“I've Done It Before"
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"I ran into a wall, like I do."
The Andor Episode 7 scene between Bix and Cassian, as seen from her perspective. Cassian is preparing to flee from Ferrix and Bix is still trying to recover, physically and mentally, from the catastrophic events of episode 3.
There's a lot of history, a lot of hurt and a lot of looking for someone to blame. And several very hard walls, in every sense. All in all, it's a really terrible way to say goodbye.
"She can remember clearly the one and only time she had deliberately physically hurt Cassian. Their second break-up. While he was lying to her face, she had slapped his. Hard enough to sting her hand.
It had stung him too. As he recovered, gingerly fingering the reddening mark on his cheek, he had stared at her with open shock and incredulity. His dark eyes had widened and glistened and of course at that she felt sorry and was stupid enough to say that she was sorry too.
Once again, he had ended up getting what he wanted from her.
And for all the long-term good her violence against him had done, she might as well have slapped a wall. It had ended up hurting her far more than it had hurt him.
Or so she had concluded. "
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- Part 1 of “I've Done It Before"
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Giving, Receiving and Giving Again by colleybri
Fandoms: Andor (TV), Star Wars - All Media Types
11 Apr 2024
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During their final attempt to be together prior to the events of the series, Bix remembers her “first time” with the eager young Cassian. He really Wasn’t Very Good. Nowadays, he is Very Much Better.
This is one of the most lightweight fics in this series. That's not to say that everything is exactly as it seems. Unapologetically smutty, but not necessarily always sexy.
I also wanted to write a realistic take not just on how awkward but also on how disappointing ‘first times’ can be, especially when the long buildup of an idealistic fantasy meets the reality of a horny and self-absorbed (and actually ... pretty traumatised) youth who is in far too much of a hurry to get to the 'really good bit'.
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- Part 2 of “I've Done It Before"
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An on-going series about Cassian and Bix as young lovers. In the main narrative, Bix devises a way for she and Cassian to have sex for the second time despite Bix’s over-protective father. In the other, dialogue only, Cassian and Brasso have a very candid discussion about the first time (as seen in ‘Giving, Receiving and Giving Again’). Learning languages connects the two. It turns out that Cassian has a very good tongue.
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- Part 3 of “I've Done It Before"
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Maarva Andor has a heart-to-heart with Bix in the wake of Bix's father catching Cassian climbing over the wall into their yard to secretly meet Bix (referenced in Andor Episode 7.) Apparently, Jayk Caleen's exact words were "This is the last place you should be". Maarva thinks there is another reason for this response beyond the obvious, and also makes some surprising revelations that make Bix consider her relationship with Cass anew.
After a couple of lighter and smutty episodes, things get a lot darker for this one. I hope I've done Maarva justice: she's a tricky character to write.
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- Part 4 of “I've Done It Before"
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Cassian has been home from Sipo and Mimban for four weeks, and he and Bix have become enthusiastic lovers. But already things are getting unexpectedly complicated, thanks to Cassian's unresolved trauma. Feelings he has been trying to repress, until now.
In the aftermath of Bix having a heart-to-heart with Maarva, she and Cassian finally get honest with each other. Intercut with the smut scenes, including their first time for one sex act at which Cassian proves particularly expert.
Set immediately after 'Spring Green' but you don't need to have read that as all the context is given.
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- Part 5 of “I've Done It Before"
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Set approximately nine years before season 1 of Andor, a few months after Cassian's return from youth prison and Mimban. Bix Caleen tries to deal with the death of her father in the way she knows best. The trouble is, in deep grief you don’t always know yourself best. Sometimes you need a hug, even if you don’t want one. Sometimes you need a meal, even if you’re not hungry. Sometimes you need a friend to be there for you even if you feel that you’d rather be alone. Sometimes that friend might even also be the ex-lover you broke up with because they hurt you so badly. Love can come in many forms.
Marking a new stage in their relationship, Cassian proves himself to be just the friend Bix needs as he helps her to confront and manage her feelings, while still trying to deal with his own haunted past.
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- Part 6 of “I've Done It Before"