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    This is the Accidental Warlord and His Pack series, reorganized in an order that makes a little more sense. It's not precisely chronological, since some of the backstories are set well before With a Conquering Air, but it should flow nicely.

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    22 Jun 2026

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    In progress - have read all but but the ficlets etc in the last 3 works of the series

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    “You…wanted to see me?” He asks, barely resisting a wince at how awkwardly it comes out. “After yesterday-” He stops, swallows.

    Hollander makes a face–one of Ilya’s favorite faces, in fact–that says he’s a little embarrassed about what he’s about to say. Ilya feels his chest go a little tighter, wondering if Hollander has had time to reconsider, if he’d even planned to reach out after the game, apologize for spooking and running, ask to come ba-

    “Did something…happen yesterday?” Hollander asks.

    Ilya stares at him.

    (the accident that takes shane out for the season happens the day after the tuna meltdown) (...it also takes his memory of the tuna meltdown with it)

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    16 May 2026

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    No serious hockey fan or sports commentator worth their salt would have considered record-breaking Boston superstar Ilya Rozanov to be Shane Hollander’s rival exactly, but sleeping with a man who had a specific offense-related vendetta against him and a wrist shot like a jet engine to back it up was probably ill-advised just the same.

    Or, Shane is a goalie. Ilya can’t score.

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    15 May 2026

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    “I turned the other cheek every fucking time. I still got tossed on my ass the second I went too far over the line, and threatened by the commissioner, and told to kill myself on just about every social media platform because my nightmare that I’d get outed came true. And you, after everything you did, got to come out to a supportive team and fans, get a slap on the wrist, and have your happy fucking ending.”

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    An exploration of Shane Hollander's struggle against racism and homophobia in hockey, and how others come to understand it

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    10 May 2026

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    Shane paused. Then, with deliberate slowness, he said, "Let me get this straight. You want to bottom... so you can chirp better?"

    "Well, it is not very straight, that is kind of point, yes?"

    Shane took a deep, long-suffering breath.

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    04 May 2026

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    “I’m sorry,” Shane whispers against Ilya’s hair. “I’m so, so sorry. I didn’t—”

    Shane cuts himself off with a faint stutter in his breath that Ilya feels in his own chest.

    “Please,” Ilya begs, but he isn’t sure what he is even asking for.

    He wants Shane to leave. He wants Shane to stay. He wants Shane to hold him and never let go.

    Ilya feels Shane’s fingers fist in his curls, holding tight as if Ilya could ever bring himself to pull away.

    Shane doesn’t know that Ilya could never, that he cannot fathom turning his back to take even one step away from him.

    All he can do is push Shane away, make him walk first, and pick up the pieces left behind.

     

    Or an alternative to that fight from the long game, but instead of Shane leaving as Ilya asks, they actually talk it out

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    29 Apr 2026

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    After the tuna melt meltdown, Shane meets Rose Landry, has several deeply inconvenient revelations, and decides to do the only sensible thing: win Ilya back with sincerity, logistics, and a frankly alarming amount of emotional effort.

    Ilya, meanwhile, mistakes every tender gesture for the kind prelude to an inevitable goodbye.

    Or: Shane is living in a romcom. Ilya is living in a Russian tragedy.

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    28 Apr 2026

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    Noctis is only five the first time he… changes.

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    25 Apr 2026

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    Vegas, MLH Awards, 2014: Ilya Rozanov wins MVP and decides to make Shane Hollander experience Vegas.

    Boston, November, 2016: Ilya calls Shane his husband while making him a tuna melt. Weeks later he's traded to New York.

    New York, March, 2017: Scott Hunter is forced to realize he is incredibly fond of Ilya Rozanov, and knowing what he does, Shane Hollander is on really fucking thin ice.

    or: the fic where Ilya and Shane get married in 2014 and Ilya is forced to care about Scott when he's traded to New York in 2016. So he noticed things. And he's there, on the ice, when Scott kisses Kip for the whole world to see.

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    21 Apr 2026

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    Against all odds and despite Boston taking home the cup, Shane wins MVP in Vegas.

    In Penthouse 1, this is what he asks for.

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    17 Apr 2026

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    Look at that. Another white guy with his little Asian sugar baby.

    Twenty-seven years, and not once has a stranger looked at David Hollander and his son and seen a father. Then Ilya Rozanov sits beside him in a restaurant and a server says, "Can I get anything else for you and your son?" David does not correct him.`

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    12 Apr 2026

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    He gnaws at the guilt of his own actions the way Anya does her chew toys for days after, Shane clearly picking up on something going on with him but also giving him space to work it over in his head until he’s ready to share.

    Right up until they’re out at team dinner and the two other smokers at the table excuse themselves for a smoke outside and Shane looks to him expectantly-

    -only to frown when Ilya stays where he is.

    (how and why ilya finally gives up smoking)

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    12 Apr 2026

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    “-can’t see each other again,” Ilya says, looking only at Shane’s hand, holding it so, so gently and stroking over Shane’s skin so, so softly. The soothing feeling of it makes it very hard to focus, but Shane tries very hard to do it anyway. “I tried-we tried, but this can’t happen again.” It takes a moment, but Shane finally manages to make sense of the words, and he lets out a soft noise of understanding.

    Ah. He’s apologizing that he won’t be able to see Shane in the hospital again before he leaves.

    “I understand,” he says, and he does. It was probably really hard for Ilya to get here even once, and it can’t be very long before his plane leaves. He’s sad, of course–they didn’t even get to spend time together, really–but it’s not like this will be the last chance they ever have to see each other. He gives Ilya his best attempt at a smile, and if it comes out a little sad, too, all Ilya does is reach out to stroke the backs of his fingers gently over his cheek.

    (ilya goes through with his plan to break up with shane in the hospital) (the problem? shane is too high to understand that he's being broken up with)

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    12 Apr 2026

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    Immediately following the events of Episode 6, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov return to the cottage and spend the next number of days talking, fucking, and sharing secrets about their relationship the other person doesn't know.

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    11 Apr 2026

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    So what is the plan now, Mr. Spreadsheet?

    “Honestly I was kind of hoping your consciousness would just click back into your body once I touched you.” Shane scratches the back of his head.

    You treat me like slap bracelet, Ilya complains.

    After a bad hit knocks Ilya’s consciousness out of his body — literally — Shane finds himself sheltering the soul of his decade-long situationship in the back of his head. Turns out it’s a lot harder to keep secrets when you share a body.

    (They definitely still try, though.)

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    08 Apr 2026

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    5 times Shane Hollander privately walks Ilya Rozanov like and dog, and 1 time he does it publicly.

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    06 Apr 2026

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    After Vegas, Shane begins to give up on Ilya and looks for a new way to feel wanted.

    Ilya, of course, finds out about this and locks in.

    A small dose of jealousy and a bigger dose of communication add up to change the trajectory of their affair from 2014 onward.

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    01 Apr 2026

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    “Why the fuck do you care what happens to Rozanov?”

    Shane doesn’t answer.

    He’s already running for the Raiders’ locker room.

    ⎯⎯⎯

    Or, Ilya has a panic attack in the Raiders' locker room after getting a phone call from his brother telling him about his father’s death.

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    31 Mar 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has spent ten years circling Shane Hollander. Ten years of hotel rooms and secret phone calls. Ten years of pretending he doesn't feel it, doesn't need it, doesn't wake up reaching for someone who's already gone. Ten years convincing himself he's not good enough. That he's not worth it.

    Then a plane needs to make an emergency landing near Montreal, and Yuna Hollander is on it.

    So when Shane calls him from a bathroom floor, unable to breathe, Ilya stops pretending.

    After five hundred miles of frozen highway, three and a half hours of driving like a man possessed, a hospital waiting room full of people who have every reason to hate him, and a boy who looks at him like he's something worth keeping, Ilya may have learned a thing or two about what it means to be loved—and to let himself love freely.

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    28 Mar 2026

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    Is the first day of the new season and Scott's a bit afraid of how his team will act now that he's out. Unfortunately, he cannot dwell on that because there's a video that Carter just has to show him.

    Or.
    Some reporter tries to get Ilya to comment on the Scott Hunter Kiss, he does not get the answer he was looking for.

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    92,435

    18 Mar 2026

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