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    Hazy: Happy birthday, Roz!

    Bood: Happy birthday, Cap!

    Barrett: Happy birthday!!

    Dykstra: It’s your birthday!

    Haas: Happy birthday, Captain! You are the most wonderful hockey player and leader, and I hope today is your best birthday yet ❤️

    Ilya: Well, it’s not, so your wishes mean nothing.

    Bood: Okay. Well.
    Bood: Looks like we are feeling a bit dramatic today.

    Hazy: Do you want to expand, or how can we best support you?

    Ilya: I will expand even though it is incredibly painful to do so.

    Barrett: Oh, goody.

    Ilya: My husband.
    Ilya: Shane Hollander.
    Ilya: The supposed love of my life.
    Ilya: The holder of my heart and half of my assets.
    Ilya: The future father of my children and feeder of my dog.
    Ilya: Forgot my birthday.

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    15 Jun 2026

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    “Is just the new routine, okay?” Ilya pleaded, his voice breaking. “The pills were working and now there is more stress so I just need to get used to it and will be fixed, okay?”

    “How bad is it?”

    “Shane, please.”

    “Ilya, you promised no more secrets, no more hiding. How bad?”

    He covered his face in his palms, his elbows resting on his knees, and took in a shuddered breath. “...bad.”

     

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    After Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander get married, Ilya discovers that his depression won't magically disappear just because he finally has love and a real family. He gets to live and work with Shane full time now that they are on the Centaurs, but it's becomingly increasingly difficult to hide his deteriorating mental health from his husband. He's haunted by dreams of his mother and the fear that his depression and the hockey world's eruption about their relationship is ruining Shane's life. He has to swallow his pride and begin taking SSRIs, navigate the side effects of medicating his depression, and learn to accept love and support from those he loves most. Will the shame eat him alive or can he finally learn that he's worthy of love even at his lowest?

     

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    14 Jun 2026

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    She’s happy that she got the artist’s residency, of course- who wouldn’t be? A year of living in one of the most picturesque coastal areas in North America, all-expenses paid, paint and canvasses provided. It’s amazing. It’s a dream come true, and it even comes with a cute little cottage next to a historic lighthouse that Shane’s been dying to paint ever since she saw the application brochure.

    So, yeah, she’s happy about it. But not happy enough to get over the burning pit in her stomach when she finds out she has to share it with Ilya-fucking-Rozanova.

    Or: Shane and Ilya are up-and-coming artists who get awarded a residency. Together. Which would be amazing, if Rozanova and her paintings (and her stupid, beautiful face) didn’t get so far under Shane’s skin.

    (Posting Fridays and Wednesdays until complete.)

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  4. Public Bookmark 53

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    Jane uses her body weight to slam the door behind her with a resonating thud. She crashes back onto it, letting it hold her up for support. For someone so tightly-wound and controlled, it’s almost theatrical. Far more attention-grabbing than just closing the door behind her like a normal person. Jane’s fingers are spread wide against it, knuckles white with tension.

    “Is someone chasing you?” Liliya can’t resist joking.

    Jane’s nostrils flare, thick eyebrows knitting together as she makes burning eye contact.

    “I’m standing in the hall like an idiot,” she snaps, “Stacey Hunter is right next door.”

    Liliya shrugs. It’s a coordinated move, just enough to let her slouchy sweater roll down one shoulder. Jane’s eyes dart to the newly-revealed skin. Gotcha. Liliya raises her chin, letting her hair shift behind her. Under her own roaring pulse in her ears, she can hear Jane swallow.

    “Fuck it,” Jane breathes, and she launches herself forwards.

     

    aka All Stars hookup in 1221 but make it lesbian

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    14 Jun 2026

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  5. Public Bookmark 7

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    JANE: Hi. This is Jane Hollander
    JANE: From your Principles of Marketing Course.

    LILY: hello jane
    LILY: you are texting me because...?

    JANE: You really should come to class more.
    JANE: We were partnered together for the final project.

    LILY: sounds boring

    JANE: It SOUNDS like 20% of our grade.
    JANE: I'll see you at the library at 7PM tomorrow.

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