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Hi Ilya,
My name is Shane! I don’t speak Russian, I hope that’s okay. I’m also 25 years old and I love hockey too! So we have some things in common.
I’ve never written an inmate before. I don’t really know why I’m doing this. I guess I’m lonely. I’m not very good at making friends or dating. I think maybe I can be a bit awkward in person, but I’m good at writing. So I hope that’s okay.
or Shane Hollander finds Ilya Rozanov on WriteAPrisoner.com and sends him an email.
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01 Jul 2026
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the way to his heart by anincompletelist (soldouthaz)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
11 Jun 2026
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“It’s okay. I don’t need anything.”
“I am not going to eat in front of you while you have nothing, Hollander,” Ilya scoffs. He plucks a can of cold ginger ale from the top shelf as casually as he can manage and slides it over the island, interrupting Hollander’s fidgeting thumbs. “You must be hungry, yes? It’s been hours since you left hotel. I can make something. Easy.”
“Make… what?” he asks warily.
Ilya rolls his eyes and tosses a look over his shoulder. “Do not worry. I will find something that works for your special hockey diet,” he teases. He reaches back into the fridge. “Tuna melt okay?”
“No,” Hollander says primly. “And it’s a disease. Not a diet.”
He pulls his hands out of the cold and turns, blinks. “What?”
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- Part 9 of the chronic illness club
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12 Jun 2026
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Public Bookmark 172
Mystery Work
Part of my private fics
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This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!
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11 Jun 2026
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It does mean missing out on things like barbeques and team dinners sometimes, but it’s not as if he would have been able to participate anyway. At this point in his life, risking someone not taking his allergies seriously would mean potentially missing games, which makes it unacceptable. Jackie always makes sure he has a dish or two that’s safe when he’s over at their house, but if he was going to be the one guy sitting and drinking ginger ale instead of taking part in sharing nachos or Korean barbeque or burgers or any other delicious thing he goes in knowing he can’t have anyway, there’s no point in making a fuss about it. He eats at home, has a drink with everyone else, and he calls it a day. Easy. Safe. Foolproof.
But also the reason it doesn’t occur to him that he hasn’t actually told Ilya about any of his allergies until it becomes immediately relevant five days into being at his cottage together.
(how ilya learns about shane's food allergies) (and how shane learns what it's like to have someone who always saves him a seat at the table) (and who also makes sure there's food he can eat on the table to start with)
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09 Jun 2026
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back to the start by WriteThroughTheNight
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
10 Apr 2026
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“Okay,” Ilya says. His thumb restarts its soothing. “Then say it all wrong, and I will understand anyway.”
So Shane tries, reaches out and hopes for Ilya to reach back. “My first year with the Metros wasn’t… great. I mean, I played great hockey, but those first few years, the room wasn’t…"
“Room wasn’t great,” Ilya repeats. “What does this mean? Not great like calling you slurs? Not great like hazing?”
Shane stiffens, then forcibly relaxes. He tries to make his voice light, “A little, uh. A little of both, I guess.”
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Shane's metric for a normal locker room is skewed. Ilya (and the Centaurs) are happy to help.
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08 Jun 2026
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“You…wanted to see me?” He asks, barely resisting a wince at how awkwardly it comes out. “After yesterday-” He stops, swallows.
Hollander makes a face–one of Ilya’s favorite faces, in fact–that says he’s a little embarrassed about what he’s about to say. Ilya feels his chest go a little tighter, wondering if Hollander has had time to reconsider, if he’d even planned to reach out after the game, apologize for spooking and running, ask to come ba-
“Did something…happen yesterday?” Hollander asks.
Ilya stares at him.
(the accident that takes shane out for the season happens the day after the tuna meltdown) (...it also takes his memory of the tuna meltdown with it)
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07 Jun 2026
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Convince Me Either Way by isto4u
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
04 Jun 2026
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Hollander huffed and then, slowly, looked into Ilya’s eyes. “What if… what if we didn’t do it all the way?”
“Yeah?” Ilya breathed. “Like?”
“What if it’s just the tip.”
Ilya’s jaw literally dropped. “Who the fuck taught you that?”
Hollander shrugged, then his eyes locked onto Ilya. “Yes or no.”
Fuck it.
Or: episode 4 fuck-montage meets Just The Tip meets down-bad but doesn’t know it Ilya Rozanov meets barebacking
OR: Ilya “just the tip” Rozanov and Shane “just fucking come in me” Hollander
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- Part 2 of Heated Rivalry Episode Inspired
- Part 1 of Just The Tip™
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04 Jun 2026
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“-can’t see each other again,” Ilya says, looking only at Shane’s hand, holding it so, so gently and stroking over Shane’s skin so, so softly. The soothing feeling of it makes it very hard to focus, but Shane tries very hard to do it anyway. “I tried-we tried, but this can’t happen again.” It takes a moment, but Shane finally manages to make sense of the words, and he lets out a soft noise of understanding.
Ah. He’s apologizing that he won’t be able to see Shane in the hospital again before he leaves.
“I understand,” he says, and he does. It was probably really hard for Ilya to get here even once, and it can’t be very long before his plane leaves. He’s sad, of course–they didn’t even get to spend time together, really–but it’s not like this will be the last chance they ever have to see each other. He gives Ilya his best attempt at a smile, and if it comes out a little sad, too, all Ilya does is reach out to stroke the backs of his fingers gently over his cheek.
(ilya goes through with his plan to break up with shane in the hospital) (the problem? shane is too high to understand that he's being broken up with)
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03 Jun 2026
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03 Jun 2026
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shane is feeling less than confident at six months pregnant. ilya shows him who he is.
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02 Jun 2026
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Looking like a born again, living like a heretic by renchers
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
20 Jan 2026
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“You’re fucking him.” Ilya said it like he was saying the sky was blue. Shane didn’t know if he should laugh or if he should hit Ilya.
“Rozanov, you need to get your head checked. I think you might have hit the boards a little too hard yesterday.”
“My head is fine, Hollander. I’m sure Pike’s is good, yes?”Ilya accuses Shane of fucking his teammates.
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- Part 1 of Trans Shane Oneshot Fics
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01 Jun 2026
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I can’t see further than my own nose at this moment by renchers
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
18 Jan 2026
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“You act like jealous girlfriend. I can fuck you like girl, if you like.”
Shane is stood up by Ilya, his grudge is only resolved months later.
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- Part 2 of Trans Shane Oneshot Fics
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01 Jun 2026
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"Do you like your wife?" Shane pushed, the words falling out before he could stop them. It was a dangerous and very stupid question.
Ilya paused. His hand moved from the lace of Shane’s underwear to his hip, gripping him firmly.
Ilya leaned down, his lips brushing the shell of Shane’s ear. His breath was hot, sending shivers down Shane’s spine. "If I say yes," he whispered, "will you still let me fuck you?"
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Shane is spending the summer working as a bev cart boy at an exclusive golf club. Where he meets the former hockey player, currently married, Ilya Rozanov.
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- Part 9 of shanepussy & friends
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31 May 2026
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ilya is pussydrunk
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31 May 2026
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think twice (and come back for a third time) by lipsticktraces
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 May 2026
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Shane is heavier than he used to be; his weight bears down on Ilya in a new way. He’s put on pounds of muscle since Ilya last touched him like this. Ilya flattens his palms, skims them under Shane’s undershirt, feels the flat solidity of his abs, the bulk of his lats, the swell of his chest. It’s the same and it’s new, this body; it’s the boy he couldn’t stop thinking about when he was 18 and the man he loved enough to let go at 26 and the person who somehow always comes to find him when he’s lost.
A stranger, and the love of his life.
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or, Ilya's father doesn't die in 2017; Ilya breaks up with Shane instead of confessing his love. They get older, but not any less stupid about each other. Shane gets a boyfriend; Ilya gets on medication; they work on becoming whole people. And they always find their way back to each other.
OR a story for those who love Shane and Ilya's baby love but ALSO think it's hot when people in their thirties make active choices about who they are and what they want in their partner!!
Note: the "cheating" tag refers to the relationship between Shane and his aforementioned BF, not to Shane and Ilya cheating on each other.
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31 May 2026
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Tour de Force by kooksie
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
24 Mar 2026
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Shane had told his manager, verbatim, that he “trusts her judgment” to pick the opener for his first ever world tour.
Her “judgment” shows up to soundcheck with a parking ticket in his hand and a crimson hickey on his neck. Her “judgment” is Russian DJ, Ilya Rozanov.
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29 May 2026
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As the Romans Do by kooksie
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
01 Jun 2026
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As a straight man, Ilya Rozanov has never had a gay roommate before, but it’s going pretty well. Shane Hollander is kind, silly, and an even bigger hockey nut than Ilya.
So when Shane starts bringing men over, and Ilya begins to want to bash their fucking heads in, Ilya comes to a startling conclusion: He must be homophobic.
(He’s jealous.)
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24 May 2026
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Viktor, alone in the lab late at night, discovers an interesting device hidden underneath Jayce's desk. He can't help but to explore it's uses... for science, of course.
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23 May 2026
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in your dreams by adastreia, bloodredtongues, padmepetrichor
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
01 Mar 2026
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"I had sex dream."
"Oh?" Shane asks. The last vestiges of sleep and worry float out of his brain with that, and he lets his body deflate back into a more reclined position. Rolling over with a grin, he puts his hand on Ilya's bump, letting a finger trail up toward his chest. His tits haven't really grown much yet, but they've softened, no longer just hard, smooth pectoral muscles.
"Yes," Ilya says, voice firm. "Very good sex dream."
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23 May 2026
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A Danger to Yourself or Others by onetrueharem
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
15 Apr 2026
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Galina stopped writing to look at Ilya. "Do you think he'd be willing to talk to you next time it happens, even if it's late?"
Ilya's stomach turned over. He didn't even want to consider it, but he knew the answer. "Yes. But he silences his phone at night."
"Most phones these days have an option to let certain numbers ring through, even on Do Not Disturb. Do you think he'd be open to setting that up for you?"
Imagining that conversation made Ilya nauseous. Yes, no fucking doubt, Shane would be open to it if Ilya explained the reason. "I'm not going to ask him to do that."
Set during The Long Game, an alternate version where the plane scene doesn't happen. Instead, there's this: a car crash, a therapist's duty to report, and an urgent reckoning with priorities.
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22 May 2026