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    gori, gori, moya zvezda (shine, shine, my star) by

    Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    24 Jun 2026

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    Hesitantly, he brought a hand up and watched a figure from his memories reflected back in front of him copy his movements. When this young Shane in the mirror touched his face, he felt it on his own. He squeezed the skin on his right cheek, feeling distant and disconnected from reality. He continued pinching harder until it stung, only to be disappointed when he didn’t wake up back where he was supposed to be.

    He really was Shane Hollander, aged 22, all over again.

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    Shane Hollander dies in 2022, on the day of his first wedding anniversary with Ilya Rozanov. Somehow, he's transported back nearly a decade into the past, to 2013, his memories and a ring letting him know it was all real. He speaks Russian now, having learned from Ilya in his past life, and has the benefit of hindsight. But does that mean he can really change anything, make things go more smoothly than last time, or will he be forced to fight for his relationship with Ilya for years, having to hide it once again now that he'd just gotten used to living with it openly? What would he do about his family, his friends? As it turns out, even knowledge of the future isn't always enough.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    frequently, secretly fond of each other. by

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    14 May 2026

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    can't fake that for a moment by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    09 Jun 2026

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    “Ilya,” Hollander breathes, which—Ilya isn’t sure Hollander has ever called him by his first name. Surely he has sometime in seven years of acquaintance? But the sound of it is novel, unfamiliar. 

    And far from unpleasant. 

    Then Hollander says, “Baby,” and Ilya knows for certain that he’s never called Ilya that, because it takes the air right out of Ilya’s lungs and makes his guts twist and fuck, he would have remembered if Hollander had ever called him that. Especially in that reverent tone. 

    It’s nice. 

    Ilya doesn't remember being married to Shane Hollander. Probably, he should tell someone.

    He decides not to.

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    24 May 2026

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    a decision to stop needing things softer than they are by

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    08 Jun 2026

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    The room moves around him, nurses in and out to check on his progress and remove his IV. A new doctor comes in with discharge papers, instructions about PT that Hollander studiously writes down. Ilya lets himself be moved and nods when it seems appropriate. But he hears none of it. The blood rushes through his ears and one word echoes in his chest over and over again. Husband.

    In 2025, Ilya suffers a hit on the ice and wakes up in the hospital. Shane Hollander is there, holding his hand. But the last thing Ilya remembers is a tuna melt (aaaaaaand Rose Landry).

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    06 May 2026

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    Odd-Man Rush by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    27 Feb 2026

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    Odd-Man Rush: The situation that occurs when a team enters the attacking zone and outnumbers the opposing players in the zone.

    Or,

    Shane doesn’t know why he still feels so off-kilter. He should be the happiest he’s ever been—he won the Cup, he feels like he’s maybe starting to have a few friends on his team, and he’s finally starting to believe his parents when they tell him he won’t get traded again. He should be on top of the world, but sometimes he still feels like the lone defender on an odd-man rush, skating as fast as he can to prevent what feels like an inevitable outcome.

    The problem is that he’s not quite sure which outcome it is that he’s trying to stop.

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    04 May 2026