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Sangwoo wishes he was brave. Brave enough to say no when Geonu asks to share a hotel room, say no when Geonu drags him around whatever city they're in, say no when Geonu dotes on him and treats him like he's the most precious thing on earth. Because if Sangwoo could say no then maybe he could be normal about him, but instead he looks at Geonu like he hung the stars in the sky for Sangwoo alone. Now it's not unusual for a maknae to look up to and admire their oldest hyung, and that's all Sangwoo thought this was at first but usually the maknaes aren't having wet dreams and popping boners over their hyungs just existing. Geonu's tattoos, his bike gear, his lip piercing they all existed to make sure Sangwoo was in a constant state of distress around the man he swears it.
They’re preparing for their concert in Cologne, "Pretty" Geonu mutters with a soft indulgent smile on his face as Sangwoo gets his hair touched up for their show, he hovers around the younger all day, Sangwoo keeps his head ducked down most of the time to hide his red cheeks and adoring eyes with the long hair that threatens to block his vision entirely. Geonu is oblivious enough to think Sangwoo is just shy and tired, Byeonghee unfortunately is too observant for his own good and has to suffer through watching their maknae yearn rather pathetically for their eldest hyung.
When Sangwoo is finally left alone for a minute as Geonu gets pulled away by make-up artists and hair stylists, Byeonghee grabs the boy's hand and leads him down a winding hall until they're alone, "Sangwoo you have to tell him." Bain just looks sad for him more than anything else "What? What are you talking about, tell who what?" Sangwoo stutters through faked confusion, trying to look anywhere but at his band mates' heavily lined, piercing eyes, he takes great interest in the damaged ceiling tiles.
"Geonu! That you’re absolutely head over heels in love with him! Like let’s not even address sexuality right now but letting yourself yearn like this is going to kill you babe." Bain's voice is achingly sympathetic; he moves closer to the younger, brushing his long hair away from his face, revealing big teary eyes and flushed cheeks. "Hyung... I can't do that, what if he hates me..." Sangwoo finally looks at Byeonghee’s deadpan eyes and immediately feels silly.
"Babe... I don't think Geonu could ever hate you, and hey he certainly doesn't hate me! The fact I'm even still here is proof you are in a loving safe environment yeah?" Sangwoo groans "That’s not the problem okay? I know the liking a boy thing is fine. It's the specification of who that said boy is that worries me, Geonu-hyung doesn’t deserve to feel burdened by my unrequited feelings.” Bain huffs and levels the maknae with an exasperated stare, "What if it's not unrequited? I mean you've seen the way he treats you he completely dotes on you! I love you to death Sangwoo, but you don't see me waking you up with gentle hair brushes and wiping off your makeup before bed, and he only does that stuff with you!" Sangwoo shakes his head vigorously "No, he just treats me like cause I’m the maknae... It doesn’t mean anything to him."
Bain scoffs and opens his mouth to rebuke but is cut off by a staff member hollering down the corridor for them, they have a concert to get one with.
After wrapping up the Cologne show they all head back to their hotel with tired bodies but fond hearts, they split up into their roommate arrangements as Geonu drags a sluggish Sangwoo into the elevator, cooing over his droopy eyes and messy hair. Byeonghee rolls his eyes at them and sighs. Geonu guides the maknae into the hotel room and instructs him to wipe his makeup off while the older showers, Sangwoo unfortunately is way too far gone into his head to process this and end up just sitting there staring into space.
When Geonu eventually returns from the shower he walks back into the room to find the younger still exactly where he left him with dozing eyes, “you’re gonna get pimples if you keep falling asleep still in full stage makeup.” Only then does Sangwoo snap out of his daze, breath catching as he sees Geonu. Water still drips from Geonu’s shaggy blonde and brown hair, landing on his chest and sliding down to hit the towel hanging low around his hips. He’s kept his lip piercing in, a little bit of his dark eye makeup clings to the edges of his eyes, he’s looking at Sangwoo like he’s a misbehaving pet.
“Oh um.. sorry hyung I’ll-“ Sangwoo stands to move to the vanity intending to remove his makeup but is stopped with a hand on his chest, pushing him to sit back on the bed. “It’s okay… hyung’ll do it.” Geonu looks down on him with an amused smile, he turns to find the cleanser and Sangwoo lets out a shuddering breathe at the sight of his hyungs bare back, adorned with his stupid little seal tattoo, water drops follow the curve of his spine, and the blonde has to bite back a whine at the sight. The older turns back around, cleanser-soaked cotton pad in hand, he moves back to Sangwoo, slotting perfectly between the younger’s legs, he tilts the blushing face of his maknae up to face him, soft hair falling away to reveal a red face and big eyes.
“Close your eyes Sangwoo” he complies and tries not to flinch as Geonu moves closer, the heat of his damp legs hitting Sangwoo’s inner thighs. The first pass of the cotton pad on his face makes him flinch his face away but Geonu easily grabs his jaw and stills him, “Stay still okay I don’t want to get any in your eyes.” Sangwoo stills and tries to resist the aching temptation that is Geonu’s waist right in front of his face, his hands twitch where they lay at his sides.
“Okay you can open now.” Geonu swipes the cotton pad gently a few more times over Sangwoo’s jaw and cheeks, making direct eye contact with the love-struck blonde that is looking up at him with big pupiled eyes and a slightly open mouth. Geonu gasps and lets out an amused huff as the maknae suddenly wraps his arms around his waist tight. “Hyung… you take such good care of me… thank you..” Sangwoo mumbles his thanks into the warm skin of the elder’s tummy.
Geonu smiles as he pets over the maknaes blonde hair, "C'mon you need to wash up.” Sangwoo groans but reluctantly tilts his head up from where he had his forehead pressed to the elder’s tummy. His sleepy eyes blink slowly up at his hyung, “mm.. okay..” Sangwoo stands up sluggishly going from looking up at Geonu to looking down at him. The blonde slowly slips his hands off his hyungs waist and shuffles to the bathroom, he closes the door and leans his head against it, taking deep breaths and trying to force the heat off his face and stop his blood from its rapid rush downwards.
Sangwoo feels the hardness in his jeans as they tighten uncomfortably and he groans lightly. He slowly removes himself from the door and turns to face the bathroom mirror, his cheeks are flush, his eyes are big and slightly wet, he persuades himself to pull off his clothes. He hisses slightly as he frees his aching cock from his boxers, he whines quietly at the cold air and shakily steps into the shower, turning the water up hot as he leans against the wall. He thinks back to the softness of Geonu’s skin against his, the way his hands fit so perfectly around the brunette’s waist and the feeling of his hands soothing over Sangwoo’s soft blonde hair.
Sangwoo groans as he carefully wraps his hand around his cock gently thrusting into the tight fist he’s made, he whimpers to himself imagining it was his Geonu hyung here, his hyungs hands around his cock, whispering praises in his ear, Geonu’s lip ring hard against his lips and tongue. He quickens his thrusts, trying desperately to hold back desperate moans and whines while his imaginations runs wild. Geonu on his knees, Geonu on top of him, Geonu below him. His breath hitches as he doubles over at the wash of pleasure that overtakes him, his hips twitch and his rhythm falters, he fails to bite back a loud whimper when he comes over his hand and the shower wall.
He shivers, pants and whimpers quietly, recovering from the hot pleasure that zipped down his spine a second ago. Sangwoo makes quick work of washing up, wiping away the sweat and grime that only comes with being under hot stage lights for hours, when he gets out of the shower Sangwoo quickly ruffles a towel over his long hair before wrapping it around his waist. He takes a deep breath and listens for any movement beyond the bathroom door, praying Geonu hadn’t heard the younger jerking off over him like a hormonal teenager. Sangwoo finds the confidence to open the door and step out into the hotel room, he finds Geonu immediately. Geonu is fast asleep in bed as if nothing in the world could ever be bothering him.
When they arrive in Paris everyone is in high spirits, the tiredness that comes with a tour like this momentarily forgotten in the excitement of sightseeing in one of the most beautiful cities they’ve been to, the drop their things off and all split off in pairs to explore the city, agreeing to meet later for dinner. As usual Geonu grabs Sangwoo immediately and drags him to go find some obscure store that sells the specific blend of y2k and alt clothing that they both collect. Geonu yaps about the montage he’s making of their Europe tour, saying Sangwoo needs to be in it but that it’s okay hyung will do all the edit work.
“Are we doing the Eiffel tower or are we too cool for that hm?” Geonu’s question snaps Sangwoo out of his daydreaming and he turn to look at him. “No, I think we should do it I can’t imagine when we’ll be back here so?” Geonu hums and nods as they navigate their way out of the twisted alleys they’ve found themselves in. As they make it out and into the more central parts of the city they can see the Eiffel tower getting closer and closer the more they slowly walk around the city.
“wait wait I want to film some stuff for the video” Geonu takes out his phone and earbuds, “put one of these in” Sangwoo complies and puts the left earbud in and giggles when the beginning notes of I Really Like You by Carly Rae Jepsen start playing in his ears. He looks over to see his hyung already jumping around the empty plaza they’ve found themselves in, dancing truly like nobody’s watching, Sangwoo gives into it and joins him in lip-syncing to the lyrics and dancing to the song only the two of them can hear.
Geonu loops the song a couple times purely because he’s enjoying himself, eventually when they’re both out of breath and laughing too much to keep moving they go back over to where Geonu had propped up his phone to record them. Sangwoo is still quietly giggling and bopping his head as Geonu stands still to check over the video, absentmindedly grabbing the younger to pull him to his side.
Sangwoo stares up at the Eiffel tower still a bit away and smiles, calming his breath. He looks over to the older and sees him similarly staring off at the distance. Geonu starts mumbling about maybe having to text the guys about being late for dinner, Sangwoo doesn’t hear a word of it as he stares at the way the sun hits his hyungs face and hair, his hands mindlessly twitching in its place inches away from Geonu’s own hand.
Sangwoo isn’t even really thinking when his hand slowly crosses that gap to brush the brunette’s, he flinches back at the contact but is stopped from retreating further when Geonu snatches his wrist. Sangwoo gasps small and afraid, like a child caught stealing candy, Geonu takes sunglasses off and looks the younger in the eye as he grabs his hand. “c’mon we should get moving before it gets dark”
“Hyung-“
“Let’s go we need to meet up with the others.”
Geonu almost hesitantly drops Sangwoo’s hand and starts walking away before the maknae can ever process what just happened.