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  1. Rec 76

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    Presumed beta Ilya Rozanov unexpectedly goes into his first heat at age seventeen, forcing him into a life of hiding in order to be able to play the sport he’d built his life around; the sport that could be his ticket out of Russia and away from his family that hates him. When he meets the Canadian draft favorite, beta Shane Hollander, Ilya assumes that the only obstacles this Hollander guy will be able to throw at him will be dealt with on the ice. But the two rivals find themselves inexplicably drawn to one another, both on and off the ice, entering into a dangerous game of attraction and secrets that neither of them ever expected to play, and one that neither will ever be able to forfeit.

    TW: suicidal thoughts/ideation

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    29 Jun 2026

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    “Shane Hollander,” Rozanov says in his deep, thick accent.

    “Rozanov,” Hollander nods. His voice cracks embarrassingly so he keeps talking, hoping the other man won’t notice. “Just came up here to get some air. I didn’t see a sign saying not to so I think we’re allowed. It’s chilly, eh? But a beautiful view,” he rambles.

    “Ah yes,” Rozanov says flatly. “London, Ontario. Famous view.”

    Shane can’t tell whether he’s being sarcastic. He probably is. He’s kind of an asshole, Shane thinks to himself, not for the first time. But an asshole who makes Shane’s stomach do weird things. Things that he wants to experience again so that he can properly label them. For science.

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    What if last year's Hockey Canada sexual assault trial happened in the Heated Rivalry universe, not with the 2018 gold medal team but with Shane Hollander's 2009 team? A nearly decade-long situationship with consent king Ilya Rozanov makes the Hollander who walks into the courtroom in 2017 a very different man from the boy who ran out of the hotel room all those years ago.

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    25 Jun 2026

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    Ilya is a young man in America. Here he is in the off hours.

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    25 Jun 2026

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    Shane's new rookie is blackmailed by a previous (male) hook up, which is something that he can handle. This won't ruin his line for the season.

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    23 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 37

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    Ilya Rozanov, ages eight to fifteen.

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    23 Jun 2026

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    “He’s such a jock,” Cassie says with a chuckle. She puts her glass of dark liquor on the bar so she can fold her arms. When she sees Ilya looking at Bood, she laughs and shakes her head. “Oh no, I’m talking about your man. That guy is hockey if it was a person. And thank god for that, I’ve seen those Reebok ads.”

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    23 Jun 2026

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    "You and Svetlana. When you - I mean, you don't have to tell me any details, obviously. But do you use condoms, with her?"

    This must be a translation issue, Ilya thought wildly. He'd missed something crucial.

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    20 Jun 2026

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    Ilya refused to break his eye contact. He saw Shane’s anger, the fire behind his eyes, it was all too familiar. Shane continued talking, “I need you-” He pointed at Ilya, his hand just inches from Ilya’s face. Ilya flinched aggressively but refused to break eye contact.

    “Do it,” Ilya said through his teeth, cutting Shane off.

    Shane faltered, “What are…” his eyes scanned Ilyas face. Realization hit him like a truck. He quickly stumbled back away from his husband.

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    Shane doesn't realize how Ilyas PTSD affects him and takes a fight too far

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    19 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander just loves to be filled up. Ilya Rozanov lives to please his man.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    “Shane knows better.

    He does.

    He knows that, realistically, his worth must come from more than just hockey.

    If nothing else, he knows that he owes it to the people who claim to love him—his mom, his dad, Hayden, Ilya, though he can still hardly fathom it some days—to believe this love stems from more than just the number of goals he’s scored or cups he’s won.

    It has to help that he’s scored a lot, though, his brain offers. He’s won a lot. At the end of the day, he’s good at hockey; he has to be.

    Because when he isn’t, what good is he?”

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    or, shane has been haunted for years by the compulsion to ask whether his loved ones still like him even when he’s “bad” at hockey.

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    08 Jun 2026

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    He moved to swing his legs out from under the blankets, only to feel one of them get snagged on something: Ilya’s ankle was wrapped around his own, knee pressing into Shane’s thigh. When he tried to wriggle it free, his boyfriend resisted and pulled his leg in closer. A taut arm reached out and sleepily tugged Shane back down onto the mattress. He gave in easily.

    “I thought you were asleep.” Shane whispered, tersely.

    He felt a small stab of irritation too. Once again, Ilya had gotten in the way of his workout routine and — even though he wasn’t doing it on purpose — it was hard not to be frustrated about it. Shane needed this. The only way he had been able to soothe his racing thoughts about flunking out of the NHL next season was by reminding himself of his plan to work out early in the morning. Now, his anxiety soared, but it felt like annoyance. Why didn’t Ilya understand that he needed to stay in shape? Didn’t he see how hard Shane had to work to keep up with everyone else?

    “I woke up.” Ilya’s voice was husky with sleep, “Come back to bed, moya lyubov.”

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    Five times Shane Hollander should've asked for help.

    And one time he actually did.

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    08 Jun 2026

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    "You hand me card like I am some kept thing and expect me to behave?”

    Shane smiled, slow and knowing. “I expected you to do exactly what you did.”

    Ilya glared, blood boiling under the surface. “Next time,” he growled, voice low and threatening, “do not test me before giving your card."

    Shane’s grin turned wicked. “Next time,” he said, “I’ll bring you a higher limit."

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    04 Jun 2026

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    No was two letters. A single syllable.

    Possibly the easiest word in the English language.

    And Ilya hadn’t said it.

    Instead, he said, “It meant nothing, Hollander.”

     
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    what if Ilya fucked Scott Hunter and then this became emotionally devastating for everyone moving forward

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    04 Jun 2026

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    Somewhere behind him, Ilya hears his husband saying something. But the waves crashing loudly between his ears forbid him from being able to hear any of his words.

    All Ilya can hear are the thoughts hammering right into his brain. 

    Why would you do this?

    Why did you hurt him?

    Why did you enjoy hurting him?

     

    or; Ilya spanks Shane during sex. And then, he drops. Hard, fast, and like he never has before.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    Ilya laughed.

    “That bothered you?”

    ”You have no idea. Half the time I use the tiny scraps of information you give me to look them up anyway. But you’re so cryptic. You’re like,” Shane put on a little voice, “‘Ah, we might have a layover in Charlotte, but am not sure, could be Atlanta.’ Infurating.”

    ”Ok, Hollander, I will send you a calendar invite. This is seductive to you, yes?”

    It’s been months since the cottage, and Shane is finally coming to visit Ilya. He hasn’t been back in Boston since the day he ran out the door saying he couldn’t do this. Ilya is spiraling, just a little, not knowing where they stand in this new and fragile thing. Boyfriends, probably. He’s never been someone’s boyfriend before.

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    30 May 2026

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    “You are planning to rob me or what?” He hears Rozanov call, and he can’t help but smile slightly even as he rolls his eyes, closing the door to the linen closet and feeling strangely lighter than when he opened it, reassured that he’s just trying to read into a blank page, that today doesn’t mean anything more than Rozanov doesn’t mind him being around, which is strangely flattering.

    “I don’t know,” he calls back. “Don’t Russians like diamonds and fur and stuff? Where should I start looking if I want to know what my options are?”

    He hears Rozanov laugh, and it makes him smile.

    When he joins him in the living room once more, Rozanov tugs him down to lean against him again. Shane goes easier this time, settling into it, knowing it doesn’t mean anything other than the fact that he just happens to be the closest warm body, the person on Rozanov’s roster who filled today’s slot.

    (the tuna meltdown doesn't happen) (this does not mean they get ANY better at communication)

    (or: how shane didn't realize he had a boyfriend for several months)

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    27 May 2026

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    27 May 2026

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    Bood: And what would this person need to get Roz to settle down?
    Roz: must be most beautiful person you have ever seen
    Roz: very funny but does not know they are funny
    Roz: and suck dick like their life depends on it

    Or: The Centaurs know that Roz is sad, and probably a little lonely. So they do their best to set him up with someone who matches his specific list of requirements. What they don't know is that their captain has already found that person.

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    24 May 2026

  19. Rec *

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    Shane can’t look at him. He can’t really look at anyone but he manages to lift his head and stare right back into Troy’s glistening eyes.

    “I never had that advantage, Troy. I never got to take it out on anyone, for any of it. All the times I got on that ice to play some hockey and some… fuckwit idiot like Kent, or whoever was calling me slurs— whether they were gay ones or racist ones… I couldn’t just hurl them back and call it a day like you did.”

    He swallows hard. He thinks he might be sick a little bit in his mouth.

    “You know how fucking lucky you are? To have gotten away with it? They love you, Barrett. This team loves you! You’re fucking celebrated because you overcame this big, terrible thing but for me it’s—”

    He thinks about his mom in that very split second. His beautiful, wonderful mom who’d coached him his entire life on how to be polite, how to be well behaved. How to answer to teachers the right way, to coaches, to cops to the press to the general public to his fucking teammates—

    He looks away. The fight suddenly drains right out of him and he goes back to his bag.

    or: shane decides to confront troy if no one else will

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    24 May 2026

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    Ilya stared at Shane in bemusement. “Sounds… complicated for just sex. What, you going to spank me, tie me down?”

    Shane was silent at that. His eyes were steady on Ilya, his face determined.

    Ilya’s heart thumped in his chest. “Are you?”

    “I’m not going to hurt you,” Shane said. “I mean. I might bite and scratch at you a little, but no more than I normally do.”

    That did not answer the tying down part of the question.

    But if Shane wanted to try something new, Ilya could indulge him. This was Shane after all, Ilya’s sweet, desperate bottom. What harm could it do? It wasn’t like they didn’t both know how this would end, with Shane face down on the bed, begging for Ilya’s cock.

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    21 May 2026

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