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    Ilya Rozanov has been drafted by Boston, the number one pick overall, but his father doesn't want him moving to America and so takes steps to block his visa. He's going to have to go back to Russia and stay there forever and that, thinks Shane Hollander, is wrong.

    It's so wrong that Shane can't stop himself from doing something about it. Even though that something is the most reckless, the only reckless thing he's ever done in his life. He marries Rozanov in secret, to keep him out of Russia and put him on a path to Canadian citizenship.

    Shane's got a five-year plan to get him there and when you have a plan nothing can go wrong. Right? Right. When you have a solid plan and a marriage that's on paper only there's no risk of feelings getting involved. Not on Rozanov's part and certainly not on Shane's.

    Right???

    (or, the story of how Shane Hollander fell in love with his own husband)

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    25 Jun 2026

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    On June 24th, 2022, during game seven of the Stanley Cup finals, Ilya Rozanov takes a skate blade to the thigh and bleeds out on the ice.

    The next morning, Shane wakes up in his husband's arms. It's June 24th again, and Ilya is still alive.

    Now Shane just needs to figure out how to keep him that way.

    Or: Shane gets stuck in a time loop.

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    25 Jun 2026

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    It’s like they’re in a fucked up game of relationship chicken now, increasingly doing things together that Shane can’t describe as anything other than domestic and romantic and boyfriend-like. They text constantly, detailing their days and sharing everything from complaints about teammates to jokes about other players in the league to the kind of quiet worries about family that don’t need to be responded to, just heard by another person.

    Or maybe it’s like Schroedinger’s cat. As long as Shane doesn’t ask, doesn’t speak out loud, he can have this. It can exist, and it cannot exist at the same time as long as Shane doesn’t press too hard. Doesn’t want too much.

    It feels increasingly like agony now that he’s realized that he loves Ilya.

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    Tunameltdown AU where Ilya makes him tuna melts and says his name and Shane doesn’t freak out and run away. Well, he does freak out, but he also stays. Or the one where Shane doesn’t realize that Ilya’s his boyfriend for a solid three months.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    AU: Movie Star - Ilya, PA - Shane

    Ilya Rozanov built his entire life around temporary things. Temporary cities. Temporary relationships. Temporary people. It was easier that way.

    Shane Hollander already learned the hard way what it feels like to lose the thing your life was built around. After hockey fell apart, he stopped letting himself need too much from anyone or anywhere.

    Working together was never supposed to become personal. But somewhere between film sets, late-night drives, hotel rooms and quiet routines, actor and assistant slowly become something far more dangerous to each other: constant.

    And the closer they get, the harder it becomes to pretend they still know how to walk away.

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    25 May 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov doesn’t remember loving Shane Hollander.
    Not the beginning. Not the middle. Not the life they built together.
    But memory isn’t the only way back.
    Because even without it some choices still feel inevitable.

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    20 May 2026

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