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    Ilya let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “I want to be perfect for you, Shane. To make up for all the time we lost.”

    “I don’t want perfect,” Shane said quietly, stroking Ilya’s cheek. “I want something real. Something that we fight to make work, because we want it so much. Because being together is so much fucking better than being without each other.”

    ***

    Ten years ago, Shane and Ilya loved each other in secret and let each other go anyway.

    Now Shane, captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, is a single dad to four-year-old Ollie, and good at pretending he doesn’t think about the man he lost when they were younger and terrified of the fallout of being caught. Then one chance meeting turns into drinks, lingering looks, old feelings, and suddenly Ilya Rozanov is everywhere again.

    Some things, it turns out, never really leave you.

    As Shane and Ilya fall back into each other’s lives - and into something softer, steadier, and openly theirs this time — they realise maybe they’re finally ready for the life they used to dream about.

    Or: two hockey players who were each other’s first love reconnect ten years later and slowly build the family they always wanted.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    🌹"No questions. No feelings. Just because we want to."🌹

    Shane Hollander is a PhD student who knows how to stay invisible.
    Ilya Rozanov is Montreal’s most arrogant hockey star—brilliant, reckless, and incapable of following rules he didn't make himself.

    It should be easy to walk away.

    Instead, it becomes something quiet and hidden—late nights, closed doors, and a version of Ilya no one else gets to see. Shane carries his secrets inked beneath the roses winding across his skin, a constant reminder that some things survive only as long as they remain sub rosa.

    Ilya doesn’t do feelings.
    Shane was never meant for something like this.

    But he stays. And he falls anyway, caught between stolen moments and borrowed time.

    And when it finally falls apart, Ilya might realize too late what it means when there’s nothing left to hold onto—and that this time, love might not be enough to bring Shane back.

    (fake dating • secrecy • loving someone who was never going to choose you • happy ending, I promise 💔➡️❤️ • 🔥🔥🔥)

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    16 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is in love, closeted, catastrophically lonely, and apparently incapable of referring to Shane Hollander in present tense.

    The Centaurs come to a- given the circumstances- reasonable conclusion.

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    Five times the Centaurs thought Ilya Rozanov was mourning his dead wife, and the one time they discovered his wife was actually Shane Hollander.
    Shane, for the record, is alive and really confused.

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    16 Jun 2026

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    Vaccine day, one rare public sighting, one baby in a tiny hat.

    And Ilya Rozanov, to everyone’s great misfortune, being both ridiculously competent and extremely himself in public.

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    15 May 2026

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    “Is it your wedding day?”
    Shane sputters. “Sorry?”
    “The tuxedo,” she points out. “You look like you just got married.”
    “Oh,” Shane says dumbly, glancing down at his rumpled suit. “No,” he adds.
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    Or the one where that one night in Vegas gets a little out of hand for Ilya and Shane and a marriage by accident could turn into one of convenience. And maybe, something more.

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    23 Apr 2026