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As I write this my hands shake and my stomach churns. I need to escape from everything. I hate this world. I told my mother that I was going to my cabin with my boyfriend on Tuesday. Is it Tuesday? Maybe it's Wednesday? I'm laughing to myself thinking about how he's not my boyfriend anymore. I've been losing my damn mind ever since my boyfriend died. Let's just say I had something to do with his death. Well ill start from the beginning
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“Hey baby,” James called out
“Yea?” I respond
“Are you almost done packing? We need to leave soon.” He says harshly
“Uh yea i’m almost done dont be mean.”
“Well you're always late anyway and you know I love you and would never be mean to you on purpose.”
I don’t respond as I continue packing my stuff. Before i can fully walk into the bathroom to collect my toiletries, he grabs my arm and spins me around. He’s gripping my arm so tight it'll leave a bruise.
“Ow stop you're hurting me.”
“No you're mine, I can do whatever I want with you.”
I honestly don't want to get into what happened after that but let's just say we argued and I got the short end of the stick. And it definitely doesn’t help that he does this every single week,
I shut the door behind me, making sure I lock it so he doesn't come in here and hur-h-harass me again. The lock clicks. The door handle jingles as James tries to get in.
“Nicole? Let me in.
The voice in the back of my head refuses to let him in. He can’t get in. God knows what he will do this time.
“Nicole if you don’t let me in right now im going to kil-”
“Don’t. Even. DARE FINISHING THAT SENTENCE!” I scream at him from the other side of the door.
“You don’t know what I was going to say.” he shoots back with venom in his voice.
I know what he was going to threaten. Either my best friend, Lilith, or my dog, Kylie. I couldn't let that happen to her. Me and Lilith have been best friends since high school. They don't have anyone but me.....
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They don't have anyone but me because her parents kicked them out for being a lesbian and a demi-girl. I don't want to lie but honestly I don't even think i like men. The only reason i was dating him was because my parents would never accept me if i was bisexual let alone lesbian.
I'm trying to cut off contact with my parents because of how toxic they raised me. They wanted/want me to be tiny, submissive, and do everything my "strong husband" says.
Lilith always would help me. I miss her so much. Anyway ill continue the story:
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He keeps trying to break the door down. He keeps screaming. I grab my phone with shaking hands and climb into the closet. My bathroom is kind of weird because my closet is right next to my toilet and sink. Sinking down onto the floor, i grab my phone. I dial Lilith's number and hit call. She answers on the first ring.
"Lee?" she says softly, well as soft as she can with her gravely voice.
"Lilith..-" I say sobbing "Please help me he- he did it again."
"Oh Nicole, sweetie, I'm coming."
"Thats what she said." I say with a really sad honestly kinda depressed laugh.
" Lee babe.. i'm bringing my pepper spray and shovel."
"I don't want him dead." I wisper worried we'll get caught
"Babe i need to be prepared. Im on my way."
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He finally broke the door down.
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My vision blurs as he beats the side of my face while writhe on the floor. He's finally going to kill me. Oh god. Im scared. I want Lilith to know i love them i love them i love............ My vision goes black. That was my last thought. ________________________________________________________________ When i finally wake up im sprawled across the floor and my jaw and ribs hurt like a mother fucker. I groan as i sit up. Im locked in my room. Ok im safe, im ok. I get up fully and unlock the door. I think about my safety and carefully walk down the hallway. I get to the end and see James sitting at the end.