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    "Shane Hollander is retiring."

    Ilya rolled over to look at his wife, next to him in bed in one of his old Boston t-shirts. She was staring at her phone, scrolling rapidly.

    "What do you mean, Hollander is retiring?"

    Ilya thought back to the last time he'd seen — really seen — Hollander. Hollander had Ilya's cock in his mouth. Ilya could still remember the blend of annoyance and need on Hollander's face, the tears in the corner of his eyes. Ilya had wanted to dominate him, to take him apart, to wreck him and then put him back —

    Svetlana interrupted the memory.

    Or: Ilya and Shane stopped seeing each other before the Sochi Olympics. When Ilya hears Shane is retiring, he decides it's finally time to reconnect. Which means that, after 15 years of mutual unspoken obsession, it is time for both Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov to decide what each man means to the other.

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    21 Mar 2026

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    Chapter 9

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    Everything starts with a kiss under a shower in Toronto…

    Shane Hollander has to accept that the best way to stop the buzzing in his anxious brain is to touch and kiss his arch-rival.

    Always running away from his thoughts and feelings Ilya Rozanov only gets a good night of sleep with a boring Canadian in his arms.

    They play hard on the ice. They have fun in bed. Maybe someday they are prepared to acknowledge their feelings?

    First there will be smut, later fluff and always idiots in love.

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    17 Jun 2026

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    Chapter 38

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    Shane woke up alone, in pain and confused. He remembered the hit, Marlow had sent him down to the ice. He remembered Ilya visting before anyone else. He doesn't undertand what is wrong, why are more tests being ordered. The C test. The test for being a rare Male Carrier.

    He hadnt thought about Carriers since he was in school. Why would he. His mother had done the test when he was a child. It had been negative. So why was he hurting in places he shouldn't. Why was a nice nurse telling him they needed to take him somwhere else for some specialised testing.

    When Shane Hollander took a nasty hit on the ice against Boston, he is woken up to a very serious, very shocking discovery. To something he hadn't believed was possible. He now has to deal with the fallout, decisions have to be made as well as life altering choices. But first he has to work out how to tell his years long situationship - who he is completely and totally in love with - that he managed to get him pregnant, when neither of them was aware it was possible. Shane is terrified, confused and furious all at the same time. All he wants is Ilya, but is Ilya going to still want him now.

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    23 Apr 2026

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    Chapter 10

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    Shane Hollander is the sole Omega within the NHL. He’s been running from his own instincts since the moment he first presented and lives his life akin to that of a Beta; scentless, never nesting, and without a heat cycle. Any failure to conform to these ideals would result in being outcast from his peers and by the league altogether.

    Ilya is the only Alpha in ice hockey that plays without the use of suppressants. He lives his life purely driven by instinct, running from the ghosts of those attempting to control him. Unbeknownst to Shane, he’s also the only person that can smell the Omega, and the scent is steadily driving the Alpha insane.

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    19 Jun 2026

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    Chapter 12

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    The first thing Ilya Rozanov felt was a headache the size of Massachusetts.

    Seriously, his head was pounding so badly behind his eyes that the moment he tried to sit up in bed, a violent wave of nausea nearly made him throw up. He immediately dropped his head into his hands, elbows braced against his knees while he forced himself to breathe slowly through it.

    Jesus Christ.

    What the hell did he drink last night?

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    19 Jun 2026

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    Chapter 18