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  1. Public Bookmark 34

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    It’s wrong, Baelor thought, alone in his study, poring over treaties and petitions. It’s the only thing that feels right, the dragon replied, hanging on his back, watching from his shoulder as he stood deep in the Kingswood, listening to Maekar whistle through his teeth to recall his hawk, arm held to the wind.
    Knowing is enough, he had told himself, half aware of the lie. Having is for fools. Not kings.

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    23 May 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 78

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    Ashford has a song to sing tonight, and Maekar, with a sprained hand and his pride in pieces, is not the man it is singing for. Baelor comes to find him.

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    18 May 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 68

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    "Maekar thought, sometimes, that he would have been happier to die fighting alongside his brother during the Rebellion than returning home to live a life without him. At least then, they would have been burned together."

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    Post-Ashford. Baelor is recuperating at Summerhall. Feelings are surfacing that Maekar has long been trying to bury.

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    12 May 2026

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    "Overruling the will of the Gods rarely comes without consequences,” his father warned him.

    But Maekar does not belong to the Gods, Baelor thought savagely. Maekar belongs to me.

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    Maekar, not Baelor, is greviously wounded at Ashford. To prevent him from dying, Baelor imposes a bond onto his brother. For a while, Maekar hates him for it.

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    05 May 2026

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    "Ilya had loved him through his worst moments. Ilya had helped him find a therapist when he’d collapsed on the floor of their hotel bathroom after losing a particularly brutal game, scratching at his chest. Ilya had held him, even when Shane yelled at him because there was panic crawling under his skin and he felt as though it might claw its way out. Ilya had told him it was okay; that it didn’t make him a bad player to resent the spotlight sometimes, that it didn’t make him a bad teammate to hate the team when they were too loud and too drunk and too physical, that it didn’t make him a bad person to need space to breathe. Ilya saved him.

    And look what you give him in return. You’re a shitty husband, Shane Hollander.

    You don’t deserve his last name."

     

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    content warnings: discussion of mental health, depiction of a panic attack, depiction of invasive medical procedure, depiction of violence (generally non-graphic), use of hate speech, depiction of a hate crime

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    30 Apr 2026