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  1. Public Bookmark 22

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    Luca grew up in foster care, abandoned at birth and forced to grow up too fast. Struggling with depression and searching for love in all the wrong places, he never truly understood what family meant, until he joined the Ottawa Centaurs.

    ⚠️‼️ Trigger warnings for this series ‼️⚠️
    • Self-Harm
    • Grooming
    • Major Depressive Disorder
    Please take care of yourself and do not read if it may cause harm.

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    15 Jun 2026

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    Cliff Marleau suddenly materialises at the table next to Ilya. The girl he was with before is still on the floor, now dancing with some other girls, probably the friends she came here with. “You’re actually here?” He asks, disbelieving.

    “Hello, Ilya. How are you, Ilya. It’s so nice to see you, Ilya.” Ilya responds, sarcasm dripping off every word, sliding his phone back into his pocket.

    “Yeah, yeah, sure. But like, you’re here.” Marleau dismisses him with a wave of his hand, leaning over him to reach for one of the beers. “Thought for sure you’d be with Jane, man.”

    In Ilya’s ear, Shane moans, all drawn out and breathy. “Fuck, Ilya.”

    Ilya smirks at Marleau. “Jane is busy at the moment, Marly.”

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    Ilya is out celebrating a win and he keeps coming up with reasons to stay later and later. The team finds this unusual cause he’d usually be racing to leave to meet up with Montreal Girl™.

    The team’s a little worried thinking Ilya somehow fumbled Montreal Girl™ and agreed to go along with his ideas.

    Meanwhile, Shane’s tied up on the bed with a vibrating buttplug that Ilya’s controlling on his phone.

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    09 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 92

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    Breath seizing, Ilya hovers over the call button and presses on Shane’s name. Fidgeting in front of his locker, he puts the phone to his ear and listens to the ringing. And ringing. And ringing.

    He really doesn’t like this at all.

    The call goes to voicemail. It cuts right through the bone, to his soft center, where it hurts most.

    Clenching his molars, Ilya hangs up and searches for Yuna’s name on his contact list. If any of the guys try to talk, he doesn’t hear them, doesn’t hear anything but the sound of his reeling thoughts.

    Pressing Yuna’s name, he brings the phone to his ear again. She picks up on the second ring.

    “Hey,” Yuna sounds surprised, “what’s up, hon?”

    Loosening his jaw, chest panging, Ilya asks, “hey, have you heard from Shane since game ended?”

    “Uh,” Yuna’s phone switches ears, “no, why?”

    Fuck.

    “Can you check on him?” Ilya tacks on a “please” that comes out desperate.

    A beat of concern passes. “Yeah,” Yuna says, drawing out the word, “can drive over right now. Has he not told you about,” her pause is purposeful, and Ilya knows what it means, “yet?”

    “No,” Ilya says, sick to his core, “I have bad feeling.”

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    05 Jun 2026

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    “I turned the other cheek every fucking time. I still got tossed on my ass the second I went too far over the line, and threatened by the commissioner, and told to kill myself on just about every social media platform because my nightmare that I’d get outed came true. And you, after everything you did, got to come out to a supportive team and fans, get a slap on the wrist, and have your happy fucking ending.”

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    An exploration of Shane Hollander's struggle against racism and homophobia in hockey, and how others come to understand it

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    04 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 71

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    Shane didn’t know how long he lay there, nestled into a ball of warmth, but when he stretched out, releasing a satisfied groan, and opened his eyes, he was met with the face of his husband.

    Startled, he sat up, hissing at the subtle pain from the plug. He looked toward the windows and noticed the sun had set. How long had he been asleep? Hesitantly, he looked back at Ilya.

    Ilya was seated on the ground, back against the door, watching. He raised an eyebrow. “This is new,” he said.

    Or, Shane secretly indulges in kitten play, and Ilya finds out.

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    29 May 2026