him anymore and Eddie hates Buck. The shattered hope and heart feel like a lonely alley, a blunt knife in his body, and a hard wall behind him. And the silence. The silent confirmation that no one needs Buck.
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Buck's hurt and the calls Eddie. Eddie's there to help (always)Bookmarked by appolinaria_v
24 Jun 2026
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The flu, an old letter and a missed shift culminate into an unfortunate misunderstanding between Buck and the 118. Things go downhill from there.
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Buck struggles with undiagnosed bipolar which culminates into a manic episode. He and his chosen family struggle to cope with the aftermath. Timeline is vague but set around season 5.
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24 Jun 2026