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Because every day after he woke up still in pain, and he couldn’t even tell his own family (because what if I can’t be a firefighter anymore? what if they don’t let me?). And then he’s hugging Eddie and they’re welcoming him home and maybe, just maybe, for a second he believes that it won’t be so bad.
Because then he was choking on his own blood staring into Bobby’s eyes thinking this is it, isn’t it? And then he woke up because damn, he always wakes up and somehow that’s always worse. And he wants to laugh at himself because how did he think, even for a moment, that anything would ever be ok?
Because then he was on blood thinners and they wouldn’t let him home, and he just wanted to go home (what if I can’t be a firefighter anymore?)
Because then the lawsuit happened and he just lost everything all over again.
Because
“You’re exhausting.”
(Or Buck's always been sad but it's post lawsuit, and Buck just can't handle it anymore)
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Bookmarked by AliceKen
26 Jun 2026
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Sequel to "With a Friend in the Dark.”
It's been weeks since Buck's cancer diagnosis, and in most ways, things are looking up. The idea of resuming chemo still frightens him, but not nearly as much as it did last time. This time, he has people on his side. But Buck is about to learn that treatment is just the first challenge. Money troubles, identity crises, learning what real love means for the first time at twenty-seven... who knew cancer would be so complicated?
Eddie, meanwhile, is still wrestling with his guilt and anger over how he handled things the first time. Being there for Buck? That's a given. Figuring out what it means to be Buck's friend through his cancer treatments, in the wake of all that's happened between them? That seems a lot trickier. Even more so when Eddie starts to realize that anger and guilt might not be the only feelings he's having.
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- Part 2 of Love is a Place
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Bookmarked by AliceKen
21 Jun 2026
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With the lawsuit hanging over his head, Evan "Buck" Buckley decides to pack his things and leave L.A. behind. He resigns from the LAFD, clears out his apartment, and drops a stack of letters off at the firehouse before disappearing into the comfort of Oregon's National Parks.
The 118 are left reeling by his sudden departure with nothing but a stack of letters explaining why he left and unsure whether he'll ever return. They struggle to pick up the pieces left behind with new feelings and realizations dragging themselves out of the woodwork.
Or, Buck leaves L.A. to clear his head and the 118 falls apart.
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- Part 1 of Live Again
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Bookmarked by AliceKen
14 Jun 2026
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They gave me the option to transfer you.
I said yes.
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It felt like a betrayal, the lawsuit - and Bobby didn't want to give Buck the chance to hurt any of them again. Not on the job, not face to face, not at all. So when he's asked if they want the kid back, it's easy to spit out the answer.A refusal.
But when Buck finds his way to the 217, he gets a little bit of time to learn if he really wants to be a firefighter. Or if he really just wanted to go home.
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Bookmarked by AliceKen
12 Jun 2026
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In 2019, Buck drops the lawsuit, leaves Los Angeles and stops all contact with his old team (and Eddie). In 2021, after Maddie gives birth to her daughter, he comes back to meet his niece. Eddie offers him to see Christopher again and finds himself sharing custody with a man he had never even been together with.
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Bookmarked by AliceKen
11 Jun 2026