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    How did he let this happen?

    Shane's not sure.

    One moment, he was on the gym floor not staring at Rozanov's gorgeous sweaty body. Then Shane was standing up, but his legs were weak for some god forsaken reason and Rozanov was there, just an arm around his waist to keep him upright, and now...

    Well.

    Now Shane's on his knees on the floor of Ilya Rozanov's shower.

     

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    Heated Rivalry, but the boys are forced to have an honest conversation around 8 years earlier than they do in canon.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    Svetlana could give Ilya everything Shane could not.

    She shared his language, his culture, and knew what it was like living in Russia–she didn’t have to try and learn Russian in secret so if Ilya wanted to just talk freely with her he could. She’d known Ilya his whole life, known his father and brother and, most importantly, his mother–the most precious person to Ilya. She could date Ilya, in public, and it wouldn’t cause a scandal–Ilya wouldn’t have to sacrifice his country to be with her or have to secure citizenship somewhere safe just so that if people found out he wouldn’t get arrested. She could stay with Ilya during the hockey season and share his space–she could get groceries with him and argue with him in the produce aisle about what to make for dinner that week. She could love Ilya, freely, and Shane could not.

    In the end it was not about Ilya or even Svetlana at all really. It was about what Shane could not be, what he could not give, to the person he loved most.

    OR: Shane and Svetlana meet for the first time and Shane battles with his insecurities.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    A stranger makes the mistake of paying a little too much attention to Shane.

    Ilya takes it very well.

    That’s a lie.

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    05 Jun 2026

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    “You don’t have to.” Ilya whispers.

    “What?”

    “Love me. You don’t have to. To say it, you can move on, you can find someone better, you don’t have to.” he says. “I am. . . not good.” he settles on after trying to find the right words in his mind.

    *Alternate ending to episode 4*

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    31 May 2026

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    He’s standing across from Ilya in his kitchen. Their feet are almost touching, Ilya’s in black socks that Shane also has multiple pairs of, Shane’s in his favourite soft striped ones. The rain is getting louder outside, moving from a drizzle to a downpour. And Ilya is looking at him like he loves him.

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    31 May 2026