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    The Minor Fall, The Major Lift by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    12 May 2026

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    ~And from your lips, he drew the Hallelujah

    Ilya Rozanov leaves Boston and signs with Ottawa, trying to fight a slow slide into emptiness and find meaning in his life again. Shane Hollander is a lonely, struggling artist who lost his spark. When they meet by chance, they both have to decide what's worth living for.

    Or…Shane never gets the chance to become a pro hockey player, so they meet a little later in life. Basically, they’re both sad boys, but the healing will be worth it. More baggage, fewer hangups.

    ~You see I used to live alone before I knew ya.

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    “So maybe we would have played together,” Ilya said.

    “Yeah. Maybe we would have been rivals,” Shane said, and that got a grin out of him. He couldn’t quite imagine it, but he thought that would have been fun, facing off against Ilya Rozanov. In another life.

    Ilya nodded slowly. “And yet here we are, meeting anyway. Maybe we were meant to.”

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    07 Jul 2026

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    its not enough to say that i miss you by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    22 Jun 2026

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    "And they, well. They brought in an omega specialist?”

    “Specialist?” Ilya asked, his tone wary. The word sounded uncomfortable in his mouth, so Shane tried to fill in the gaps.

    “A doctor. For omegas.”

    That threw Rozanov off for a second. “But you are not omega?”

    Shane scrunched up his face, creasing the skin on his forehead and around his eyes. Taking a deep breath, he dropped the first of his two bombs. “No, Rozanov. I am. I’m an omega.”

    He heard the Russian hum on the other side, considering this. “Makes sense. Is why you are so pretty. And why you have such nice ass.”

    Shane’s ears burned. “Shut up, stop talking about my ass.”

    “But I can still talk about how pretty you are, yes?”

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    hellooooooo i am back and i am writing the alpha/omega fanfic of my dreams!!! do not wake me im exactly where i wanna be!!! aka a fuck or die where shane is on suppressants for far too long and calls ilya for help with his terrible horrible awful no good impending heat - but the circumstances and the yearning are magnified by like a billion times <3 yay!

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    18 May 2026

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    into your earthly hands by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    24 Jun 2026

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    "Rozy," Brian, the team doctor says, "talk to me, buddy. That puck clipped you pretty good, how’s the pain?"

    Ilya blinks. He clenches his jaw against a wave of nausea. He rests his cheek on the ice, and the cold helps a little.

    "Bad. Very bad." He swallows. "Is Shane here?"

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    or, in the final MTL/BOS game of the year, ilya takes a puck to the head.

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    16 May 2026

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    We go way back by

    Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    21 Jun 2026

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    Shane’s nearing 40, and while he knows he still has good hockey years left in him, he needs to be realistic. He’s ready to begin what he’s started mentally calling, “The Final Act.” First order of business, signing with the Ottawa Centaurs. He’s won four Stanley Cups with the Montreal Metros, but Shane’s always dreamed of retiring in his hometown.

    Sure, he’s a little nervous about being teammates with his career-long rival. But he and Rozanov aren’t kids anymore. Truthfully, Shane’s giddy at the thought of ending his career alongside Ilya. It definitely has nothing to do with the crush he’s been harboring since draft night.

    Shane’s going to win another cup (or two). He’s going to retire after a few solid years with Ottawa. And, my god, he’s going to flirt with his rival. Even if he plans to never confess his true feelings.

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    CCM wants two separate shoots, and Shane and Ilya never get the chance to start their journey together. Nearly two decades later, they’re finally in the same place at the same time. They’re playing on the same line and might actually be friends. But two rookies with hearts in their eyes are going to make the vets reflect on what could’ve been.

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    06 May 2026

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    I'll move, just hold my hand by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    08 Jul 2026

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    After Rose helps Shane realize his sexuality, he decides he needs to come out to the important people in his life. He's not ready to be out publicly, but he needs friends in his corner.

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    05 May 2026