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    At twelve, Ilya Rozanov is sent to Canada to be trained by the best of the best.

    Shane Hollander is immediately mesmerized by the small boy with golden curls and broken English standing on his front doorstep.

    The friendship that develops between them blossoms into something more, until one day Ilya suddenly leaves without warning.

    They meet again in 2008 as strangers.

    A lot of things have changed.

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    Childhood AU about two boys too frightened to fall in love, but they do it nonetheless.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is not okay, and his walls are finally caving in.

    When a concerned teammate breaks the locker room code to text Shane about his captain's sudden collapse, Shane has to face the fact that he's two hours away in Montreal and helpless.

    In a panic, he asks his parents to check on Ilya's Ottawa apartment. But David and Yuna don't just find a messy room, they end up snooping through a drawer and discovering a hidden stack of handwritten letters.

    Reading the words Ilya could never say out loud, the Hollanders are forced to confront the horrific reality of his childhood and the crushing weight of the trauma he’s been carrying completely alone.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    In 2022, Ilya wakes up in a hospital in Ottawa with no memory of how he got there. He has hazy recollections of 2015, but he can't remember anything about the past seven years. He is shocked to learn he is now married to Shane Hollander, a fact that forces him to reconcile the decisions of his past self with the expectations he inherited from his father.
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    “I have this for you.” Hollander reached into his pocket, pulling out something gold, glinting under the cold hospital lighting. Holding his fist out, Hollander unfurled his hand, and the bottom fell out of Ilya’s heart, cratering through his stomach and spilling onto the floor.

    Shane Hollander stood before him, palm outstretched, cradling Irina Rozanova’s golden crucifix.

    Ilya flinched back, like he had been burned. Hollander’s warmth had moved too close, too fast, morphing into a threat and a violation. Hollander should not have that cross.

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    11 May 2026

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    Rozanov's so… professional. He's all grown up and not at all like the boy he once was. The polite smile never leaves his face even when he's looking at Shane.

    "You are very lucky," Rozanov tells him, "That your concussion is only mild. Seeing me is a not so good thing, okay?"

    Shane sighs through his nose, pouts. "Yeah… okay. But… I haven't seen you in a million years. Why are you a doctor now? You should be playing hockey—" He wiggles a little, grins sideways— "With me."

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    or, after wondering what happened to Ilya after the NHL draft, Shane discovers he's been in Montreal the whole time, and more than that, is an entire doctor instead of the hockey player he should've become.

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    26 May 2026

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    “Is just the new routine, okay?” Ilya pleaded, his voice breaking. “The pills were working and now there is more stress so I just need to get used to it and will be fixed, okay?”

    “How bad is it?”

    “Shane, please.”

    “Ilya, you promised no more secrets, no more hiding. How bad?”

    He covered his face in his palms, his elbows resting on his knees, and took in a shuddered breath. “...bad.”

     

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    After Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander get married, Ilya discovers that his depression won't magically disappear just because he finally has love and a real family. He gets to live and work with Shane full time now that they are on the Centaurs, but it's becomingly increasingly difficult to hide his deteriorating mental health from his husband. He's haunted by dreams of his mother and the fear that his depression and the hockey world's eruption about their relationship is ruining Shane's life. He has to swallow his pride and begin taking SSRIs, navigate the side effects of medicating his depression, and learn to accept love and support from those he loves most. Will the shame eat him alive or can he finally learn that he's worthy of love even at his lowest?

     

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