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Pain was Neil’s first language and his oldest companion—a constant, from childhood terror to the chronic ache of survival. He learned its grammar alone: how to ignore it, how to use it, how to endure it. His pain is his burden, and only he could be trusted to carry it. Until he finally learns otherwise.
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(Five times Neil dealt with pain alone. And one time he didn't have to.)
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11 Jun 2026
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He's Insisting That He's Fine (He's Not Fine) by P234age
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
08 May 2026
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"Andrew’s arm slides around Neil’s waist, slow enough that Neil could stop him if he wanted to. He doesn’t. He lets Andrew pull him in against his chest, one arm tight around him, solid and unyielding. Protective, though against what, Neil isn’t sure.
The heat of Andrew’s body sinks into him almost immediately, thawing some of the chill lodged deep in his bones. Neil hadn’t realized just how cold he was until now. He curls closer without thinking about it.
Andrew’s hand spreads flat against his side, slipping under his shirt carefully. “You’re freezing,” he mutters after a minute.
“It’s just cold in here.” Neil closes his eyes and adds, “But you’re warm.”
Andrew makes a quiet, irritated sound at that, but he doesn’t let go. Neil lets himself sink into the warmth instead of thinking about the blood or the pain or the way his body feels increasingly foreign to him. He focuses on Andrew’s heartbeat beneath his cheek. The steady rise and fall of his breathing. Eventually, Andrew’s grip tightens almost imperceptibly around him, like he’s afraid Neil might disappear if he loosens it too much."
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Neil isn't feeling well, but he's fine. Totally fine. Nothing to worry about here!
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- Part 1 of Fine
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04 Jun 2026
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Nathaniel Wesninski had been different, even as a little boy, and now Neil Josten, at age nineteen, didn’t feel any more normal.
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Now that Neil is somewhere safe and with people who care about him, he is finally able to process the trauma he has lived through in his life. The problem is that he doesn't know how.
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04 Jun 2026
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I Wish I Were Fine, I Thought I Was by pawnofkings
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
05 Sep 2020
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“Ow, shit!” Wymack exclaims, retracting his arm. There's a slight burn on his skin. Neil stands, frozen, feeling like time itself has stopped. But if it had, then Wymack wouldn’t be moving in his direction and -
The pan clatters to the floor, and Neil is several feet away before he realizes he’s moved at all. But suddenly, he’s half-lying on the floor. He stares at his arms, thrown up in front of him as if to protect him, and on the other side of them is Wymack, looking down at him as if he’s just seen somebody die.
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Or: a Fox family dinner goes awry, and Neil struggles to come to terms with his own instincts.
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30 May 2026
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The Foxes are excited to plan a team bonding trip to the beach; a fun weekend in the sun and a welcome break from school and Exy.
Neil learns how quickly memories of the past can catch up to you and how hard it can be to voice them. Nothing about the beach has ever been good for him.
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28 May 2026