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  1. Public Bookmark 73

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    Shane is technically moving on.

    Objectively, he’s doing great. He has a stable relationship with James, an emotionally healthy businessman who texts him good morning every day, folds laundry correctly, and somehow makes stability feel both comforting and slightly alarming.

    The problem is that Shane has unfortunately never loved anything normally in his entire life, and definitely not Ilya, his ex-boyfriend, former secret, and current ongoing psychological condition.

    Shane and Ilya broke up after the Boxing Day fight and have both theoretically moved on. Now Ilya has Alice and Shane has James.

    Unfortunately, they are still completely in love with each other and handling that with the emotional maturity of two men who communicate primarily through hockey and prolonged eye contact.

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    Or basically Shane and Illya broke up after the Boxing Day fight and they "moved on" but not really because they physically and mentally cannot fully give themselves to other people.

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    12 Jun 2026

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    Emmy: When did you first hook up with him?
    Jane: 2010
    Caro: WHAT
    Megan: GIRL
    Tia: SEVEN YEARS??
    Megan: My jaw is borderline unhinged rn

    Or: In 2017, Shane finds a place where he can talk about his sex life...a group chat for girls who have slept with Ilya Rozanov

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    11 Jun 2026

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    “Is that it?” Ilya ask dryly at the exact same time.

    “Are you fucking kidding me, Rozanov?” Shane snaps, still feeling his heart in his ears. “Is that not bad enough for you?!”

    “Some people burn dolls, some people shoot them,” he has the gall to shrug. “I get threats like that all the time. No big deal.”

    “Yeah, well, I get them too, asshole, so I know this isn’t normal. It is a big deal.”

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    In the middle of a Montreal vs Boston game a threat against Ilya Rozanov becomes a security concern… and Shane Hollander kinda loses it. Just a little. In his defense, he’s pretty justified to be worried, okay? He is NOT overreacting.

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    11 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 91

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    What if Shane Hollander had a best friend named Brad, someone who gave him the courage to be himself and discover his sexuality much sooner?

    Would Hollanov still have to wait years to find each other? Would Shane have someone to show him what it meant to be gay, free, and supported in a world where that was still taboo, especially in hockey?

    Enter Bradley Summers: twenty-three, stocky, sharp-tongued, and stronger than anyone expects. He can bench 315 on a normal day and deadlift close to 600 when he’s angry, but on Grindr, guys still keep shoving him into the Bear/Cub box. Brad isn’t lean or cut. He looks like a rugby player, a bouncer, or maybe just a guy who likes beer and pizza a little too much.

    He knows he isn’t ugly. He has strong features, brown eyes, a full beard, and a jawline still visible under the extra weight. But he isn’t beautiful the way Shane Hollander is beautiful. And at twenty-three, compared to Shane’s eighteen, Brad feels ancient. His back hurts.

    This Brad could be Shane Hollander’s best friend, if he can stop being jealous of him first.

    Forget the other Brad from Twitter. It’s time to reclaim the name.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    Shane has loved Ilya for most of his life.

    He never planned to tell him.

    Then Ilya announces he’s getting married to Svetlana.

    Shane congratulates him, helps plan the wedding, stands beside him through cake tastings and venue tours and bachelor parties, and tries very hard not to let years of being in love with his best friend ruin everyone’s lives.

    It works.

    Until it doesn’t.

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    07 Jun 2026