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    Could Rose ever dream up a seaside town that Shane would retire to? Could Rose ever crack the lock of Shane Hollander’s heart that was so heavily guarded due to years of hiding and perfectionism? Would she ever memorize poetry in every language just to make sense of Shane and all the atoms that he was made up of?

    or, a meditative character study of Ilya Rozanov as he grapples with the aftermath of the tuna melt scene

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    31 May 2026

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    Chapter 5, retold from Ilya's point of view.
    He had spent five years being the person who witnessed everyone else.
    Who held the leash and read the room and kept the distance and made it look effortless.
    No one had ever looked back.
    Until Shane Hollander.

    This is the chapter where Ilya keeps his face still and his voice steady and his composure intact and loses all three anyway.

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    29 May 2026

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    Mystery Work

    Part of AZRAELRIEGO
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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    20 May 2026

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    Anyway, Shane didn't remember exactly what was in the folder ... But he knew they were all good shots of him.

    He hastily clicked open the folder, his eyes barely glancing through the dozen or so shots there, vaguely registering a picture with a sunset background from his condo balcony, something of him laughing, a picture of him working at his laptop with his glasses on...

    The director called him again, and he shook his head, the photos blurring. Whatever. It would have to do.

    He clicked "select all," then the messages icon, then Rozanov's name. Hit send.

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    Or: When never-hooked-up Shane and Ilya have to collaborate on a league charity project, Shane accidentally sends Ilya a nude.

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    14 May 2026

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    Cardiac tamponade: pressure on that heart that prevents it from filling and beating adequately.

    Shane thought he knew two things: his move to Ottawa would cause chaos, and that the Ottawa Centaurs were nice.

    As it turned out, he only knew one of those things.

    (Or: the Cens are still a team of professional hockey players. They're going to fuck up.)

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    14 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander is just trying to survive NYU biochemistry, hockey practice, and the graveyard shift at 7-Eleven. He's too exhausted to notice that his new regular customer is Russian mafia, or that Ilya's interest in him goes beyond terrible coffee and cookies.

    When Ilya hands him a $10,000 designer scarf and matching gloves, Shane doesn't panic. He sells them for next month's rent. Any normal person would be terrified. Instead, Shane uses the leftover money to buy a Hello Kitty watch, pastel pink, childish, utterly incongruous with the danger circling him. He wears it to his next night shift without irony or apology.

    Ilya notices immediately. He is fascinated.

    (Currently under major editing. Can still be read.)

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    09 May 2026

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    Ilya was used to hazing. He had been subjected to it, he had participated in it, and, as a captain, he had stood guard over the rookies and protected them from anything truly harmful. But if he had been asked, Ilya would have approved of this prank. He would have authorized it, given Cliff and Vicky his seal of approval, perhaps even helped orchestrate it.

    Any other day, Ilya might have been happy to play along.

    But, in perfect dramatic irony, it had not happened any other day. It had happened today. And, cherry on top, of course the rookie had to walk in when Shane was already freaking out about Ilya saying his name.

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    A prank-gone-wrong leads to the Boston Bears finding out about Shane and Ilya’s relationship in 2016. The day Ilya first invited Shane into his house. Right after they say each other’s names for the first time. Fuck his life, honestly.

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    09 May 2026

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    “You are planning to rob me or what?” He hears Rozanov call, and he can’t help but smile slightly even as he rolls his eyes, closing the door to the linen closet and feeling strangely lighter than when he opened it, reassured that he’s just trying to read into a blank page, that today doesn’t mean anything more than Rozanov doesn’t mind him being around, which is strangely flattering.

    “I don’t know,” he calls back. “Don’t Russians like diamonds and fur and stuff? Where should I start looking if I want to know what my options are?”

    He hears Rozanov laugh, and it makes him smile.

    When he joins him in the living room once more, Rozanov tugs him down to lean against him again. Shane goes easier this time, settling into it, knowing it doesn’t mean anything other than the fact that he just happens to be the closest warm body, the person on Rozanov’s roster who filled today’s slot.

    (the tuna meltdown doesn't happen) (this does not mean they get ANY better at communication)

    (or: how shane didn't realize he had a boyfriend for several months)

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    08 May 2026

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    Yuna getting stuck in an elevator with Ilya for two hours doesn't change everything... but it changes some things. Like Yuna getting to be on a first-name basis with Ilya a full year before her son is.

    (Part 2 (the smutty part) is not actually essential reading if you are not in the mood for smut!)

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    07 May 2026

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    “The thing is,” Ilya says, conversationally, as if he doesn't have fucking Shane Hollander grinding into his touch, as if he doesn't have a hand on his—Luca's sure of it—perfect fucking cock, “you have not been subtle, Haasy.”

    It takes Luca a moment to understand just what the hell Ilya's talking about, before he moans, low in his throat, humiliation sweeping across his body. It's not that he thought he had been actually subtle, but he hadn't expected this, of all places, to be where they confronted him. Not with Ilya's hand worming its way into Shane's pants, the soft blue of his briefs a flash color amongst the pale glow of his skin and the dark drape of his clothes.

    OR: The Cens have won the Stanley Cup. Luca's been voted Hollanov's MVP.

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    06 May 2026

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    "Special enough to come out of retirement for?"

    Ilya looks at the space between his legs that had once been occupied by dark eyes and a constellation of freckles and a smart mouth. He feels bereft.

    This sub, Shane Hollander, is special. Not quite a brat, though not sweet and obedient either. The thought of fighting for his submission, of smacking that smart mouth and then kissing praises against it, is tempting. 

    And he’d only had the sub at his feet for minutes. Ilya left the Mastigery for many reasons, but Shane Hollander is making him forget all of them. 

    “I will have a room ready for him in the morning.”

    Or; Professional Dom for Hire, Ilya Rozanov, struggles with his sadistic desires and meets his match in Shane Hollander; the failed Montreal trainee.

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    06 May 2026

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    The evidence is mounting. It’s getting very difficult to ignore: first that sweatshirt, then the definitely-not-a-dick-pic in the locker room, and now the phone call. It’s a shame really; Lily’s such a sweet girl. She makes Shane so happy.

    And Shane? Hayden’s almost positive Shane is cheating on Boston Lily with Ilya Rozanov.

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    03 May 2026

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    “So... that was my niece.” 

    “I heard,” Shane nodded, taking a few steps forward until he was right in front of Ilya, connecting their hands, “Are you okay?” 

    “Of course I am,” Ilya squeezed Shane’s hands, “She said she wants to come here. To stay with us. For summer, at least, maybe longer.” 

    Shane’s eyes moved quickly, scanning every inch of Ilya’s face and Ilya could feel it - the gaze and the emotion, carefully examining before asking, “Do you want that?” 

    “I-” Ilya cleared his throat, “It is up to you, Shane. I would love to have her here, to get to know her, but it is up to you. This is our home and it is our life and I-” 

    “I know, Ilya,” Shane’s voice was so soft that Ilya genuinely felt like he could melt in it, “but I’d love to have her here, too, if that’s what you want.” 

    Which is exactly why they’re currently parked in an airport parking lot, a week after that phone call took place, waiting for Katerina, whose plane just landed.

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    OR, in which Ilya's niece (Katerina) turns 18, gains access to the trust he created for her, starts to distrust her father, and ends up staying with Ilya and Shane in Canada for the summer.

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    28 Apr 2026

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    Shane scratched the back of his neck. “Rose, uh… she figured it out. Us. Our history. All of it.”

    Ilya turned his head slowly, disbelieving. “Figured it out?”

    “To be fair, you and I weren’t exactly subtle in Montreal,” Shane said, sheepishly.

    Ilya huffed, scowling.

    “So, she knows.” He swallowed. “Everything?”

    “I mean, not all the gory details,” Shane said, shrugging. “But enough.”

    There was a pause long enough for the surf to swell and retreat twice.

    “And? What?” Ilya asked finally, jaw tight. “She is… disgusted?”

    Shane actually snorted. “Uh. No.”

    “No?”

    “No,” Shane said again, dragging a hand down his face. Then, half-laughing, “She, um. She thinks it’s fucking hot.”

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    Or, in essence, what if Rose clocks Shane and Ilya in Montreal, she's like, I want two boyfriends and I want the boyfriends to be boyfriends, too. God gave me two hands for a reason.

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    24 Apr 2026

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    “You want to talk to people about me?” Shane asked quietly.

    There was something small and confused in the question. But Ilya was still furious and raw.

    “Well I would,” he sneered, “if there was anything about you that was fucking interesting to talk about! It would be nice to not be so fucking bored and miserable!”

    The second the words left his mouth, he watched the pain roll across Shane's features like a thousand fractures shattering through glass.

    Ilya had seen Shane nearly break ribs. He had seen him miss game-winning shots, take hits that left bruises blooming purple and black across his skin. He had never seen this.

    Shane closed his eyes for a long moment. He shook his head slightly, a tiny movement, then nodded once as if agreeing with something only he could hear. His face twisted briefly with a fresh wave of pain before he forced it to still.

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    What if Shane and Ilya don't make up so easily after the Boxing Day fight? The Centaur's plane never malfunctions, so Shane never proposes. Instead, Ilya gives him an ultimatum on coming out and going public. It backfires spectacularly.

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    24 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander is a man who thrives on structure, routine, the solid ground of a ten-year plan. Ilya likes that about him, likes the embracing squeeze of having a life organized in tandem with Shane.

    No one would call Ilya a man who thrives on structure. But it’s there, if not in his DNA then in the patterns of his brain. A call-and-response of: they do this, I do that.

    When Ilya’s life is flayed open for the world to dissect, how will they push-and-pull their way back towards what was once a well-organized life?


    “I thought we could go through the schedules and figure out what days we’ll be in the same cities this season, or when either of us have a couple of days off in a row. Maybe make a shared calendar, so we c—”

    “A sex calendar? Your parents are arriving in thirty minutes, and you are proposing making a sex calendar?” Oh, this was delicious. He’d be able to eat out on this for years, if Shane was willing to give him that long.

    “It’s not a sex calendar! It’s just … when we might be able to see each other,” he finished, already sounding defeated.

    “And what are you planning on doing when we are seeing each other? Not fucking?”

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    22 Apr 2026

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    “What do you want, Rozanov?”

    Once upon a time, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov had been something of fated rivals. And then. Rozanov's national team crashed and burned in the 2014 Olympics in his own country. Shortly thereafter, he requested a trade to a Canadian team without much explanation, and by the end of the season, he was playing for Ottawa. Years of buildup and progress thrown away. The rivalry lost its luster after that, with Rozanov hardly a competition.

    Now, Rozanov was looking at Shane as if they shared a private joke. “I have, ah, Marly, what's the word? Proposition? Proposal?”

    “Business offer,” groaned Marlow, drawing his eyebrows together.

    “That,” Rozanov smirked. “Let's sit down, Hollander. Hear me out.”

    --

    Or: Shane and Ilya never started hooking up. Several years into their career, some things are very different. At an All-Star game, the only out and proud player in the MLH approaches Shane with the suggestion to start a charity together. It's the beginning of something life changing.

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    22 Apr 2026

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    You are not supposed to smoke when you have badly bruised ribs. You are not supposed to strain yourself by doing too much. You are not supposed to go right back to the exact same thing that hurt you and keep doing it until you can't take the pain any more or something snaps. These things are contraindicated.

    The team doctor explained all this to Ilya wearily, with a look that said he already knew Ilya would do all these things. Oh, and one more thing— you are not supposed to lie down for a long time and not move, by the way, so don't do that either.

    Unfortunately, these are the four main things that Ilya was planning on doing for probably the rest of his life after breaking up with Shane, so... that's just great. Good to know.

    (or: "After the MLH awards, in June..." Ilya needs to talk to Scott Hunter. He goes to the Kingfisher.)

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    21 Apr 2026

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    On the ice, Shane and Ilya are sworn rivals.
    Off the ice, only a handful of people know the truth.

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    21 Apr 2026

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    Ilya and Shane make a private video, too bad it doesn’t stay private…

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    21 Apr 2026

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