Hopedream



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    “Shanya, Lyubimyy. Please don’t go.” He hated the way his voice sounded, quiet and pathetic. The voice that got him hit when he spoke it around his father.
    “This is the sixth time you’ve asked in less than an hour Ilya. I’ve made up my mind.” Shane’s voice sound calm unless you knew him, then you could hear the subtle quiver that came with his anger.
    “Please, don’t leave me alone.” It was barely a whisper, but he didn’t want his voice to shake, couldn’t speak louder or risk a crack in his words.

    After a bad fight, Shane leaves their house in Ottawa to stay in his Montreal flat for the rest of the free time they have before a game, and a series of misunderstandings result in the rapid decline of Ilya's mental health.

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    23 Jun 2026

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    Immediately follows the fight on Boxing Day, where Ilya tells Shane to leave. To please go home.

    After seeking advice from a trusted friend, Shane returns to make things right between them.

    Truths will be revealed, exposing the cracks in their relationship that Shane hasn't seen and Ilya hasn't wanted to reveal; forcing hard conversations and even harder decisions.

    Is love enough to keep them together? If so, what needs to change? Will anything stay the same?

    The biggest question Shane asks himself as they wade through years of miscommunication and hurt is 'Where do we go from here?'

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    22 Jun 2026

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    Ilya throws a party he doesn't want, breaks down and calls Shane.

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    Or how Shane and Ilya came out to the Centaurs.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    Hayden is tiring the hell out of Ilya at dinner and he cannot take it anymore. Shane decides it's finally time to choose.

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    Or how Ilya cannot supports Pike's shit talking and he and Shane have to talk it out.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    lya Rozanov left Russia with two things: a hockey contract and a plan to never belong to anyone again.

    Shane Hollander was supposed to be the rivalry. First overall, second overall, opposite teams, opposite cities. That's where it was supposed to end.
    It didn't end there.

    Shane has Mia — his twin sister, the one person who has always known everything without being told, the support he didn't know he needed until she was already there.

    Ilya has a cross around his neck that belongs to someone else, a letter worn soft from being read too many times, and a father who is starting to forget things in ways that can't be undone.

    Ilya's mother is alive — he just doesn't know where yet.

    He built an exit route. He didn't plan for what was waiting at the end of it.

    Hold Your Breath — a story about hockey, immigration, a gold cross, and two people who are catastrophically bad at saying what they mean until they aren't.

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    19 Jun 2026