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    He had stood at the frosted window of his childhood home in Moscow, breathless and small, and watched beautiful birds fly straight into high-voltage power lines. He had seen birds so young, so incandescent with potential, put their entire lives on hold to raise two sons. He knew exactly what happened to birds who got tangled in that endless, sprawling freedom. Their wings caught fire under the crushing pressure, their beaks locked open in a silent, endless scream of guilt.

    Shane could have it all. He could feel it all, without the fire. Ilya would make sure of this. He would tear the sky down and build a cage so small and perfect that Shane would never have to fly again.

    Beneath him, Shane was gasping for air.

    a non-canon compliant exploration of hollanov, baby trapping, and abuse. ilya never learns restraint. shane never finds the exit. their son sees everything.

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    25 Jun 2026

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    “You want to talk to people about me?” Shane asked quietly.

    There was something small and confused in the question. But Ilya was still furious and raw.

    “Well I would,” he sneered, “if there was anything about you that was fucking interesting to talk about! It would be nice to not be so fucking bored and miserable!”

    The second the words left his mouth, he watched the pain roll across Shane's features like a thousand fractures shattering through glass.

    Ilya had seen Shane nearly break ribs. He had seen him miss game-winning shots, take hits that left bruises blooming purple and black across his skin. He had never seen this.

    Shane closed his eyes for a long moment. He shook his head slightly, a tiny movement, then nodded once as if agreeing with something only he could hear. His face twisted briefly with a fresh wave of pain before he forced it to still.

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    What if Shane and Ilya don't make up so easily after the Boxing Day fight? The Centaur's plane never malfunctions, so Shane never proposes. Instead, Ilya gives him an ultimatum on coming out and going public. It backfires spectacularly.

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    24 Apr 2026

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    Taehyung had once promised Jimin forever. He intends to keep that promise. No matter what.

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    09 Nov 2022

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    Married off at 17, John's spent his adult life surviving his psychopathic demon of a husband. Jim wants John to carry his kids just as much as John doesn't. It's a hell of a balancing act, but John's managing to make it work...till Jim's new obsession, Sherlock Holmes, comes on the scene and fucks things up for everybody.

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    13 Mar 2016