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Operation Get Roz a SAP by dntat for Lanabean
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
18 Apr 2026
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Bood: And what would this person need to get Roz to settle down?
Roz: must be most beautiful person you have ever seen
Roz: very funny but does not know they are funny
Roz: and suck dick like their life depends on itOr: The Centaurs know that Roz is sad, and probably a little lonely. So they do their best to set him up with someone who matches his specific list of requirements. What they don't know is that their captain has already found that person.
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- Part 1 of Centaurs Shenanigans
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- English
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21 Jul 2026
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he turns off the big light by gurlsrool
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
31 Mar 2026
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Ilya knows firsthand that the world isn’t comfortable. It’s loud, bright, demanding, a harsh place in direct opposition to everything he’s recently learned about autism.
Is it so wrong that he wants Shane to feel safe here? To carve out a space where, even if only for a few hours, he doesn’t have to grin and bear anything? He can just be?
Or: Ilya Rozanov has a lot of good ideas. Telling his fuck buddy that he should consider getting an autism diagnosis isn’t one of them.
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- English
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- 9,094
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- 1/1
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21 Jul 2026
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To my dearest by mochababy
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Jun 2026
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“Ilya–” Shane breathed, high and wheezy. “You can’t– You can’t leave me! Please, God, please, don’t take him. Please, please, I can’t lose– I can’t–”
A blaring alarm yanked him out of his panic like a fish out of water. He shot upright, flailing his limbs that were caught in something soft. Blurred splashes of colour steadily painted a picture of a bedroom he’d recognise anywhere. It was brighter now, light pouring in through partially shut curtains. His breath was heavy and he struggled making sense of how the hell he’d ended up in bed when just a moment ago, Ilya had–
“Hollander.” Ilya slurred, narrowing his eyes at him. “Turn that thing off.”
Or, Shane is stuck in a time loop that resets whenever his fiancé dies.
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- Part 1 of a letter to my only (safe grounds)
- Language:
- English
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- 90,957
- Chapters:
- 14/14
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- 944
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01 Jul 2026
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Nobody moves for a moment as Shane stares the woman down, and he’s seconds away from sawing the damn thing off himself, when the woman nods to the men surrounding the hybrid. And then there’s a flurry of movement, a clicking sound and then the men stand back to reveal Ilya in his bare faced glory, unobstructed by the muzzle.
Shane takes him in, inhaling softly at the sharp cheekbones, the moles dusted over his face, the pillowy lips that are set in a firm, displeased line. Shane wonders how big his fangs are. If he was a fighter, they must have been sharpened regularly.
Shane doesn’t want to think about the damage this wall of a hybrid had inflicted on others, the damage he could inflict on Shane. The hybrid stares at him, expression hard to determine but the intensity of it has Shane holding back a shiver. He’s staring at Shane like he can see every thought inside of him, calculating. As if they were on opposing sides of a ring, ready for the bell to chime and for Ilya to go in for the kill.
Shane gets roped into fostering a troublesome hybrid with a bad track record. Except what begins as a cordial arrangement turns into something much more complicated.
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- English
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28 Jun 2026
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Shane’s heart drops into his stomach. “Ilya,” he breathes. His vision goes blurry, throat tight. He tries to swallow it down and focus, shove his swirling thoughts into a neat little box, but it’s impossible. He feels—he might throw up, actually. “Are you seriously telling me you tried to fucking kill yourself?”
“Yes,” Ilya agrees blandly, “It did not work.”
Ilya calls Shane from the hospital. Shane handles it very normally.
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- English
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- 5,118
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- 1/1
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17 Jun 2026
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it's all fun and games until someone weaponizes their trauma with therapy-speak by thegreenempty
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
04 Mar 2026
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“Shane says you are smart. You went to university before you were drafted, yes?” Rozanov’s eyes were twinkling again. He wasn’t Shane’s boyfriend right now, he was the Russian Menace.
“Yeah, I mean, I did two years. You didn’t go to college, did you?”
“No, so I have to do my own readings, my own studies. You must have done philosophy courses?”
Was Rozanov mining for chirping material? What the fuck? “I, no I took like…a writing seminar. And um, a civics course. Plus, like, math.”
Rozanov blinked at him, again. “Math.”
“Yeah, math.”
“Oh. So you are a mathematician? You study calculus? Linear algebra? Discrete mathematics?”
What in the fuck is discrete mathematics? “I dunno, no. It was like, y equals mxb squared, or whatever. You know, algebra.”
“Algebra.” Rozanov’s eyebrows shot up his face. “Like for a child? American university gives you primary school lessons?”
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Hayden Pike confronts Rozanov about his relationship with Shane. It doesn't quite go as he expected.
Series
- Part 2 of it's all fun and games
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 10,400
- Chapters:
- 2/2
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- 2
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- 804
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10 Jun 2026
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read my mind by ileftmyheartinnarnia
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
24 May 2026
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When Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollanders’ eyes meet for the first time in Saskatchewan, they realize they can hear each others’ thoughts. Unfortunately they are both still deeply emotionally repressed and think in different languages, so the events of Heated Rivalry ensue anyway.
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- Part 1 of read my mind
- Language:
- English
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- 95,634
- Chapters:
- 13/13
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25 May 2026
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you know this moment, don’t you? (time is strangely calm now) by barnes_romzanov
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 Dec 2025
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It’s dark, and Ilya’s not quite sure where he is.
His entire body is numb. His shoes are soaking wet from trudging lazily through the snow. His nose is running, and his lips are chapped.
Selfishly, he wishes Shane would fuss over him now. Pull him close, whisper “I forgive you” even though he shouldn’t, because Ilya would never change, because something inside him- in his family line, in his soul- was broken.
Ilya wondered how long ago it had clicked- when Shane had realized that Ilya wormed his way into this country and tricked the Hollanders into caring for him, then returned the favor by botching their language and leaving a trail of mess in his wake. He still can't help but wonder if that will be part of his punishment- being doomed to miss him in death, too.
or: Ilya’s mostly been able to cope with the fact that he’ll never be able to articulate himself fully in this country- but he’s also never been good at talking about feelings in the first place.
"I'm tired" is the best he's got. It definitely doesn't capture what's going on in his head, and Shane can't read minds.
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- Part 1 of Merry Christmas, Please Don't Call
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- English
- Words:
- 15,440
- Chapters:
- 1/1
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- 380
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- 5,252
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07 May 2026
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If it wasn't for that meddling kid by ARustySpork for TastyTeeth
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 May 2026
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“I feel really good about this kid, I think he could be great on your wing, he just needs some help settling in. Someone to show him the ropes.”
“Yes.”
The line went silent for a moment. Ilya wasn’t really sure why his coach felt the need to run this by him.
“Rozanov,” his coach said at last. “I want him to live with you.”
Ilya blinked, then nearly shouted into the phone. “What?”
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or, Ilya stays in Boston, gets a rookie, and tries to figure out how to make a secret long distance relationship work while there's a Russian teenager in his house
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- Part 1 of If it wasn't for that meddling kid
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- English
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- 138,947
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- 20/20
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- 5,893
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25 Apr 2026
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my best friend's new best friend by LiarsandThieves22
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
13 Mar 2026
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Roz couldn’t take three hours off when he was in Boston to see Cliff, but somehow managed to kick off a whole ass friendship with his worst enemy when the guy lived two hours away? Make that make sense! As far as Cliff knew, Hollander didn’t even like any of the things that Roz liked – partying or clubbing or drinking. What did Hollander have that Cliff didn’t? Besides a second Cup? And several MVP awards? And multiple broken records?
Oh god. Had Roz picked Hollander as his new best friend because he was better than Cliff at hockey?
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Cliff is very proud to be Ilya Rozanov's best friend (or at least his best male friend). But then Ilya moves to Ottawa, dodges Cliff's attempts to hang out and, oh yeah, suddenly announces a close friendship with a guy he's hated for most of a decade. This would be much simpler to deal with if Cliff had any idea how to talk to Roz about feelings. Or how to talk about feelings at all.
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- English
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- 11,785
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- 1/1
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23 Apr 2026
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Loose Lips (or, Why Shane Hollander Shouldn't Drink Vodka) by martha_sighs
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
30 Mar 2026
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“Oh, just that Ilya and I have been fucking for, like, a decade.” Shane said, nonplussed.
JJ’s jaw dropped. Hayden let out a weird, choking sound. Troy started laughing, but it also sounded like he was crying. Wyatt and Cliff looked at each other, huge smiles taking over their faces.
“He’s who I had sex with this morning,” Shane continued, oblivious to the table’s reactions. “Twice.” He added cheerfully.
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It was supposed to be a casual night out with friends - until, JJ and Hayden show up, with Shane (his secret boyfriend).
Shane is panicking, of course, so Ilya pours him some vodka, as an emergency option. This turns out to be a mistake. Lips get loose, and secrets are revealed.
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- Part 1 of Loose Lips
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- English
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- 5,291
- Chapters:
- 1/1
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- 398
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23 Apr 2026
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of a certain age by gurlsrool
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
20 Mar 2026
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“Wait, I could totally see that,” Connors says. “She wears reading glasses and he’s, like, obsessed with them. Sometimes on the road, he calls her from the bathroom and I hear him begging her to put them on.”
“The glasses! I heard that too.” Shit, it must be a fetish, right? She doesn’t just happen to be old. Rozy likes that she’s old.
Or: Cliff figures out why Ilya’s keeping his Montreal girl a secret. She’s not a girl at all...she's an elderly woman. Or maybe an elderly man?
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- English
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- 1/1
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22 Apr 2026
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Rozanov made a dismissive noise. “No, no, I will pick you up. Send me your address.”
“I’m not giving you my home address.”
“Why not!”
“Because you’ll probably post it on social media to psych me out before our next game.”
That made Rozanov laugh. “It is good idea,” he said. Stopped laughing. Started again. Blew out a breath like he had to get himself together. “I might do this to you,” he allowed, “but you have nice boyfriend living with you now. I would not do this to him. You are safe.”
In which Ilya Rozanov adopts himself into Scott and Kip's household and refuses to leave. Kip finds this very sweet. Scott is going to kill him.
- Language:
- English
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- 32,878
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- 9/9
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- 2,543
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- 13,538
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- 128,314
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22 Apr 2026
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"Sveta," he says, before she can greet him. "I think I'm about to do something very stupid."
"You're always doing something stupid," she laughs, her voice tinny over the speakerphone. "What is it this time?"
"I am in a staring contest with a bottle of pills," Ilya says. "And I think the pills might win."
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Or: An alternate take on Ilya's mental health after moving to Ottawa, featuring the reality of long distance relationships, Ilya learning to captain a new team, and a series of game tapes made by Ilya's dead father.
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- Part 10 of my anonymous heated rivalry fic
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 14,171
- Chapters:
- 1/1
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- 1
- Comments:
- 349
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- 7,554
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- 1,987
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- 62,097
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13 Apr 2026
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The Five Year Farewell by Ilya_Was_Here
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
21 Jan 2026
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At age 46, Ilya Rozanov, retired former Captain and star forward of the Ottawa Centaurs, six time Stanley Cup Winner, and widely regarded as one of the most talented hockey players of all time, is diagnosed with dementia.
Five years later, the legacy he leaves behind is beautiful.
- Language:
- English
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- 27,626
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- 1/1
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12 Apr 2026
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Ilya Rozanov does not come pre-installed with good communication or healthy coping skills. Is he going to seek out help on his own? Hell no! But when a family member kills himself, fellow Boston Raider and friend Cliff Marleau decides that Ilya is going to therapy come hell or high water. And Ilya... well, Ilya is just playing along to keep the peace. Right? He doesn't need therapy. But if it helps his friend be less worried, so be it.
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What if Ilya came into the tuna meltdown with slightly upgraded social skills and no one actually ran away before they had a conversation?
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- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 28,232
- Chapters:
- 5/5
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- 1,190
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- 8,908
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- 2,447
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- 84,140
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10 Apr 2026
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Hand in Hand, Let's Play with the Fire by PastyPirate
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
22 Feb 2026
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“So we thought it’d be cute if we did your legal name.”
The realization hits Shane only a split second before Harris lifts a Jersey. Same ugly Centaurs Pride Logo, Same 24, same A.
HOLLANDER-ROZANOV is blazoned across the back, squeezed in to fit the 20 inches allotment.
Shane and Ilya have their first Centaurs Pride Night as a married couple. They're definitely not weird about it. (Bood disagrees)
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- Part 3 of On The Road Again
- Part 2 of Legacy
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 11,395
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- 1/1
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- 205
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- 3,616
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- 534
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- 32,256
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07 Apr 2026
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a sound is still a sound around no one by dykeries
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
12 Feb 2026
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Shane lifts one eyelid again to look at Rozanov. His eyes are red-rimmed. Like he’s been crying. “Why…why aren’t you in Boston?”
Rozanov’s brow furrows. “Why would I be in Boston?”
“You, you’re captain. Raiders. Boston.”
The room is silent except for the beeping of monitors.
In 2023, Shane takes a bad hit on the ice. When he wakes up, the last thing he remembers is a tuna melt.
There’s a lot to get used to.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 43,230
- Chapters:
- 9/9
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- 3,474
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- 34,486
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- 8,920
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06 Apr 2026
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The Game Plan by FestiveFerret, pouringinsheets
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
24 Dec 2022
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Shane Hollander is the number two overall NHL draft pick and a newly minted Montreal Voyageur. He’s also laser focused on his goals: being the best by beating the best. For him, this means a continued rivalry with number one draft pick—and new Ottawa Centaur—Ilya Rozanov. But when a problem with Rozanov’s immigration paperwork threatens his future in the NHL, what does that mean for Shane’s own career? He can’t risk finding out…so they get married. Just for immigration. A fast, practical, mutually beneficial solution.
No one will ever suspect, let alone find out, that the NHL’s greatest rivals are secretly married. And there’s certainly no risk of feelings getting involved. They have a game plan.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 64,024
- Chapters:
- 16/16
- Comments:
- 2,233
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- 32,665
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- 10,624
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- 729,070
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04 Apr 2026
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courage [it couldn't come at a worse time] by veilofimagination
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
23 Feb 2026
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"Why are you not scared?"
"I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."
"Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.
"Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.
Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."
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Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 81,933
- Chapters:
- 9/9
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- 3
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- 4,712
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- 23,123
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Bookmarked by Thinknotnegative
04 Apr 2026