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    Refusing to let Ilya ruin his career by signing with Ottawa, Shane chooses to really give their relationship a try and moves to Boston to live with Ilya and become a Raider. What follows is enough public scrutiny and backlash from his team that it has him questioning if he made the right decision. Until moments with Ilya and the Raiders show him exactly why he chose correctly.

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    Hayden’s eyes flickered to Shane as he sat on the bench, chewing on the edge of his mouth guard.

    “Don’t fucking look at him,” Ilya insisted as he bent down for the faceoff.

    “Excuse me?” Hayden mumbled, eyes darting back to him.

    “You heard me,” he retorted, his tone clipped. “He’s not your teammate anymore; he’s mine. If you think Marlow is a problem to your game, wait until you see what I will do to your team if you hurt anyone on mine again.”

    Hayden scoffed, dipping his head as he tried to focus on the game. Something about Ilya’s words still rang through his head though, sounding so definitive that he didn’t want to risk seeing what he was actually referring to when he said that.

    The puck dropped again, and Ilya stole it before he could comprehend how quickly it happened.

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    19 May 2026

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    This is a companion piece to “You Fill Up My Senses”, told from the perspective of the Russian Lover-Boy himself, Ilya Rozanov. You don’t have to read that first, but it would provide some context :)

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    They made eye contact, and for the first time that night, Ilya finally saw a Shane he recognized looking back. He was being assessed. Brown eyes flooded with emotion finally, a tragic mixture of anger, uncertainty, fear, with just a hint of longing tucked in there. Ultimately, resolve won over any other emotion. Shane took a deep breath as they skated to the face-off circle. He spoke quietly, his words meant for only one person.

    “Well. I came out to the team as gay a few weeks ago. Apparently they decided they’d rather spend their time calling me a ‘geisha whore’ and standing around than doing their fucking jobs.”

    His voice was low, but steely. Jagged with hurt and betrayal. Ilya’s stomach dropped. His chest tightened, his vision blurred. How could they…? He could feel himself breathing hard and fast, anger coursing through his lungs. He thought of All-Stars. The crinkled eyes. The gardenia. Someone would pay for this. Many people would pay for this, if he had something to say about it.

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    16 May 2026

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    After coming out to Rose, Shane decides he doesn't want to lie anymore, even if he isn't sure coming out will mean he gets happily ever after with Ilya. When coming out to the Voyageurs leaves him wondering what his future in Montreal might look like, he lets himself be a little selfish, he lets himself wonder if there might be somewhere else he might be happy. If Montreal wants to get rid of a generational player, he's not about to stop them, especially if it means he can get a little closer to joy.

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    Or: Shane Hollander leaves Montreal in search of something better.

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    12 May 2026

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    Odd-Man Rush: The situation that occurs when a team enters the attacking zone and outnumbers the opposing players in the zone.

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    Shane doesn’t know why he still feels so off-kilter. He should be the happiest he’s ever been—he won the Cup, he feels like he’s maybe starting to have a few friends on his team, and he’s finally starting to believe his parents when they tell him he won’t get traded again. He should be on top of the world, but sometimes he still feels like the lone defender on an odd-man rush, skating as fast as he can to prevent what feels like an inevitable outcome.

    The problem is that he’s not quite sure which outcome it is that he’s trying to stop.

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    09 May 2026

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    Ilya: I think Shane is going to break up with me.

    Bood: I’m sorry…what?

    Hayes: You think Shane Hollander is going to break up with you?
    Hayes: Shane Hollander.
    Hayes: The Shane Hollander who learned Russian for you?

    Bood: The Shane Hollander who drives back and forth from Montreal any chance he gets to see you?

    Barrett: The Shane Hollander who started a charity with you and named it after your mother?

    Bood: The Shane Hollander who just generally puts up with you and seems mostly happy about it?

    Ilya: It does boggle the mind.
    Ilya: But yes, I’m almost certain of it.

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    26 Apr 2026