Chapter 1: Before the lights
Summary:
How it started.
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Being Daniel Ricciardo’s friend was many things.
Fun, obviously. The man weaponized jokes.
Safe, surprisingly. After just the first season as teammates, Lando knew he could go to him with pretty much anything and wouldn’t be laughed at in a way that cut. Daniel teased, but he never diminished.
And then there was the unpredictability.
That was the dangerous part.
Daniel had more energy than Lando on his best days, and Lando had a lot of energy. But Daniel’s came without warning. It spiked at 2 a.m., rerouted plans without discussion, turned “quick lunch” into a six-hour adventure. Being around him meant surrendering to chaos.
Which is how Lando ended up in Australia in the first place.
Technically, he’d been on vacation — one of those carefully curated off-season breaks filled with sun, privacy, and just enough social media presence to remind sponsors he was alive. A few days in Europe, maybe a yacht somewhere warm, something expensive and relaxing.
Then Daniel had called.
“We spend all our time in the UK and Monaco, mate. It’s only fair you come see where I’m from.”
Lando had rolled his eyes but booked the flight anyway.
It felt… normal. Easy.
The first two days were exactly what Daniel had promised.
Beach mornings with blinding sun and salt in Lando’s hair. Daniel insisting he needed “proper Australian exposure,” which apparently meant surf attempts that ended with Lando swallowing half the ocean while Daniel laughed like it was the best thing he’d ever seen.
They strolled through town in caps and sunglasses, suspiciously unnoticed. No paddock passes. No cameras shoved into their faces. Just two guys grabbing iced coffee and arguing about which bakery made the better sausage roll.
They played video games until stupid hours of the night, competitive and loud, Daniel dramatically accusing Lando of cheating every time he lost.
There was even dinner with Daniel’s family — warm, loud, comfortable. Lando found himself smiling more than he expected. It was grounding in a way the paddock rarely was. No performance. No persona. Just being.
It was nice.
Suspiciously nice.
And Lando should have known that with Daniel, “nice” never lasted quietly.
On the third night, sometime deep in that heavy, dreamless sleep that only comes after sun and sea air, Lando was violently shaken awake.
He flinched upright, heart hammering.
“C’mon, sleeping beauty.”
Even in the dark, Daniel’s grin practically glowed. There was something feral about it. Excited. Anticipatory.
Lando squinted at the bedside clock.
“What the hell,” he croaked. “It’s three.”
“Exactly.” Daniel clapped his hands once, far too awake for the hour. “Perfect timing.”
“For what?” Lando dragged a hand down his face. “A sunrise meditation? Because I will physically fight you.”
Daniel laughed, low and delighted.
“Nope. I’m gonna show you the real reason I invited you here.”
Lando froze for half a second.
“The beach wasn’t the real reason?”
Daniel shook his head slowly, eyes sparkling with something that made Lando instantly wary.
“Put on something you don’t mind getting dirty,” he said. “And maybe don’t wear anything with a sponsor logo.”
That was the moment Lando’s stomach flipped.
Because Daniel Ricciardo’s version of “don’t wear sponsor logos” had never once led to something sensible.
That’s how he ended up in a plain grey hoodie, an ordinary Puma cap pulled low over his curls, the most anonymous he’d looked in years.
No team kit.
No logos.
No polished paddock prince.
Just Lando.
He slid into the passenger seat and shut the door with a solid thud, the interior stripped down to something far less civilized than he was used to.
“Had no idea you owned a Skyline,” he commented, adjusting the cap as he buckled in.
A cold can of Red Bull sweated in his hand. He tried not to wince at it — ironic, really, considering the branding of half his professional life — but he needed the caffeine boost if Daniel insisted on functioning like a nocturnal creature.
Daniel shot him a sideways grin as the engine rumbled to life.
“I don’t really go around announcing it,” he said lightly. “It’s an undercover car.”
Lando snorted. “Right. Very subtle.”
Daniel didn’t elaborate.
He just shifted gears.
The drive wasn’t long. Fifteen minutes, maybe twenty. The city thinned around them, bright storefronts giving way to warehouses and low industrial buildings. Streetlights grew sparse. Traffic disappeared entirely.
The air felt different out here — heavier. Quieter.
Daniel turned down a narrow road that didn’t look like it led anywhere important, tires crunching lightly over uneven asphalt.
And then the sound reached them.
Low at first. A distant vibration. Then clearer.
Engines.
They pulled into what looked like an abandoned parking lot at the edge of nowhere.
Except it wasn’t abandoned.
It was alive.
People moved in clusters under scattered floodlights. Music thudded from somewhere unseen. Girls in tiny skirts leaned against car hoods, laughing too loudly. Guys hovered nearby, trying a little too hard to impress.
But that wasn’t what made Lando’s pulse tick up.
Cars.
So many cars.
Old Japanese imports sitting low to the ground. Classic muscle cars with polished chrome gleaming under harsh lights. Newer builds with aggressive body kits. Flashy paint jobs. Beat-up shells that looked like they’d been rebuilt from scrap and stubbornness alone.
Hoods were propped open everywhere. People bent over engines, tweaking, tuning, arguing.
No uniformity. No sponsors. No pristine hospitality units or motorhomes in sight.
It was messy. Loud. Unapologetic.
Lando stared out the window, lips parting slightly despite himself.
“This is…” he muttered.
Daniel killed the engine.
“Different?” he offered.
Lando huffed out a quiet laugh.
“It’s like we just drove onto a Fast & Furious set.”
Except this wasn’t a set.
There were no cameras. No choreography. No safety briefings.
Just raw anticipation humming in the air.
A car somewhere nearby revved — sharp, aggressive and the crowd reacted instantly, attention snapping toward it like iron to a magnet.
Lando felt it then.
That familiar shift in his chest before a race.
Not the polished pre-grid ceremony feeling. Not the orchestrated anthem and formation lap ritual.
This was something more primal.
He glanced at Daniel slowly.
“You brought me to an illegal street race.”
Daniel’s smile widened, utterly unrepentant.
“Welcome to Australia, mate.”
Daniel was already out of the car before Lando had fully processed where they were.
“C’mon,” the Aussie called over his shoulder.
Not about to be left standing alone in the dark, Lando pushed the door open and followed, hands tucked into the front pocket of his hoodie, cap still low over his face.
Heads turned — not in recognition, not yet but in curiosity. Daniel, on the other hand, was greeted like he belonged.
A small cluster of about six people broke into grins as he approached. Claps on the back. Quick handshakes. Easy laughter.
“Ric’s back!”
“Took you long enough!”
Lando hovered half a step behind, observing.
Daniel pulled him forward without ceremony. “Oi, behave. This is Lando.”
Names were thrown at him — quick, casual.
Luca. Or maybe Levi. Someone with a buzzcut. Someone with a sleeve tattoo. Another guy with oil under his fingernails. A girl with sharp eyeliner and sharper eyes.
Lando nodded politely, but the sounds blurred together.
His mind was elsewhere.
Spinning.
This was illegal. Obviously illegal. There were no barriers. No marshals. No medical cars waiting discreetly in the background. No FIA paperwork. No stewards.
If something went wrong here, it would really go wrong.
The responsible part of his brain — the one trained by contracts and PR teams and managers was screaming.
This is a terrible idea.
If anyone finds out—
If you get recognized—
But underneath that?
It was cool.
Terrifyingly cool.
He’d never seen anything like this up close. Not like this. Not raw and buzzing and unfiltered.
The energy wasn’t corporate. It wasn’t curated.
It was alive.
And he was hooked before he could help it.
“Mate, couldn’t have picked better timing,” one of the guys said — Luca? Levi? — nudging Daniel with an elbow. “Heard Piastri’s showing up tonight.”
Lando didn’t miss it.
That flicker in Daniel’s eyes.
Interest. Anticipation.
“Oh yeah?” Daniel replied casually, but it was forced casual. Too light.
Lando glanced between them. “Who’s Piastri?”
“No one,” the girl cut in immediately.
She was the only one whose name had stuck — Sophia. Dark hair, arms crossed, expression unimpressed.
Daniel rolled his eyes. “Don’t listen to her. She’s biased.”
Sophia shot him a look. “I’m realistic.”
Daniel leaned closer to Lando, lowering his voice as if sharing state secrets. “Her boyfriend’s biggest rival,” he stage-whispered, making exaggerated air quotes around rival.
Sophia shoved his shoulder.
Lando blinked. “Okay… rival in what?”
“Everything,” one of the guys muttered.
Daniel straightened, grin widening. “Street king around here. Doesn’t stay in one place long. Rolls in, wins, disappears. Bit dramatic if you ask me.”
“That’s not dramatic,” Sophia snapped. “It’s smart.”
Daniel ignored her. “Theo’s been trying to beat him for years. Got close once. Thought he had him.”
“And?” Lando asked, despite himself.
Daniel’s eyes gleamed.
“And he didn’t.”
Sophia sighed but didn’t contradict him.
“He’s the only guy who’s ever been faster than Theo,” Daniel continued. “Three times.”
Three.
The number landed heavier than it should have.
Lando felt something tighten instinctively in his chest.
Fast.
Not lucky. Not chaotic.
Fast.
In a place like this, that meant something.
“And he’s that good?” Lando asked, trying for neutral curiosity.
Daniel’s grin softened just a fraction.
“Yeah,” he admitted. “He’s that good.”
Somewhere across the lot, an engine roared — deeper than the others, smoother.
The small crowd shifted subtly.
Not panicked.
Not loud.
Just… aware.
It was like the air itself tightened.
No one spoke. No one even seemed to breathe as headlights sliced through the dim lot and a low, unmistakable silhouette rolled past them.
A McLaren Senna.
“Fuck,” Lando thought, the word landing heavy and reverent in his mind.
He’d seen hundreds of McLarens up close. Artura. 720S. P1. He drove one of the most advanced race cars in the world for a living in Formula One. He could identify models by sound alone. He owned a few. He’d tested more.
But this one—
This one was different.
Matte black.
Not factory glossy — matte. The kind that absorbed light instead of reflecting it. Dark green accents traced along the edges like veins under skin. Subtle. Intentional.
It sat lower than any Senna Lando had ever seen. Not by much — just enough to make his trained eye twitch. The suspension had been adjusted, aggressive but precise. The rear wing sat at a sharper angle, tipped just slightly further down than standard it was barely noticeable unless you knew what you were looking at.
Lando knew.
And the sound.
God.
It wasn’t the usual scream. It didn’t need to be. The engine purred at first — a restrained, controlled growl — then deepened into something smoother, richer. Tuned. Refined. Dangerous.
It didn’t shout for attention.
It whispered it.
And somehow that was worse.
The kind of car that didn’t need to prove anything.
The kind that simply knew.
Lando felt it in his chest — that instinctive spark of respect that only real engineering could ignite in him.
Whoever built this understood aerodynamics. Understood balance. Understood restraint.
And whoever drove it?
Wasn’t here to play.
The Senna rolled past slowly, almost lazily, before settling into a space near the edge of the lot. The engine cut, and the silence that followed was thick.
The door lifted slowly.
And Lando’s focus narrowed without permission.
He only caught pieces at first, movement, shape. The driver stepped out with no rush, no attempt at performance. Tall. Lean. Comfortable.
Soft waves of hair fell naturally, almost unfairly neat despite the hour. Under the harsh parking lot lights, faint moles marked his skin. There was grease on his fingers — not from tonight’s arrival, but from work. Real work.
Not polished paddock hands.
Built hands.
Then he looked up.
Those eyes.
Sharp. Focused. Calm in a way that wasn’t lazy it was deliberate. They didn’t scan for approval. They didn’t search for attention.
They measured.
They flicked across Daniel first, something like recognition flashing there.
Then they moved.
And landed on Lando.
For half a second.
Long enough.
Long enough for Lando to feel stripped of the anonymity his hoodie and cap were supposed to give him. Long enough to feel evaluated — not as a celebrity, not as a brand, but as a driver.
The look didn’t hold admiration.
It didn’t hold hostility either.
It held assessment.
And then it was gone.
Like Lando had already been sorted into a category.
His pulse kicked up hard in his throat.
He’d been stared at by rivals before. By champions. By drivers who’d grown up wanting to beat him.
But this felt different.
There were no cameras here. No lap charts. No statistics to hide behind.
Just instinct recognizing instinct.
The Senna ticked softly as it cooled behind him.
And Lando knew, with sudden, terrifying clarity—
He wasn’t the most dangerous driver in this parking lot tonight.
Which was stupid.
He’d come in second last season. He was fast. Professional. Trained. Calculated. He shouldn’t feel… threatened. Not by a street racer. Not by anyone.
So why did Daniel bring him here?
Another joke, probably. Another sly dig at Lando’s posh life. The Aussie loved to poke fun at him; old money, polished, perfect suits, perfectly clean sneakers, perfectly rehearsed smiles. A night in the shadows like this, no cameras, no sponsors — it had “Dan” written all over it.
Lando tried to reason through it, tried to calm his pulse, but his mind was still spinning.
Slowly, the people around him started to relax again. Conversations picked up. Laughter returned. Engines purred in the background. The parking lot’s energy went back to its usual chaotic hum, as if nothing had happened.
Daniel leaned in, arm sliding over Lando’s shoulder, guiding him toward the edge of the lot. He started telling a story about the first time he’d come here, animated, laughing at himself, hands waving as he mimed dodging engines and slipping through crowds.
But Lando didn’t listen.
Couldn’t listen.
His eyes were locked on the prince-looking man, the one from the car — talking quietly with someone in the distance. Leaning casually against the Senna, moving like he owned nothing but still somehow everything. Then, without a word, he was back in the driver’s seat, adjusting something, shifting, ready.
The world around Lando seemed to slow. He blinked. Processed. And then it happened.
Everything happened fast after that.
Engines roared. Tires screamed against asphalt. Shouts cut through the night. Figures sprinted. Cars lined up. The prince from the matte black Senna glanced over, a slight smirk flickering across his face.
Daniel grinned at Lando, eyes wide with the thrill he’d been waiting for.
“Ready?” he shouted.
Lando’s pulse surged. His hands tightened on his hoodie. He swallowed hard, heart hammering, and realized — he was about to go head-to-head with someone who might just be faster than him.
And he didn’t even know it yet.
A girl stepped forward, pretty, dirty blonde hair tied back, dressed far too modestly for the chaos around her. She waved a flag just like they did in the movies, and the cars roared to life, tires squealing against asphalt.
Lando watched the Senna speed off first, cutting through the night like a living shadow. His green eyes followed every movement as it approached the first turn. Faster. More precise. Dangerous. Almost drifting, teasing the limits, until finally, it disappeared completely from sight.
“What now?” Lando finally found his voice, heart still hammering.
“Well, seeing as there are no screens,” Daniel said, calm as ever, “we wait.”
Without the matte black McLaren or its owner anywhere near him, Lando felt his mind clear enough to think again. “How long is the lap?”
“4.3.” Daniel’s expression was pleased, seeing the younger finally absorbed in the event. “Average time is 1:11. Record? 1:08.” His voice dropped, almost reverent. “Set by Piastri two years ago.”
Lando barely processed the statistic before movement in the distance caught his eye. The Senna was back, gliding in like a predator, followed by the other cars. A flashy silver Nissan trailed close behind Lando assumed it must belong to Theo.
But the matte black car stayed in front.
It didn’t stop at the finish line. Instead, it swung around and lined itself back at the start.
“What is he doing?” Lando asked, frowning.
“Pushing,” Daniel said, almost like it was the simplest thing in the world.
“Pushing what?”
“Limits.”
The cars lined up again. One less than last time — the slowest had been parked. Out of the corner of his eye, Lando saw the driver slam the hood aggressively, a brief display of frustration or focus, and then climb back in.
Lando chuckled to himself. Despite the high stakes, he recognized the similarities to the paddock after all — the precision, the obsession with improvement.
Then it happened again. Flag waved. Tires screamed. Cars disappeared.
“What are the rules?” Lando asked, urgency creeping into his voice.
“Five cars. Four rounds,” Daniel explained calmly. “A bit like Quali. Slowest retires. Eliminates themselves, until only the fastest remains.”
“So it’s not actually racing?” Lando frowned, still confused.
“Oh, they do race each other along the way,” Daniel said, grinning. “Maybe I’ll take you to a different spot next time, so you can see more of the action.”
“Next time,” Lando echoed, heart pounding. He wanted a next time. He wanted to see it all. Every turn. Every engine roar. Every dangerous second.
And for the first time that night, fear and excitement twisted together in a way that made him feel alive.
Lando stayed mostly quiet after that, letting Daniel chatter on, catching up with friends, laughing too loudly, shaking hands, telling stories. He nodded here and there, but his eyes kept drifting to the lot, scanning the empty spaces, imagining the matte black Senna waiting for its next lap.
Round two played out the same as the first — the McLaren up front, effortless, calm. The third was no different. Lando could feel the pattern now, almost soothing, almost predictable.
Then came the fourth.
The lot went silent again. Even Daniel’s voice faded as the crowd tensed. Bits of conversations floated past him — something about Theo being fast, desperate to prove himself, to beat Piastri at any cost. Lando’s pulse picked up.
Sophia stepped forward this time to drop the flag. Some kind of girlfriend privilege, maybe — like F1 fans calling Kelly the “first WAG” because she was the partner of the reigning champion. Lando didn’t care enough to ask. He only cared about the cars.
As the engines roared and vanished into the night, Lando fixed his gaze on the corner where they would appear. Every muscle in his body was tense.
Silver first. Theo’s Nissan. His stomach dropped, bitter and uneasy. Somehow, in these twenty minutes he’s been here, Lando’s brain had decided he was a Piastri fan. Or maybe his heart had. Recognition clicked too quickly for reason — and the feeling was ridiculous.
Then the matte black McLaren appeared. Calm. Steady. Not speeding up, not slowing down. Perfectly in control. Too perfect. Unsettling.
The Nissan took the last turn. Lando felt a pang in his chest. He wanted to look away, but he physically couldn’t.
And then it happened.
Theo’s car spun. Dirt kicked up in a violent arc. Tires flailed. It skidded straight toward a tree and stopped just inches from disaster. A dramatic halt, the kind that made the stomach twist.
The Senna rolled through the cloud of dust, unwavering, precise, smooth, to the finish line for the final time that night.
Lando’s brain went offline.
Did he… know?
Because it looked like Piastri had known. Every movement had been calculated the distance, the speed, the calm precision. Safe but untouchable. He must have known.
The crowd erupted, surging toward the parked matte car. People pressed forward, hands out, shouting congratulations.
Lando didn’t move at first. He stayed frozen, planted firmly in place as people moved around him. Cars rolled past, leaving trails of red and white lights that cut through the dark. The cheers, the shouting, the revving engines — it all blurred into one chaotic hum that pressed against his chest.
And then he realized he was alone. One moment, Daniel had been leaning against him, joking, clapping a hand on his shoulder. The next… nothing. Gone.
Panic bloomed, cold and sharp, twisting in his stomach.
He took a small step forward. And another. Green eyes scanning, darting, trying to find the familiar figure of Daniel, or at least the navy hoodie and cap that marked him. Heart hammering. Breath catching. The adrenaline coursing through him sharpened every sound — the clack of shoes on asphalt, the metallic scrape of a car door, the murmurs and laughter of the crowd, the distant growl of engines starting again.
His hands flexed at his sides, fingers brushing against the fabric of his hoodie. Race, Senna, Piastri — all of it faded to a background hum. His brain switched entirely into survival mode. He was in a foreign country, at an illegal race, surrounded by strangers whose intentions he didn’t know.
He pushed forward, weaving between clusters of people. Some were waving, shouting at friends, or gesturing excitedly toward the cars. Others were just milling about, leaning casually against vehicles. Lando’s pulse spiked with every step, every shift of the crowd. His eyes flicked from one shadow to the next, looking for movement, for someone familiar, anything to anchor him.
Why had he agreed to this? Why had he left the house, the warmth of a quiet room, the predictable comfort of his posh vacation? He should be asleep, curled under soft sheets, not shoved into chaos, lost and vulnerable. Every rational part of his brain screamed at him to stop, to retreat, to take a deep breath and collect himself.
And then, before he could even process another thought, a hand gripped his arm. Hard. Instantly pulling him off his feet.
His head went blank. Pulse skyrocketed.
He barely registered the interior of the car as he was shoved inside. The door slammed before he could react, rattling against the frame with a metallic clang. No seatbelt. No time to protest. No chance to brace himself.
The engine growled — low, controlled, menacing — before the car lurched forward. Tires screamed against asphalt, sending the crowd scattering in every direction.
Lando’s stomach pitched violently. Every nerve screamed. His hands gripped the edges of the seat instinctively. The lights of the lot streaked past in a blur, and the night became nothing but motion, sound, and the overwhelming sense that he had just stepped into something far beyond him.
This wasn’t just a ride. This wasn’t just adrenaline or fun. This was a reckoning and Lando had no idea what he’d just gotten himself into.
“I heard rumours about Ricardo going to these things, but would never expect to see the golden boy in such a place.”
The voice was deep, smooth, somehow calming despite the speed, despite the chaos around them.
Lando’s eyes darted to the driver. Calm. Collected. Every movement precise, effortless. One hand resting lightly on the wheel, the other shifting the manual gearbox with ease.
“Piastri.”
The Australian glanced at him briefly, expression unimpressed. “I prefer Oscar, if you will.”
Oscar. The name rolled off Lando’s tongue in his mind, and suddenly a shiver ran down his spine. Giving the man a name made him real. Tangible. Dangerous. Somehow closer.
“You…” Lando started, words catching in his throat. “Did you just… kidnap me?”
Oscar’s smirk deepened, a reaction at last, sharp and knowing. “Kidnapped? More like saved,” he said, a low chuckle rumbling in his chest. “People were staring. Recognising you.”
Lando’s pulse picked up again, faster now, heat creeping to his neck. Saved? Staring? Recognising him?
“You—” he tried again, but words failed. He couldn’t decide whether he was angry, terrified, or… something else entirely.
Oscar’s hand shifted, smooth and controlled. “Relax,” he said simply. “You’re fine.”
Lando’s green eyes narrowed, scanning him, searching for threat, challenge, maybe even a hint of amusement. The calm precision of him, the way he drove, the way he spoke — it was almost hypnotic.
And somehow, that made Lando’s stomach twist even more.
The silence that came after that was welcome. Lando leaned back slightly, trying to calm himself, to gather his scattered thoughts while Oscar remained perfectly still, patient, letting him do it at his own pace.
The whole night had been ridiculous. Completely out of his comfort zone. Pushing boundaries he didn’t even know he had. He was used to adrenaline, sure, but this was different — raw, unpredictable, uncontrolled. Driving a Formula One car, on the other hand, was something he could practically do with his eyes closed, at least in the simulator. Precise, measured, familiar. Everything tonight had been the opposite.
The twists, the turns, the unknown it was exhilarating, terrifying, and exhausting all at once. Lando’s hands flexed in his lap as he forced himself to focus on something simple: the subtle hum of the car around him, the gentle vibrations through the seat, the calm composure of the man next to him.
He concentrated on breathing. Slowly. In. Out. In. Out. Trying to match the rhythm of the engine, to let the chaos behind.
After a few moments, he finally broke the silence. “Where are we going?” His voice was quiet, almost hesitant, like testing the waters.
“You tell me,” Oscar said, still not glancing at him. “Unless you want to go back to Melbourne with me — which I doubt.”
“I—” Lando hesitated. Of course he didn’t know Daniel’s address here in Australia. He started to mutter, then suddenly remembered something. The forgotten phone in his jeans pocket.
He dug it out, screen lighting up immediately. Notifications. A horrendous amount. Missed calls, messages stacked on top of each other. Mostly from Daniel. No wonder he hadn’t noticed anything earlier — the phone had been on ‘Do Not Disturb’ the entire time.
Lando’s thumb hovered over the screen, heart racing a little faster. He could feel the weight of everything he’d left behind pressing in for just a second — and then he let it go, focusing again on the car, on Oscar, on the surreal night he had found himself living.
He shot a quick text to Daniel.
I’m fine. Send address.
No explanation. No apologies. Just enough to stop a manhunt.
His phone immediately started buzzing Daniel calling. Of course he was. Lando stared at the screen for half a second before declining it. Another buzz. Another call.
He ignored that too.
The address came through next, a pinned location.
He looked at it.
Then locked his phone.
Because despite everything — the panic, the chaos, the fact he had just been pulled into a car by a man he technically didn’t know something twisted deep inside him didn’t want this night to end.
Not yet.
Now that his nerves had finally settled, clarity crept back in. And with it came something unexpected.
This was the most fun he’d had in a while.
Not staged fun. Not sponsor-dinner fun. Not “let’s film a challenge for content” fun.
Real fun.
The emotions, the passion, the raw, unfiltered talent he had witnessed tonight — it had awakened something in him. Something competitive. Curious.
Hungry.
“I’m pretty sure the Senna doesn’t come in manual,” he said casually, breaking the quiet.
There it was.
A reaction.
Oscar’s eyebrow lifted slightly, eyes flicking toward him for half a second. “You’re right. It doesn’t.”
“The rear wing is angled differently as well,” Lando added, more confident now.
A corner of Oscar’s mouth twitched. “What else did you notice?”
There was something in his tone now. Not mocking. Interested.
“It’s lower. Suspension’s been adjusted. Has to be,” Lando continued, leaning slightly forward as if he could still see it in his mind. “And the engine — it doesn’t sound stock. It’s cleaner. Less restriction. I think…”
Oscar shifted gears smoothly before answering.
“ECU remap,” he said. “Custom tune. Nothing stupid. Just optimized the fuel mapping and throttle response.”
Lando nodded slowly. That tracked.
“Upgraded downpipes,” Oscar continued. “Less back pressure. Helps it breathe properly.”
“That explains the tone,” Lando murmured, almost to himself.
“Titanium exhaust system,” Oscar added. “Lighter. Better flow.”
Of course.
“What about the ride height?” Lando asked.
“Adjustable coilovers,” Oscar replied easily. “Dialed it down about twenty millimeters. Stiffer spring rates. Keeps body roll minimal without making it undriveable on public roads.”
Public roads.
Lando almost laughed.
“And the wing?” he pressed.
“Custom mounts,” Oscar said. “Slightly more aggressive angle for extra rear downforce at high speed. Helps through the long sweeper near the docks.”
So he’d tuned it for the specific course.
Lando’s stomach flipped again — but this time not from fear.
“You changed the gearbox too,” he said carefully.
Oscar’s jaw tightened just slightly.
“Converted it,” he admitted. “Sequential manual. Paddle systems are great on track. Out here…” he shrugged faintly, “…I prefer feeling it.”
Lando stared at him.
“You rebuilt a Senna transmission.”
“I improved it.”
The confidence wasn’t cocky. It was factual.
“What about weight?” Lando asked, fully engaged now.
“Carbon bucket replacements. Stripped unnecessary interior trim. Lightweight battery. Swapped a few aluminum components for forged pieces. It’s about sixty kilos lighter than stock.”
Sixty kilos.
On a car that already wasn’t exactly heavy.
“You risked modifying a hypercar that costs—”
Oscar cut him off smoothly. “I didn’t modify it. I built it. When I first bought it, the car was practically a wreck.”
Lando turned his head properly at that.
“A wreck?” he repeated, disbelief clear in his voice.
“Front-end damage. Suspension shot. Engine needed a full teardown,” Oscar said evenly, like he was listing groceries. “Insurance wrote it off. I didn’t.”
“You bought a written-off Senna.”
“Cheap,” Oscar corrected.
Lando let out a breath that was almost a laugh. “That’s insane.”
Oscar shrugged slightly, downshifting with effortless precision. “It was either that or let it rot in some warehouse. At least this way it does what it was meant to do.”
Silence settled again.
But it wasn’t tense anymore.
It was charged.
The kind of silence that isn’t empty — it’s full of things unsaid.
Lando leaned back slowly, studying him more openly now. The calm posture. The quiet confidence. No bragging. No exaggeration. Just fact.
“You built a monster.”
Oscar glanced at him briefly, something sharper flickering in his eyes.
“No,” he said quietly. “I built something that can win.”
And for the first time that night, Lando didn’t feel like the golden boy.
He felt like he was sitting next to someone who loved racing just as much as he did.
Just differently.
“You did it yourself?” Lando asked, softer now. Because this wasn’t just bold — it was impressive. Work like that required knowledge. Skill. Patience. Obsession.
“Yeah.”
No hesitation.
“No big team? No engineers?”
Oscar shook his head once. “A couple friends helped with lifting the engine block. But the rest? Mine.”
Lando pictured it without meaning to.
Late nights in a cold garage. Grease under fingernails. Trial and error. Rebuilding something piece by piece until it obeyed you.
Not data sheets and simulations.
Hands.
“Wow,” was all Lando could manage at first. It sounded small compared to what it meant. “You could make a career out of that.”
“I could.” Oscar nodded once, eyes still on the road “But I couldn’t give up racing.”
There it was.
Not dramatic. Not bitter.
Just truth.
Lando swallowed.
Because he understood that. Deeply.
There was something in the way Oscar said it like racing wasn’t a hobby. It wasn’t even a dream.
It was oxygen.
“Did you ever think about going pro?” Lando asked.
There it was. The question that had been sitting at the back of his mind from the moment he saw that Senna launch off the line in the first round. The precision. The instinct. The control. That wasn’t luck. That wasn’t street flair.
That was training.
Oscar’s jaw shifted slightly.
“I tried,” the Aussie admitted, voice tighter now. Not defensive. Just… older somehow. “But money was tight growing up. Karting isn’t exactly cheap.” He gave a small, humorless breath of a laugh. “Had to quit before I had any real chance.”
Lando didn’t answer immediately.
Because he knew exactly what that ladder looked like. Karts. Travel. Entry fees. Engines. Tires. Endless tires. One season could swallow a small fortune. And that was before you even got noticed.
“You are good,” Lando said quietly. Not a question.
Oscar didn’t look at him. “Good enough to dream. Not good enough to get backed.”
That hit harder than it should have.
“Would’ve loved to race against you,” Lando said before he could overthink it.
That earned him a real glance.
Not amused. Not brushing it off.
Measured.
There it was again.
That silent thread pulling tight between them.
Different worlds. Different paths.
Same hunger.
Same fire.
The understanding settled quietly, heavy and undeniable.
They weren’t just two drivers in a car anymore.
They were two racers who had chosen different roads to survive the same obsession.
And somehow, that made the space between them feel smaller.
The air in the car felt dense all of a sudden not awkward, just weighted with too much honesty for one night.
“Are you hungry?” Oscar asked abruptly.
The question was unhinged enough to make Lando blink.
A distraction.
A deliberate one.
Lando just nodded, hoping Oscar caught it in his peripheral vision as he pulled his phone back out.
He texted Daniel.
Won’t be back anytime soon. Am safe tho.
Three dots appeared instantly.
He locked the screen before the reply could come.
A few minutes later, the glowing yellow arches came into view.
Oscar didn’t ask what he wanted. Just rolled into the drive-through like this was the most normal part of their night.
He ordered calmly, efficiently.
Lando opened his mouth to protest — something about macros, or routine, or at least choosing his own cheat meal — but then closed it again.
This night had already broken every rule he usually lived by.
What was one more?
Oscar paid before Lando could reach for anything.
That made him chuckle. “Seriously?”
They got the food absurdly fast. Oscar handed the paper bag over without ceremony, the warmth seeping through the thin packaging into Lando’s hands, before pulling out and driving off again.
He didn’t head back toward the city center.
Instead, he took a few quieter turns, narrower roads, less streetlight glare. For someone who didn’t live here, he moved like he knew exactly where he was going.
“You’ve done this before,” Lando observed lightly.
“Driven?” Oscar deadpanned.
“Escaped.”
A faint smirk. “Maybe.”
They eventually rolled to a stop near a lake just outside the main stretch of town. It was definitely not a legal parking spot. Gravel, low barrier, a small sign half-hidden in the dark that probably said something about restricted access.
Lando barely glanced at it.
What was new this night?
The engine clicked softly as it cooled. The world felt still in comparison to everything that had happened hours before.
Lando peeked inside the bag.
Two cheeseburgers. A large box of chicken nuggets. Fries wedged along the side.
He looked up at Oscar.
“Figured you didn’t need to be so strict with your diet,” the Aussie said, handing him a vanilla milkshake. “It’s winter break.”
There was the smallest hint of teasing in his tone.
Lando took the shake, fingers brushing Oscar’s briefly.
The first rays of sun began stretching across the lake, soft gold cutting through the fading dark. The surface of the water caught it slowly, like it was waking up too.
For a moment, neither of them spoke.
They just sat there two racers in a illegally parked hypercar, eating fast food at sunrise like teenagers who had nowhere better to be.
The adrenaline had burned off.
What remained was quieter.
Warmer.
And somehow, even more dangerous.
“How old are you anyway?” the Brit asked between bites of cheeseburger, wiping his fingers on a napkin that was already losing the battle.
“Twenty-three.”
Hearing Lando’s sudden giggle, Oscar glanced at him, brows pulling together slightly. “Hm?”
“I’m older than you.”
There was something ridiculously satisfying in the way he said it, like he’d just won an invisible point.
The conversation flowed easily after that.
The heaviness from earlier thinned out, replaced by something lighter. They traded sibling stories — chaotic childhood arguments, protective older-brother moments. The Aussie talked about what it was like growing up with only sisters, while the other complained about being the middle child.
Oscar admitted to breaking a window with a cricket ball once; Lando confessed to crashing a scooter into a garden fence when he was eight.
They talked about pets, too. Oscar told him about Basil, and Lando admitted he’d always wanted a dog — but he didn’t want to put one through the constant travelling.
Oscar listened, actually listened — when Lando started rambling about photography. About chasing the perfect light, about how different cities feel through a lens, about how sometimes it was the only way he could slow his brain down.
“You see things differently when you’re not in them,” Lando explained, gesturing with a nugget like it was a prop. “It’s quiet. No noise. Just framing.”
Oscar nodded, eyes on him instead of the lake now. “Makes sense.”
And when Oscar talked about his road trips across the country — sleeping in the car, fixing things on the go, chasing mountain roads just because they looked good on a map Lando found himself leaning in the same way.
“You just… drive?” he asked.
“Yeah.”
“No schedule?”
“No.”
“That’s insane.”
“It’s peaceful.”
Somehow, no matter how far they drifted, the conversation always circled back to racing. To cars. To engines and corners and the way different asphalt feels under different temperatures.
But never about Lando’s job.
Just two people bonding over the love they shared.
The sun climbed higher without either of them noticing at first. The lake shifted from gold to blue. The world started moving again in the distance.
Lando yawned once.
Then again.
Then a third time, longer and impossible to hide.
Oscar smirked faintly. “Bedtime?”
“Shut up,” Lando muttered, rubbing his eyes. “I’ve been kidnapped. That’s exhausting.”
“Voluntarily.”
“Details.”
Eventually, reality pressed in. Obligations. Normalcy. The fact that they couldn’t sit by a lake eating nuggets forever.
Oscar started the engine again and pulled back onto the road.
He drove through the city like he hadn’t been awake all night. Smooth. Precise. Calm. Navigating early traffic with ease, one hand on the wheel, the other resting loosely near the gear shifter.
Not a single thing about him gave away the hours behind them.
The drive back was quieter.
Not awkward.
Just… heavy.
Like both of them were aware that something had shifted and neither quite knew what to do with it.
Buildings grew more familiar. Streets more recognizable.
Oscar pulled up in front of the house and put the car in park. The engine idled softly for a moment before he turned it off.
Silence.
“You know,” the Aussie finally said, eyes still on the windshield, “I always thought you had no character. Whenever I saw you online.”
Lando tensed instantly.
That stung more than he expected.
He’d heard variations of that before — polished, media-trained, manufactured.
Safe.
He forced a small shrug. “Yeah?”
Oscar finally looked at him.
“But I was wrong.”
Lando’s fingers stilled on the empty milkshake cup in his lap.
“Under the polished surface,” Oscar continued, voice quieter now, “there’s an actual person.” A brief pause. “And I’m glad I got to know you.”
The tightness in Lando’s chest shifted into something else entirely.
Relief.
Warmth.
Something dangerously close to pride.
He looked at Oscar for a long second, sunlight catching in the windshield between them.
“Good,” Lando said softly. “I’m glad you were wrong.”
Daniel didn’t comment on the McLaren he very clearly saw pulling away from the curb.
Didn’t raise an eyebrow.
Didn’t ask why Lando smelled like petrol and fries at seven in the morning.
He just stepped aside, let him into the house, squeezed his shoulder once, and said, “Get some sleep.”
No interrogation. No lecture.
Just trust.
It didn’t mean he’d let it go.
Notes:
Friendly disclaimer research for this one was a pain and I’ll admit I turned to chat gpt to help me with the car talk because as much as I tried I could not understand a thing, I’m sorry.
Chapter 2: Crossing lines
Summary:
How they got to know each other.
Notes:
The chapters will be updated every Monday, I’m just not patient enough, and am fishing for attention to keep me going.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The first thing Lando noticed when he cracked his eyes open hours later was his old teammate sitting in the armchair by his bed, legs crossed, scrolling through his phone with an exaggerated look of boredom.
The curtains were half drawn. The room was quiet.
Too quiet.
“Danny, what the fuck are you doing here?” Lando groaned, immediately dragging the duvet over his head like it could shield him from accountability.
“Waiting for an explanation, duh.” Daniel didn’t even look offended. He locked his phone and stood, moving to sit on the edge of the bed. “I brought tea, so don’t complain.”
At the word tea, Lando reluctantly peeked out.
There it was. Mug. Steam long gone but still promising comfort.
He sighed and pushed himself upright, hair a mess, eyes still heavy. “You’re so annoying.”
“And yet,” Daniel said brightly, handing him the cup.
The first sip softened him instantly.
And then Daniel started asking questions.
Not aggressively. Not accusing.
Just curious.
So Lando told him.
About the ‘kidnapping’ About the wrecked Senna rebuilt from the ground up. About the illegal parking spot by the lake. About nuggets at sunrise.
He even admitted the part that had stuck with him most — the confession. The character comment.
The way it had landed.
The whole night had stripped him bare in a way he hadn’t expected. No cameras. No expectations. No performance. Just him.
And sitting there now, wrapped in blankets with Daniel’s familiar presence grounding him, it felt easier to say everything out loud.
Safer.
“And that’s it?” Daniel asked when he finished, eyebrows climbing toward his hairline.
“Yeah.” Lando stared into his cup, though the tea had long gone cold. He tried to hide the small, stupid ache in his chest behind it.
Daniel blinked at him.
“No kiss? Hug? Not even a handshake?”
Lando choked. “What?”
“I’m just clarifying!” Daniel defended himself, far too invested. “You two have emotional breakthrough at sunrise by a lake and then what? ‘Cool bro, see you never’?”
“It wasn’t like that,” Lando muttered.
“Did you get his number?”
Silence.
Daniel’s eyes widened.
“You didn’t.”
Lando pressed the mug harder to his lips to avoid answering.
“Oh my god,” Daniel breathed, scandalized. “You don’t have his number.”
“I was a bit preoccupied, okay?” Lando snapped, then groaned and flopped back against the headboard. “It was six in the morning. I hadn’t slept. He called me shallow and then un-shallow in the same breath. I wasn’t thinking about contact exchange etiquette.”
And yeah.
Lando knew he’d fucked up.
But he’d been so caught up in the moment — in the understanding, in the weight of everything that had been said that logistics hadn’t crossed his mind.
It hadn’t felt like the end.
It had felt like a pause.
Daniel leaned back against the wall, studying him.
“You like him,” he said finally.
Lando rolled his eyes immediately. “Don’t.”
“You do.”
“I barely know him.”
“But you want to.”
That shut him up.
Daniel smirked softly. “Relax. Mysterious garage genius with unresolved racing trauma? He’ll show up again.”
“You don’t know that.”
Daniel shrugged. “Guys like that don’t disappear. Especially not after sunrise nuggets and personality revelations.”
Lando tried and failed to fight the small smile tugging at his mouth.
He hoped Danny was right.
Lando tried to forget it.
Tried to move on with his life like nothing had shifted.
Training. Media bits. Friends. Packing. The usual rhythm slid back into place easily enough — but there was a quiet part of his brain that kept replaying sunrise over a lake and the way I’m glad I got to know you had sounded.
He didn’t want to leave it to fate.
So on his last night in Australia, he announced he was going to bed early because he had to wake up at an ungodly hour for his flight.
Responsible. Mature. Very believable.
Instead, he lay in the dark with his laptop open and went full FBI mode.
If Daniel had seen him, he would’ve never let him live it down.
He started simple.
Googled Oscar’s name.
Useless.
A few ancient karting results. Grainy photos of a teenager in oversized race suits. Some forum threads that hadn’t been active in years.
Nothing current. Nothing helpful.
Lando frowned at the screen.
He tried again.
Different combinations.
Different angles.
Tuned McLaren Senna Australia.
Nothing specific.
Street racing Melbourne.
That felt slightly unhinged to type, even for him.
Still nothing concrete.
He leaned back against the headboard, chewing the inside of his cheek. There had to be something. A trace. A footprint.
Nobody just rebuilt a hypercar and disappeared into thin air.
He went through Danny’s friends from the event. Clicked profiles. Scrolled tagged photos. Checked comments. Cross-referenced usernames like a man unraveling a conspiracy board.
Blind spot after blind spot.
Facebook. Desperate.
Twitter. Even more desperate.
It was like Oscar existed in real life and nowhere online.
Which, honestly, felt very on brand.
By this point it was past midnight, and Lando was dangerously close to admitting defeat when he opened TikTok out of sheer frustration.
Fine.
One last attempt.
He typed:
Piastri Melbourne
Simple.
Broad.
Effective.
Results flooded in.
Most of it was nonsense — edits, random clips, unrelated content. But then one profile caught his attention.
A girl. A bit younger. Dark hair in what Lando was ninety percent sure was called a wolf cut or something equally Gen Z.
But the thing was —
She looked like him.
Not identical. But similar enough that the resemblance made Lando sit up straighter. Same eyes. Same bone structure. Same slightly unimpressed resting expression.
Sibling.
He clicked the profile.
Scrolled.
Video after video. Trends. Dancing. Friends.
He almost gave up again.
Until he found it.
A video from a year ago.
Some silly dance trend. Bright lighting. Music too loud. She was grinning at the camera — and next to her, clearly dragged into frame against his will, was Oscar.
Arms stiff. Expression flat. Looking like he’d rather rebuild an engine than participate.
Lando actually laughed out loud.
There he was.
Real. Moving. Tangible.
And tagged.
Lando clicked the tag so fast he nearly dropped his phone.
Private account.
Of course.
But the username was there.
The profile picture was him — not polished, not staged. Just leaning against a car, sun in his eyes.
Lando stared at the screen for a long second.
It felt absurd.
All this effort. All this digging.
And it had taken a dancing TikTok to crack it.
He felt a ridiculous rush of victory bloom in his chest.
Like he’d just won the lottery.
Or found something that wasn’t meant to be found.
His thumb hovered over the follow button.
Heart beating way faster than it had any right to.
He smiled to himself in the dark.
“Got you,” he murmured quietly.
He clicked the follow button before he could overthink the move.
No dramatic pause. No countdown.
Just tap.
He’d switched to his burner account first — not the verified one with millions of followers and a blue tick screaming public figure. This one was quieter. Bare. A stupidly subtle username that, if Oscar paid attention, would make sense.
A private joke.
Obvious enough.
He hoped.
For a second he considered adding a message.
Hey. Sunrise nuggets guy here.
Too cringe.
You forgot to give me your number.
Too desperate.
He locked the phone before he could spiral any further and tossed it onto the bedside table.
Sleep. That’s what he needed.
Not overanalysis.
Not anxiety.
Definitely not refreshing TikTok at 1:47 a.m. like a teenager with a crush.
He forced himself to roll over and shut his eyes.
When he woke up, sunlight was already pushing through the curtains.
For half a second, he forgot.
Then it hit him.
Phone.
He reached for it immediately, trying to act casual even though there was absolutely no one there to witness it.
Unlocked it.
Notifications flooded the screen — airline reminder, Daniel sending a meme, group chat chaos.
But not what he was looking for.
He opened TikTok.
No follow back.
No message request.
Nothing.
The account still sat there, unchanged.
Follow request sent.
Pending.
Lando stared at it longer than he should have.
It hadn’t even been twelve hours. Oscar might not check often. He might not care. He might not have even seen it.
Still.
The lack of response felt louder than it should.
He dropped back against the pillow, exhaling slowly.
“Relax,” he muttered to himself.
He had a flight to catch. A season ahead. A life that didn’t revolve around whether a mysterious garage genius accepted his follow request.
And yet.
As he got up and started getting ready, brushing his teeth, packing the last of his things, his mind kept drifting back to a night drive in a engineering masterpiece of a car.
To sunrise.
To I’m glad I got to know you.
His phone stayed stubbornly silent.
Nothing the whole ride to the airport. No notification when he finally landed in Nice. Nothing in the days that followed.
It was fine.
Lando told himself he was fine.
He slipped back into routine like he always did. Early training sessions. Long runs along the coast. Meeting friends for padel. A couple off-season obligations — a photoshoot for new merch, sponsor bits, the usual smiling and posing.
He absolutely did not check the follow request every few hours.
That would be mental.
Completely unhinged behavior.
He was above that.
Somehow a week passed.
Lando was halfway through packing for the UK — clothes scattered everywhere, suitcase open and chaotic on the bed — when his phone lit up beside a pile of hoodies.
Notification: piastri accepted your follow request.
His heart kicked so hard it was almost embarrassing.
Calm. Be calm.
He stared at the screen like it might disappear if he moved too fast.
He didn’t open the app immediately. Just watched it.
Waiting.
One second.
Five.
Ten.
Nothing else came through.
No message.
Just the acceptance.
Lando dropped dramatically to the floor beside the bed and let out a frustrated, muffled whine into the carpet.
It was not fair.
That was worse than being ignored.
Acceptance without acknowledgment felt deliberate. Controlled. Very Oscar.
But Lando wouldn’t budge.
He couldn’t.
He’d made his move. The first move.
Now it was Oscar’s turn.
By the time he landed in Heathrow, he had analyzed every possible scenario.
Maybe Oscar didn’t want contact after all.
Maybe the night had meant less to him.
Maybe he’d accepted just to be polite.
Maybe he was drafting some carefully neutral message to let him down gently.
Maybe—
By the time Lando arrived at the McLaren Technology Centre, he’d convinced himself of something entirely different:
Oscar simply didn’t realize it was him.
The burner account had been too subtle.
Too clever.
Lando had accidentally gone full spy mode and outsmarted himself.
He pushed through the glass doors, suitcase rolling behind him, trying to ignore the way his chest tightened every time his phone vibrated — even though none of the vibrations were the one he wanted.
He told himself he didn’t care.
But the silence was getting louder.
He put himself inside the simulator instead.
Driving was safe.
Comforting.
Predictable.
Inside the cockpit, none of this existed — not Australia, not sunrise lakes, not unsend messages. Just steering input, braking points, tyre temperatures scrolling across a screen.
It was easier to forget when he had to focus on lap times and degradation curves.
Easier to quiet his brain when it had data to chew on.
Media pulled him out eventually. A few promotional videos with Pato — his teammate. They were fine. Professional. Smiling at the right moments. Throwing playful jabs that felt rehearsed enough to be safe.
They weren’t exactly friends, but they got along well enough that fans wouldn’t panic.
Still, it wasn’t Carlos.
Not even Daniel.
That effortless back-and-forth, the natural rhythm, the kind of chemistry that didn’t need editing it just wasn’t there.
For a split second, Lando wondered what it would be like if Oscar were in the other seat.
If that dry humor would translate across a garage.
If that quiet intensity would sharpen him or clash with him.
If they’d—
He cut the thought off immediately.
Ridiculous.
Focus. His brain was practically screaming it now. You have a championship to fight for.
Everything moved fast, like it always did in his world. Flights blurred into briefings. Simulator into engineering meetings. Media into recovery sessions.
And then he was in the car for real.
Bahrain wasn’t kind.
The heat wrapped around him like a punishment. Sun reflecting off the track, sweat pooling under layers of fireproof fabric. The kind of temperature that made every breath feel heavier.
But the car —
The car was flying.
It felt planted. Responsive. Alive beneath him.
On the first day, everything clicked.
Corners flowed into each other. The rear stayed obedient. The front bit exactly when he asked it to. He crossed the line and saw his name at the top of the timesheets.
Fastest.
He let himself believe it.
Just a little.
This could be it.
This could be the season.
The chance he’d been chasing since he was a kid.
But the second day—
The second day went to shit. Balance gone. Tyres falling off a cliff.
Set-up changes that made it worse instead of better.
From fastest to fourteenth.
Seeing his name that far down the board felt like a punch straight to the gut.
The helmet hid his expression, but it didn’t dull the frustration tightening in his chest.
One day you’re on top of the world.
The next you’re questioning everything.
His phone buzzed just as he dropped it onto the pillow after debrief.
He almost ignored it.
Almost.
Unknown notification preview.
Not unknown.
Him.
Lando frowned slightly and opened it.
You’re overheating the rates out of T10. Try a softer diff on the exit and ease the throttle earlier, you’re fighting it mid corner with nstead of setting it up. Might save the tyres three or four laps.
Lando just stared at the message.
Dumbfounded.
Because out of everything he’d imagined — a dry joke, a casual “hey,” maybe even nothing at all — he had not expected setup advice.
Not when he’d long lost hope of any contact from the younger.
Not when he’d convinced himself the follow meant nothing.
He swallowed, nerves rising sharp and sudden, and picked the phone back up from the pillow.
He read it again.
And again.
He wasn’t wrong.
That was where it started falling apart.
Before he could craft anything remotely reasonable in response, another message came through.
But you did a good job despite everything.
The words hit differently than the technical advice.
Softer.
Personal.
Lando exhaled slowly, thumb hovering over the keyboard.
So he had been watching.
Not just casually.
Close enough to notice diff behavior.
Close enough to see him fighting the car.
Close enough to know it wasn’t just “bad pace.”
A small, helpless smile pulled at his mouth.
Of course this was how Oscar chose to break the silence.
Not with feelings.
With data.
The last day of testing went slightly better.
Not brilliant. Not headline worthy.
Just… better.
The sharp edge of panic from day two had dulled. The balance felt manageable again, even if the outright pace wasn’t where he wanted it. What stung more was seeing his own teammate ahead on the sheets small margins, but enough.
The hope from the first day was long gone.
Reality had settled back in.
Championship fights weren’t built on one good session.
Still, Lando didn’t feel like his world was collapsing anymore.
If that had anything to do with a certain Aussie in his DMs, he’d never admit it out loud.
His phone buzzed while he was still half undressed, fireproof top hanging around his waist.
Any plans for last weeks of freedom?
The timestamp made him pause.
Sent hours ago probably when he’d still been strapped into the car.
He did the math automatically.
Middle of the night in Australia now.
He didn’t expect a response.
Still, he typed back, trying for casual.
Nah, just gonna chill at home.
Try to get used to the diet again.
Maybe l’ll fly a bit earlier to avoid the jet lag.
He tossed the phone onto the table and went to grab water.
It buzzed almost instantly.
He stopped mid-step.
Middle of the night, right.
So much for sleep schedules.
I’ll be around the week before the first race.
Lando’s pulse ticked up.
A pause.
Three dots appeared.
Disappeared.
Came back.
If you’d be bored.
There it was again.
That deliberate space.
Not asking.
Not pushing.
Just opening a door and stepping aside.
Lando stared at the message longer than necessary.
He could play it safe. Keep it vague. Pretend he hadn’t already considered changing flights.
Instead, he sat down slowly on the edge of the bed, phone warm in his hand.
He typed.
Deleted.
Typed again.
Left it.
He didn’t answer immediately this time.
Let Oscar sit with it a minute.
Let himself sit with it too.
Because this wasn’t adrenaline at a dock at two in the morning.
This was a choice.
Yeah, I’d like that.
He finally typed it out before he could talk himself out of it.
His hands were actually shaking.
Ridiculous.
It was just a message.
Just words on a screen.
Still, hitting send felt bigger than it should have.
A second one followed, because leaving it that open felt too exposed.
Let me know the details after you figure them out.
Safe.
Casual.
Reasonable.
He locked the phone immediately after, like it might explode in his hand.
No reply came.
No three dots.
No teasing comment.
Nothing.
And this time, neither of them messaged again.
It wasn’t dramatic.
There was no tension-filled back and forth.
Just quiet understanding settling between two people who had both said enough.
Lando lay back on the bed, staring at the ceiling.
He’d done it.
Not impulsive. Not reckless.
Deliberate.
Whatever happened next wouldn’t be fate.
It would be planned.
And somehow, that made his chest feel lighter than it had in weeks.
On the plane back to Nice, Lando went full plan mode.
Notes app open. Bullet points. Sub-bullet points.
A packing list.
Which was deeply unlike him.
The world and especially the media knew him as polished, organised, perfectly media-trained. But in reality? Lando was chaos wrapped in good PR. He usually packed slowly before a season, grabbing things over a week, remembering last-minute essentials at midnight, throwing in extras “just in case.”
This time he didn’t have that luxury.
The tickets to Australia were already booked for a few days from now.
He was on a clock.
He made lists of clothes. Gym gear. Chargers. Passport copies. Camera equipment — he hesitated before adding that one, then typed it anyway.
He even drafted a vague message to the team explaining he’d be flying out early. It wasn’t their business what he did in his free time, but logistics mattered. He wouldn’t be on the usual group flight.
He kept it simple.
Jet lag management. Personal schedule. Training preference.
All technically true.
He kept himself busy on purpose. Structured. Productive. Efficient.
Because if he stopped moving, the nerves would creep in.
But there turned out to be no use for nerves.
Not the moment he stepped into arrivals and spotted him.
Oscar.
Leaning casually near one of the pillars, hands in the pockets of a hoodie, looking entirely unbothered by the early hour.
Waiting.
For him.
The anxiety that had been buzzing under Lando’s skin all week dissolved in an instant.
It wasn’t one-sided.
It wasn’t imaginary.
He was here.
Lando instinctively pulled his cap lower over his curls, adjusting his sunglasses even though he didn’t really need them, hoping nobody would pay too much attention as he made his way over.
Each step felt slower than it should.
Oscar noticed him halfway across the hall.
Didn’t wave.
Didn’t grin.
Just straightened slightly, eyes locked in.
Lando stopped in front of him, suddenly aware of how close they were. Of how different this felt from text bubbles and late-night messages.
“Hi,” he said, a shy smile tugging at his lips before he could hide it.
It felt softer than he meant it to.
Less composed.
More real.
Oscar’s eyes flicked up, the corners crinkling in that way that made Lando’s chest tighten. “Had a good flight?” he asked, already reaching for Lando’s luggage like it was the most natural thing in the world.
“I—yeah,” Lando said, his voice a little uneven. He swallowed, trying to ground himself. A one-night adventure had been one thing. Texting every night after had been another. But flying across continents to see someone he’d met once… that was a whole new level of mental. And yet, somehow, it felt undeniably right.
They walked side by side, the quiet between them charged, until they reached the parking lot. Lando’s eyes darted around, expecting to see the familiar glint of the Senna. But there was nothing. Instead, Oscar led him to a sleek grey car that looked understated, yet undeniably purposeful.
Lando’s lips curved into a teasing grin as he glanced at the car.
“Didn’t take you for an Audi guy.”
Oscar shrugged, leaning casually against the side of the vehicle like he had all the time in the world. “That’s my day car,” he said lightly. “Did you think I was driving the McLaren on normal roads?”
The heat crept into Lando’s cheeks at the gentle jab.
Because… well.
He kind of had.
Not seriously, maybe. But part of him had imagined Oscar pulling up in something ridiculous, loud and impossible to ignore. Something that matched the version of him Lando had built in his head during all those late-night messages.
The hypercar, though, was a different story entirely. Even Lando knew that. The thing was practically a beast — built for tracks, for impossible speeds and perfectly engineered chaos. Driving it on normal roads would probably get Oscar arrested within ten minutes.
Still.
“I guess…” Lando rubbed the back of his neck, glancing between Oscar and the car. “I just figured you’d want something flashy. Something… fast. Something that screams you.”
Oscar’s smirk softened at that. The teasing edge didn’t disappear, but something about his expression turned warmer.
“Fast is relative,” he said, his gaze drifting to Lando for a moment longer than necessary.
There was something thoughtful in the look, something that made Lando suddenly very aware of how close they were standing again.
“Besides,” Oscar continued, pushing himself off the car, “the night is when I let loose.”
He opened the passenger door and gestured inside.
“On the road…” he added, glancing over the roof of the car at Lando, “I like to keep it practical.”
Lando chuckled as he slid into the seat, the sound a little nervous but genuine.
“Practical,” he repeated. “Underrated, I think.”
The interior of the car smelled clean and faintly like new leather. Lando sank into the seat with a quiet sigh he hadn’t meant to let out.
Oscar walked around the front of the car and slid into the driver’s seat, starting the engine with easy familiarity before pulling them slowly out of the parking spot.
For a moment neither of them spoke.
The car rolled toward the exit of the airport parking lot, the late afternoon sun bleeding through the windshield.
Oscar glanced at him briefly.
“Do you want to rest a bit first?” he asked as they approached the exit barrier. “You had a long travel.”
Lando groaned quietly at the reminder.
“I’d kill for a nap,” he admitted, dragging a hand through his hair. “But it won’t be good for the jet lag.”
His sleep schedule was already a disaster and the season hadn’t even started yet.
He shifted slightly in the seat.
“But I definitely need a shower.”
Only then did the reality of the last twenty-four hours fully catch up to him.
The long flight.
The recycled airplane air.
The questionable airport coffee.
Lando winced slightly, suddenly very aware of how he probably looked.
“Right,” Oscar said easily as he merged onto the road outside the airport. “Where are you staying?”
And that’s when it hit him.
The thing he’d been vaguely aware of forgetting the entire flight.
Something important.
Something he’d brushed off as nerves or travel anxiety.
Oh no.
Lando froze.
Ok.
Don’t panic.
He told himself firmly.
You’ll figure something out.
Just… think.
The silence stretched for a second too long.
Then another.
Oscar glanced at him again, brows pulling together slightly.
“Lando?”
The Brit quickly pulled out his phone, trying to act like everything was completely normal while he opened his email.
Nothing.
No booking confirmation.
No reservation.
No forwarded details from the team.
Which… made sense.
Because the team usually handled hotels during race weeks.
And this wasn’t race week yet.
And Lando had told them he was flying out early on his own.
Meaning they probably assumed he had arranged something himself.
Except he hadn’t.
Oscar looked over again, concern slowly creeping into his expression “Lando? Everything alright?”
Lando stared at his phone screen for one more hopeless second before the words came spilling out.
“Iforgottobookahotel.”
Oscar blinked “What?”
Lando sank lower into the seat, wishing the upholstery would just swallow him whole “I forgot to book a hotel,” he admitted, voice small and painfully embarrassed.
Oscar stared at him for a beat.
Then another.
“You what?”
The shock lasted approximately one second before it cracked into laughter.
Real laughter.
Oscar actually leaned back in his seat slightly as he laughed, shaking his head.
“How did you forget that?”
Lando groaned, covering his face with one hand.
“I mean usually the team does it for me on race weeks,” he tried to defend himself, his cheeks burning again. “And I technically came here for a race— just earlier — and my brain didn’t catch that part and—”
He stopped when he noticed Oscar looking at him.
Still amused.
But also noticing the way Lando was starting to spiral.
“Okay,” Oscar said, cutting him off gently before the rambling could continue. “I get it.”
He took a turn at the next intersection, still chuckling under his breath.
Then he glanced back at Lando.
“Are you alright with going to mine while we figure it out?”
The offer came out casually, like it wasn’t a big deal at all.
Like inviting the guy you’d met once to your house was the most normal solution in the world.
Lando didn’t even hesitate.
“Yes, please.”
The relief in his voice was immediate.
And Oscar couldn’t quite stop the small smile that appeared on his face as he drove them further into the city.
Oscar’s apartment wasn’t much — a small one-bedroom flat tucked somewhere in the suburbs — but it felt warm the moment Lando stepped inside.
Lived in.
Comfortable.
The living room opened right from the hallway, the space simple but cozy. A bookshelf stood beside the TV, filled with a strange mix of manuals, novels, and what looked like a few racing magazines. A soft rug sat under the coffee table, slightly crooked like someone had nudged it out of place with their foot. A plant leaned lazily toward the balcony doors, catching the afternoon light spilling in through the glass.
It wasn’t flashy.
It wasn’t expensive.
But somehow it suited Oscar perfectly.
“I’m sorry for the mess,” Oscar said casually as he kicked off his shoes near the door. “I’m rarely home and didn’t have time to clean.”
Lando paused just inside the living room, glancing around again.
Mess?
There was a hoodie thrown over the back of the couch.
A single coffee mug sitting on the table.
That was it.
The place was otherwise spotless.
Lando blinked.
If this counted as messy in Oscar’s eyes, Lando was fairly certain he would need to hire an entire cleaning crew before ever letting him see his own place.
The thought came and went quickly.
He stopped himself almost immediately.
Okay.
That was… a little ahead of himself.
Oscar walked toward the hallway, glancing back over his shoulder.
“The clean towels are in the cabinet,” he said. “Help yourself to whatever you need.”
The offer came easily, like he was completely comfortable having Lando there.
Like this wasn’t strange at all.
Lando nodded quickly. “Thanks.”
By the time he stepped into the bathroom, the exhaustion of the trip had finally caught up with him.
The hot water was almost heavenly.
He stayed under the spray longer than he probably should have, letting the warmth loosen the stiffness in his shoulders, letting the entire day the airport, the flight, the nerves — wash away with the steam.
It felt good.
Really good.
He found himself lingering a moment when he noticed the shampoo bottles on the shelf.
One of them was specifically for curly hair.
Lando raised an eyebrow.
That was… interesting.
Suspicious, even.
He turned the bottle slightly in his hand before shrugging and using it anyway.
By the time he finally turned the water off, the bathroom mirror had completely fogged over.
He dried off slowly, feeling much more human than he had an hour ago.
And then—
He froze.
Because he had just realized something.
Something very obvious.
Something incredibly stupid.
Lando hadn’t brought any clean clothes into the bathroom with him.
“…Brilliant,” he muttered quietly to himself.
He stared down at the pile of clothes he’d worn for the last twenty-four hours.
The same shirt.
The same jeans.
All of it smelling faintly like airplane and exhaustion.
He grimaced.
Putting them back on sounded awful.
But walking out into Oscar’s apartment in nothing but a towel?
Absolutely not.
That somehow sounded even worse.
He hesitated, reaching reluctantly for his shirt.
And that’s when he noticed the dryer in the corner of the small laundry space of the bathroom.
Lando stepped over, curiosity winning over embarrassment.
Inside was a pile of clothes.
He pulled the door open a little more.
They looked clean.
Freshly washed.
He leaned closer and sniffed cautiously.
They smelled clean too.
He hesitated.
Taking someone else’s clothes without asking was… definitely pushing it.
Actually, no.
It was fully crossing another line.
Lando stared at the dryer for a long moment.
But at this point…
He had already flown across the world to visit a guy he’d met once.
He was currently standing half naked in said guy’s bathroom.
And said guy had just casually invited him to stay at his apartment.
So really.
How many boundaries were they already ignoring?
Lando sighed softly.
“…One more probably won’t kill me.”
When Lando finally stepped out of the bathroom, his hair was still damp, curls slightly darker from the water, and his heart was beating far quicker than it should have been for something as simple as walking down a hallway.
Oscar’s clothes hung loosely on him.
The grey sweats sat low on his hips, clearly meant for someone a bit taller, and the black t-shirt slipped off one shoulder every time he moved. The sleeves nearly reached his elbows.
It made something very obvious.
Lando was smaller than Oscar.
Not by a lot.
But enough.
And Lando became painfully aware of that fact as he stepped into the kitchen doorway and saw Oscar standing by the stove.
For a moment, he just… looked.
Oscar hadn’t noticed him yet, focused on whatever he was heating in a pan. The soft yellow light from the kitchen lamp caught the outline of his shoulders, broad under the dark t-shirt he was wearing. His arms were bare, muscles shifting naturally as he moved the spatula through the pan.
Not overly bulky.
But strong.
The kind of strength that came from doing things with your hands.
Working on cars, probably.
Maybe the gym too.
Lando’s eyes trailed upward for a moment.
Oscar was taller than him by a few inches, he realized again — something that was easier to notice now that they were standing in the same room rather than through a phone screen or sitting in a car.
And then there was the skin.
Pale.
Almost unfairly pale for someone who lived in Australia.
Against Lando’s natural tan it looked a little ridiculous, actually.
The contrast made Lando fight the sudden urge to laugh.
He cleared his throat instead.
The sound came out awkwardly loud in the quiet apartment.
Oscar turned around immediately.
And then stopped.
One eyebrow slowly lifted.
His eyes moved from Lando’s damp hair…
To the oversized shirt.
To the sweats.
And back up again.
Lando felt the heat rush to his face instantly.
“I forgot to take clean clothes with me,” he blurted out quickly.
Oscar said nothing.
Which somehow made it worse.
“I mean to the bathroom!” Lando added immediately, words tumbling out faster. “Not in general! I do have my own clothes, I swear.”
The corner of Oscar’s mouth twitched.
“Good to know.”
Lando opened his mouth again, but Oscar just chuckled softly and shook his head.
“It’s fine, Lan,” he said easily. “I don’t mind.”
The nickname slipped out so naturally it almost made Lando pause.
Oscar turned back to the stove like the situation was completely normal.
“I heated some leftovers if you’re hungry,” he added. “Nothing fancy though.”
Lando blinked.
“You cooked?”
Oscar glanced back at him, amused.
Lando’s eyes had actually lit up.
And it made Oscar laugh under his breath.
“I mean… I usually meal prep for the week,” he said, giving a small shrug. “Then just heat things up when I need them. At least I try to.”
“That’s impressive,” Lando admitted honestly as he stepped a little further into the kitchen.
The smell coming from the pan made his stomach react immediately.
Right.
He hadn’t eaten real food in… way too long.
Oscar grabbed two plates from the counter and started dividing the food between them.
“You want to eat at the table,” he asked casually, “or on the couch?”
Lando didn’t even hesitate.
“The couch please.”
Oscar snorted quietly.
“Of course.”
He handed Lando one of the plates as they walked toward the living room together.
Lando dropped onto the couch almost immediately, pulling one leg underneath himself as he settled in. The oversized sweats bunched around his ankles and the shirt slipped slightly off his shoulder again.
Oscar noticed.
He didn’t comment.
But his eyes lingered for half a second longer than necessary before he sat down on the other side of the couch.
“What do you want to watch?” he asked, grabbing the remote from the table.
Lando poked at the food with his fork before taking a bite.
His eyes widened a little.
“Okay wait,” he said through a mouthful. “This is actually really good.”
Oscar glanced sideways at him.
“You sound surprised.”
“I am.”
Oscar leaned back against the couch.
“Wow. Rude.”
Lando grinned.
“I just didn’t picture you cooking.”
“And what exactly did you picture me doing?” Oscar asked, one eyebrow lifting again.
Lando thought about it for a second.
“…Speeding.”
Oscar laughed.
And for the first time since landing in Australia, the tight nervous knot in Lando’s chest loosened just a little.
After that, it became… easy.
The TV was technically on, some show running quietly in the background, but neither of them was actually watching it. The volume stayed low, forgotten the moment the conversation started flowing.
They moved from topic to topic without really noticing how.
Lando learned very quickly that Oscar was surprisingly easy to talk to. He didn’t interrupt, didn’t rush to fill silences, but when he did speak it was thoughtful, dry, often just a little teasing.
At some point Lando remembered the shampoo.
He lifted a curl between two fingers thoughtfully.
“Okay, serious question.”
Oscar glanced over from where he was sitting sideways on the couch.
“That sounds dangerous.”
“The shampoo in your shower,” Lando said. “For curly hair.”
Oscar blinked once.
Then he huffed out a quiet laugh.
“Oh. That.”
“Yes that,” Lando said, pointing at his hair. “You don’t even have curly hair.”
Oscar ran a hand through the strands absently.
“It’s a gift.”
“From?”
“My sister,” he answered. “She’s convinced my hair is secretly curly and I’ve just been treating it wrong my whole life.”
Lando laughed.
“That’s sibling logic.”
“I told her it’s wavy at best,” Oscar continued, shrugging. “But she said the shampoo would ‘unlock its true potential.’”
Lando leaned back against the couch cushions, still smiling.
“That’s nothing,” he said. “One time Max put hair dye in my shampoo.”
Oscar turned his head slowly.
“…What?”
“Pink,” Lando said proudly. “Bright pink.”
Oscar stared at him for a moment before a surprised laugh escaped him.
“You’re joking.”
“I wish I was.”
“How long?”
“A few days,” Lando admitted. “Thankfully it wasn’t permanent.”
Oscar shook his head, still smiling to himself.
“That’s brutal.”
“It was expensive shampoo too,” Lando added, offended on principle.
That only made Oscar laugh harder.
Somewhere along the way their plates were cleared away and replaced with mugs of tea. Neither of them remembered exactly when it happened.
Outside, the late afternoon sun had begun to sink lower, warm orange light spilling across the living room floor and catching in the leaves of the plant by the balcony doors.
Lando shifted deeper into the couch, his body finally beginning to relax after the long flight. His head tilted back against the cushions as he let his eyes wander around the apartment again.
The place wasn’t big.
But it felt… real.
It didn’t feel staged.
It felt lived in.
“Your flat is cosy,” Lando said after a moment, his voice quieter now. “I like it here.”
Oscar looked up from his mug.
The compliment caught him slightly off guard.
“It’s not much,” he said with a small shrug. “But it’s mine. That counts for something.”
There was a shy sort of pride in the smile that followed.
Lando turned his head toward him fully.
“You own it?”
Oscar nodded like that fact was completely unremarkable.
Which, to Lando, made it even more remarkable.
Most people their age were renting tiny apartments or sharing with roommates. Owning a place outright at twenty-three wasn’t exactly common.
Curiosity got the better of him before he could stop himself.
“What do you do for a living?” Lando asked before he could stop himself.
The question slipped out too fast.
He winced immediately.
“If you don’t mind me asking,” he added quickly. “I totally get it if you don’t want to share.”
Oscar watched him spiral for about three seconds.
Then he chuckled softly.
“Lan.”
There it was again.
Not Lando.
Lan.
The nickname settled strangely warm in his chest.
“It’s alright,” Oscar said.
Lando quieted.
“I own my own car shop.”
For a moment Lando just blinked.
That made sense.
Actually… it made perfect sense.
Everything about Oscar screamed cars — the way he talked about engines, the ease with which he handled machines that would intimidate most people.
But owning a shop?
At twenty-three?
“Nothing huge,” Oscar continued, clearly aware that Lando was mentally recalculating things. “Small business. But it lets me live comfortably.”
Lando glanced around the apartment again.
The place.
The Audi outside.
The Senna.
Comfortably was one way to describe it.
“If owning a flat, a hypercar and a ‘day car’ counts as comfortable,” Lando said.
Oscar laughed.
“Yeah, alright. Maybe better than most people my age.”
Lando frowned slightly.
“You’re twenty-three?”
Oscar nodded.
Lando blinked again.
“Oh.”
Oscar tilted his head.
“What?”
“I think I just said that out loud.”
“You did.”
Lando rubbed his face. He definitely needs to go to sleep soon.
Oscar just shook his head, amused.
Then he leaned back slightly, settling deeper into the couch as if the story he was about to tell was an old one.
“I worked full time at a car shop through college,” he began. “Part time as a barista too.”
Lando turned toward him more fully now, listening.
“I bought the Senna during my second year,” Oscar continued.
Lando nearly choked on his tea.
“You what?”
Oscar smiled faintly.
“Technically I didn’t buy it then,” he clarified. “A family friend owned it. We made a deal — I’d pay for it when I could.”
“That’s insane,” Lando said quietly.
Oscar shrugged.
“My boss at the shop let me work on it there. So I did.”
He looked down at his hands for a moment as if remembering it.
“I spent every spare second on that car. Between clients. On weekends. Sometimes at night between shifts and classes.”
Lando could picture it.
The garage lights.
Grease on Oscar’s hands.
Music playing somewhere in the background while he rebuilt a machine that most people would be too scared to even touch.
“That’s impressive,” Lando said honestly.
Oscar gave a small smile.
“People at the shop thought so too.”
He paused, glancing toward the window where the sky had turned darker.
“I was studying engineering,” he continued. “Graduated last year.”
Lando’s eyebrows lifted slightly.
“And word got around campus,” Oscar said. “About the car.”
His voice carried a soft nostalgia now.
Like he was remembering a lifetime ago instead of just a couple years.
“I thought I’d get in trouble,” he admitted. “Because technically a lot of what I did to that car wasn’t exactly… legal.”
Lando snorted.
“Shocking.”
Oscar ignored that.
“But instead,” he continued, “some of the professors sent people my way.”
“People?”
“Clients.”
Lando blinked.
“Luxury cars mostly,” Oscar explained. “Stuff other mechanics didn’t want to touch.”
He shrugged again, like the whole thing had simply happened rather than being the result of years of work.
“It snowballed from there.”
Lando stared at him, genuinely impressed now.
The room had grown dimmer now, the last of the sunlight fading from the windows.
“I opened my own shop within a year,” Oscar finished quietly.
No pride.
No bragging.
Just a fact.
“I’m still paying this place off,” he added, glancing around the apartment again. “But it’s alright.”
The room fell quiet for a moment.
Lando looked at him differently now.
Not just the street racer.
Not just the mysterious guy he meet in Perth.
But someone who had built something real with his own hands.
And somehow that made Oscar even more interesting than before.
Lando sat there for a moment after Oscar finished speaking, quietly turning the story over in his head.
The apartment suddenly made more sense now. The quiet suburbs. The practical car outside. Even the way Oscar carried himself — confident but never flashy about it.
Still, something didn’t quite add up.
“What about the trips you told me about?” Lando asked after a moment, curiosity creeping back in. He shifted slightly on the couch, turning toward Oscar. “All the races around the country?”
Oscar rubbed the back of his neck, looking a little sheepish now.
“Well…” he started slowly, glancing down at his mug. “I have two guys working at the shop full time.”
He paused like he wasn’t sure how impressive that actually sounded.
“I mostly take the major projects now and then.”
Lando blinked.
For a second he didn’t say anything, just stared at him.
Two employees.
Major projects.
The way Oscar said it so casually made it sound like it wasn’t a big deal at all, like he was just helping out at someone else’s garage instead of running the place himself.
“Wait,” Lando said, leaning forward slightly. “So you’re like… the boss?”
Oscar immediately turned a little red, which was possibly the funniest reaction Lando could have imagined.
“I mean—” he started, clearly uncomfortable with the word.
Lando grinned.
“Oh my god, you are.”
Oscar huffed quietly, looking away.
“I still take more work than I need to,” he admitted, his voice quieter now. “Mostly to help my family out.”
That caught Lando’s attention immediately.
Oscar looked almost embarrassed saying it, like he expected to be judged for it.
“Not that my mum needs help,” he added quickly. “She earns enough on her own.”
His fingers tapped lightly against the ceramic mug in his hands as he continued.
“But…” he hesitated, then smiled faintly to himself.
“I like to spoil my sisters, you know?”
The softness in his voice when he said that made something shift in Lando’s chest.
For a moment he didn’t answer.
He just watched Oscar.
The street racer.
The guy who drove an illegally modified hypercar across the country in underground races.
And also the same person who worked extra hours so he could buy things for his younger sisters.
It didn’t quite fit the image people would probably expect.
Lando understood it, in a way.
He had siblings too. He loved them more than anything. If they needed something, he would give it to them without thinking.
But at the same time… it was different.
Lando had grown up in a world where money was never really something you worried about. His family had always been comfortable, always secure. Success hadn’t been about survival or responsibility.
It had been about ambition.
About racing.
Oscar’s life sounded… built.
Piece by piece.
“That’s—” Lando started.
Oscar beat him to it.
“Lame?” he offered dryly, glancing sideways at him. “Not what you expected from my reputation?”
There was humor in his voice, but something else too. Something cautious.
Like he had heard that reaction before.
Like people expected the reckless street racer but got disappointed when they saw the rest of him.
Lando frowned immediately.
“Amazing,” he said.
Oscar looked at him, surprised.
“You’re amazing.”
The words came out before Lando could overthink them.
For a second Oscar didn’t respond.
He just stared at him, clearly not expecting that answer.
When Lando first woke up, he didn’t open his eyes.
He was warm, comfortable in that heavy, satisfying way that only came after real sleep. The kind where your body finally stops fighting exhaustion and just shuts down completely. For a few quiet moments he stayed exactly where he was, half buried in the pillows, enjoying the rare feeling of actually being rested.
Which in itself was unusual enough.
But slowly, as his mind began catching up with his body, small details started to feel… off.
Not wrong.
Just unfamiliar.
The sheets didn’t smell like his laundry detergent, nor the strange, sterile chemical scent hotel bedding always seemed to have. These smelled softer somehow — like normal soap and fabric softener, something warmer and more personal. The room wasn’t pitch black either. Even with his eyes closed he could sense the faint glow of daylight pressing through the curtains. And somewhere in the distance there was the quiet sound of something moving. Clinking. Cupboards opening and closing. Kitchen noises.
For a moment he just lay there, letting the pieces fall into place.
And then it hit him.
Right.
Australia.
Oscar.
Lando’s eyes opened slowly.
The ceiling above him definitely wasn’t his. The room around him was unfamiliar in a quiet, understated way — simple furniture, soft morning light creeping through the curtains, the bed comfortable but clearly not his own.
Oscar’s bedroom.
He pushed himself up slowly, running a hand through his hair as the memories of the night before settled properly into his mind. The conversation on the couch. Tea mugs replacing dinner plates. The long hours talking about everything and nothing.
Apparently falling asleep halfway through it.
He winced slightly.
Great.
Swinging his legs off the bed, he glanced down at himself. He was still wearing the clothes he’d borrowed the day before — Oscar’s t-shirt and sweatpants that were just a little too big for him. The sleeves of the shirt nearly reached his elbows and the waistband of the sweats sat lower on his hips than they probably should have. They still smelled faintly like clean laundry.
Lando stepped quietly out of the bedroom, resisting the urge to look around too much. It felt oddly intrusive to start inspecting Oscar’s space first thing in the morning, especially when the apartment was so quiet except for the sounds coming from the kitchen.
Following the noise down the hallway, he stepped into the living room and then toward the kitchen entrance.
Oscar stood by the stove, focused on the pan in front of him. The morning light coming through the window behind him lit the kitchen in soft gold, catching the edges of the counter and the steam rising faintly from the pan.
He turned when he heard Lando step in.
“Morning, sleepy.”
The smile that appeared on his face was easy and genuine, like he’d been expecting him.
“I’m making scrambled eggs,” he said. “You want tea or coffee?”
Lando hesitated for a moment, still half waking up, the scene in front of him feeling oddly surreal. Yesterday he’d been on a plane for nearly a full day, nervous about seeing Oscar again. Now he was standing barefoot in the guy’s kitchen while breakfast was being made like this was completely normal.
“Tea please?” he said finally.
Oscar’s mouth curved into a grin.
“So British of you.”
He nodded toward the small dining table tucked into the corner.
“Go sit. I’m almost done.”
Lando obeyed, settling into one of the chairs and resting his arms on the table. From there he watched Oscar move easily around the kitchen, grabbing plates and mugs with the familiarity of someone who had repeated this routine many times before.
The quiet domesticity of it all was strangely calming.
After a minute, Lando cleared his throat.
“So…” he started.
Oscar glanced up briefly.
“How exactly did I end up in your bed?”
Oscar paused.
Then he looked at him with an expression that quickly shifted into something amused.
A smirk appeared.
“We haven’t done anything,” he said calmly, “if that’s what you’re asking.”
The heat rushed straight to Lando’s face.
“That’s not what I meant,” he said quickly.
The reaction only seemed to entertain Oscar more.
“You literally fell asleep on me last night,” he explained, bringing two plates to the table and placing one in front of Lando along with a mug of steaming tea. “Didn’t have the heart to wake you up and kick you out to go look for a hotel.”
Oscar sat down across from him with his own plate and a mug of black coffee.
It should have been awkward.
It probably would have been with anyone else.
But after the first few seconds the embarrassment faded quickly. Oscar behaved like nothing about this situation was strange at all, like Lando sitting there in borrowed clothes eating breakfast across from him was simply how the morning was meant to go.
“You carried me to your bed?” Lando asked, still sounding a little disbelieving.
Oscar shrugged, taking a sip of his coffee.
“Couldn’t exactly leave you on the couch,” he said. “It’s not that comfortable.”
Lando was quiet for a moment after that.
He stared down at his plate, turning Oscar’s words over in his head, feeling something settle strangely in his chest. The image of it played out too clearly in his mind — Oscar lifting him from the couch, carrying him down the hallway, tucking him into his own bed instead of just leaving him there.
It was… absurdly wholesome.
More thoughtful than Lando expected from someone whose reputation, at least in Lando’s mind, revolved around illegal street races and dangerously fast cars.
“You really didn’t need to struggle like that,” he said after a moment, finally finding his voice again. “I’d have been fine.”
Oscar looked up from his coffee and shrugged like the whole thing truly wasn’t worth mentioning.
“It’s fine, Lan,” he said easily. “You’re lighter than you look.”
The corner of his mouth lifted slightly.
“Besides, we can’t injure you this close to the race. You need proper rest.”
That left Lando completely speechless.
He just blinked at him, unsure what to say to that. The casual way Oscar said it, the matter-of-fact tone, like taking care of him was simply common sense.
The conversation faded there, both of them returning to their food. The silence that followed wasn’t uncomfortable though. It felt easy, filled only by the soft clink of cutlery and the quiet hum of the morning outside the apartment.
When they finished eating, Oscar stood first, gathering his plate and mug before stretching slightly.
“I’m going to take a shower,” he said, already heading toward the hallway.
Lando nodded, watching him disappear down the corridor.
For a moment he remained seated, looking at the empty plates on the table. A small pang of guilt nudged at him Oscar had picked him up from the airport, fed him dinner, let him sleep in his bed, cooked breakfast…
It felt wrong to just sit there like a guest being waited on.
So he stood, gathered the dishes and carried them to the sink.
Washing them felt strangely grounding. The simple task, the quiet running water, the faint sounds of the shower starting down the hallway. It made him realize just how unusual this whole situation was. He had known Oscar in person for barely more than a day, yet somehow the apartment didn’t feel unfamiliar anymore.
More than that, he hadn’t felt unwelcome even once.
If anything, Oscar had made it very clear that Lando being there wasn’t a burden.
Once the dishes were done, Lando headed to the bathroom himself. The quick shower helped shake off the last traces of sleep and travel fatigue. By the time he stepped out again and pulled on his own clothes — finally back in something that actually belonged to him — he felt far more like himself.
When he returned to the living room, Oscar was already there.
He sat on the couch with his phone in his hands, typing something with quiet focus. Lando dropped down beside him, the cushions dipping slightly under the added weight.
Oscar glanced at him briefly but didn’t stop typing.
“You were in Melbourne before, right?” he asked.
Lando frowned slightly.
“I mean… we race here every year,” he said. “So obviously.”
Oscar’s thumbs paused on the screen. He locked the phone and set it down on the coffee table before turning toward him fully.
“Did you ever go sightseeing here?”
The question made Lando hesitate.
He thought about it for a moment, mentally replaying the trips he’d taken to Australia over the years. Most of them blurred together in his memory — airports, hotels, the track, interviews, meetings, the race itself.
There was rarely time for anything else.
“I went to the Royal Botanic Gardens once,” he said slowly. “And the National Gallery.”
He shrugged.
“But I’m not really the tourist type, I think.”
Oscar hummed thoughtfully, leaning back into the couch cushions. After a moment he picked his phone up again, typed something quickly, then set it down once more.
“You still didn’t get a hotel?”
The question made Lando stiffen slightly.
Heat crept back into his face almost instantly.
It wasn’t like he had forgotten about that problem.
He’d just… been avoiding it.
Putting off the moment he would have to pack his things and leave this apartment.
Not that he would ever admit that out loud.
“No,” he admitted. “But I’ll look right now.”
He pulled his phone from his pocket and unlocked it, already opening his browser. Hilton was the safest option — his team had contracts with them during race weekends, and it would look strange if he suddenly showed up somewhere else.
He barely had time to load the page before Oscar’s hand reached over and gently took the phone from him.
Lando blinked in surprise.
“Have you ever been to Sydney?” Oscar asked casually.
The sudden change of topic threw him off completely.
“N-no?”
Oscar tilted his head slightly, amused.
“Are you asking me?”
Lando frowned.
“No. I haven’t,” he said, still confused. “Why?”
Oscar leaned back against the couch, studying him for a moment.
“When do you need to be at the track?” he asked. “With your team?”
Lando made a small, confused face at the question.
Ideally, he should have been meeting the team on Wednesday. That was usually how it went — arrive early, settle in, go through meetings, simulator notes, briefings. Give himself a day before the real chaos of a race weekend started.
But technically… he didn’t have to.
If he really wanted, he could push it to Thursday. Media day was the absolute latest he could get away with before people started asking questions.
So after a moment of mental calculation, he answered, “Thursday.”
Oscar nodded slightly, like he’d expected something along those lines. Without another word he placed Lando’s phone on the coffee table next to his own and leaned forward, resting his chin lightly against his fist.
He looked thoughtful.
Lando watched him for a few seconds, increasingly confused. Oscar seemed to be considering something seriously, his eyes fixed somewhere on the floor in front of him.
Then he looked up.
“Would you like to go to Sydney with me?”
For a second the question didn’t fully register.
It felt completely random.
Completely out of nowhere.
And yet somehow it made perfect sense at the same time.
“Yeah,” Lando said immediately.
The answer slipped out before his brain had time to catch up with his mouth.
Oscar blinked, clearly amused by the speed of that response.
“Yeah?” he repeated, a small laugh escaping him.
Now that his brain had caught up, Lando sat up straighter, already reaching toward the coffee table for his phone again.
“Yeah, I can look for plane tickets right now,” he said quickly, excitement beginning to creep into his voice. “It’s not far, right? The flight can’t be that long. We just need to find one that gets me back here before Thursday and—”
“What about a road trip, Lan?”
Oscar’s voice cut gently through the rambling.
Lando paused mid-sentence.
“A road trip?” he repeated, blinking at him.
Oscar leaned back against the couch again, the corner of his mouth curving into a soft smile.
“Yeah,” he said. “With a car.”
He chuckled quietly at Lando’s expression.
“We could drive there. Stop along the way, see a few places.”
The idea seemed so simple the way he said it.
But to Lando it sounded… almost unreal.
He frowned slightly, thinking about it.
“I’ve never been on a road trip,” he admitted.
Oscar tilted his head.
“Seriously?”
Lando shrugged a little helplessly.
His life had always been planes, airports, schedules, race tracks. Getting from one place to another as quickly as possible. There had never really been room for slow travel, for wandering without a strict plan.
Oscar watched him for a moment, that same soft smile still on his face.
“Would you like to go?” he asked.
Lando didn’t answer right away.
He didn’t really need to.
The grin spreading across his face already said everything.
Notes:
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Chapter 3: Southbound
Summary:
How they left everything behind.
Notes:
Hi, the chapter is super early today because I have a hectic day ahead of me and decided to better post it now (it’s 6 am here 🫠).
The research for the whole trip was crazy 😭
But I decided to do it as properly as I can in case there are any Australians here so they don’t call me out for bullshit.
Hope you enjoy it ❤️
Ps. If there are any Australians and I did write something wrong don’t be afraid to call me out just please do it gently 🙏
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Oscar had apparently planned the whole thing in his head long before he’d mentioned it out loud.
He explained the route to Lando while they packed, leaning casually against the kitchen counter with the quiet confidence of someone who had already pictured every mile of the trip.
They’d leave now early enough to avoid the worst of the Friday afternoon traffic— head straight down to Wilsons Prom. They’d stay the night there, then drive out to Eden the next day and spend another night. On Sunday they’d make their way up to Sydney. After that, they’d loop back through a few other places before finally rolling into Melbourne sometime Wednesday. The schedule was tight but doable.
It sounded… ambitious.
But also exciting.
Lando tried not to overthink it.
He packed light—just the essentials. If he forgot something, he could always buy it on the way. Or borrow it from Oscar.
The thought made something warm settle in his chest.
He threw a few clothes in a bag, toiletries, spare clothes… and his camera. Just in case. If they stopped somewhere pretty—or interesting—he didn’t want to miss it.
Still, as he zipped his bag closed, the thought hit him how completely mental the whole thing was. Leaving the rest of his luggage behind at Oscar’s flat. Taking off on a multi-day road trip with him with almost no planning on his own part.
And yet…
Being around Oscar felt like the most natural thing Lando had ever done.
Easier than driving.
Easier than breathing.
They chose the Audi for the trip. As much as the Senna was Oscar’s pride and joy, it wasn’t exactly built for comfort over long distances.
First stop was a grocery store where they loaded up on snacks and drinks for the drive—chips, chocolate, energy drinks, bottled water, and a few things Oscar insisted were “road trip essentials.”
Then they hit the highway.
“Oh, this is nice,” Oscar sighed, leaning back slightly into the driver’s seat as the car settled into the steady rhythm of the road.
Lando looked up from the open bag of chips in his lap.
He probably shouldn’t be eating them—Jon would absolutely lose his mind if he saw the amount of snacks Lando had bought—but he decided he’d allow himself a few more days of food freedom.
Just for the trip.
“Aren’t you, like, on the road all the time?” Lando asked.
He turned his head to look at Oscar.
The Australian looked absurdly relaxed. One hand rested loosely on the steering wheel while the other sat on his lap. His sunglasses were perched on his nose, and the wind from the slightly open window had pushed his hair into soft disarray.
He looked effortlessly cool.
Effortlessly handsome.
In Lando’s opinion, Oscar could easily be a model if he wanted to. Pale skin, sharp jawline, and those little moles scattered across his face and neck like constellations.
“Yeah,” Oscar replied, glancing briefly toward him before returning his focus to the road. “But
almost never in this car.”
“Why?”
“I usually drive around the country for races,” Oscar said. “And for that I need the Senna.”
“Oh.”
“Yeah,” Oscar chuckled quietly. “It’s not half as comfortable as this.”
Without asking, he reached over and grabbed a handful of chips from the bag resting on Lando’s lap.
Lando laughed.
“Yeah, tell me about it.”
For a moment the car filled only with music and the soft hum of tires against asphalt.
“It’s nice to slow down a bit for a change,” Oscar said after a while.
Lando wasn’t sure if he meant himself.
Or Lando.
Or maybe both of them.
But he nodded anyway.
Because yes… it was nice.
Nice to be in a car without rushing somewhere. Nice to not have a timer running in the background of his brain.
Nice to just exist.
Being the passenger was nice too.
Eventually Lando claimed the Bluetooth speaker with great confidence, declaring himself an excellent DJ who would provide the perfect soundtrack for their road trip.
In reality, the playlist turned into a chaotic mix of everything he liked—country songs, pop hits, random club music, a few old throwbacks.
If Oscar had any objections, he didn’t voice them.
Every now and then he suggested a song, but mostly he just let Lando take over.
Their first stop came a little past halfway through the drive.
The tank didn’t really need filling yet, but Lando had been whining about needing the bathroom for the past fifteen minutes.
He hurried inside the gas station, took care of business, washed his hands quickly, and jogged back outside toward the car.
Except…
Oscar wasn’t there.
The Audi sat alone in the parking spot, gleaming under the afternoon sun.
Lando leaned against it and waited.
They were just outside a small town they’d passed a few minutes earlier. Back there the streets had been lively—people walking around, shops open, cars moving through intersections—but out here things were quiet.
The sun hung high in the sky.
A light breeze rustled through the nearby trees and the tall grass that stretched out beside the road.
It felt… peaceful.
Then something moved.
Lando squinted toward the grass.
A shape shifted between the tall stalks grey, tall ears flicking above the green.
A kangaroo.
He froze.
For a moment he simply stared, dumbfounded.
He had never seen a wild animal like that before. Not properly. Maybe in a zoo once when he was younger, but that felt completely different.
This one was just… there.
Living.
Moving.
Real.
Slowly,carefully—Lando opened the trunk of the Audi. As if any sudden sound might scare the animal away even though it was still a good distance off.
He pulled out his camera.
Of course, the moment mattered too much for him to just take the picture.
Instead he spent way too long adjusting the lens, fiddling with settings, checking the focus. His hands moved quickly but his brain kept screaming that the kangaroo would disappear before he finished.
Luckily, it didn’t.
The animal stood in the grass, occasionally flicking its ears or shifting its weight.
Lando lifted the camera and snapped a few photos.
Click.
Click.
Click.
Encouraged, he took a few careful steps away from the car, raising the camera again to capture another angle.
“Lan.”
Oscar’s voice came from behind him.
“Shhh, Osc,” Lando whispered sharply without turning around, still peering through the camera lens. “You’ll spook it.”
His finger hovered over the shutter as he adjusted the focus again, shoulders slightly hunched with concentration.
Oscar slowed his steps behind him, confused but curious.
“What?” he asked quietly, trying to see past Lando toward whatever had caught his attention.
“There’s a kangaroo!” Lando whisper–screamed, his voice still hushed but bursting with excitement as he snapped a few more photos.
Click.
Click.
He shifted slightly to the side, angling the camera again.
The light was perfect now the sun high but soft enough that it hit the animal just right, outlining its tall ears and grey fur in a warm glow against the grass.
Lando barely breathed as he took another picture.
Click.
Oscar leaned a little closer, finally spotting the animal in the tall grass a short distance away. It stood still, ears twitching occasionally, watching them with mild curiosity.
“Just don’t go closer,” Oscar said calmly. “It’s a male. Might be aggressive.”
Lando didn’t answer immediately. He took two more photos, adjusting the lens again, before finally lowering the camera and straightening his back.
He began scrolling through the photos on the screen, examining them carefully to see if he liked them or if he should take a few more while the kangaroo was still there.
“It’s fine,” Lando said dismissively after a moment. “It’s literally twenty feet away.”
“Feet?” Oscar chuckled from beside him.
Lando paused, then glanced up briefly.
“Yeah,” he said, gesturing vaguely toward the grass. “So like… about six metres. Why?”
Oscar just shook his head slightly, amusement clear on his face.
“Nothing,” he said. “It’s just really American to use feet on a daily basis like that.”
That made Lando finally look up from his camera.
Oscar was standing next to him now with his arms crossed loosely over his chest, looking far too entertained by the whole situation.
Lando gasped dramatically.
“Don’t insult me like that!”
The kangaroo was completely forgotten now.
“I am British,” Lando continued, pointing at himself with exaggerated offense, “and I use both. It just makes me intelligenter.”
“More intelligent?” Oscar repeated slowly, lifting one eyebrow.
Lando frowned at him.
“You know what I mean.”
Oscar’s lips twitched as if he was trying not to laugh.
Lando huffed, rolling his eyes as he looked back down at the camera, pretending to review the photos again.
“Whatever,” he muttered after a moment. Then he turned and started walking back toward the car, camera still in hand.
“Get in the car.”
Lando stayed annoyed for a whole ten minutes.
Not loudly annoyed he wasn’t complaining or arguing anymore but in the quiet, sulky way where he leaned his head against the window, stared out at the passing landscape, and pretended Oscar didn’t exist.
The playlist kept playing in the background, the road stretching endlessly ahead of them while fields and small patches of forest rolled past outside.
Oscar let him have his moment.
Eventually, after another few miles of peaceful silence, Oscar leaned over slightly and opened the glove box.
Inside was a whole box of Kinder chocolates.
Lando immediately turned his head.
That hadn’t been there before.
He was sure of it.
He had absolutely snooped through the glove box earlier—with Oscar’s permission, of course and it had been completely empty.
Suspicion quickly lost to temptation, Lando grabbed the box and opened it.
“Where did these come from?” he asked, already unwrapping one.
Oscar shrugged, one hand relaxed on the steering wheel.
“Magic.”
Lando narrowed his eyes at him for half a second before deciding the answer didn’t matter. He popped the chocolate into his mouth and instantly felt his mood improve.
The irritation dissolved almost immediately.
He pulled another one from the box and held it out toward Oscar.
“Here.”
Oscar leaned slightly closer and took the chocolate without looking away from the road, chewing thoughtfully.
Peace restored.
Lando shifted in his seat and picked up his camera again, scrolling through the photos he’d taken earlier.
The kangaroo pictures were actually pretty good.
The lighting had worked perfectly, the tall grass framing the animal in a way that made the whole thing look almost cinematic.
He had to resist the urge to show Oscar right away.
The man was driving, after all.
Instead, he leaned back in the seat, camera resting in his lap as he kept looking through the pictures.
“Why didn’t you modify this car?” Lando asked casually.
Oscar glanced at him briefly.
“Didn’t really feel the need to. Why?”
Lando chewed the last bit of chocolate before answering.
“I mean…” he gestured vaguely toward the dashboard, “it could be faster.”
For a second Oscar didn’t respond.
Then he looked at Lando again.
And suddenly pressed his foot harder on the gas pedal.
The acceleration was immediate.
The force pushed Lando back into the seat, the car surging forward with a smooth but powerful burst of speed.
“It is plenty fast,” Oscar said calmly.
The unsettling part wasn’t the acceleration.
It was that Oscar was looking at him.
Not the road.
Lando blinked, his stomach flipping slightly as the speed kept climbing.
He glanced at Oscar.
Then at the road.
Then back at Oscar again.
“Osc.”
It was reckless.
Completely reckless.
Lando was a professional driver—everything about this situation went against the instincts drilled into him for years.
But somehow…
It still felt safe.
Because it was Oscar.
“There’s a speed limit,” Oscar said simply.
His eyes were still on Lando for another second before he finally turned his gaze back to the road.
The car gradually slowed again, settling back into a more reasonable pace.
Lando exhaled slowly.
Then frowned.
“Wait,” he said after a moment, voice returning. “So you never speed?”
Oscar smirked slightly.
“You know I do.”
His attention stayed firmly on the road now.
“Just not on the roads.”
Lando blinked.
“What? Why?” he asked, genuinely confused. “Isn’t that supposed to be your whole personality? You know—adrenaline, breaking laws and all that?”
He was rambling now, gesturing vaguely as he spoke.
Oscar chuckled quietly.
“For starters, I don’t want a ticket,” he said matter-of-factly.
Then he added, just as casually,
“And second, I don’t want to make speeding a habit. Because if I get caught in the Senna and they want to look under the hood…”
He paused.
“I’m fucked.”
Lando stared at him.
“Oh.”
The realization clicked instantly.
“Yeah,” Oscar continued. “The Senna is legal on the outside. As long as they don’t have a reason to look inside, I’m good.”
And honestly…
That made a lot of sense.
Lando knew plenty of hypercars were banned or restricted in different countries for various reasons. The GTR version of the Senna definitely wasn’t street legal anywhere.
But he’d never really thought about Oscar’s situation specifically.
About how he actually got away with driving a car like that around.
Which left Lando with one very obvious question.
“So you never got a ticket?” he asked.
“Nope.”
“Not once?” Lando turned fully toward him now. “Not even for parking?”
Oscar shook his head slightly.
“Nah, mate.”
His accent stretched slightly on the word mate, amused.
“My record’s completely spotless.”
Lando groaned dramatically and leaned back in his seat.
“Not fair.”
Oscar glanced at him.
“I start the season with three penalty points already,” Lando complained.
“Yeah, maybe you should learn to keep the speed limit too,” Oscar teased lightly.
Lando turned his head toward him, surprise written all over his face.
He shouldn’t have been this surprised, really. It wasn’t like Formula 1 was some obscure niche sport nobody had heard of. Still, hearing Oscar casually reference his penalty points caught him off guard.
“You watch races?” Lando asked.
Oscar shrugged, one shoulder lifting slightly as he kept his eyes on the road ahead.
“Not as much as I used to,” he admitted. “But I keep up with what’s going on.”
Lando blinked.
There was something oddly satisfying about that answer. The idea that Oscar followed the sport—even casually made something warm spark in his chest.
“Oh,” Lando said, leaning a little closer in his seat, suddenly far more interested in the conversation. “Who are you rooting for then?”
There was a genuine excitement in his voice now, the same kind that always appeared whenever the topic of racing came up. He watched Oscar expectantly, already curious about the answer.
Oscar didn’t seem to think about it for long.
“I should probably say Daniel,” he admitted, one corner of his mouth lifting slightly. “Since he’s Aussie.”
That sounded reasonable enough.
“But if I’m being honest,” he continued casually, “I like Max the most. And Red Bull overall.”
He said it so simply, so matter-of-factly, like he hadn’t just personally attacked Lando’s entire existence.
Lando stared at him.
“Excuse me?” he shouted a second later, clutching a hand to his chest in exaggerated offense. “What about me? What about the team you literally own a car from?”
He gestured dramatically toward Oscar like this was the greatest betrayal in motorsport history.
Oscar glanced at him briefly, clearly entertained by the reaction.
“I mean…” he said thoughtfully, “Red Bull doesn’t actually make cars, do they?”
Lando blinked.
“—That’s not the point!” he protested immediately.
Oscar’s lips twitched as if he was holding back a laugh.
“You drive a McLaren,” Lando continued, pointing at him accusingly. “You should have brand loyalty.”
Oscar chuckled softly.
“I didn’t buy the car because of the team,” he said. “I bought it because it’s one of the best engineered cars ever made.”
Lando sank slightly into his seat.
“You’re the worst.”
Oscar laughed again, the sound warm and easy as the road stretched endlessly ahead of them, the late afternoon sun beginning to soften the edges of the landscape.
“Here I thought we were friends,” Lando continued dramatically, leaning back in his seat as if personally wounded. “And the next moment you stab me in the back. That’s not very nice of you, Osc.”
“Friends, huh?” Oscar repeated, amused.
There was a teasing lilt in his voice, like he found the statement interesting but wasn’t going to comment on it too much.
Lando decided to ignore him entirely after that, choosing instead to act like his feelings had been deeply, tragically hurt.
He glanced at Oscar one last time with exaggerated disappointment before picking up his camera again, resting it in his hands as he turned toward the window.
The view outside had changed gradually over the last hour. The road cut through wide stretches of countryside now, long fields rolling past under the bright sky. Trees appeared here and there in uneven clusters, their shadows stretching lazily across the grass.
Lando lifted the camera and snapped a few photos through the window.
The came out a little blurry thanks to the movement of the car, but there was something about it he liked anyway—the streaks of color, the soft distortion of motion. It made the landscape feel alive somehow.
He took a few more.
Then, almost without thinking, he turned the camera toward Oscar.
The timing was perfect.
The sunlight slipped through the window at just the right angle, catching the side of Oscar’s face in a warm glow. His expression was relaxed but focused, eyes on the road ahead, one hand resting easily on the wheel. The wind from the slightly open window kept pushing a few strands of his hair out of place.
Lando paused for a second, adjusting the focus carefully this time.
Through the lens Oscar looked… different.
Sharper somehow. The strong line of his jaw, the faint scatter of moles across his skin, the calm concentration in his expression.
It was the kind of face photographers loved.
Lando pressed the shutter.
Click.
If Oscar noticed the camera pointed at him, he didn’t say anything.
And Lando was grateful for that.
He lowered the camera slowly, glancing down at the photo on the screen for a moment. It had turned out even better than he expected the sunlight, the calm focus on Oscar’s face, the relaxed way he held the steering wheel.
It looked… peaceful.
Lando saved it without thinking twice.
He didn’t want the moment to end. Didn’t want Oscar to suddenly become aware of it and ruin it with a joke or a comment.
Because that moment had felt real in a way Lando rarely experienced anymore.
Just Oscar driving.
Just the open road.
No expectations, no cameras, no people asking for interviews or pictures or statements.
For once he wasn’t the driver everyone wanted him to be.
He was just himself.
“We’re here, drama queen.”
Oscar’s voice pulled him out of his thoughts.
The car slowed before rolling into a small gravel parking space, the tires crunching softly as Oscar parked and turned off the engine.
Lando blinked and looked up, glancing out the window.
The place was… nice.
A small cabin stood a short distance away, simple but cozy looking, with weathered wood and a small porch. Beyond it a meadow stretched out wide and green, the grass swaying with the late afternoon wind.
The air looked clearer here somehow.
Quieter.
Before Lando could even properly take it all in, Oscar had already stepped out of the car.
The door on Lando’s side opened a second later.
Oscar stood there casually, one hand resting on the door as he looked down at him.
“You coming?”
He didn’t even wait for an answer before walking toward the trunk.
Lando watched him for a second, then finally climbed out of the car.
The air was cooler near the sea, carrying the faint salty scent of the water and the sound of waves somewhere in the distance.
By the time Lando walked around to the back of the car, Oscar was already pulling their bags out of the trunk like they weighed nothing.
Lando stopped beside the car and leaned his shoulder against it, watching him with quiet amusement for a moment.
“You know I am able to carry my own bags?” he pointed out.
Oscar glanced at him briefly, one of the bags already slung easily over his shoulder.
“I’d be surprised if you weren’t,” he replied.
But he made absolutely no move to hand any of them over.
Lando narrowed his eyes slightly but didn’t argue further. Instead, he pushed himself off the car and followed Oscar toward the cabin, trailing behind him like a mildly offended puppy.
Oscar walked up to the small porch and punched a code into the keypad by the door. The lock clicked open and he pushed the door inside without hesitation.
Lando stopped behind him.
“You booked it?” he asked, surprised.
Oscar glanced back over his shoulder and shrugged.
“While you were packing.”
Lando blinked.
He was used to people arranging things for him—hotels, flights, transport, schedules but that was always different. Professional. Organized by managers, assistants, teams.
This wasn’t that.
Oscar had just… done it. Quietly, casually, because it made the trip easier.
Because he wanted Lando to have a good time.
The thought sat strangely warm in his chest.
Inside, the cabin was simple but cozy. At first glance it wasn’t very big—a small living room connected to a kitchen island, a bathroom with a shower, and a bedroom with two beds.
But the moment Lando stepped further inside, the real highlight of the place revealed itself.
The entire wall beside the living room was made of floor-to-ceiling windows.
Outside was a wooden deck with a simple railing, the wood slightly weathered from sun and rain. Beyond it the landscape opened into wild bushland.
Tall, pale trees twisted upward in uneven shapes, their branches stretching lazily over thick green shrubs and patches of long grass. One of the trunks leaned sharply to the side like it had grown fighting the wind for years, its bark rough and peeling in places.
The air outside looked bright and still, the sunlight filtering through the leaves in soft, scattered patches that moved gently with the breeze.
It felt quiet.
Untouched.
Like the kind of place where the world slowed down whether you wanted it to or not.
Lando stepped closer to the glass without realizing it, taking in the view.
“Wow,” he murmured quietly.
Oscar dropped the bags near the couch and followed his gaze outside, though he didn’t seem nearly as impressed as Lando was.
“So what’s the plan?” Lando asked after a moment, turning back toward him with curiosity.
Oscar didn’t hesitate.
“We’re going hiking.”
Lando stared at him.
“Should’ve known Jon just sent you to torture me,” Lando joked, though it came out sounding more like a whine than he intended.
Oscar looked at him from across the room, one brow raised and a smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth.
“You agreed to this.”
He grabbed his backpack from the floor and started going through it, pulling out the things he clearly didn’t need and setting them aside on the kitchen island before replacing them with others—water bottles, powerbank, a small first aid kit.
Lando leaned against the counter, watching the process with mild curiosity.
It was oddly methodical. Efficient.
Like Oscar had done this a hundred times before.
“You’re very prepared,” Lando commented.
Oscar zipped the bag halfway before glancing up at him briefly.
“Someone has to be.”
Lando rolled his eyes but didn’t comment further, his gaze drifting down to his own shoes. Bright white sneakers that had definitely never seen anything resembling a hiking trail.
“I don’t have hiking shoes,” he pointed out, lifting one foot slightly like Oscar needed visual confirmation.
Oscar barely looked.
“You’ll be fine,” he said casually. “It’s gonna be more of a walk.”
Lando didn’t seem fully convinced, but he also didn’t argue again. Instead he grabbed his camera from the table, slinging the strap over his shoulder before following Oscar outside.
The air hit him immediately.
Fresh.
Cooler than inside the cabin, carrying the faint earthy smell of trees and grass warming under the sun.
The weather was perfect warm enough for a t-shirt but without the aggressive heat he remembered from Perth earlier that year. Back in February the sun had been relentless, the kind that made your skin feel like it was burning even through fabric.
This was different.
The light filtered gently through the tall trees surrounding the cabin, the breeze just strong enough to rustle the leaves and carry the distant sounds of birds somewhere deeper in the bushland.
Lando took a slow breath as they stepped off the wooden deck and onto the narrow dirt path leading away from the cabin.
“Alright,” he said, adjusting the camera in his hands. “Lead the way, hiking expert.”
They walked for a while after leaving the cabin, the narrow trail quickly swallowing them into the bushland.
At first Lando had expected something a bit more… dramatic. Mountains, maybe. Cliffs. Something that screamed hike. Instead the path curved gently through tall eucalyptus trees, their pale trunks rising like smooth pillars from the earth. The ground beneath them was soft with fallen leaves and dry bark, crunching quietly under their steps.
Every now and then a breeze moved through the branches high above them, carrying the faint salty hint of the ocean somewhere in the distance. Sunlight filtered through the canopy in scattered patches, warm streaks of gold that shifted slowly across the trail as the leaves moved.
Oscar walked ahead most of the time, clearly familiar with the terrain. His pace was easy, unhurried, hands occasionally brushing against branches that leaned too close to the path. Lando followed a few steps behind, stopping every so often to lift his camera.
Everything felt worth photographing.
The twisted shapes of the trees, some bending sideways as if they’d grown around invisible obstacles. Clusters of dense green shrubs packed tightly along the edges of the trail. Once he even crouched down to capture the patterns of sunlight cutting through tall grass swaying gently in the breeze.
Further along, the trail began opening up slightly as the landscape dipped. Through the trees Lando could occasionally glimpse flashes of water in the distance the pale blue surface of a river winding through the park before meeting the sea somewhere further out.
The sound of it grew clearer the closer they got. A quiet rush of water moving over rocks.
They passed a wooden sign half hidden behind bushes pointing toward Tidal Overlook, the trail bending upward slightly now as the ground began to climb.
“Almost there,” Oscar said over his shoulder.
Lando hummed in response, though his attention was mostly fixed through the lens of his camera. He was adjusting the focus on a shot of sunlight reflecting off a cluster of leaves when he stepped forward without really looking.
His foot sank directly into a patch of wet mud.
There was a horrible squelching sound.
Lando froze.
Then slowly looked down.
His once perfectly white sneaker was now half coated in thick brown mud.
“Osccccc,” he whined, dragging the word out dramatically as he tried to shake his foot, which only made things worse. “They’re ruined.”
Oscar turned around just in time to see Lando attempting to flick mud off his shoe with increasing frustration.
He lasted about two seconds before bursting into laughter.
Not even trying to hide it.
“You can afford new ones,” he said between laughs.
Lando stared at him like he’d just committed a personal betrayal.
“But you promised!”
Oscar held up his hands in mock surrender, still smiling.
“Okay, okay,” he said. “I’ll buy you new ones.”
Lando narrowed his eyes suspiciously but finally stepped out of the mud patch, wiping the bottom of his shoe against the dry dirt with dramatic annoyance.
“You better.”
Oscar just chuckled and turned back toward the trail, continuing up the path toward the overlook while Lando followed behind, grumbling quietly but already lifting his camera again the moment another patch of sunlight hit the trees just right.
“Lan.”
Oscar’s voice was quiet this time, low enough that it barely carried past them. He stopped so suddenly that Lando almost walked straight into his back.
The only thing that kept him from stumbling forward was Oscar’s reflexes—an arm shooting out quickly to catch him by the waist.
“Oscar—” Lando started, ready to complain about nearly being taken out on the trail, but the protest died immediately when Oscar lifted a finger.
“Shh.”
Then he pointed upward.
“Look.”
Lando followed the direction of his hand, lifting his gaze slowly through the branches above them.
At first he didn’t see it.
Then the shape shifted slightly.
A soft grey bundle clinging to the trunk of a eucalyptus tree, its rounded ears twitching as it adjusted its grip on the bark.
And not just one.
There was a smaller one clinging to its back, tiny paws gripping tightly into the thicker fur as the mother shifted lazily against the tree.
Lando’s entire face lit up instantly.
“Osc, koalas!” he whisper-shouted, the words bursting out of him as he scrambled to pull his camera up again.
Oscar’s hand was still steady on his waist, keeping him from stepping forward too quickly.
“Don’t make sudden moves,” he murmured gently. “They get spooked pretty easily.”
Lando nodded quickly even though his attention was completely locked on the view through the camera lens.
The mother koala barely moved, lazily chewing on a eucalyptus leaf while the baby peeked over her shoulder, its small nose twitching as it looked down at the strange humans below.
Lando took several photos in quick succession, adjusting the focus, zooming slightly, trying to capture the tiny claws wrapped into the bark and the way the baby clung to its mother like a little backpack.
“It’s so adorable,” he said softly, lowering the camera just enough to grin up at the tree.
Then he glanced sideways at Oscar.
“The baby looks like you.”
Oscar blinked once.
“Excuse me?”
Lando was already lifting the camera again, completely unbothered.
“Same grumpy face.”
Oscar snorted under his breath, but his attention drifted back to Lando rather than the koalas above them.
The Brit was practically glowing eyes bright, curls messy from the walk, completely absorbed in capturing the moment like it was the most exciting thing he’d ever seen.
Oscar watched him for a second longer than necessary.
A small, fond smile settling on his face.
Once Lando was satisfied with the photos, he lowered the camera and glanced back at Oscar.
“Okay,” he said quietly. “We shouldn’t disturb them. I think the baby’s about to fall asleep.”
Oscar raised a brow slightly, his posture still relaxed where he stood on the trail.
“I’m just waiting on you here.”
Lando didn’t bother responding to that. Instead he shot him a quick look, half suspicious and half playful, before turning and continuing down the trail as if he knew exactly where he was going.
Oscar watched him for a moment.
The confident stride. The way he lifted his chin slightly, pretending he had full control over the situation.
It was very clearly fake.
Oscar wasn’t sure if it was dumb or adorable.
Possibly both.
They walked another minute before Oscar finally spoke.
“The other way.”
Lando stopped mid-step, looking back at him with narrowed eyes before quietly turning around without a word.
Oscar bit back a smile and took the lead again.
The trail climbed gradually after that, the trees thinning out as the bushland gave way to rockier ground. The sound of the ocean grew louder the higher they went, the steady rhythm of waves rolling in somewhere below the cliffs.
And then the path opened.
The Tidal Overlook viewpoint stretched out in front of them, the landscape suddenly falling away into an enormous open view.
The ocean spread endlessly across the horizon, deep blue water shifting with long slow waves that rolled toward the shore far below. The coastline curved gently around the bay, pale sand and jagged rocks breaking the water where it met the land.
The sun was already lowering toward the horizon, the sky painted in soft orange and gold that reflected faintly across the surface of the water. The light touched everything—the cliffs, the distant trees, the sea itself—casting the whole view in warm evening tones.
For a moment neither of them said anything.
Lando lifted his camera almost automatically, taking a couple of photos. Two. Maybe three.
Then he stopped.
There was something about the quiet up there, about the way the wind moved softly through the grass along the cliff edge and the sound of the waves below, that made him lower the camera again.
Some moments weren’t meant to be captured.
He walked over and sat down on a large rock near the edge where Oscar had settled, stretching his legs slightly in front of him.
Oscar reached into his backpack and pulled out a water bottle, holding it out toward him.
Lando took it gratefully, already thirsty from the walk. He unscrewed the cap and drank almost half the bottle in one go before handing it back.
“It’s beautiful,” he said after a quiet moment, still looking out at the ocean. “Have you been here before?”
Oscar took a small sip before answering.
“Yeah. My first year of uni.”
He rested his forearms loosely on his knees, eyes drifting out toward the horizon.
“I was pretty overwhelmed back then. Emotional, I guess.” He shrugged slightly. “Racing wasn’t really an option at the time. I had an old Honda Civic.”
Lando glanced at him, surprised.
“So I just… drove,” Oscar continued. “Didn’t really have a plan. Just kept going until I ended up here.”
“Oh.”
The quiet honesty of it caught Lando off guard.
He hadn’t expected that. Hadn’t expected Oscar to bring him somewhere that clearly meant something personal.
Oscar looked back out over the ocean again, the breeze shifting his hair slightly.
“I always wanted to come back,” he said. “It’s just so peaceful here.”
He gestured vaguely toward the open landscape in front of them.
“Feels like the rest of the world doesn’t exist for a bit.”
“Yeah… I don’t get to slow down like this often,” Lando admitted after a while, his voice softer than usual. His elbows rested on his knees as he looked out over the water, the wind tugging gently at his hair. “Nowadays even my vacations feel rushed. There’s always somewhere I have to be. Someone waiting. Something scheduled.”
He paused for a moment before glancing sideways at Oscar.
“I’m nice,” he added with a faint grin, clearly meaning this. The walk, the quiet, the view. The break from everything else.
Oscar hummed quietly beside him, letting the comment sit in the air without interrupting it. The waves rolled steadily below them, the low rhythm of the ocean filling the silence between their words.
For a moment neither of them moved.
Then Oscar tilted his head slightly, glancing down at Lando’s once-white sneakers, now stained with a respectable amount of mud.
“Was it worth the shoes?” he asked after a beat, the corner of his mouth twitching.
Lando followed his gaze and immediately frowned.
“Don’t push it.”
Oscar laughed softly under his breath, leaning back on his hands as the sun dipped lower over the horizon, the sky slowly deepening from orange into warmer shades of pink and gold around them.
Notes:
In my mind Lando said bye to the koalas on their way back 😭
I’m obsessed with koalas after writing that and also I want to go on an Australian road trip, like wtf? I never wanted to go there but now I want 🥺
Chapter 4: Narrow Gap
Notes:
I’m too excited to keep it for myself, I hope I’ll keep to the schedule at some point 😭
Lando getting the princess treatment is frying me.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
When Lando woke up the next morning, the sun had barely started climbing over the horizon.
The room was washed in that pale early morning light that slipped through the thin curtains, soft and quiet in a way that made everything feel slower than usual.
For a moment he stayed where he was, half buried under the blankets, eyes still closed as he tried to convince himself to fall back asleep.
But there was no chance.
The jet lag had him fully awake now, his brain already alert even though his body still felt heavy from the previous day.
With a quiet sigh he rolled onto his side.
The other bed was empty.
The sheets were already pushed aside like someone had gotten up a while ago.
Lando frowned slightly but didn’t think too much of it. He stretched lazily before finally dragging himself out of bed and padding toward the kitchen.
Luckily there was tea.
He found a small box in one of the cupboards and made himself a cup, letting the kettle finish boiling while he leaned against the counter and stared out the window.
The cabin was strangely quiet.
Once his tea was ready, he took a slow sip and wandered around the place, half expecting Oscar to appear somewhere.
But the living room was empty.
The bathroom too.
He even stepped out onto the patio, glancing around the clearing outside the cabin.
Nothing.
That was when a small thought crept into his mind.
Had Oscar… left?
Lando frowned and walked around the side of the cabin to check the small gravel area where they’d parked.
The Audi was still there.
He relaxed instantly.
Okay. So he hadn’t been abandoned in the Australian wilderness after all.
Satisfied, Lando returned to the back of the cabin and decided to make himself comfortable on one of the wooden chairs outside instead of doing anything remotely productive.
The morning air was cool but pleasant, the sunlight just warm enough to feel nice against his skin.
He leaned back, letting the quiet settle around him while he slowly sipped his tea.
Birds chirped somewhere in the trees, and the faint sound of wind rustling through the leaves filled the otherwise peaceful silence.
He had no idea how long he sat there.
Ten minutes. Maybe twenty.
Long enough that his thoughts had started drifting somewhere else entirely.
Then the quiet was interrupted.
“Here you are.”
Lando turned his head toward the doorway—
And immediately forgot how breathing worked.
Oscar stood there.
It took Lando a full second to process what he was looking at.
Oscar was wearing nothing but running shorts and his shoes.
No shirt.
His hair was messy, damp strands falling slightly over his forehead. His cheeks were flushed from exertion, and a light sheen of sweat covered his skin, catching the early sunlight.
And yeah.
That confirmed it.
Oscar definitely spent time in the gym.
Abs like that didn’t appear out of nowhere.
Lando quickly looked away before he could be caught staring for too long.
“Where have you been?” he asked finally, clearing his throat and swallowing hard.
Oscar stepped outside and dropped into the chair beside him, taking a long drink from the water bottle in his hand.
“Went for a run,” he said casually, like this was the most normal thing in the world.
“Oh.”
That explained… everything.
“Could’ve woken me up,” Lando said, trying—and failing—to sound normal. “I could use some exercise too.”
Oscar glanced at him sideways, clearly amused.
“You looked dead asleep.”
Lando huffed slightly and lifted his tea again, pretending to be very focused on the cup while definitely not looking at Oscar’s chest.
“Shouldn’t you go take a shower?” Lando asked after a while, still staring very deliberately at his tea like it was the most fascinating thing in the world.
Anywhere but at Oscar.
Oscar raised an eyebrow at him.
“Why are you acting so strange this early?” he asked, the teasing tone already creeping into his voice like be clearly knew the effect he had on Lando.
Lando shrugged quickly, still refusing to look anywhere near him.
“I’m not.”
Oscar let out a quiet laugh, clearly unconvinced. “Sure.”
He stretched slightly in his chair before standing up again, rolling his shoulders like the run had finally started catching up with him.
“But you’re right,” he added, pushing a hand through his damp hair. “I’m going.”
And just like that he disappeared back inside the cabin.
The door clicked shut behind him.
Lando exhaled so deeply it almost felt ridiculous.
Only now did he allow himself to drop his head back against the chair and stare up at the pale morning sky.
God.
This was getting bad.
Really bad.
Both the physical and emotional attraction he felt toward Oscar was starting to spiral into something dangerous. It had been easy to ignore at first — back in Melbourne, when everything still felt casual and temporary.
But now they were on a road trip together.
Sleeping in the same places.
Spending entire days side by side.
And the worst part was how natural it all felt.
Being around Oscar was easy in a way Lando wasn’t used to. There were no expectations, no cameras, no people hovering around waiting for him to perform or behave a certain way.
Just Oscar.
Oscar who made him breakfast.
Oscar who planned entire trips without making it feel like a big deal.
Oscar who carried his bags like it was nothing.
And apparently Oscar who went on shirtless morning runs looking like something out of a fitness campaign.
Lando groaned quietly and covered his face with one hand.
This was a problem.
After a few long minutes of sitting outside alone with his thoughts, Lando finally pushed himself out of the chair and went back inside the cabin. The quiet was still there, but now it was broken by the distant sound of running water from the shower.
He rinsed his mug in the sink and washed it properly because he was a good guest like that—even though he doubted the owners would have cared about one dirty mug.
By the time he finished drying it and placing it back on the rack, the bathroom door opened.
“You ready to go soon?” Oscar asked, walking into the living area.
Thankfully, he was fully clothed this time.
Jeans, a plain t-shirt, hair still slightly damp.
Much safer for Lando’s nerves.
“We’ll get breakfast on the way.”
Lando just nodded, suddenly very interested in the counter again, before grabbing his own things and heading to the bathroom.
The shower helped.
Mostly.
At least by the time he stepped out again he felt a bit more like himself.
He didn’t have much to pack since he had barely unpacked anything the night before. His camera went back into his bag, a quick check for his phone and wallet, and that was pretty much it.
When he walked back into the living room, Oscar was already standing by the door with the car keys in his hand.
“Ready?”
“Yeah.”
Lando bent down to put on his sneakers—but stopped halfway through the motion.
“…you cleaned my shoes.”
It wasn’t a question.
They were still far from perfectly white, but most of the dried mud from the hike was gone. The fabric looked damp in places where someone had clearly scrubbed it.
Oscar leaned casually against the wall.
“Can’t let you get mud into my car,” he said with a shrug, trying to play it off like a joke.
But the tone gave him away.
Lando looked down at the shoes again for a moment, then back up at him.
“Thank you.”
Oscar just nodded once, like it really wasn’t a big deal.
And that was the end of that conversation.
Soon enough they were back on the road again.
The morning roads were almost completely empty, and Lando couldn’t tell if it was because it was still early or simply because they were somewhere far enough from the bigger cities.
They drove through forest first tall trees stretching along both sides of the road, sunlight filtering through the branches in shifting patches of gold across the asphalt.
After a while the landscape slowly opened up.
The forest thinned out and turned into wide fields instead, pale green and gold under the morning light, fences stretching along the roadside and the occasional farmhouse appearing in the distance.
Lando rested his head against the window, watching it all pass by.
It wasn’t even an hour before they reached another town.
Small, but alive.
There were a few shops, a gas station, and most importantly places that served food.
None of them were specifically breakfast spots, but after surviving mostly on snacks the day before, both of them quickly agreed that an early lunch sounded like a great idea.
They ended up in a small local restaurant.
The kind with simple wooden tables and a chalkboard menu near the counter.
Lando ordered chicken parma.
Which technically was the safer, more diet-friendly option.
Oscar ordered the steak.
And the moment their plates arrived, Lando knew he had made a mistake.
A terrible one.
He stared at Oscar’s plate.
Then back at his own.
Then back at Oscar’s again.
“Yours looks better,” he said finally, pouting slightly before taking a bite of his food.
Oscar watched him chew for a moment, clearly amused.
“Do you want to switch?” he asked casually, like it genuinely didn’t matter.
Lando stopped mid-chew.
For a second he actually considered it.
Then he shook his head and swallowed.
“No, it’s fine. I can suffer with my poor life choices,” he said with a dramatic sigh. “It’s actually good.”
Oscar nodded and started eating his own meal.
They sat in comfortable silence for a while, the soft clinking of silverware mixing with quiet conversations from the other guests in the restaurant.
Then Oscar reached over his plate, cut a small piece of his steak—
—lifted the fork slightly and held it in front of Lando.
“Here. Try.”
Lando blinked, clearly caught off guard by the gesture. For a second he hesitated, staring at the fork like his brain needed a moment to process what was happening.
Then he leaned forward and took the bite.
The moment the taste hit, his eyes widened slightly.
“It’s delicious,” he said, half-muffled because his mouth was still full, a pleased little sound slipping out with the words.
Oscar just smiled at him, amused, before casually returning to his own food like feeding him had been the most natural thing in the world.
Lando finished the rest of his meal with far less complaining after that.
When the bill came, he reached for it immediately.
Oscar had paid for practically everything so far the cabin, snacks, the gas, probably half the country at this point—and Lando refused to let him do it again.
“I’ve got it,” he insisted.
Oscar leaned back in his chair, clearly entertained by the determination.
“Well,” he chuckled, raising his hands in surrender, “whatever you want, golden boy.”
The nickname made Lando roll his eyes, but he still paid.
After leaving the restaurant, they spotted a small convenience store just down the road and decided to stop again before continuing the drive.
Inside, they wandered through the narrow aisles grabbing things for the road—chips, chocolate, a few isotonic drinks, and some energy drinks that Lando insisted were absolutely necessary for a proper road trip.
He felt relatively safe walking around the shop.
Cap pulled low, sunglasses on, casual clothes.
So far nobody had recognized him.
Which of course meant the universe immediately decided to prove him wrong.
“Excuse me?”
Lando turned around to see a boy standing a few feet away, maybe twelve years old, looking both nervous and excited at the same time.
“Are you Lando Norris?”
Lando’s smile came instantly.
“Yes I am,” he said warmly. “Are you a fan, buddy?”
The boy stared at him in pure awe.
“My favourite is Danny Ric,” he admitted quickly, “but you’re cool too!”
Lando laughed softly.
He always liked the younger fans the most. They were honest in a way adults rarely were.
“Want a photo?” he offered.
The boy nodded so enthusiastically his cap almost slipped off as he pulled his phone out.
“Osc, could you please?” Lando asked, turning toward him.
Oscar stepped forward with an easy smile, taking the phone from the kid and snapping the picture.
The boy thanked them about three times before running out of the shop with the biggest grin imaginable.
Lando and Oscar grabbed the last of their things, paid quickly, and headed back outside.
When they got into the car, Lando buckled his seatbelt before glancing over.
“Sorry about that,” he said.
Oscar looked at him, confused.
“Nothing to be sorry about, mate,” he said casually as he started the engine.
“It was cute.”
The road ahead looked much the same as it had for the past hour long stretches of open fields broken only by the occasional cluster of trees near the roadside. The landscape rolled by slowly, painted in soft morning colors, the sky still pale and clear above them.
Lando had taken over the music again, proudly reclaiming his position as the trip’s DJ. This time, though, the playlist was calmer. Slower songs filled the car, the kind that fit the early hour and the quiet countryside around them.
He leaned back in the passenger seat, one leg pulled slightly up under him as he watched the scenery pass by.
After a while he realized he regretted one decision.
His camera.
It was sitting safely in the trunk.
At the time it had seemed practical less clutter in the car—but now he kept spotting little things outside the window that would’ve made great photos. The light over the fields, the way the trees cast long shadows across the grass.
Instead, he settled for pulling out his phone and snapping a few quick pictures through the window.
They were fine.
But not the same.
“Lan, you can take a nap if you want.”
Oscar’s voice pulled him out of his thoughts.
Lando glanced over at him from the passenger seat.
Oscar was relaxed behind the wheel, one hand resting loosely on it while the other occasionally shifted gears. The sunlight streamed through the windshield, catching slightly in his hair.
“’M not sleepy,” Lando protested.
Oscar glanced at him briefly before returning his attention to the road.
“Your eyes are falling shut,” he said with a quiet chuckle.
“They are not,” Lando insisted, straightening slightly in his seat as if that proved his point. His voice carried more determination now, like he was personally offended by the accusation.
Then he turned toward Oscar again.
“Tell me where we’re going next,” he said. “Will there be more koalas?”
Oscar smiled faintly.
“They’re almost extinct there,” he explained. “But we might see some if we’re lucky.”
Lando’s expression softened instantly.
“That’s so sad,” he murmured.
His voice was already quieter now, slower.
“It’s so cool that you can just go to a forest and see koalas,” he continued sleepily. “It’s not fair.”
Oscar huffed a small laugh.
“You can always move here.”
But the comment came too late.
Lando had already drifted off.
Somewhere between one sentence and the next, sleep finally caught up with him. His body curled slightly in the passenger seat, head resting gently against the window as the landscape continued to blur past outside.
Oscar glanced over at him once.
Just long enough to see that he was completely out.
Then he smiled to himself and kept driving.
Lando slept through most of the drive.
He slept through the scenery slowly changing again, the wide open fields fading into thicker patches of forest as the road curved deeper into the countryside. He slept through Oscar pulling into a small gas station to refuel, the quiet clunk of the pump and the brief rustle of plastic bags when Oscar grabbed more water for the car.
At one point Oscar even took a call from his sister, his voice lowered into a quiet murmur so he wouldn’t wake the passenger beside him.
None of it stirred Lando.
By the time he finally began to wake up, they were already well past halfway to their destination.
His eyes opened slowly, blinking against the bright daylight filling the car. For a second he just stared at the windshield, his brain still trying to catch up with the fact that he was no longer asleep.
Then he noticed something.
Something soft under his head.
He shifted slightly and reached down, fingers brushing over fabric.
A folded hoodie.
Lando frowned faintly, lifting his head a little before settling back down again, realizing Oscar must have put it there at some point while he was asleep.
“Hi sleepy beauty,” Oscar said casually from the driver’s seat, clearly having noticed the movement. “Had a good nap?”
Lando rubbed his eyes and stretched slightly in the seat.
“Hi… yeah, I’m—”
“Don’t say sorry,” Oscar cut in immediately.
His tone was calm but firm.
“You’re still fighting jet lag. It’s really fine, Lan.”
Lando smiled a little at that, even though Oscar couldn’t really see him properly while focusing on the road ahead.
He reached forward and grabbed a Monster from the glove box, hoping the caffeine would help his brain wake up faster. But when he tried to open the can, his fingers fumbled with the tab like his body hadn’t quite caught up with the fact that he was conscious again.
Without a word, Oscar held out his hand.
Lando handed the can over.
Oscar kept the wheel steady with one knee for a second, popped the tab open effortlessly, and passed it back.
Like it was nothing.
Like that hadn’t just been the most unnecessarily attractive thing Lando had ever seen.
Lando blinked once.
Then twice.
He took a careful sip of the drink, focusing very hard on not choking on it.
Then he leaned back into the seat with a quiet, frustrated whine.
Oscar glanced at him briefly.
“Hmm?”
Clearly completely unaware of what he had just done to the poor man next to him.
“Nothing,” Lando muttered quickly. “Are we here yet?”
“About an hour and a half more,” Oscar replied, eyes flicking toward him again. “Why?”
Lando shifted slightly in his seat.
“I need to pee.”
Oscar chuckled under his breath before glancing briefly at the navigation on his phone.
“There’s a gas station in a few kilometers,” he said. “We’ll make a stop.”
The stop at the gas station went smoothly this time.
No wildlife sightings.
No sudden photography missions in the grass.
Lando used the bathroom, grabbed his camera from the trunk refusing to make the same mistake twice and by the time they were back on the road, the quiet rhythm of the drive had settled in again.
The forest stretched around them once more, tall trees casting shifting shadows across the asphalt as the car moved through patches of sunlight.
For a while Lando just scrolled through the photos he’d taken the day before, occasionally glancing outside to see if anything else caught his eye.
Then a thought returned.
A question that had been sitting in the back of his mind since before Melbourne.
“So,” Lando said suddenly, looking up from his camera. “How does it feel to be the Australian street champion?”
Oscar blinked once, clearly not expecting that.
“The what now?” he asked, amused.
“According to Dan,” Lando continued, now fully committed to the topic, “you’re like the street king. A legend. You come, win, and disappear.”
Oscar stayed quiet for a moment.
Then he laughed.
A proper laugh this time.
“That’s ridiculous.”
“No,” Lando insisted immediately, turning toward him in his seat. “You’re like Theo’s biggest enemy at this point.”
Oscar glanced at him briefly.
“Who’s?”
“The Nissan guy?” Lando said, surprised he didn’t recognize the name. “Danny’s friend from Perth.”
“Oh—” Oscar made a small face of recognition. “Yeah. Nasty crash.”
He looked back at the road, thoughtful for a second.
“Was he alright?”
Lando shrugged slightly.
“I have no idea. Didn’t ask.”
He frowned a little, suddenly feeling a bit guilty about that. Everything happened so fast at the time that Lando hadn’t thought to follow up.
“Did you know?” he asked after a moment.
Oscar tilted his head slightly.
“Know what?”
“That he’d spin.”
Oscar nodded without hesitation.
“Yeah.”
Lando stared at him.
“Wait—seriously?”
Oscar shrugged one shoulder.
“It wasn’t hard to see coming,” he said calmly. “He was pushing way too hard going into that corner.”
Lando leaned forward slightly now, interested.
Oscar continued.
“He entered the turn too fast and tried to correct mid-line instead of committing to it,” he explained. “The weight transfer was already wrong. You could see the rear start to get light before he even hit the apex.”
He tapped his fingers lightly on the steering wheel as he spoke, like he was replaying it in his head.
“With a car like that, once the back starts stepping out under throttle, you either counter immediately or you’re done. He hesitated for half a second.”
Oscar glanced over briefly.
“That’s all it takes.”
Lando blinked.
That… was a very racer’s explanation.
“Okay,” he said slowly. “That was suspiciously professional.”
Oscar smirked slightly but kept his eyes on the road.
“Just observation.”
Lando hummed, not entirely convinced.
It was a shame, really—at least in Lando’s opinion.
With a mind like that, with the kind of awareness and instinct Oscar had just casually demonstrated, he would’ve been an incredible Formula 1 driver. Lando was certain of it. Not just decent but great. The kind that could win championships.
One easily.
Two at least, if you asked Lando.
And if not as a driver, then as a race engineer? Lando was pretty sure he’d win a championship himself within a year with Oscar on the pit wall.
It felt unfair sometimes, the way life worked.
Talent in the wrong places. Opportunities that never lined up.
But Lando didn’t push the subject. Not yet. He had already sensed it was a delicate topic for Oscar, and for once he tried to respect that boundary instead of charging straight through it.
Luckily, the road soon offered a distraction.
They entered another small town, and Lando immediately leaned forward in his seat.
“It looks so cool!” he gasped, eyes scanning the streets. “Like a TV show.”
The buildings were small and colorful, the kind of coastal town architecture that looked almost too charming to be real. Little cafés, surf shops, weathered wooden signs swinging slightly in the breeze.
Oscar just smirked as he drove slowly through the streets.
A moment later the road opened up—
—and the ocean appeared.
Blue and endless, stretching out toward the horizon.
Lando went quiet instantly, watching through the window, his camera completely forgotten for once as he just took in the view.
“We’re here,” Oscar announced a minute later, pulling the car into a spot as close to the beach as he could reasonably manage.
Lando was already unbuckling his seatbelt.
The moment the car stopped he jumped out, practically bouncing onto the pavement.
Oscar got out too, though much slower. He leaned casually against the hood of the car, arms folded, watching as Lando walked closer to the shore.
Lando was already pulling his camera out, snapping photos of the ocean like an excited kid on his first holiday.
His grin was impossible to miss.
“Can we go swimming?” he asked suddenly, turning back toward Oscar.
Oscar shrugged easily.
“Sure. I think we can find a shop to buy swimming trunks somewhere around here.”
It took them about five minutes of walking through the small town to find one.
The place was… confusing.
Half fishing store, half hardware shop, half random household supply warehouse. There were fishing rods leaning against one wall, shelves of car oils and liquids on another, and stacks of cooking pots in the corner.
But luckily there was also a clothing section.
And even more luckily, that section included swimwear.
Lando was flipping through a rack of swim shorts when Oscar spoke up from the shoe aisle.
“Should we take thongs too?”
Lando froze.
Slowly he turned around.
“Excuse me?”
Oscar pointed toward a row of rubber sandals.
“Thongs. It’ll be easier walking on the sand than in our shoes.”
Lando stared at him.
“You mean flip-flops?”
“Yeah.”
Oscar’s face remained completely serious.
Lando blinked several times.
“What the hell, Oscar? Why would you call them that?”
Oscar shrugged like this was completely normal.
“What? We call ’em thongs around here.”
His accent thickened slightly as if he was emphasizing the point.
Lando rubbed his face dramatically.
“Oh my goodness.”
He looked exhausted already.
“Yes, we should buy some too,” he sighed. “But don’t ever call them that in my presence again. These are flip-flops.”
Oscar giggled quietly to himself and grabbed two pairs anyway, along with a large beach blanket they could sit on later.
When they reached the counter, Oscar paid before Lando could even protest.
Normally Lando would’ve insisted.
But the shop didn’t accept cards.
And he didn’t have any Australian cash on him.
Which meant Oscar won that round too.
They walked back to the car, Oscar grabbing his backpack from the back seat before locking it again. From there it was only a short walk down a sandy path that opened up onto the beach.
The shoreline stretched wide and quiet in front of them.
It wasn’t peak tourist season yet, so the place wasn’t crowded, but it wasn’t empty either. A few families were scattered farther down the beach, some people walking along the waterline, and in the distance a small group of teenagers were out in the waves with surfboards.
The air smelled like salt and warm sand.
Lando barely took a moment to admire it before he dropped his bag onto the blanket Oscar spread out and started stripping down without a hint of shame.
Shirt off.
Shoes off.
Shorts down.
He stepped into the new swim trunks right there, tugging them up over his boxers before tossing the rest of his clothes onto the blanket.
Oscar watched the whole thing with mild amusement while pulling off his own shirt a bit more slowly.
Lando, meanwhile, was already sprinting toward the water.
Big mistake.
The sun had been warming his skin the entire walk down, making the day feel perfectly pleasant.
The ocean was… not.
The moment his feet hit the water, Lando sucked in a sharp breath. But momentum carried him forward another few steps before the cold fully registered.
Still, he tried to pretend everything was fine.
He stood there for a solid thirty seconds, jaw tight, shoulders stiff, attempting to look brave.
Then he spun around and ran straight back toward the shore.
“It’s freezing!” he complained loudly, like Oscar was personally responsible for the temperature of the entire ocean.
Oscar didn’t even slow down as he walked past him.
He stepped calmly into the water, wading in with far less drama.
“It’s quite alright actually,” he said casually, continuing deeper.
He turned slightly, looking over his shoulder.
“C’mon in. Slowly so you get used to it.”
Lando opened his mouth to protest—
—but before he could even form the words, Oscar reached out and grabbed him lightly by the waist, pulling him back toward the water.
“Oscar!” Lando yelped, his voice jumping an octave as the cold rushed up around his legs again.
“Don’t whine,” Oscar said, rolling his eyes. “You’ll attract attention.”
Lando instinctively glanced around.
But apart from the small group of teens surfing farther down the beach and an elderly man walking his dog along the shoreline, there really wasn’t anyone paying them any attention.
Which made the whole situation feel slightly less embarrassing.
His attention drifted back to the surfers.
He watched them curiously for a moment as they tried to catch waves.
“Will you teach me how to surf?” he asked suddenly.
Oscar glanced in the same direction before looking back at him.
“Sure,” he said with a small shrug. “But I’m not that good at it.”
He guided Lando a little farther into the water while speaking, the waves now reaching their thighs.
“Might need to find a better beach for that though.”
“This one looks good enough,” Lando said distractedly, still watching the surfers.
He didn’t even realize how far in they had already gone.
The water was halfway up his stomach now.
Oscar chuckled quietly.
“It’s decent,” he admitted, “but I want you to have the real experience.”
“Aww, Osc—”
Lando turned toward him mid-sentence—
And finally realized how deep they were standing.
“Wait.”
Oscar raised an eyebrow.
“Not so cold anymore?”
Lando huffed.
“It’s freezing!” he insisted again, though this time the complaint sounded far less convincing.
Oscar just laughed.
Then, without warning, he leaned backward and let himself float onto the water, stretching out comfortably as the waves carried him a few feet away.
“You’re the worst,” Lando muttered.
He splashed a handful of water toward him in retaliation.
The water barely reached Oscar, but it made him laugh even louder as he drifted back, clearly enjoying himself far too much.
The sun was already beginning to dip toward the horizon by the time they finally decided to leave the water.
The air had cooled noticeably, the warmth from earlier in the day fading with the light. Lando was the first one out, wading quickly toward the shore, water dripping from his swim trunks as the wind hit his skin.
He hurried ahead of Oscar, feet sinking slightly into the damp sand, already reaching for his camera.
The sunset was too good to miss.
The sky had turned soft shades of orange and pink, the light reflecting across the surface of the water like molten glass. Lando lifted the camera instinctively, adjusting the focus for a quick shot of the horizon—
—and then, without hesitation, turned it toward Oscar instead.
“Smile,” he said.
The shutter clicked.
Oscar had just stepped out of the water, walking toward him across the sand. His hair was still wet, darker where the seawater clung to it, droplets sliding down his neck and shoulders. The sunset lit everything in warm gold behind him.
Relaxed. Shirtless. Completely unaware of how good the lighting was.
Lando lowered the camera and grinned, already scrolling through the shot.
It was a good one.
Actually, it was a great one.
Oscar walking toward him, the ocean behind him, sunlight catching the water still dripping from his hair. The whole thing looked effortless, like something straight out of a magazine shoot.
Lando plopped down onto the blanket, still examining the photo.
“Woo,” he said, letting out an impressed whistle. “And here I thought I was the amazing model.”
He rubbed his arms briefly, a small shiver running through him.
“You clean up nicely, Mr. Piastri.”
Oscar crouched down beside him, leaning slightly over Lando’s shoulder to look at the screen.
“It looks decent,” he said.
Lando’s head snapped up.
“Decent?” he repeated, scandalized. “It’s a masterpiece. I’m an amazing photographer.”
“Of course you are,” Oscar replied, a small smile tugging at his lips.
He studied the photo for another moment before adding quietly, “I just don’t like photos of myself. I always look awkward.”
He nodded slightly toward the screen.
“But this one’s decent.”
Lando grabbed his T-shirt from the blanket and pulled it over his head quickly, the fabric still a little damp from the sea air. The wind had picked up just enough to make him shiver again.
“You’re lying,” he said, tugging the shirt down. “Every single photo I’ve taken of you looks good.”
Oscar didn’t comment on the fact that Lando had said photos. Plural.
Instead he just shrugged lightly.
“Yeah. Maybe because it’s you who took them.”
He paused for a moment before adding, a little more quietly,
“I’m not so tense around you.”
That was enough to make Lando freeze.
For a second he didn’t know what to say.
His brain immediately started trying to process the sentence in about twelve different ways at once.
Luckily, Oscar didn’t give him time to spiral.
“Here,” he said, reaching into his backpack. “Your teeth are chattering.”
He held out a hoodie.
It was simple—beige, slightly oversized, clearly well worn.
Clearly Oscar’s.
Lando took it without hesitation, pulling it on gratefully as the warmth of the thicker fabric wrapped around him.
“What about you?” he asked, glancing up.
Oscar shrugged as he sat back on the blanket.
“I run hot most of the time,” he said casually. “I’m fine with just a shirt.”
He nodded slightly toward the hoodie, encouraging Lando to keep it.
“We should get going anyway,” Oscar said after a while, pushing himself up from the blanket. “Find a hotel to stay.”
He brushed some sand off his hands before offering one to Lando.
Lando looked at it in mild surprise before taking it, letting Oscar pull him up to his feet.
“Wow,” he said with a crooked smile. “You didn’t prepare this time?”
Oscar shook his head.
“No,” he admitted, grabbing the backpack from the blanket. “But don’t worry. I know a place.”
The drive turned out to be short.
Only a few minutes later Oscar slowed the car and pulled up in front of a building that immediately made Lando sit up a little straighter in his seat.
It looked… old. But in the elegant kind of way.
The building was a warm golden color, two stories tall with red brick across the middle and wide balconies stretching along the front. Decorative iron railings wrapped around the upper level, and soft yellow lights glowed behind the windows and along the veranda.
The architecture felt almost historic symmetrical towers on both ends, ornate trim along the roofline, and a large wooden entrance door sitting at the top of a short set of steps.
Above the balcony, a sign read Hotel Australasia.
It didn’t look like the massive modern hotels Lando was used to.
It looked smaller.
Older.
But somehow far more impressive.
“Oh,” Lando said quietly as he stepped out of the car, tilting his head back slightly to look at the building.
Oscar just grabbed his backpack and nodded toward the entrance.
“C’mon.”
Inside was even more surprising.
The moment they walked through the door, Lando slowed down.
The lobby was elegant in a way that felt almost theatrical.
Soft grey walls framed tall archways, and a large crystal chandelier hung from the ceiling, scattering warm light across the tiled floor. The tiles themselves were patterned in neat geometric squares, leading toward a polished reception desk on the right.
A sweeping staircase rose from the back of the room, dark steps with a white railing curving upward to the second floor.
There were antique-looking chairs placed neatly along one wall, a small table with flowers on the counter, and framed artwork lining the hallway beyond.
It didn’t feel like the kind of hotel built to host hundreds of people.
It felt quiet.
Carefully designed.
Expensive in a way that didn’t try too hard to show it.
Lando glanced around slowly, taking it all in.
“Okay,” he muttered under his breath. “This is… not what I expected.”
Oscar looked over at him, amused.
Oscar walked up to the front desk like he belonged there.
And honestly, in Lando’s eyes, he did.
Confident. Calm. Completely at ease in a place that looked far too elegant for a random stop on a road trip.
Lando lingered a step behind him, still glancing around the lobby while Oscar leaned casually against the counter.
“You’re lucky,” the woman at reception said as she checked the system. “We have one room left for tonight.”
Lando opened his mouth—
“Amazing, we’ll take take it,” Oscar replied immediately, already pulling his card from his wallet.
“No—” Lando protested.
But it was too late.
The soft click of the terminal approving the transaction sounded a second later.
“That’s not fair,” Lando complained, lowering his voice as he stepped closer to the desk.
But the receptionist only giggled softly as she handed them the room key.
“You’re really lucky,” she said warmly, glancing between them, “having such a generous boyfriend.”
Lando opened his mouth—
But Oscar was faster.
He turned slightly toward him with a small smirk.
“See baby.” he said casually. “The lady agrees.”
Baby.
The word did something catastrophic to Lando’s brain.
It was like every thought he had simply short-circuited at once. For a second he genuinely forgot how to breathe properly, his brain latching onto that single word like it had been personally engineered to ruin him.
He never wanted to hear it again.
Unless Oscar was the one saying it.
“Go upstairs,” Oscar added casually, already turning toward the door. “While I fetch the bags from the car.”
Lando could only nod.
The Australian was having far too much fun with the entire situation.
He climbed the staircase, the dark steps creaking softly under his feet, but he barely noticed the details of the hallway this time. His mind was still stuck somewhere between baby and the way Oscar had said it so easily.
It took him a moment to find the right door, the brass number catching the warm light of the hallway lamps.
When he opened it, he stopped in the doorway.
The room was gorgeous.
Not flashy in the way modern luxury hotels were, but elegant and carefully designed. The walls were painted a deep navy blue that made the space feel rich and warm, contrasted by crisp white details around the bed frame and furniture.
A large king-size bed sat in the center of the room, perfectly made with soft white sheets and several plush pillows. Matching bedside tables stood on each side with warm lamps casting a soft glow across the polished wooden floor.
Heavy dark curtains framed tall windows, and in one corner sat two velvet armchairs beside a small wooden table made from a thick natural slab, its edges uneven and rustic.
Across the room a tall turquoise dresser added a splash of color, and beyond that an open step led up to a small raised area where a beautiful freestanding bathtub stood near the window, gleaming under the soft lights.
It looked less like a hotel room and more like something out of an interior design magazine.
Lando stepped further inside, slowly turning as he took everything in.
Then his eyes returned to the bed.
He blinked once.
Then again.
Because there was one small problem.
There was only one bed.
“Osc.”
Lando spoke the moment he heard the door open behind him.
Oscar stepped inside, carrying their bags, kicking the door shut with his foot.
“There—there’s just one,” Lando said, pointing rather stupidly at the bed like it hadn’t been visible from the second they walked in.
Oscar followed the direction of his finger.
“Yeah,” he said simply.
He dropped the bags onto the floor beside the dresser.
“I know.”
Lando blinked at him.
“That’s it?” he asked.
Oscar looked back at the bed again, then at Lando, completely unfazed.
“It’s big enough for both of us, Lan.”
The way he said it so calm, so confident, like it was the most obvious thing in the world made it strangely difficult for Lando to argue.
And honestly…
It wasn’t really a big deal.
He had shared beds with friends before.
Max when they were younger, during race weekends when they’d stayed over too late gaming.
Carlos once when the team had completely messed up their travel accommodations and the hotel had run out of rooms.
Danny after a night where they’d both been far too drunk to make any responsible decisions.
It was normal.
Completely normal.
Just a bed.
Just sleep.
Nothing weird about it.
“Right,” Lando said after a moment, nodding to himself like he’d just solved a complicated internal debate. “Yeah. Fine.”
Oscar had already started digging through his bag.
“C’mon,” he said casually. “We gotta shower.”
He jerked his head toward the raised bathroom area.
“And then we’re going to dinner.”
Lando followed his gaze toward the bathtub area again, only now realizing just how open the layout actually was.
“…Right,” he repeated, a little less confidently this time.
Lando rushed through his shower.
The bathroom area was only separated from the rest of the room by a thin curtain, and it did absolutely nothing to make him feel like he had any real privacy. The whole setup looked beautiful but right now he would have traded the aesthetic for a solid door.
He kept the water quick, efficient, trying very hard not to think about the fact that Oscar was literally just a few steps away on the other side of that curtain.
When he stepped out, towel around his shoulders, Oscar was already grabbing his things to take his turn.
Lando moved quickly to the mirror, attempting to fix his hair before the curls dried completely wrong. Unfortunately, the small travel pouch he’d brought didn’t exactly contain his full collection of hair products.
He ran his fingers through it, tried to shape it, tried again—
It was hopeless.
By the time Oscar came back out of the bathroom, Lando had already accepted defeat.
His curls had decided to do whatever they wanted.
The hotel restaurant downstairs was just as fancy as the rest of the place.
Soft lighting, polished wooden floors, white tablecloths, and neatly arranged tables with small candles flickering in the center. The large windows looked out toward the quiet street, the last traces of sunset fading into deep evening blue.
Despite the elegance, the layout strangely reminded Lando of a Wetherspoons.
Just… a very expensive, very polished version of one.
Which only made him feel even more out of place.
He was still wearing Oscar’s hoodie, his shoes were dusty from the beach, and his hair looked like it had lost a fight with the wind. Meanwhile Oscar had changed into a simple polo shirt that somehow made him look perfectly appropriate for the setting.
“I feel inappropriate,” Lando whispered as they walked in.
Oscar glanced at him and immediately laughed.
“Literally nobody cares how you look.”
“I care,” Lando protested quietly. “What if someone sees me?”
“And ruins your perfect image?” Oscar teased.
Lando narrowed his eyes at him.
“You’re insufferable.”
They were seated at a small table near the window. Outside, the street was quiet, warm yellow lights reflecting on the pavement.
This time Lando didn’t make the same mistake as earlier.
He actually read the menu.
The lamb burger sounded incredible, so he ordered that, while Oscar chose a simple pepperoni pizza and a bottle of wine for them to share.
The waitress gave them a small, knowing smile as she finished writing down their order.
“Are we celebrating something, gentlemen?”
Lando turned bright red almost instantly.
Oscar, meanwhile, didn’t even blink.
He simply shrugged, offering her one of those calm, charming smiles that seemed to work far too well.
“No big reason,” he said easily. “Just because.”
Lando wanted to kill him.
The waitress smiled again and left them alone.
When the food arrived, Lando immediately pulled out his phone.
“Wait, wait—don’t touch it yet.”
He leaned over the table, adjusting the plates slightly so they looked better in the frame before snapping several photos.
Then a few more.
Then another from a slightly different angle.
Oscar watched the whole process with quiet curiosity.
“Why are you taking so many?” he asked.
There wasn’t even a hint of annoyance in his voice.
Just genuine interest.
“For the memories,” Lando replied simply.
The answer sounded casual, but the reason behind it ran deeper than that.
Photography had always been something he loved, yes but it wasn’t just about pretty pictures.
Lando hated the idea of moments disappearing.
Of time passing so quickly that you forgot the small things.
Photos helped him keep them.
Little pieces of life frozen exactly as they were.
A way to make sure nothing important was ever completely lost.
They ate slowly, talking with an ease that had settled between them somewhere during the day.
At first the conversation was light—complaints about not seeing any koalas today, Oscar teasing Lando for nearly screaming when he’d first stepped into the ocean, Lando defending himself with dramatic exaggeration. But the longer they stayed, the more relaxed it became.
Their plates were eventually wiped clean.
Somewhere along the way another bottle of wine had appeared on the table.
Lando hadn’t really noticed when Oscar ordered it, but by the time they stood up to leave he could definitely feel it. Not drunk, not even close but pleasantly warm, the kind of tipsy that made everything feel softer and funnier than usual.
The walk back upstairs felt shorter than before.
The hallway lights were dimmer now, the hotel quiet for the night.
Once inside the room, Lando kicked his shoes off immediately, wobbling slightly as he tried to tug his jeans down.
That turned out to be a mistake.
He lost his balance halfway through the process and would have gone straight to the floor if Oscar hadn’t stepped forward and caught him by the arm.
“Easy,” Oscar said, steadying him.
Lando burst into quiet giggles, leaning against him for a second longer than necessary.
“I’m fine,” he insisted, still laughing.
“Clearly,” Oscar replied dryly.
He guided Lando the few steps to the bed, sitting him down before the Brit could attempt anything else dangerous.
“Stay.”
Lando saluted him dramatically.
Oscar rolled his eyes but crouched down anyway, helping pull the rest of the jeans off before tossing them somewhere toward the chair.
“You’re very bossy tonight,” Lando mumbled.
“You’re very uncoordinated tonight.”
Oscar grabbed one of his own t-shirts from his bag and handed it to him.
Lando tried to put it on.
Tried being the key word.
He somehow got his head stuck halfway through and started laughing again.
With a quiet sigh that didn’t quite hide the small smile tugging at his lips, Oscar stepped forward and helped untangle him, pulling the shirt properly down over his shoulders.
“There,” he said.
“Thank you,” Lando murmured, voice softer now.
By the time they finally settled into bed, the room had gone completely quiet.
The lights were off, the navy walls blending into darkness. Outside the window there were no passing cars, no distant city noise—just the stillness of a small coastal town settling into the night.
The bed was large enough that they instinctively stayed on opposite sides of it.
Plenty of space between them.
For a while neither of them spoke.
The faint rustle of sheets, slow breathing, the occasional shift of someone trying to get comfortable.
“Osc?”
Lando’s voice came quietly through the darkness, thick with sleep.
“Hmm?” Oscar answered just as softly.
“I’m really happy I met you.”
There was a small pause.
“Thank you.”
The words were simple. Honest in a way that only happened when someone was already half asleep.
Oscar felt the mattress shift slightly as Lando turned onto his side, already drifting.
For a moment Oscar just lay there, staring up into the dark.
Then he moved.
Carefully.
He shifted closer across the mattress, slow enough not to wake him.
Lando had already fallen asleep, breathing steady, curls a complete mess against the pillow.
Oscar hesitated for half a second.
Then he leaned down.
The kiss he pressed to the top of Lando’s head was soft and quick, almost hesitant.
By the time he settled back into his own pillow again—
Lando was long gone.
Notes:
I swear if someone saw my search history and google maps they’d think I’m nuts. All the places they visit the shops, hotels, restaurants — really exist and I did a deep dive to choose everything carefully, from the hotel room to the food they order.
Chapter 5: Soft limits
Notes:
Our favourite boys are back 🫶
Just in time for Oscars first race of the season yaaay.
Enjoy ☺️
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Lando woke up warm.
Too warm.
And something was moving.
“Lan.”
The voice came through the fog of sleep firs low, rough, the morning rasp still thick in it.
“Oscar…?” Lando mumbled into the pillow.
Except the pillow shifted slightly under him.
“Lando, wake up.”
Oscar’s accent was stronger than usual, his voice quieter but firm as he gently shook him again.
“Hmm?” was the only thing Lando managed as he slowly lifted his head.
That was when he realized the pillow beneath him was not a pillow.
It was warm.
And breathing.
His brain caught up in slow, horrifying pieces.
Somewhere in the middle of the night they had both migrated toward the center of the bed.
And Lando had apparently decided Oscar made an excellent mattress.
He was half sprawled across him, one arm draped over Oscar’s side, his head resting squarely on his chest.
“Oh—fuck.”
Lando shot upright so fast he nearly fell off the bed.
“I’m sorry!” he blurted, suddenly very awake.
Oscar just laughed.
It was that low, easy laugh again, completely unbothered.
“It’s alright, sleepyhead,” he said, stretching his arms above his head as he sat up. “Was quite comfy actually.”
Lando stared at him like he had just committed a federal crime.
Oscar, meanwhile, swung his legs off the bed like nothing had happened.
“C’mon,” he said casually. “We’re going running.”
“W—what?”
Lando’s brain was still operating at about fifteen percent capacity.
“You complained yesterday that I didn’t wake you up,” Oscar reminded him, already pulling on his shoes. “So come on.”
He was entirely too energetic for someone who had gone through an entire bottle of wine the night before.
Lando, on the other hand, felt like someone had filled his skull with cotton and lightly shaken it.
His head throbbed faintly.
His body refused to cooperate.
He was not a morning person.
At all.
Especially not after wine.
But somehow he still dragged himself out of bed.
He splashed cold water on his face in the bathroom, hoping the shock would wake him up even a little. It helped just enough to keep his eyes open while he pulled on the first clothes he could find: a pair of shorts, a loose shirt, and shoes.
Oscar was already waiting by the door.
“Ready?” he asked.
“No,” Lando answered honestly.
They stepped out into the cool morning air.
The town was quiet at this hour, the streets nearly empty as they started jogging through them. The pace wasn’t particularly fast Oscar seemed to match Lando’s slower rhythm without commenting on it—but even that felt like a lot right now.
They moved through the sleepy streets, past small cafés that were only just beginning to open, the scent of fresh bread and coffee drifting faintly into the air.
The sky ahead of them was beginning to brighten.
Soft streaks of pink and gold stretched across the horizon as they reached the coastal path.
From there the view opened up completely.
The ocean spread out wide and calm, the first light of sunrise reflecting across its surface. The path curved along the rocks, leading toward a natural stone pool carved into the shoreline.
By the time they slowed to a stop at the edge of the pool, the sun was just beginning to rise over the water.
The tide rolled gently against the rocks below, waves breaking softly against the edges of the pool. The water inside it was smooth and glassy, reflecting the pale morning sky.
Lando bent forward slightly, hands on his knees, catching his breath.
Oscar stood beside him, barely winded.
Lando glanced up at the view.
Then at Oscar.
“…Okay,” he admitted between breaths.
“That was worth it.”
Lando didn’t even try to hide how exhausted he was.
After a moment of staring out at the sunrise, he dramatically dropped down onto one of the large rocks near the edge of the pool, leaning back on his hands like a man who had just completed a marathon.
“You can leave me here to die,” he announced breathlessly. “I won’t mind.”
Oscar let out a quiet laugh and sat down beside him.
“Alright,” he said, playing along. “We can have a small break.”
Lando looked hopeful for half a second.
“But it’s far from over.”
The hope died instantly.
“Nooo, Osc,” Lando groaned, dragging the word out dramatically. “Why are you so mean to me?”
Oscar tilted his head, watching him with open amusement.
“Aren’t you a professional athlete?”
Lando just pouted harder, clearly refusing to acknowledge that argument.
For a few minutes they sat there quietly, watching the sun slowly climb higher above the water. The early morning light painted everything in warm gold, the surface of the rock pool glowing softly while the ocean beyond it shifted between blues and silvers.
The air smelled like salt and cool stone.
Lando stretched his legs out in front of him, still trying to catch his breath.
Eventually Oscar stood up and nudged his shoe gently against Lando’s.
“C’mon,” he said. “We’re not finished yet.”
Lando groaned again but pushed himself up anyway.
The rest of the jog was even slower, more relaxed. By the time they finally stopped running entirely, the town had started to wake up properly.
For a Sunday morning it was already fairly busy.
People were out walking dogs, small cafés had their doors open, and the quiet streets now carried the soft hum of conversation and early traffic.
They slowed to a comfortable walking pace as they made their way back through the town.
Lando rubbed the back of his neck, clearly feeling the run in muscles that had not agreed to this plan.
“We need tea,” he declared suddenly.
Oscar raised an eyebrow.
“As a reward,” Lando clarified seriously. “For our hard work.”
Oscar didn’t bother arguing.
Two minutes later Lando had already pulled out his phone and opened Google Maps, determinedly dragging Oscar toward the café with the best reviews he could find.
The place was small but cozy, the smell of coffee and baked pastries filling the air. Lando ordered tea, of course, while Oscar grabbed coffee, and a few minutes later they were back on the street with warm takeaway cups in their hands.
The walk back to the hotel felt slower now.
Comfortable.
When they pushed open the hotel door and stepped back into the elegant lobby, the receptionist looked up from behind the desk.
She smiled immediately when she saw them.
Lando suddenly became very aware of the fact that they were walking arm in arm.
Takeout cups in hand.
Looking very much like they had just come back from a morning run date together.
He decided not to think too hard about that.
They climbed the stairs back toward their room, Lando already fantasizing about collapsing into the bathtub upstairs.
His muscles were tight from the run, his legs felt heavier with every step, and the thought of a long, hot soak and maybe even a massage sounded like absolute heaven.
But he knew they probably didn’t have the time.
The realization sat quietly somewhere in the back of his mind.
This little trip.
These moments.
They weren’t endless.
And Lando didn’t want to waste a second of the time he still had left with Oscar.
The quiet of the room was broken by the sudden ringing of Lando’s phone.
He paused mid-movement, a shirt halfway folded in his hands. For a second he considered ignoring it.
He had ignored quite a lot of messages over the past few days.
Eventually guilt won.
He set the shirt back down on the bed and reached for the phone lying near the pillow. The screen lit up as he picked it up.
Carlos.
Lando winced slightly.
Yeah, that made sense.
He answered quickly, bringing the phone to his ear as he leaned back against the edge of the bed.
“Hiya.”
“Landito,” came the familiar voice immediately, warm but direct as always. “You haven’t answered my texts. Are you alright?”
Carlos never really bothered with small talk when he was worried.
“Yeah, mate, I’m good,” Lando said quickly. “Sorry. I’ve just been… busy.”
He glanced briefly around the room, as if the place itself might explain the past few days.
There was a pause on the other end.
Then Carlos chuckled softly.
“No worries. I just wanted to make sure you hadn’t disappeared somewhere.”
Lando rubbed the back of his neck.
“Not yet.”
“Well,” Carlos continued, “I was calling to see if you’re up for padel tomorrow. Just a little get-together before the season starts again.”
Lando closed his eyes for half a second.
Normally he would have jumped at that.
It sounded exactly like the kind of thing he’d enjoy—seeing the boys, messing around on the court, easing back into the chaos before the season kicked off.
But right now?
Right now he couldn’t imagine wanting to be anywhere other than where he was.
“I’d love to,” he said.
The lie came out far too smoothly.
“But I’m already in Australia. Decided to come a bit early to fight the jet lag and all.”
“Ah,” Carlos laughed on the other end. “Cheating the system, I see.”
“Exactly,” Lando said with a small grin.
He leaned back on his hands, staring up at the ceiling for a moment.
“I’ll have the advantage when everyone else is dying the first few days.”
“Smart,” Carlos replied. “Very strategic of you.”
The bathroom curtain rustled behind him just then.
Lando glanced over his shoulder.
Oscar stepped out from the bathroom area, hair still damp from the shower, sleeves rolled up slightly as he dried his hands on a towel.
He looked over at Lando and raised an eyebrow in silent question.
Who’s that?
Lando mouthed back quickly.
“Carlos.”
Oscar nodded slowly in understanding but lingered there for a moment, leaning casually against the dresser.
Lando’s attention snapped back to the call.
“Sorry mate, but I’ve gotta go,” he said quickly. “I’ll see you over the weekend.”
He didn’t even wait for Carlos to reply before hanging up.
The phone dropped onto the bed beside him.
For a second he just sat there.
Then he looked up at Oscar.
“Everything alright?” Oscar asked as he zipped up his bag, tossing the last few things inside before setting it by the door.
“Yeah,” Lando said, picking up the shirt he’d abandoned earlier and folding it again, a bit slower this time. “He just wanted to know if I’m up for padel tomorrow.”
Oscar hummed in acknowledgement, slipping his phone into his pocket.
“Sorry for weaponizing your time.”
He didn’t sound sorry in the slightest.
If anything, he sounded quietly pleased with himself.
Lando snorted softly.
“I’ll see him for the better half of the year,” he said with a small smile. “It’s fine.”
And honestly, he wasn’t sorry either.
Not even a little.
They finished packing quickly after that, and within half an hour Oscar was already ushering them out of the room and down the stairs again, clearly eager to get moving.
They checked out, dropped the key at the desk, and stepped back into the morning air.
The town was fully awake now.
Shops were open, people were walking along the sidewalks, and the smell of fresh bread drifted from a small bakery just down the street.
Lando slowed instantly.
“Breakfast?” he suggested hopefully.
Oscar followed his gaze.
Five minutes later they were back in the car with a paper bag full of pastries and two hot drinks balancing in the cup holders.
The car filled with the warm smell of butter and sugar as Lando pulled out a croissant, tearing off a piece before leaning back comfortably in his seat.
And then they were on the road again.
The first hour passed quietly.
Lando spent most of it hunched slightly over his phone, catching up on the messages and emails he had neglected over the last few days.
There were a lot of them.
Team updates.
PR reminders.
Friends asking where he had disappeared to.
It was, in his professional opinion, a massive pain in the ass.
By the time he finally locked his phone and tossed it onto the dashboard, he looked ten times lighter.
“Why don’t I drive next time?” he offered, stretching his arms a little. “You know, I do have a driving license and all.”
Oscar didn’t even glance at him.
“I’m quite aware of that.”
“But?” Lando prompted.
“But I don’t really like being in the passenger seat,” Oscar said calmly. “So no.”
Lando turned toward him dramatically.
“Awh, c’mon,” he insisted. “Don’t you want to be the passenger princess for once?”
The Brit was itching to show off his driving skills a little.
Oscar finally glanced over.
The smirk on his face appeared instantly.
“No,” he said. “I reckon the role suits you better.”
Lando froze.
Then slowly sank lower into his seat, face heating up instantly.
“That’s not fair,” he muttered, trying very hard to play it cool while very much failing.
“Is there anything you’d like to do in Sydney?” Oscar asked after a while, clearly offering a change of subject.
Lando turned his head slowly, staring at him like he had just said something outrageous.
“You don’t have a plan?”
Oscar chuckled under his breath.
“No. Not really.”
Lando blinked again.
“I figured we could just explore the city,” Oscar continued, shrugging one shoulder as he kept his eyes on the road. “See where we end up.”
“Spontaneous,” Lando teased, leaning back in his seat. “I like it.”
He turned his head slightly toward the window, watching the scenery pass by.
“There’s so many things you can discover about a place just by getting lost in it.”
Oscar hummed in quiet agreement.
The road stretched out ahead of them as they left the smaller coastal towns behind.
The drive from Eden to Sydney was long, but it never felt boring. The highway wound through stretches of forest and open countryside, sometimes climbing into low hills before dipping back down toward the coast again. Every so often the trees would thin out just enough for the ocean to appear in the distance wide and blue under the bright sky.
Small towns passed by occasionally, clusters of houses, gas stations, and roadside shops that flickered by the windows before disappearing behind them again.
Inside the car the atmosphere stayed easy.
Music played quietly from the speakers, something relaxed that blended into the hum of the engine. Lando shifted positions every now and then, sometimes watching the scenery, sometimes scrolling absentmindedly through his phone again, sometimes just talking.
Hours passed like that.
Slow.
Comfortable.
Easy.
By the time the first signs pointing toward Sydney began appearing along the highway, the air in the car had taken on that familiar road-trip feeling half tired, half excited for whatever came next.
“I booked us a room at Hilton!” Lando announced suddenly, turning in his seat with a triumphant grin. He shoved his phone toward Oscar’s face like it was undeniable proof of victory.
Oscar glanced at the screen briefly before looking back at the road.
“Oh,” he said calmly.
“Finally decided to contribute something?”
There wasn’t a hint of real criticism in his voice just the same dry teasing he’d been using all trip.
Still, he leaned slightly closer to glance at the phone again before reaching out and tapping the address into his GPS.
Lando scoffed.
“You didn’t let me contribute before!” he protested. “I had to be sneaky to beat you for once.”
Oscar hummed thoughtfully as the navigation recalculated.
“That explains the suspicious silence earlier.”
Lando folded his arms, still clearly proud of himself.
“I waited for the perfect moment.”
“Very strategic.”
“I know.”
Oscar glanced at him briefly, the corner of his mouth tugging upward.
“You do realize I would’ve figured it out.”
“Not this time,” Lando said immediately.
Oscar chuckled quietly.
“Alright,” he conceded. “You win this round.”
Lando leaned back into his seat, very satisfied with himself.
Outside the car, the highway had started to widen as traffic thickened around them. Signs pointing toward Sydney appeared more frequently now, and the distant skyline was beginning to take shape through the slight haze ahead.
Lando watched it appear slowly on the horizon.
A city meant crowds.
Chaos.
People who might recognize him.
And somehow… the thought didn’t bother him nearly as much as it usually would.
Probably because Oscar was still driving beside him.
They barely spent five minutes in the room.
The car was left in the hotel parking lot, bags dropped near the door the moment they checked in, and neither of them even bothered to properly look around the room before heading back out again.
There was no time to waste if they actually wanted to experience the city.
Sydney felt completely different from the quiet coastal towns they had been passing through.
The streets were alive—cars, buses, people everywhere. Shops spilled onto sidewalks, street performers played music in corners, and the smell of food drifted through the air from restaurants and small takeaway places.
Lando looked around like someone who had just been let loose in a playground.
“Okay,” he said. “Where first?”
Oscar glanced down the street before pointing in the direction of the harbor.
“Let’s start there.”
It didn’t take long before the buildings opened up and the view appeared.
The white sails of the Sydney Opera House rose above the water, bright against the blue sky, while across the harbor the massive steel arch of the Sydney Harbour Bridge stretched between the shores.
Lando stopped walking for a moment.
“Okay,” he said again, quieter this time. “That’s actually insane.”
People moved around them taking photos, tourists pointing excitedly at the landmarks while ferries moved slowly across the water.
Naturally, Lando pulled out his camera again.
“Stand there,” he told Oscar, pointing toward the railing with the harbor behind him.
Oscar rolled his eyes but did it anyway.
After a while they continued walking along the harbor, eventually wandering into the historic neighborhood of The Rocks.
The streets there were narrower, lined with old stone buildings, small pubs, art shops, and outdoor markets. Musicians played near the corners while people browsed handmade jewelry and paintings under shaded stalls.
Lando stopped at nearly every other booth.
At one point he nearly bought a ridiculous-looking souvenir hat before Oscar quietly convinced him that maybe it wasn’t the best idea.
From there they kept wandering with no real plan.
They passed through the wide green lawns of Royal Botanic Garden where people were laying on the grass, picnicking under huge trees while boats drifted across the harbor just beyond the paths.
Later they grabbed ice cream near Circular Quay and watched the ferries come and go, the wind off the water cooling the afternoon heat.
Lando leaned against the railing, licking melting ice cream from his fingers.
“I see why people live here,” he admitted.
Oscar looked out at the harbor.
“Yeah.”
They wandered for hours.
Or at least it felt like hours.
Lando had his camera out almost the entire time, stopping every few minutes whenever something caught his eye a colorful storefront, a street mural hidden in an alley, a tiny café with flowers climbing up the walls.
At one point he suddenly stopped in the middle of the sidewalk.
“Osc—let’s go there!”
He didn’t wait for an answer.
Oscar barely had time to react before Lando grabbed his wrist and pulled him down a narrow side lane.
The place they ended up in was a vintage thrift store tucked between two small cafés. The windows were packed with old jackets, records, lamps, and random decorative pieces stacked on top of each other like someone had emptied an attic into the display.
Inside it was even more chaotic.
Clothing racks squeezed between shelves filled with old cameras, vinyl records, scarves, boots, hats, and little boxes full of jewelry. The air smelled faintly like old fabric and polished wood.
Lando looked like a child in a candy store.
He bounced from rack to rack, pulling things out to inspect them, occasionally holding something up to Oscar like he needed approval.
At one point he wrapped a ridiculously long patterned scarf around Oscar’s shoulders.
“You have to try it,” Lando insisted.
Oscar stared at him.
“I absolutely do not.”
“Look at it,” Lando argued, stepping back to admire his work. “It’s gorgeous.”
“It’s aggressive.”
Lando laughed and finally took it back, tossing it over the rack again.
A moment later something else caught his attention.
“Look at this.”
He pointed toward a small glass tray filled with rings.
Among them sat a gold signet ring with a deep blue stone set into the face. The stone caught the light slightly dark, rich, maybe sapphire.
Or maybe completely fake.
Lando picked it up carefully, turning it between his fingers.
“It suits your eyes,” Oscar said casually.
Lando looked up immediately.
“You think?”
He slid the ring onto his finger.
It fit perfectly.
For a moment he just held his hand up, turning it slightly to watch how the light caught the stone.
His eyes lit up in that quiet way they sometimes did when he found something he really liked.
“You should take it,” Oscar said, watching him.
Lando hesitated.
For a second it genuinely looked like he might.
Then his hand lowered slowly.
“I don’t think it’ll suit anything I own,” he said, sliding the ring back off.
His voice was light, but there was a hint of something else there.
The truth was simpler than he wanted to explain.
Most of what he wore in public was tied to sponsorships. Watches, clothes, accessories everything had contracts behind it.
A random thrift-store ring wasn’t exactly part of that image.
Which was a shame.
He placed it carefully back onto the tray.
“C’mon,” he said after a moment, forcing a small smile.
They wandered around the store a bit longer after that, laughing over ridiculous jackets and strange decorations, but in the end they didn’t buy anything.
Eventually they stepped back out onto the street.
And somehow, without either of them really noticing when it happened, the afternoon slowly slipped into evening as they kept wandering through the city.
The light changed first.
The sharp brightness of the afternoon softened into long golden streaks that stretched across the streets and reflected in shop windows. The air cooled just enough to be comfortable, and the sidewalks filled with people heading out for dinner, drinks, or wherever the night might take them.
Lando felt strangely weightless.
The past few days had built something inside him a quiet, bubbling happiness that made everything feel lighter. Like the world had tilted just a little in the right direction.
So of course his brain went straight to the most chaotic option.
“What about we go to a club?” Lando asked suddenly, turning to Oscar with a grin.
Oscar didn’t even pause.
“Not a chance.”
Lando groaned dramatically.
“Awh c’mon, Osc. I wanna dance.”
Oscar gave him the same look someone might give a particularly stubborn child.
“I’m not really a club guy,” he said patiently. “What about we go to a pub?”
Lando considered it for a moment.
“Fine,” he finally agreed. “But one day I’ll take you clubbing and you won’t say no.”
Oscar huffed a quiet laugh.
“Whatever you want.”
One day.
The words settled somewhere warm in Lando’s chest before he could stop them.
One day meant there would be another time after this.
After this week ended.
After the season started.
It meant they’d keep talking.
Maybe Lando could fly back during a break between races. Maybe he could convince Oscar to visit him somewhere—London, Monaco, anywhere really.
The thought felt reckless.
And hopeful.
They ended up walking into the first pub they spotted along the street.
It was already packed.
The kind of place where the noise hit you immediately—laughter, glasses clinking, conversations overlapping, music humming quietly somewhere in the background. Warm yellow lights hung above wooden tables, and the entire place smelled faintly like beer and fried food.
They managed to claim a small table near the back.
Oscar went to the bar to order while Lando dropped into the chair, stretching his legs out under the table. After a moment he pulled the cap off his head, running a hand through his hair.
He hadn’t realized how much it had been bothering him until it was gone.
A few minutes later Oscar returned with two glasses.
A neat whiskey for himself.
And a vodka soda for Lando.
“Cheers,” Lando said, raising his glass.
The first drink disappeared quickly.
The second went down just as easily.
By the time they were halfway through the fourth, the room had grown softer around the edges and Lando’s words came out a little looser, his laugh louder than usual.
“Man,” he sighed, leaning back in his chair, “I’m gonna miss this when the season starts.”
It wasn’t just the alcohol.
It was the freedom.
The lack of schedules, the early mornings, the endless flights, the constant expectations.
“And the alcohol,” he added with a crooked smile. “Hangovers and constant travel really don’t mix. Learned that the hard way in my rookie year.”
Oscar swirled the whiskey in his glass, watching him with quiet amusement.
“I’m surprised we only had one incident with you being recognized.”
Lando shrugged.
“I was worried a bit,” he admitted honestly. “But logically Formula One isn’t as popular as… I don’t know, football.”
He took another sip.
“And to be honest I’m not the most popular driver out there anyway.”
Oscar looked at him.
“Nowhere near Lewis or Max,” Lando continued casually. “Even Charles.”
He shrugged again.
“I’d put myself somewhere in the middle of the grid popularity-wise.”
Oscar frowned slightly.
“You are popular though.”
Lando shook his head, waving it off.
“Nah. I’m too bad to be popular.”
There was no self-pity in his voice.
He said it the way someone might comment on the weather. Like it was just an objective fact.
Oscar’s expression shifted immediately.
“Don’t say that.”
His voice wasn’t harsh.
But it was firm.
“You’re an amazing driver.”
Lando snorted softly.
“You said you don’t watch races.”
“I said I don’t sit down every Sunday like a fan,” Oscar corrected calmly. “I never said I don’t know what’s happening.”
Lando raised an eyebrow.
“I still keep tabs on the championship,” Oscar continued. “Highlights, results, onboard clips. Stuff like that.”
He took another sip of his whiskey.
“You’re fast. Everyone knows that.”
Lando looked down at his glass.
Oscar didn’t sound like he was flattering him.
He sounded certain.
“The problem isn’t you,” Oscar added after a moment. “It’s the car most of the time.”
Lando laughed quietly at that.
“That’s the most engineer answer I’ve ever heard.”
“Maybe.”
Oscar leaned back in his chair, studying him for a moment.
“But I mean it.”
Lando didn’t answer right away.
Instead he took another sip of his drink, letting the warmth settle in his chest while the noise of the pub hummed around them.
Somewhere inside him, the words landed deeper than he expected.
Notes:
Please don’t hate me for not using the one bed situation properly 😭 When I said slow burn I really meant it 🫣
Chapter 6: In formation.
Notes:
Hi I’m back, and the boys will provide some fluff to warm your hearts 🫶
It’s been some weird couple of days for me and I absolutely needed to remained myself why I’m still going and somehow this story helps 🥹
I made a tumblr imnicole13 if you wanna reach out to me (haven’t used this old thing in a while so I’m rusty, I’m sorry 😭) 🫶
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Yesterday’s hangover had been bad.
Today’s was worse.
Lando woke up feeling like someone had replaced the inside of his skull with cotton and a small marching band. His mouth was dry, his head heavy, and every tiny movement felt like a bad decision.
But there was one small comfort.
He wasn’t alone in his misery.
For once on this trip, Oscar had slept in too.
They woke slowly, dragged out of sleep by the sun creeping through the uncovered windows. At some point during the night neither of them had bothered closing the blinds, and now bright morning light spilled across the bed, landing directly on their faces.
Lando groaned and turned his head deeper into the pillow.
“Why is the sun so loud?” he mumbled.
Beside him, Oscar made a low sound that might have been a laugh.
Lando cracked one eye open.
That turned out to be a mistake.
Because Oscar looked unfairly good for someone who had also finished half a pub’s worth of alcohol the night before.
His hair was a complete mess, sticking out in every direction. His eyes were barely open, still heavy with sleep, and his movements were slow and uncoordinated as he pushed himself up on one elbow.
And he wasn’t wearing a shirt.
Apparently at some point during the night the room had gotten too warm for him, because the t-shirt he’d gone to bed in was now somewhere on the floor.
Lando stared for half a second longer than he should have.
Then he quickly buried his face back into the pillow.
“Room service for breakfast?” he asked, voice muffled.
Oscar swung his legs over the side of the bed, rubbing a hand over his face.
“Something greasy?”
“Yes,” Lando groaned immediately. “The greasiest thing they have.”
Oscar grabbed the hotel phone and handled the ordering while Lando stayed exactly where he was wrapped around his pillow like it was a life support system.
His brain was not functioning enough to make food decisions.
Once the call ended, Oscar moved toward his backpack that sat half-open on the floor.
A moment later there was the sharp hiss of a can opening.
Then another.
Lando lifted his head just in time to see Oscar walk back toward the bed holding two cans of Monster.
Part of the emergency stash they’d bought earlier in the trip.
Oscar handed one over.
Lando took it like it was sacred.
“You’re my favorite person,” he mumbled before taking a careful sip.
Cold caffeine hit his system like medicine.
Oscar chuckled softly before disappearing into the bathroom.
The sound of the shower started a moment later.
Lando remained exactly where he was for a while, slowly sipping the energy drink and staring at the ceiling while his brain tried to reboot itself.
By the time Oscar came back out, hair damp and wearing clean clothes, the room looked different.
Because he’d already packed.
Both of their bags sat neatly by the door.
And on the chair next to the bed he’d laid out fresh clothes for Lando for the day.
Lando blinked at the sight.
It was ridiculous.
Even hungover, Oscar had managed to shower, pack everything, and get ready before Lando had even fully sat up.
And the annoying part was that Lando could tell he wasn’t feeling great either.
The slight tension in his shoulders, the slower movements than usual, the quiet way he kept pressing his fingers against his temple for a second when he thought Lando wasn’t looking.
He was struggling too.
He was just… pushing through it anyway.
Which somehow made Lando both impressed and mildly offended.
“That’s actually insane,” Lando muttered, watching him.
Oscar glanced over.
“What is?”
“You’re hungover too and you’re functioning like a normal human being.”
Oscar shrugged, sitting down on the edge of the bed.
“Someone has to take care of you.”
Lando blinked at him.
The sentence was delivered so casually it took his brain a moment to process it. Before he could think of something clever or embarrassing to say back, a knock sounded at the door.
Room service.
Oscar got up to grab it, while Lando slowly forced himself upright, dragging the duvet with him like armor.
The smell hit him first.
Greasy, warm, heavenly.
Oscar carried the tray over and set it on the bed between them, and Lando’s eyes practically lit up.
An English breakfast.
The full deal.
Hash browns, crispy bacon, sausages, scrambled eggs, toast and even baked beans. It looked like the kitchen had decided to feed two construction workers rather than two mildly hungover racing drivers.
Lando was instantly in heaven.
“Mate,” he breathed reverently, already reaching for a hash brown, “I think I’m in love.”
Oscar snorted softly, grabbing a fork.
“You say that about food a lot.”
“Because food deserves appreciation,” Lando said with full seriousness before immediately stuffing half the hash brown into his mouth.
For a few minutes they ate in peaceful silence, both too hungry to talk much. The greasy food worked fast, settling the chaos in Lando’s stomach and slowly bringing him back to life.
Halfway through the plate, Oscar spoke again.
“Are you up for a hike today?”
Lando paused mid-bite.
Oscar continued casually.
“Wanted to take you to the Blue Mountains. But I’m not sure if you’re in good enough shape.”
Lando stared at him.
Because honestly?
No.
Absolutely not.
He wanted to spend the entire day in bed, maybe wrapped in a blanket, drinking tea and complaining about his hangover like a Victorian poet.
But the idea of disappointing Oscar made something uncomfortable twist in his chest.
So instead of answering immediately, he took another bite and asked carefully:
“Is it pretty there?”
Oscar looked up.
“It is, yeah,” he said. “Kind of beautiful, to be exact.”
Then almost unconsciously his eyes softened into that quiet hopeful expression Lando had started recognizing.
The same one that made saying no nearly impossible.
Lando sighed dramatically.
“Fine. We can go.”
Oscar’s face immediately brightened.
“But,” Lando added quickly, pointing his fork at him, “we need to pick up tea on the way.”
“Deal.”
“And more energy drinks.”
“Deal.”
“And if I collapse halfway through the hike, you’re carrying me back.”
Oscar grinned.
“I promise I’ll pick the quickest route.”
He looked far too pleased with himself.
After breakfast, Lando finally had enough energy to function like a person again. He took a long shower, letting the hot water wake up his muscles and clear the last of the fog from his head.
By the time he came out, Oscar was already ready by the door.
Of course he was.
They finished packing the last few things and checked out of the hotel. It was already pretty late in the morning by the time they left, but Lando didn’t feel guilty in the slightest.
After all, Oscar had slept in too.
That counted as balance.
They stopped at a Starbucks drive-through on the way out of the city. Warm drinks were handed through the window—tea for Lando, coffee for Oscar and the car filled with the familiar comforting smell.
Then they hit the road again.
The drive out of Sydney slowly traded city streets for wider highways and stretches of green landscape. Traffic faded, buildings turned into small towns, and eventually into long quiet roads cutting through forests and rolling hills.
Inside the car, things were calm.
Oscar drove with quiet concentration, one hand on the wheel, eyes focused on the road ahead.
Lando, meanwhile, drifted somewhere between sleep and consciousness.
His head rested against the window, warm tea in his hands, eyelids heavy.
They didn’t talk much.
But the silence wasn’t awkward.
It was the comfortable kind—the kind that settled naturally between two people who didn’t need to fill every moment with words.
And before long, the city was far behind them.
“Lando, baby.”
The word slipped into his dreams first.
Soft, distant, warm.
Lando stirred but didn’t fully wake until he felt a gentle shake on his shoulder.
“Lan, wake up. We’re here.”
His eyes opened slowly, blinking against the daylight.
The car door beside him was open, and Oscar was crouched next to it, leaning slightly into the car. His voice was still rough with the morning, the familiar Australian drawl thicker than usual.
For a second Lando just stared at him, brain still caught somewhere between sleep and reality.
“Osc?” he murmured, voice groggy. “Am I dreaming?”
Oscar huffed out a quiet laugh.
“Afraid not.”
He held out a hand.
“Come on. A walk will make you feel better, I promise.”
Lando groaned quietly but took the hand anyway, letting Oscar pull him upright. The movement made his head spin slightly, but the fresh air that hit his face helped immediately.
“Yeah… alright,” he muttered, stretching his arms above his head.
Oscar had already grabbed both of their things from the car. His backpack was slung over one shoulder, and Lando’s camera hung securely around his neck like he’d been carrying it for years.
Prepared as always.
Lando rubbed his eyes and followed him away from the car park.
The trail started just beyond a small wooden sign, leading them into the trees almost immediately. Tall eucalyptus surrounded the path, their pale trunks stretching upward while thin leaves rustled softly in the breeze.
The air smelled different here.
Cooler.
Cleaner.
Sunlight filtered through the canopy in soft patches, painting the ground in moving patterns as they walked. The path sloped gently downward, winding between rocks and tree roots, the sounds of the forest growing louder the deeper they went.
At first it was just birds.
Then something else.
A distant rushing sound.
Water.
Lando shoved his hands into the pocket of Oscar’s hoodie and followed a few steps behind him, still waking up properly as they moved further down the trail.
Within a few minutes the trees began to open slightly, the sound of water growing louder and clearer.
They were getting close.
When Lando first saw the waterfall, his brain didn’t fully process it.
For a moment he just stood there at the edge of the path, staring.
The water spilled down a tall wall of dark rock in a wide silver curtain, crashing into the pool below with a constant roar that echoed through the trees. Mist hung in the air, catching the sunlight and turning it into tiny floating sparks.
It was the kind of place that didn’t feel real at first glance.
Quiet, wild, untouched.
Oscar stopped beside him, watching the way Lando’s eyes slowly widened as the scene sank in.
“Told you,” he said quietly.
Lando didn’t answer right away.
Instead, he slowly held out his hand without looking away from the waterfall.
Oscar immediately understood.
He slipped Lando’s camera off his own neck and placed it into his hand.
Lando lifted it, fingers a little clumsy as he adjusted the settings. The hangover still made his movements slightly sloppy, and he had to fight the camera for a moment before everything finally clicked into place.
“C’mon…” he muttered under his breath, turning the lens slightly.
Oscar watched him with quiet amusement.
Eventually Lando straightened and snapped a few photos. Not many—just a handful—carefully framing the waterfall between the rocks and trees.
Then he lowered the camera again.
“Osc.”
“Hmm?” Oscar was already looking at him.
“We need a selfie.”
The seriousness in Lando’s voice made Oscar blink.
“What?”
“A selfie, Oscar,” Lando repeated like it was the most obvious thing in the world. “Why don’t we have a selfie together yet?”
Oscar huffed out a quiet laugh.
“Because you have about two hundred photos of everything else already.”
“Not the same,” Lando said firmly.
Oscar shook his head, still smiling, but pulled his phone from his pocket anyway. He stepped closer and wrapped an arm loosely around Lando’s waist to pull him in beside him.
Lando immediately leaned toward the screen to inspect the frame.
“No, no, no,” he said quickly. “You need to get the waterfall in the shot too.”
Oscar lifted the phone higher.
“A bit more to the left,” Lando instructed.
Oscar moved slightly.
“No—too much.”
Oscar sighed softly through a smile.
“You wanna do it?”
There was no annoyance in his voice. Just amusement.
“No,” Lando said. “I want you to do it. But I want you to do it properly.”
Oscar chuckled again but adjusted the phone obediently, shifting their position slightly so the waterfall framed them in the background.
They took one photo.
Lando immediately leaned closer to check it.
“Again.”
Another photo.
“Again.”
Oscar laughed under his breath.
After a few attempts and a lot of micro-adjustments directed by Lando they finally captured what Lando declared the perfect shot.
“See?” he said proudly, lowering Oscar’s phone. “Worth the effort.”
Oscar glanced at the screen.
They both looked windswept, slightly hungover, and a bit sunlit by the mist in the air.
But they were smiling.
“Yeah,” Oscar admitted quietly. “It is.”
They stayed a while longer.
Lando agreed to a short stroll around the area, wandering along the rocks near the water and the small paths that curved through the trees. The damp air helped his headache more than he expected. It was cool and refreshing, and the constant sound of the waterfall drowned out the lingering fuzziness in his head.
Still, neither of them had the energy for a proper mountain hike.
After twenty minutes or so they both silently agreed it was enough.
On the way back up the path toward the car park, Lando suddenly stopped.
“Osc—wait.”
Oscar turned.
Lando was crouching near a sun-warmed rock, camera already in his hands again.
A small lizard sat there completely still, its scales blending perfectly with the stone as if it had grown there.
“Look at him,” Lando whispered like they were observing some rare creature in a documentary.
Oscar leaned slightly closer, careful not to scare it away.
Lando snapped a few pictures, adjusting the angle so the sunlight caught the reptile’s tiny patterned scales.
“Are there any koalas here?” he asked suddenly, glancing around the trees with curiosity.
Oscar rubbed the back of his neck thoughtfully.
“Frankly, I’m not sure,” he admitted. “But we could go somewhere where we’ll definitely see them.”
Lando stood up again.
“Was that in your plan?”
Oscar shook his head.
“No.”
He shrugged lightly.
“But I don’t mind changing it for you.” The way he said it was simple and genuine, like it wasn’t even a question.
Like Lando’s whims were reason enough.
Lando looked at him for a moment before smiling softly.
“No, it’s fine,” he said. “I just like koalas.”
He slung the camera back around his neck.
“They remind me of you.”
Oscar blinked.
“Of me?”
“Yeah,” Lando said casually as he started walking again. “Quiet. Judgy. Eat a lot. Looks cute but probably dangerous if provoked.”
Oscar stared at him for a second before a laugh escaped him. “That’s not what koalas are like.”
“Agree to disagree,” Lando said cheerfully, already heading up the path toward the car park again.
Oscar followed him, shaking his head—but still smiling.
Lando fell asleep the moment he fastened his seat belt.
No warning, no dramatic buildup.
One second he was adjusting the seat and mumbling something half coherent, and the next his head had tipped toward the window, curls pressed against the glass, breathing slow and even.
Oscar glanced over and felt the corner of his mouth lift.
He wasn’t mad.
He couldn’t be, not when Lando looked that peaceful.
The past few days had clearly caught up to him—the traveling, the drinking, the constant moving from place to place. Even now there were faint shadows under his eyes.
Oscar reached forward and quietly lowered the volume of the music before pulling back onto the road.
He knew Lando should probably be resting somewhere comfortable right now.
Not being dragged halfway across the state in the passenger seat of a car.
But Oscar was selfish.
He wanted the time.
Wanted the conversations, the stupid jokes, the quiet moments when Lando forgot he was supposed to be someone famous and just existed beside him like a normal person.
So he drove.
Lando slept through another gas station stop where Oscar filled the tank and stretched his legs. He slept while Oscar grabbed another coffee inside the small convenience store, the bitter smell of it filling the car when he returned.
He slept as the landscape changed outside the windows.
Small towns passed by clusters of houses, closed, bussy Monday streets. Then fields that stretched endlessly along the highway. Then forests again, tall trees lining the road like a tunnel of green.
Every once in a while Oscar glanced over just to make sure Lando was still comfortable.
He hadn’t moved much.
Only once did he shift slightly, curling deeper into the seat and pulling Oscar’s hoodie tighter around himself.
Four hours later, Oscar checked the navigation again.
They were roughly halfway to where he wanted to go.
And his stomach was starting to protest.
Lando would be hungry too once he woke up.
So Oscar slowed the car as they entered the next larger town and pulled into a parking spot near the center.
He leaned across the console and gently shook Lando’s shoulder.
“Lan.”
A small groan.
“Lando.”
Lando blinked awake slowly, eyes squinting behind his sunglasses.
“Are we here?” he asked immediately, voice thick with sleep.
Oscar laughed softly.
“No.”
He nodded toward the street outside.
“But we need to eat something.”
Lando rubbed his face and nodded sleepily.
“’Kay.”
He followed Oscar out of the car without complaining, hoodie pulled low over his head and sunglasses on again, more like armor against the world than anything else.
The town was lively compared to the quiet roads they’d been on.
People walked along the streets, families and couples wandering past small shops and cafés. In the center of it all was a large lake that reflected the afternoon sun, with benches and walking paths circling around it.
Lando looked around slowly like his brain was still loading.
Oscar reached for his hand automatically, threading their fingers together so he wouldn’t drift off into the crowd.
“What do you want to eat?” he asked.
Lando yawned.
“Italian?” the Brit said, the word sounding more like a question than a request.
Oscar nodded.
It didn’t take long to find a small restaurant with a few outdoor tables overlooking the street. The fresh air was a blessing after hours in the car, and neither of them felt like sitting inside.
They dropped into their chairs like two people who had been traveling all day.
Lando pushed his sunglasses up slightly and studied the menu.
He looked awake now.
Or at least functional.
“Bolognese,” he decided after a moment.
Oscar ordered a classic lasagna.
When the waiter left, Lando leaned back in his chair and stretched his arms above his head.
“How long was I out for?”
Oscar took a sip of water.
“We’re halfway there,” he said. “So about four hours.”
Lando blinked.
“Four hours?”
Oscar nodded.
He couldn’t help watching him a little the oversized hoodie, messy curls, the sleepy expression that still hadn’t completely faded.
Lando looked ridiculously adorable.
“Why didn’t you wake me up?” Lando asked, guilt creeping into his voice.
He knew Oscar was used to long drives alone. The Aussie had told him plenty of stories about road trips across Australia, hours behind the wheel with nothing but music and the highway.
Still.
It felt wrong sleeping through half the trip.
Oscar waved it off.
“I already told you the other day it’s fine,” he said gently.
Then he added with a teasing edge,
“Besides, you can’t complain if you’re asleep.”
Lando immediately straightened.
“Oi! I don’t complain.”
Oscar raised an eyebrow.
Lando laughed.
“So are we going back to Melbourne already?”
Oscar shook his head.
“No.”
He leaned back in his chair chuckling.
“We’re staying two more nights.”
Lando’s eyebrows lifted slightly.
“But we’ll be back Wednesday evening,” Oscar added. “So you’ll still get a good night’s sleep before media. I promise.”
That seemed to satisfy him.
Right as their food arrived.
The plates were large, steaming, and smelled incredible.
Lando’s eyes lit up immediately.
“Oh thank god.”
Oscar laughed under his breath as Lando grabbed his fork like someone who hadn’t eaten in days.
“This is delicious,” Lando declared after the first bite, letting out a soft, dramatic moan that made a couple at the next table glance over.
Oscar looked up from his lasagna, amused.
“Yeah?”
He leaned forward without any shame whatsoever and slid his fork straight into Lando’s pasta.
“Hey!” Lando protested immediately, pulling his plate a little closer to himself. “You have your own food!”
Oscar tasted the bolognese thoughtfully.
“Yours is better.”
Lando stared at him in disbelief.
“That’s illegal.”
“Worth it.”
“Well let me try yours then,” Lando said, already reaching over with his fork.
Oscar was faster.
He blocked the attempt mid-air with his own fork like they were fencing.
“You stole mine!” Lando accused.
“Technically I sampled it.”
“That’s the same thing!”
Instead of letting Lando retaliate, Oscar cut a piece of lasagna and lifted it toward him.
Lando rolled his eyes but leaned forward anyway, taking the bite from the fork with a small, shy smile.
He chewed for a moment, thinking.
Then nodded.
“Yeah,” he admitted. “Mine is better.”
Oscar laughed quietly.
By the time they finished eating, Lando looked significantly more alive. Color had returned to his face, and the foggy hangover expression had mostly disappeared.
Oscar paid for the meal before Lando even thought about reaching for anything. The Brit hadn’t brought his phone from the car, and his wallet was still somewhere in his bag.
He only realized once they were already standing outside.
“Wait—did you pay?”
Oscar just shrugged.
“Yeah.”
“You’re not allowed to keep doing that,” Lando said, though there was no real force behind the complaint.
Oscar simply started walking back toward the car.
When they reached it, Oscar opened the passenger door for him automatically.
Lando paused.
“You sure you don’t want to switch?” he asked, nodding toward the driver’s side. “I can drive the rest.”
Oscar shook his head.
“Yeah, I’m fine.”
Then he added, softer,
“But maybe keep me company?”
Lando’s smile returned immediately.
“Deal.”
He climbed into the seat, shutting the door behind him.
And for the next four hours, he talked.
About everything.
Once Lando got going, it was almost impossible to stop him.
He told Oscar ridiculous stories from karting days, stories about travel disasters with the team, and moments that had clearly become inside jokes with friends over the years.
He talked about Max Fewtrell and how they had grown up together, about stupid things they did as teenagers and how the idea for Quadrant had been born during the long boredom of the pandemic.
He talked about his siblings.
About family holidays.
And then inevitably about his nieces.
Oscar learned their names, their ages, what toys they liked, and about ten different stories that somehow all ended with Lando being completely wrapped around their little fingers.
Oscar mostly listened.
Occasionally he asked a question, or added a quiet comment, but for the most part he just let Lando talk.
And smiled.
Eventually Lando noticed.
“You don’t talk much.”
It wasn’t criticism.
Just an observation.
Oscar shrugged slightly, eyes still on the road.
“Nah. I prefer to listen.”
Lando tilted his head.
“There’s nothing interesting about you?”
Oscar shook his head lightly.
“Nothing really.”
“Lies!” Lando laughed immediately.
Oscar’s mouth curved in a small grin.
“Okay… maybe a bit.”
He glanced at Lando briefly before looking back at the road.
“But I prefer hearing you talk.”
It was already evening when Oscar finally pulled the car into a small parking lot and turned the engine off.
For a moment neither of them moved.
The sky had started shifting into that soft golden-blue color that only happened right before sunset, the air cooler now after the long warm day.
Oscar stretched his arms over his head before looking over at Lando.
“One last stop for the day.”
Lando blinked, pushing the door open and stepping out of the car.
He looked around immediately.
There was water, sure—but it didn’t stretch endlessly like the ocean did. Instead it was calm, enclosed by land on all sides, its surface reflecting the fading sky.
“Is it the ocean?” he asked, squinting toward the horizon.
Oscar walked around to the trunk.
“It’s a lake,” he said simply, opening it.
He reached inside and grabbed Lando’s camera before tossing the strap gently toward him.
“You’ll want this.”
Lando caught it with practiced ease, already lifting it up and checking the lens like a reflex.
“Okay now I’m intrigued.”
They started walking along the shore, the gravel path crunching softly beneath their shoes.
The place was peaceful in that quiet evening way yachts gently rocking in the water beside wooden docks, their masts clinking faintly in the breeze. A few people lingered along the marina, but it was mostly calm, the busy part of the day already over.
Lando had his camera out the entire time.
Click.
Click.
Click.
He captured the boats, the reflections on the water, the sky slowly turning orange and pink above the lake.
Eventually they reached a small ferry station at the end of the dock.
Lando lowered his camera.
His brows lifted in curiosity.
“Oh?”
A ferry was already waiting there, gently bobbing against the pier.
Oscar walked straight toward it.
Lando followed, slightly confused but clearly entertained by the mystery.
They boarded just before the ramp was pulled up.
“Where are we going?” Lando asked, leaning slightly over the railing while snapping a few more photos of the water as the ferry slowly began moving.
Oscar leaned against the side of the boat beside him.
“You’ll see soon.”
There was a smug little smirk on his face.
“The ride only takes a few minutes.”
He glanced at Lando.
“Be patient.”
So Lando was.
For about twenty seconds.
Then he started bouncing lightly on his feet, camera still hanging around his neck as he looked out across the lake like an overly curious kid waiting for a surprise.
Lando stayed somehow patient through the entire fifteen-minute walk Oscar led him across the island.
Which, for Lando, was an impressive achievement.
They passed small houses first—quiet vacation homes tucked between tall trees, warm lights glowing through windows as evening settled in. Gravel paths curved between gardens and wooden fences, the kind of peaceful place that felt miles away from any city.
Then the houses disappeared.
The path narrowed into a proper hiking trail.
Lando narrowed his eyes suspiciously.
“Oscar,” he whisper-shouted dramatically, “I told you not to change the route.”
But the accusation completely lost its strength the moment he looked up.
Two koalas were sitting in the branches of a eucalyptus tree just a few meters away.
One of them was curled lazily against the trunk, eyes closed like it had absolutely no interest in the world.
The other was very much awake, happily munching on a leaf with slow, content movements.
Lando froze.
Then he grabbed Oscar’s arm.
“Oscar!”
His voice dropped into an excited whisper.
“Oh my god.”
Oscar crossed his arms, watching him with quiet amusement.
“I didn’t change the route.”
Lando shot him a skeptical look over his shoulder.
“Yeah right.”
“We were in Canberra like planned,” Oscar continued calmly. “Ate dinner there. Then drove further.”
Lando stared at him like he didn’t believe a word of it.
But he was already lifting his camera.
Click.
Click.
Click.
He took photo after photo, adjusting the lens, crouching slightly to get a better angle.
The koalas didn’t seem bothered at all.
As they continued along the trail, Lando kept stopping every few meters.
There was wildlife everywhere.
Bright birds hopping between branches. A wombat slowly waddling through the underbrush. And when the path opened into a wider grassy area, a couple of kangaroos grazing calmly in the fading sunlight.
Lando looked like a kid in a candy store.
“This is the best trip of my life,” he declared happily, lowering the camera for a moment.
Oscar glanced at him.
“Yeah?”
There was a small smile on his face.
“I’m glad.”
By the time they made their way back toward the ferry station, the sun was almost gone. The sky had turned deep purple and gold over the water, the marina lights beginning to flicker on one by one.
Naturally, Lando immediately spotted the small gift shop near the shore.
And naturally, he dragged Oscar inside.
“Oscar look!”
He pointed excitedly at a small display near the counter.
Tiny koala keychains hung from a wooden rack.
“We should get matching ones.”
Oscar had barely opened his mouth when Lando was already rummaging through the display, carefully inspecting each little plush.
“Ah!”
He suddenly held two up triumphantly.
They were clearly handmade, crocheted from soft yarn.
One koala was wrapped around a tiny branch, eyes closed like it had fallen asleep mid-hug.
The other was holding a small green leaf in its paws.
“This one is for you,” Lando declared, holding up the sleeping one. “Because I sleep a lot.”
Then he held the other one to his chest.
“And this one is mine. Because you like to eat.”
Oscar blinked.
Then laughed quietly.
“Whatever you want, Lan.”
Lando paid before Oscar could even think about it.
“It was my idea,” he said firmly when Oscar gave him a look. “And it’s a thank you gift. So you’re not allowed to complain.”
Oscar didn’t argue.
By the time they got back to the mainland and found a small apartment to stay in for the night, exhaustion had fully caught up to both of them.
Oscar especially.
He didn’t say it out loud, but Lando could see it in the way his shoulders slumped slightly and how slow his movements had become after a full day of driving.
They showered quickly, taking turns in the small bathroom.
The hot water washed away the dust of the day and the smell of the road.
When Lando came back out in comfortable clothes, he pointed at the TV mounted on the wall across from the beds.
“Wanna watch a movie?”
Oscar was already half sprawled across one of the beds.
“Mhmm.”
That was all the answer he gave as he adjusted the pillows behind his head.
Lando dug through their bags for snacks—cookies, a few leftover gummies from earlier stops and then completely ignored the second bed.
Instead, he climbed onto Oscar’s.
“Move,” he said casually, nudging him with his shoulder.
Oscar shifted without complaint.
Lando turned on the TV and picked something random, neither of them really paying attention to what it was.
They lay side by side, eating cookies and not caring at all that crumbs were getting everywhere—on the blankets, their shirts, probably the pillows too.
It felt easy.
Comfortable.
At some point during the movie, Oscar shifted slightly.
An arm draped lazily across Lando’s waist.
Lando glanced down.
Oscar was already asleep.
His breathing was slow and steady, head turned slightly toward him.
Lando smiled faintly.
“Night, Osc,” he whispered.
He reached over and turned the TV off, the room falling into quiet darkness.
The other bed sat untouched across the room.
Lando looked at it briefly.
Then he settled deeper into the mattress instead.
In the morning, they could just say they’d both accidentally fallen asleep during the movie.
Nobody needed to know it had been completely intentional.
Notes:
The gift shop is for once made up, but I needed it for the story 😂 also I decided it it partly fiction after all so there’s no harm!
Give me your thoughts in the comments,
Love ❤️
Chapter 7: Easy pace
Summary:
They have a lot of fun in the water 🤭
Notes:
Hi, hello, happy Easter or just spring if you don’t celebrate. I’m back, too excited to stay still.
Also I need to remained myself that there are things that are still make me happy like this story.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Lando woke up to the bed shifting.
And then—
cold.
His heat source was gone, and he didn’t like that one bit.
“Osc?” he mumbled, eyes barely open.
Oscar looked over at him, already half-ready, expression soft.
“I’m just going for a run,” he said quietly. “You can go back to sleep.”
Lando blinked a few times, then pushed himself up on his elbows, rubbing at his eyes, trying to wake up properly.
“I’ll go with you.”
Oscar paused mid-movement, turning to look at him fully now.
“You sure?”
“Yeah.” Lando sat up properly this time, swinging his legs off the bed. “You make me look like an amateur.”
It was meant to be a joke.
But it landed heavier than he intended.
Oscar watched him for a second.
“These are your last days of vacation,” he said simply. “You’re allowed to rest.”
Lando nodded, but the words didn’t fully settle.
Because resting had never come easily to him.
Even when he was resting, his mind had a habit of running ahead—training, performance, what he could be doing better.
What he should be doing.
Especially during the off-season.
Especially when his body was tired, but his head refused to switch off.
He pushed the thought away before it could spiral.
“I’m coming,” he said again, softer this time, already standing up.
Oscar didn’t argue after that.
Lando moved quickly through the bathroom, splashing cold water on his face, dragging his hands through his curls in a half-hearted attempt to fix them. It wasn’t about discipline this time.
Not really.
It was about time.
About the quiet, growing awareness that it was running out.
And he wanted to spend as much of it with Oscar as he could.
The air outside was fresh, slightly damp from the ocean nearby.
It helped.
Woke him up faster than anything else could.
They started at an easy pace, side by side, their steps falling into rhythm without needing to think about it.
It was… steady.
Comfortable.
Very different from the last time no pounding headache, no sluggish limbs, no complaints every five seconds.
This time, Lando actually kept up.
More than that he enjoyed it.
They started racing at some point, neither of them announcing it, just picking random targets—a tree, a rock, a bend in the path and pushing each other to get there first.
Laughing the whole way through.
By the time they slowed down near the beach, Lando bent slightly forward, hands on his knees, catching his breath.
“I forgot my watch,” he said between breaths. “Now Jon won’t believe me I actually ran.”
Oscar huffed out a quiet laugh beside him.
“I can send you a screenshot from mine.”
Lando straightened, looking at him with a grin.
“Yeah? You’d fake evidence for me?”
Oscar shrugged, completely unfazed.
“Of course.”
That—
that did something to Lando.
Something small, but warm.
He looked out toward the water, the early light reflecting off the surface, then back at Oscar.
Still smiling.
Still there.
For now.
“You didn’t complain once,” Oscar pointed out as they jogged back toward the apartment.
Lando shot him a look.
“I came willingly this time!” he argued, slightly out of breath but still defensive.
Oscar just huffed a quiet laugh, clearly unconvinced.
The morning felt… easy.
Warm in that soft, early way, the kind that made everything slower, calmer. No rush, no pressure just the two of them falling back into step like they had been doing it for years.
Back at the apartment, they moved around each other naturally, packing their things without really needing to speak.
Lando folded his clothes with questionable precision, occasionally getting distracted, while Oscar was—unsurprisingly—efficient, everything neat and done in half the time.
“So what’s next?” Lando asked, glancing over at him curiously.
“You’ll see,” Oscar said, a smirk tugging at his lips. “But we should eat something light for breakfast.”
Lando immediately frowned.
“Osc, you can’t keep secrets from me.”
“It’s not a secret,” Oscar laughed, zipping up his bag. “Just a surprise.”
Lando narrowed his eyes at him.
“I don’t like surprises.”
“That’s a lie.”
“…Okay, I like good surprises.”
Oscar just shook his head, amused.
“Ready?”
They didn’t go far before stopping to grab food.
Lando insisted on picking something himself, scanning the options before settling on a chicken salad which, objectively, was not very breakfast-like, but he didn’t care.
Oscar, meanwhile, chose a wrap.
Which—
“Light, yeah?” Lando eyed it suspiciously.
Oscar didn’t even look guilty.
“It is light.”
“That’s a full meal.”
“It’s balanced.”
Lando snorted but didn’t argue further, already taking a bite of his own food.
They ended up eating in the car.
Apparently that was a rule.
“Not a real road trip if you don’t eat at least one meal in the car,” Oscar had said, like it was a universal law.
Lando had no experience in that field, so he accepted it without question.
Sitting sideways in his seat, container balanced carefully, he glanced over at Oscar between bites.
Driving one-handed.
Eating with the other.
Completely relaxed.
Like this was second nature to him.
And honestly it was.
Lando smiled slightly to himself, turning back to the window as the scenery started passing by again.
Another day.
Another place.
The ride was surprisingly quick.
Lando barely had time to properly settle before Oscar was already pulling into a sleek driveway, the car coming to a smooth stop in front of a luxury apartment complex that looked… expensive.
Like really expensive.
Clean glass, polished stone, the kind of place that didn’t need to try to impress anyone because it just did.
Lando glanced up at it, then back at Oscar.
“You’ve been holding out on me,” he muttered under his breath.
Oscar didn’t comment, just stepped out of the car and moved around to grab their bags from the back.
Lando followed, still looking around as if trying to figure the place out.
Oscar set the bags down beside him before straightening.
“Can I trust you to stay put for a while?” he asked.
Lando blinked.
“You’re leaving me?” he gasped, hand coming up to his chest in mock offense.
Oscar just chuckled.
“Don’t be dramatic. It’s only for half an hour. At most.”
“I—no.” Lando said, the answer slipping out before he fully thought it through.
Oscar paused, one brow lifting slightly, clearly amused.
“No?”
Lando shifted his weight, suddenly a bit more aware of how that sounded.
“It’s for your surprise,” Oscar added, like that explained everything.
“No,” Lando repeated, this time firmer. “I don’t want a surprise if it means you leaving me.”
That made Oscar look at him properly.
For a second, something softer passed through his expression—something that didn’t match the teasing tone from before.
“Lan,” he said, a little quieter now, “I’ll be back soon. Okay? I promise.”
Lando hesitated.
He didn’t even fully know why he didn’t like the idea so much.
It was just after the past few days being left behind suddenly didn’t feel so simple.
“You can check out the jacuzzi while I’m out,” Oscar added casually, like he was offering a distraction.
Lando blinked.
“There’s a has a jacuzzi?”
“Yes.”
That shifted things.
“I—” he hesitated again, glancing between Oscar and the building like he was weighing his options, “alright… but if you’re not back in half an hour I’ll be sad.”
Oscar smiled at that, softer this time.
“I won’t be long.”
Lando watched him for a second longer, like he wasn’t fully convinced but he stepped back anyway, letting him go.
Oscar gave him one last look like he wanted to say something else, but didn’t before grabbing his keys and heading back toward the car.
A moment later, he was gone.
And just like that for the first time in this trip Lando was alone.
At least, the first time he was fully awake and aware of it.
The silence settled quickly.
No background music, no engine, no quiet conversation filling the space.
Just… stillness.
Lando stood there for a second, hands in his hoodie pockets, before exhaling softly and grabbing the bags.
“Half an hour,” he muttered to himself as he made his way inside.
The apartment was just as ridiculous on the inside as it looked from the outside.
Spacious. Bright. Minimalistic but somehow still warm. Floor-to-ceiling windows, clean lines, everything perfectly in place.
Lando walked in slowly, taking it all in.
“Of course it has a jacuzzi,” he mumbled, dropping their bags near the couch.
He wandered through the space, peeking into rooms like he was exploring something unfamiliar.
Bedroom.
Bathroom—
And there it was.
The jacuzzi.
“Okay,” he said to no one, nodding to himself. “That’s actually insane.”
For a moment, he considered it.
Actually using it.
Then shook his head, running a hand through his hair.
Instead, he drifted back into the main room, picking up his phone out of habit only to pause.
No messages he cared about right now.
No one he wanted to talk to.
Which was… new.
He dropped the phone back onto the table and walked over to the window instead, looking out at the view.
Arms loosely crossed.
Waiting.
Not bored.
Not exactly restless.
Just aware.
Of the quiet.
Of the fact that Oscar wasn’t there.
And how quickly he’d gotten used to that not being the case.
The time couldn’t have moved slower but as promised, Oscar walked back into the apartment exactly twenty-six minutes after he’d left.
Not that Lando counted.
“Why is there a jacuzzi in here?” was the first thing Lando asked.
Oscar barely spared him a glance before moving to their bags, already packing his backpack.
“Figured we’ll need it.”
“Why?”
Oscar paused for just a second, then glanced at him something amused flickering across his face.
“Relax,” he said lightly, “Not for whatever you’re thinking, don’t worry.”
Lando choked on absolutely nothing.
“I—what?! It did not—”
Oscar’s lips twitched, clearly enjoying himself now, before he went back to packing like nothing happened—taking things out, putting others in, like he had a very specific plan in mind that Lando was definitely not part of.
“Oscaaaaar,” Lando whined, dragging his name out, now flustered and demanding answers.
“Come on,” Oscar said finally, zipping the bag and straightening up. “You’ll see for yourself.”
Lando was practically buzzing during the short drive.
It wasn’t even ten minutes, but it felt longer with the way Oscar kept completely quiet about where they were going.
Which only made it worse.
“Are we close?”
“No.”
“Is it food?”
“No.”
“Is it—”
“Lan.”
“Fine.”
But he was smiling.
They parked near a beach.
That part, at least, wasn’t new. They’d been following the coastline for most of the trip anyway.
What was new was how empty it was.
No people.
No noise.
Just the sound of the ocean and the wind.
Lando stepped out, glancing around curiously, trying to piece it together.
Oscar still didn’t say a word.
Not when he grabbed the blanket.
Not when he spread it out on the sand.
Not even when he handed Lando a pair of swimming trunks.
“Are we having a picnic on the beach or something?” Lando guessed, squinting at him.
Oscar just shook his head and gestured past him.
Lando turned and finally noticed the surfboard stand.
He’d seen it when they pulled in.
Just hadn’t really registered it.
“Huh?” He tilted his head, trying to connect the dots.
“These are ours for today.”
“What?”
“You wanted to learn how to surf.” Oscar raised a brow, an amused look on his face. “So I’m teaching you.”
“What?” Lando blinked at him. “I didn’t mean now!”
“What’s wrong with now?”
“I don’t know, but—but you had a plan for the trip, you—you can’t just change it because I mention something on a whim!” The words came out fast, tripping over each other.
Because that wasn’t the point.
Lando knew himself.
Knew he was a lot sometimes.
Complaining, asking, wanting—
But he didn’t want Oscar to bend everything around him.
Didn’t want to be that person.
Didn’t want to be a burden.
“Lan, slow down.”
Oscar stepped closer, placing his hands on Lando’s shoulders, grounding him.
“It’s alright. The trip didn’t really have a plan to begin with.
“Yes it did!” Lando protested immediately. “You told me about it.”
“And I changed it,” Oscar said simply.
There was no hesitation in his voice.
“That’s the best part of road trips. You can change plans whenever you want.” His grip softened slightly. “And I wanted to change it for you.”
“But—”
“No buts.”
His tone was still gentle.
Just firm enough to stop Lando spiraling again.
“I’ve done this route a thousand times before,” he continued. “I can do it again whenever I want.”
He held his gaze.
“It’s your first time. And I want you to have fun.”
Something in the way he said it—steady, certain made it hard to argue.
“If you want koalas,” Oscar went on, quieter now, “I’ll find a place with koalas.”
Lando didn’t look away.
“If you want to learn how to surf, I’ll find a beach that’s good for it.”
His hands were still resting on his shoulders.
Grounding.
“And if you want to go on a cruise, I’ll find a cruise next.”
There was the faintest hint of a smile there now.
But his eyes stayed serious.
Honest.
Lando just… watched him for a moment.
Because it wasn’t just what he was saying.
It was how easily he said it.
Like it wasn’t a sacrifice.
Like it wasn’t a big deal.
Like Lando wasn’t too much.
“Okay,” he said finally, quieter now.
Then, after a small breath—
“Yeah.”
Oscar tilted his head slightly.
“Yeah?”
Lando nodded.
A little more certain this time.
“Yeah.”
They stayed like that for a moment longer.
Just breathing.
Letting everything settle.
And once Oscar was sure Lando wasn’t about to spiral again, he gave his shoulders a small squeeze before taking his hand and leading him toward the boards.
“Can I have the yellow one?” Lando asked, still a bit embarrassed, his voice softer than before.
“It’s yours,” Oscar chuckled like it was obvious, grabbing a plain white one for himself. “Did you surf before?”
“Danny tried to teach me,” Lando grimaced. “But it was awful. He spent half the time laughing at me and the other half falling into the water himself.”
“I won’t laugh at you,” Oscar promised.
His eyes betrayed him immediately.
“Liar!”
“I swear,” he said again, more serious this time. “But I won’t promise not to fall into the ocean. I told you—I’m not that good.”
Lando narrowed his eyes at him.
“Great. I’m in safe hands.”
They carried the boards down to the water, the sand warm under their feet, the ocean stretching out calm but alive in front of them.
Oscar stopped a few steps before the waterline, setting his board down.
“Alright,” he said, switching into a tone that was suddenly a bit more focused. “Basics first.”
Lando mirrored him, dropping his board and looking at him expectantly.
“You don’t start standing,” Oscar explained. “That’s the mistake everyone makes.”
“Good, because that sounds impossible already.”
Oscar ignored that.
“You start by paddling. You lay on the board—here.” He gestured, then demonstrated, lying flat on his stomach, hands placed near his ribs.
“Keep your chest slightly up so the nose doesn’t sink,” he continued. “And you paddle like this—”
He moved his arms in alternating strokes through the air.
“Like swimming?”
“Kind of, yeah. But slower. Controlled.”
Lando nodded like he understood.
He did not.
“Then when you feel the wave push you,” Oscar went on, pushing himself up slightly on the board, “you pop up.”
“Pop up,” Lando repeated skeptically.
Oscar demonstrated in one smooth motion hands pressed to the board, feet stepping under him quickly, rising into a low stance.
It looked effortless.
Of course it did.
“You’re joking.”
“It’s not that hard.”
“It looks hard.”
Oscar got off the board and crouched next to Lando’s.
“Try it on the sand first.”
“Oh, that’s humiliating.”
“Lan.”
“Fine.”
Lando laid down on the board, adjusting himself awkwardly.
“Okay, what now?”
“Hands here,” Oscar said, gently moving them into place near his chest. “Elbows in.”
Lando tried.
“And then just… jump?”
“Push up and bring your feet under you in one motion.”
“That’s not helpful.”
“Just try.”
Lando pushed up, his foot slipped and he sort of… flopped sideways off the board onto the sand.
Oscar looked away immediately.
“Don’t you dare.”
“I didn’t say anything.”
“You were about to.”
“I wasn’t.”
Lando pointed at him accusingly from the ground.
“You’re enjoying this.”
“Maybe a little.”
“Unbelievable.”
After a few more attempts some better, most not Oscar finally nodded.
“Okay. Good enough.”
“Good enough?” Lando sat up, offended. “That was not good enough.”
“You’ll learn faster in the water.”
“That feels like a lie.”
“It’s not.”
Oscar grabbed his board and started walking toward the waves.
Lando hesitated for half a second—then followed.
The water was cold again.
Not as shocking as before.
Still offensive.
“Why is the ocean like this?” he complained as it reached his knees.
“Stop thinking about it.”
“I am thinking about it, it’s freezing.”
Oscar just kept going until the water was about waist-deep.
“Alright,” he said, turning to him. “Get on the board.”
Lando climbed on, wobbling immediately.
“This feels unstable.”
“It is unstable.”
“Great.”
“Start paddling.”
Lando awkwardly began moving his arms.
“Not like that,” Oscar corrected, adjusting his arm slightly. “Long strokes.”
“This is harder than it looks.”
“Everything is harder than it looks.”
A small wave rolled under them, lifting the board slightly.
Lando froze.
“Oh—oh no—”
“You’re fine.”
“I’m not fine—”
“Keep paddling.”
Another small wave came.
This time Oscar gave his board a light push.
“Now! Try to stand!”
“I’m going to die—”
“Lan—now!”
Lando pushed up one foot came under him then the other for a split second—he was up.
Actually up.
“OSC—”
And then immediatelyhe lost balance and fell straight into the water with a loud splash.
There was a second of silence.
Lando resurfaced, hair in his face, sputtering.
“I DID IT—”
Oscar laughed.
Properly laughed this time.
“I stood up!”
“For half a second.”
“That counts!”
“It counts,” Oscar admitted, still smiling.
Lando pushed his hair back, beaming despite being completely soaked.
“Did you see that?”
“I did.”
“I’m basically a pro now.”
“Let’s not get ahead of ourselves.”
They kept going.
Attempt after attempt.
Some worse.
Some slightly better.
Oscar fell once too which Lando did not let go unnoticed.
“Oh my.” Lando shouted laughing like crazy.
“I told you I’m not good!”
“You’re worse than me!”
“I am not!”
By the time they finally dragged the boards back onto the sand, both of them were exhausted.
And soaked.
And laughing.
Lando dropped onto the blanket dramatically, breathing heavily.
“I’m never doing that again.”
“You will,” Oscar said, sitting down next to him.
“Yeah,” Lando admitted after a second. “Probably.”
He turned his head slightly, looking at him.
“That was actually… really fun.”
Oscar smiled, softer now.
“Yeah?”
“Yeah.”
“You’re an amazing teacher.” Lando smiled, all the earlier tension gone like it had never been there.
Oscar shook his head lightly.
“I taught my sisters how to surf when we were younger,” he said, a small smile pulling at his lips. “Edie and Hattie are just as bad as I am… but the youngest—Mae she’s actually really good.”
“So maybe there is hope for me!” Lando grinned, already pushing himself back up to his feet. “Come on, I need to practice more so I can beat you.”
“That’s not how it works,” Oscar laughed, but he followed him anyway.
They went back in.
This time Lando didn’t hesitate as much when the water hit just hissed under his breath and kept moving, determination written all over his face.
“Alright,” Oscar called from beside him, climbing onto his own board. “Same thing. Paddle first—don’t rush it.”
“I won’t rush it,” Lando said, immediately rushing it.
Oscar snorted.
A small wave rolled in.
“Wait for it,” Oscar said.
“I am waiting.”
“You’re not waiting.”
“I’m—”
“Now.”
Lando pushed up, wobbled and somehow stayed up this time.
Not for long.
But longer.
“OSC—LOOK—”
He lasted maybe two seconds before tipping sideways and disappearing under the water again.
When he came back up, he was laughing.
“I did it again!”
“Yeah, you did,” Oscar said, watching him with a quiet kind of satisfaction.
And they just… kept going.
Wave after wave.
Attempt after attempt.
Lando celebrating every tiny improvement like it was a championship win.
At some point he managed a slightly smoother pop-up, knees less shaky, balance just a bit better.
“Osc!” he shouted again, beaming. “Did you see that one?!”
“I saw it,” Oscar said, smiling, still mostly sitting on his board now, watching more than trying himself.
“You’re not even trying anymore!”
“I am.”
“You’re lying.”
“Maybe I just prefer watching.”
Lando rolled his eyes, but there was no bite to it.
Another wave came.
He turned, paddled, pushed up and this time he actually rode it for a few meters before jumping off on purpose, landing in the water with a splash.
When he came up again, he looked… proud.
Properly proud.
“I’m getting it,” he said, almost surprised.
“Yeah,” Oscar nodded. “You are.”
By the time they finally made their way back to shore again, Lando was completely spent.
He dropped onto the sand near the blanket, chest rising and falling quickly, hair dripping, skin warm despite the cold water.
“I’m going to be sore tomorrow,” he declared.
“You will,” Oscar agreed, sitting down beside him.
“Worth it though.”
Oscar glanced at him.
“Yeah?”
“Yeah,” Lando said, turning his head slightly, smiling at him again—so easy, so bright it almost didn’t make sense.
“Best teacher I’ve ever had.”
Oscar huffed a quiet laugh, looking away for a second, but the smile stayed.
And this time he didn’t argue.
They decided to head back when the sun started to dip lower, painting the sky in warm colours. The breeze had picked up, cooler now, drying the salt on their skin and making Lando pull his hoodie a bit tighter around himself.
“That’s why the apartment has a jacuzzi!” Lando suddenly said, like the realization had just hit him. He turned to Oscar with wide eyes as they walked. “Oscar, you’re actually a genius.”
Oscar just huffed a quiet laugh, unlocking the car.
“Glad you finally caught up.”
They grabbed pizza on the way back, something easy and quick, neither of them even pretending to care about anything remotely healthy. Lando didn’t even try to justify it—after everything they’d done that day, he felt like he’d earned it.
By the time they got back, they were both starving.
They ate straight out of the boxes, sitting cross-legged on the floor at first, then slowly migrating closer to the jacuzzi like it had its own gravitational pull.
And, of course, Lando was the first one to give in.
He was already halfway out of his clothes before Oscar even finished his second slice.
“Unbelievable,” Oscar muttered under his breath, but there was no real bite to it.
A moment later, Lando sank into the water with a relieved sound, the bubbles swirling around him.
“This is nice,” he moaned immediately, head falling back against the edge. “A genius, really.”
Oscar shook his head, grabbing another slice before finally standing up.
“Yeah, yeah. Don’t get too comfortable.”
“Too late,” Lando said, eyes already half-lidded, completely melted into the heat.
Oscar joined him in the tub, the water shifting around them as he settled in.
For a few moments, neither of them said anything.
Just the quiet hum of the bubbles, the warmth sinking into sore muscles, the soft sound of water moving.
Lando had his eyes closed, head tilted back slightly, completely relaxed.
And Oscar—
Oscar took the moment to look.
Really look.
He looked younger like this.
Softer.
The tension he carried so naturally just… gone.
His curls still a bit messy from earlier, the faint stubble on his face, the small scar on his nose catching the light just enough to stand out.
It was unfair, really.
How easy it was to just—
get stuck there.
“Lan, don’t fall asleep,” Oscar said, a bit quieter than he intended, like he was pulling himself out of something.
“I won’t,” Lando mumbled, not even opening his eyes.
Oscar watched him for another second.
“Lan.”
He shifted closer, reaching out to shake him lightly by the arm.
“Mmm?”
Oscar almost joked.
So much for not sleeping.
But the words didn’t come out.
Not when Lando looked like that.
Soft. Warm. Completely unguarded.
“We shouldn’t stay too long,” he said instead, voice gentler now.
“Five more minutes?” Lando murmured, barely moving.
Oscar exhaled quietly, a small smile tugging at his lips despite himself.
“Your definition of five minutes is questionable.”
Lando let out a quiet hum, shifting just enough that his shoulder brushed against Oscar’s.
“Just let me enjoy it,” he mumbled.
Oscar stilled for a second at the contact.
Didn’t pull away.
“Greedy,” he muttered under his breath.
But there was no bite to it.
Only warmth.
And he stayed.
“Five more minutes,” Lando repeated, softer this time, already half gone again.
Oscar let out a quiet breath through his nose, shaking his head.
“Yeah, yeah.”
But he didn’t move.
He stayed right there, letting the warmth sink in, letting the quiet stretch just a little longer than it probably should have.
Another minute passed.
Maybe two.
Lando shifted slightly again, closer this time without really meaning to, his leg brushing against Oscar’s under the water.
“Lan,” Oscar said again, quieter now.
No response.
He reached over, nudging him a bit more firmly this time.
“Alright, that’s it. Out.”
“Mmm—no,” Lando protested weakly, eyes still closed. “I live here now.”
“You’ll turn into a raisin.”
“Worth it.”
Oscar huffed out a laugh.
“C’mon.”
He stood first, the water moving around him as he stepped out, grabbing a towel and tossing another one toward Lando.
“Up.”
Lando groaned dramatically but eventually pushed himself up, moving slower now, like his limbs had forgotten how to work properly.
“This is abuse,” he mumbled, stepping out and wrapping the towel around himself. “I was comfortable.”
“You were asleep.”
“I was resting.”
Oscar just shook his head, grabbing his own towel.
They dried off in comfortable silence, the kind that didn’t need filling.
Lando’s movements were lazy, uncoordinated in a way that made Oscar keep half an eye on him just in case he tripped over his own feet.
Which he almost did.
“Careful,” Oscar said automatically, reaching out to steady him by the arm.
“I’m fine,” Lando insisted, even as he leaned into it for a second longer than necessary.
“Sure you are.”
By the time they changed into something comfortable and made their way to bed, the energy had completely shifted.
Slower.
Quieter.
Lando flopped down first without hesitation, face first into the pillow before turning onto his side.
“I’m not moving ever again,” he declared into the mattress.
“Good,” Oscar said, climbing in on the other side. “Stay there.”
“I will.”
A pause.
Then—
“Can I see your shop tomorrow?” Lando asked curiously.
Oscar glanced at him.
“I mean… we need to go take Senna anyway. It’s there.”
Lando’s eyes lit up slightly.
“So yes?”
“So yes.”
“Are you changing something again?” Lando asked, propping himself up a little.
Oscar shook his head.
“No. I just park it there when I’m not using it.”
He shrugged lightly.
“Easier than paying for a garage.”
Lando studied him for a moment like that answer somehow made him even more interesting.
“You own a car worth a million—probably more with all the improvements—and you refuse to pay for a garage?” Lando asked, giggling.
Oscar rolled his eyes slightly, though the tips of his ears turned a faint pink.
“Shut up. It’s convenient.”
Lando only laughed harder.
Oscar shifted against the headboard, clearly trying to look unaffected.
“Besides,” he added, a little more defensively, “it’s good for business.”
Lando raised an eyebrow.
“How?”
“It sits right outside the shop half the time,” Oscar explained. “People notice it. They ask questions.”
He shrugged.
“Free advertisement.
Lando snorted.
“That’s your strategy?”
“It works,” Oscar said simply.
Lando studied him for a moment, amused smile still lingering on his face.
“You’re full of surprises, you know that?”
Oscar glanced at him.
“Oh yeah?”
“Yeah,” Lando said, turning onto his back again, looking up at the ceiling for a moment before glancing back at him. “You act all quiet and serious, but then you’re secretly doing things like using a hypercar as marketing.”
Oscar huffed a quiet laugh.
“It’s not that deep.”
“It is,” Lando insisted lazily. “You’re like… secretly chaotic.”
“That’s a new one.”
Lando grinned.
“Wait until I discover the rest.”
“I’m not as interesting as you think,” Oscar said, shifting slightly against the pillows.
The room was quiet, no outside noise, no cars passing by.
Lando let out a quiet scoff.
“Lies.”
He turned his head toward him, a small smile tugging at the corner of his mouth.
“Mr. Oscar ‘I’ll take you on a road trip you’ll never forget’ Piastri,” he said, giving the name a dramatic flourish like he was announcing a title.
Oscar chuckled softly.
“So you did have fun?”
Lando looked at him like the question itself was absurd.
“Did I—did I have fun?”
He sat up a little straighter, clearly offended by the question.
“Osc,” he said with theatrical disbelief, “I will never have this much fun again.”
Oscar raised an eyebrow.
“That bad?”
“There were koalas,” Lando began, counting on his fingers. “We went surfing. Had so much food! And there was even a lizard.”
Oscar huffed a quiet laugh.
“Yeah?”
“Yeah.”
Lando nodded firmly.
Then his voice softened a little.
“It was… really good.
For a moment the room went quiet again.
Lando looked at him.
And suddenly the urge hit him strong and reckless.
He wanted to do something stupid.
Something very stupid.
Like lean forward and kiss him.
The thought made his stomach flip.
So instead, he looked away quickly.
Oscar seemed to notice the shift but didn’t comment.
“Wanna show me the photos you took?” Oscar asked after a moment.
Lando blinked, a little surprised by the request.
“Yeah—sure.”
Oscar slid out of the bed to grab the camera from his bag before climbing back in beside the older. They leaned closer together, the small screen between them as Lando started scrolling.
The first photos were landscapes—wide shots of the cliffs, the forest trails, the waterfall.
Then came the animals.
Koalas curled into trees.
Kangaroos standing in open fields.
Tiny lizard resting on a rock.
Lando narrated half the pictures like a travel guide—pointing out where he’d nearly slipped near the waterfall, explaining how long he’d waited for the koala to turn its head just right, proudly showing off the kangaroo shots like they were professional wildlife photography.
Oscar listened more than he spoke, occasionally leaning closer to get a better look.
Then another photo appeared.
Oscar driving.
Sunlight coming through the windshield, sunglasses on, one hand steady on the wheel. The ocean blurred in the background behind him.
For a moment Oscar just stared at it.
“I look good,” he said, sounding mildly surprised.
Lando’s cheeks warmed slightly.
“Like that wasn’t obvious already,” he muttered quietly.
Oscar glanced sideways at him.
“What was that?”
“Nothing,” Lando said quickly, already scrolling to the next photo.
But the small smile tugging at the corner of Oscar’s mouth suggested he might have heard it anyway.
They kept going through the pictures after that, slower now.
Less commentary.
More quiet.
Their shoulders brushed as they leaned in, the camera resting between them, Lando’s thumb lazily tapping through each frame.
There were duplicates. Blurry ones. Accidental shots of the ground.
Lando didn’t delete any of them.
Eventually they reached the end of the photos.
For a few seconds neither of them moved.
Then Lando turned the camera off and set it on the bedside table.
The room suddenly felt quieter without the small glow of the screen.
Oscar shifted slightly beside him, stretching his arm behind his head.
“Good trip,” he said.
Lando smiled to himself, staring up at the ceiling.
“Best trip.”
Neither of them mentioned that it was over.
But the thought hung quietly in the room anyway.
Soon they would go back to their lives.
Oscar to his shop, his routines, the city he knew.
Lando to the paddock, to races and flights and a calendar that barely left space to breathe.
But for now they were still here.
In yet another city.
Curled up in the same bed, crumbs from earlier still somewhere in the sheets, the faint smell of takeout lingering in the air.
A few days that hadn’t meant to become anything more than a spontaneous road trip had somehow turned into something neither of them quite knew how to define.
And neither of them seemed ready to let go of it yet.
Notes:
I’m way ahead in writing, just starting chapter 19 today and needed to regroup a bit, that’s why we have a super early chapter.
Hope you don’t mind the chapters being so short, I just don’t want to put too much into them but if I had to be honest if I put everything I wanted into the road trip, they’d need to be on the road for at least two weeks and the trip itself would be way over 100k words. Which we don’t have time for.
Love, N 🫶
Chapter 8: Last straight
Notes:
Call me crazy if you want..
Is it Christmas? No it’s Easter and apparently I cannot have this much time off work because I’m going mental at home.
Also this story is too good to keep it in my notes like what.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
When Lando woke up, the sun wasn’t even up yet.
The room was dim, washed in that faint grey light that came right before morning. For a moment he just lay there, staring at the ceiling, trying to convince his body to go back to sleep.
It didn’t work.
His body felt strange sore and relaxed all at once, the aftereffects of the day before settling in. Surfing, running, the hot tub… it all caught up with him now, leaving his muscles heavy but loose.
Beside him, Oscar was still asleep.
The Aussie had rolled slightly onto his stomach sometime during the night, one arm thrown loosely over Lando’s waist, breathing slow and even. His hair was a complete mess, sticking out in every direction, and the blanket had twisted around his waist.
Lando watched him for a moment.
Longer than he meant to.
Then an idea formed.
Carefully, he slipped out of bed, moving slowly so the mattress wouldn’t shift too much. Oscar stirred faintly but didn’t wake.
Lando grabbed his phone and quietly searched for the closest place he could get food at.
There was one.
Ten minutes away.
Perfect.
He pulled on the first hoodie he found and slipped out of the apartment, closing the door gently behind him.
The morning air hit him immediately—cool, crisp, fresh in a way that made him breathe a little deeper. The streets were still mostly empty, only a few early commuters passing by, the city not quite awake yet.
It felt… peaceful.
Lando walked slowly, hands tucked into his sleeves, his body lagging behind his thoughts.
The bakery turned out to be a small, cozy place on the corner of a quiet street.
The bakery turned out to be a small, cozy place on a corner street.
Warm yellow lights glowed inside, and the smell of coffee and fresh bread practically dragged him through the door.
He stood at the counter for a moment, considering.
In the end he ordered far too much.
An egg and bacon muffin.
Smashed avocado toast.
A breakfast bowl.
All packed neatly for takeout.
Plus a coffee for Oscar and tea for himself.
By the time he stepped back outside, the sky had started to lighten slightly.
And halfway back to the apartment, the thought hit him.
This was the last day.
Tomorrow he’d be back at the paddock.
Back to work. To meetings. To the team. To the routine of race weekends and travel schedules and endless obligations.
Away from Oscar.
Away from the strange little bubble they had somehow built around themselves over the past days.
The realization sat heavy in his chest.
He tried not to think about it too much as he reached the apartment building.
Lando pushed the door open quietly, balancing the paper bags carefully as he stepped inside.
He was so focused on being silent that he almost walked straight into Oscar.
The Aussie was standing right by the door, halfway through putting his shoes on.
They both froze.
“Where the hell have you been?” Oscar asked immediately.
He didn’t sound angry.
He sounded worried.
Lando blinked, still standing in the doorway.
“I bought breakfast,” he said innocently, lifting the bag slightly like evidence.
Oscar straightened up quickly.
“God, Lando, you cannot just disappear like that.”
His shoulders were tense, like he had been about to rush out the door.
Up close, Lando noticed his face hadn’t even been washed yet. His hair was still wild from sleep.
He had clearly woken up and immediately gone looking.
“It’s fine, Osc,” Lando said lightly, stepping past him. “I’m a big boy.”
He giggled softly as he walked toward the small table to set the food down.
Behind him Oscar’s voice came again.
“Don’t do that ever again.”
Lando paused slightly.
“I woke up and you weren’t there,” Oscar continued, the words coming faster now. “The door was open and I thought maybe I forgot to close it yesterday. Maybe someone took you. Maybe you decided to run away. Maybe—”
He stopped himself mid-spiral.
Lando turned around slowly.
For a second he just looked at him, confused.
Then he walked back across the room and wrapped his arms around Oscar.
The hug caught him off guard.
Oscar stiffened for half a second.
Then he relaxed.
His arms slid around Lando’s waist almost instinctively, pulling him closer as he buried his face into the Brit’s curls.
Lando smelled like outside air, hotel shampoo, and something that was just… Lando.
They stood there quietly.
For a few minutes neither of them moved.
Neither seemed ready to let go.
Eventually the tension eased.
Lando let out a small laugh, his breath warm against Oscar’s neck.
“Who would want to take me anyway?”
Oscar slowly lifted his head.
“I don’t know.”
He loosened his hold just enough to look Lando in the eyes.
“But I bet you’re worth quite a lot.”
A faint smirk appeared on his face.
“Would be an amazing ransom.”
The comment had been meant as a joke.
Lando knew that.
But there had been something in Oscar’s voice that didn’t quite match the words. Something sharp at the edges. Something that hadn’t fully left his tone yet.
The kind of worry that didn’t disappear the second the problem was solved.
And it made something twist uncomfortably inside Lando’s chest.
The way Oscar had been ready to run out the door. Shoes half on. Face not even washed yet. Still groggy from sleep but already preparing to search for him.
The feelings that thought stirred were… dangerous.
“So you do care,” Lando said lightly, trying to laugh.
But the laugh came out slightly forced.
Oscar didn’t seem to notice.
“‘Course I do.”
His hand came up almost absentmindedly, fingers brushing against Lando’s cheek in a soft stroke before dropping again.
Then he nodded toward the table.
“What did you get?”
Just like that, the moment dissolved.
The strange charged feeling in the room disappeared as quickly as it had appeared.
Lando turned, grabbing the paper bags and setting them properly on the small table. Both of them kicked off their shoes before sitting down across from each other.
He started unpacking everything like a proud hunter returning with supplies.
“Okay,” he announced. “We’ve got options.”
He placed the containers one by one.
“Egg and bacon muffin. Breakfast bowl. And…” he lifted the final box slightly, “…avocado toast.”
He looked up at Oscar immediately.
“Do you want the toast?”
He made exaggerated puppy eyes.
Oscar raised one eyebrow.
“Do you want it?”
“I asked first!” Lando protested, lifting his cup to hide half his face.
Oscar just looked at him.
One look.
That was all it took.
Lando sighed dramatically.
“Yes, I want it.”
Oscar chuckled quietly and slid the box toward him.
“Was it so hard?”
He unwrapped the egg and bacon muffin for himself while Lando happily opened the avocado toast like he’d just won a negotiation.
For a few minutes the only sound was quiet eating and the rustle of paper wrappers.
Oscar pulled his phone out with one hand, typing something quickly while holding the muffin in the other.
Lando eventually grabbed his own phone too, curiosity getting the better of him.
The screen lit up with a flood of notifications.
Messages.
Emails.
Team updates.
Sponsor reminders.
He sighed.
Reality creeping back in.
“Finally got my hotel info from the team,” he muttered after scrolling for a moment.
Oscar glanced up.
“Hm?”
“Oh,” he said after a second, nodding slightly. “Yeah.”
He took another bite of his muffin.
“We’ll be back in Melbourne today. I’ll drop you off in the evening.”
The words were casual.
Simple.
But hearing them out loud made the room feel slightly quieter again.
Because suddenly the trip had an ending.
“Are you sure?” Lando asked, watching Oscar carefully. “I can find my own way, you know. It can get a bit chaotic.”
It wasn’t that he didn’t want Oscar to see that part of his life.
If anything, a part of him wanted it a lot.
But the paddock, the team, the attention—it was a different world entirely. Loud, busy, intense. Nothing like the quiet bubble they’d been living in for the past few days.
Oscar didn’t hesitate.
“Yeah, already told you” he said easily. “We’ll take the McLaren to blend in.”
He smiled a little as he added, “I doubt your team would like you getting in a different car.”
Lando snorted softly.
That was… unfortunately true.
And honestly, he knew he was in good hands with Oscar.
The younger man was always thinking three steps ahead, quietly solving problems before they even appeared.
They didn’t rush that morning.
For once.
They packed slowly, partly because they were both still sore, movements just a little stiffer than usual—but that wasn’t really it.
The real reason was quieter than that.
They moved around the apartment in an easy, unspoken rhythm. Folding clothes, zipping bags, double-checking things that didn’t really need checking.
Neither of them said it out loud.
But it felt like they were stretching the time pulling at it, trying to make it last just a little longer.
Eventually, though, there was nothing left to pack.
Nothing left to do.
So they stepped outside.
The air felt different somehow.
Or maybe it was just them.
Oscar walked around the car without a word and opened the passenger door for Lando, like he’d done a hundred times before.
Like it was just another day.
Like this wasn’t anything close to the end.
“Just one stop left,” he said.
Lando paused halfway into the seat.
“We’re going somewhere else?” he asked, glancing up at him.
“Yeah,” Oscar replied, leaning casually against the door frame. “But it’s quick.”
He pushed himself upright again.
“It’s just outside Melbourne. The trip won’t stretch too long, I promise.”
Lando nodded and settled into the seat.
Truthfully, he wouldn’t have minded if the trip did stretch longer.
He wouldn’t have minded if Oscar suddenly decided to drive them in the opposite direction.
Kidnap him.
Keep him hostage somewhere far away.
The thought was ridiculous.
Borderline stupid.
Maybe even a little concerning.
But the truth was… he really wouldn’t mind.
He loved his life. Loved his job. Loved racing more than anything. Part of him was already itching to get back into the car, back into the rhythm of the season.
But leaving Oscar behind?
That part hurt more than he expected.
Call Lando delusional all you want.
He knew there was something between them.
Something quiet and unspoken but very real.
And if they had more time… maybe it could become something more.
Of course, maybe he was delusional.
Because he didn’t even know if Oscar was gay.
He hadn’t asked if he was single either.
The question slipped out before he could stop himself.
“Are you single?”
Oscar blinked at him.
“Am I—what?”
He glanced over with a mix of shock and amusement.
“Of course I am.”
His lips twitched.
“I don’t think my partner would like it if I disappeared for a few days with someone else.”
The word partner landed very intentionally.
Lando noticed immediately.
“So no girlfriend?” he asked, trying to sound casual, like the question meant nothing.
Oscar smirked slightly at the obvious attempt.
“Yeah,” he said calmly “And no boyfriend either.”
Lando felt heat creep up his neck.
“Okay… me too,” he said quickly.
He tried to sound casual, like it hadn’t been a loaded question at all.
“I was just checking.”
It only came out awkward.
Oscar didn’t comment.
He simply kept his eyes on the road, giving Lando the space to recover from the embarrassment. But the small smile sitting on the corner of his mouth said enough.
It wasn’t mocking.
If anything, it looked… pleased.
Lando cleared his throat and leaned back into his seat, pretending to be very interested in the passing scenery.
After a moment, Oscar spoke again.
“So,” he said, tone neutral, “you gonna post the pictures?”
Lando glanced over.
“Not sure,” he admitted. “I’d have to check with my PR first.”
Then after a second he added more honestly,
“But I don’t really feel like sharing this part of my life with the world.”
Oscar turned his head slightly.
“No?”
Lando shook his head.
“Not really.”
His voice softened.
“I want to keep it private.”
Oscar held his gaze for a brief moment before looking back at the road.
“Fair enough.”
It was the first time since they had started the trip that the road itself felt different.
The landscape had shifted.
Now the highway curved along the shoreline, the ocean appearing between stretches of trees and cliffs. Every so often the water would open up completely beside them, blue and endless under the late morning sun.
Lando reached for his phone.
At first he told himself he was just taking a picture of the view.
But when he lifted the camera, he angled it slightly.
Oscar sat behind the wheel with one arm resting lightly while the other held the steering wheel steady. Both hands returned to it occasionally as the road curved.
He was wearing sunglasses today, the dark lenses hiding his eyes.
A plain burgundy T-shirt stretched slightly across his shoulders.
Every now and then, as he adjusted the wheel, the muscles in his forearms shifted subtly under the fabric.
Lando snapped the photo quietly.
Not of the ocean.
Of Oscar driving with the coastline behind him.
Lando never wanted the moment to end.
The drive had been quiet in the best possible way—music low, the ocean occasionally flashing into view through the trees, the comfortable kind of silence that didn’t need filling.
But eventually the car slowed.
“Are we here?” Lando asked as Oscar smoothly reversed into a parking space like he’d done it a thousand times.
“Yep,” Oscar said, killing the engine.
He looked over with a small grin.
“C’mon. Your last adventure of the trip.”
Lando narrowed his eyes playfully.
“You’ll love it.”
That was all Oscar said before getting out of the car.
It wasn’t another nature hike.
Instead, Oscar led him toward a large building that looked almost like a science or technology center modern glass panels, wide walkways, and large signs out front.
Lando slowed slightly, confused, while Oscar walked ahead to the ticket booth.
The Aussie bought two tickets while Lando wandered a few steps away, reading one of the big information banners near the entrance.
Then he froze.
“Osc.”
Oscar turned, tickets in hand.
Lando was staring at the banner like it had personally offended him.
“Is it real?”
“Yes.”
Lando pointed dramatically at the sign.
“What do you mean penguins?”
He turned toward Oscar in pure disbelief.
“Penguins don’t live in Australia! They live somewhere cold. With snow and ice!”
Oscar laughed.
“Nope. They’re really real.”
He walked over and handed Lando his ticket.
“And this is their natural habitat.”
Lando’s jaw dropped.
“What?”
“Little penguins,” Oscar added casually. “Smallest penguin species in the world.”
Lando’s brain clearly short-circuited.
“Can we see them?” he asked immediately.
Then louder—
“Oscar, I want to see them!”
He sounded exactly like an excited child.
Oscar chuckled.
“That’s the whole reason we’re here.”
“Oh my goodness—hurry up!”
Lando was already walking, trying to adjust the strap of his camera as he moved.
Oscar quickly caught up.
Seeing that Lando was absolutely not watching where he was going, he placed a hand gently at the small of his back, guiding him forward so he wouldn’t walk straight into someone.
They passed through the building and out into an open viewing area.
Several small groups had gathered already, standing with guides who were explaining something quietly.
Wooden walkways stretched across sandy terrain leading toward the shoreline.
Lando looked around, scanning everything.
“Don’t we join a tour?” he asked.
Oscar glanced at him.
“Do you want to?”
Lando shook his head immediately.
“No.”
His eyes were already fixed toward the beach.
“I just wanna see penguins.”
Seeing how excited Lando was getting, Oscar decided it was safer to just guide him straight toward the beach.
Otherwise the Brit might actually sprint off on his own.
A wooden walkway led them closer to the shoreline, the air cooler here with the wind coming straight from the ocean. Small waves rolled lazily onto the sand while groups of people stood scattered along the viewing area.
Oscar kept a light hand on the middle of Lando’s back, steering him gently.
Mostly because Lando had completely stopped looking where he was going.
His attention was everywhere else.
Then suddenly—
A tiny blue-grey shape waddled out from between the rocks.
Lando froze.
Then he squeaked.
“Oscar!”
And before Oscar could even react, Lando was already moving.
He hurried down the sand and dropped into a squat a few meters away, camera instantly up to his face like it had teleported there.
Click.
Click.
Click.
He adjusted the lens frantically.
The little penguin waddled along the shore, completely unbothered by its new paparazzi.
Lando leaned forward slightly, trying to get the perfect angle.
“Oh my god,” he whispered under his breath, like he was witnessing something sacred.
Another penguin appeared further down the beach.
Then another.
Oscar stayed back near the walkway, watching.
A quiet laugh escaped him as he crossed his arms.
Lando looked completely absorbed in the moment.
Curled slightly in the sand, hair messy from the wind, camera pressed to his face as he carefully followed the tiny birds with the lens.
Oscar hadn’t originally planned on stopping here.
It had been a spontaneous decision on the drive back.
But watching Lando like this so openly happy, so excited over something as simple as penguins—
Yeah.
It had definitely been the right call.
“Come on, mister photographer,” Oscar said after a while, stepping closer. “Let’s look for more.”
He held out a hand.
Lando took it without even looking up from the penguin he’d been photographing, letting Oscar pull him back to his feet. His knees protested slightly after crouching in the sand for so long, but he barely noticed.
His eyes were still scanning the shoreline.
They started strolling slowly along the beach, keeping a respectful distance from the birds and the little burrows scattered in the sand dunes.
The place was quiet in a peaceful way.
Just the soft crash of waves, the wind moving through the grass, and the occasional small squawk from the penguins.
Every few meters Lando stopped again.
Camera up.
Click.
Click.
He crouched beside a wooden barrier, trying to capture a penguin waddling toward the water.
“Osc, look at him,” he whispered dramatically.
Oscar leaned slightly over his shoulder.
“He’s just walking.”
“He’s waddling,” Lando corrected with deep seriousness.
“That’s different.”
Oscar chuckled softly.
They wandered further along the path where the sand turned into low grassy dunes.
That’s when Lando suddenly gasped.
“It’s so tiny!”
He pointed excitedly toward a small burrow near the grass.
“A baby!”
Oscar leaned closer to look.
A tiny chick sat just inside the entrance, fluffy and grey, blinking slowly at the outside world while one of the adult penguins stood nearby.
Lando dropped into another squat instantly.
“Oh my god,” he whispered like he’d just discovered treasure.
His camera clicked rapidly.
“Look at it,” he muttered. “It’s literally a puffball.”
The baby penguin shuffled slightly deeper into the burrow.
Lando groaned quietly.
“No, don’t go.”
Oscar stood beside him with his hands in his pockets, watching with quiet amusement.
“You’ve taken about two hundred photos already.”
“Each one is important,” Lando defended without even looking up.
Oscar tilted his head slightly, studying him instead of the penguins now.
The wind was messing up Lando’s curls again, pushing them across his forehead while he focused entirely on the camera screen.
He looked… happy.
Not the polished, public kind of happy.
Just real.
Relaxed.
Eventually Lando stood again, brushing sand off his jeans.
They kept walking.
More penguins appeared along the shore—some waddling toward the water, others resting in the grass, a few gathered in small groups like they were having serious little meetings.
At one point Lando stopped again, lowering the camera slowly.
“I can’t believe they’re just… here,” he said quietly.
“Yeah.”
Oscar glanced out at the ocean.
“They come back every evening.”
Lando looked at him.
“You knew about this the whole time?”
Oscar shrugged slightly.
“Thought you might like it.”
Lando stared at him for a second.
Then a slow smile spread across his face.
“You’re ridiculous, you know that?”
Oscar raised an eyebrow.
“How so?”
“You keep casually showing me the coolest things in the world like it’s nothing.”
Oscar looked back toward the penguins.
“They’re just penguins.”
Lando laughed softly.
“They’re penguins, Osc.”
He lifted his camera again.
Click.
And this time the photo wasn’t of a penguin.
It was of Oscar standing there with the ocean behind him, the wind tugging slightly at his burgundy shirt while a small penguin waddled across the sand a few meters away.
“I’m moving here,” Lando announced as they walked back toward the car, a bright, satisfied smile still plastered across his face.
Oscar glanced at him.
“Yeah?”
“Yeah,” Lando nodded decisively, gesturing vaguely toward the coastline behind them. “When I retire, I’ll buy a small house near the beach.”
He seemed to picture it in real time as he spoke.
“I’ll wake up, drink tea on the porch, and then go watch koalas and penguins all day.”
Oscar watched him, his expression mostly neutral, but there was something softer in his eyes.
“Sounds like a solid retirement plan.”
“It is!” Lando said immediately. “And if I start missing racing too much, I’ll just race with you.”
Oscar chuckled at that.
The image of a retired Formula 1 driver casually showing up to race with him somewhere was ridiculous.
But the way Lando said it so matter-of-fact, so certain—made it sound almost believable.
They reached the car, slowing their steps.
Oscar unlocked it but didn’t get in right away.
Instead he leaned lightly against the door, watching Lando for a moment while the Brit kept talking about beaches and wildlife like he was already planning the next thirty years of his life.
It was absurd how much this man had managed to shift things in just a few days.
Oscar had never really thought of himself as someone who would get swept up in something like this.
He’d always been focused on practical things.
School.
Work.
Building his business.
Helping his family when they needed it.
Racing when he could.
Everything in his life had always followed a plan, or at least something close to one.
Relationships had always felt like something for later.
Not unimportant but not something he’d built his life around either.
Of course he wanted a partner someday. Maybe even a family.
But those thoughts usually sat somewhere far in the future.
He’d never expected to meet someone like Lando in the middle of everything.
And it wasn’t just the obvious part—that he was famous, that his life was chaotic and public and constantly moving.
It was the way Lando was so different from him, yet somehow still easy to understand.
Loud where Oscar was quiet.
Had everything put together where Oscar liked to be impulsive.
Open in ways Oscar rarely allowed himself to be.
And yet, despite all of that, the past few days had felt strangely natural.
Easy.
Like they had slipped into a rhythm neither of them had expected.
Oscar pushed himself off the car door and tossed the car keys toward Lando.
Lando caught them midair with an automatic reflex.
“Prove your driving skills, Mr. Norris,” Oscar said as he opened the passenger door. “Gotta see what I’ll be competing with.”
If Lando’s smile could have gotten any bigger, it would have.
He slid into the driver’s seat immediately, like he was worried Oscar might suddenly change his mind and take it back. His hands moved quickly over everything—adjusting the mirrors, shifting the seat slightly, pulling the steering wheel closer.
Oscar watched the whole routine with quiet amusement as he got comfortable in the passenger seat.
Lando connected his phone and waited.
Oscar leaned over slightly and typed an address into the navigation before leaning back again.
And just like that, they were on the road for the last stretch of the trip.
At least… the last one they had planned.
For the first few minutes, Lando drove with almost comical concentration. His shoulders were tense, hands perfectly placed on the wheel, eyes focused so hard on the road it looked like he was trying to solve a complex puzzle.
Oscar watched him for a moment.
Then he smirked.
“Are you always this stiff when you drive?”
Lando glanced at him.
“Fuck off,” he muttered immediately. “It’s stressful.”
Oscar raised an eyebrow.
“Stressful?”
“I’m trying to impress you here,” Lando shot back.
That made Oscar laugh.
He leaned back in the seat, crossing his arms comfortably.
“Lan, relax,” he said. “I know you’re a good driver.”
The words seemed to take some of the pressure off immediately.
Lando’s shoulders loosened slightly, his grip on the wheel relaxing as the car settled into an easy rhythm on the highway.
For a while they drove in comfortable quiet again.
The kind that didn’t need filling.
Just the low hum of the engine, the road stretching ahead of them, the occasional glance—nothing forced, nothing heavy.
Then Oscar spoke.
Almost casually, like it wasn’t something he’d been thinking about.
“I’ve only been to Phillip Island once before.”
Lando glanced at him.
“That’s it?”
Oscar nodded slightly, eyes still on the road.
“When I was little. Family trip.”
A small pause.
“I don’t even remember it properly,” he added. “Not sure if my youngest sister was even born yet.”
Lando turned more fully toward him, brows lifting in exaggerated disbelief.
“That’s actually tragic.”
Oscar huffed a quiet laugh.
“Is it?”
“Yeah,” Lando said firmly. “No wonder you’re so grumpy all the time.”
Oscar turned his head slowly, giving him a look.
“Oh, here we go.”
“You lack tiny penguins in your life,” Lando finished, completely serious.
There was a beat.
Then Oscar shook his head, a soft laugh slipping out.
“That must be it.”
And just like that, the last bit of tension melted out of Lando’s body.
Easy again.
Light again.
The drive toward Melbourne didn’t feel long after that.
Lando slowed as they turned into a quieter residential street lined with apartment blocks.
But the GPS told him to keep going.
He frowned slightly, following it anyway.
The drive didn’t take much longer barely ten minutes before they pulled up in front of a low industrial building.
It was unmistakably a workshop.
Wide garage doors stood open, the sound of tools and low conversation spilling out into the street. Inside, there was movement—people working, cars half-taken apart, the smell of oil faint even from outside.
“Here,” Oscar said, pointing casually.
Lando glanced at him, confused.
“That’s not your building.”
Oscar didn’t answer.
Lando didn’t push—just pulled up toward an empty spot near the curb and attempted to parallel park.
Attempted being the key word.
The Audi ended up slightly crooked, the front wheel just brushing the curb.
Oscar looked at it for a moment.
Then he sighed.
But he didn’t say anything.
Instead he just unbuckled his seatbelt and stepped out.
“I’ll pretend I didn’t see that,” he muttered under his breath.
Lando snorted, climbing out after him.
Oscar grabbed their bags from the back while Lando stretched his arms over his head, back cracking slightly after the drive.
“So,” he said, glancing at the building again, curiosity creeping back in, “is it your shop?”
“Yup.”
Lando adjusted his cap slightly instinctively keeping his head down just a little as he followed Oscar in.
“Hey, Noah,” Oscar called out, voice carrying easily over the noise. “Where’s the Senna?”
A guy working under the hood of a BMW looked up, wiping his hands on a cloth before walking over.
“Well, look who showed up,” he said, breaking into a grin as he reached Oscar and pulled him into a quick, easy hug. “Piastri.”
“Did you get bored of the supercar and went racing with your Audi?” he added, stepping back.
Oscar huffed a quiet laugh.
“Been busy.”
Lando watched the exchange quietly.
It was… different.
He’d seen Oscar around people before, sure but never like this.
Here, he was relaxed. Open. Completely at ease in a way Lando hadn’t quite seen before. There was no hesitation, no carefulness in how he carried himself.
This was his space.
“And who’s that?” the guy—Noah—asked, his attention shifting to Lando.
Lando straightened slightly under the look, instinctively adjusting his posture.
“My friend, Lan,” Oscar said, stepping just a fraction forward.
It was subtle.
But enough.
Enough to put himself between Lando and the rest of the space.
A small, instinctive barrier.
It was sweet—protective, making sure he wouldn’t get recognised.
But there was something else there too.
Something in the way Oscar held himself.
In the way his shoulders squared just a bit.
Something that felt… almost possessive.
Lando felt it before he fully registered it.
And for a second, it made his chest tighten in a way he didn’t quite want to examine too closely.
“Chill, boss.” The mechanic put his hands up in a defensive gesture. “It’s in the back, didn’t have space here.”
“Don’t call me that,” Oscar rolled his eyes, already turning away and without really thinking about it, he grabbed Lando’s wrist and pulled him further into the shop.
Lando followed easily.
The place was spacious way bigger than it looked from the outside. Everything was organised, almost too organised for a workshop. Tools lined up neatly on shelves, tires stacked in one corner, three car lifts taking up the main floor. It had that mix of chaos and control that only came from people who actually knew what they were doing.
Oscar led him through a back door, and they stepped out into a parking lot.
There were a few more cars scattered around—but Lando’s attention locked immediately on one.
A bright, almost blinding fluorescent yellow Aventador.
“Woah,” he breathed, slipping out of Oscar’s hold without even noticing. “That’s sick.”
He moved closer, eyes scanning every detail.
“Is it one of your projects?”
“No,” Oscar said simply. “It’s the company car.”
Lando turned to him, completely thrown off.
“The—what?”
Oscar scratched the back of his neck, suddenly looking a bit less composed.
“I’ll tell you about it some other time,” he said, brushing it off a little too quickly.
Too quick.
Too casual.
He was dodging.
And Lando noticed.
So he let it go.
They made their over to the McLaren instead.
It was unfair—honestly.
The way Oscar fit into that car like it was made for him. Like he belonged there, like he always had. Effortless. Natural.
Lando found himself staring a second too long.
He could picture it too easily—Oscar stepping out of a race car, helmet tucked under his arm, hair flattened in that specific way after hours under it. The faint lines from the balaclava pressed into his skin. Fireproofs hanging slightly loose at the waist, sleeves tied. Shoulders broad, posture steady, like the adrenaline hadn’t fully left his body yet.
It was ridiculous how clear it was in his head.
How right it looked.
And that was… slightly concerning.
Lando didn’t even notice when the car stopped again.
They headed toward the building entrance together.
“So,” Lando said as they stepped inside and started toward the stairs, “what’s for dinner?”
Oscar glanced back at him.
“What do you feel like?”
“Something unhealthy,” Lando answered immediately. “I’ve earned it.”
Oscar chuckled.
“Yeah, you really suffered today. Penguins must’ve been exhausting.”
“They were emotionally overwhelming,” Lando defended as they climbed the stairs.
Oscar unlocked the apartment door.
Lando kicked his shoes off the moment they stepped inside, barely making it two steps into the apartment before launching himself onto the couch.
Oscar paused near the door, watching him.
The way Lando made himself comfortable in his space so naturally was… oddly nice.
No hesitation. No awkwardness.
Just immediately at home.
“Alright,” Oscar said after a moment, setting their bags down. “We can have burgers.”
Lando perked up instantly.
“But,” Oscar continued calmly, pulling his phone out, “we’re ordering from Grill’d.”
Lando nodded approvingly.
“That’s acceptable.”
Oscar huffed a quiet laugh and placed the order while Lando scrolled aimlessly through his phone, legs stretched out across the couch.
For a moment, everything felt normal again.
Easy.
Then—
“They want me for a meeting before media tomorrow,” Lando said, quieter this time, eyes still on his screen. “I need to be at the hotel in two hours.”
Oscar looked at him, a small smile on his lips but his eyes gave him away.
“C’mon,” he said after a second, voice steady. “You need to pack.”
Lando nodded, pushing himself up.
He moved slower than before.
Deliberate.
Like if he took his time, it wouldn’t come to an end so quickly.
They packed in that same quiet rhythm they’d fallen into over the past few days passing things without asking, folding, zipping bags, moving around each other without getting in the way.
Neither of them said it out loud.
But they were both dragging it out.
The burgers arrived before they were fully done.
They didn’t bother with plates—just took the bags to the couch, sitting close enough that their knees brushed every now and then.
Neither of them moved away.
They ate in silence.
Not uncomfortable.
Just… full.
Of something neither of them quite knew how to name.
And every now and then, their eyes would meet for a second too long before one of them looked away again.
Food finished, packing finished.
Lando glanced around the flat more than once.
Trying to memorise it.
The couch he claimed within seconds. The kitchen counter they leaned against half-asleep in the mornings. The way the light came in through the windows.
Hoping it wouldn’t be the last time.
Oscar took his bags down to the car, somehow managing to fit everything into the small trunk, shifting things around with quiet focus until it all worked.
Neither of them commented on it.
There wasn’t much left to say.
The drive to the Hilton passed too quickly.
The city blurred past the windows—traffic lights, people, buildings none of it really sticking.
And when the car finally stopped in the parking lot—
Neither of them moved.
Not right away.
The engine was off, but neither of them reached for the door.
The city hummed outside, distant and loud, but inside the car it felt strangely still.
Like time had slowed down just for them.
Lando swallowed.
“Do you want to come to the race?” he asked finally, voice quieter than usual, like he wasn’t sure he should be asking at all.
Oscar turned his head.
Looked at him properly.
Held his gaze for a long moment.
And for a second, it almost felt like he might say yes.
Then he sighed, soft, almost reluctant.
“I don’t think it’s a good idea, Lan.”
And he was right.
Of course he was.
If Oscar showed up in the paddock—as his guest—people would notice. They’d ask questions. They’d start connecting things that weren’t meant to be connected.
It wouldn’t stay private.
And this—whatever this was—felt too important to risk like that.
It wasn’t just about Lando.
It was about Oscar too.
His privacy. His safety.
“Okay,” Lando said quietly.
He didn’t argue.
Didn’t push.
They got out of the car slower than they should have.
Oscar pulled the bags from the trunk, setting them down beside him but instead of stepping back, he lingered.
Just for a second.
Like he was thinking.
Then he reached forward.
And pulled Lando into a hug.
Lando didn’t hesitate.
Didn’t think.
He just stepped in, arms wrapping around Oscar like it was the most natural thing in the world, face pressing into his chest.
Holding on.
Maybe a bit tighter than he should have.
He breathed in, slow and deep, like he could keep a piece of this with him if he tried hard enough.
Oscar’s arms tightened around him in return.
Steady.
Grounding.
“Call me if you have time, yeah?” he said softly, his voice close, almost lost in the space between them.
“Yeah,” Lando answered, barely above a whisper.
He didn’t trust his voice much more than that.
Neither of them moved.
Not yet.
Like letting go would make it real.
Like this would actually end.
And then—
Oscar shifted just slightly.
One hand coming up, almost hesitant, before settling in Lando’s hair.
He leaned down.
Pressed a soft kiss into his curls.
It was quick.
Barely there.
But it said too much.
And Lando felt something in his chest crack open a little at the edges.
He tightened his grip for just a second then forced himself to let go. Because if he didn’t, he wasn’t sure he would at all.
Notes:
I hope nobody cried because I did way too much of that while writing and editing it.
🫲 don’t worry I’ll hold your hand.
Chapter 9: Losing grip
Notes:
Someone stop me at this point because whaaaat 😭
Tell me that just updating it all at once is a bad idea I’m begging.
At least today is actually update day 🫶
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
From the moment Lando opened his eyes, everything felt wrong.
The hotel sheets were too cold. Too crisp.
The air smelled too clean, like nothing had ever actually happened in that room.
Even the quiet felt different—empty instead of peaceful.
And the absence of Oscar—
It was everywhere.
Lando pressed his face into the pillow for a second, eyes squeezing shut like that might fix it somehow.
It didn’t.
He exhaled sharply and pushed himself up, already annoyed.
At everything.
At the team for dragging him back early for a meeting that easily could’ve been an email.
At Jon for scheduling a workout later when his entire body still ached from surfing, muscles sore in places he didn’t even know existed.
At himself for choosing a career that meant this. That meant leaving.
On normal days, Lando didn’t mind media.
He wasn’t one of the drivers who openly complained about it. He could do the smiles, the answers, the same recycled questions over and over again.
But today—
Today the idea of standing there, pretending, felt exhausting.
He’d rather stay in bed.
Stay exactly where he was and ignore the world for a few more hours.
But that wasn’t an option.
It never was.
He didn’t even have time to think about it.
From the moment he woke up, everything moved too fast—messages from the team, reminders, timings. He rushed through the routine like muscle memory, barely present in it.
Shower.
Hair.
Outfit.
Back to being Lando Norris.
Not just Lan.
He stood in front of the mirror longer than usual, fingers running through his curls, adjusting them until they sat just right. Fixing small details no one else would notice.
Because if he looked perfect—
Maybe he’d feel a bit more put together too.
He didn’t.
His phone buzzed again somewhere on the counter.
Another reminder.
Another thing he had to do.
Lando ignored it for a second longer, leaning his hands against the sink, head dipped slightly.
He hadn’t texted Oscar.
Not properly.
Not since they said goodbye.
There just… hadn’t been time.
And now it felt too late to send something simple.
Hey.
As if that would cover everything he wanted to say.
He swallowed, pushing the thought away before it could settle too deep.
Instead, he stepped back, grabbing his sneakers and pulling them on with a small grimace.
Clean.
Perfect.
Untouched.
Nothing like the ones he’d been wearing the past few days.
He reached for his camera next.
Paused for a second.
Then took the strap off, wrapping it around the body instead before picking it up.
More for the look.
More controlled.
Like everything else.
But really—
He knew why he was taking it.
Because if it got too much—
If the noise, the people, the questions started getting to him—
He could always scroll back through the photos.
Through the waterfall.
The koalas.
The beach.
Oscar.
Over and over again.
Like proof it actually happened.
Like something he could hold onto—just a little longer.
The ride to the paddock was already exhausting.
Lando barely had time to look out the window before his PR manager started running through talking points again—race expectations, team goals, safe answers to predictable questions.
“Keep it positive.”
“Don’t speculate.”
“Smile more when you answer that one.”
He nodded at the right moments, humming out half-acknowledgements, but none of it really stuck.
His mind was somewhere else entirely.
By the time the car pulled up, he already felt drained.
And then came the walk through the paddock.
Cameras.
Flashes.
Voices calling his name from every direction.
Even through his sunglasses, the lights felt too bright, too sharp, hitting him from every angle. He lifted a hand in a practiced wave, smiling automatically, the expression settling onto his face like something rehearsed.
It didn’t reach his eyes.
But it didn’t have to.
It was convincing enough.
“It’s good to be back,” he heard himself say to someone on his left.
“Yeah, feeling refreshed,” to another.
Lie.
Lie.
Lie.
But it was fine.
This was part of it.
He barely had time to greet anyone properly before he was ushered inside, a hand lightly guiding him toward the motorhome.
“Quick change, then straight to media,” someone said.
Of course.
He swapped his clothes for team kit in record time, fingers moving automatically zip, collar, sleeves, watch checking himself once in the mirror before stepping back out.
Back into it.
Another interview.
Then another.
And another.
Different faces, same questions.
“How was the break?”
“Feeling confident for the weekend?”
“What are your expectations?”
Lando answered smoothly, voice steady, smile in place. He leaned into the rhythm of it, letting it carry him, letting it take over so he didn’t have to think too much.
Because thinking—
That would make it harder.
It was easier like this.
Just be the version of himself everyone expected.
Just keep going.
It was fine.
He just needed to get back into it.
Find the flow again after the break.
Focus.
After what felt like the millionth interview, he was finally given a few minutes.
A break.
Not long—but enough.
He slipped away from the cameras, shoulders dropping just slightly the second he was out of direct view. The noise dulled a bit in the background, replaced by the quieter hum of the paddock behind the scenes.
“Mate, you look dead.”
Lando looked up.
Carlos.
He let out a small, real laugh for the first time that day.
“Thanks,” he said dryly. “Nice to see you too.”
Carlos stepped closer, giving him a quick side hug, studying him for a second longer than usual.
“Seriously,” he added, quieter now. “You okay?”
Lando shrugged, leaning back against the wall behind him.
“Just tired. Long few days.”
Not a lie.
Just not the whole truth.
Carlos hummed like he didn’t fully buy it—but didn’t push.
“Where did you disappear to, anyway?” he asked instead. “You went completely off-grid.”
Lando’s lips twitched slightly.
“It’s a long story,” he said simply.
“Yeah?” Carlos raised a brow. “Will you finally make time for an old friend and tell me about it?”
And for a split second—
Lando hesitated.
Just a second too long.
Then he shrugged it off.
“Sure,” he said, tone casual, like it didn’t matter.
Carlos nodded slowly, a small smirk forming.
“Must’ve been a good trip.”
Lando looked away for a moment, eyes flicking down to the camera still in his hand.
“Yeah,” he said quietly “It was.”
Before anything else could be said, someone called Carlos’ name from across the paddock.
“Duty calls,” Carlos sighed, clapping Lando lightly on the shoulder. “Try not to die before FP1, yeah? Call me later!”
“I’ll do my best,” Lando shot back.
Carlos grinned and disappeared just as quickly as he came.
And just like that—
Lando was alone again.
Only this time, the noise started creeping back in.
And his break—
Was already over.
By the time Lando was finally allowed to go back to his drivers’ room, he felt like he’d just come back from a war.
His head was pounding faintly, his cheeks sore from smiling, his voice tired from repeating the same answers over and over again.
Media day.
Always the worst.
The same questions about the break.
About the car.
About whether this would finally be the year.
He dropped his bag near the door and exhaled, rolling his shoulders as if he could physically shake the day off.
All he wanted was his bed.
Silence.
Five minutes where no one expected anything from him.
But of course the day wasn’t over.
Not even close.
This was just the official part.
With a quiet groan, he let himself fall onto the small couch in the corner, already sinking into it, eyes half-closing—
And then he shot right back up.
“What the—”
Right there.
On the cushion next to him.
Something.
Not just something.
Something alive.
Something with way too many legs.
Lando froze for half a second, staring at it like if he didn’t move, it might not notice him.
It moved.
He yelped, scrambling back off the couch so fast he nearly tripped over his own feet.
“Nope. Nope, absolutely not.”
His brain, already fried from the day, went straight into panic mode and without thinking, he grabbed his phone and hit the only contact that felt right.
It barely rang.
“Lan?”
Relief hit instantly.
“Oscar!” Lando blurted, voice somewhere between distressed and offended. “There’s something on my couch!”
A pause.
“Lando, are you okay?”
“No!” he snapped. “Osc, it has so many legs—and there’s this weird thing on its back—it’s an abomination!”
On the other end, he could hear movement—something clattering, like Oscar had immediately gotten up.
“Show me,” Oscar said, a hint of a smile already in his voice.
Lando didn’t hesitate. He switched to video call instantly, keeping as much distance as possible as he zoomed in on the creature like he was documenting evidence.
“There. Look at it. Look at that thing.”
Oscar leaned closer to his screen.
And then—
He laughed.
Actually laughed.
“Lan,” he said, clearly amused, “it’s just an Arachnura.”
“A what?” Lando demanded.
“A scorpion-tailed spider,” Oscar repeated, still smiling. “They’re harmless.”
“A what-tailed spider?!” Lando’s voice pitched higher. “That’s not better! That’s significantly worse, actually!”
He gestured wildly toward the couch, keeping a safe distance like it might launch itself at him.
“This is ridiculous! I’ve been in forests, I’ve been on beaches—nothing! Not a single spider! And the moment I come back to civilisation, this thing appears?”
He pointed accusingly at it.
“Someone is after me.”
Oscar’s laughter softened into something warmer, fond almost, as he watched him spiral.
“Lan, calm down,” he said gently. “I promise it’s more afraid of you than you are of it.”
“That’s simply not true,” Lando muttered.
“It is,” Oscar insisted. “Also—there were definitely spiders before.”
“No, there weren’t.”
“You just didn’t notice them,” Oscar said, far too calmly.
Lando blinked.
“…I hate that information.”
Oscar grinned on the other end of the call.
“Do you want me to guide you through removing it, or are you planning to abandon the room entirely?”
Lando glanced at the couch.
Then back at the screen.
“…How attached am I to this room, really?”
“Lan.” Oscar’s voice came through the speaker, low and warning—just on the edge of amused.
“Nope,” Lando cut him off immediately. “I’m not touching that. Absolutely not. I’ll find someone else to deal with it.”
He was already moving, backing toward the door like the thing might suddenly gain speed and chase him.
“Lando, I promise it’s not going to attack you—” Oscar tried again.
Too late.
Lando was out.
He slipped into the motorhome corridor, walking fast too fast to look normal, but not quite running either. His phone was still in his hand, camera pointed vaguely downward now, Oscar’s presence a constant in the background.
He scanned the area, eyes flicking from one papaya shirt to another.
Anyone.
Mechanic. Engineer. Random driver.
Someone braver than him.
Daniel would be perfect, his brain supplied helpfully. He’s Australian. This is probably, like, a daily inconvenience for him.
“What got you in a hurry?”
Lando nearly walked straight into someone.
He flinched, stopping abruptly, lowering his phone just enough to see—
Pato.
Of course.
Lando angled the phone away instinctively, shielding the screen like it held classified information, before looking up at his teammate.
“Have you seen Jon? Or maybe Will? Anyone?” he asked quickly, a bit too quickly.
Pato blinked at him.
“…Are you alright, man?”
“Yes,” Lando said immediately.
Too immediately.
“Completely fine.”
From his phone, faint but very much audible—
“Lando.”
He froze.
Pato’s eyes flicked down toward the phone.
Lando didn’t even hesitate.
“Never mind,” he said, already stepping back. “All good. Solved it.”
“Uh… okay?” Pato frowned, clearly unconvinced.
Lando didn’t wait for more questions. He turned on his heel and walked back the way he came, pace just as quick as before.
Nope.
Absolutely not explaining that.
He was not about to admit he’d had a full meltdown over a spider. Pato would never let that go.
He slipped back into his drivers’ room and shut the door behind him with a quiet click, exhaling like he’d just escaped something far more serious.
“New plan,” he announced, walking back toward the couch but keeping a very safe distance. “I change as quickly as possible, and you watch it so it doesn’t move.”
“Lan—”
“No, no,” Lando cut in, already setting his phone down.
He propped it carefully against a water bottle on the small table, adjusting the angle with unnecessary precision until the camera had a perfect, uninterrupted view of the spider.
“There,” he said, stepping back like he’d set up surveillance equipment. “You have eyes on it.”
Oscar’s quiet laughter filled the room.
“You’re ridiculous.”
“There is a live threat in this room,” Lando shot back, already grabbing his clothes. “I’m being cautious.”
“Mmhm.”
Keeping one eye firmly on the couch and by extension, the spider—Lando moved quickly, changing like he was in some kind of timed challenge. Shirt off, new one on, movements rushed and slightly uncoordinated as he tried not to turn his back fully on the creature.
“Still there?” he asked, not even trying to hide the edge in his voice.
Oscar leaned closer to the camera on his end, playing along.
“Yep. Hasn’t moved.”
“Good,” Lando muttered. “It knows I’m watching.”
Oscar huffed a laugh.
“I don’t think that’s how it works.”
“Well, it should,” Lando shot back, dragging his sweater over his head and immediately glancing back toward the couch again.
Still there.
Still awful.
Still absolutely not his problem to solve directly.
He stepped back toward the table, grabbing his phone again but keeping it angled toward the spider.
“…What if it jumps?” he asked, quieter now.
“Lan,” Oscar said, softer this time, the amusement easing just a little. “It’s not going to jump you.”
Lando didn’t look convinced.
“…You better be right.”
There was a knock on the door that made Lando jump out of his skin.
“Lando, are you ready?” his manager’s voice came from the other side.
Lando shot one last suspicious glance at the couch—at it—before quickly switching the call from video to voice.
“Coming!” he called out, already moving.
He didn’t waste another second.
The door was open and he was out in the corridor almost immediately, phone pressed to his ear like a lifeline.
“There’s a big spider in there,” he complained the second he saw Mark. “Get rid of it, please.”
Mark looked at him for a moment really looked at him.
At the slightly wild eyes.
The genuine distress.
And then, despite himself, he looked amused.
“…Right,” he said slowly. “I’ll send someone later.”
“But Mark—” Lando started, horrified at the idea of that thing being left unattended.
“It won’t be there tomorrow, alright?” Mark cut in, already turning to walk. “I’ll have the whole room checked if I have to.”
He glanced back at him.
“Now come on. Time’s running.”
Lando hesitated for a second longer, clearly not satisfied—but he followed anyway, shoulders tense.
“Osc, you still there?” he asked into the phone as they walked.
“Crisis managed?” Oscar’s voice came through, light, a quiet laugh behind it.
Lando made a face, even though he couldn’t see it.
“Kinda,” he admitted. Then, with a small wince, “But if it’s back there tomorrow, I’m burning the whole thing down.”
He said it just loud enough for both Oscar and Mark to hear.
Mark snorted under his breath.
Oscar, on the other end, just laughed properly this time.
“I’m sure the team will appreciate that.”
Lando huffed but didn’t argue.
They reached the car, and Lando slid into the seat, still holding his phone close as if putting it away would somehow make everything worse.
“Are you finally free today?” Oscar asked then, more casually—but there was something under it. Something hopeful.
Lando’s expression softened for a second.
“I wish,” he said, leaning his head back against the seat. “I’ve got team dinner now, and then another session with Jon.”
A small pause.
“Oh.”
The disappointment in Oscar’s voice wasn’t loud.
But it was there.
And Lando heard it.
“Yeah,” he exhaled, glancing out the window as the car started moving. “And I’m still so sore, Osc.”
He let out a quiet groan, dragging a hand over his face.
“I think you actually broke me.”
That earned him a brief look from Mark, who raised a brow like he very much wanted context—but Lando just waved him off.
On the other end, Oscar’s voice softened again.
“You’ll be fine, Lan.”
Lando hummed quietly, not entirely convinced.
But he didn’t argue.
Because somehow—
Hearing it from him made it feel a little more true.
Their conversation didn’t last much longer.
“Lan—” Oscar started, like he wanted to say something else.
But before he could, Mark was already gesturing for him to get out of the car.
“We’re here.”
“I gotta go,” Lando said quickly, sitting up.
“Yeah,” Oscar replied, softer now. “Good luck.”
“Thanks,” Lando murmured.
There was a beat.
Like neither of them really wanted to hang up first.
Then—
“Text me later?” Oscar added.
“Yeah. I will.”
And then the line went quiet.
The team dinner was already in full swing when Lando walked in.
Voices overlapping, laughter bouncing off the walls, the whole room buzzing with that specific kind of energy that only came with the start of a new season. Everyone was talking at once—engineers, mechanics, management—all of them excited, hopeful, already looking ahead.
It should’ve pulled him in.
Usually it did.
But tonight—
Lando smiled when he had to. Nodded at the right moments. Laughed when something was clearly meant to be funny.
But his mind wasn’t there.
It kept drifting.
Back to quiet roads.
To salty air and warm evenings.
To someone who didn’t expect anything from him except to just be there.
He picked at his food more than he actually ate.
Someone asked him a question something about testing—and he answered automatically, words coming out smooth, practiced.
Easy.
Too easy.
Because this part of him—
This version of Lando—
He knew by heart.
Another meeting after.
More talking.
More planning.
More expectations laid out in careful sentences.
And then training.
Jon didn’t go easy on him.
Of course he didn’t.
Lando pushed through it, jaw tight, muscles protesting with every movement. His body still hadn’t fully recovered from the surfing, from the running, from everything stacked on top of everything else.
But he didn’t say anything.
Didn’t complain.
Didn’t slow down.
Because this—
This was normal.
This was what he signed up for.
By the time he was finally done, his whole body ached in that deep, exhausting way that settled into his bones.
And still—
He told himself he was fine.
All day, he told himself that.
You’re fine.
This is normal.
You’ve done this a hundred times before.
Tomorrow he’d be back in the car.
Back where everything made sense.
Where the noise in his head quieted.
Where he didn’t have to think about anything except braking points and racing lines and instinct.
That’s all he needed.
Really.
Just the track—
And a way to let everything else out.
He was right.
The moment first practice ended, something in him clicked back into place.
The noise quieted.
The tension eased.
Everything that had felt heavy the day before suddenly… didn’t.
The car felt incredible beneath him—responsive, sharp, like it was doing exactly what he wanted before he even fully committed to it. Lap after lap, he pushed, finding the limits, brushing right up against them without tipping over.
And when he crossed the line—
Fastest.
The word alone sent a rush through him.
By the time he climbed out of the car, helmet off, hair flattened and messy, he was buzzing. Adrenaline still high in his veins, a grin he didn’t even try to hide pulling at his lips.
This was him.
He answered questions with an ease that hadn’t been there yesterday. Smiling actually smiling this time, not the practiced version. Letting the excitement bleed into his voice as he talked through the session, through how the car felt, through where they could still improve.
Hands clapped against his back as he walked through the garage.
“Nice one.”
“Good pace out there.”
He took it all in, nodding, laughing, feeding off the energy instead of forcing it.
Then it was straight into debrief.
Head down, focused again—going through data with the engineers, replaying corners, discussing adjustments, already thinking about what they could squeeze out next session.
Always more.
Always better.
Only when they were finally done did someone wave him off.
“Take five.”
Lando didn’t need to be told twice.
He made his way back to his drivers’ room, shutting the door behind him before dropping straight onto the couch with a quiet exhale.
For a second, he just lay there.
Staring at the ceiling.
Breathing.
Yesterday’s spider—completely forgotten.
Everything else—pushed to the side.
He felt… good.
Really good.
After a moment, he reached for his phone without even thinking about it, already hitting call.
It barely rang.
“Were you watching?” he asked the second Oscar picked up, not even bothering with a greeting.
A soft chuckle came through the speaker.
“Yes,” Oscar said. “You did good.”
Lando scoffed, pushing himself up slightly on one elbow.
“Good?” he repeated, offended in a way that was entirely fake. “I was amazing.”
He could practically hear the smile on the other end.
“Fastest,” Oscar admitted. “Not bad.”
“Not bad?” Lando echoed, grinning now. “Say it properly.”
There was a small pause.
Then—
“You were really good, Lan.”
Something about the way he said it easy, genuine landed differently than all the congratulations before.
Lando leaned back against the couch again, smile softening just slightly.
“Yeah,” he said quietly. “I was.”
“What are you up to, Osc? Still in Melbourne or did you already leave for your next adventure?”
Lando tried to keep it light, casual—like it didn’t matter either way.
But there was something under it.
Something tighter.
Because he’d learned enough by now to know Oscar didn’t really stay in one place unless he had to.
There was a quiet on the other end of the line, just for a second.
“Nope, I’m at the garage actually,” Oscar said. “Figured I’d pick some work up since I’m here for a while.”
“Oh.” Lando said a bit surprised “so no new trip?”
“I mean I’ll probably go somewhere next week.” He said as a matter of fact “but I’ll stay until the end of the gp at least.”
“Why?” The question slipped out before Lando could stop it.
There was a small shift on the other end—background noise, something metallic, like tools being set down.
“I was hoping to get lucky and meet a driver,” Oscar said lightly.
Lando could hear the smirk.
“I mean,” he continued, just as casual, “who wouldn’t like to meet Max Verstappen?”
“Oi!” Lando shot back immediately, pushing himself upright on the couch.
“That’s your big plan? Stick around and hope Max notices you?” he scoffed, offended in a way that was entirely real now.
Oscar chuckled.
“Worth a shot.”
“Unbelievable,” Lando muttered, shaking his head even though he was smiling. “I thought we had something special.”
“Yeah?” Oscar played along easily. “Didn’t realise I was competing with you.”
“You’re not,” Lando said quickly. “You’ve already lost.”
That earned him a proper laugh.
“Harsh.”
“Accurate,” Lando corrected, leaning back again, more relaxed now. “I take you on the best trip of your life and this is how you repay me? Chasing after Max?”
“You took me?” Oscar echoed.
“Details,” Lando waved it off. “Irrelevant.”
There was a pause—comfortable this time.
Then, softer, but still teasing—
“Pretty sure I stayed for someone else anyway.”
Lando’s breath caught for half a second.
“Yeah?” he asked, quieter now despite himself.
“Yeah.”
It wasn’t said as a joke this time.
And Lando didn’t try to turn it into one either.
“…Good,” he murmured, a small smile tugging at his lips.
The conversation didn’t last much longer.
“Lando, we need you,” his PR manager called from the door, already halfway inside.
Lando closed his eyes briefly.
Of course.
“Gotta go,” he said into the phone, already pushing himself up.
“Yeah,” Oscar replied. “Go be famous.”
“Shut up,” Lando muttered, but there was no real bite to it. “I’ll text you later.”
“I’ll be waiting.”
And just like that—
It ended.
Again.
—
Filming went… fine.
That was the best word for it.
Lando stood under bright lights, camera pointed straight at him, repeating lines that were meant to sound natural. Laughing when he was supposed to laugh. Reacting when he was supposed to react.
Pato stood beside him, relaxed, easy smile on his face.
He was pleased—of course he was.
P4 was a strong result, especially in his third year. Solid. Impressive.
And Lando was happy for him.
Genuinely.
But whatever chemistry they tried to capture on camera felt just a little off.
Not bad.
Just… not real.
They weren’t enemies. There was no tension, no underlying conflict.
But they weren’t close either.
Not like that.
Just teammates.
Professional.
Polite.
Careful.
Lando played his part perfectly anyway.
He always did.
—
But the good mood didn’t last.
It never really did.
By the time the next session rolled around, the track had changed. Grip slightly different. Conditions shifting just enough to matter.
And this time—
He didn’t come out on top.
P3.
Outdriven by his teammate.
0.14 seconds.
It wasn’t much.
It was nothing, really.
But it was enough.
Lando climbed out of the car quieter this time.
The adrenaline was still there—but sharper now. Less joy, more edge.
More focus.
He pulled his helmet off, running a hand through his hair as he walked back into the garage.
Already replaying the lap in his head.
Turn by turn.
Where he could’ve pushed more.
Where he lost it.
Where Pato didn’t.
“Good lap,” someone said as he passed.
Lando nodded.
“Yeah.”
But his jaw tightened slightly.
Because good wasn’t what he wanted.
Not anymore.
He wasn’t sulky about it.
Not on the outside.
He still smiled, still stopped when journalists called his name, still answered every question like he was supposed to. Congratulated Charles with an easy, genuine grin, praised the lap, the pace.
With Pato it was a bit more measured.
Still polite. Still professional.
Just… a touch more rehearsed.
Because that was his role.
The image.
McLaren’s golden boy.
The perfectly media-trained driver.
Always composed. Always smiling.
—
But the moment he got back to the hotel—
It slipped.
The door barely closed behind him before he let out a breath, shoulders dropping as he tossed his bag aside.
Because he did everything right.
And it still wasn’t enough.
—
Were you watching?
He texted, thumbs moving faster than he thought.
Same question as before.
But this time it felt different.
He didn’t even have to wait long.
His phone lit up with a call.
“Hi, you finally free?” Oscar’s voice came through, softer than before.
“Kinda,” Lando sighed, dragging a hand through his hair as he paced the room. “Just got back to the hotel.”
He dropped onto the edge of the bed.
“I’m seeing Carlos later… feel kinda guilty for not going to the padel.”
“It’s good,” Oscar said. “You should relax a bit. It’ll make you feel better.”
There was something under it.
A slight dip in his tone.
Disappointment, maybe.
But still steady. Still sincere.
Lando noticed.
He always did.
“So you were watching?” he asked, quieter now, fingers fidgeting with the edge of the duvet.
“Yeah,” Oscar said. “P3 is still solid.”
Lando wasn’t convinced.
There was a brief pause before Oscar added
“But for FP3… try braking a touch later into Turn 3.”
Lando frowned slightly, already thinking it through.
“You’re playing it a bit safe on entry,” Oscar continued. “If you carry the speed deeper before turning in, you’ll gain time without really risking much. The car looked stable enough for it.”
Lando leaned his head back against the wall, eyes unfocused as he replayed the corner.
“…Yeah,” he murmured. “I think I backed out a bit there.”
“It’s small,” Oscar said. “But it adds up.”
And that—
That sounded fixable.
“What are you working on now?” Lando asked, shifting the conversation away from racing, away from lap times and tiny mistakes that stuck in his head.
There was a faint clatter on the other end of the line.
“A G-Wagon,” Oscar said with a quiet sigh. “Nothing too fancy. Oil leak—pretty common for that model. Kinda boring, to be honest.”
Lando huffed a laugh, stretching out on the bed.
“Poor you,” he teased. “Living such a hard life.”
Oscar hummed, clearly unconvinced.
“And what would you rather fix?” Lando asked, turning onto his side, phone pressed closer to his ear.
That got a different reaction.
Oscar’s voice shifted subtly, but enough.
“I mean, I don’t mind fixing stuff. It’s part of the job,” he said. “But I much prefer improving.”
Lando smiled a little at that.
Of course he did.
“Like what?” he prompted.
“There was this one time,” Oscar continued, a hint of energy creeping in now, “a guy came in with a Porsche and just—told me to make it faster.”
Lando raised a brow.
“Define faster.”
Oscar let out a short laugh.
“He literally said he didn’t care what I did as long as it could hit 450 km/h.”
Lando blinked.
“…What?”
“Yeah.”
“Was that even legal?” he asked, half incredulous, half amused.
A beat.
“No,” Oscar said casually. “But it was fun.”
Lando let out a disbelieving laugh, shaking his head against the pillow.
“You’re insane.”
“Probably,” Oscar admitted easily.
“But you did it?” Lando pressed, curiosity getting the better of him.
There was a small pause.
“Got close,” Oscar finally said. “That’s all I’ll say.”
Lando smiled to himself, staring up at the ceiling.
Of course he did.
And for the first time that day—
His mind wasn’t on racing at all.
“What else did you do that’s this crazy?” Lando asked, a small smile creeping onto his face.
He made a mental note right then ask Oscar about work more often.
Because this—
This version of him?
A bit more open, a bit more animated and Lando liked it.
A lot.
“I’ve done plenty,” Oscar said, and Lando could practically hear the shrug, “but my favourite story is this one guy—came in wanting to replace the engine in his Toyota. Said he wanted something better.”
“That sounds dangerous already,” Lando muttered.
Oscar ignored that.
“Anyway, we did it. Properly. Took some time, but it worked.”
“And?” Lando prompted.
“And,” Oscar continued, a hint of amusement slipping into his voice, “he shows up to a race next week and pulls up next to me.”
Lando let out a laugh.
“No way.”
“Yeah. Fully serious about it too.”
“That’s bold,” Lando snorted. “Did you win?”
Another pause. Before—“Of course.”
There it was. That quiet confidence. Not loud. Not arrogant.
Just… certain.
Lando smiled to himself, something warm settling in his chest.
Because it was rare.
And somehow that made it even better.
They spent way too much time on the phone.
At some point Lando had laid flat on his back, one arm tucked under his head, the other holding his phone loosely against his ear. He wasn’t even trying to hide the smile anymore.
Oscar just kept talking.
Story after story—some ridiculous, some borderline illegal, some so technical Lando only understood half of it.
But that didn’t matter.
He liked listening.
Every now and then he’d interrupt—
“No way.”
“You’re lying.”
“That’s not even possible.” —and Oscar would just laugh quietly and keep going, like he didn’t need to prove anything.
It was easy.
Too easy.
And Lando let himself have it for longer than he probably should have.
Which is how he ended up late.
Not terribly late. Just enough.
Carlos was already waiting for him when Lando arrived, sprawled comfortably on the couch, controller in hand.
“Nice of you to join me,” he said dryly, not even looking up.
“Shut up,” Lando muttered, grabbing the second controller and dropping beside him.
Carlos had had a rough session.
It showed.
Not in a dramatic way just quieter than usual, less sharp around the edges.
So instead of going out, instead of doing anything social—
They stayed in.
Video games.
Simple.
Familiar.
A few minutes in, the room filled with the usual sounds—button mashing, quiet curses, the commentary from the game playing in the background.
Lando was distracted.
Still half somewhere else.
And it showed.
“So,” Carlos said casually, eyes still on the screen, “what were you doing in Australia for so long?”
Lando blinked.
“You were here visiting Daniel some time ago, no?” Carlos added.
Lando froze for half a second.
It was small.
Easy to miss.
Carlos didn’t react—
At least not visibly.
Because right after that, he scored.
“Focus, mate,” he said lightly.
“Fuck off,” Lando muttered, shifting in his seat.
His grip on the controller tightened slightly.
“Nothing really,” he said after a moment, trying to sound casual. “Just… chilling. Visited a few cool places.”
“Mm,” Carlos hummed.
A beat passed.
“With whom?”
Lando’s thumb slipped slightly on the joystick.
“Umm… a friend?” he said, and even to his own ears it sounded off.
Too unsure.
Carlos finally glanced at him.
Just briefly.
But there was something in his expression now—something sharper.
“Yeah, but who?” he asked. “I know most of your friends, Lando.”
Lando swallowed, eyes fixed on the screen.
“You don’t know him,” he said. “I only met him some time ago.”
Another goal.
Carlos scored again.
“Claro,” he muttered under his breath, though it didn’t sound like he was talking about the game anymore.
Then he leaned back slightly, turning his head just enough to properly look at Lando this time.
“Oh?” he said.
A small pause.
Then “Tell me.”
“I—” Lando hesitated, thumb hovering uselessly over the controller for a second.
He took a small breath, eyes still fixed on the screen.
“There’s nothing really to tell,” he said finally. “Met him back in Perth. Turns out he’s from Melbourne. I came in early to avoid jet lag and just… hit him up.”
It sounded simple.
Too simple.
Cleaned up.
Like he’d taken something messy and folded it neatly into a sentence.
Carlos didn’t buy it.
“Doesn’t sound like nothing to me,” he said, a faint mocking edge in his voice as he kept playing.
“It is,” Lando insisted, a bit too quickly.
Carlos hummed, unimpressed.
“So he’s not famous?” he asked. “You didn’t make him sign an NDA or anything?”
Lando blinked.
“Umm…”
That hadn’t even crossed his mind.
“…no?”
Carlos finally looked at him properly.
Not joking now.
Measuring.
Like he was putting pieces together.
Lando shifted slightly under the look.
Then Carlos leaned back again, picking up the controller like nothing happened.
“So it is serious,” he said casually.
“What?” Lando frowned.
“You’d make him sign an NDA if it was nothing,” Carlos shrugged. “You always do.”
He unpaused the game.
“You don’t want to scare him off.”
Lando opened his mouth—
Then closed it again.
Because he didn’t have an answer to that.
And somehow—
That said more than anything he could’ve come up with.
Notes:
I should stop with Australia and it’s animals 😭
But there NEEDED to be a spider scene in Australia right? I’m too European for it all I can’t.
Also I need to clarify something before we go on with the actual f1 talk, I want to be the season as accurate as possible BUT I’m only a fan since last year (this month will actually be the anniversary 😭) and even after that I was at work most of the races. So I analyse every single FP, quali, race, everything from the “report” and “lap by lap” sectors on the official Formula 1 app.
Also I’m not a Lando nor Oscar fan whatsoever. I actually strongly dislike McLaren as a team.
I’m a Tifosi, Max fan and Lestappen shipper. The fact that I write Landoscar says more about them than it does about me.
And don’t get me wrong I adore the boys, have an insanely soft spot for both of them, but if it goes to the sport they’re not my first choice.
Chapter 10: On the limit
Notes:
Hi, hello I had the worst day ever, woke up feeling weird as hell, than the man who broke my heart into pieces (I recommend reading Push and pull it is based on us) called me.
It wasn’t romantic no — he told me how the boss of the restaurant we worked at together went completely mental, ruined his mental health and now he wants to sue and asked if I’d help.
Yeah so I’m overwhelmed and needed some fluff so here we are.
Sorry for dumping it all on you I had to tell it someone.
(I also gave him my ex-therapist’s number before realising my therapist probably won’t take him in since I whined about him for over a year in there.)
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Friday left something behind.
Not something Lando could name exactly—just a feeling that didn’t sit right. Not bad enough to ruin the day, not good enough to ignore.
Just… off.
It lingered.
Through the mixed performances in free practice. Through the conversation with Carlos that replayed in the back of his head more times than he wanted to admit.
It stayed.
He tried to shake it off Saturday morning.
Got up early.
Didn’t complain once during training with Jon, even when his body still ached from the past few days. Pushed through every set, every rep, like discipline alone could fix whatever was sitting wrong in his chest.
It didn’t.
Breakfast with Mark was the same—light conversation, half-listening, nodding in the right places.
Strategy meeting after that.
Numbers. Plans. Scenarios.
Lando heard it all.
None of it stuck.
And the longer it went on—
The more it built.
By the time he got into the car, it was there in full.
Frustration.
Restlessness.
Something sharp under his skin.
The session started fine.
The car felt good.
Responsive. Fast. Exactly what he needed.
The weather was perfect too track conditions ideal, grip where it should be.
There was no real excuse.
But his head wasn’t in it.
A corner slightly off.
A braking point just a fraction late.
A hesitation where there shouldn’t be one.
Small things but they stacked. On his push lap, he ran into traffic.
For a split second, he considered backing out—
Then didn’t.
Tried to push through it anyway. Tried to make it work, he knew he could do better.
He should do better.
But the lap was already gone.
And when the chequered flag waved—
P10.
Lando sat there for a moment longer than necessary, hands still on the wheel, staring ahead.
The radio crackled faintly in his ears.
He didn’t answer right away.
Pato was ahead of him.
And for some reason— that made it worse.
A dozen smiles, a hundred excuses, a million sympathetic looks later—Lando finally had a moment to himself.
He didn’t go back to the motorhome.
Too obvious.
Too easy to find.
Instead, he slipped further back, past the rows of hospitality units, until the noise of the paddock dulled into something distant. He found a quiet patch of grass, half-hidden behind a fence that separated the circuit from the outside.
The sun hit just right there.
Warm.
Still.
He sank down against the metal bars, exhaling slowly, and for a moment just sat there before pulling his phone out. Data first. Always.
The car was fine—better than fine. It did exactly what it was supposed to. No issues, no irregularities, nothing to point at and blame.
Nothing but him.
Lando stared at the screen a little longer than necessary, because if the car was perfect, then the problem was obvious. He was the problem.
His jaw tightened. Maybe he wasn’t good enough. Maybe he wasn’t focused enough. Maybe he let things get into his head too easily—let emotions bleed into the one place they absolutely shouldn’t. In the car.
And it wasn’t just that. He’d been off all day. Snappy. Short.
Slacking.
Not just as a driver getting outperformed by his teammate, who had only been in the sport for three years, no matter his previous experience. IndyCar wasn’t Formula 1.
It shouldn’t look like this.
But also as a professional.
He knew he’d barked at that journalist earlier. Saw the surprise on their face, the way the PR manager immediately stepped in.
That wasn’t him.
Or at least—
It wasn’t who he was supposed to be.
His grip tightened slightly around the phone.
Lando dragged a hand through his hair before opening the clips from FP3, replaying them over and over, hoping that maybe—if he saw it from a different angle—it would finally make sense.
A mistake.
A reason.
Something that would explain it.
A notification caught his eye.
Call me when you can please?
Two hours ago, right after he got out of the car. Lando stared at it, thumb hovering. He wasn’t sure he wanted to talk to Oscar right now—didn’t want him to hear it, didn’t want him to know. Because this version of him—frustrated, off, second-guessing everything—
It felt embarrassing.
He was embarrassing.
But he pressed call anyway.
“Osc?”
There was immediate movement on the other end, a clatter like something being set aside in a hurry.
“Lan?” Oscar’s voice came through, quick. “Hi.”
“Hi,” Lando said, quieter than he meant to.
A pause.
“You okay?”
Lando swallowed.
“Yeah.”
Another pause.
“Yeah?” Oscar repeated, softer now. Careful.
Like he already knew.
Lando looked down at the grass beneath his shoes.
“No,” he admitted.
The word sat heavy between them.
But it felt… easier than pretending.
“Do you want my advice?” Oscar asked.
It wasn’t pushy.
Just there.
Offered.
Lando hesitated.
Because it felt unfair somehow.
Oscar deserved his own shot—his own chance at going professional—not sitting there, trying to fix Lando after a bad session.
After a failure.
But it was Oscar.
And that changed everything.
But it was Oscar.
The man who, in just a few days, made a bigger impact on Lando’s life than most people he’d known for years.
The man who made him feel comfortable in a way he didn’t even know he could.
The man who made him feel seen—for the first time in a long time.
“Yeah,” he said quietly.
There was a small shift on the other end—like relief.
“Yeah?”
A beat.
Then, steady—
“Stop chasing the perfect lap.”
Lando blinked.
“What?”
“You’re overdriving,” Oscar continued, calm but certain. “Trying to make up time everywhere at once. It stacks up, and you lose more than you gain.”
Lando frowned slightly, thinking back.
The late braking.
Pushing through traffic instead of backing off.
Trying to force it.
“You don’t need to prove everything at once, focus on one clean lap,” Oscar went on. “Reset before it. Build it corner by corner. Don’t fight the car—work with it.”
Silence settled for a moment.
But it wasn’t heavy.
Lando exhaled slowly, leaning his head back against the fence.
“…okay.”
And for the first time since the session—
Something in his chest loosened.
Just a little.
“What if I—” he took a shaky breath, trying to steady his racing thoughts, “what if I’m just not good enough?”
The words felt heavy the moment they left his mouth.
Too honest.
Too real.
“You wouldn’t be there if you weren’t,” Oscar said without hesitation.
Simple.
Certain.
Like there wasn’t even a doubt in his mind.
The line fell quiet after that.
Not awkward—just… full.
Like they were both turning the words over, trying to find something else to hold onto.
“Tell you what,” Oscar said suddenly, his tone shifting, lighter now, almost playful. “If you make it to the podium, I’ll have a surprise for you.”
Lando blinked, brows shooting up even if Oscar couldn’t see it.
“A surprise?”
“Yeah,” Oscar said, and Lando could hear the smile in his voice now. “Doesn’t have to be right after the race. When’s your flight?”
“Monday,” Lando answered automatically.
Then, almost too quickly—
“But it can be after the race. I’m free.”
The eagerness slipped out before he could stop it.
“Alright,” Oscar chuckled softly. “How much time do you have before someone steals you again?”
“They’d need to find me first,” Lando said with a small laugh, pushing himself up from the grass. He brushed his hands over his jeans, knocking off bits of dirt. “I should be getting back though… but keep me company?”
“Yeah,” Oscar said easily.
Lando started walking back toward the paddock, slower than he needed to, phone pressed to his ear like it anchored him.
“What did you do with Carlos yesterday?” Oscar asked after a moment.
Lando huffed a quiet laugh.
“Why? You jealous?”
“No.”
The answer came quickly.
Too quickly.
And there was something sharper under it—something that made Lando’s smile falter just slightly.
“Just curious,” Oscar added.
Lando hummed, letting it pass.
“Nothing much, to be honest. We played video games, talked a bit,” he said, then added lightly, “he wasn’t better company than you, Osc. I promise.”
A small pause.
Then—
“I know.”
And for some reason—
That landed differently.
Lando smiled at that.
“Osc, I need to go,” he said, spotting Will already standing in front of his motorhome, arms crossed. “He doesn’t look happy.”
Oscar huffed a quiet laugh.
“Maybe don’t hide from your team next time, hm?” he said lightly. “Text me after quali, yeah?”
“Yeah,” Lando promised. “Go back to working on your cars.”
“Go drive fast,” Oscar shot back.
The call ended.
But something had shifted.
It wasn’t just the advice. Not even the promise of a surprise. Just… Oscar. The way he spoke, the way he understood without needing everything explained. Even through a phone, it steadied him—made it easier to breathe.
Lando walked back with Will without protesting this time. They went over the data again, properly now—strategy for qualifying, tire choices, when to push, when to hold back.
And for the first time that day, his head was clear.
“Did you eat something?” Will asked suddenly.
Lando shook his head.
Didn’t even think about it.
“Here.” Will handed him a granola bar. “In the car in twenty.”
Lando nodded, unwrapping it, barely tasting it as he ate.
The familiar feeling was already creeping in.
Adrenaline.
Focus.
Q1
The car was flying.
Everything clicked—lines, braking, timing.
P1.
Q2
A bit tighter.
P2.
Still strong. Still right there.
After the morning he’d had, it felt like more than enough.
Q3
First lap—
Not clean.
Max took P1.
Lando exhaled slowly inside the helmet.
It was fine.
Losing to the reigning champion wasn’t the end of the world.
But—
He could do better. He knew he could.
Second runs. Pato went fastest. Same machinery.
That stung.
Lando tightened his grip on the wheel. Reset. Just like Oscar said. One clean lap.
He pushed. Not too much—just enough.
The car responded perfectly beneath him, every input sharp, controlled.
Corner by corner.
No rushing.
No forcing.
The checkered flag.
Pole.
By 0.084.
Lando let out a breath that turned into a laugh, adrenaline flooding through him all at once.
“YEAH!” he shouted, voice cracking slightly over the radio.
When he climbed out of the car—
He was beaming.
He answered the interview questions easily.
“The car felt amazing.”
“It’s a good way to start the season.”
“Everything can happen tomorrow.”
The words came out smooth, practiced—but this time they weren’t empty.
This time, he meant them.
He took the pole position trophy with a radiant smile, holding it up as the cameras flashed. Posed where they told him to, turned when they asked, every angle perfect.
Signed caps, posters, whatever the fans pushed toward him as he made his way out.
Laughing, smiling, saying thank you over and over again.
He was on top of the world again.
And yet—
The first thing he did when he finally had a second to himself—
Was reach for his phone.
thank you
He stared at the message for a moment before sending it.
Not really sure what he was thanking for.
The advice.
The timing.
The way Oscar just… showed up when he needed him.
Maybe all of it.
The reply came quickly.
You did perfect.
Lando smiled at the screen, something soft settling in his chest again.
Because somehow—
That meant more than the pole.
—
The team dinner was in full swing.
Laughter filled the room, glasses clinking, conversations overlapping. Alcohol flowed freely—though Lando didn’t touch a drop. He noticed Pato with a drink and shook his head slightly.
Rookie mistake.
At some point Zak called for attention, gathering everyone.
He spoke about the season, expectations, the bigger picture.
Papaya Rules.
They’d race.
They’d be free—until they weren’t.
If one driver started performing noticeably better, priorities would shift.
Simple.
Logical.
Necessary.
And Lando got it.
Of course he did.
He’d been in this long enough.
But he didn’t let himself think about it too much.
Not tonight.
Not after today.
Still, as the dinner went on, something in him started to fade.
His social battery drained faster than usual.
Too many conversations.
Too many smiles.
Too much everything.
It didn’t happen often—but after days at the track, in the paddock, constantly around people—
He needed quiet.
So he slipped away.
Locked himself in the bathroom, leaning against the sink for a second, staring at his reflection.
Still smiling.
Even when no one was there.
His phone was already in his hand.
pick me up?
He sent his location.
The reply came instantly.
Are you alright?
yeah I’m tired
He typed back.
don’t want to be here anymore
Gimme 5 minutes.
And that was it.
No questions.
No hesitation.
Lando pushed himself off the counter, exhaling slowly.
He didn’t just disappear.
He found Will first, told him he was heading out—framed it as needing rest before the race.
Not a lie.
Just not the whole truth.
Then he left.
Quick steps out of the restaurant, cool night air hitting his face.
Perfect timing.
A black car pulled up just as he stepped outside.
Lando didn’t hesitate.
He opened the door and slipped inside.
“Hi,” he said, a small smile already forming.
“Hello, superstar,” Oscar chuckled, glancing at him as he pulled away. “Nice of you to finally make time.”
“Osc,” Lando pouted, leaning back into the seat. “Winning is time-consuming.”
“I know, I know,” Oscar said easily, steering the car into the road. “So—where to?”
Lando turned his head slightly, looking at him.
Then out the window.
Then back again.
“Anywhere,” he said quietly.
“Just… not there.”
They ended up on a beach just outside of Melbourne.
It was quiet—almost eerily so. The city lights were far enough away to feel distant, just a faint glow on the horizon, and at this hour there was no one in sight.
Just the sound of the waves.
And them.
“So,” Lando broke the silence after a moment, hands tucked into the sleeves of his hoodie, “can I get my surprise yet?”
Oscar glanced at him, amused.
“Did you finish on the podium yet?”
Lando huffed.
“What if I won’t?” he asked, but there was no real worry in his voice this time. Not like earlier.
Oscar just shrugged lightly.
“Then you get a consolation prize,” he said, teasing. “And you try again for the real one next year.”
“Next year?” Lando repeated dramatically, turning to him. “Why not next race? I can’t wait a whole year for it.”
Oscar laughed under his breath as they walked along the shore, shoes sinking slightly into the sand.
“I can’t really pack it up and travel with it.”
That only made Lando more curious.
“What is it?” he pressed, glancing at him. “Now you have to tell me or I’ll actually die.”
“You’ll live,” Oscar said easily. “You’ll see tomorrow.”
He nudged a small rock out of his way as they walked.
“No need to be so dramatic about it.”
Lando tried to guess.
Some guesses were reasonable.
Most of them weren’t.
“Is it a trophy?”
“You’ll get one already.”
“Are you making me a custom car?”
“Did you pay for one?” Oscar shot back with a quiet laugh.
Lando frowned.
“Did you buy me a koala?”
“That’s for your birthday.”
“Osc.”
“Stop whining or you won’t get it at all,” Oscar teased, though there was no real threat behind it.
Lando huffed but didn’t stop, kicking lightly at the sand as they walked, still clearly thinking, still trying to figure it out.
Oscar just watched him for a moment, amused.
Truth be told—
He’d give it to him anyway.
Podium or not.
But he wasn’t about to say that.
He wanted Lando to earn it.
Wanted to push him—just enough.
Not too much.
Just right.
“Can I drive the Senna if I win?” Lando asked suddenly, turning to him like he’d just cracked it. “That’s it, right? That’s the surprise.”
Oscar didn’t even hesitate.
“No.”
Lando blinked.
“No?” he echoed, genuinely offended.
“Nobody drives the McLaren except me,” Oscar said simply. “And maybe Noah—but only to move it around the garage.”
Lando stared at him.
“Why can’t I drive it?” he demanded. “I drive a McLaren for a living. I’m an actual professional.”
“Not happening,” Oscar said, a quiet laugh slipping through. “Unless you win a championship, you don’t drive my McLaren.”
“That’s literally impossible!” Lando protested, voice rising slightly.
“It really isn’t,” Oscar replied, completely unfazed.
Lando huffed, crossing his arms.
“Not fair.”
They walked in an easy silence for a while longer, waves crashing softly somewhere behind them, until Oscar caught Lando yawning again.
“Sleepy?” he asked, glancing over.
Lando just shook his head, stubborn.
He wasn’t ready for this to end.
“C’mon,” Oscar said anyway, reaching for his wrist and gently tugging him back the way they came. “We’re going back. You need your beauty sleep before the big day.”
Lando sighed but didn’t fight it.
They got back into the car, the quiet settling around them almost instantly as Oscar pulled away from the empty beach.
For a few minutes, neither of them spoke.
“What’s your dream car anyway?” Lando asked eventually, voice softer now, edges blurred with sleep.
“A Shelby,” Oscar said simply. “An older one though. Something I could actually work on myself.”
“You can work on any car,” Lando mumbled.
“Yeah… I guess.”
Oscar glanced at him.
Lando was already halfway gone, head tilted slightly toward the window, eyes barely open.
Oscar turned the music down.
Turned the heater up.
The night air had gotten colder, and Lando was still in just a hoodie.
The rest of the drive passed in quiet.
Soft breathing.
Occasional barely-there snores.
Oscar kept his eyes on the road, but his mind wandered.
He didn’t quite understand how he got here.
How this—this—became real.
How someone like Lando could just… choose to be here. With him.
It felt too easy.
And nothing in his life had ever come easy.
But whatever came next—
He’d take it.
If it meant this.
He pulled into the Hilton parking lot just like the other day..
Turned the engine off.
Sat there for a second.
Then he looked over.
Lando was completely out now, curls messy, face relaxed in a way Oscar hadn’t seen all day.
Soft.
Peaceful.
And suddenly—
Waking him up felt wrong.
So maybe it was selfish. Maybe he was.
But Oscar started the car again and drove back to his place.
By the time he parked, Lando hadn’t moved.
Oscar got out, walked around, and carefully opened the passenger door.
“Lan…” he tried quietly.
Nothing.
He slid an arm under his knees, the other around his back, lifting him as gently as he could.
Lando stirred slightly, shifting against him as Oscar struggled briefly with his keys.
“Osc?” he mumbled, eyes barely opening.
“Shh,” Oscar said softly, finally getting the door open. “Go back to sleep. It’s fine.”
“Mm… ’kay.”
Lando’s grip tightened slightly, face pressing into his chest again.
Oscar’s chest tightened at that.
Inside, he carried him straight to the bedroom, laying him down carefully on the bed.
For a second, he just stood there.
Looking.
Then he moved.
Took off Lando’s shoes, then his jeans—quick, practical, trying not to wake him.
Lando barely stirred.
Oscar changed quickly himself before climbing into bed beside him.
Careful.
Keeping a bit of space.
It lasted maybe five seconds.
Because Lando shifted in his sleep, closing the distance on instinct, curling slightly toward him.
Oscar let out a quiet breath.
Yeah.
He could get used to this.
Probably far too easily.
—
Lando woke up soft and warm—and definitely not in his hotel bed.
But it felt… familiar.
Safe.
He shifted onto his other side, instinctively seeking more warmth—
—and bumped into something solid.
That made his eyes crack open.
“Osc?” he mumbled, voice still thick with sleep.
Oscar was sitting beside him, back against the headboard, a laptop balanced on his thighs. The morning light filtered through slightly crooked curtains, falling across his face just right—catching on the small moles, the soft lines of his features.
“Hi,” he said, smiling, bunny teeth showing.
Lando blinked at him.
Once.
Twice.
Then pushed himself up onto his elbows, rubbing at his eyes.
“What are you doing here?” he asked, still clearly not fully awake.
Oscar huffed a quiet laugh.
“We’re at my place,” he said, watching him with obvious amusement. “You were out cold. I couldn’t exactly carry you into the Hilton, could I?”
Lando squinted at him.
Processing.
Slowly.
“…you kidnapped me,” he concluded finally, voice still rough.
Oscar grinned.
“Yeah. That was the plan all along.”
Lando let himself fall back onto the pillow with a soft groan, dragging a hand over his face.
“Unbelievable.”
But there was no real complaint in it.
Just warmth.
“What time is it anyway?” Lando mumbled, burying his face deeper into the sheets.
“A bit before nine,” Oscar said, closing his laptop and setting it aside. “Was about to wake you up in a minute.”
Lando let out a long groan into the pillow before forcing himself upright, hair sticking up in every direction.
“Where’s my phone?” he asked, looking around blindly. “I need to text Jon I won’t make it to training.”
Oscar just watched him for a second, clearly amused, before reaching over to his bedside table and handing it to him.
“Won’t you get in trouble?”
Lando unlocked it, squinting at the screen.
“Not my first rodeo,” he admitted, already typing. “He’ll just make me do a double later.”
He hit send, then let the phone drop onto his lap with a small sigh.
“Future me problem.”
“Okay, Mr. Norris,” Oscar said, pushing himself off the bed. “Breakfast?”
Lando looked at him immediately, eyes soft—almost hopeful—as he nodded.
“What do you want?”
“What are the options?” Lando asked carefully, like it was a serious decision.
“Eggs in various forms, oatmeal, avocado toast… or just toast,” Oscar listed, watching him.
Lando’s face shifted into something deeply focused, like he was genuinely weighing it.
Oscar had to bite back a smile.
“I’m fine with whatever,” Lando said finally.
“How about avocado toast with eggs?”
Lando’s eyes lit up instantly.
“Okay. Give me ten.”
Lando watched him leave, something quiet settling in his chest.
The ease of it.
The normality.
It shouldn’t have felt like this.
So natural.
So simple.
Like he could just… stay.
By the time Oscar finished, Lando was already up.
He’d washed up, changed into—very clearly Oscar’s clothes, and made a half-successful attempt at fixing his curls.
He walked into the kitchen just as Oscar was setting the plates down.
“It smeeells good,” Lando said immediately, dragging the word out as he dropped into the chair.
He didn’t wait.
Already taking a bite.
“And it tasteees good.”
The Aussie huffed a quiet laugh, leaning back against the counter.
“I hope it does. Went out to buy groceries at seven in the morning for that.”
Lando paused mid-chew.
“You did?”
Oscar raised a brow.
“Do you think I grow fresh avocados on the balcony?”
Lando snorted.
“I mean… you seem capable.”
Oscar shook his head, amused.
“I was out for a run anyway. It’s not a big deal.”
Lando looked at him for a second longer.
Something softer flickered across his face before he dropped his gaze back to his plate.
“You make me look like an amateur,” he mumbled, mouth still half full. “I wish I was this disciplined.”
Oscar tilted his head slightly, watching him.
Not missing it.
Not the tone.
Not the way it shifted.
“Lan, you work out plenty enough,” Oscar said simply. “You’re allowed to slow down.”
Lando nodded, but the words didn’t fully settle.
Because slowing down had never come easily to him.
Even when he was resting, his mind had a habit of racing ahead—training, performance, what he should be doing better.
“Still,” he added after a moment, lighter now, “next time I’m outsourcing breakfast to you.”
Oscar smirked. “Next time?”
Lando didn’t look up from his plate. “Yeah,” he said casually. “Obviously.”
Oscar didn’t comment on it, but the corner of his mouth lifted slightly.
“What time do you need to be at the track?” he asked instead.
“Ideally around noon,” Lando sighed. “But I need to go back to the hotel first to change.”
Oscar frowned slightly. “What’s wrong with what you’re wearing?”
Lando glanced down at himself—the soft burgundy sweater, the black sweats hanging a little too low on his hips.
“It doesn’t exactly scream style icon,” he said. “Especially the bottoms that fall off my ass every time I move.”
Oscar laughed. “Okay, the sweats are out. But you can wear your jeans from yesterday and you’re good to go.”
Lando considered it.
He didn’t have to look perfect all the time. It wouldn’t kill him to show up a little less put together for once. And wearing something that smelled faintly like Oscar—
That helped more than he wanted to admit.
“I guess it won’t be bad,” he said finally.
“But if people call me out on slacking, I’m blaming it on you,” Lando said, finishing the last bite and leaning back in his chair.
“I can live with that,” Oscar chuckled. “C’mon.”
Lando watched as Oscar gathered the plates, moving around the kitchen with that same easy confidence, rinsing them off and setting them in the sink before turning on the kettle.
“Where are we going?” Lando asked, still not moving.
“You’re going back to bed,” Oscar said like it was the most obvious thing in the world. “You need to rest. I’ll be there in a second—just gonna make you tea.”
Lando didn’t move.
He just watched him for a moment longer, something quiet and almost disbelieving settling in his chest.
How could someone be this… effortless about it?
“C’mon,” Oscar nudged, glancing over his shoulder. “Go find something for us to watch. Or something.”
Lando blinked, then nodded and finally pushed himself up.
He made his way back to the bedroom and climbed straight into his spot again, reaching for the remote. He scrolled through the streaming apps lazily before curiosity got the better of him and he clicked into Spotify.
He froze.
K-pop.
So much of it.
Lando stared at the screen, mildly scandalised. Not judging—he wasn’t—but this was… a lot.
Oscar walked back in a moment later, two mugs in his hands. He set one down on Lando’s side before climbing in on the other.
“Did you find something?”
Lando ignored the question completely.
“Osc… are you secretly a K-pop fan?”
Oscar blinked, then followed his gaze to the TV before shaking his head, already settling against the pillows.
“No. Hattie is. She visits a lot.”
“Oh.”
Oscar glanced at him, a teasing edge in his voice. “What? You think it’s lame?”
“No,” Lando said quickly, looking at him a bit more carefully now. “I was just surprised.”
He kept scrolling, not recognising a single song.
“What’s your favourite music anyway?” he asked.
“House,” Oscar answered simply.
Lando paused, looking over at him, trying to piece it together.
It didn’t quite match.
And somehow it matched perfectly.
“What?” Oscar asked, catching the look.
“Nothing, just…” Lando huffed a quiet laugh. “You’re so full of surprises they don’t even surprise me anymore.”
Oscar laughed properly at that, head tipping back slightly, teeth showing.
“I don’t even know what you mean by that.”
“Never mind,” Lando giggled, handing him the remote. “Just show me.”
Oscar raised his brows but took it anyway, typing something in without much explanation.
A second later, the room filled with music.
Lando tilted his head slightly, listening.
It wasn’t what he expected.
Not at all.
It sounded like something he’d hear in a club—something familiar, something he already liked, just… stripped of the crowd, the noise, the chaos.
“You’d love going to a club,” Lando said after a moment.
Oscar let out a quiet chuckle. “I really wouldn’t.”
“That is literally club music,” Lando argued, pointing vaguely at the TV.
“Yeah,” Oscar shrugged, “and I can enjoy it without being shoved around by strangers.”
Lando opened his mouth to argue again, then paused.
“Are you taking me to a club for your surprise?” he asked suddenly, eyes lighting up.
“Nope.”
“Osc,” Lando pouted immediately. “You’re not fun.”
“Oh?” Oscar lifted a brow, looking at him with quiet amusement. “You’re free to go to a club tonight if you want. Nobody’s stopping you.”
Lando’s pout deepened. “But I want to get my surprise.”
“You can always get it tomorrow.”
And he could.
He could go out tonight—drag a few mechanics with him, or find Daniel, who would absolutely be up for it, celebration or not.
It would be easy.
Normal.
Expected.
But the thought sat wrong in his chest.
It wasn’t about the music, or the drinks, or even celebrating.
It was about who he wanted to be with.
And the answer felt almost embarrassingly obvious.
This wasn’t just another race weekend.
This was his race.
His home.
And Lando wanted to win it.
Not just for himself.
But for Oscar.
The thought settled quietly but firmly in his chest, stronger than the earlier frustration, stronger than the nerves that had followed him all weekend.
He wanted that podium.
Wanted to see Oscar there after.
Wanted that moment to be theirs in some way that didn’t need explaining.
So no—clubs could wait.
Everything else could wait.
This mattered more.
Eventually Lando did get up, deciding to do some stretching. He wasn’t irresponsible enough to go drive for two hours without at least some kind of prep, no matter how much he wanted to stay exactly where he was.
He moved around the room slowly at first, easing into it, rolling his shoulders, stretching out his legs. At some point he pulled the sweater off, tossing it aside when the warmth started to build under his skin. The last thing he needed was to show up already overheated.
Oscar watched him from the bed, quiet, propped slightly against the headboard. The music still played softly in the background, filling the space without demanding attention.
It was easy.
That was the thing.
Lando felt… lighter. More relaxed than he had in days, maybe weeks. Like something in him had finally unclenched.
He almost didn’t want to leave.
But time, as always, didn’t care.
By the time he finished, he could already feel the sweat settling on his skin, and he grimaced slightly.
“I need another shower,” he muttered, already heading toward the bathroom.
Oscar just hummed in response, eyes following him until he disappeared.
It didn’t take long.
When Lando came back out, hair still slightly damp, he reached for his phone without much thought.
“Gotta text Mark to bring my bag to the track,” he said, scrolling quickly—then paused, wincing when he noticed the time.
Oscar huffed a quiet laugh. “And how exactly are you planning to explain that?”
“That training ran late,” Lando said easily, a small, almost mischievous smile tugging at his lips.
Oscar shook his head. “I reckon your lies will catch up to you at some point.”
“Let me worry about that.”
But even as he said it, the clock kept moving.
Too fast.
Always too fast.
And suddenly they were out of time again.
Lando grabbed his things, slipping his shoes on, forcing himself not to linger too much—even if every part of him wanted to.
He was, however, silently grateful when Oscar reached for the McLaren keys.
At least that.
At least no headlines about him pulling up in some random car.
The drive was quiet, but not in a bad way. Just… full. Like neither of them felt the need to fill it.
“You want me to drop you off at the main entrance?” Oscar asked as they got closer.
“Yeah,” Lando answered immediately.
He’d deal with the consequences later.
Right now, a few extra minutes mattered more.
“Alright.”
But Oscar didn’t turn straight toward the track.
Instead, he pulled over a few blocks away, parking along a quiet street.
Lando frowned slightly, glancing at him. “Osc—?”
“Come here.”
He was already unbuckling his seatbelt.
Lando blinked, caught off guard just long enough that Oscar leaned over and did it for him, fingers quick and sure before pulling him closer.
It was awkward at first.
Lando ended up half in the middle of the car, balance off, knee knocking against the console, his weight caught somewhere between the seats.
“Wait—” he started, laughing under his breath.
But then Oscar pulled him properly, steadying him, shifting him closer until he was almost in his lap.
And just like that, the awkwardness disappeared.
Oscar’s arms wrapped around him—tight, but careful. Like he was holding something that mattered.
Like he didn’t want to let go.
“Good luck out there,” he murmured softly into Lando’s curls.
Lando felt it more than heard it.
“And remember—it’ll be fine no matter what place you get, yeah?”
Lando nodded, even if Oscar couldn’t really see it.
“Yeah.”
And for a second, everything else—the pressure, the expectations, the noise waiting for him at the track—just… quieted.
Like this was enough to hold onto.
It took every bit of willpower Lando had not to turn around and watch the Senna drive off.
He felt it more than saw it—the quiet absence, the space Oscar left behind.
Instead, he forced himself forward.
Took a deep breath.
Put the smile back on.
The feeling in his chest was… complicated. Sweet, because of the morning, the way it lingered under his skin. Bitter, because he already missed him.
Because a part of him wanted Oscar to stay.
Even if he knew—logically, professionally that it would be a complete disaster.
Still.
He adjusted his cap slightly and walked toward the gates, where fans were already gathered.
“Hi!” he called out, voice light, practiced, slipping back into place like it always did.
Autographs, photos, a few quick exchanges.
He did everything right.
Smiled at the right moments.
Said the right things.
But it felt just a little bit off.
Like part of him was still sitting in that car.
He didn’t have his pass on him, which should have been a problem—but it wasn’t.
A quick smile, a bit of charm, a familiar face.
Security let him through with barely a second glance.
And just like that—
Reality snapped back into place.
“Lando.”
He didn’t even make it two steps inside before Mark was there.
No greeting.
No pause.
“I know for a fact you did not go to training this morning.”
Lando blinked once, then squared his shoulders slightly.
“Okay,” he said, aiming for casual, landing somewhere close to guilty. “I wasn’t.”
Mark stared at him.
“I was with a friend,” Lando added quickly, trying for innocent.
It didn’t help.
“Lando,” Mark sighed, rubbing his forehead like this exact scenario had aged him ten years, “I thought we were past your random hookups on race weekends.”
That made Lando’s head snap up.
“It wasn’t like that!” he shot back immediately, a little too fast, a little too defensive.
Mark didn’t look convinced.
“You’re not a rookie anymore,” he continued, voice firm but not unkind. “You can’t just disappear.”
Lando pressed his lips together, frustration bubbling up—but he didn’t push it further.
There was no time.
There was never time.
Mark sighed again, then jerked his head toward the McLaren hospitality.
“You’ve got five minutes,” he said. “Change and be in the garage.”
And just like that, the moment was over.
Back to work.
Back to reality.
The rest of it blurred together.
Briefings, voices, numbers thrown around like they were the only things that mattered. Strategy discussions, tyre choices, possible rain scenarios—Plan A, Plan B, Plan C. Everyone talking, overlapping, adjusting.
Lando nodded at the right moments.
Answered when needed.
But it all felt… distant.
Still there he was there, focused enough to catch the important parts, but not fully.
Then Jon.
Of course Jon.
There was no escaping that.
“Since you skipped this morning,” his trainer had said, already unimpressed, “we’re making up for it now.”
And he did.
Longer than scheduled, harder than necessary.
Lando didn’t argue.
Didn’t have the energy to.
His muscles burned in that dull, lingering way that reminded him exactly why he hadn’t wanted to miss training—but also exactly that he had.
By the time he was done, there was barely time to breathe.
Barely time to think.
Helmet on.
Gloves tightened.
Strapped in.
And just like that—
He was back where everything made sense.
Formation lap.
The engine vibrating through his body, grounding him, pulling him fully into the moment for the first time all day.
No more noise.
No more expectations.
Just the track.
Just the car.
Just him.
He exhaled slowly.
Lights out.
Notes:
How in love are they??? A lot.
Also Oscar? Why would you kidnap Lando AGAIN 😭
Chapter 11: Bring it home
Notes:
I’m on chapter 24 right now, and the past few days have been… rough. Today especially felt like I’d hit a complete brick wall.
So I stepped back for a bit. Took a breather. Figured I’d at least be productive and edit the next chapter to post (yes, I am in fact my own beta reader 🥲).
And then—something clicked.
Out of nowhere, the inspiration just hit.
This chapter is special to me. It’s the one I had in my head from the very beginning—the one that existed before the road trip, before everything else grew around it.
So… yeah. This one’s my pride and joy.
I really hope you enjoy reading it as much as I loved writing it.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The moment the lights went out, everything else disappeared.
No noise. No pressure. No overthinking.
Just the car.
Lando’s launch was clean—sharp reflexes, tyres gripping just enough as he covered the inside into Turn 1. No hesitation. He claimed the space early and held it.
Still P1.
“Good start, Lando. Gap behind 0.9.”
“Copy.”
The first few laps settled into rhythm quickly. The car felt right—balanced, responsive, alive in his hands. Not perfect, but predictable. After the way the weekend had been going, that alone felt like a win.
He focused on keeping it smooth. Australia wasn’t a track you attacked blindly—you had to flow with it. Hit your marks. Trust the car.
Lap by lap, he found that rhythm.
Brake. Turn. Traction.
Again.
And again.
For a moment, it almost felt easy.
But it never stayed that way.
“Gap behind 0.6. He’s in DRS.”
Of course he was.
Lando flicked his eyes to the mirrors.
Papaya.
Pato.
Right there.
He exhaled slowly, adjusting his lines just enough. Not defensive enough to ruin his pace but enough to make it difficult. Make him work for it.
Because that’s how this went.
Pressure.
Build it. Hold it. Wait.
Lap 10.
Lap 12.
Lap 15.
Still there.
Close enough to remind him every second that one mistake would cost him everything.
“Tyre deg is a bit higher than expected.”
“I can feel it,” Lando muttered.
The rear was starting to slide more on exit. Subtle—but it added up. Tiny corrections. Tiny losses.
Behind him, Pato got closer.
Setting up.
Waiting.
Lap 18.
It happened fast.
Too fast to fully process.
They came through the high-speed section—Lando focused ahead, hitting every apex—when something flickered in his mirrors.
A twitch.
A snap.
Then—
Gone.
“Whoa—” Lando breathed, instinctively checking again.
A flash of papaya spinning off line. Gravel kicking up. The car rotating helplessly before coming to a stop.
“Pato’s spun. You’re clear,” Will confirmed.
For a second, everything slowed.
Lando blinked.
“What?”
“He’s out of the fight. Gap behind 4.2.”
A short, disbelieving laugh escaped him.
“Okay…”
Relief hit first. Sharp. Immediate. The pressure that had been glued to his back for nearly twenty laps just vanished.
But he didn’t let himself sit in it.
Because races weren’t won on someone else’s mistake.
They were lost that way, though.
So he reset.
Back into rhythm.
“Box this lap.”
Clean entry. Clean stop. The crew nailed it.
Back out into traffic—of course.
“Where am I?”
“Net P2. You’ll cycle back to P1.”
“Copy.”
He worked through it methodically. No risks he didn’t need. No desperation. Just clean, controlled overtakes.
Lap 24.
Lap 27.
Back in the lead.
“Nice work.”
“Yeah,” Lando breathed. “Feels good.”
The second stint felt lighter. The car came alive again under him, tyres holding on better now. And without Pato right behind him every lap, he could actually drive.
He found time where he hadn’t before—especially through Sector 2. Carrying more speed. Trusting the car more.
It worked.
The gap grew.
Not massive.
But enough.
Then came the final stint.
The fatigue crept in slowly.
Arms heavier. Neck sore. Focus harder to hold.
“Gap behind 2.3.”
“Copy.”
Clouds hung above, threatening rain without ever fully committing.
“Any updates?”
“Light drops possible. Nothing significant.”
Lando huffed quietly.
“Of course.”
Still, he adjusted. Just in case.
Last ten laps.
Everything mattered again.
No mistakes.
No distractions.
Just bring it home.
Lap 50.
The car still felt good. Not perfect—but good enough.
Lap 54.
The thought hit him.
I could actually win this.
It sent something through him—not panic, not pressure.
Energy.
He leaned into it.
Pushed just a little more.
Clean lines. Strong exits. No hesitation.
Final lap.
Everything burned.
Every muscle. Every breath.
But none of it mattered.
Just one more lap.
One more.
Every corner hit.
Every apex clean.
No mistakes.
Last corner.
He straightened the wheel, foot down.
Across the line—
“P1, Lando! That’s P1!”
He laughed—breathless, almost disbelieving.
“Let’s go!”
Relief crashed into him first.
Then the rest.
Adrenaline. Pride. Something deeper, steadier.
He’d done it.
After the doubts.
After the messy start to the weekend.
After everything.
The cooldown lap felt unreal.
The world came rushing back slowly—fans in the stands, engineers shouting in his ears, the noise finally breaking through.
But under all of it—
There was only one thought, quiet and steady.
Oscar.
He parked the car in the number one spot, engine cutting out beneath him as everything finally caught up.
For a second, he just sat there.
Hands still on the wheel.
Breathing.
Then it hit.
He climbed out in one smooth motion, pulling the steering wheel free and throwing himself toward the team. Arms everywhere, voices loud, bodies crashing into his as they hugged him, shook him, pulled him into something chaotic and bright.
He laughed through it, letting them.
Letting himself feel it.
Cooldown room next.
Sitting between Max and George, helmet hair still a mess, heart still racing.
They talked—briefly. Light comments, shared glances, that quiet understanding between drivers that didn’t need much explaining.
Then podium.
The noise came back in full.
Crowd roaring. Cameras flashing.
Lando smiled—wide, genuine as he stepped up, accepted the trophy, felt the weight of it settle into his hands.
Rob beside him.
Champagne everywhere.
Cold, sharp, sticky as it soaked through his hair, his suit, his skin.
He didn’t care.
He felt like he was on top of the world.
Debrief ran long, as it always did after a win. Every number mattered more, every decision picked apart, every lap analyzed like it held something new.
Lando stayed present through it.
Answered everything.
Focused.
But the moment it ended, he was gone.
Out.
A quick shower, washing champagne out of his hair, replacing fireproofs with something softer, something human again.
And the moment he stepped away from it all—
He knew exactly where he wanted to go.
He declined everything.
Team dinner? “Knackered, mate.”
Afterparty? “Early debrief tomorrow.”
Messages about going out? “Dead on my feet.”
The excuses were weak.
He knew it.
They knew it.
Because he wasn’t tired.
Not really.
He was buzzing.
High on adrenaline.
High on winning.
A little drunk on champagne.
But none of that mattered.
He just wanted Oscar.
He didn’t head toward the main exit this time.
Didn’t even look in that direction.
Instead, he unlocked his phone and followed the small blue dot.
The path took him along the outer edge of the circuit, past barriers, fencing, the smell of rubber still hanging in the air. It felt strange, walking away from it all after a day like this.
Eventually, he reached a gate he didn’t even know existed.
Half hidden. Quiet.
A few workers stood there, chatting, ready to leave.
They looked up when they saw him.
Surprise flickered across their faces.
But no questions.
They scanned his pass, let him through like it was the most normal thing in the world.
The gate clicked behind him.
And just like that, everything went quiet.
No cameras.
No noise.
Just Oscar.
Leaning against the black Senna, sunglasses low, the last light of the day catching on his face.
Like he’d been waiting.
Like he wasn’t going anywhere.
Lando didn’t hesitate.
Didn’t think.
Didn’t slow down.
He dropped his bag somewhere behind him and crossed the distance in seconds, crashing straight into him.
Full force—breathless, laughing, alive.
Oscar barely had time to brace before Lando collided with him, champagne-clean hair still slightly damp, victory radiating off him in waves.
“Congratulations,” Oscar said, voice low. Softer than usual. He wrapped his arms around Lando properly, firm and steady, like he meant it.
Up close, he smelled faintly of petrol and something clean.
Oscar didn’t say anything more when they parted. Not when he stepped back. Not when he reached past Lando to open the passenger door of the Senna.
Calm as ever.
Like his pulse wasn’t doing anything unusual.
He bent to grab Lando’s abandoned bag from the gravel before sliding into the driver’s seat, movements unhurried, precise.
The engine started with that familiar, low purr.
They pulled away.
“What, no more tips?” Lando teased, settling into the seat. “Nothing about what I could improve?”
Oscar glanced at him, one brow lifting slightly.
Then he smiled—small, but real.
“No, Lan. You did well today.”
Lando looked ahead for a second.
Then back at him.
“I won,” he said, like he needed to hear it out loud.
Like it still didn’t fully feel real.
A beat.
Then, quieter—
“I won your home race, Oscar.”
The words stayed between them.
Heavy in a different way.
Oscar didn’t answer immediately.
Just focused on the road, merging into traffic as the city lights began to take over.
Golden hour fading into something softer.
Then—
“I know,” he said.
Simple.
But there was something in it.
Something Lando felt more than understood.
“Can I get my surprise now?” Lando asked, practically bouncing in his seat.
Oscar didn’t even look at him at first, just a quiet laugh under his breath. “Patience. We have to get there first.”
“Oscaaaar,” Lando dragged his name out, turning toward him fully now, “I’ve been patient enough.”
The car slowed.
Stopped.
Before Lando could even reach for the handle, Oscar was already out, walking around the front of the Senna like this was all part of some carefully timed plan.
He opened the door for him.
“C’mon, Mr. Winner.”
Lando narrowed his eyes slightly, suspicious now, but he took his hand anyway and stepped out.
The air felt different here.
Quieter.
He looked around, trying to place it.
It felt familiar.
Too familiar.
The kind of place he’d been before—narrow streets, walls layered with paint, colours bleeding into each other, old pieces half-covered by new ones. It reminded him instantly of that street art lane he’d visited last year.
But it wasn’t the same.
He knew it wasn’t.
There were no hearts.
No exact corners he recognised.
Still—
Close enough to make something in his chest tighten.
“Osc… what is it?” he asked, a little more cautious now, falling into step beside him.
Oscar didn’t answer.
Just kept walking.
That only made it worse.
They passed one wall after another, each covered in different styles—murals, tags, pieces half-finished. The ground uneven under their feet, bits of gravel shifting as they moved deeper between the buildings.
Lando kept glancing at him.
Trying to read him.
But Oscar gave nothing away.
Too calm.
Too quiet.
Like he was waiting for something.
One turn.
Another.
Further in.
The noise of the city disappeared completely now, replaced by nothing but their footsteps and the faint hum of something distant.
“Oscar,” Lando tried again, softer this time, almost nervous without meaning to be. “You’re being weird.”
A hint of a smile tugged at Oscar’s lips, but he still didn’t answer.
Just reached back briefly, catching Lando’s wrist to guide him around one last corner.
Then—
He stopped.
Lando nearly walked into him.
“What—”
And then he saw it.
At first, it didn’t register.
Just another wall.
More colour.
More paint.
Then his brain caught up.
The shapes.
The colours.
The patterns.
Familiar.
Too familiar.
He took a step closer.
Then another.
His breath caught somewhere in his chest.
Because it wasn’t just similar.
It was his.
His neon blobs, splashed across the entire wall in chaotic layers of colour. The same style, the same movement, the same instinctive shapes he’d drawn a hundred times without thinking.
Except now—
They were here.
Real.
Big.
Permanent.
At least until someone won’t paint over them.
Lando just stared.
Like if he looked away it might disappear.
Like it didn’t quite make sense.
“Osc—” his voice broke slightly, caught between a laugh and something softer.
He turned to him, eyes wide, something bright and overwhelming behind them.
“Osc!”
“Do you like it?” Oscar asked, like it wasn’t already obvious.
Lando turned to him slowly, like he couldn’t quite believe the question.
“Do I like it?” he echoed, almost offended, then laughed—bright, disbelieving. “It’s incredible, I love it, Osc.”
He looked back at the wall, shaking his head slightly, still trying to take it all in.
“Did you do this?”
Oscar huffed quietly. “No. I don’t think my artistic skills would do it justice.” He scratched the back of his neck, something almost shy in the gesture. “I left it to a professional.”
Lando’s eyes flicked back to him, widening slightly.
“You paid someone to do that for me?”
“No,” Oscar chuckled. “Called in an old favour.”
Lando just stared at him for a second.
Then back at the wall.
Then at him again.
Like he was trying to process which part of this was more ridiculous.
They fell into silence after that, both of them looking at it.
Lando couldn’t quite wrap his head around it.
He’d gotten gifts before.
Big ones. Expensive ones. The kind people expected someone like him to receive—jewellery, trips, cars.
But this—
This was different.
This felt… personal.
Thought out.
Like someone had actually seen him.
“You could’ve told me to bring my camera,” Lando muttered eventually, pouting slightly as he glanced back at him.
“You mean this camera?”
Oscar lifted his hand.
Lando blinked.
Because there it was.
His camera.
“Did you steal it from my bag?” he squeaked, already reaching for it anyway.
Oscar raised his arm just out of reach, a smirk tugging at his lips.
“No. I took it from your bag because I knew you’d want it.”
Lando huffed, stepping closer, trying again to grab it.
“Oscar—”
But Oscar just lifted it a little higher, clearly enjoying this far too much.
The younger just raised his brow, clearly not impressed.
“Oscar.” Lando tried again, reaching up, fingers barely missing the camera.
He stretched a little more, almost on his toes now, but it was useless. The few centimetres between them suddenly felt like a mile.
Oscar didn’t even move, just watched him with that same smug look.
“Please,” Lando tried again, softer this time, dragging the word out.
Oscar held it there for one more second, then smirked.
“Was it so hard?”
He finally gave it to him.
Lando pouted, lips pressed together like he wanted to complain, but didn’t. He had more important things to do.
The light.
He turned back to the wall immediately, lifting the camera, checking it quickly.
The evening light hit perfectly now, softer than before, golden enough to make the colours blend in a completely different way. The neon looked warmer, deeper, almost glowing against the concrete.
He moved without thinking.
One step back.
Click.
A bit to the side.
Click.
Closer.
Click.
He crouched slightly, trying a lower angle.
Click.
Then stood up again, moving further away, framing the whole wall this time.
Click.
He didn’t even realise how many photos he was taking.
Oscar stayed where he was, watching him quietly.
There was something about it.
The way Lando focused.
The way he forgot everything else when he had a camera in his hands.
The way he looked… happy.
Not the loud, public kind.
Something softer.
Real.
“Osc, I need a photo with my wall!” Lando finally said, turning back to him, a little breathless, already walking over.
He pushed the camera into Oscar’s hands without waiting for an answer.
Oscar looked down at it like it might betray him.
“Lan, I have no idea how to use that.”
Lando huffed and stepped closer immediately.
Too close.
But neither of them moved away.
“I’ll show you, it’s easy.”
He reached for the camera, his fingers brushing against Oscar’s as he adjusted the grip, turning it slightly in his hands.
“Okay, look—this is focus,” he pointed, leaning in more, his shoulder almost pressed against Oscar’s chest now. “And this one changes the lighting—don’t overdo it, or it’ll look weird.”
He tilted the camera slightly.
“No, not like that—like this.”
His hand stayed over Oscar’s for a second longer than necessary, guiding the angle, adjusting it carefully.
“See? And then you just press this.”
Oscar wasn’t really looking at the camera.
Not fully.
His gaze flicked between the screen and Lando’s face, too close, too easy to notice details he probably shouldn’t be focusing on.
“Got it,” he said anyway.
Lando stepped back finally, though not far, still watching him carefully.
“Don’t mess it up,” he said, half serious, half teasing.
Oscar raised his brow again, familiar now.
“Go stand by your wall, Lan.”
Lando rolled his eyes but turned anyway, walking back toward it.
He hesitated for a second, suddenly unsure what to do with himself, then leaned casually against the painted concrete, one hand brushing over the neon shapes like he needed to confirm it was real.
“Is this good?” he asked, glancing over.
Oscar lifted the camera.
“Yeah.”
Click.
Lando shifted slightly.
Click.
“Wait—one more.”
He pushed himself off the wall, turning a bit, smile softer now, less staged.
Click.
Oscar lowered the camera slowly, looking at the screen for a second longer than necessary.
Lando walked back over immediately, impatient.
“Show me.”
Oscar turned the screen toward him.
Lando leaned in again, shoulder brushing his, eyes scanning the photos quickly.
And then—
He smiled.
Really smiled.
“Okay,” he said softly. “Yeah… that’s good.”
Lando insisted on taking at least one photo of Oscar as well, and he only agreed to make him shut up.
“Stand there,” Lando said, already lifting the camera again, pointing vaguely at the wall.
Oscar sighed but did as told, leaning back against the painted concrete, arms loose at his sides, looking entirely too natural for someone who claimed he didn’t care.
“Don’t look like you hate me,” Lando added, squinting through the lens.
“I don’t hate you,” Oscar said flatly.
“Could’ve fooled me.”
Oscar rolled his eyes but didn’t move.
Click.
Lando adjusted slightly.
“Okay wait—this one’s actually good.”
Click.
He lowered the camera, checking the screen with a small nod, clearly satisfied.
“Yeah… I’m keeping that.”
Oscar just shook his head, pushing himself off the wall.
“I wish we had paint,” Lando said suddenly, almost to himself, still looking at the wall. “So I could sign it.”
Oscar raised a brow at that.
“Didn’t take you for a rebel like that.”
Lando turned to him immediately, grin already forming.
“It’s completely legal here!” he protested. “I looked it up last year!”
“It might be legal on Hosier Lane,” Oscar said, unimpressed. “But definitely not here.”
“Oscar!” Lando looked genuinely scandalised. “Why wouldn’t you choose a spot that’s legal for that?”
Oscar shrugged lightly, like it really wasn’t that deep.
“I had to make sure it’d still be here until your race ended,” he said. “Also wanted somewhere quiet.”
Lando blinked.
Because… yeah.
That made sense.
Still—
“That’s so annoying,” he muttered, though there was no real bite to it, eyes drifting back to the wall again, softer now.
Like he didn’t actually mind.
Not really.
“C’mon, your next surprise starts soon.” Oscar took his hand and tugged lightly.
“There’s more?” Lando looked at him, eyes lighting up instantly.
Oscar chuckled. “Yeah. Planned a consolation prize, didn’t I?”
Lando followed without question, excitement bubbling right back up. “What is it?”
“I’ll show you my real home race, Mr. Winner.”
It sounded teasing, almost sarcastic—but there was no edge to it. If anything, there was something warm underneath. Something that felt… proud.
Lando’s grin only widened.
They reached the car just as the sun dipped fully below the horizon, the last light fading into evening.
The drive took a while, long enough for the city to shift around them, until Oscar finally pulled into a crowded parking lot of an open shopping centre. It was bright, alive even at this hour—completely different from the quiet, abandoned strip Lando had seen before.
This was buzzing.
Rows of cars lined up with their hoods open, people gathered in small groups, leaning over engines, talking, laughing. The low hum of conversation filled the space, occasionally broken by the sharp rev of an engine cutting through it.
Lando leaned toward the window immediately, curiosity taking over. His eyes moved quickly, scanning—modified setups, upgraded turbos, custom intakes. He didn’t even realise how focused he got.
Then suddenly—
Something soft dropped onto his head.
He blinked.
Oscar’s cap.
The Aussie had taken it off without a word and placed it over Lando’s curls, adjusting it quickly, almost instinctively.
“People are staring,” he said simply.
Lando snorted. “Mr. Piastri just rolled in. Of course they are.”
It was light. Playful.
But when he turned his head slightly, something shifted.
People weren’t just looking at Oscar.
They were looking at him.
The looks weren’t the same as before—not like the tension back in Perth, when the black Senna had pulled in and everything had gone quiet, territorial.
This was different.
Curious.
Measuring.
Who was sitting in the passenger seat?
And Oscar—steady, composed Oscar had given up his cap without a second thought.
The younger parked toward the edge of the lot, away from the thickest crowd, and killed the engine.
“Stay put,” he said, already climbing out.
The door shut before Lando could protest.
He watched through the tinted glass, trying not to make it obvious he was watching. Oscar slipped into it effortlessly the second his feet hit the ground—like he belonged here in a way he didn’t anywhere else. A few nods, quick grins, hands clapping his shoulders. Easy. Natural.
A guy slightly shorter than him — maybe even a bit shorter than Lando approached, animated, talking with his hands. Oscar leaned in to listen.
And then the hood of the Senna was lifted.
Metal blocked his entire view.
Lando sank back into the seat, crossing his arms over his chest.
Annoyed.
Because seriously?
He was an adult. Older than the Aussie. A race winner — today, actually.
And he’d just been told to stay inside like a toddler left in the car during a petrol stop.
He toyed with the idea of getting out anyway. Slamming the door just a little too hard. Making a point.
He could.
He really could.
But something about it didn’t sit right.
Not because he couldn’t.
Because Oscar had asked him not to.
And for some reason, that mattered more than it should.
And then there was the other side of it.
The realistic side.
He could be recognised in seconds. Especially tonight. Especially after winning. One wrong photo, one tag online, and suddenly this quiet corner of Oscar’s world wouldn’t be quiet anymore.
So he stayed.
Watched the shifting shadows over the windshield as people leaned over the open hood. Heard the faint bursts of laughter. Caught pieces of Oscar’s voice, low and easy.
The cap slipped slightly over his eyes and he adjusted it with a quiet huff.
Five minutes passed.
Then ten.
His annoyance simmered into something else.
Not jealousy — he refused to call it that but a tightness low in his stomach. Because out there, Oscar looked at ease. At home.
And in here—
Lando felt like something hidden.
Like something temporary.
Like something that didn’t quite belong in that space.
He shifted in the seat, jaw tightening slightly, eyes flicking back to the hood like he could somehow see through it if he tried hard enough.
Just as he was about to give up and step out anyway—
The hood dropped with a solid thud.
Lando straightened slightly without meaning to.
Oscar rounded the front of the car, tapping the windshield lightly with his knuckles before opening the passenger door.
“You good?” he asked, like he hadn’t just left him stewing.
Lando tilted his head, unimpressed. “Thought you said this was your home race. Looks like you’re the main event.”
Oscar’s mouth twitched.
“They wanted to see the upgrades.”
A beat.
“On the car, Lan.”
Lando rolled his eyes, but the corner of his mouth betrayed him.
Oscar started the engine again, the Senna rolling forward slowly, almost lazily, weaving between clusters of people and parked builds. The atmosphere shifted as they moved—heads turning again, conversations pausing just slightly as the car passed.
“Are we already leaving?” Lando asked, trying — and failing to mask the disappointment in his voice.
“No.” Oscar’s tone stayed even as he guided the Senna toward the far end of the lot, closer to the open exit that spilled onto a wide stretch of road. He aligned the car neatly between the faded white lines and let it idle.
“Now,” he added, glancing sideways, “we’re waiting.”
Lando frowned slightly. “Waiting for what?”
Oscar didn’t answer straight away.
He just smirked.
And Lando’s breath caught before he could stop it.
There was something unfair about that expression—controlled, deliberate, but with something sharper underneath. Something that didn’t belong to the calm, quiet version of Oscar he’d gotten used to. This one was beautiful in a way that felt mildly dangerous.
“For someone brave enough,” Oscar said at last.
As if summoned by the words, the low growl of another engine rolled through the lot.
Heads turned.
A modified Nissan — loud, lowered, clearly built with care pulled toward the exit lane. The same shorter guy from earlier was in the driver’s seat, window down, elbow hooked casually over the door.
He revved once.
Not loud enough to show off.
Just enough to ask.
Oscar’s fingers tightened slightly on the steering wheel. Not tense. Focused.
Lando looked between them, eyes narrowing slightly. “You’re kidding.”
Oscar didn’t look at him. “You wanted my home race.”
Another rev. Louder now.
The space ahead of them was clear — a long, straight stretch before the next set of lights. Not official. Not announced.
The space ahead of them stretched open—a long, clean straight leading out past the lights. No signals. No countdown.
But it didn’t need one.
Lando felt it anyway.
That shift in the air.
Oscar’s hands adjusted on the wheel—not tight, not nervous.
Focused.
Ready.
His lips curved just slightly.
“Seatbelt on?”
Lando’s stomach flipped.
He had spent the entire afternoon being the professional. Managing tyres. Managing fuel. Managing expectations. Standing on a podium under fireworks with cameras shoved in his face.
And now he was sitting passenger while Oscar Piastri — local street legend apparently lined up at a random shopping centre exit like it was the most normal thing in the world.
“Oscar,” Lando warned, but there was no real bite in it. More awe than authority.
Oscar adjusted his grip on the wheel.
“You trust me?”
That shut Lando up.
Because yeab. Annoyingly. Completely.
He exhaled sharply and reached for the seatbelt, adjusting it properly this time. “If we die after I win your home race, I’m haunting you.”
“Relax it’ll just be a launch.” Oscar’s mouth twitched.
The Nissan’s driver raised three fingers out the window.
Lando felt it immediately—his pulse kicking up again, sharp and familiar but different from lights-out nerves. Messier. Less controlled.
Two.
Oscar changed.
Just like that.
The teasing disappeared, something sharper settling in its place. His jaw set, eyes locked forward, hands steady on the wheel.
One.
Tyres screamed, rear stepping out before snapping back into line.
Oscar didn’t react the same way.
He didn’t just floor it.
He fed the throttle in—controlled, deliberate—and the Senna hooked. No drama, no wasted movement, just a brutal, clean surge that slammed Lando back into the seat.
“Bloody hell—” Lando breathed, half laugh, half disbelief.
First gear disappeared almost instantly. The engine screamed, higher and cleaner than the Nissan’s guttural roar.
But instead of staying on the straight, the Nissan veered right at the last second — not toward the main road, but into a side stretch that curved around the back of the shopping complex.
Lando’s stomach dropped.
“That’s not a straight!” he shouted.
Oscar’s lips curved slightly. “Didn’t say it was.”
He followed.
Second gear slammed in as they hit the bend.
The corner wasn’t tight, but it wasn’t forgiving either. The road dipped and shifted, painted lines flashing under the headlights, a median appearing too fast for comfort.
The Nissan braked late, rear twitching as it clipped the corner aggressively.
Oscar braked smoother — later than Lando would’ve liked — the ceramic brakes biting hard but controlled. The Senna rotated cleanly through the curve, downforce pressing it into the asphalt like an invisible hand.
Lando grabbed the door this time for real.
They burst out of the corner nearly side by side.
Third gear.
A short straight opened — but only for a breath before the road kinked left under a pedestrian bridge. Shadows swallowed them briefly, headlights flashing across concrete pillars.
The Nissan’s exhaust cracked loudly on the upshift, slightly unsettled over a patch of uneven asphalt.
Oscar adjusted mid-corner without thinking — tiny steering correction, barely visible, but enough. The car stayed planted.
“You’ve getting cocky,” Lando accused, adrenaline spiking.
Oscar didn’t deny it.
They shot toward a roundabout ahead — small, badly lit, decorative palm tree in the centre.
The Nissan dove inside.
Messy.
Fast.
Oscar took a wider entry, faster exit. Smooth in, sharp out. The rear stepped just slightly before traction control kissed it back into line.
The centrifugal force shoved Lando sideways.
He was grinning now.
Fully grinning.
“This is illegal,” he said breathlessly.
“Very.”
They came out level again.
Another short straight.
Another corner—tighter this time.
The Nissan pushed too hard into it, braking late, tyres protesting.
Oscar didn’t hesitate.
Carried more speed through the apex.
Got on power earlier.
Fourth gear.
The Senna surged ahead properly this time — not by brute force alone, but by cleaner lines. Better exits. Precision over chaos.
The gap widened to a full car length.
Ahead, traffic lights shifted yellow.
Oscar lifted.
Hard but controlled braking. No intersection gamble. No heroics.
The Nissan slowed too, pulling up beside them at the red light.
Silence fell except for ticking engines and distant cheers echoing from somewhere behind.
Lando was breathing like he’d just done qualifying.
He turned slowly toward Oscar.
“That,” he said, voice charged and disbelieving, “was not a launch.”
Oscar finally looked at him, calm settling back in like it had never left.
“You handled it well for a circuit driver.”
“I was in the passenger seat!”
Lando let out a slightly hysterical laugh, pushing the cap back into place as it slipped over his eyes.
“You’re insane.”
“Still didn’t scream,” Oscar said, and there was something almost proud in his voice.
“I absolutely screamed.”
A beat.
Oscar’s eyes flicked over him then—quick but thorough. Flushed cheeks, hair a mess under the cap, grin still too wide to be normal, pupils blown with adrenaline.
He looked… alive.
“You trust me?” Oscar asked again, quieter this time.
Not teasing.
Not challenging.
Just asking.
Lando didn’t hesitate.
“Yeah,” he said. “I do.”
The light turned green.
This time, Oscar drove normally.
Smooth.
Controlled.
Like nothing had just happened.
Lando leaned back into the seat, exhaling slowly, the adrenaline still buzzing under his skin, refusing to settle.
“You really wanted me to see you win as a consolation prize if I didn’t get podium?” he said after a moment, voice light, teasing. “You’re cruel, Osc.”
Oscar didn’t react straight away. Just kept his eyes on the road, one hand resting loosely on the wheel.
“I didn’t think of a proper consolation prize,” he said finally, tone easy, “because I knew you wouldn’t need one.”
That—
That made Lando shut up.
Completely.
Because there was no joke in it.
No teasing edge.
Just certainty.
And somehow, that hit harder than anything else Oscar had said that night.
Lando looked at him for a second, something shifting quietly in his chest, before he turned his gaze back to the road.
The silence that followed wasn’t awkward.
Just… full.
“Alright, you hungry?” Oscar asked suddenly, glancing at him.
Lando turned his head immediately, expression softening into something almost ridiculous.
“I want pancakes,” he said, no hesitation.
Oscar huffed a quiet laugh. “I don’t think we’ll find a place that serves pancakes at this hour.”
Lando looked at him again, a little more carefully this time, voice dropping slightly.
“Room service has pancakes.”
There was something almost shy about it.
Oscar caught it.
“Alright.”
Just like that.
They pulled into the Hilton parking lot again.
But this time it didn’t feel heavy.
Didn’t feel like an ending.
If anything, it felt like something continuing.
They got out of the car, and Lando didn’t even think about it before reaching for his hand again. Oscar let him, fingers fitting together easily as they walked toward the entrance.
It was quiet between them.
Not empty.
Just careful.
They stayed close as they made their way inside, both more aware now.
Of people.
Of eyes.
Of what this could look like.
They didn’t say it out loud, but every step was measured. Subtle adjustments. Hands slipping apart for a second when someone passed too close, then finding each other again when it was safe.
Not wanting to explain.
Not wanting to break whatever this was.
Their little bubble.
And somehow, they made it upstairs without being stopped.
Without being seen.
Without anything interrupting it.
They both changed into Lando’s clothes this time.
They fit Lando perfectly, loose and comfortable, but on Oscar they sat just a bit too tight, slightly shorter at the ankles, like they weren’t meant for him at all.
He didn’t complain.
Didn’t even mention it.
Lando noticed anyway.
Tried not to smile about it.
Oscar moved around the room like it was nothing, picking up the phone and ordering without hesitation, voice calm and steady.
“Pancakes, yeah?” he asked, glancing over.
“And whatever else,” Lando added quickly. “I’m starving.”
Oscar huffed under his breath but added more to the order anyway before hanging up.
The room settled after that.
Quiet.
Comfortable.
Lando dropped onto the bed, stretching out, limbs heavy but his mind still buzzing from everything—the race, the adrenaline, the drive, Oscar.
Oscar turned back toward him, leaning briefly against the desk before walking over.
“Wanna play Mario Kart?” Lando asked, smiling up at him.
Oscar raised a brow.
“You sure you can handle losing after today?”
Lando pushed himself up slightly, offended. “Excuse me? I just won a Grand Prix.”
“Exactly,” Oscar said, sitting down beside him, completely unfazed. “Don’t get used to it.”
Lando snorted, grabbing the controllers.
“You’re insufferable.”
Oscar took one without protest.
“And you’re about to lose,” he said simply.
Lando leaned a little closer without thinking, shoulder brushing his.
“We’ll see about that.”
Notes:
Was the surprise the most wholesome, cool and amazing thing Lando could get? Yes.
Did participating in a street race almost gave Lando an heart attack? Yes.
Was it more about the race or Oscar? He won’t say but you can guess.
I was talking to a coworker the other day about my writing, and he joked that I’m never going to get rich from it.
And honestly?
I don’t care.
I’m doing it for that one moment—when someone cares enough to make a TikTok edit about it.
That’s it. That’s the goal.
Chapter 12: Cooldown lap
Notes:
Welcome on update day, first of all I wanted to apologise for not always answering to all comments it’s hard to keep up 😭
Secondly I wanted to tell you how big of an impact this fic has on my life — I told my nail artist I want my nails to give “petrol stained road on sunset” vibes. What? 😭
Also I decided it is finally time to prepare for my GP, and I’m making a diy jacket with Max’s logo so wish me luck 🫡
Oh and also my mum bought me a tamagotchi (yes because of Landoscar) when we were shopping because I was so excited to see one (I’m 26 btw bushing 27).
My life is chaotic but oh well.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The next morning felt heavy.
From the moment Lando opened his eyes, there was a tightness in his chest he couldn’t quite shake. The kind that didn’t come from nerves or pressure—but from knowing something was about to end.
Their time had run out.
Beside him, Oscar was still asleep for once. Breathing steady, slow, one arm thrown loosely around Lando’s waist—until Lando shifted slightly, and the grip tightened instinctively, like even half-asleep he wasn’t ready to let go.
Lando let out a quiet breath, something close to surrender.
Because truth be told—
He didn’t want to get up.
Not yet.
Not when everything felt like this.
With no easy way to reach his phone, he turned his head slightly toward the window instead, trying to judge the time by the light outside.
Still dark.
Too early.
Good.
He shifted carefully onto his other side, closer this time, fitting into the space without really thinking about it.
Oscar didn’t wake.
Just adjusted slightly, holding him a little closer.
Lando closed his eyes again.
The next time he woke up, it was to his alarm.
Sharp. Unwelcome.
A reminder that reality was waiting.
Lando groaned quietly, eyes still closed as he reached blindly for his phone, fingers fumbling across the sheets.
Before he could find it—
A soft shift beside him.
The sound cut off.
Silence.
Lando opened his eyes slowly, almost carefully, like if he did it too fast the moment might disappear.
Oscar was awake.
Looking down at him, hair a mess, voice still rough with sleep.
“Aren’t you clingy?” he chuckled, accent heavier like it always got in the mornings.
Lando blinked.
Then realised.
At some point during the night, things had shifted.
Now he was half sprawled across Oscar’s chest, one leg thrown over him, arm tucked in like he’d decided this was his spot and never moved again.
He didn’t move away.
“Excuse you,” he muttered, voice still thick with sleep. “I tried to get out of bed hours ago, but you didn’t let me.”
Oscar huffed softly, not even pretending to deny it.
They stayed like that for a while—neither moving, neither speaking. Just… there, holding onto it for as long as they could.
Because once they moved, once they spoke—
It would be over.
Lando’s phone buzzing broke it.
Sharp against the quiet.
He groaned softly but didn’t move at first, like ignoring it might make it stop.
It didn’t.
Oscar shifted slightly instead, reaching over and grabbing it from the bedside, glancing at the screen before handing it to him without a word.
Lando took it with a quiet sigh.
“Hi.”
His tone changed immediately.
Not cold.
Just… different.
“Yes, I’m awake,” he said, already sounding more alert, more put together than he felt. “Yes, I know the flight’s in four hours.”
A pause.
“No, I don’t need a ride. I’ve got it covered.”
Short.
Professional.
Efficient.
Like the morning before never happened.
The second the call ended, Lando dropped the phone onto the other side of the bed and groaned, dragging a hand over his face.
“I need a shower,” he muttered, pushing himself up slowly. “And pack.”
Reality.
Again.
Oscar sat up a bit more, watching him.
“You go shower,” he said simply. “I’ll take care of the rest.”
Lando looked at him.
And smiled.
Soft.
Grateful.
“Thanks.”
Oscar folded the clothes carefully into the suitcase, the quiet sound of the shower running behind the closed door filling the room.
He moved slower than he needed to.
Not because it was difficult.
Because it meant something.
He paused for a second when he picked up the sweater Lando had worn yesterday, fingers brushing over the fabric like it might still hold some warmth. Then the hoodie—one he must’ve taken earlier without even realising.
Oscar hesitated.
Then packed them anyway.
He had more than enough clothes.
That wasn’t the point.
The thought of Lando wearing them—even when he wasn’t around settled somewhere deeper than he expected. Something quiet. Something a little too close to possessive for comfort.
He didn’t question it.
Just zipped that part of the bag closed.
He left a set of clean, comfortable clothes out on the bed for the flight, placed neatly, like it had been planned.
By the time Lando came out of the shower, hair still damp, the room was almost ready.
Oscar didn’t waste time.
He slipped past him with a quiet “your turn done?” and disappeared into the bathroom for his own quick shower.
No lingering.
No overthinking.
Just enough.
When he came back out, Lando was already dressed, fully put together again, zipping up his bags.
Back to himself.
Or at least—
Something closer to it.
Oscar paused for a second, taking it in.
Then stepped forward.
“Breakfast?”
Lando just nodded.
He didn’t trust himself to say more without it sounding like something else.
Oscar picked up all the luggage without a word—because of course he did—and headed for the door. Lando followed, grabbing only his phone, falling into step beside him.
This time, they kept their distance.
Not too obvious.
Just enough.
Hands didn’t brush. Shoulders didn’t bump. They walked like two people who just happened to be heading the same way.
Nobody questioned it.
Not the staff.
Not the guests passing by.
To anyone looking, Oscar could’ve been part of the team. Someone from PR. A mechanic. Someone who belonged in that space without drawing attention.
And Lando—
Lando knew how to play his part.
They reached the parking lot quickly.
The car was already packed within seconds, Oscar fitting everything in like he’d done it a hundred times before.
Then they were back inside.
Doors closing.
Seatbelts clicking.
And just like that—
They were on the road again.
The city moving around them, early morning still quiet, the kind of silence that didn’t last long.
Neither of them spoke at first.
Because there wasn’t much left to say.
Not without making it harder.
Oscar parallel parked smoothly on a quiet street, right in front of a small coffee shop.
“Wait a second,” he said, already unbuckling.
Lando didn’t argue.
Didn’t even look at him, just adjusted the bucket hat lower on his head and sank further into the seat as the door shut.
The quiet was… easier like this.
He pulled his phone out, unlocking it without really thinking.
An hour.
That’s all he had.
For a moment, the thought came back.
Not going.
Staying.
Just one more day.
Stretching it a little further, like they had been doing this whole time.
But it faded as quickly as it came.
Because he knew better.
He had to be in China in three days.
Couldn’t risk delays, transfers, missed connections. The safest option was the one already planned—going now, with the team, in the McLaren yet, no complications.
No excuses.
Still—
He stared at the screen a little longer than necessary before locking it again.
Oscar came back a few minutes later, a small paper bag in one hand, two coffee cups in the other.
He slipped back into the driver’s seat like it was nothing, handing Lando the bag without comment before starting the engine again.
They drove in silence.
Not uncomfortable.
Just… quiet.
The kind that came when there wasn’t much left to say, but neither of them wanted to break it.
Fifteen minutes passed like that.
Then Oscar slowed.
Turned.
And parked again.
This time near a roundabout, the airport visible not far ahead, planes moving slowly in the distance, the reality of it all suddenly a lot closer.
Lando didn’t move at first.
Didn’t say anything.
Just looked ahead.
“Lan?” Oscar asked, voice quieter now. Softer. “What do you want to eat?”
It pulled Lando out of his head instantly.
He blinked, like he’d been somewhere else entirely, then looked down at the bag in his lap. He didn’t think about it—just reached in, grabbed the first thing he felt, and handed the bag back.
Oscar traded it for a cup of tea without a word.
Lando took a bite.
A bagel.
Cream cheese.
He chewed slowly, but barely tasted it.
They ate like that.
In silence.
Watching planes move in the distance, taxiing, taking off, disappearing into the sky one by one.
Lando followed them with his eyes.
Knowing.
Soon—
He’d be on one of them too.
Leaving this.
Leaving the past few days behind.
The easiest he’d felt in… he didn’t even know how long.
That small world they’d somehow built together. Quiet mornings, late nights, stupid banter, comfortable silence.
Oscar.
And going back to something else.
To the version of himself that fit better on camera than it ever did in his own skin.
They finished without really noticing.
Just empty hands.
Empty cups.
The quiet stretching again.
“Ready?” Oscar asked.
Lando swallowed.
“Yeah.”
It was all he trusted himself to say.
“Yeah?” Oscar echoed, turning his head slightly, looking at him properly now.
There was something in his eyes.
Lando couldn’t name it.
Didn’t try.
Oscar leaned closer, slow, careful, like he was giving him time to pull away if he wanted to.
He pushed the brim of the hat up slightly, just enough—
And pressed a soft kiss to his forehead.
It lasted barely a second.
Maybe less.
But it stayed.
Then he pulled back, like nothing had happened, settling into his seat again and starting the engine.
Like it hadn’t just shifted something.
Like it hadn’t meant anything.
But it did.
—
Lando turned around only once after stepping inside the airport.
Just once.
He caught a glimpse of Oscar still leaning against the car, exactly where he left him, like he hadn’t moved at all. His posture was the same, but his eyes were fixed on him—steady, unwavering.
For a second, Lando held it.
Then his vision blurred.
Tears came too fast, too sudden, and he had to look away before they fell.
The airport swallowed him whole after that.
Noise.
Movement.
People.
His team found him quickly in the chaos. Someone took his bag. Someone else had his passport already in hand, flipping through it, checking details. Another voice guided him forward, keeping him moving, step by step.
He didn’t have to think.
Didn’t have time to.
Before he knew it, he was on the plane.
Strapped in.
Surrounded.
And his mind went right back.
To Melbourne.
To Oscar.
He wondered how long he’d stay.
If he’d linger there for a bit, or if he’d get in the car and leave like he always did. Just drive until something else caught his attention.
He wondered if it felt the same for him.
That tight, hollow feeling in his chest.
Like something had been taken too quickly.
Pato was talking beside him.
Complaining about the race, about the spin, about how it could’ve gone differently.
Lando nodded at the right moments.
Didn’t really hear a word.
His phone sat in his hand.
The photo already open.
Him in front of the wall.
The neon colours bright behind him, his smile softer than anything he’d posted in a long time.
He stared at it for a second.
Then typed.
Simple.
I love you Melbourne.
He hit post.
And for a moment, he wondered—
If Oscar would understand what he really meant.
—
Soon enough, he was somewhere else entirely—another city, another country, another continent. Another time zone.
Melbourne felt distant already, like something that had happened a long time ago instead of just hours.
It was Tuesday.
Late.
Too late to think, too late to process anything properly.
He got to the hotel, barely registering the lobby, the elevator, the room. Everything blurred together into one long, quiet movement.
The door closed behind him.
Silence.
He didn’t bother unpacking.
Didn’t check his phone.
Didn’t even turn the lights on properly.
He just let his bag drop somewhere near the door and made it to the bed, collapsing onto it still half-dressed.
The sheets were cold.
Too clean.
Nothing like—
He shut his eyes before the thought could finish.
And for once, sleep came immediately.
—
The whole day, Lando did nothing.
Nothing useful, at least.
He forced himself to go to the gym at some point, more out of fear of Jon’s reaction than any actual motivation. The session was half-hearted, his body there, his mind somewhere else entirely.
Apart from that—
He stayed in his room.
No meetings.
No media.
No sightseeing.
Nothing.
Just lying around, scrolling aimlessly, staring at the ceiling more often than not.
He texted Oscar every now and then, keeping it light, casual. Throwaway messages that made it seem like he was busy, like he had things to do.
Like he wasn’t just… waiting.
Oscar saw through it immediately.
Of course he did.
The call came not long after.
“Hi,” Lando said, picking up, trying to sound normal.
“Did you do anything useful today?” Oscar asked.
Straight to the point.
Lando let out a small breath.
“I—” he hesitated for half a second, then gave up. “No?”
“Lan.” Oscar sighed quietly. “Are you alright?”
“Yeah, I’m—” Lando paused, swallowing. “’m just tired. It’s been a long couple of days.”
“You sure?”
There was something in his voice.
Not pushing.
Just… knowing.
“Yeah.”
“Yeah?” Lando could hear the faint smile in it, like Oscar didn’t believe him for a second.
“Yeah,” he said again, more certain this time, forcing it to sound real. Then he shifted quickly, not wanting to stay there. “What are you up to today? I bet it’s more interesting than me.”
“Not much,” Oscar said easily. “Going to my mum’s for dinner later. She’s been nagging me for ages.”
Lando smiled a little at that.
“Also need to finish up some work at the shop.”
“Why, are you going somewhere?” Lando asked, turning onto his side, suddenly more interested.
“Yeah,” Oscar said. “There’s a race in Adelaide tomorrow.”
Lando stilled slightly.
A race.
Of course there was.
Something in his chest tightened again, not as sharp as before—but enough.
“Of course there is,” he muttered, trying to keep it light.
Oscar didn’t comment on that.
Just let the silence sit for a second.
“Is there a prize if you win?” Lando asked after a moment. “Like a trophy or something?”
Oscar chuckled softly. “I mean… you get cash for it. You pay for entry and whoever wins takes it.”
Lando shifted on the bed, suddenly more interested. “How much?”
“Depends on the city,” Oscar said. “It was five hundred in Perth.”
A small pause.
“Can go up to a thousand in Sydney if there’s a lot of entries. Keeps at least half of them out.”
Lando blinked.
Then did the math.
“So you earned two and a half thousand dollars back then?” he asked, a bit shocked.
Oscar laughed under his breath. “Technically only two thousand since I got my share back.”
Lando huffed a quiet laugh, shaking his head against the pillow.
“That’s insane.”
“It’s not that deep,” Oscar said simply.
“It is,” Lando insisted. “You’re just casually racing random people for money like it’s a normal Tuesday.”
There was a small pause on the line.
Then—
“It kind of is,” Oscar admitted.
Lando went quiet for a second.
Trying to picture it.
Oscar there. In that world. Same calm voice, same steady hands—but doing something completely different from everything Lando knew.
“You ever lose?” he asked, softer now.
Oscar didn’t answer straight away.
“Yeah,” he said eventually.
Lando frowned slightly.
“But not often,” Oscar added.
And there it was again.
That quiet confidence.
Lando smiled to himself, staring up at the ceiling.
“Of course,” he muttered.
A beat passed.
“Do you ever get scared?” he asked, almost without thinking.
This time Oscar did pause.
Longer.
“Not really,” he said. “You don’t have time to be.”
Lando let that sit.
Because that—
That was different from racing.
In his world, fear was managed. Controlled. Built into the system.
In Oscar’s—
It sounded like it didn’t belong at all.
“That’s mental,” Lando murmured.
“Probably,” Oscar said lightly.
Another small silence settled.
Comfortable, but not empty.
Lando turned his head slightly, pressing his cheek into the pillow.
“You better win tomorrow,” he said.
Oscar huffed a quiet laugh.
“Yeah?”
“Yeah,” Lando said, more certain now. “Would be embarrassing if you didn’t.”
For once, it was Oscar who had to run first.
“Don’t mope in your room all day. You’re in Shanghai, go do something fun,” he said, before cutting the call.
Lando stared at the screen for a second after it ended.
Then sighed.
And did the exact opposite.
He grabbed his laptop and spent the rest of the day playing video games, mindlessly queuing into matches, not really caring if he won or lost.
—
The next morning felt… normal.
Or at least what he would’ve called normal a year ago.
Room service breakfast. Cold fruit, decent coffee, something warm he barely tasted.
Training with Jon.
Meetings.
Social media content.
Enough to fill the time.
Not enough to stop his mind from drifting back to Australia every other moment.
Won.
The message came in late at night. The time difference was only three hours, but enough for them to miss each other completely sometimes.
It still made Lando smile when he saw it in the morning.
Media day came and went.
Soon enough, he was back in the car.
Only one free practice.
Sprint quali.
And the first sprint race of the year.
Different format. Less time. Less room for mistakes.
It didn’t go the way he expected.
Not bad.
Just… not right.
Back in the garage, helmet off, still processing, he reached for his phone almost automatically.
The message was already there.
Don’t fight the front end into Turn 1. You’re turning in too early and killing your exit. Let it roll a fraction longer, square it off, and focus on traction out.
Lando stared at it for a moment too long.
Reading it again.
And again.
Let it roll.
Square it off.
Focus on traction.
He exhaled slowly.
“Alright,” he muttered to himself.
Because somehow—
That made sense.
—
He found the koala keychain the morning before the race.
It had slipped between things in his bag, forgotten for a moment.
He didn’t think about it much.
Just picked it up and tucked it into his pocket.
For luck.
For comfort.
For something that still felt like home.
The lights went out clean.
Lando reacted on instinct, clutch bite sharp, tyres hooking just enough as the car surged forward. Not his best launch, but not bad either. He covered the inside instinctively into Turn 1, slotting in behind Pato, who had gotten the better start.
P3.
“Good start, Lando. Settle in.”
“Copy.”
The opening laps were tight, compressed, cars bunched together as everyone fought for position, tyres still coming in, grip not quite there yet. He stayed close, close enough to feel it, but not desperate. Not forcing anything.
Not like yesterday.
Turn 1 came again.
Reflex told him to send it.
Push.
Late brake.
Make something happen.
Instead—
He didn’t.
He let it roll.
Just like Oscar said.
A fraction longer on entry, no fighting the front, no scrubbing speed unnecessarily. He squared it off, focused on the exit, getting the traction down clean.
It felt slower.
But it wasn’t.
“Better, Lando. That’s good.”
He exhaled.
Settled.
The race unfolded in phases.
First stint, he stayed within range, hovering just over a second behind Pato. Close enough to pressure, not close enough to attack. The dirty air made it tricky, front tyres complaining if he got too eager.
He managed it.
Carefully.
Lap by lap.
He watched Pato’s lines, the way he positioned the car through the long corners, where he gained, where he struggled. Data would tell him later but right now, it was instinct.
Observation.
Patience.
Pit window opened.
“Box this lap.”
Clean entry.
Clean stop.
He rejoined still in contention, cycling through traffic as the rest of the field filtered in. A couple of overtakes—precise, efficient, no hesitation.
But no risks either.
Not today.
Second stint.
The gap hovered.
Never quite close enough.
Never far enough to give up.
“Gap to P1 is 1.4.”
“Copy.”
He pushed when he could.
Backed off when he needed.
Managed tyres.
Managed himself.
At one point, he got within DRS.
One second.
0.8.
0.6.
The opportunity was there.
Turn 1 again.
That same instinct flickered.
Go for it.
Send it.
He didn’t.
He stayed back.
Took the better exit.
Stayed in it.
But Pato defended cleanly, no mistakes, no openings.
And Lando knew—
It wasn’t there.
Not today.
Mid-race, the field spread out. The fight grew quieter—less about overtakes, more about execution. He focused on hitting every mark: braking points, throttle application, consistency.
Oscar’s voice echoed in his head more than once.
You’re chasing the lap.
Let it come to you.
So he did.
Or at least he tried.
Final stint. Tyres hanging on, body starting to feel it—arms heavier, neck tighter.
“Gap to P1 is 2.1.”
It had slipped slightly.
Not much.
But enough.
Enough to know this wasn’t a fight he was going to win.
He didn’t give up.
He never did.
But he stopped forcing it. Drove clean—precise, professional. Last few laps, the gap steady. No threats from behind, no real chance ahead. Just bring it home. Final lap.
He crossed the line.
“P2, Lando. That’s P2. Great job.”
“Yeah,” he breathed out. “Good job, guys.”
And he meant it.
Parc fermé.
Out of the car.
Helmet off.
The world rushed back in.
Noise.
Voices.
Cameras.
He smiled.
Because that’s what you do.
Podium.
The view from up there was familiar.
Too familiar.
He stood beside Pato, trophy in hand, champagne spraying, cameras flashing.
Everything exactly how it should be.
Everything exactly what he had worked for.
P2 was solid.
Good points for him. For the team.
A 1–2 finish.
He was still leading the championship.
That should’ve been enough.
More than enough, actually.
More than he’d ever had before.
He told himself it was fine.
That this was good.
That this was what mattered.
He just needed to reset.
Pull himself back together.
Find his rhythm again.
And maybe stop comparing everything to something that wasn’t meant to last.
Lando didn’t call him right away.
He thought about it, more than once. Phone in hand, staring at the contact like it might give him an answer.
He didn’t even know what he wanted from the conversation.
Validation?
Comfort?
Or just to hear his voice again.
In the end, he pressed call before he could overthink it.
—
It rang once.
Twice.
Then—
“Hi, superstar.”
Lando huffed quietly, dropping back onto the hotel bed.
“Don’t start.”
Oscar chuckled on the other end, the sound low, familiar.
“What? You don’t like your new title?”
“I came second,” Lando muttered.
“Yeah,” Oscar said easily. “In Formula One. Tough life.”
Lando rolled his eyes even though he couldn’t see it “It should’ve been better.”
A small pause.
Not heavy.
Just enough.
“It was good,” Oscar said, softer now. “You were cleaner today.”
Lando frowned slightly, staring at the ceiling.
“You watched?”
“Of course I watched.”
Something in his chest eased at that.
Just a little.
“You did that thing,” Oscar continued. “Turn 1. You stopped forcing it.”
Lando let out a quiet breath.
“Yeah.”
“See? You’re learning.”
“Don’t make it sound like I’m your student,” Lando scoffed.
Oscar laughed again.
“Bit late for that, isn’t it?”
Lando smiled despite himself, shaking his head.
There was a pause.
Comfortable.
Familiar.
“So,” Oscar added after a moment, tone shifting slightly lighter again, “still think my racing’s illegal and ridiculous?”
“It is illegal and ridiculous,” Lando said immediately. “At least I do it properly.”
“Oh?” Oscar’s voice sharpened just a little, playful. “Big talk for someone who just came second.”
“Oi—”
“I’m just saying,” Oscar continued, clearly enjoying himself now, “I win my races.”
Lando groaned, dragging a hand over his face.
“You’re insufferable.”
“Yeah, but you called me.”
That shut him up.
Again.
There was something about the way Oscar said things. Simple. Casual.
But they landed anyway.
Lando shifted slightly on the bed, pressing his phone closer to his ear.
“I’m flying back tonight,” he said after a moment.
“Yeah?”
“Yeah. Straight to England.”
“Busy schedule,” Oscar hummed.
“Always.”
A small pause.
“You’ll be alright?” Oscar asked, quieter now.
Lando swallowed.
“Yeah.”
It wasn’t a lie.
Not really.
“I’ll call you when I land,” he added, almost without thinking.
“Alright.”
No hesitation.
No overthinking.
Just that.
They stayed on the phone a little longer.
Talking about nothing.
And everything.
Until eventually—
“I should go,” Lando said.
“Yeah.”
Neither of them hung up immediately.
“Good job today,” Oscar added.
“Thanks.”
A beat.
Then the call ended.
—
The flight back felt longer than it should have.
Different direction.
Different feeling.
Less adrenaline.
More… weight.
Lando sat by the window this time, headphones on but no music playing, watching the clouds stretch endlessly outside.
He tried to sleep.
Didn’t manage much.
His phone sat in his hand most of the time.
Unlocked.
Locked.
Unlocked again.
By the time he landed in England, the sky was grey.
Familiar.
Predictable.
Cold.
A car was already waiting.
Of course it was.
He barely had to think as he was guided through the airport, bag taken, schedule already being mentioned before he even reached the exit.
“Simulator tomorrow morning.”
“Media on Wednesday.”
“Debrief in the afternoon.”
He nodded at all the right moments.
Didn’t really process it.
The McLaren building felt exactly the same as he remembered.
Clean.
Sharp.
Controlled.
Everything in its place.
People greeting him, congratulating him on the results, smiles, handshakes, pats on the back.
“Great drive.”
“Strong points.”
“Good start to the season.”
He smiled.
Said thank you.
Played the part perfectly.
But it felt different now.
Quieter.
Not in sound.
In feeling.
—
He dropped his bag in his room later that evening, standing there for a second, taking it in.
Familiar space.
Familiar life.
His phone buzzed.
A message.
Oscar.
Don’t overthink it. P2 is still good.
Lando stared at it for a moment.
Then typed back.
I know
A pause.
Then another message appeared.
Still beat you in Mario kart though.
Lando let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head.
not true
Delusional.
He dropped the phone onto the bed, a small smile still on his face.
Maybe—
Maybe it wasn’t all gone.
Not completely.
—
The next morning came too quickly.
Lando woke up before his alarm, which almost never happened.
For a second he didn’t move, staring at the ceiling, letting the familiar surroundings settle around him. The room felt different from the hotel. Less temporary. More… him. But the quiet wasn’t the same.
He reached for his phone out of habit.
No new messages.
That was fine.
Of course it was.
He pushed himself up with a small sigh and got ready, moving through the routine almost automatically.
The McLaren building was already buzzing when he arrived.
Early, but never quiet.
Engineers with coffees in hand, screens already filled with data, conversations overlapping in low, focused tones. It was a different kind of energy than a race weekend. Less chaotic. More controlled.
“Morning,” someone called as he walked in.
“Morning,” Lando answered, already slipping into it.
The version of him that fit here.
The simulator session came first.
He dropped into the seat, headset on, hands settling on the wheel.
Familiar.
Comforting, even.
The first few laps were rough. Not mistakes exactly, but something was off. A fraction too aggressive here, a little hesitation there.
“Try smoothing your inputs into Turn 6,” his engineer’s voice came through.
“Yeah, copy.”
He adjusted.
Again.
And again.
Each lap a little better than the last.
By the end of the session, he was back where he needed to be.
Not perfect.
But close.
“Much better,” the engineer said.
Lando pulled the headset off, nodding slightly.
“Yeah.”
He didn’t mention how much of it wasn’t the simulator.
Debrief followed.
Screens, numbers, discussions about tyre wear, corner entry speeds, potential adjustments for the next race.
He contributed where needed, focused, sharp.
Professional.
It was easy to fall back into it.
Too easy.
By the time lunch rolled around, his social battery was already running low.
He grabbed something quick, sitting at one of the tables with a few mechanics, half-listening to a conversation about setups and travel plans.
He nodded at the right moments.
Smiled when expected.
But his mind drifted.
Back to Melbourne.
To the wall.
To the drive.
To the way Oscar had said you trust me?
“You alright?”
Lando blinked, snapping back.
“Yeah,” he said quickly. “Just tired.”
“Jet lag?”
“Something like that.”
They accepted it without question.
Of course they did.
The afternoon was more of the same.
Media content.
A quick shoot for social channels, forced laughter, repeat takes.
“More energy, Lando!”
He gave it.
Because he always did.
—
By the time he got back to his room that evening, he felt drained in a way that had nothing to do with physical effort.
He dropped onto the bed, staring at the ceiling again.
Same position.
Different feeling.
His phone buzzed.
Oscar.
It was already morning for him.
Busy day?
Lando stared at it for a second before replying.
yeah
A pause.
simulator, meetings, media
Three dots appeared almost immediately.
Sounds awful.
Lando let out a quiet huff of a laugh.
it is
what about you
The reply took longer this time.
Shop all day. Broke something, fixed it. The usual.
Lando smiled faintly.
sounds like you
Yeah.
There was a pause.
You’d hate it.
Lando frowned slightly at the screen.
try me
Another pause.
Longer.
Maybe one day.
That—
That sat differently.
Lando didn’t answer right away.
Didn’t know what to say.
So he didn’t.
—
The next morning started slower. No simulator, no immediate schedule breathing down his neck. For once, he had time.
Lando got up without rushing, showered properly, took his time getting ready, throwing on something comfortable instead of team kit for once. It felt different already. Lighter. The meeting with Max wasn’t until early afternoon, just enough time to get into London without stress.
Quadrant. Something that belonged to him in a way the rest of it didn’t.
Max was already there when Lando walked in, exactly as expected. Laptop open, coffee in hand, half-focused on whatever was on the screen.
“Look who decided to show up,” he said without looking up at first, then glanced over with a grin.
Lando rolled his eyes, dropping into the chair opposite him. “Shut up.”
Max snorted, pushing a second coffee across the table without asking. “You look dead.”
“Thanks.”
“China?”
“China.”
Max nodded like that explained everything.
Which, to be fair, it did.
They didn’t waste time after that. Max turned the screen slightly, already mid-thought as he started running through things. Content ideas, upcoming drops, collaborations they’d been lining up, numbers from previous launches.
He talked through it all easily, clearly in his element.
Lando listened, leaning back at first, then forward as it got more specific. He chipped in when needed, throwing out ideas, pushing back where something didn’t feel right, adjusting details. It felt different from anything at the track. Less structured, less filtered. More his.
Max turned the laptop fully toward him. “Alright, look at this.”
Lando leaned forward properly this time.
The Japan collection.
Photos, mock-ups, campaign shots, everything laid out cleanly, sharper than what they’d looked at last time.
“Okay,” Lando said immediately, eyebrows lifting slightly. “That’s sick.”
Max grinned. “Told you.”
They went through it together, slower this time. Max clicked through each slide while Lando stopped him occasionally, pointing things out, asking about small changes.
“This one’s my favourite,” Lando said, pointing at one of the hoodies.
“Yeah?” Max leaned in slightly. “That’s the one we’re pushing the most.”
“Good,” Lando nodded. “It’ll sell out.”
Max laughed. “Confidence.”
“I’m right.”
“You usually are.”
Max kept going, talking him through what had been changed since they last discussed it, what they cut last minute, what had been locked in.
Drop’s set for Suzuka week,” he said, clicking to the next slide. “We’re shooting the last bits in a few days.”
Lando nodded, eyes scanning the visuals again. It was clean. Sharp. Very them.
“This one’s gonna do well,” he said.
“Yeah,” Max agreed. “Feedback’s already good.”
Max clicked through a few more slides.
“We tightened the branding here,” he added. “And cut a couple pieces that didn’t really fit.”
“Good call,” Lando said. “Less but better.
It was easy.
No pressure.
No overthinking.
Just catching up, filling the gaps, making sure everything was aligned.
Max leaned back slightly after a moment, stretching a bit. “Also,” he added, tone more casual now, “you disappeared.”
Lando frowned faintly. “I didn’t disappear.”
“You did a bit.”
“I was working.”
Max gave him a look over the top of his coffee. “Sure.”
Lando rolled his eyes but didn’t argue. It wasn’t worth it.
A small pause settled, quieter than before.
“You good?” Max asked, more casually now.
Lando nodded. “Yeah.”
Max held his gaze for a second longer, like he was deciding whether to push it further.
Then he didn’t.
“Alright.”
They wrapped it up not long after.
Everything set.
Nothing major to fix.
Just execution left.
“Should be a good one,” Max said, closing his laptop.
“Yeah,” Lando nodded. “It’s sick.”
Max smirked. “Glad you approve of your own brand.”
“Shut up.”
The meeting wrapped up eventually, both of them satisfied with what they had.
“Get some rest,” Max said as they stood. “You look like you need it.”
“Everyone keeps saying that.”
“Because it’s true.” the other said clapping him on the back “See you in a few?”
Lando stepped outside, the air cool against his skin.
For a moment, he just stood there.
No schedule.
No noise.
Just… quiet.
He reached for his phone again.
Hesitated.
Then opened their chat.
No new messages.
That was fine.
He typed anyway.
survived meetings
He hit send before he could think about it too much.
A few seconds passed.
Then—
Proud of you.
Lando smiled.
Just a little.
Maybe he was getting back into it.
Slowly.
Not fully.
But enough.
Notes:
Twelve chapters in; 0 proper kisses, 3 forehead/hair kisses, quite a lot of hugs, infinite amount of tension.
Please don’t hate me for that I hate myself enough for making them suffer 😭😭
But I said slow burn AND I MEANT IT.
It’ll burn us slowly and painfully but it will be worth it 😭🫶
Chapter 13: Limit lines
Notes:
I’ll try to stick to only two updates per week from now on, since as it turns out being and adult doesn’t mean I can just rot in bed all day and write 😭
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The few days he had off wore gone quicker than he wanted them to.
They always did.
He met with his friends in London, this time nothing work-related, no cameras, no expectations. Just a casual hangout, easy conversations, familiar faces. It helped. More than he expected.
He laughed more.
Talked more.
Felt a bit more like himself again.
Still—
It didn’t fully stick.
He spent more time in the sim than he was required to, longer sessions, extra runs, staying back even when he didn’t need to. Nobody questioned it. If anything, they appreciated it.
And before he really processed it, he was boarding a plane to Japan.
Max and the Quadrant team with him this time.
—
The flight was… easy.
Conversations that didn’t feel forced, jokes that landed without effort, the kind of comfort that only came from people who had known him long enough to not expect anything from him.
“Mate, you should stream more often,” Max said at one point, glancing over.
“I will try,” Lando said, not for the first time. “I kinda miss it.”
Max snorted. “You always say that.”
“Yeah, well—maybe this time I mean it.”
“Doubt it.”
Lando just rolled his eyes, but he was smiling.
It felt good.
Having them there.
Closer.
Grounding.
He took his phone out as soon as they plane touched the ground.
Without thinking, he opened the chat.
It had become a habit now.
Something automatic.
Something constant.
landed
A second later—
Call me later, yeah?
Lando smiled at the screen.
Soft. Easy.
yeah
They barely spent time at the hotel—just dropped their bags and headed straight out into the city.
Better to kill the jet lag.
Better to keep moving.
Japan buzzed around them, bright lights, unfamiliar sounds, everything alive in a way that forced you to stay present. Lando snapping photos left and right with his camera.
He barely went three steps without lifting it again—tilting it slightly to catch the glow of neon signs reflected in puddles, crouching for a lower angle when a row of lanterns lined the street just right. At one point he stopped completely, adjusting the focus with a quiet frown, waiting for a group of people to pass through the frame like he’d planned it.
Click.
Another one, this time quicker—less precise, more instinct.
He glanced at the screen for half a second, lips pressing together in quiet approval before the camera was back up again. The world felt easier through the lens—structured, controllable. Something he could frame exactly how he wanted, even if everything else lately had been… less cooperative.
He felt different than in Shanghai.
Lighter.
Actually cheerful.
He caught himself laughing again, properly this time, not the practiced version he gave to cameras.
For a brief moment, a thought crossed his mind.
Maybe he should ask Max to come along more often.
To races.
To keep this feeling.
To not feel so… alone.
It settled for a second.
Then he pushed it away.
Because he knew his best friend would say yes.
Immediately.
And Lando didn’t want that.
Didn’t want to be the reason someone else paused their life just to fill the gaps in his.
That wasn’t fair.
Still—it made him think. Maybe he didn’t have to do this alone. He had people. Not just colleagues, not just drivers—friends.
Carlos.
Daniel.
Max.
George.
Alex.
Charles.
People who would show up if he let them.
He just… didn’t always ask.
They made their way back to the hotel later that evening, energy finally catching up to them.
Lando dropped onto the bed for a second, staring at the ceiling, phone already in his hand.
The call barely rang once.
“How is Japan?” Oscar asked.
“Alive,” Lando let out a small, easy laugh. “Actually alive this time.”
Oscar hummed quietly on the other end, like he could hear the difference.
“Yeah?”
“Yeah,” Lando shifted slightly on the bed, one arm tucked behind his head. “Went out straight after landing. Didn’t even unpack.”
“Smart,” Oscar said. “Jet must be brutal there.”
“Tell me about it.”
There was a small pause.
Comfortable.
Familiar.
“So what did you do?” Oscar asked.
“Nothing crazy,” Lando said. “Just walked around, food, the usual. Max’s here with the Quadrant guys so—” he shrugged even though Oscar couldn’t see it, “it’s been… easy.”
“Max keeping you entertained?” Oscar teased lightly.
“Something like that.”
Another pause.
Not awkward.
Just quiet.
“How was your race?” Lando asked after a moment, turning onto his side.
“Good,” Oscar said simply. “Won again.”
“Of course you did,” Lando huffed, smiling to himself. “You’re actually insufferable.”
“I know.”
There was no hesitation in it.
Just quiet confidence.
Lando let out another small laugh, shaking his head.
“Show off.”
“You’ll get there too.” Oscar’s voice was firm, like he was stating a fact.
That—
Landed differently.
Because unlike Oscar, who just took one race at a time, Lando was chasing something bigger.
The whole championship.
“I actually won quite a few times,” Lando corrected.
“You know what I mean.”
He did. That didn’t make it sit any lighter.
Lando stared at the wall for a second.
“You’d like it here,” he said suddenly. “Japan.”
“Oh yeah?”
“Yeah,” Lando nodded to himself. “Cars everywhere. You’d disappear for like three days.”
Oscar chuckled softly. “Sounds about right.”
“You should come sometime,” Lando added, more casual than he felt.
A small pause.
“Maybe.”
Not a no, not a yes. Just… a maybe.
Lando let it sit.
“What are you doing now?” Oscar asked.
“Nothing,” Lando admitted. “Just got back to the hotel.”
“Finally listening to me and not moping?”
“I wasn’t moping,” Lando protested immediately.
“Sure.”
“I wasn’t!”
Oscar laughed quietly.
“Alright, alright.”
Lando smiled, closing his eyes for a second.
“I missed this,” he said before he could stop himself.
There was a slight shift on the other end.
“Yeah?”
“Yeah,” Lando said softer now. “Time difference’s been annoying.”
“Tell me about it,” Oscar muttered. “You keep texting me when I’m asleep.”
“Not my fault you’re in the wrong timezone.”
“Right.”
Another quiet pause settled between them.
Not heavy.
Just… something.
“You ready for Suzuka?” Oscar asked after a moment.
“Yeah,” Lando said, opening his eyes again. “I think so.”
“You’ll be fine.”
There it was again.
Simple.
Certain.
Lando exhaled slowly.
“Yeah.”
They stayed on the call longer than they needed to, talking about nothing—random things, easy things.
Oscar told him about how his sister had been nagging him to drive her to a concert in Sydney.
Lando told him about the upcoming drop, making Oscar swear not to tell anyone.
“Relax, I’m not leaking your little fashion empire,” Oscar said.
“Oi, it’s serious,” Lando protested.
“Sure it is.”
“It is!”
“I believe you,” Oscar said, clearly not believing him at all.
Lando just huffed, smiling anyway.
The tiredness started creeping in properly after a while.
“I should sleep,” Lando muttered eventually.
“Yeah,” Oscar agreed. “Go on.”
A small pause.
“Call you tomorrow?” Lando asked.
“Yeah.”
Easy.
Like always.
The call ended.
Lando stayed on the bed for a moment longer, phone still in his hand.
The room felt quieter again.
But not as empty.
Not this time.
—
The next day started early.
Too early.
They didn’t have time to waste.
It was straight into it—last minute preparations, model fittings, final checks, people moving around constantly, cameras already out before Lando had even properly woken up.
It was chaos.
But a good kind.
—
And then he saw the car.
Lando stopped for a second.
Actually stopped.
“Okay…” he muttered under his breath.
The Nissan R32 looked unreal.
Sleek, white, clean lines with the Quadrant logo sitting perfectly on it like it belonged there from the start. It didn’t look like a project anymore—it looked finished. Proper.
Real.
He felt a grin spread across his face without even trying.
Yeah.
Today was going to be fun.
He pulled his phone out immediately and snapped a picture, not even bothering to frame it properly before sending it.
look at this beauty
He didn’t expect a reply that fast.
Especially not this early for Oscar.
But it came almost instantly.
What’s under the hood though?
Lando rolled his eyes.
Of course.
He turned back toward the car.
“Can I—?” he gestured toward the front.
Someone nodded, already stepping forward to pop it open.
Lando leaned in slightly, snapping a few quick photos, pretending like he knew exactly what he was looking at.
“I like knowing what I’m driving,” he added casually.
Nobody questioned it. Why would they? He was the racer.
He sent the photos, waited a few seconds—then—
Not bad.
Lando frowned immediately.
That felt like an insult.
what do you mean not bad???
The reply came just as quickly.
I mean it could use a bigger turbo and a proper intercooler set up.
Would actually let it breathe properly.
Lando stared at the message.
Of course. Of course Oscar had to find something.
He shook his head, typing back.
your so annoying
let me flex my cool car in peace
You’re*
And I am letting you, just saying it could be cooler.
Lando huffed, shoving his phone back into his pocket.
“Unbelievable,” he muttered to himself, but there was a smile there anyway.
—
“Lando, we need you over here!”
“Yeah, coming!”
He took one last look at the car before turning away, already being pulled into the next thing.
Photos.
Videos.
More photos.
Outfit changes.
Retakes.
“Can we get that again?”
“Just like that, perfect, Lando!”
He gave his all in.
Because he always did.
But this time it didn’t feel draining.
Not really.
There was something lighter about it.
Maybe it was the people.
Maybe it was the car.
Maybe it was the fact he had something—someone—to share it with.
His phone buzzed again in his pocket.
He checked it quickly between takes.
Don’t crash it.
Lando snorted quietly.
shut up
I’m a professional
Circuit professional.
“Mate—” Lando muttered under his breath, shaking his head.
“Everything alright?” someone asked nearby.
“Yeah,” he said quickly, locking his phone. “Perfect.”
And it was.
Or at least—
Close enough.
They shot well into the night.
Hours blurred together countless outfit changes, lighting adjustments, when more retakes, quick breaks that never really felt like breaks. Music playing somewhere in the background, people moving constantly, cameras never fully stopping.
It was exhausting.
But good.
Max ordered takeout at some point, deciding it was easier than trying to get everyone out somewhere.
“Found a place that does sushi and normal food,” he said, handing his phone around for people to pick.
Lando raised a brow.
“Normal food?”
“For you,” Max added dryly.
“Very funny.”
The food arrived fast, boxes spread out on a nearby table, the smell filling the space almost instantly.
Lando took one look at it and tried not to visibly react.
Way too much fish.
Raw fish.
Everywhere.
He grabbed something safe without thinking too much about it, avoiding eye contact with anything that looked even remotely questionable.
Max noticed.
Of course he did.
“Grow up,” he muttered, already sitting down.
“I am grown up,” Lando shot back. “I just have standards.”
“Yeah, no fish.”
“Exactly.”
Max just shook his head, amused.
They ate standing up, sitting wherever they could find space, conversations overlapping, everyone a little too tired to be loud but still riding that productive high.
It felt… good.
Simple.
By the time they wrapped up, everyone was exhausted.
Properly.
The kind of tired that settled into your bones.
Lando stretched his arms above his head, wincing slightly.
“Dead,” he muttered.
“Same,” someone answered from across the room.
Max glanced at him. “Worth it though.”
Lando nodded.
“Yeah.”
It really was.
They packed up slowly, no rush anymore, just finishing what needed to be done.
And when they finally stepped out into the night, the air felt colder, quieter.
A contrast to everything inside.
Lando walked a little slower now.
Energy gone.
Mind calmer.
His phone buzzed in his pocket again.
He already knew who it was before checking.
He smiled slightly as he pulled it out.
“Hi, supermodel,” Oscar teased, and Lando could practically hear the smirk in his voice. “Won’t guess what car went out first today.”
“Let me guess,” Lando sighed, already annoyed. “A Skyline.”
“Bingo,” Oscar chuckled. “But it was an R35. Newer one, somewhere around 2018 if I had to guess, similar to the one like Ricardo has. Nothing like the icon you have.”
Lando smiled at that.
The group walked ahead of him, their voices blending into the night, not far enough for him to feel alone, but far enough for him to drift a little behind.
Into that space.
Into that voice.
“You’re one to talk for someone who drives an Audi,” Lando shot back.
“That’s fair,” Oscar laughed.
There was a small pause, filled only with the quiet hum of the city around Lando.
“So how was your day, supermodel?” Oscar asked.
“Long,” Lando admitted, glancing ahead before slowing his steps just slightly. “But good. We were shooting all day. The car looks insane.”
“Yeah? Still better than mine?”
“You drive an Audi,” Lando repeated.
“Alright, alright,” Oscar said, amused. “I walked into that one.”
Lando huffed a quiet laugh.
“But I’d take the Senna any day,” he added, voice innocent.
“Of course you would.” Oscar probably rolled his eyes.
“Hey, I’m loyal to my brand,” Lando defended. “Mostly.”
“Yeah,” Oscar snorted. “Don’t think I don’t know about your insane car collection back in Monaco.”
Lando slowed slightly.
“Osc, did you stalk me?” he shot back, teasing.
“No,” Oscar laughed. “But your car collection is well known. It’s unnecessarily big and ridiculous.”
“Unnecessarily?” Lando echoed, offended. “That’s a strong word.”
“It is a strong collection.”
“That’s better.”
Oscar hummed, clearly amused.
“Don’t act like you wouldn’t be thrilled to see all of them,” Lando added.
There was a small pause.
“I mean,” Oscar said slowly, “I wouldn’t complain.”
Lando smiled to himself, eyes flicking up to the street ahead.
“Thought so.”
“Still excessive though,” Oscar added.
“You’re just jealous.”
“Of what? Your parking problems?”
Lando laughed properly at that, shaking his head.
“You’re unbelievable.”
“I’m right.”
“You wish you had my problems.”
Oscar let out a quiet chuckle.
“I’ll stick to fixing my own cars.”
“Boring.”
“Did you eat?” Oscar asked suddenly.
“Yeah,” Lando said. “Max ordered. There was way too much sushi.”
Oscar chuckled “You didn’t eat it, did you?”
“No,” he said, like it wasn’t obvious.
“Of course you didn’t.”
“It’s raw fish, Osc.” He gasped.
“It’s good.”
“It’s questionable.”
A pause—just long enough for the noise of the street to fill it. Someone brushed past him, a bike rolling by too close.
Oscar laughed again, softer this time, crackling slightly through the phone.
“You’re hopeless.”
“Yeah, yeah,” Lando muttered, glancing up at a sign he couldn’t read, then turning anyway like he knew where he was going.
—
They walked like that a bit longer. Lando quiet, listening—not really needing to say much.
“You sound better,” Oscar said after a while.
Lando frowned slightly.
“What do you mean?”
“Just… lighter,” Oscar said. “Not like China.”
Lando looked down at the pavement as he walked.
“Yeah,” he admitted after a second. “I think I just needed people around.”
“That helps.”
“Yeah.”
There was a small pause between them.
“Still missed you though,” Lando added, quieter.
It slipped out before he could stop it. There was a shift on the other end—subtle, but there.
“Yeah?” Oscar said.
“Yeah.”
Lando glanced up, catching up slightly with the group before slowing again.
“You’d like it here,” he repeated softly.
Oscar exhaled quietly.
“Maybe I’ll see it one day.”
Not a promise.
Not a dismissal.
Just something in between.
Lando let it sit.
“Go sleep,” Oscar said finally. “You sound tired.”
“I am tired.”
“Then stop walking and go to bed.”
“Bossy,” Lando laughed.
Oscar exhaled a quiet breath. “Someone has to be.”
Lando smiled faintly.
“Call you tomorrow?”
“Yeah.”
Easy.
Like always.
The call ended.
Lando slipped his phone back into his pocket, picking up his pace slightly to rejoin the group.
The laughter, the noise, the warmth of it all wrapped around him again.
But something stayed.
Quiet.
Steady.
And for the first time in a while—
He didn’t feel like he was missing something.
Not entirely.
They didn’t do much for the first half of the next day.
No early calls.
No rushing around.
Just… time.
They stayed in, ordered food, went out for a bit, walked around without any real plan. At some point they ended up back in the hotel, controllers in hand, playing video games like they had nothing better to do.
Lando hadn’t realised how much he needed that.
Something normal.
Something easy.
—
By the time evening rolled around, the energy shifted.
People started moving with purpose again, calls being made, cars being checked, final details sorted.
It was time.
The drive with Liberty Walk in Shibuya.
—
Lando felt it immediately—that buzz, that restless energy under his skin. He tried to play it cool, leaning against the car while someone talked him through the route, the timing, where they’d be going. He nodded at the right moments, listened—but his focus kept drifting.
Back to the car.
“First time driving one of these properly?” someone asked.
Lando smirked slightly.
“I drive for a living.”
They laughed.
“Fair enough.”
Still—this was different.
No engineers in his ear, no strategy, no tyre management. No rules, really. Just the car, the road, the city.
He slid into the driver’s seat, hands settling on the wheel almost instinctively.
Familiar.
And not at all.
He adjusted slightly, testing the pedals, the feel of it, the way it responded even before moving.
Different from the McLaren. Rougher. More… alive.
“Ready?” someone called.
Lando glanced out the window, lights already reflecting off the streets, the city buzzing around them.
A grin spread across his face. “Yeah.”
This—
This was going to be fun.
He put on a show the second they rolled out.
The streets of Shibuya were alive, even more than before, people already lining the sidewalks, phones out, cameras flashing the moment the cars appeared. It didn’t take long for attention to shift.
To him.
Lando leaned into it without hesitation.
One hand loose on the wheel, the other lifting briefly in a casual wave as people recognised him. He smiled through the window, easy, effortless, playing the part like he always did—but this time it felt different.
Less forced.
More… fun.
He pressed the throttle a little harder than necessary more than once, letting the engine roar just enough to turn heads, to hear the reaction ripple through the crowd.
It wasn’t about lap times.
Or precision.
Or being perfect.
It was just—
Enjoying it.
“Careful,” someone’s voice came through the comms, half joking. “We still need the car in one piece.”
Lando laughed under his breath.
“Relax, I’ve got it.”
They cruised for a while like that, the city stretching around them, lights reflecting off the car, the energy building slowly.
Then it shifted.
The route opened up.
Less crowded.
Less controlled.
“Alright, this is where we get the shots,” someone said. “Clean runs, a bit of pace.”
Lando’s grip on the wheel tightened slightly.
There it was.
He rolled the car forward, positioning it where they wanted, waiting for the signal.
The street ahead cleared.
Camera car ready.
Everything set.
“Go.”
Lando didn’t hesitate.
He pressed down properly this time.
The car responded instantly, surging forward, engine loud, raw, nothing like the controlled scream of an F1 car. It was heavier, looser, more unpredictable—but that just made it better.
More real.
He shifted up, pushing it again, letting the speed build just enough before easing off where needed.
Not reckless.
Just a little bit more than necessary.
He could feel it—that edge, that freedom.
No delta times, no limits flashing on the wheel. Just instinct. They reset, did it again—and again. Each run a little cleaner, a little faster, a little more confident.
Lando grinned to himself, adrenaline settling in his chest.
Yeah.
He got it now.
“Last one,” came through the comms.
“Make it good.”
Lando adjusted his grip slightly, eyes flicking down the stretch of road ahead.
“Always do.”
He went again.
Cleaner.
Sharper.
Letting the car flow instead of forcing it. Let it roll, square it off, focus on traction. He laughed under his breath.
By the time he slowed, pulling back into position, his heart was beating faster than it had all day.
Not from pressure.
Not from expectation.
Just—
From enjoying it.
“Alright, that’s a wrap!”
Cheers echoed faintly through the comms, people moving again, the structured chaos returning.
Lando leaned back slightly in the seat, exhaling.
A grin still on his face.
He reached for his phone without thinking.
call me the brtish street champ
He attached a short clip from the shoot Max send him a moment ago, the car roaring past, lights streaking across the frame, just enough to show off.
A few seconds passed.
Then—
Yeah?
Gonna challenge me next?
Lando giggled under his breath, leaning back in the seat.
yeah
look out me Piastri I’m after your title
He watched the screen, waiting.
Bold of you, I just won two in a row.
Lando rolled his eyes, smiling anyway.
yeah well
I have natural talent
Do you?
I literally drive for a living???
On tracks.
Lando scoffed quietly, shaking his head.
same thing
Not even close.
That made him pause for a second.
Because—
Yeah.
It wasn’t.
He glanced back out at the street, at the car, at the people still moving around them.
Different world.
Different rules.
Still—
He smiled.
You did good though.
The reply came a little slower this time.
yeah?
Yeah.
A beat.
Didn’t crush it either.
Proud of you.
Lando huffed a quiet laugh, looking down at his phone.
thank you
means a lot coming from you
It should.
He shook his head, still smiling, before locking his phone and slipping it back into his pocket.
The noise around him came back into focus.
People talking.
Laughing.
Moving equipment.
Calling it a wrap.
But something stayed with him.
That feeling.
That rush.
That bit of freedom he didn’t get in his world.
And the thought lingered longer than he expected.
Maybe—
Maybe he really did get it now.
—
He went to Suzuka with a completely different energy.
Lighter.
Like something had finally settled back into place.
The noise in his head wasn’t gone but it was quieter. Easier to manage. He wasn’t fighting himself the same way he had been in China.
He felt… more like himself again.
Max was still by his side, and it helped more than Lando wanted to admit out loud.
Easy conversations in the car.
Jokes that didn’t require effort.
Someone there without expectations, without pressure.
Just… there.
The paddock felt different too.
Familiar in a way that grounded him instead of suffocating him.
The cameras, the media, the constant movement—it was all the same as always.
But Lando wasn’t dragging himself through it this time.
He moved through it naturally.
Smiled when he meant it.
Talked without overthinking every word.
“Good to see you in a good mood,” one of the engineers commented as they walked through the garage.
“Am I not always?” Lando shot back lightly.
The look he got in return said enough.
He just smiled.
He settled into the car for practice with a different mindset.
Not chasing.
Not forcing.
Just driving.
Let it come to you.
And for once—
It did.
His phone buzzed in his pocket before the session.
A message.
Don’t overdo it.
Lando smirked slightly.
I never do
Liar.
He huffed a quiet laugh, slipping the phone back.
As he pulled out of the garage, the engine roaring to life around him, something felt… aligned.
Not perfect.
Not easy.
But right.
And for the first time since Australia—he wasn’t thinking about what he was missing. He was exactly where he needed to be.
By the time second free practice wrapped up, Lando could recognise a pattern.
Strong at the start.
Sharp.
Fast.
Then the second session—slightly off. Not bad, just not quite there. Like something slipped out of reach the moment he tried to hold onto it too tightly.
But he didn’t spiral this time.
Didn’t overthink it.
Saturday proved it.
By the time third practice ended and his name was back at the top, Lando felt it again.
That quiet confidence.
That quiet confidence—not loud, not overwhelming. Just… steady.
Qualifying came and went in a blur.
Q1 clean.
Q2 comfortable.
Q3—
Good.
Really good.
But not enough.
P2.
This time it didn’t feel heavy.
Didn’t sit in his chest like something he needed to fix.
If anything, it felt familiar.
Easy.
Like something he understood again.
Being outperformed by a four-time world champion wasn’t exactly a failure. Not when the gap was barely there. Not when he knew he had more.
He climbed out of the car with a small smile, pulling his helmet off, running a hand through his hair.
“Good lap,” someone said as he walked back in.
“Yeah,” Lando nodded. “Was alright.”
And for once he actually meant it.
Sunday felt calm.
Not quiet—Suzuka never was—but calm in the way Lando moved through it.
No rushing.
No overthinking.
Just the routine.
Breakfast, briefings, final checks. The usual voices in his ear, the usual reminders, but they didn’t crowd him this time. He listened, nodded, took in what mattered.
Let the rest pass.
—
On the grid, everything sharpened.
The air.
The noise.
The anticipation.
Lando sat in the car, hands resting lightly on the wheel, eyes forward. P2. Better than as in China. Still not the best.
Different feeling.
He wasn’t chasing anything.
Not yet.
“Alright, Lando. Focus on the start.”
“Yeah, copy.”
The lights came on one by one.
He exhaled slowly.
Lights out.
Good launch.
Not perfect but good enough.
He held position into Turn 1, slotting in cleanly behind Max, Pato just behind him. The opening sector at Suzuka demanded commitment, precision, trust in the car.
He gave it.
No hesitation through the esses, the car flowing beneath him, each input measured, controlled. Close enough to see Max ahead, not close enough to make a move.
Not here.
Not now.
The opening laps settled quickly.
No chaos.
No incidents.
Just rhythm.
“Gap to P1 is 1.2.”
“Copy.”
He stayed there—within range, not attacking, not dropping back. Managing. Suzuka wasn’t a track that gave you easy chances. You had to earn them. Or wait for them. And today—there wasn’t much to take. Lap after lap, the gap fluctuated slightly.
1.1
1.4
0.9
Close enough to think about it.
Never quite close enough to commit.
Dirty air through the high-speed sections made it tricky, the front wanting to wash out if he pushed too hard.
So he didn’t. He’d already learned that.
Pit window opened.
“Box this lap.”
Clean entry. Clean stop. Out again—still P2, still in it. The second stint felt stronger, the car lighter, more responsive.
He closed the gap slightly, finding time in places he hadn’t before, trusting the flow through sector one more than he had all weekend.
“Gap to P1 is 0.8.”
There it was.
DRS range.
For a few laps, it felt like something might happen.
He stayed close.
Close enough to pressure.
Close enough to make Max check his mirrors.
But Suzuka didn’t give him an opening.
Every time he got near, the turbulence hit just enough to make him back off.
Every time he thought about a move—
It wasn’t quite there.
Behind him, Pato hovered—never quite threatening, but present. Close enough that Lando couldn’t afford a mistake.
“Keep it clean, Lando.”
“Yeah.”
Mid-race settled into management.
Tyres.
Pace.
Gaps.
He pushed when he could, backed off when he needed, keeping everything in that narrow window between too much and not enough.
There was a moment.
Hairpin. A slight hesitation from Max ahead—a fraction. Lando closed in, thought about it. But by the time he got there—it was gone.
“Almost,” he muttered.
“Yeah, we saw it. Keep pushing.”
Final stint.
The race stabilised again.
Positions unchanged.
Gaps steady.
It became clear.
This was how it was going to end.
But it didn’t feel frustrating. Not really. He drove the last laps clean—precise, no mistakes, no risks.
Final lap.
The track felt familiar under him now, every corner anticipated, every movement instinctive.
He crossed the line.
“P2, Lando. P2. Good job.”
“Yeah,” he breathed out. “Good job, guys.”
—
Parc fermé.
Helmet off.
The noise came back in waves.
He climbed out, glancing briefly at the car ahead, then behind.
Max.
Pato.
Same order.
Podium again.
The steps felt familiar under his feet.
The routine. The cameras. The champagne. He smiled—and this time, it came easier. He didn’t let himself mope after the race, didn’t give it space to settle the way it used to.
Instead, he made a decision—to go out, to enjoy it, to not sit in his room replaying every corner that could’ve been better.
“Club?” His best friend had suggested, half joking.
“Yeah,” Lando said immediately.
And that was that.
P2 was still something.
Still worth celebrating.
—
The place was packed.
Lights flashing, music loud enough to drown out everything else, bodies moving in rhythm that didn’t require thinking.
Perfect.
Exactly what he needed.
They weren’t alone for long. A few drivers showed up—some mechanics too.
Familiar faces blending into the crowd, conversations overlapping, quick greetings, claps on the back.
“Nice race.”
“You too.”
“Good pace out there.”
It was easy.
Surface level.
But not in a bad way.
Lando didn’t drink.
Didn’t even consider it.
He stuck to water the whole night, bottle in hand more often than not, but it didn’t matter.
He didn’t need it.
He was having fun anyway.
Proper fun. He danced—no overthinking, no caring how it looked.
Just moving, letting the music take over, letting everything else fade into the background.
He laughed—really laughed at something Max said, at something one of the mechanics did, at nothing in particular.
For a few hours—no pressure, no expectations, no championship, no comparisons.
Just him.
At some point, he ended up outside for air, the noise muffled behind the door, the night cooler, quieter.
He leaned against the wall, catching his breath, heart still beating faster from the music.
His phone buzzed in his pocket.
Of course.
Oscar.
Lando smiled slightly before opening it.
Good job.
Call me when you’re back?
He stared at the message for a second.
Then typed back.
I’m at the club
won’t be soon
The reply came almost instantly.
Lando frowned slightly, checking the time. It was already 3am for the Aussie.
Of course it was.
Call me anyways
He smiled at that.
Soft.
Because Oscar didn’t hesitate—didn’t mind being awake, didn’t mind waiting, just to talk to him. And it made something in his chest spark again—warm, steady.
Lando pushed himself off the wall after a moment, slipping his phone back into his pocket.
The music pulled him back in.
The lights.
The noise.
The people.
He went back inside without hesitation—because for once, he didn’t feel like he needed to escape it.
Lando got back to the hotel later than he planned. Or maybe exactly as late as he expected.
The hallway was quiet, lights dimmed, the kind of stillness that only existed past midnight. His ears still rang faintly from the music, his body buzzing with leftover energy that hadn’t quite settled yet.
He shut the door behind him and leaned against it for a second.
Exhaled.
The silence hit differently after that.
Too still.
Too far from everything.
His phone was already in his hand.
He didn’t think about it.
He just called.
It rang longer than usual.
Long enough for him to almost hang up.
Then a shift.
A breath.
“Lan?”
His voice was rough, still thick with sleep.
Lando softened immediately.
“Hi—sorry, I didn’t mean to wake you,” he said, already walking further into the room.
Oscar let out a quiet breath.
“It’s fine,” he murmured. “I should be up anyway. Got work at the shop.”
Lando sat down on the edge of the bed, toeing off his shoes.
“You sure?”
“Yeah,” Oscar said, voice a little clearer now. “You alright?”
“Yeah,” Lando nodded to himself. “Just got back.”
“Club?”
“Yeah.”
A small pause.
“You had fun?” Oscar asked.
Lando let out a quiet huff of a laugh, leaning back on his hands.
“Obviously. It was good.”
“Of course it was,” Oscar muttered, sarcastic.
Lando smiled.
The energy started fading now that he’d stopped moving.
Adrenaline slowly giving way to exhaustion.
“You watched?” he asked after a moment.
“Yeah.”
Simple.
Immediate.
“How was it from your side?” Lando shifted, lying back properly now.
Oscar didn’t answer straight away.
“You were good,” he said eventually. “Just… a bit safe.”
Lando frowned slightly “Safe?”
“Yeah,” Oscar continued. “You had the pace to at least pressure more.”
Lando stared at the ceiling.
“I didn’t want to overdo it.”
“I know,” Oscar said. “But you backed out too early a couple times.”
That hit a bit—not harsh, just honest.
“You mean Turn 1?” Lando asked quietly.
“And Spoon,” Oscar added. “You set it up right but didn’t commit on exit.”
Lando replayed it in his head instantly.
Yeah.
He knew exactly what he meant.
“You’ve got to trust the car a bit more there,” Oscar said. “You’re leaving space that you don’t need to.”
Lando exhaled slowly.
“Right.”
“Not saying send it every lap,” Oscar added. “Just… when the opportunity’s there, don’t half go for it.”
Lando nodded, even though Oscar couldn’t see it.
“Yeah.”
It wasn’t heavy.
But it stayed.
“You still drove well,” Oscar said after a second. “P2’s solid.”
“Consistent,” Lando muttered.
“Exactly,” Oscar said. “You’re still in the lead.”
The tiredness hit him properly then.
Heavy.
He dragged a hand over his face, shifting deeper into the mattress.
“You sound dead,” Oscar pointed out.
“I am dead,” Lando mumbled. “We’ve been going non-stop.”
“Flight soon?”
“Yeah. Few hours.”
Oscar hummed.
“Get some sleep.”
Lando groaned. “I know.”
“Even just a bit,” Oscar said. “You’ll feel better.”
“I will.”
He didn’t move though.
Just stayed there.
“Tell me about what you’re working on,” Lando said, making himself more comfortable on the bed.
“It’s nothing interesting. Another easy fix,” Oscar sighed. Lando could hear movement on the other end, like he was actually getting out of bed.
“Humor me anyway,” Lando said, voice quieter now.
Oscar started talking about a Porsche whose owner clearly hadn’t taken it in for a check-up in years. The car had something wrong in almost every possible way—brakes worn down to nothing, cooling system leaking, engine barely holding together.
Lando didn’t really focus on the details.
Just the sound of his voice.
Steady.
Grounding.
His eyes closed for a second.
Just a second.
He still needed to change, wash his face, do something.
But sleep crept in anyway.
Slow.
Unavoidable.
By the time Oscar was halfway through explaining something about the engine, Lando had already drifted off.
Phone still in his hand.
Call still connected.
And Oscar still on the other end.
It didn’t take Oscar long to realise Lando had fallen asleep.
The shift was subtle at first, the quiet evening out into something softer. Then the steady rhythm of his breathing, the faintest hint of a snore.
“Lan?” he asked quietly, just to make sure.
No answer.
A small pause.
“Baby?”
Nothing.
Oscar smiled to himself, a soft breath leaving him.
“Yeah… thought so.”
He adjusted the phone slightly, moving around his flat, already starting his morning without really thinking about it.
“Goodnight, Lan,” he murmured, voice low.
But he didn’t hang up.
Not yet.
He moved through the space quietly, grabbing what he needed, keys, a hoodie, a quick glance around to make sure he hadn’t forgotten anything.
All while the line stayed open.
All while Lando’s soft breathing filled the silence.
It was strange.
He should’ve ended the call.
There was no reason to stay.
But he didn’t.
He lingered a little longer than necessary, leaning against the counter for a second, phone still pressed lightly to his ear.
Listening.
Only after a moment more did he finally pull it away, glancing at the screen.
Still connected.
Still there.
Oscar hesitated.
Then, quietly—
He ended the call.
Notes:
They miss each other so bad I can’t 😭😭
Sorry if there were any mistakes I’m a bit sleep deprived 🫶
Chapter 14: Losing pece
Notes:
Hiiiii, I’m back. Had the worst weekend yet again 😭
My life took a funny turn even since I started writing this fic, it’s weird? Went to two funerals in the span of a month, almost quit my job yesterday because my head chef came in drunk af, saw a head-on car crash the other day. Like what universe is it?
But yeah at least I’ve got my fic to keep me busy 😭
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
By the time Lando touched down in Bahrain, the adrenaline had finally worn off.
Japan felt distant already.
Like something that had happened to someone else.
He said goodbye to Max at the airport, quick and easy, nothing dramatic. A clap on the shoulder, a half-joked “don’t bottle it,” and then they went their separate ways.
Max back to the UK. Lando back into the season. It should’ve felt heavier—but it didn’t. Not really. His head was… clearer.
Cleaner than it had been in weeks.
That weight he’d been carrying since Australia, the quiet restlessness, the constant pull in his chest—it had eased. Not gone, but manageable. Distant enough that he didn’t have to fight it every second.
Japan had helped.
The people.
The distraction.
Him.
Bahrain hit differently.
It always did.
The heat wrapped around him the moment he stepped out, dry and heavy, the kind that settled into your skin and didn’t let go. The air felt thick, unmoving, like even breathing took more effort than it should.
Lando wasn’t the biggest fan of the constant grey back home, the cold, the rain that never quite stopped.
But here—
He missed it.
Missed the chill, the wind, the familiarity of it.
This felt harsher.
Less forgiving.
The paddock buzzed like it always did, but there was a different edge to it now.
The season had started.
Properly.
No more easing into it.
Lando moved through it easily, nodding at people, exchanging quick greetings, slipping back into the rhythm without thinking. It was automatic. Professional. Controlled.
He didn’t let himself think too much about the distance.
About how far away Oscar was again.
Japan had made it easier somehow.
Lando moved through it easily, nodding at people, exchanging quick greetings, slipping back into the rhythm without thinking. It was automatic. Professional. Controlled.
He didn’t let himself think too much about the distance—about how far away Oscar was again. Japan had made it easier somehow. Close enough. Closer time zone. Same pace. Now it stretched again. Across continents. Across schedules. Across lives that didn’t quite line up.
He could feel it. Not in a dramatic way, not something he could point to—just… there. Like something pulling quietly at him.
So he ignored it. Focused on what was in front of him the weekend, the work. Because that was easier.
Media day was, as it always was.
Questions about strategy. About tyres. About pressure. The same rotation, just phrased differently depending on who was asking, who answered.
Lando sat there, posture relaxed, expression easy. It came naturally now. When to smile, when to pause, when to give just enough without saying anything real.
“So Lando, let’s start with you,” the interviewer said. “P2 in Japan, with a gap so small, what could you do more to win?”
“I mean, I could always qualify on pole, it’d help,” he said, a hint of sarcasm slipping through, softened instantly by a practiced smile. “No, but there was really not much more I could do. Max had better pace.”
Nods.
Agreement.
Safe.
“There will be a lot of tyre management this weekend, how are you looking forward to it?”
That one he liked.
“Yeah, it’s always tricky here,” Lando said, shoulders easing just slightly. “Degradation’s high, especially with the heat, so it’s about finding the balance. You can’t push too hard early, but you also don’t want to give up too much track position. It’ll be about managing it over the whole stint, staying consistent and making the tyres last when it matters.”
That felt real.
That felt like him.
“Okay, one last question for you,” the interviewer continued. “You’re the championship leader for the first time, how does that feel?”
“Incredible,” he smiled. “I’m not stopping though. It’s just the fourth race of the season, anything can happen, but for now I try to enjoy it.”
Lies.
It was concerning how easily they came out.
How smooth.
How believable.
Years of doing this had turned it into instinct.
Sometimes he wondered—
If he was a racer.
Or just really good at pretending to be one.
He squeezed the koala keychain he seemed to carry everywhere now, fingers curling around it in the pocket of his jeans.
Grounding.
Or at least—
Trying to.
Later that evening, he didn’t call Oscar. He knew he’d already be asleep. And it was fine—Oscar needed the rest, shouldn’t have to wait around for Lando to make time for him. It still stung.
Sleep didn’t come easy.
Lando lay on his back, staring at the ceiling, then on his side, then the other. Sheets tangled around his legs, the air too warm, too still.
His mind wouldn’t stop.
Lap times.
Tyre degradation.
Sector losses.
Then—Australia. The beach. The quiet. The way everything had felt… simple. He squeezed his eyes shut. Didn’t help. It shifted again—the forehead kiss, the way Oscar had looked at him in the car, the food shared without thinking, the easy back-and-forth that never needed effort.
Lando turned onto his stomach, pressing his face into the pillow with a frustrated groan.
“Come on…” he muttered.
Nothing.
After what felt like hours of tossing and turning, he gave up.
Reached for his phone.
1:00 AM.
He counted it quickly.
Then pressed call.
It rang.
Once.
Twice.
Three times.
No answer.
Lando frowned slightly, pulling the phone away to check the screen before bringing it back to his ear.
It kept ringing. And ringing—until it didn’t. That… that was new. Oscar should’ve been awake by now. He always was.
He always was.
Lando sat up slightly, running a hand through his hair as he checked the time again.
Then opened his browser.
Time difference.
Bahrain to Australia.
Correct.
He stared at the screen for a second longer than necessary.
Then back at the call log. Then at the empty chat. Something felt off—not big, not dramatic. Just… wrong. Lando swallowed, thumb hovering over the screen. He didn’t call again. Not yet. But he didn’t put the phone down either just sat there, waiting, like something was supposed to happen. But nothing did.
Five minutes passed.
Then fifteen.
After half an hour, Lando tossed the phone aside, pressing his face into the pillow like he could physically force his brain to shut up.
Eventually—
He did.
—
Not keeping his phone close turned out to be a mistake.
He realised that when Mark started banging on his door.
“Lando!”
Another knock.
Louder.
“Open the door!”
Lando groaned, dragging himself out of sleep, disoriented, heavy, his body refusing to cooperate.
“Yeah—coming,” he mumbled, voice rough as he stumbled toward the door.
Mark didn’t look impressed when Lando finally opened it.
“You’re late.”
That—
That woke him up properly.
Everything after that blurred. He’d slept through his alarms, missed his timing—which meant no proper routine. No time to think.
He rushed through everything quick shower, barely. Didn’t bother fixing his curls. Pulled on the first thing that passed as acceptable. No time for breakfast beyond a few rushed bites he didn’t even register.
By the time he got to the circuit, everything was already in motion—too late to ease into it, too late to settle.
The paddock buzzed around him, louder than usual, sharper.
Mechanics already working on tyres.
Engineers buried in data, screens glowing, papers spread everywhere.
Drivers walking past in fireproofs, fully in it already.
Prepared.
Focused.
And Lando—
Wasn’t.
He stepped into the garage, trying to slip into place like nothing was off.
Like he wasn’t a step behind everything already.
But he felt it. In his chest. In his head. That slight misalignment. The day had started badly—and something told him it wasn’t done yet.
FP1 was… strange.
To put it lightly.
The timing screens didn’t make much sense, not in the way they usually did. Lando sat at the top, P1, which wasn’t unusual on its own but everything around it was.
An Alpine right behind him.
Hamilton in P3—something that wouldn’t have raised eyebrows last year, but this season it felt like Ferrari had climbed a mountain just to get there.
Alex, somehow, right up there in the Williams car.
A Haas not far off.
It didn’t add up.
It looked… wrong.
Lando pulled his helmet off, glancing up at the screen again as if it might rearrange itself into something more logical.
It didn’t.
Funny.
Because just a few hours ago, he felt like the only one out of place.
And now—
It looked like he was the only one exactly where he was supposed to be.
—
He exhaled slowly, running a hand through his hair before stepping away, finally giving himself a second to breathe.
And remember.
His phone.
He reached for it almost automatically, unlocking it as he walked.
One message.
That was it.
You awake?
Sent around three in the morning.
And underneath it—
A voice note.
Lando frowned slightly, thumb hovering for a second before pressing play.
Static.
Background noise.
Then—
“Lan, I’m sorry. I thought you’d be already asleep and I left my phone in the office while working.”
There was movement behind his voice, tools, something metallic, distant voices.
“Anyway, I hope you sleep now. Call me when you wake up. If not then good luck tomorrow out there.”
And then it ended.
Just like that.
Lando stared at the screen for a second longer than necessary.
Then let out a quiet breath.
Right.
He felt stupid.
Immediately.
Of course Oscar hadn’t ignored him.
Of course there was a reason.
There always was.
He rubbed his face with one hand, shaking his head slightly at himself.
“Idiot,” he muttered under his breath.
Still—
He checked the time again. Did the math—again, because apparently once wasn’t enough. Oscar should still be awake. Lando hesitated for a second, then typed.
hi you still up?
He hit send before he could think about it too much.
And waited.
No reply.
Not straight away.
Lando frowned slightly, eyes lingering on the screen for a moment longer than he wanted to admit.
Then he locked it.
Slipped it back into his pocket.
It was fine.
Maybe he was still working. Busy. Like always. Still—the silence sat there. Quiet, but noticeable.
By the end of second practice, everything had fallen back into place.
The timing screens made sense again. The usual names where they were expected, the grid returning to something familiar, predictable. Like the chaos of the morning had never happened.
Lando should’ve felt the same.
Settled.
Back where he belonged.
His phone had stayed silent the entire time.
Through the session.
Through the debrief.
Through the drive back to the hotel.
He checked it more times than he wanted to admit. Between runs, walking through the paddock, sitting in the briefing room pretending to listen while his mind drifted elsewhere.
Nothing.
The hotel room felt too quiet when he got back.
He didn’t bother turning anything on, just dropped his things and headed straight to the shower.
This one lasted longer than the rushed mess from the morning. He stood under the cold water, letting it run over his shoulders, down his back, trying to wash off the restlessness sitting under his skin.
It didn’t really work.
It never did.
By the time he got out, the air felt heavier again.
He pulled on a hoodie, more for comfort than anything else, and slid into bed without much thought.
The phone was already in his hand.
Of course it was.
He stared at the chat for a moment.
Then typed.
osc?
Short. Simple. He didn’t overthink it this time, didn’t try to sound casual or unaffected—just… sent it. The screen stayed the same. No typing. No reply.
Lando exhaled slowly, dropping his head back into the pillow.
It was fine. Oscar was probably already asleep.
—
He barely closed his eyes, sleep just starting to pull at him, when his phone buzzed.
Lando grabbed it instantly.
“Osc?” he asked, voice still soft, barely awake.
“Lan, hi.”
There was something off immediately.
Too much energy.
Too bright.
Not tired.
Lando pushed himself up against the headboard, frowning slightly.
“Why aren’t you sleeping?”
“I was out with friends,” Oscar said, and there was movement on the other end—keys, a door, something being dropped onto a surface. “Just got back.”
Lando blinked.
That didn’t line up.
“Are you drunk?”
“I was celebrating,” Oscar said simply.
That made Lando pause.
“What?” he asked, unsure if he was confused or concerned.
“My birthday.”
Oscar laughed lightly, like it was obvious.
Lando just stared ahead.
“…Your what?”
“It was last Sunday,” Oscar added, still casual. “Didn’t really have time earlier.”
Something in Lando’s chest tightened.
“Your birthday?” he repeated, slower this time. “And you just… didn’t tell me?”
It shouldn’t have mattered that much.
But for Lando, it did.
Oscar was quiet for a second. Not long, but long enough.
“It’s just a day, Lan,” he said eventually.
“Yeah, but still…” Lando hesitated, words catching slightly as he tried to get them right. “It would’ve been nice to know.”
It came out softer than he expected.
Still not quite right.
Still carrying something underneath it he hadn’t meant to show.
He wasn’t even sure why it bothered him that much.
It just… did. Like it was a reminder of all the parts of Oscar he still didn’t know, hadn’t had time to know—and maybe wouldn’t get the chance to.
“I didn’t think it mattered,” Oscar said.
That—
Lando swallowed.
“Right.” The word came out quieter than he meant it to.
The silence stretched just a bit too long, pressing in around him.
“I think we should go to sleep,” he said finally, forcing something lighter into his tone. “I’ve got an early morning, and you’ve had a long night.”
And just like that, he ended the call.
No raised voices.
No sharp words.
No real argument to point to.
Nothing that should’ve meant anything.
And yet—
Something shifted.
Subtle.
Quiet.
But enough to feel it.
Like the beginning of something slipping out of his hands, before he even had the chance to hold onto it properly.
—
The next day, Lando could only find enough energy in himself to focus on one thing.
And he chose the wrong one.
The final practice went fine. Clean, almost perfect.
Still not quick enough.
Qualifying went to shit.
There was no better way to put it.
Sixth.
His worst result of the season so far.
He sat there for a moment after climbing out of the car, helmet still in his hands, staring at the timing screen like it might change if he looked long enough.
It didn’t.
Disappointment didn’t even begin to cover it. But he knew where the problem was—not the track, not the car. Him. He needed to get a grip. Focus. Stop letting everything else bleed into the only place it couldn’t.
And the worst part—
He didn’t even fully understand why it had gotten to him this much.
It shouldn’t have been a big deal.
He’d missed birthdays before. Countless ones. Friends, family, people he cared about.
That was part of it.
That was the job.
So why did this feel different?
Because he didn’t even know. That was the part that stuck—that he hadn’t known, that he hadn’t been told.
“I’m just not quick enough.”
It came out the first time over the radio—flat, controlled. Then again in the media pen.
Same tone. Same words.
“I’m just not quick enough.”
And maybe that was easier to say.
Easier than explaining something he didn’t fully understand himself.
Call me when you’re free?
Lando stared at the message for longer than he should have.
He read it once.
Then again.
Thumb hovering over the screen, unsure what to do with it.
In the end, he locked his phone.
He couldn’t. Not now.
He needed to clear his head. Get back into it. Focus on what actually mattered.
And if Oscar was getting in the way of that—
Then he had to put it aside.
At least for now.
When he woke up, there were no new messages.
Just a voice note.
“Umm, hi Lan, I’m sorry for the voice note again but umm—” Oscar’s voice came through as soon as he pressed play. “I’m driving and it’s easier like that.”
Lando stilled, the sleep still heavy in his body, but his attention sharp all at once.
“I just wanted to say you shouldn’t let it get too much to you—”
A pause.
Long enough to make something in Lando’s chest tighten.
“—one bad session doesn’t define the driver you are.”
“I—” he started, before stopping himself, the silence of the room reminding him it wasn’t a real conversation.
“You’re an amazing driver,” Oscar continued, voice steadier now. “And you’ll get there.”
There was a shift in the background, the low sound of an engine. Familiar.
McLaren.
And then—
The message ended.
Lando stayed in bed for a moment longer, phone resting against his chest, eyes fixed on the ceiling like it might offer something back.
It didn’t.
After a while, he pushed himself up, got ready, and moved on. He couldn’t afford to sit in it. Not now. He still had a championship to lead.
The debrief before the race was logical. That was the only way Lando could describe it.
“The rules stay for now,” Zak said near the end. “We are still not prioritising any driver. Pato has better pace for now, but Lando is still leading.”
For now.
That was the part that stuck.
Lando knew how quickly that could change. One race. One mistake. One bad weekend and it was gone.
He sat there, nodding along like the rest, but something in his chest tightened.
He had to earn his position in the team again.
In the team he’d spent his whole career in. The team he’d helped rebuild from the ground up.
That was racing.
He told himself that like it was enough.
I just need to show them I’m still with it.
—
The race was… fine.
From sixth on the grid, the start mattered more than anything.
Lights out.
Lando reacted well—too well.
The car jumped forward cleanly, but something felt off immediately, a fraction too early, a fraction too eager. He tucked in through Turn 1, gaining a place, maybe two, settling into the opening corners with sharp, controlled inputs.
But the thought was already there.
Was I out of position?
He pushed it aside.
Focused.
The opening stint was messy.
Not chaotic—just tight. Cars everywhere, DRS trains forming early, no room to breathe. Lando worked his way up slowly, picking off positions where he could, being patient where he had to be.
P5.
Then P4.
“Lando, noted you may have been out of position at the start. We’re checking.”
Of course.
He exhaled through his nose.
“Copy.”
The penalty came a few laps later.
“Five-second time penalty for being out of position at the start.”
He closed his eyes briefly behind the visor.
“Yeah, copy.”
Of course.
That changed things.
It always did.
Now it wasn’t just about gaining positions—it was about building a gap. Managing the race and attacking at the same time.
He pushed harder.
Tyres starting to fall off earlier than ideal, rear stepping slightly on traction, but he kept it under control. The car still felt good. Not perfect, but good enough.
He caught Hamilton first.
The Ferrari defending hard, clean but firm. Lando sized it up for a couple of laps before making the move stick into Turn 1, late on the brakes, committing fully this time.
P4.
“Nice move.”
“Yeah.”
But it didn’t stick.
Not quite.
“Track limits, Lando. Give the position back.”
He let out a frustrated breath.
“Are you serious?”
“Give the position back.”
He did.
Had to.
“Box this lap,” came the call.
Lando dipped into the pits a few laps later, hitting his marks cleanly.
“Remember, we’re serving the penalty.”
“Copy.”
The stop was quick, but not quick enough to forget what it cost him. Five seconds felt longer when you were just sitting there, waiting, watching everything slip away in real time.
Then the car dropped.
“Go.”
He came out into traffic.
Of course he did.
Lewis again.
This time the move had to be done twice.
First to catch him.
Then to pass him.
Cleanly.
No mistakes.
No warnings.
That was better.
Everything else stays the same—you just needed that correction for realism.
Ahead, Leclerc.
And that—
That was a fight.
Ferrari had pace.
Not enough to run away, but enough to make it difficult. Lando closed in slowly, lap by lap, staying just outside dirty air, waiting for the right moment.
It didn’t come easily.
Charles defended smart, placing the car exactly where it needed to be, forcing Lando to think twice every time.
But Lando was done hesitating.
He went for it.
Late move.
Brakes deep into the corner, just on the edge of locking up. The car rotated, barely, but enough. Side by side on exit.
Wheel to wheel down the straight.
Neither giving space.
Lando held it.
Just.
P3.
“Nice work. P3.”
“Yeah.”
Ahead, the gap to George and Pato wasn’t unreachable.
Not quite.
Pato was gone.
But George—
George was there.
Just out of reach.
After the stop, the race felt different.
No more penalty hanging over him.
Just positions.
Just pace.
Lando pushed through the final stint, cleaner now. More precise. The car finally doing what he wanted without him overthinking every input.
Lap by lap, he closed it.
Not dramatically.
Not enough.
But enough to see it.
“Gap to Russell is 2.1.”
He pushed.
1.8
1.5
“Keep going, Lando.”
“I am.”
But Suzuka had taught him that lesson already.
Sometimes being close didn’t mean anything.
The laps ran out.
He crossed the line P3.
“P3, Lando. Good recovery.”
“Yeah…”
His eyes flicked to the timing screen.
1.2 seconds.
Close enough to feel it.
Far enough that it didn’t matter.
Pato had won.
George second.
Lando pulled into parc fermé, switching the car off, sitting there for a moment longer than necessary.
It wasn’t a bad result—climbing from sixth, managing a penalty, fighting through the field. But it wasn’t clean. Too many mistakes, too many things slightly off.
P3 was solid.
Especially from where he started—with the penalty, with everything that had gone wrong. Just… too much had gone wrong.
He was still leading, but the gap was small now. Too small. Three points. Barely there.
He kept the smile in place for the interviews, standing under the lights like nothing had shifted.
“It was good racing, good overtakes. George did a good job defending, which was fun.”
A pause, just enough to breathe.
“Disappointed not to bring a one-two home.”
Another smile.
“I’ll set it up for next race.”
Clean. Professional.
Not the whole truth.
Because the truth was it hadn’t felt fun once.
The team went out that night.
Of course they did.
A win was a win, and Pato had earned it. The energy in the garage had been building all afternoon, and by the time they packed up, it had nowhere else to go but out.
Lando went with them at first.
Showed up. Smiled. Said the right things.
Clapped Pato on the shoulder, told him “good job,” like he meant it.
Maybe he did.
It didn’t take long before it started to feel like too much.
The noise. The laughter. The way everything circled back to the same thing.
Winning.
He slipped out early.
No big goodbye.
No one really noticed.
The hotel room was quiet when he got back.
Too quiet after everything.
He dropped his bag by the door, kicked off his shoes, and stood there for a moment like he wasn’t sure what to do with himself.
Sleep would’ve been the obvious answer.
It didn’t come.
He lay on his back, staring at the ceiling, phone somewhere next to him on the bed. He tried to ignore it. Told himself he didn’t need it. That he could just close his eyes and be done with the day.
It didn’t work.
Ten minutes.
Maybe twenty.
He reached for it without thinking.
Unlocked it.
The chat was still there, unchanged.
Lando exhaled slowly.
Then pressed call.
It rang once.
Then—
“Hi.”
Oscar picked up quickly.
Too quickly for someone who’d just woken up.
Lando frowned slightly, shifting up against the headboard.
“You’re awake.”
“Yeah,” Oscar said easily. “Been up for a bit.”
Right.
Morning there.
“How was—” Lando stopped himself, then started again. “What are you doing?”
There was a small shuffle on the other end, something moving, a door maybe.
“Nothing much. Just at home.”
Lando nodded to himself, even though Oscar couldn’t see it.
“Yeah.”
A short pause settled between them.
Not heavy.
Just… there.
“How was your race?” Oscar asked.
“Fine,” Lando said. “P3.”
“Yeah, I saw.”
Of course he did.
“You did well,” Oscar added.
Lando hummed quietly, eyes drifting toward the window.
“It was alright.”
Another small pause.
They kept it light.
Safe.
“Went out with the team after?” Oscar asked.
“Yeah. Not for long.”
“Not your thing?”
Lando huffed a quiet laugh. “It is. Just—not tonight.”
“Yeah.”
Oscar sounded normal. Completely normal.
Like nothing had shifted. Like nothing needed to be said.
Lando leaned his head back against the wall.
“Track was tricky,” he said after a moment. “Rear kept stepping out more than I wanted.”
“Yeah, that’ll be the surface,” Oscar replied easily. “It’s pretty aggressive there. You’re probably overworking the rears on exit.”
Lando exhaled through his nose.
“I didn’t want tips.”
“I know.”
A beat.
Lando shook his head slightly, but didn’t stop him from continuing.
“Try being a bit smoother on throttle out of the slower corners,” Oscar continued. “You’re probably asking too much from it too early.”
“Right.”
It was easy.
Falling into that.
Talking like this.
Like before.
“When are you heading to Saudi?” Oscar asked.
“Tuesday,” Lando answered. “Not long.”
“Yeah.”
“You?” Lando shifted slightly, pulling the hoodie sleeve over his hand absentmindedly.
“What are you doing this week?”
“Nothing exciting,” Oscar said. “Just… stuff at home.”
A pause.
“Actually, I promised Hattie I’d take her to Sydney for the concert.”
Lando smiled faintly at that.
“Big brother duties?”
“Something like that.”
“What concert?”
“I don’t even know,” Oscar admitted with a chuckle “I’m just there as her driver.”
Lando laughed quietly.
“Sounds about right.”
Another pause.
Still easy.
Still normal.
Lando glanced down at his hand, fingers curling slightly into the fabric of his sleeve.
He could almost pretend nothing had changed.
“You should get some sleep,” Oscar said after a moment. “It’s late there.”
“Yeah.”
He didn’t move.
“Call you tomorrow?” Lando asked.
“Yeah.”
Same answer.
Same tone.
“Alright.”
“Alright.”
The call ended.
It had been normal. Completely normal—and somehow, that made it worse.
The room stayed quiet after the call ended. Too quiet.
Lando didn’t move from his spot on the bed, phone still resting loosely in his hand, the screen long gone dark. Outside, the city hummed softly, distant traffic, the low buzz of something alive beyond the glass.
He listened to it.
Let it fill the space.
It didn’t help.
He sat up after a while, swinging his legs over the edge of the bed, elbows resting on his knees. The phone lit up again in his hand without him really thinking about it.
The chat was still open.
Of course it was.
His thumb hovered over the keyboard.
Typed.
also happy late birthday
He stared at it.
Too late.
Too forced.
Delete.
Another try.
you could’ve told me more
He frowned slightly at that.
It sounded wrong.
Not what he meant.
Or maybe too close to it.
Delete.
He leaned back slightly, running a hand through his hair.
This was stupid.
The cursor blinked back at him.
Waiting.
I miss you
He froze.
Looked at it longer than he should have.
Then let out a quiet breath through his nose and shook his head.
“No,” he muttered under his breath.
Too honest.
Delete.
The chat went back to empty.
Like nothing had ever been there.
Lando locked his phone, dropping it onto the bed beside him before pushing himself up and walking over to the window.
The city stretched out below, lights scattered across the dark, cars moving like slow lines of red and white.
It looked calm.
Distant.
Like it had nothing to do with him.
He rested his forehead lightly against the glass.
Closed his eyes.
Tried not to think.
Didn’t work.
Pato. The race. Sixth in quali. The penalty. The championship gap—three points. Barely anything.
Oscar. The call. The way it had felt normal. Too normal.
Lando exhaled slowly, pushing himself away from the window.
He didn’t go back to bed.
Just paced the room once.
Twice.
Then finally gave in, grabbing his phone again, checking it like something might’ve changed.
Nothing had.
Of course not.
Eventually, exhaustion caught up with him.
Not clean sleep.
Just enough to pass the night.
—
The next day came too quickly.
He was still in Bahrain, but it already felt like he’d mentally left.
The team’s flight wasn’t until the next day, which meant too much time.
Too much space to think.
—
So he didn’t. He went to the gym. Jon didn’t go easy on him—never did. But today Lando didn’t complain, didn’t joke, didn’t try to cut corners. He just… worked.
“Again,” Jon said.
Lando nodded.
Did it again.
By the end of the session, his muscles burned, his breathing uneven, sweat sticking to his skin in a way that almost felt grounding.
Almost.
“Enough,” Jon said eventually, watching him carefully. “You’re done.”
Lando shook his head.
“Five more.”
Jon frowned slightly.
“Lando—”
“I’m good.”
He wasn’t.
But he didn’t stop.
Jon let him go for a bit longer before stepping in again, more firm this time.
“That’s enough.”
Lando exhaled sharply, finally stepping back.
“Yeah.”
But he didn’t leave. Not really. He came back later—on his own. The gym was quieter then, almost empty. No voices, no pressure. Just him.
He pushed again.
Weights.
Reps.
Anything that kept his mind from drifting.
Anything that kept him from thinking too much.
It worked.
For a while.
Until it didn’t.
Because no matter how much he tried to tire himself out, to focus on something physical, something simple—
It all came back the moment he stopped.
It always did.
—
By the time they got to the airport the next day, Lando felt like he was running on nothing.
Not physically he could still move, still talk, still do everything that was expected of him but there was something missing underneath it. Like everything was happening a fraction slower than it should, like he was slightly out of sync with the rest of the world.
Even though he’d technically had the whole day free yesterday, it hadn’t felt like it. Time had slipped through his fingers in small, useless pieces. A meeting with Mark here, a quick check-in with the team there. Messages sent at the wrong time, replies missed by minutes that somehow turned into hours.
He and Oscar kept just missing each other.
Not by much.
But enough.
Enough that it mattered.
He checked his phone again.
Nothing new.
Just the same messages sitting there, unanswered for longer than they should’ve been. Not ignored. Not really. Just stuck somewhere in between.
He locked the screen, then unlocked it again almost immediately, like something might’ve changed in the two seconds he wasn’t looking.
It hadn’t.
The airport buzzed around him, low and constant. People moving, talking, dragging suitcases behind them. The team clustered together nearby, easy in their conversations, laughter coming and going without effort.
Someone was telling a story something about the race, or maybe about the night before and a few of the mechanics laughed, loud and genuine. Another voice cut in, adding to it, making it bigger, better.
Lando listened.
Or at least, he tried to.
Everything around him was… good.
The car was strong.
The results were there.
Double points almost every weekend so far.
A start to the season they would’ve dreamed of not that long ago.
And yet—
It didn’t feel like enough.
Three points.
That was all the gap was now.
Three points wasn’t a lead.
It was a warning.
He shifted his weight slightly, adjusting the strap of his bag on his shoulder, gaze drifting over the group without really landing anywhere.
They looked fine.
Relaxed.
Like this was exactly how it was supposed to be.
Lando didn’t feel ahead.
He felt like he was about to lose it.
He just didn’t know what it was.
His grip tightened slightly around his phone again, thumb brushing over the edge of it without unlocking it this time.
The championship.
That was the obvious answer.
That was what mattered.
But his mind didn’t stop there.
Australia.
The car.
The wall.
The way Oscar had looked at him in the golden light like nothing else existed.
Lando exhaled quietly, forcing his shoulders to relax.
That wasn’t helpful.
None of that was helpful right now.
Someone nudged his arm lightly.
“Oi, you listening or what?”
Lando blinked, looking up properly this time, a small smile slipping into place automatically.
“Yeah, yeah,” he said. “Just tired.”
“Excuses already?” someone else laughed.
“Always,” Lando shot back easily.
It came out natural.
Effortless.
Like nothing was wrong.
He tucked his phone back into his pocket.
Left it there this time.
Forced himself to stay present, to follow the conversation, to react at the right moments. A nod here, a quiet laugh there, just enough to blend back in.
It worked.
From the outside, at least.
But the feeling didn’t go away.
Not really.
It just sat there, quieter now, tucked somewhere deeper, waiting.
Boarding came quicker than expected.
Or maybe he just hadn’t been paying attention.
The group moved together, tickets checked, bags shifted, the usual routine unfolding without thought. Lando followed along, slipping into his place like he always did.
Same steps.
Same movements.
Different headspace.
Inside the plane, everything slowed down again.
The noise dulled.
The space tighter, more contained.
He dropped into his seat, leaning back slightly, letting his head rest for a second as people moved around him, settling in.
For once—
He didn’t reach for his phone.
It sat in his pocket, untouched.
Heavy.
Noticeable.
He could’ve checked it.
Could’ve looked.
Just in case.
He didn’t.
Instead, he stared ahead, eyes unfocused, letting the low hum of the cabin fill the space in his head.
The plane started moving.
Slow at first.
Then faster.
Lando closed his eyes briefly as it lifted, the ground pulling away beneath them, Bahrain shrinking into something smaller, more distant with every second.
It should’ve felt like leaving it behind.
A reset.
A clean start before the next race.
It didn’t.
Because the feeling came with him.
And this time—
He didn’t try to ignore it.
Notes:
I’m sorry for the angst, but it needs to be bad, before it goes worse, before we have the fluff we all deserve.
Hope you don’t hate me too much 😭🫶🫶
Chapter 15
Notes:
Hi hello, update should be tomorrow but I just (actually over an hour ago but I had to edit it and rant to my mum) came back from work after and 9h shift, and 2h of talking with my bosses.
And I was like fuck this, I need something love and happiness in my life and this fic gives me that regardless of the plot 😭
(I’m not quoting nor was I fired (yet) I’m just overwhelmed af.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Jeddah wasn’t much different from Sakhir. The same dry air, the same inhuman heat. But somehow, after the short flight, Lando felt a little more at ease.
He kept his phone on airplane mode longer than necessary, using the quiet to draft an Instagram post. Scrolled through photos, pausing on the ones with his special helmet, trying to pick the right one without overthinking it too much.
A cup of tea sat beside him, already half gone.
It helped.
A bit.
“Hi, kiddo.”
Lando glanced up as Will dropped into the empty seat next to him.
“Hi,” he said, attention flicking back to his phone for a second before locking it.
“You alright?” Will asked.
Lando shrugged lightly. “Yeah. Just a bit tired.”
It wasn’t a full lie.
Just not the whole truth.
Will didn’t even try to pretend he believed that.
After this many years, he knew him too well for that. Sometimes it felt like Will could read him better than he could read himself.
“You want to talk about it?”
Lando let out a small breath, setting his phone down properly this time.
“Not really,” he admitted.
Will nodded once, like he expected that answer.
“It was just the fourth race,” he said after a moment. “We’ll get through it.”
Simple.
Nothing complicated, but it landed—because that was what Lando needed. Not solutions. Not analysis.
Just someone saying it out loud.
That he wasn’t doing this on his own. The team was what it was now—two drivers, two sides. It had to be like that. But there were still people who were his.
But there were still people who were his.
People who’d been there from the start. Who knew him before all of this, who’d stayed through everything, who didn’t switch sides depending on results.
“Yeah,” Lando said after a moment, a real smile finally settling in. “We’ve got this.”
By the time media day arrived, he felt lighter. More like himself.
Getting ready didn’t feel like a routine this time. He took his time with it, choosing his outfit carefully, fixing his hair with more attention than usual but not because he had to.
Because he wanted to.
Because, for once, he actually felt good.
It wasn’t forced.
Not the practiced version of himself he’d been slipping into lately.
Just—
Him.
He smiled at the fans, and this time it came easy. Natural. He lingered a little longer than usual, signed a few more things, took his time instead of rushing through it.
They smiled back.
And he knew—
They had his back too.
And somehow, he made it through the day without that weight pressing down on him.
For the first time in a while.
FP1 put him second. Close enough to see it, to feel like he was back in it. The lap wasn’t perfect, he knew that, but it didn’t frustrate him the way it would’ve a week ago.
“Good balance,” he said over the radio on his cooldown lap. “Front’s a bit light in high speed, but it’s manageable.”
“Copy that. Looks strong otherwise.”
It did.
Didn’t feel suffocating.
Just…
There.
FP2 was better.
Cleaner.
Everything came together in a way it hadn’t all weekend in Bahrain. The tyres switched on when he needed them to, the rear stayed underneath him, the car doing exactly what he asked of it instead of fighting back.
He crossed the line and glanced at the timing screen.
P1.
Lando let out a quiet breath, something close to a smile pulling at his lips.
“Alright,” he muttered.
Then his eyes flicked down.
Pato.
Right behind him.
A few hundredths.
Not far.
Not ever far.
It didn’t make him anxious.
Not like it might have before.
But it was enough to keep him sharp.
FP3 confirmed it.
Not a one-off.
Not a fluke.
He went fastest again, the lap finally feeling complete, no major compromises, no corners he wanted back immediately.
The car felt alive beneath him. And for the first time since Australia—so did he. He looked at the screen again. P1.
And then—P2. Pato. Still there. Still close.
Lando nodded to himself slightly as he slowed on the cooldown lap.
“Good lap,” he said.
Because it was.
And because he knew—
He’d need more of them.
The conversation with Oscar slipped back into something familiar. Messages came easier again, replies quicker when they lined up. Nothing heavy, nothing complicated.
They didn’t talk about Bahrain.
Didn’t mention the birthday.
Didn’t need to.
P1 again?
Oscar texted after FP3.
yeah
told you i’m still quick
A few seconds.
Barely.
Lando huffed out a quiet laugh.
shut up
It was easy.
Like it had been.
Like nothing had shifted.
The time difference was still there, the gap keeping them apart. But it didn’t feel like a black hole anymore.
Still asleep?
Lando rolled his eyes at the message, but pressed the call button anyway.
“Hey.”
It barely rang before Oscar picked up, his accent coming through instantly. Familiar. Easy. Like he’d been waiting.
“Hi,” Lando said, turning onto his other side, still half buried in the sheets. “Are you driving?”
“Yeah, just running some errands.”
“At—” Lando glanced at the time on his phone, squinting slightly, “9 pm?”
Oscar chuckled. “It’s 8 pm here, actually.”
“Sorry,” Lando mumbled. “Just woke up.”
“Nothing to be sorry about. You needed your beauty sleep after all.”
Lando huffed a quiet laugh, hearing the smirk in his voice, feeling something settle back into place. Not completely. But enough.
Qualifying felt sharper.
Focused.
The kind of pressure he understood.
Q1 went smoothly.
Clean lap, no traffic, straight through.
Q2 the same.
Controlled. Measured. No unnecessary risks.
Everything exactly how it should be.
Q3—
That was where it mattered.
He rolled out of the garage with the rest, tyres coming up to temperature, the walls already feeling closer than they had all weekend. Less room. Less margin.
“Last run counts.”
“Copy.”
Lando left the pits fourth. Not enough to call it traffic, but enough to sit in dirty air.
The car felt good.
Better.
On the first push lap, he slipped ahead of Kimi somewhere through the opening sector. Pato and George were still ahead, having started earlier, running in cleaner air.
It mattered.
He knew it did.
So he pushed.
Harder.
Carrying more speed, trusting the grip, trusting himself.
Turn by turn, it came together.
Maybe too much.
A tiny bit too much pace carried him onto the kerbs, skewing the rear of the car just enough to send him straight into the opposite wall.
He barely had time to take his hands off the wheel.
The impact came fast.
Final.
“I’m fine,” he said immediately on the radio.
Then, quieter—
“Idiot.”
More to himself than anyone listening.
Silence filled the cockpit.
The car still.
Session over.
Back in the garage, everything slowed again.
The adrenaline drained quickly, replaced by something heavier.
Familiar.
“Sorry,” he said, helmet off, not looking at anyone in particular.
“It’s okay, we’ll sort it.”
But he knew.
He glanced at the timing screen.
P10.
After the peace he’d felt all weekend.
After finally feeling like himself again.
And Pato—
Was still up there.
Not on pole.
But close enough.
Ahead when it mattered.
Lando exhaled slowly, forcing himself to move, to reset, to not let it settle too deep.
Tomorrow was still there.
The race.
Another chance.
But as he walked away, one thought stayed with him.
He was close.
Just not close enough when it counted.
—
Oscar hadn’t planned on another race.
Not this week.
Not when he’d barely slept.
Between the extra work he’d taken at the garage, long hours under artificial light, and the time difference he still hadn’t quite fixed, he was running on fumes.
But he couldn’t let an opportunity like that pass.
Two thousand Australian dollars.
When Jack mentioned it, he’d dismissed it at first.
Too much.
Too soon.
Not worth it.
That lasted about five minutes.
The race itself went fine.
It always did.
Same familiar faces he saw every time he came back to Canberra. Same roads, same corners, same unspoken understanding between drivers lining up without needing to say a word.
The only thing missing—
Was a Brit in the passenger seat.
The same one who’d been in this town with him last time. Asleep, head tipped slightly to the side, completely unaware of everything going on around him.
Oscar didn’t let the thought linger.
He didn’t have time for that.
He had a race to win.
Money to earn.
A reputation to maintain.
And it was easy—too easy. At this point, almost boring. Drive out, line up, win, leave. Simple.
But it was also familiar. A routine he understood. One that made sense in a way his life lately didn’t.
No expectations beyond winning.
No noise.
Just driving.
And that—
That part still felt right.
The McLaren struggled on the way back.
Oscar could feel it through the wheel before anything else. Subtle at first, then more obvious the longer he drove. Nothing dramatic, nothing that would leave him stranded on the side of the road but enough to know it wasn’t right.
And it was on him.
With the number of races he’d been showing up to lately, and not nearly enough time spent properly taking care of the car, it had been coming for a while.
He’d just ignored it.
It was fine.
The tyres were worn, but not gone. Still good enough to get him home. A few more hours and he’d deal with it later.
Staying awake was the harder part.
Neither the coffee nor the energy drink he’d downed earlier were doing much anymore. The road stretched out ahead of him, empty and quiet, headlights cutting through the dark in a steady rhythm that didn’t help.
So he reached for his phone.
Set it up against the dash, angled just enough that he could see it without looking away from the road for too long.
Qualifying.
He didn’t usually do this.
Wouldn’t, most of the time.
But he was awake anyway.
And he wasn’t going to miss it.
Q1 started.
Lando looked good.
Fast.
Comfortable.
Oscar watched the onboard, eyes flicking between the road and the small screen. The way Lando placed the car, the way he built the lap—it was clean. Controlled. Pushing where it mattered, backing off where it didn’t.
Balanced.
Good.
Q2 was more of the same—no stress, no unnecessary risk. Just enough. Fastest.
Oscar let out a quiet breath, something close to approval settling in his chest.
There was nothing to worry about.
He leaned back slightly in his seat, both hands steady on the wheel as the tiredness crept in with every kilometre. It settled behind his eyes first, then lower, slower, heavier. The faint sound of commentary was enough to keep him going for now, voices filling the silence just enough that he didn’t drift.
Still—
He started considering pulling over.
Finding somewhere to stop for the night.
Even though there were barely two hours left.
Green light.
Cars out of the pits.
Warm-up laps.
Oscar hummed quietly when he saw Lando on new softs.
Good call.
Maximise everything.
The push laps started, and his attention slipped more toward the screen than it should have. Quick glances at first, then longer ones, trusting the empty road a little too much.
Pato set a time early.
Purple sectors lighting up the screen.
Oscar barely reacted.
First run.
First run. Track evolution—it didn’t mean much yet. Mercedes next. Clean laps. Solid.
And then Lando.
The camera stayed on Russell for now.
His lap was—
Fine.
Nothing special.
Until—
Yellow flag.
The commentator’s voice spiked, cutting through the steady background noise, and the broadcast switched abruptly.
A car.
On the kerbs.
Stopped.
Session over before it had even really started
Oscar frowned slightly, not fully processing it at first. Too tired, too slow to connect the pieces.
Then the replay came up.
Onboard.
Lando.
For a split second, it didn’t feel like he was watching anymore.
It felt like he was there.
In the car.
In the moment.
Oscar slammed the brakes.
Hard.
Too hard.
His hands came off the wheel for half a second, instinct overriding everything else, the image still burned into his vision.
The McLaren reacted immediately.
Rear stepping out, tyres already worn struggling for grip as the car began to slide sideways across the empty stretch of road.
That snapped him back.
Muscle memory took over.
He caught the slide mid-motion, one sharp correction on the wheel, then another as the rear kicked further out. The car rotated more than he intended, almost like a drift, tyres screeching against the asphalt as he fought to keep it controlled.
He yanked the handbrake briefly, forcing the rear to come around just enough to kill the momentum, guiding it rather than letting it spin freely. The car jerked, slowed, tyres protesting, before finally straightening out as he brought it to a stop on the side of the road.
Silence.
Oscar sat there for a second, hands still tight on the wheel, breathing heavier than it should have been.
The engine idled quietly.
The screen still playing.
He didn’t look at it again.
“Fuck.”
His tyres were definitely gone now.
He didn’t check on Lando right away.
He checked the car first.
Hazard lights on, just in case, the faint glow blinking against the empty road. He stepped out, phone in hand, using the light to look over the tyres.
They were gone.
But fine.
Fine enough to get him home.
The adrenaline had done its job.
There was no chance he was falling asleep now.
That part, at least, worked in his favour.
By the time he got back, Lando would be out of the car. Back at the hotel. Done with it.
He got back behind the wheel and kept driving.
A quick stop at a petrol station broke it up, more out of habit than necessity. He grabbed a coffee, not because he needed it anymore, but because it gave him something to hold, something normal.
Something to do.
Then back on the road.
He didn’t put anything on.
No music.
No radio.
Just the engine, steady and low, and the road stretching out in front of him.
His thoughts filled the rest.
The crash replayed in his head once.
Twice.
Then he pushed it out.
Didn’t need to see it again, didn’t need to analyse it now. He drove the rest of the way like that—quiet, focused.
Home came into view almost without him noticing.
That was when he let himself slow down.
The engine cut.
Silence settled in properly for the first time in hours.
He reached for his phone.
Are you alright?
That was it.
No call.
No pressure.
Just something there, if Lando wanted it.
He left the phone on the bathroom counter, sound on, screen facing up, as he stepped into the shower. The water ran hot, steam filling the space, washing the dust and tension off his skin.
He stayed there longer than usual.
Not thinking.
Just letting the noise replace everything else.
When he came out, the phone was still there.
No reply.
He didn’t check again straight away.
Just dried off, moved slower now, the exhaustion catching up with him all at once.
By the time he got into bed, it hit properly.
Heavy.
Immediate.
He placed the phone on the pillow beside him instead of the nightstand.
Close enough to hear.
He checked it once.
Then again.
Still nothing.
Oscar exhaled quietly, eyes already struggling to stay open.
He didn’t wait for it.
Sleep took him before anything else could.
—
When he woke up again, the sun was already high.
The exhaustion hadn’t gone anywhere.
Oscar reached for his phone, fishing it out from somewhere between the sheets where it had disappeared during the night.
One message.
I’m alright
He groaned quietly, burying his face into the pillow.
No double text. No explanation—just that. Honestly, he wasn’t even surprised.
He glanced at the clock on his nightstand.
9 a.m.
There was no point asking for more.
Lando would be asleep by now.
Oscar let the phone drop back onto the bed, staring at the ceiling for a second longer than necessary.
Then he pushed himself up.
He didn’t have time to sit in it.
He’d overslept.
Badly.
The apartment was a mess.
Properly a mess.
Clothes where they shouldn’t be, dishes left from days ago, takeaway containers stacked in a way that suggested he’d stopped caring somewhere along the line.
The fridge was worse.
Empty.
He’d been living off takeaway for days.
And there was still the rest of it.
Dinner at his mum’s.
Something he’d already postponed once.
And tomorrow—
Work.
A stupid Tesla with a battery issue waiting for him at the shop.
Oscar exhaled slowly, dragging a hand over his face.
Right.
He got up.
From that point on, he moved on autopilot—shower, clothes, laundry, dishes, groceries. One thing after another. No pauses, no space to think. It was easier like that. Just doing. For once.
“You look like shit.”
That was the first thing Edie said when he walked into the house.
“Thanks, Edie. Nice to see you too,” Oscar replied, rolling his eyes as he kicked his shoes off.
“No, seriously—did you sleep at all today?” she asked, tone shifting just slightly, concern slipping in.
“Yeah, don’t worry about me,” he said, already moving further in, only to be met with another pair of eyes.
Judging.
“You look like shit,” Hattie echoed from the couch, like they’d rehearsed it.
“Yeah, we’ve established that,” Edie added, nudging her slightly.
Oscar let himself drop into the armchair with a quiet sigh, head tipping back for a second.
“Is it about that French person who visited you last month?” Edie asked, a smirk pulling at her lips like she already knew the answer.
Oscar blinked at her, tired and confused.
“What are you on about?”
“I saw the suitcase,” she continued, far too pleased with herself. “The boarding pass said it was from Nice.”
“Jesus,” Oscar muttered, dragging a hand over his face. “I told you not to touch it.”
“I didn’t,” she said quickly. “It was literally on top. I just—looked.”
“Of course you did.”
A beat.
“He’s British.”
That only made it worse.
Edie’s grin widened.
“Oh, even better.”
Oscar exhaled slowly, already done with this conversation.
“Where’s Mae?” he asked, cutting it off before it could spiral any further.
He glanced at his phone.
10 a.m. in Saudi.
Which meant Lando should be up.
But there were still no new messages.
Oscar slipped the phone back into his shorts pocket without another look.
Mae wasn’t joining them for dinner she was at their dad’s this weekend, something about the custody agreement—but Edie and Hattie were decent enough not to push their luck in front of their mum.
Dinner went fine.
Better than fine.
It was good to be back here, to eat something that wasn’t takeaway, something that didn’t come in a box. The kind of food that didn’t need thinking about.
The kind of atmosphere that didn’t ask anything from him.
Easy.
“So, are you going somewhere again next week?” Hattie asked as their mum set dessert down on the table.
There was an unspoken rule between them.
They could talk about Oscar’s trips.
Just not what they actually were.
“I don’t think so, no. Why?” he asked, narrowing his eyes slightly.
“I’ve got a party,” she said, already sounding disappointed, “and I was hoping to crash at yours.”
“You can still come over even if I’m there, you know?” He rolled his eyes, but there was no real bite to it. If anything, he was used to it by now his flat being treated like a spare room whenever it was convenient.
“To be woken up at 6 a.m. because you’ve decided to go for a run or something?” she shot back. “No thanks.”
“You’re getting old,” Edie added, grinning. “Haven’t really gone anywhere properly in, what, a month? Bit boring.”
Oscar huffed quietly, shaking his head.
They weren’t wrong.
He hadn’t been making a thing out of it lately.
No extra nights. No detours. Just—go, drive, come back. It was easier that way, with the shop, with everything else. Still—his thoughts drifted, back to a Brit somewhere in Asia. The exhaustion wasn’t the problem anymore. Not really.
By the time he got to the garage later, there was a single message waiting.
busy call you later
Oscar exhaled quietly, staring at it for a second longer than necessary.
Avoiding.
Or just busy.
He didn’t know.
Yeah.
He wasn’t supposed to be there. It was Sunday.
But the Senna needed new tyres. Soon enough that no one would question it.
It should’ve been quick.
Easy.
One tyre.
Then the next.
But his focus wasn’t there.
Something stayed.
He set his phone down and pulled the replay up.
Q3.
He told himself it was to check the entry.
And it was. Partly.
Maybe there was something in it.
Something he could’ve pointed out.
He slowed it down. Watched the car through the corner—too much speed, kerb, rear gone.
Simple.
The radio came through a second later.
“I’m fine.”
A pause.
“Idiot.”
Oscar stopped the video.
His thumb hovered over the screen before dropping back to the table.
He’d said it like it was obvious.
Like it was his fault.
Oscar frowned slightly, eyes still on the frozen frame.
He didn’t need to watch it again.
Still—he did. Slower this time, looking for something else a twitch, a lock-up, anything. There was nothing. Just a fraction too much. That was all it took.
He put the phone down for good and made his way back to his car, finishing what he had come there to do. The remaining tyres went on without much thought, one after the other, movements automatic by now. He opened the hood after, checking over everything out of habit more than concern—fluids, connections, anything that might’ve been off after the drive. Everything looked fine.
Still, he lingered longer than necessary.
By the time he finally left the garage, it was just before midnight. He needed sleep. There was an early morning waiting for him again, another full day he couldn’t afford to drag himself through.
But when he got to bed, sleep didn’t come easily.
He shifted.
Turned.
Tried to settle.
Didn’t work.
His mind didn’t slow down with his body.
In and out.
Half-asleep.
Half-aware.
Never deep enough to actually rest.
Just enough to feel it dragging into the next day.
He checked his phone again. Half past four. No new messages.
He tried to fall back asleep, but it was no use.
After a moment, he reached blindly for the TV remote on the nightstand, fingers brushing against it in the dark before he turned the screen on.
The race wasn’t even halfway through.
Lap 19.
Lando came into view almost immediately. Old hards, by the look of it. He overtook Antonelli cleanly, smooth and precise, no hesitation on entry, no correction needed on exit.
P5.
Oscar exhaled slowly, watching the papaya car slip past like it was simple.
Like it always was when Lando got it right.
The pit window opened soon after.
One by one, drivers started boxing, the order shifting constantly as the race unfolded around strategy calls and tyre life.
Lando stayed out.
He moved up.
P4.
Then P3.
Oscar leaned back slightly, eyes fixed on the screen.
Watching.
Calculating.
By the time more cars peeled into the pits, it was just Charles and Lando left at the front.
P1 and P2.
Oscar understood it immediately.
Go long. Stretch the stint. Switch to something softer later and attack at the end.
It was smart.
On paper.
Lando took the lead when Charles finally pitted.
Clean air.
20 laps to go.
For a moment, it looked good.
Better than good.
Oscar knew the numbers, though.
He knew how those tyres would feel by now. Grip falling off, rear starting to go. It was manageable—but only just.
He didn’t need commentary to tell him.
The only way it worked was if something changed.
A safety car.
Nothing came.
Behind him, Pato was closing, the gap hovering around two seconds, complaining about dirty air on the radio. Oscar’s eyes flicked between the gap and the onboard, already knowing how it would go.
Lap 35.
Lando boxed.
The stop wasn’t slow, but it wasn’t perfect either. He came out P5, just behind Leclerc, with Russel ahead.
Oscar frowned slightly.
Too early.
He could’ve stretched it. A few more laps, maybe kept track position.
Now—
He had work to do.
5,6 seconds to close.
Maybe more once everything settled.
Lando pushed immediately.
He caught Russell first who was already overtaken by Charles.
Clean move.
Decisive.
Then the radio.
Noted for crossing the line at pit exit.
Oscar’s jaw tightened.
Of course.
But Lando didn’t back off. He kept pushing, lap after lap, closing what he could.
The investigation hung there for a while before it was dropped.
No penalty.
It didn’t change much.
By then, Pato was gone. P1, completely out of reach.
Oscar already knew.
There was no way Lando was getting that back.
Up ahead, Charles.
The gap came down.
Slowly.
2.0
1.6
1.3
Final lap.
Not enough.
No DRS. No real opportunity.
Lando crossed the line just behind him.
P4.
Oscar stayed still for a moment, watching the timing tower settle.
Pato. P1.
That was enough.
The lead changed.
Lando wasn’t leading the championship anymore.
Oscar exhaled quietly, eyes still on the screen.
Too much pace.
Not enough margin.
Again.
Call me when you’re free?
There was no point trying to go back to sleep. Not with so little time left anyway.
So instead, Oscar pushed himself out of bed, not bothering with a shower or even fixing his hair. He grabbed the first hoodie he could find, pulled on running shoes, and stepped outside.
The sun was just starting to come up, faint light spilling over the quiet streets. The air was cool, still, untouched.
He set off without thinking.
The route was familiar.
Automatic.
The park came into view quicker than he registered. One lap. Then another. Then another.
Faster each time.
He didn’t pace himself.
Didn’t try to.
He pushed.
Treated his body the same way he treated everything else.
Like something that could be tuned, tested, pushed to its limit.
His breathing turned sharp, uneven. Legs starting to burn, muscles tightening with every step.
He didn’t slow down.
Another lap.
And another.
By the time his legs started to give, he was already past the point where stopping made sense.
So he didn’t.
He turned back toward his flat and kept running.
Didn’t break stride.
Didn’t stop.
Not even for a second.
When he got back to his flat, his legs were shaking.
Not enough to stop him.
Just enough to feel it.
He didn’t slow down until he was inside, the door shutting behind him, the quiet hitting all at once. His breathing was still uneven, chest rising and falling as he stood there for a second, hands on his hips.
Then he moved.
Straight to the shower.
The water ran hot, almost too hot, steam filling the bathroom quickly. He stood under it longer than necessary, letting it wash over him, overworked muscles slowly unclenching, the tension from the night bleeding out in pieces.
His phone sat on the counter.
Screen on.
Sound on.
He glanced at it more than once.
Nothing.
By the time he got dressed again, it was already later than he’d planned.
Didn’t matter.
He grabbed his keys, phone in hand this time, and headed out again.
The shop was quiet when he got there.
Too early for anyone else.
Oscar unlocked it, flicked the lights on, and stepped inside like it was just another day.
Routine by now.
The Tesla was still there.
Of course it was.
He stared at it for a second, unimpressed.
“Stupid thing,” he muttered under his breath.
Too clean.
Too quiet.
Too… empty.
He preferred cars that made noise.
That fought back a little.
Still—
Work was work.
He set his phone down on the workbench, screen facing up, close enough to reach without thinking, and got started.
The issue wasn’t complicated.
Just annoying.
Battery system throwing inconsistent readings, something buried deeper in the wiring that took time more than skill.
Oscar worked through it methodically, tools moving with practiced precision, attention shifting between the car and the phone without fully committing to either.
He didn’t check it every second.
But it was there.
Always there.
The door opened not long after.
“No way,” Noah’s voice came first. “You’re already here?”
Oscar didn’t look up. “Morning.”
Another set of footsteps followed.
“Mate,” the second mechanic Liam let out a short laugh. “Do you ever leave this place anymore?”
Oscar shrugged slightly, still focused. “Had things to do.”
Noah leaned against the workbench, arms crossed. “Yeah, we’ve noticed. You’ve been taking on everything lately.”
“Someone’s got to,” Oscar replied simply.
“That’s not what I meant,” Liam said, grabbing a rag from the side. “You’re here early, you stay late, and then you show up again the next day like nothing happened. Bit concerning.”
Oscar huffed quietly. “I’m fine.”
They exchanged a look.
Didn’t push it.
Work carried on.
Time passed without him really noticing.
The phone stayed where it was.
Screen lighting up occasionally with nothing important.
Not what he was waiting for.
Until—
It rang.
Oscar didn’t hesitate.
He picked it up almost immediately, stepping slightly away from the bench. He glanced at the guys, but they weren’t paying him any attention, so he slipped into the office, shutting the door quietly behind him.
“Hey.” He dropped into the swivel chair, leaning back slightly.
“Hi,” Lando’s voice came through, quieter than usual, rough around the edges.
Oscar glanced at the clock.
Ten.
“You’re up late.”
“Just got back,” Lando replied. “Can’t sleep.”
Of course.
Late race. Late debrief. Even later everything else.
“Yeah.”
A small pause settled between them. Not awkward. Just… careful. Like both of them were choosing what not to say as much as what to say.
“How’s the shop?” Lando asked after a moment. “Or are you somewhere else again?”
Oscar’s eyes flicked briefly to the Tesla outside the glass.
“Home for now,” he said smoothly. “Same as always. Got a Tesla in.”
Lando groaned softly on the other end. “Oh no.”
“Exactly.”
That got a small laugh out of him.
“Thought you liked all cars,” Lando teased faintly.
“Not that one,” Oscar replied. “No soul.”
“Harsh,” Lando chuckled. “Is it a Cybertruck?”
“Fuck no,” Oscar scoffed. “I’d never take that abomination in.”
There was a beat—
And then Lando laughed. Properly this time. Not forced. Not quiet.
Oscar smiled to himself, letting the chair tilt back slightly under his weight.
It sounded better.
Lighter.
“What are you doing?” he asked.
“Nothing,” Lando said. “Just in the hotel.”
Oscar could almost picture it—dark room, curtains drawn, lights off, Lando lying on the bed staring at the ceiling instead of sleeping.
“Yeah?”
“Yeah.”
Oscar nodded to himself, even though Lando couldn’t see it.
He didn’t ask about the race.
Didn’t need to.
“You sound tired,” he said instead.
“I am,” Lando admitted. “Didn’t really stop thinking.”
Oscar’s grip on the phone tightened slightly.
He didn’t ask what about either.
“Right.”
“You working?” Lando asked.
“Mm.”
“Of course you are,” Lando sighed.
Oscar let out a quiet breath, something close to a smile pulling at his lips.
“Someone has to fix these things.”
“Hero,” Lando muttered. “I should let you work.”
“No, it’s fine,” Oscar said, a bit too quickly. “I could use a break anyway.”
A small shift on the other end, like Lando noticed—but didn’t comment. They didn’t push it further, didn’t turn it into something bigger.
Instead, they drifted back into easier things.
Lando mentioned something about the hotel gym being terrible. Oscar complained about the Tesla again. They argued briefly about whether electric cars should even count as cars.
It didn’t matter.
That wasn’t the point.
Eventually, the conversation slowed on its own.
Not abruptly.
Just naturally running out.
The pauses on the other end grew longer, and Oscar could hear it—the familiar edge of sleep creeping into Lando’s voice.
He didn’t point it out.
Just lowered his own voice instead, talking about nothing. The food his mum made yesterday. The stray cat Noah had been feeding that now lingered around the shop like it belonged there.
Small things.
Easy things.
Eventually, the words stopped mattering.
All that was left was the quiet.
And then—
Faint snores.
Steady breathing.
Lando had fallen asleep.
Oscar stayed in the chair for a moment longer, phone still in his hand, staring at nothing in particular.
He didn’t hang up right away.
Just listened.
Then, after a while—
The line went quiet.
And ended.
The noise of the shop filtered faintly back through the door. Voices. Tools. Something dropping in the distance.
Normal.
Oscar exhaled slowly, pushing himself up.
Back to it.
When he stepped out of the office, nothing had changed.
The Tesla was still there.
The work still waiting.
Noah glanced up briefly. “Everything alright?”
Oscar nodded once. “Yeah.”
And went straight back to work.
But his phone stayed closer this time.
Just in case.
And somewhere on the other side of the world, Lando slept.
Curled into the sheets like they were something more than they were, something that could hold him there a little longer. The oversized hoodie tangled around him, familiar enough to trick his mind into settling.
This time, he didn’t dream about lap times.
Just the ocean.
Quiet.
Endless.
And calm.
Notes:
Uno reverse card, because I was getting waaay tooo frustrated with writing the f1 races from Lando’s pow only 🥲
But I love the chapter it’s so refreshing in my opinion, hope you think so too!
Also I just today realised I should warn y’all there will be smut (won’t tell when or who’ll be there) but I figured I don’t want to spoil it and I’m not sure if everyone wants to read that kind of stuff so I want to come up with a solution to give you a heads up 😭
I’m sorry if what I write here rn doesn’t make sense BUT I’m sorry sleepy wtf.
(Also idk if I mentioned it earlier but English is not my first language so 🥲)
Anyway, lots of love, N 🫶
Chapter 16: Recalibration
Notes:
So apparently I have no self control and needed to post another one this week 😭
I was talking to a friend yesterday and was like ‘I really want to post another one but I can’t’ and he was like ‘aren’t you the author? You can do whatever you want’ so here we are.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
When the plane touched down in England, Lando felt somehow closer and farther from home at once.
The shift in weather was welcome. Not cold anymore—just that typical English spring, grey skies and air cool enough for a hoodie.
The day started slow.
At least, that’s how everyone else seemed to take it.
There was a team meeting first. Everyone present. A summary of the season so far, numbers laid out neatly, progress highlighted, momentum building.
New trophies were brought in, added to the collection like proof of everything they’d worked for.
Lando stood beside Pato.
Smiled when he needed to.
He listened as the room filled with praise.
How impressive it was.
Third year in the sport and already performing like that.
Natural talent.
So composed.
So fast.
Lando nodded along at the right moments, clapped when everyone else did.
And it wasn’t even the praise itself that bothered him—it was what came with it. The quiet dismissal of everything he’d done.
The gap was ten points. Ten.
And still—some of them spoke like it was already decided. Like the shift had already happened. Like Lando was something that had already passed.
He didn’t let it show.
Didn’t let it sit long enough to turn into something worse.
He smiled, played his part, let it pass.
He wasn’t even mad at Pato. That part was easy to accept. Pato had been better. It stung, sure—but that was racing. Being faster than the fastest.
It was everything around it that got to him. The way it was being framed.
The meeting ended soon enough, the debrief following straight after. Fewer people. Smaller room. Less noise. More real.
Andrea started it off, calm as always, hands resting lightly on the table as he looked around the room.
“Overall,” he said, “we are in a very strong position.”
No raised voice. No exaggeration.
Just fact.
“Both cars performing. Consistent points. Good execution across the weekends.”
He glanced briefly between Lando and Pato.
“I’m very happy with both of you.”
Lando nodded slightly.
It was easier to take in here.
They moved through it methodically.
Race pace.
Tyre degradation.
Strategy calls.
Jeddah came up quickly.
Of course it did.
“The long stint worked well initially,” one of the engineers said, pulling up the data. “We maximised track position, especially in clean air.”
Lando watched the screen.
Numbers.
Graphs.
Everything laid out cleanly.
“But the drop-off came earlier than expected,” another added. “Rear degradation higher than predicted.”
Andrea nodded.
“Yes. We pushed the window as far as we could.”
Lando didn’t interrupt.
“We believe the call to box on lap thirty-five was correct based on the data we had at the time,” the engineer continued.
Correct.
Lando’s jaw tightened slightly.
Not enough for anyone to notice.
Because it hadn’t felt correct. Not from inside the car.
He remembered the tyres—still there. Not great, but manageable. A few more laps. That’s all it would’ve taken. Clean air. Track position.
Instead he’d come out into traffic.
“Unlucky with the gap after the stop,” someone added. “Cost us track position.”
Unlucky.
Lando exhaled quietly through his nose.
They moved on—overtakes, execution, the note at pit exit. Dropped. No penalty.
“That was well handled,” Andrea said, looking at Lando. “Good recovery drive.”
Lando gave a small nod.
“Thanks.”
And then—
Zak stepped in.
Leaning slightly forward, hands clasped.
“The rules stay for now.”
The room stilled slightly.
Not tense.
Just aware.
“We’re not prioritising either driver,” he continued. “The gap is still small enough. It’s a long season.”
He looked between them.
“Both of you are in this.”
Lando nodded again.
Of course. Papaya rules. Keep it fair. Keep it open.
Until it wasn’t.
Because one point—was nothing. Close enough to fight. Close enough to change.
But as the meeting wrapped up, chairs shifting, people already moving on—Lando couldn’t help the thought settling quietly at the back of his mind.
After Jeddah—after the timing of that stop—it didn’t feel as equal as they said it was anymore.
Lando pulled the sleeves of his hoodie over his hands, the familiar fabric—long washed of Oscar’s scent—still some kind of lifeline. A quiet comfort, something to hold onto as he made his way to the sim.
He had a long session ahead of him.
After the last race, Will wasn’t planning on taking it easy.
He went again.
And again.
No dwelling on Saudi.
That was done.
Closed.
Miami.
Lap after lap, building it up piece by piece. Braking points, throttle application, lines through corners refining everything until it felt right.
Until it felt automatic.
“Again,” Will said.
Lando nodded, went again—this time cleaner. Still not perfect.
“Better,” Will added. “But you’re still over-rotating on exit there. Keep it tighter.”
“Yeah.”
He adjusted, tried again. Hours blurred together like that—repetition, correction, precision. No space to think about anything else. Just the car, the track, the next corner.
By the time Will finally spoke again, Lando barely noticed how long it had been.
“Alright, kid. That’s enough.”
“Yeah,” he said quietly.
By the time he exited the simulator, his head felt pleasantly empty. No lingering thoughts, no unnecessary overthinking. Just quiet.
It didn’t last long.
He made his way over to the PR area next, unannounced. For once, not because someone told him to.
“Is it in yet?” he asked, a hint of excitement slipping through before he could stop it.
His Miami helmet.
The one he’d come up with back in January and insisted on half joking, half not—that he wouldn’t race without it.
It hadn’t been easy.
Questions about safety. Endless tweaks to the design. Production delays that stretched longer than anyone expected. For a while, he genuinely thought it wouldn’t make it in time.
“Yes,” Louise said, rolling her eyes slightly, though she was already turning to lead him.
The helmet sat under the lights.
And it looked—
Impressive.
There were two versions.
The showpiece first—the one that caught your eye immediately. Covered in mirrored panels, sharp and precise, reflecting light in every direction like a proper disco ball.
And then the race version.
Safer.
Simplified.
Still striking.
“Can I try it on?” Lando asked, sounding a bit too eager to hide it.
Louise just nodded.
That was enough.
He grinned, already reaching for it, lifting it carefully before settling it over his head.
For a second, everything else faded.
He turned toward the mirror.
Adjusted it slightly.
Looked.
It fit perfectly.
He tilted his head a little, watching how the light bounced off it, fractured reflections moving with him. Visor up. Then down.
Different angles.
Different versions of the same thing.
He reached for his phone without thinking, snapping a few pictures. In the mirror. Close up. A couple of quick selfies.
Proof.
“Don’t break it,” Louise called from somewhere behind him. “We’ve got a shoot tomorrow.”
“Yeah, yeah,” he muttered, still looking at himself.
Eventually, he took it off, slower this time.
More careful.
He held it a second longer than necessary, watching the way it caught the light, the way it sparkled. He remembered when the idea first came to him—how easy it had felt then, how exciting. The mirror ball. A spark. Something bright. Something to hold onto. Right now—he needed that.
By the time Lando left the MTC, it was still early.
Too early for the kind of day it had been.
The sky hung low and grey, the air mild enough for just a hoodie. He stood by his car for a second, keys in hand, not getting in straight away.
Then he made a decision.
The drive wasn’t planned.
It rarely was.
Two hours wasn’t much.
Not really.
The roads were familiar, almost automatic at this point. Motorway stretching out ahead, fields blurring past, the occasional village breaking it up before everything settled again.
Nothing like the sunny Australian roads.
He put some random music on, just to pretend it was normal.
His mind was quieter—not empty, just… less loud. He thought about the sim, the debrief, the helmet. That made him smile a little. Oscar. The thought came easier now, not sharp, not heavy. Just there.
He wondered if Oscar would like it here. The roads so different, yet somehow the same. The limits similar, but the car—
Different.
His McLaren P1 wasn’t like the Senna. Less raw. Less… personal.
He wondered what Oscar would change if he had the chance.
The drive passed quicker than expected.
It always did.
By the time he pulled up outside his parents’ house, the light had softened, the day fading into evening.
He barely reached the door before it opened.
“Hi, love.”
“Hi,” Lando smiled back, softer.
No questions.
Not straight away.
Just—
Home.
He stayed for dinner. Proper food. Warm. Familiar. Conversation that didn’t require anything from him beyond being there.
It grounded him more than anything else had all week.
By the time he ended up in his old room, it felt almost strange.
Nothing had really changed—same space, same quiet. He sat on the edge of the bed, then leaned back, staring at the ceiling. His phone already in his hand. He called. It rang once.
Then—
“Hey.”
Oscar picked up almost immediately.
“Hi,” Lando said, turning onto his side.
“You’re in a good mood,” Oscar noted.
Lando huffed a quiet laugh. “Am I?”
“Yeah.”
“Had a decent day,” he admitted. “Sim went alright. And—” a grin slipped in, “my helmet’s ready.”
A small pause.
“Yeah?”
“Yeah,” Lando pushed himself up slightly. “It looks sick.”
“Can I see it?” Oscar asked, voice casual.
Lando smirked.
“Can you keep a secret?”
“No.”
Immediate.
Lando laughed.
“Alright, fair.”
He scrolled, picked a photo carefully one of the mirror selfies, visor open, light catching the mirrored surface in sharp, colourful reflections—and sent it.
A few seconds passed.
“Okay,” Oscar said.
Lando frowned. “That’s it?”
“It’s good,” Oscar added, a hint of a smile in his voice. “Very you.”
“I’ll take that as a compliment.”
“Whatever you want.”
A pause settled between them.
Easy.
“You’re wearing my hoodie,” Oscar said suddenly.
“Oh.” Lando blinked, glancing down, a small smile pulling at his lips. “Yeah.”
“You’ve had that for a while.”
“Yeah.”
“You planning on giving it back?”
“Mm,” Lando hummed, sinking deeper into the pillow. “No.”
Oscar let out a quiet breath, almost a laugh.
“Thought so.”
They stayed on the call longer than they needed to.
Talking about nothing. Small things. Safe things. And for once, Lando didn’t feel like he was chasing something—just… there. By the time he fell asleep, the phone was still in his hand. And for the first time in a while, it felt enough.
When he woke up, the call was still on.
His phone plugged in, screen dim, the timer reading 8 hours and 37 minutes.
“Osc?” he mumbled, rubbing his eyes, voice thick with sleep.
Silence.
For a second.
Then a noise —something shifting, a door closing.
“Hi, sleeping beauty.”
Lando smiled.
“You stayed?”
“Someone had to make sure you didn’t die in your sleep,” Oscar said casually.
A joke.
But they both knew better.
“Oh yeah,” Lando giggled softly, playing along, “me talking to you right before dying would ruin your reputation.”
“Exactly,” Oscar hummed. “I don’t want to be known as that kind of criminal.”
Lando exhaled slowly, burying himself deeper into the sheets.
“I should get up… if I want breakfast with my family before I have to leave.”
“You’re home?” Oscar asked, surprised, before adding quickly, “up you go. Don’t waste time lazing around.”
“You’re so mean to me, Osc,” Lando pouted, even though Oscar couldn’t see it.
“Someone has to,” he chuckled. “Go. You can call me later if you want.”
“Okay.”
The call ended, and Lando felt lighter as he pushed himself out of bed.
He took a quick shower, rummaged through his childhood closet for something decent, and made sure to carefully tuck the hoodie into his backpack before heading downstairs.
“So who’s Osc?”
Flo didn’t even wait for him to sit properly before asking, smirking like she’d already won.
Lando paused mid-movement, then sat down beside her, trying to stay casual. Their dad glanced up briefly from his newspaper but didn’t say anything.
Cisca wasn’t there, and their mum was still in the kitchen.
“A friend,” Lando said, a bit too quickly. “Why?”
“A friend that stays on call while you’re asleep?” Flo tilted her head, grin widening. “I plugged your phone in, by the way. You’re welcome.”
Lando blinked.
“Why were you in my room?”
“Not my fault,” she shot back. “Mum told me to check on you.”
“Mum!” Lando called out, half whining, as she walked in. “Flo was spying on me!”
“I wasn’t,” Flo rolled her eyes. “I was being nice so your phone didn’t die. Never doing that again.”
Lando huffed, but there was no real bite to it.
It didn’t feel like anything was missing for once.
By the time he got back in the car, it was already noon.
He sat there for a second, phone in hand, before pulling it up and—again—googling the time difference.
He should’ve known it by now. Australia was the same. But he was in a different part of the world this time—different hours. He did the math anyway, double-checked just to be sure. It was fine. Late evening for Oscar.
Lando hesitated, thumb hovering over the screen.
Was he being too needy?
But Oscar said it was fine.
He started the engine.
Pressed call.
“Hi,” he said as soon as it picked up.
“Are you driving?” Oscar asked immediately.
“Yeah, but you’re on speaker,” Lando rolled his eyes.
“Mm-hm,” Oscar hummed. “Is it the P1?”
“I—what?” Lando blinked, genuinely caught off guard. “Are you seriously able to tell just from the sound?”
“Yep,” Oscar chuckled. “It’s got that electric whine. And you’re not going very fast right now.”
Lando huffed, but there was a smile there.
He could hear it in Oscar’s voice that quiet confidence, the certainty when he knew he was right.
Especially when it came to cars.
“I’m still in town!” Lando defended himself.
Lando pulled into the highway slowly, one hand on the wheel, the other resting near his phone.
“You actually left on time?” Oscar asked.
“Yeah.” The Brit huffed quietly. “Don’t sound so shocked.”
“I am.”
The road stretched out ahead, traffic thinning as he got further out.
“Did you at least have a good time?” Oscar asked.
“Yeah.”
“Yeah?” The younger echoed “Did you eat?”
“My mum made full English breakfast!” Lando said a beaming smile “I needed that.”
It wasn’t just about the food.
It was the reset. Being home. Being normal. Being more than just a driver for a few hours.
Another pause.
“I’m glad.”
That got a small smile out of him.
“You’ve got a busy day?” Oscar asked.
“Mhmm, I need to make a shoot for the helmet, more sim, and Jon’s been up my ass about avoiding training.” He listed it out “and I’m going back to Monaco this evening.”
“That sound’s fun.” The Aussie said sarcastically.
“Exactly.” Lando laughed under his breath “but I’ll have a few proper days off before I need to be in the USA.”
Another pause settled, but it wasn’t awkward.
Just there.
“You’ll be fine,” Oscar said after a moment.
Simple.
Lando didn’t answer straight away.
“Yeah,” he said eventually.
“You will,” Oscar repeated, quieter this time.
Lando tightened his grip on the wheel slightly.
“Yeah.”
A car passed him, the sound briefly filling the silence.
It was getting later with every passing kilometre and lando knew he shouldn’t hold Oscar back from sleep.
“Drive safe.”
“Always do.”
The line clicked off.
And the quiet came back, softer this time.
The MTC was already busy when he got back.
It always was.
The helmet shoot started almost immediately.
Louise was already waiting, clipboard in hand, talking to someone from media as soon as Lando walked in.
“There you are,” she said. “We’re running late.”
“I just got here,” he muttered, but she was already pushing him toward wardrobe.
The room was bright.
Too bright.
Lights set up from every angle, cameras ready, people moving around with purpose.
“Alright, we’ll start with the helmet,” someone said.
Of course they would. They handed it to him carefully, different from yesterday—this time ready for the camera, polished to perfection.
“Chin up a bit.”
“Look slightly to the left.”
“Perfect—hold that.”
Flashes—one after another. Lando did what he always did—smiled when needed, adjusted when told, hit every mark without thinking. Professional. But it felt distant. Like watching himself from somewhere else.
“Okay, visor down for the next set.”
That felt different. The moment the helmet slid on, the noise dulled. Not gone. Just… further away. The visor came down. And for a second it was quiet. Just him.
“Perfect, hold that—yeah, that’s it.”
He didn’t move. Didn’t need to. That part felt right. The rest passed in a blur outfit changes, more flashes. Different angles. Different looks. Same routine.
“Alright, that’s a wrap.”
Lando pulled the helmet off slowly, handing it back, the light hitting it again, reflecting in sharp fragments across the room.
“Good job,” someone said.
He nodded.
Didn’t feel like anything.
The gym was quieter.
Jon was already there, leaning against the equipment, arms crossed as Lando walked in.
“You look less miserable,” he noted.
“Thanks,” Lando muttered.
“No, seriously,” Jon added, pushing off the wall. “Still not right though.”
Lando didn’t answer.
Just grabbed a towel.
“Alright,” Jon clapped his hands once. “We’re not taking it easy today.”
“Did we eve?” Lando chuckled and yeah, maybe he was getting his spark back, at least a little.
They started—weights, then conditioning, then more. Neck, arms, legs. The usual. Jon didn’t go easy on him. Didn’t need to.
Lando pushed through it, focusing on the movement, on the strain, on something physical instead of everything else.
“Again,” Jon said.
Lando went again.
“You don’t fix it by thinking,” Jon added at one point, watching him.
Lando let out a breath.
“Good to know.”
“Then stop overthinking it.”
He didn’t respond.
Just kept going.
By the time they finished, his muscles burned, breath uneven, body properly exhausted.
Better.
The sim session after was shorter.
Sharper.
Less trial.
More control.
He hit his marks cleaner this time, adjustments coming quicker, mistakes corrected before they built into something bigger.
“Much better,” Will said.
Lando nodded.
That felt closer.
By the time everything was done, the day had slipped away almost without him noticing.
He barely had time before the airport.
Quick shower. Grab his things. Out again.
Sun already setting, casting everything in warm light that didn’t quite match how tired he felt.
He moved through it all automatically.
Security.
Boarding.
Seat.
Monaco.
His phone stayed in his hand for a while. Unlocked, then locked again.
No call this time.
He leaned back in his seat, eyes drifting toward the window as the plane lifted, the ground falling away beneath him.
The day had been good. Productive. Mostly happy. Exactly what he needed.
And still—it didn’t quite feel like enough.
—
The Monaco sun was still warm when Lando pulled into the small parking lot by the course, the light softer now, dipping toward evening but not quite there yet. It was quieter than the rest of the city, tucked just far enough away from the usual noise to feel like a break from it.
Daniel was already there.
Of course he was.
Leaning against the golf cart like he didn’t have a care in the world, sunglasses on, club resting loosely against his shoulder.
“Look who finally made it,” he called out as soon as Lando stepped out of the car.
“I’m on time,” Lando shot back, grabbing his bag.
“Barely.”
“Still counts.”
Daniel grinned, pushing himself off the cart. “I was about to start without you.”
“You wouldn’t.”
“Would’ve considered it.”
Lando rolled his eyes, but there was a smile there as he walked over. Easy. Familiar. The kind of interaction that didn’t require effort.
They didn’t linger long before heading out.
The course stretched out in clean lines of green, the kind of place that looked almost too perfect to be real. The air was warm, still, carrying the faint sound of the city somewhere in the distance.
Daniel took the first shot.
“Watch and learn,” he said, adjusting his stance.
“You say that every time.”
“And every time I’m right.”
Lando huffed a quiet laugh, watching as Daniel swung.
It was good.
Not perfect.
But good enough.
“Alright,” Daniel said, stepping back. “Your turn.”
Lando stepped up, settling into position, letting his body fall into something familiar. Different kind of focus. Less precise than driving, but still something he could sink into.
He swung.
Clean.
The ball cut through the air, landing further than Daniel’s.
Daniel squinted. “Lucky.”
“Skill.”
“Debatable.”
They moved like that through the course.
Shot after shot.
Conversation slipping in between without any real structure.
They didn’t talk about racing.
Not really.
A few mentions here and there, quick comments about schedules, travel, nothing that stuck long enough to matter.
It was intentional.
On both sides.
“So,” Daniel said at one point, leaning back slightly as he watched Lando line up another shot, “you’re still doing that crazy schedule?”
“Yeah.”
“Sounds fun.”
“It is,” Lando said, tone flat.
Daniel laughed. “Liar.”
Lando smiled faintly, focusing on the shot instead.
The rhythm of it was easy.
Walk.
Talk.
Play.
It felt almost normal. And that was when he noticed it.
Not all at once—just… small things. The way Daniel spoke, certain words, the cadence, the accent.
Not the same. Not exactly. But close enough.
It caught him off guard—a phrase here, a tone there.
It wasn’t Oscar. But it was enough to remind him.
Lando adjusted his grip on the club, looking down instead of across at him.
“Hey, you alright?” Daniel asked casually.
“Yeah,” Lando said quickly. “Just missed that one.”
“You didn’t miss,” Daniel laughed. “You just didn’t like it.”
That—
Was also familiar.
They kept moving.
The sun dipped lower, shadows stretching longer across the grass, the air cooling just slightly.
Daniel was talking about something—some story about a trip, something ridiculous that happened—but Lando only caught parts of it.
Not fully listening.
Because his brain had caught onto something else—the similarities and the differences.
Daniel was loud where Oscar was quiet. Open where Oscar held back. Easy in a way that didn’t ask for anything deeper.
Oscar—was different.
Lando exhaled slowly, lining up another shot.
“You remember that race in Perth?” Daniel said suddenly.
That—
Lando froze for a fraction of a second. Barely noticeable. But there.
Daniel didn’t seem to notice. Or maybe he did.
“Absolute chaos,” he continued, chuckling. “Theo still didn’t fix his car properly.”
Lando forced a small smile. “Yeah,” he said lightly. “Was something.”
His grip tightened slightly around the club.
Perth.
That wasn’t just a race.
That was—
He cut the thought off before it could settle.
“Luca’s been nagging him to swallow his pride and go to Piastri,” Daniel went on casually, like it didn’t hit anything at all. “Oi, did you get in touch after that night?”
“What?” Lando’s brain short-circuited for a second, scrambling for something, anything to redirect. “Why would he go to him?”
“Apparently he’s some kind of magic mechanic,” Daniel shrugged. “But Theo’s thinking of upgrading anyway. He’s been up my ass about buying my Skyline. Can you believe that?”
Lando stepped forward, swung while Daniel kept talking.
Yeah. Crisis avoided.
For now.
The swing was harder than it needed to be.
The ball flew further than expected.
“Alright,” Daniel raised an eyebrow. “There we go.”
“Just got lucky,” Lando muttered.
But his mind wasn’t on the game anymore.
He kept it light after that. Careful. Redirecting whenever things got too close. Joking. Deflecting.
Daniel followed easily. Didn’t push. Whether he noticed or not, he let it go.
By the time they finished, the sky had softened, the sun dipping low, painting everything in warm gold.
They stood by the cart, clubs put away, the game already forgotten.
“That was fun,” Daniel said.
“Yeah.”
“You should do this more.”
“Maybe.”
A pause.
“You look better,” Daniel added casually.
Lando glanced at him. “What does that mean?”
“Just—” Daniel shrugged. “Less like you want to punch something.”
Lando huffed a quiet laugh. “Good to know.”
“Means it’s working.”
“Golf?”
“Or whatever you’re doing.” Daniel looked at him properly this time. “Don’t let the pressure ruin you.”
Lando didn’t answer.
“Anyway,” Daniel clapped his hands together once, easy again, “I’ll let you go. You look like you’ve got somewhere to be.”
“Yeah.”
They said their goodbyes simply, no overthinking it.
Lando watched him leave for a second, then turned back to his car.
The drive back was quiet. The city lights flickered on one by one as he moved through Monaco, the roads familiar, almost too smooth.
He didn’t put music on this time—didn’t need to. His mind was louder again.
Daniel had been easy. Comfortable. Familiar. And still, it hadn’t filled the space. If anything, it only made it more obvious.
By the time he got back to his apartment, the quiet hit harder than before.
Everything in its place.
Everything exactly as he left it.
And no one there.
Lando dropped his keys on the counter, the sound echoing slightly in the space.
He stood there for a moment, then reached for his phone. Paused. Did the math again. It was getting annoying—always counting the hours between them.
He sat down on the sofa instead, phone still in hand, and opened the browser.
Searched how to add another clock.
It took seconds. Easier than it should’ve been. One tap. Two. Done. Australia. Melbourne. Set. He stared at it for a moment—two times, two places. He told himself it was just easier this way. Just convenient. Nothing more.
But the clock told him it was still too early to call.
He leaned back, exhaling slowly, eyes drifting to the ceiling.
He tried not to think about it.
It didn’t work.
Why hadn’t he said anything to Daniel?
It would’ve been easy. Casual. Just a mention. And yet he didn’t.
There were reasons. Daniel would’ve joked. Not seriously. But enough.
And Lando wasn’t sure he wanted that. Not this. Not Oscar.
There was something else too. Quieter. A part of him that didn’t want to share. Not with Daniel. Not with anyone.
Not a secret. Just his.
Lando pulled the sleeves of the hoodie over his hands again without thinking.
He looked back at the clock.
Still too early.
And somehow it felt worse.
Monaco settled around him easily. Not loud, not demanding, just there.
—
Lando let himself slow down for the first time in weeks. He slept in, no alarms, no early calls, just waking up when his body decided it was enough. It felt strange at first, then good.
He kept things simple. Late breakfasts that turned into early lunches, tea on the balcony, watching the city move without needing to be part of it. He met up with friends a couple of times, nothing big, a lunch by the harbour with Carlos, a video game session with Alex.
Racing came up now and then, but it never stayed long. They moved past it quickly, back to normal things, and for a few hours he got to just be Lando, not the driver, not the championship leader, just himself.
He needed that more than he realised.
He texted Max one evening, feeling like he hadn’t talked to him in ages. With last season’s tension long gone, they slipped back into it easily.
Drinks?
The reply came quickly.
Can’t. Any day now.
Lando smiled at his phone, leaning back into the couch. Right. The baby. He typed back something simple.
Good luck. You’ll be fine.
I know.
Lando let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. He was happy for him. Genuinely.
The days blurred together after that, easy, comfortable. He didn’t rush anything. Didn’t need to.
He still talked to Oscar. Just differently.
Mostly texts. Short ones, scattered through the day. They kept it simple, light.
choose your fighter
Lando sent one afternoon, attaching a picture of his car collection.
I’m taking the Jolly.
The reply came hours later, but it was fine.
One morning Lando woke up to a picture of an orange tabby cat, curled up on a hoodie in the garage, followed by a teasing question.
Is that you?
Lando rolled his eyes, a small smile pulling at his lips.
I’m not ginger
They kept missing each other by hours. One waking up as the other was going to sleep. Sometimes it lined up. Most of the time it didn’t.
It wasn’t bad. Just not the same.
Lando didn’t dwell on it. Didn’t want to turn it into something bigger than it was.
He let himself rest instead. Reset. Take what he could from the quiet days, from the familiarity of Monaco, from the lack of pressure. From home.
By the time it was time to go to the United States, Lando felt more at ease, more optimistic. The past few days had done what they needed to do. Slowed him down, gave him space to breathe, to think without everything piling up at once.
It was only the beginning of the season. He shouldn’t spiral this early, shouldn’t let a few bad moments define everything that came after. He knew that. Knew it logically, even if it didn’t always feel that simple in the moment.
But it felt more manageable now.
Like he had something to hold onto again.
He packed without rushing, moving around his apartment with a quiet kind of focus, everything falling into place easily. Helmet ready. Clothes folded. Routine settling back in.
He knew whatever came next would be alright.
He wasn’t in this alone.
Notes:
I think I just really want to be done with the in between limbo we’re stuck at 😭
Also I’m mad because I usually never read fics that aren’t finished, but I do read one now and the author hasn’t posted in a month!
I understand everyone has their own peace but I refuse to be like that 🥲
Ps. Exactly a year ago today I started reading Coanda Effect so a JJK fan fic in f1 universe and decided check it out.
Back then I thought it’d last two months tops and I’d move on, plot twist, I got trauma bonded to the sport and will probably be stuck for life 😭
Chapter 17: Deliver
Notes:
It’s me again, before 6 in the morning because I’m an amazing daughter, dropped my mum off and decided to post while I’m awake.
Had a semi bad weekend at, my vape broke down and my migraine is back.
So I have literally one plan for today and that it to to nothing and chill with my cats 🫡
And for now I’m going for a nap 😂
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The first thing that hit Lando when he landed in Miami was his phone lighting up. The Melbourne clock showed a fourteen-hour difference, and it felt like an abyss.
But that wasn’t the worst part.
Or maybe worst wasn’t the right word.
There was a photo waiting for him.
Oscar, shirtless, half-buried in sheets, fast asleep. His hair had been curled into uneven, messy loops, sticking out in every direction like someone had taken the time to style it while he was completely unaware. It should’ve looked ridiculous.
It didn’t.
Not sure how I didn’t wake up while Hattie was doing it.
Lando let out a quiet breath, a smile pulling at his lips before he could stop it, already typing.
having much fun I see
He tried to keep it casual, but it didn’t quite land, not when his ears were still warm from just looking at the picture. It was unfair, really. Oscar looked like that and expected him to act normal.
Did you have a good flight?
The reply came almost immediately.
Lando blinked at the screen, then checked the time again.
Right.
One of those rare windows.
yeah just getting to the hotel
I’m glad.
A short pause.
call you when I get there?
Yeah.
Lando smiled faintly, locking his phone as he followed the rest of the team out.
For once, the timing worked.
The ride to the hotel was pleasantly uneventful, quiet in a way that let Lando sink into his seat and just exist for a moment after the long flight. By the time they checked in, the group split naturally, everyone heading off in different directions without much thought.
Lando didn’t mind.
If anything, he was glad. No obligations for the evening, no media, no forced appearances. The team had taken mercy on them and given them a bit of space before everything picked up again.
“Mate,” Pato grabbed his attention as they were heading toward their rooms, “wanna hang out?”
It took more effort than it should’ve to keep his face neutral, to not let anything slip through as the answer came easily.
“Sorry, man, I’m dead.”
He forced a small, apologetic smile, casual enough to pass. “Got an early morning tomorrow, need to get ready for the event. Think I’ll just go straight to sleep.”
It wasn’t entirely a lie. He was tired. The time difference wasn’t too bad, but the ten-hour flight had settled heavy in his body, dull and persistent.
“No worries,” Pato shrugged, easy as always.
Lando only let himself breathe once the door to his hotel room closed behind him, the quiet wrapping around him instantly.
I’m at the hotel, gimme 10?
He typed quickly, just to reassure Oscar he hadn’t forgotten.
Then he dropped the phone onto the bed and headed straight for the bathroom.
There were priorities.
And right now, the biggest one was a shower.
He felt disgusting after the trip, like the whole day was still clinging to him.
That had to be fixed first.
He rushed through the shower, quick and efficient, the kind that washed off the surface but didn’t quite count as proper. That could wait for the morning. As much as he needed it, he wanted to talk to Oscar more.
He settled into bed, hair still damp, soft clothes on, comfortable in a way hotel rooms rarely were, and pressed call.
It barely rang.
Oscar’s face appeared almost instantly.
“Your hair is back to normal,” Lando said first, a hint of disappointment slipping through.
“Of course it is,” Oscar chuckled. “It was yesterday, washed it the first thing in the morning.”
Right, Oscar was probably already back to Melbourne.
“Shame,” Lando muttered, trying for casual. “You looked cute.”
Oscar raised an eyebrow slightly. “Cute, huh?”
Lando ignored that, pushing past it before it could turn into something.
“Anyway, how was Sydney?” he asked quickly. “Wash it better than last time?”
Oscar let out a quiet huff of a laugh, shaking his head as he shifted the phone a little. Only then did Lando clock the background—he was already at the shop.
“Quite the opposite,” Oscar said. “Hattie complained the whole way, like I didn’t offer to buy her a plane ticket.”
“So I was better company?” Lando teased, fishing for it.
“You were decent,” Oscar smirked.
“Oi. I was a delight.”
“Whatever helps you sleep.”
Lando rolled his eyes, leaning back into the pillow. “So nothing exciting happened? No race won?”
“I don’t think half her stuff would fit into the Senna. Had to take the Audi,” Oscar said with a small sigh. “So no races this time.”
“Oh.”
A small pause settled between them.
“You don’t talk about your races anymore,” Lando said, quieter.
Oscar went still for a moment, like he was choosing his words carefully. “Nothing interesting to talk about.”
“Yeah, winning every race gets boring after a while,” Lando said lightly, sarcasm soft around the edges. “Don’t stop just because mine are going to shit.”
“Lan.” Oscar’s tone was firm, but the nickname softened it. “You’ve been off the podium once. That’s not shit. If anything, you’ve had a strong start.”
Lando sighed, pulling the sheets tighter around himself like they could block everything else out. “I know, I know.”
“Yeah?”
“Yeah.”
This time, he meant it.
A small pause settled, quieter but easy.
“So,” Lando shifted slightly, resting his head against the pillow, “you done playing taxi driver for the week?”
“Finally,” Oscar exhaled. “No more concerts, no more complaints. Just me and the garage again.”
“Living the dream.”
“Obviously.”
Lando smiled faintly. “Miss it?”
“The races?” Oscar shrugged. “Not really.”
“Liar.”
Oscar huffed a quiet laugh. “Maybe a bit.”
Another pause followed.
“You’ll be fine this weekend,” Oscar said after a moment.
Lando hummed, not fully convinced.
“Just don’t overthink it,” Oscar added. “When you stop thinking, that’s when you’re quickest.”
“I don’t—”
“You do,” Oscar cut in, calm, not arguing, just stating it. “You try to make up for everything at once and then you spiral. Just trust it.”
Lando went quiet for a second.
Because yeah.
“Drive it like you did at the start of the season,” Oscar continued. “Don’t try to prove anything.”
“Prove?” Lando frowned.
“Yeah. Just drive like it’s yours.”
That pulled a small smile out of him.
“Alright,” Lando said after a moment. “I’ll try not to think.”
“Good.”
The conversation slipped back into something lighter after that, small things, easy again. Time passed without either of them really noticing.
“I should probably go,” Lando said eventually.
“Yeah. It’s late for you,” Oscar nodded slightly. “And you’ve got your whole influencer life tomorrow.”
“Shut up,” Lando muttered, smiling.
A small pause.
“Call me later?” Lando added.
“Yeah.”
Neither of them rushed it.
Then the screen went dark.
The room felt quieter without him.
Lando stayed still for a moment, phone still in his hand. Miami hummed faintly outside.
He exhaled slowly, setting it down.
Boring. Clean.
He closed his eyes for a second, letting it settle before reaching over to set his alarm.
Early morning. Event. Back to it.
This time, it felt a little more manageable.
—
The alarm came too early.
Lando groaned, turning onto his side and blindly reaching for his phone, silencing it before it could ring again. The room was already bright, Miami sun cutting through the curtains like it had no patience for jet lag. He lay there for a moment longer, eyes half open, letting his brain catch up with where he was.
Hotel. Miami. Event.
His phone was still in his hand.
A message was waiting for him.
You alive?
He huffed quietly, a small smile pulling at his lips as he typed back.
barely
The reply came almost instantly.
Good. Would be inconvenient if you weren’t.
Lando let out a soft breath, shaking his head.
rude
Accurate.
He didn’t reply again, pushing himself up and stretching slightly before heading to the bathroom. The shower this time was slower, proper, letting the heat wake him up fully, washing off the last of the flight and whatever was left of yesterday. By the time he stepped out, he felt more like himself again.
The pace picked up immediately after.
PR were already waiting when he arrived, phones in hand, schedules open, talking over each other.
“Morning,” someone said quickly, handing him a tea and a set of clothes almost at the same time. “We’re already running late.”
“Of course we are,” Lando muttered, taking both anyway.
The outfit was laid out for him, clean and sharp in that effortless way everything from Ralph Lauren seemed to be. Dark tones, fitted just right, expensive without trying too hard. At least they colour matched it to the fragrance like he suggested.
“Hair,” someone else added, already guiding him toward a chair.
“I have hair,” Lando said flatly, a poor attempt to lighten the mood.
“Not like that.”
He didn’t argue. It was easier to let them do their thing, sit still, check his phone while they fixed whatever needed fixing. At least he could relax, sometimes it almost felt like a head massage. Messages, notifications, group chats he didn’t have the energy to open. Another quick glance at the Melbourne clock.
Different world entirely.
He locked his phone again before he could think too much about it.
By the time they were done with him, everything was in place. Outfit, hair, smile.
Professional.
The event space was already busy when he got there. Music low in the background, cameras set up, people moving with purpose. Fans gathered behind barriers, voices overlapping the moment they spotted him.
“Lando!”
He looked up automatically, smile already there, posture relaxed, stepping into it like he’d done a hundred times before.
Photos came first. Standing, turning slightly, adjusting without needing to be told more than once. He knew his angles by now, knew how to make it look effortless even when it wasn’t.
“Over here!”
He turned again, easy, natural.
“Excited to be in Miami?” someone asked, microphone appearing out of nowhere.
“Always,” he said smoothly. “Good weather, good vibe. Can’t complain.”
“And the season so far?”
“Strong start,” Lando replied, tone steady. “Still early though. Plenty to go.”
He didn’t overthink it. Didn’t try to craft the perfect answer. Just spoke.
It felt easier than it had a few races ago.
They moved him along, from one setup to another. More photos, different backdrop, different lighting. At one point someone handed him a bottle of Red, guiding him through a few shots with it.
“Just like that, yeah—perfect.”
He played along, testing it, reacting just enough, a small smirk when the camera got closer.
“Not bad,” he said. “Might keep it.”
That got a laugh from someone behind the lens.
Fans were next.
He moved toward them without hesitation this time, energy shifting slightly, less controlled, more real. Signing whatever was pushed toward him, caps, shirts, even a phone case at one point.
“Can we get a photo?”
“Yeah, of course.”
He leaned in, smiling properly this time.
“For me you’re always the best.” a fan said, voice a bit unsure “no matter what place.”
Lando glanced at him, surprised, then nodded. “Yeah. Thank you.”
“You’ve got this,” the girl added quickly.
Lando held his gaze for a second longer than usual, then nodded again. “I’ll try.”
It stayed with him as he moved on, something small but grounding.
The rest of the event blurred together after that. More talking, more cameras, more of the same rhythm he’d known for years. But it didn’t feel heavy today. He wasn’t forcing it, wasn’t thinking three steps ahead about what to say or how to act.
He just did it.
And it worked.
The sim setup was waiting in another room, smaller, quieter, a different kind of focus.
Lando slid into the seat, hands finding the wheel automatically. The world narrowed down.
The cameras, the crowd, all of it faded into the background. He was still aware of it, of course, but this was a kind of performance he didn’t mind. One he was actually good at.
He went out for a lap.
Oscar’s voice lingered somewhere in the back of his mind.
Stop overthinking it.
So he didn’t.
He drove. Clean, controlled, letting the lap build instead of forcing it. It wasn’t serious, not really. Just a simulator run for the event, something for the fans to try later, something to beat.
Still, he found himself settling into it.
He even threw a joke halfway through, glancing at the cameras, smiling for real this time.
By the time he stepped out, there was a lightness to him, something that hadn’t been there before.
The day had taken it out of him, but in a good way.
When the event finally wrapped up, there was a quiet realisation settling in. A piece of himself he thought he’d lost somewhere along the way felt like it had come back.
He used to love this. The attention, the noise, being the one in the middle of it all. Somewhere between last season and everything that came with it, that part of him had faded.
Maybe it wasn’t gone after all.
He was trying. And for now, that had to be enough.
Back at the hotel, the city was louder than the night before, lights reflecting off glass and water, everything moving at a pace Monaco never quite had.
Lando dropped onto the bed, not bothering to change, just letting himself sink into it.
His phone buzzed.
You survived?
He smiled faintly, turning his head toward it.
yeah
Expected.
He stared at the screen for a moment, then typed again.
you should’ve seen the fit today
A short pause.
Send.
Looks preppy.
Lando rolled his eyes.
call you?
Can’t right now, meeting my accountant in a bit.
later?
Yeah.
He let the phone fall onto the bed beside him, staring up at the ceiling.
Tired, but steady.
Not overthinking. Not spiralling.
—
The only free practice that weekend wasn’t anything to write home about.
P10.
By now, Lando was more than used to results like that. It didn’t frustrate him the way it would’ve a few races ago. It was just part of it. A session to get a feel, to run through things, nothing more.
He didn’t think about it too much—didn’t need to. Sprint qualifying was different, sharper, more focused. The kind of session where things actually mattered.
The lap came together clean. Not perfect, but good enough.
P3.
Just behind Kimi.
And Pato.
Close, but still not quite there.
Lando leaned back in the car for a second longer after crossing the line, exhaling slowly before keying the radio.
“Not bad.”
“Good lap,” came the reply. “We’ll take that.”
He nodded to himself, even if no one could see it.
It was better.
—
Later, back at the hotel, his phone buzzed.
Long day?
Lando smiled faintly.
tell me about it
The reply came quickly this time. He didn’t wait long before calling.
Oscar picked up almost immediately.
“You watched?” Lando asked, already knowing the answer.
“Yeah.” A small pause “makes good background noise while I’m working.”
It made Lando smile a bit.
“P3’s good.”
“Yeah,” the Brit said, quieter. “It’s alright.”
Another pause settled, softer this time.
“You’ve always been good there,” Oscar said after a moment.
Lando frowned slightly. “Where?”
“Miami.”
It was casual. Almost like an afterthought.
But it still landed.
Yeah, Miami.
His first win. The one that changed everything.
Lando leaned back a little, exhaling through his nose.
“I guess,” he said, but there was something shifting underneath it now.
A small hum came from the other end of the line. “Mm.”
And that was it.
No big speech. No push.
Just enough.
—
When it was finally time for the sprint race, the weather had completely turned.
It wasn’t heavy rain — not really. But enough.
Enough for the track to be soaked, the surface reflecting everything, the spray hanging thick in the air.
Lando had driven in worse. That wasn’t the problem—the visibility was barely existed.
The formation lap started under the safety car, a slow crawl through a wall of mist and water. Red lights blinking ahead, barely visible through the spray.
Then the red flag came out.
And just like that, everything stopped.
Drivers climbed out of their cars, helmets coming off as they made their way back toward the garages. The energy shifted instantly — from sharp focus to something more restless, uncertain.
Lando pulled off his gloves slowly, flexing his fingers as he stepped inside.
Around him, screens flickered with radar images, engineers talking in low voices, the steady drumming of rain against the roof filling the gaps.
No one really knew how long this would last.
He hovered near the front of the garage, eyes drifting back out toward the track.
Still grey. Still unreadable.
He’d driven in worse.
But not like this.
Not where you couldn’t see anything at all.
Lando exhaled quietly, rolling his shoulders once.
Waiting.
That was the hardest part.
—
The car didn’t feel right. Not bad enough to panic, but not clean either. The track was in that awkward phase—no longer properly wet, not dry enough for slicks—just a thin, greasy layer that made everything unpredictable. Grip came and went corner to corner, the tyres never quite switching on, always hovering on the edge.
Kimi was the first to crack. One small mistake, running wide, and suddenly he was out of it, dropping back and taking himself out of the fight. That left Pato ahead, controlling the race, and Lando tucked in behind, close enough to see the spray thinning, the racing line slowly starting to appear.
It became a waiting game. Not just pace, but timing.
Lap after lap, the track evolved. You could feel it through the wheel, through the throttle tiny improvements, but enough to start thinking about the crossover.
Pato moved first. Lap 14.
Lando saw it on the dash, heard it confirmed a second later.
Pitting.
He stayed out.
“I’m staying out,” he said, calm, already committing to it. There was still something left in the tyres, one more lap at least, maybe that was all he needed.
A double stack would cost too much. In a sprint, that was everything.
The lap wasn’t perfect. The car slid more now, the surface drying unevenly, patches of grip mixed with slick, damp sections that caught him out mid-corner. But he kept it together. Just enough.
“Box, box.”
He peeled into the pit lane the next time around, hitting his marks cleanly despite the conditions, the crew already waiting. The stop was sharp, no hesitation, no delay.
Then—chaos.
“Yellow, yellow. Fernando in the wall. Don’t rush on exit.”
Lando held it, instinct telling him to go, engineer telling him not to. He eased it out instead, careful on the throttle, rejoining without lighting up the tyres.
Back on track, clear air.
And still ahead.
The timing had worked.
The safety car was deployed almost immediately, bunching the field back up, but by then it didn’t matter. The hard part was done. The window had opened at exactly the right moment, and he’d hit it.
From there, it was just management.
Tyres, temperature, restarts that never came.
The laps ticked down behind the safety car, the track finally looking raceable just as the opportunity disappeared.
And then it was over.
Lando crossed the line still leading, the win coming not from a final fight, but from a decision—one lap longer, one call made at the right time.
A bit of luck.
But he’d put himself in the position for it.
The garage was louder after the sprint.
Not chaotic, just… lighter. Mechanics moving quicker, voices a touch higher, the tension from earlier easing into something closer to satisfaction.
Lando stepped out briefly, helmet off, balaclava hanging loose around his neck, the cool air hitting his skin.
He didn’t go far. Just enough to breathe.
Voices carried easily in the paddock.
“…I mean, yeah,” someone said, casual. “Timing worked out for him.”
Lando didn’t pay attention at first.
Then—
“Got lucky with it.”
He stilled, just slightly.
He didn’t need to look to know who it was.
He could recognise his teammates voice easily.
“Safety car, pit window—everything just kind of fell into place,” Pato continued, tone light, almost dismissive. “Good for him, but…”
A small pause.
“…it’s not like he had to fight for it.”
Lando looked down briefly, jaw tightening for half a second.
Then it was gone.
By the time he turned, Pato was already shrugging, conversation moving on like it didn’t matter.
Maybe it didn’t.
Lando didn’t say anything.
Just turned back toward the garage.
—
Qualifying felt different.
The track was dry now. Predictable. Honest.
No variables to hide behind.
From the first run, the car felt sharper. More responsive. Like it finally made sense beneath him.
Each lap built on the last.
Clean sectors. Controlled aggression. No hesitation.
By Q3, it was tight.
Margins down to nothing.
Lando crossed the line on his first push lap, strong but not perfect. There was more in it—he knew it, felt it immediately.
Final run.
He pushed harder this time.
Too hard, maybe.
A small lock-up into the braking zone just a fraction, just enough to cost him a bit of rotation, a bit of exit.
“Ah—” he exhaled, catching it, keeping the lap alive.
Not perfect.
But still quick.
He crossed the line.
P2.
Max ahead by just 0.003.
Lando leaned back slightly, pulling a slow breath through his nose, eyes flicking to the timing screen as it settled.
Behind him—
P4.
Pato.
No safety car. No timing gamble. Just pace.
Lando unbuckled slowly, something quiet and steady settling in his chest.
Satisfaction.
There was no luck this time.
He climbed out of the car, pulling off his gloves as he stepped onto the track, the Miami heat already pressing in.
“Nice one,” he said, tapping Max lightly on the shoulder as he walked past. “Fatherhood suits you.”
Max huffed a small laugh, turning toward him. “Good lap,” he said, pulling him into a quick half-hug. “Keep that up and I’ll start to worry.”
The confidence was still there—easy, unshaken. Champion’s instinct.
Even now. Even third in the battle.
“Can’t make it easy for you,” Lando replied, a small grin slipping through.
Max smirked. “Wouldn’t want you to.”
—
“Hi, winner.”
Lando could hear the smirk in his voice.
“I probably won’t have time to talk when you get back.”
Lando sighed, collapsing onto the bed, one arm thrown over his eyes before letting it fall away again. His phone rested beside him, voice note still playing, the sound filling the quiet hotel room.
“I just wanted to say—good job out there. Really good call on the strategy.”
Lando stared at the ceiling, unmoving, the corners of his mouth twitching despite himself.
A faint sound in the background—an engine turning over, voices muffled, something distant and busy. Not for him.
“Nice save on the lock-up as well,” Oscar added. “But maybe try not to end up in the wall, yeah?”
Lando let out a quiet breath of a laugh, turning his head slightly toward the phone like Oscar could somehow see it.
A short pause.
The kind that didn’t feel empty—just… unfinished.
“Front-left’s gonna be the problem tomorrow,” Oscar continued. “It’ll go before you expect it.”
Lando’s eyes flickered shut for a second, already picturing it corner entry, pressure building, the exact moment it would start to give.
Another beat.
“So just watch the braking into the slow stuff. Don’t lean on it too much early on.”
Simple. Technical. No fluff.
And still somehow—it lingered longer than it should have.
“Anyway,” he added, almost as an afterthought, “good job.”
The message clicked off, leaving the room quieter than before.
Lando stayed there for a second, listening to nothing now, thumb hovering over the screen before he exhaled and pushed himself up slightly against the pillows.
He took a breath before lifting the phone closer, pressing record.
“Hello, Mr. Piastri,” he started, mock-formal. “How is it that I’m the one with a schedule that would kill a normal human being, and somehow you’re the busy one?”
A quiet huff of amusement slipped out as he spoke, softer now without the adrenaline of the session still buzzing through him.
“Doesn’t seem fair.”
A small pause.
He shifted slightly, dragging a hand through his hair, gaze drifting somewhere unfocused.
“Thanks, though. I know I’m amazing—no need to remind me,” he added, a grin slipping into his voice. “Can’t really blame Max for flying, to be honest.”
Another soft chuckle.
“Mad what fatherhood does to a man.”
The words faded a little as he spoke them, the humour easing into something quieter.
He adjusted against the pillows, voice softening without him really meaning it to.
“I hope you’re having fun. Whatever it is you’re doing.”
A beat.
His fingers tapped lightly against the back of the phone, once, twice.
“Just… not more than you would be with me.”
It came out lighter than it sounded.
Like a joke. Almost.
He ended the recording there, letting the phone fall onto the bed beside him. For a second, he just sat there, staring at it like he might pick it back up again.
He didn’t.
Instead, he pushed himself up, rolling his shoulders before heading for the shower, the quiet following him out of the room.
—
Lando woke to be greet by a one, new message on his phone.
From Oscar.
Of course.
He opened it, still half-asleep.
If you’re stuck behind someone, don’t go for the late move straight away, make them defend first.
The drivers’ parade was about to start when they were presented with what might have been the most ridiculous idea anyone had ever approved.
Full-sized LEGO cars.
Bright, oversized, and somehow fully functional.
The reaction across the grid was immediate.
Laughter. Confusion. Phones out.
Someone swore loudly in disbelief. Another driver crouched down to inspect the wheels like he expected them to fall off. A few were already filming, circling the cars like they’d just discovered something that shouldn’t exist.
The LEGO cars were lined up along the track, bright and oversized, each one built in full team colours completely mental, completely real.
And everyone loved it.
Lando didn’t even try to hide it.
“No way,” he said, already grinning as he walked closer. “That’s actually unreal.”
Up close, it was even better every detail built out of bricks, steering wheel, bodywork, even the tyres somehow holding together. You could see the individual pieces if you looked closely, the seams, the tiny imperfections.
And yet so solid.
He ran a hand along the side of it, shaking his head.
“This is insane.”
“Alright, driver,” came a voice behind him.
Pato climbed into the back of their car, settling in with a small exhale. “Some of us didn’t get the upgrade, apparently.”
Lando glanced back at him, already halfway into the seat.
“Yeah, because I’m clearly the more qualified one.”
“Right,” Pato said dryly. “That must be it.”
There was a camera pointed at them.
Lando noticed.
So did Pato.
The shift was instant—subtle, practiced. Lando’s smile widened a little. Pato leaned forward slightly, casual, easy.
“Try not to crash it, yeah?” he added, just loud enough.
“I won’t,” Lando shot back. “Can’t say the same for you if you were driving.”
Pato laughed. It looked natural but wasn’t.
The cars started moving.
Slow, slightly jerky, nothing like what they were used to—but Lando didn’t care.
He was having the time of his life.
The steering felt vague, delayed, like the car needed a second to agree with whatever input he gave it. The whole thing rattled faintly underneath him, bricks shifting just enough to remind him what it was made of.
“This is actually brilliant,” he said, steering with more enthusiasm than necessary.
“You’re enjoying this way too much,” Pato said from behind him.
“Obviously,” Lando replied. “Look at it.”
He waved at the crowd as they passed, grin still there, fully leaning into it now.
The noise was constant—cheering, music, engines humming somewhere underneath it all. Phones everywhere. Flags. Bright colours reflecting off the plastic bodywork around them.
Around them, the whole thing started to fall apart.
Some drivers were standing up in the cars, waving like they were on a float. Others barely fit, knees awkwardly pressed up against the dashboard. One car drifted too wide, overcorrected, and nearly spun at walking speed.
Lando laughed. “No way—”
Ahead of them, one car twitched—
Then bumped into another with a dull, plastic thud.
The impact wasn’t hard, but a few bricks shifted loose, snapping slightly out of place as both drivers reacted at the same time.
“Oh my—” Lando laughed, leaning forward slightly. “They actually crashed.”
Another one clipped the barrier on exit, scraping along it just enough to make everyone wince.
“See?” Pato said. “That’s going to be you.”
“Please,” Lando scoffed, guiding the car neatly through the next corner, overly precise now just to prove a point. “I’ve got this under control.”
“Yeah, sure.”
“Yeah.”
He took the next turn a little tighter than necessary, almost like he was qualifying it.
The whole thing was chaos—bright, loud, completely unserious. And for a moment, it worked. The cameras loved it, the crowd loved it. They played their part.
Perfectly.
But underneath it—Lando was still smiling for real. Enjoying it while it lasted. Letting himself be careless for a moment, light, unbothered.
Because it wouldn’t last.
Soon enough, he’d be back in the real car.
And nothing ever felt this easy in there.
—
The start was clean.
For a moment, it held.
Then Max locked up into Turn 1—front tyre smoking as he went in too deep, the car drifting wide just enough to push Lando off his line.
He had to open the steering.
Had to give it space.
And that was enough.
Turn 2 came immediately after—no grip, no room to recover. Lando cut across the apex just to keep the car pointing forward, bouncing over the kerb as the pack streamed past on the racing line.
By the time he gathered it—
P6.
He didn’t hesitate.
Alex was first—close, vulnerable. Lando stayed tight through the next sequence, carried better exit speed, and cleared him quickly.
One back.
Russell ahead.
Lap 8.
Lando closed in but didn’t rush it. Sat just behind, showing the nose into the braking zone—enough to be seen, not enough to commit.
Once. Twice.
Into Turn 4, Russell defended.
That was all he needed.
Lando switched his line, carried the speed through, and came out ahead on traction.
P4.
Kimi two laps later.
The same pattern.
Pressure first.
Lando showed the move, forced him to cover, made him compromise the exit.
Next straight—
Already alongside.
Through.
P3.
Up ahead, the order had changed—Pato had already taken Max. Lando arrived just as it settled. Now it was for P2. Max didn’t make it easy.
Every corner placed carefully, every defence just enough. Lando stayed patient, trying once, then backing out. Again the next lap.
Nothing forced.
Lap 18.
Max covered the inside. Lando expected it. Better exit. Cleaner traction. This time he committed fully—and it stuck. Through.
P2.
But Pato was gone.
Nearly nine seconds up the road. Too far to touch. Rain hit the visor—light, inconsistent. Not enough to matter. Virtual safety car. Both boxed. Hards. Clean stops. No change.
Eleven laps to go.
They started catching the back of the grid, blue flags already coming into play.
Lando knew then.
There was no chance.
“You are free to race.”
Zak’s voice cut in.
Lando almost smiled. Over four seconds not really a fight. Still, he pushed.
Lap after lap, finding small gains where he could, managing the tyres, clearing traffic cleanly.
3.9.
That was as close as it got.
He crossed the line in P2.
No safety car.
No timing gamble.
This time, it wasn’t luck—just instinct and control, dragging the race back from the edge.
And still, the gap kept growing.
Notes:
Are they fine? Are they not? Honestly I have no idea at this point.
Chapter 18: Around the outside
Notes:
I really said fuck it we’re rushing the updates so they’re back together quickly 😭
I had such a weird day yesterday but it was beautiful, I stayed almost the whole day in bed, didn’t do anything beside what I actually wanted to (painted the Max Verstappen logo on a jacket 😭), cuddled with my cats a lot it was amazing.
Also the guy who broke my heart (we’re friendly talking now) messaged me and was like ‘you’re my karma, because someone just played my feelings and I can’t believe you went through that because of me’ and I was like duuuuude a broken heart is not the end of the world, I’m fine, you’ll be too.
So yeah my life is funny like that.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Oscar hoped Lando had gotten some sleep.
He hadn’t.
He pulled up to the meeting spot just past midnight, engine ticking as it cooled beneath him. The place was already filling—cars lined along the edge of an empty industrial stretch, headlights cutting through the dark, low music somewhere in the background.
He hadn’t slept properly in nearly a day.
Eighteen hours on the road, stopping only when he had to.
Didn’t matter.
He’d heard the number—eight hundred dollars. Up to ten drivers. That was good money. Worth the drive. Worth the exhaustion.
He stepped out, rolling his shoulders once, shaking the stiffness out of them as he looked around.
Different crowd. Different territory. He recognised maybe three faces. It didn’t matter he wasn’t here for them. No small talk. No introductions.
Straight to it.
He paid the entry, cash changing hands quickly, barely a glance exchanged, and moved toward the lineup like he belonged there.
Like he always did.
The stares came anyway.
He felt them before he really saw them—heads turning, conversations dipping just slightly as he passed.
Recognition.
Not from knowing him, but from hearing about him. His reputation travelled faster than he did. Oscar didn’t react. Didn’t acknowledge it.
Just leaned against the car for a moment, eyes already scanning the road ahead, mapping it out, breaking it into pieces.
Corners.
Braking points.
Grip.
Everything else faded out.
They lined up ten across, headlights stretching over each other and spilling down the uneven strip of road ahead. It wasn’t a clean run patches of darker tarmac where grip would change without warning, barriers set too close in places where they shouldn’t be, corners that tightened more than they looked. The kind of road that didn’t forgive guessing.
Oscar had been here once.
That didn’t count.
The rules were the same as always. Nine runs.
Slowest one gone each time.
He rested his hands lightly on the wheel, eyes already fixed past the first corner.
He didn’t need to lead.
Not yet.
The signal came without warning.
Engines flared, tyres struggled, and the whole line surged forward unevenly. Someone bogged slightly off the line, another cut across too aggressively and had to correct almost immediately. The space compressed before the first braking zone even arrived.
Oscar didn’t fight it.
He let cars go and slipped into second, clean and controlled, staying just close enough to see everything.
The first corner came quicker than expected—tight, slightly off-camber. The leader braked early, not by much, but enough. Oscar stayed right behind, not copying, just watching. The exit dipped slightly, grip falling away toward the outside edge. The car shifted under him, tyres searching before settling.
Noted.
The next section came faster, a corner that narrowed on exit more than it looked. The leader drifted wide again, correcting late. Oscar didn’t. He stayed tighter, cleaner, no wasted distance. Then the kink—looked flat, wasn’t. The car ahead lifted more than necessary.
Oscar adjusted just enough, holding more speed but not everything. The chassis moved underneath him, tyres biting unevenly before settling again.
That was the limit.
He stayed there all the way to the line.
Second.
Exactly what he needed.
Nine cars.
The next launch was cleaner.
Oscar didn’t hesitate this time. Better reaction, sharper positioning, placing the car exactly where it needed to be before the first corner even compressed the field. He took the inside, braked later—controlled, no lock-up, no correction and rotated cleanly through.
He was ahead before the corner finished.
From there, everything simplified. Not easy—just clear. He knew where the road tightened now, where the grip dropped, where the car needed to be placed before the corner even began. He didn’t chase time that wasn’t there. Just repeated it, clean and consistent, building a gap that didn’t need to be big.
Across the line first.
Another one gone.
Eight.
One of the louder cars - a M2 tried to force it this time, late into the first corner, pushing deeper than the road allowed. It didn’t end dramatically—just wide enough, slow enough, that he never came back.
Seven.
The matte black Mazda stayed close now. Clean lines, no wasted movement. It didn’t attack, didn’t defend early, just stayed there. Oscar noticed.
Six.
The field tightened. Mistakes smaller, but more expensive. Someone clipped a barrier mid-run—nothing spectacular, just enough to end it.
Five.
The road felt faster. Or maybe he was.
Four.
This one mattered.
The launch was tight, controlled, no hesitation left. Into the first corner, the Silvia forced it late braking, pushing into a space that barely existed. Oscar let him have it for a moment, watching the exit instead. The car ahead compromised slightly, forced tighter than ideal. That was enough.
Oscar carried more speed through the exit, got on the throttle earlier, and was past before the next straight even settled.
No fight.
Just gone.
Three.
The road felt narrower now. Same width. Less room.
The launch was clean, all three committing fully. Into the first corner they arrived almost together—too close, too fast. One went deep, the other held inside, and Oscar stayed just behind, waiting.
The second corner is where it broke.
The inside car drifted outward slightly, tyres losing just enough grip to push into Oscar’s line. There was no space. A quick correction—steering, throttle—
And then contact.
A sharp crack through the side of the car.
The chassis jolted.
Then settled.
Oscar didn’t lift.
Didn’t look.
Just held the line and kept going.
Something felt off after that. Not in the handling, but in the air, the balance slightly different along the side.
Didn’t matter.
He finished the run first.
Another one gone.
Only when they slowed did he glance to the side.
The mirror was gone.
Clean off.
A thin scrape surely ran along the door where the contact had been.
He looked forward again.
Two.
The BMW again.
Of course.
The launch was even.
They hit the first corner together, Oscar braking exactly where he had every time before no earlier, no later. The other driver stayed with him, no hesitation, no overcommitment.
Through the corner, they were still there.
Second corner—tight, narrowing exit. Neither gave anything away.
The kink—
Flat.
Both of them.
No advantage.
Oscar stayed just behind, close enough to pressure, not close enough to risk. He showed the car once into the braking zone, then again the next time, just enough to be seen.
The other driver reacted.
Defended slightly earlier.
That was it.
Oscar adjusted immediately—earlier entry, better exit, cleaner traction—and by the next straight he was already ahead.
Final run.
Everything narrowed.
Not the road.
The margin.
The launch was perfect.
Both of them.
No wheelspin. No hesitation.
They hit the first corner together. Oscar braked exactly where he needed to repeatable, controlled. The other driver tried to take a fraction more.
Not a mistake.
But enough.
The car rotated slightly late, exit compromised just enough.
Oscar stayed clean, got on the throttle earlier. They were still close—closer than before. Into the second corner, the gap tightened, the barrier closer than it should’ve been. The other driver covered the inside. Oscar didn’t force it. Took the wider line, held the speed. Better exit. The kink—flat again. No lift.
The car shifted underneath him, the missing mirror changing the air just enough to feel different at speed.
Still stable.
Still fast.
Now he had the run.
Not a big gap.
Just enough.
He didn’t push beyond it.
Didn’t need to.
Every braking point exact. Every corner placed. Every exit clean.
Behind him, a small correction—barely visible, but enough. Oscar didn’t look back. Didn’t need to.
He crossed the line first.
For a moment, nothing.
Then the noise came back—voices, movement, someone calling it.
Oscar eased off, engine settling, hands still steady on the wheel.
Only then did he glance to the side again.
No mirror.
Scraped door.
Not enough to stop him.
But enough to make eighteen hours back impossible.
He leaned back slightly, exhaling.
Worth it.
Probably.
He didn’t linger long after the finish.
Collected his prize—eight thousand dollars. Well earned.
Then he drove off.
Not far. Just enough to leave the noise behind, the lights, the voices. He found an empty parking lot and killed the engine, the sudden quiet settling in around him.
For a moment, he just sat there.
Then he got out.
The damage wasn’t bad.
A scratch along the side—long, but shallow. Manageable. Easy fix.
The mirror, though—
That was gone.
Clean off.
Oscar exhaled slowly, running a hand through his hair as he looked at it again, like it might somehow reappear.
It wouldn’t.
And that was the problem.
He couldn’t drive back like that. Not eighteen hours. Not through highways, checkpoints, random stops. If he got pulled over, it wouldn’t just be a fine.
It would be worse.
He leaned back against the car, thinking.
Melbourne was too far to call anyone.
Didn’t know anyone here well enough to trust them.
And a random mechanic?
Not a chance.
He sighed, already knowing what that meant.
Reached into his pocket and pulled out his phone.
Scrolled.
Stopped.
He’d told himself he wouldn’t call this number for things like this.
Not for something avoidable.
Not for something stupid.
Still, he dialed. It rang once. Twice. Three times. Oscar almost hung up.
“Hello?”
The voice on the other end was rough with sleep, low, but steady.
“Mark, it’s me.”
A pause.
Then—
“Oscar?”
More awake now. Not surprised.
“I’m in a bit of a situation,” he said, the words coming out more awkward than he’d like.
“Do you need me to get you?”
There was no hesitation.
The same tone he used when Oscar was younger—when calling him didn’t feel like something he had to think twice about.
“I—no,” Oscar said, exhaling. Then, quieter, “But… can I crash at yours tonight? I’ll be there in about two hours.”
Another brief pause.
“The code’s still the same.”
That was all he needed.
The drive to Noosa was quiet.
Oscar didn’t rush—not properly but he didn’t take his time either. The missing mirror sat in the corner of his vision the whole way, or rather the absence of it, forcing him to adjust, to check twice where he normally wouldn’t.
Still, he made it faster than the GPS said he would.
Didn’t take any chances.
The house came into view just as the sky started to shift slightly, the first hint of early morning barely there.
Familiar.
Too familiar.
He punched in the code at the gate without thinking, muscle memory still intact. The gates opened smoothly, like nothing had changed.
Like he hadn’t been gone.
Oscar parked the car to the side of the driveway, cutting the engine quietly, the silence returning just as quickly as before.
He stepped out, closing the door with more care than necessary, and made his way inside.
He should’ve felt strange.
Letting himself into someone else’s home in the middle of the night. No announcement. No permission beyond a short phone call.
But he didn’t.
The moment he stepped inside, something in him eased.
Like he could finally breathe properly again.
He didn’t overthink it.
Didn’t linger.
Just moved through the familiar hallway, past rooms he knew without needing to look, straight to the one that had always been his.
Still was, apparently.
He changed without much thought, pulling on a set of pyjamas that fit a little too well to be coincidence.
Didn’t question it.
Didn’t question anything.
The bed was already made.
Sheets clean.
Fresh.
Oscar let himself fall into it without another thought.
The exhaustion caught up to him almost instantly.
And for the first time in over a day—
He slept.
Oscar woke earlier than his body would’ve liked.
But his sleep schedule had been uneven for so long it barely registered anymore—sleeping a few hours before his brain decided it was enough had become normal.
He groaned softly, staring at the ceiling for a second before reaching for his phone.
A few minutes past eight.
There was no point trying to fall back asleep.
He pushed himself up slowly, still heavy with exhaustion. A shower felt like too much effort—not before he had some caffeine in him.
So he made his way downstairs as quietly as possible.
The place hadn’t changed.
Not really.
Everything was exactly where he remembered it, untouched by time in a way that made it feel… still.
He hadn’t been here in a while. Probably longer than he should have.
Oscar didn’t dwell on it.
He turned the coffee machine on, leaning back against the counter as it started up, arms loosely crossed, eyes still half-lidded.
Waiting.
“-Norris, a man on a mission to gain as many positions as he can back—”
Oscar blinked.
For a second, he wasn’t sure if he’d imagined it—some half-dream bleeding into reality.
But the commentary continued, steady, clear. He didn’t move right away. Didn’t rush to find the source.
He finished making his coffee first.
Only then, cup warm in his hand, did he make his way toward the living room.
Mark Webber glanced up as he appeared in the doorway.
“You’re already up?”
Oscar didn’t answer.
Just gave a small shrug, lifting the cup slightly like that explained enough.
“The race just started,” Mark said, eyes flicking back to the screen. “If you want to join.”
There was something in his tone—almost expectant, but not quite. Like he didn’t actually think Oscar would say yes.
Oscar paused for half a second.
Then walked in.
He sat down on the couch beside him.
It surprised both of them.
Oscar studied the screen for a moment, eyes tracking the movement more than the names.
“What happened to Lando?” he asked before he could stop himself.
Mark raised a brow, just slightly, but didn’t comment on it.
“Went wide in the second corner.”
Oscar hummed, quiet, almost automatic.
That made sense.
The replay flashed briefly just enough to confirm it. The car pushed off line, forced into a tighter angle than it should’ve been, cutting across the apex to stay out of trouble. Not a mistake.
Just… compromised.
Oscar took a sip of his coffee, slower this time, eyes still on the screen.
“I’ll just watch the start,” he muttered, more out of habit than decision.
Mark didn’t answer.
Back to live.
The field had already stretched slightly, the chaos of the opening lap settling into something more controlled. Lando was already moving again, not hesitating, not sitting in it.
Oscar noticed that first.
No frustration in the driving.
Just correction.
Alex didn’t last long.
Oscar leaned forward slightly, elbows resting on his knees now, cup hanging loosely between his hands. He wasn’t watching the overtake itself he was watching the setup. The corner before. The positioning. The way Lando placed the car just enough to be seen, but not enough to commit.
There was patience there.
That hadn’t always been the case.
“He’s not rushing it,” Mark observed.
“No. He’s learned that the hard way.” The other man’s eyes flicked toward Oscar for a second before returning to the screen.
Oscar watched the next few corners in silence.
The way the car ahead reacted.
The way Lando adjusted to it.
No wasted movement.
No unnecessary correction.
Russell.
Lap eight.
Oscar’s focus sharpened slightly, posture shifting forward again without him noticing. This one mattered more not because of position, but because of how it would be done.
Lando showed the move once.
Didn’t go.
Again.
Still didn’t go.
Oscar’s fingers tightened slightly around the cup.
“Don’t,” he murmured under his breath.
On screen, George covered the inside.
Too early.
“There,” Oscar said, barely louder than before.
Lando switched it immediately clean exit, better traction, no hesitation once the opportunity opened.
Gone.
Mark let out a quiet breath. “That’s nice.”
Oscar nodded once, almost distracted.
“He made him defend too early.”
There was a pause.
A small one.
Just enough.
Mark glanced at him again, this time a fraction longer. “You sound like you were expecting that.”
Oscar didn’t look away from the screen.
Just took another sip of his coffee.
Kimi came next.
Oscar leaned back slightly now, settling into the couch, but his eyes never left the screen. The pattern was there—clear, repeatable. Pressure first. Show the move. Wait.
No panic. He could almost predict it—not exactly where, but how.
“He’ll take him on exit,” Oscar said.
Mark didn’t answer this time.
Didn’t need to.
The move played out almost exactly like that.
Oscar exhaled quietly through his nose, something almost like satisfaction settling in his chest.
He should’ve stopped watching there.
That was enough.
He didn’t.
Up ahead, things had already changed.
Pato leading.
Max behind.
Lando closing.
Oscar’s posture shifted again, subtle but there. His back straightened slightly, attention narrowing, the rest of the room fading out just a bit more.
This part mattered—not the result, the approach. The gap to the front was too big. He saw it immediately, didn’t need the timing tower. Max defended cleanly, predictably. No wasted movement. Lando tried once. Didn’t stick. Again the next lap. Still nothing.
Oscar’s eyes tracked the exits now more than the entries.
Where the grip came.
Where it didn’t.
“He’s waiting,” Oscar said.
Mark glanced at him. “For what?”
Oscar didn’t answer right away.
On screen—
Max covered the inside again.
“There.”
Lando switched it immediately better exit, cleaner throttle, full commitment once it opened.
Through.
Mark let out a short laugh. “Alright.”
Oscar didn’t react.
But his shoulders dropped slightly.
P2.
But P1—
Gone.
Oscar leaned back fully now, head resting briefly against the back of the couch, eyes still fixed on the screen.
Nearly nine seconds.
That wasn’t coming back.
A few drops of rain hit the camera lens, but the track stayed dry. Oscar barely registered it. Virtual safety car. Both pitting. Oscar leaned forward again, instinctively.
“Same tyres,” he muttered, eyes flicking to the graphics.
Mark nodded. “Yeah.”
Back out.
No change.
Oscar settled again, slower this time, like the tension had somewhere to go now.
The race had stabilised.
Not decided.
But close.
“You’re following this pretty closely,” Mark said after a moment.
Oscar shrugged, eyes still forward. “Just… interesting.”
Mark didn’t look convinced — but he let it go.
Eleven laps to go. Traffic ahead. The gap—still there.
“You are free to race.”
Oscar let out a quiet breath, something between amusement and disbelief.
“Bit optimistic.”
Mark huffed softly. “A bit.”
Lando pushed anyway.
Lap after lap, taking small pieces out of the gap where he could, managing the traffic cleanly, not forcing anything that wasn’t there.
Oscar noticed that too.
Not chasing something impossible.
Just… extracting what was left.
3.9.
He saw it.
Of course he did.
The chequered flag came.
P2.
Oscar didn’t move right away.
Just watched the cooldown, the way Lando climbed out of the car, the small details most people ignored.
No frustration.
No overreaction.
Just… contained.
“Good race,” Oscar said, not sure if he was talking about Lando specifically or the whole thing.
Mark glanced at him.
“Yeah,” he said. “It was.”
The silence stretched between them then-
“Didn’t know you watched again?”
Oscar looked down at the cup in his hands, turning it slightly between his fingers.
“I don’t.”
Mark didn’t push.
But the question stayed there anyway.
On screen, the interviews started. The noise came back. Oscar leaned back again, still watching. Even now.
Mark sat beside him, Oscar could feel his gaze, watching him closely, before finally asking.
“Want to tell why you came here in the middle of the night?”
“I-“ Oscar hesitated, choosing his words slowly “is Ann home?”
“Yeah, probably still sleeping.” The ex racer was getting suspicious now.
Oscar nodded once, like that answered something.
Then, finally—
“I need a new side mirror.” Oscar said finally exhaling slowly.
Mark didn’t ask.
Didn’t need to.
He just pushed himself up from the couch, grabbing his keys on the way.
“Come on.”
They stepped outside into the quiet morning air, the light stronger now, clearer. Oscar led the way toward the car, the damage already obvious before they got close.
The missing mirror.
The scrape along the side.
Mark stopped beside it, taking a slow look over the damage.
“You don’t normally let it get that close.” he said.
Oscar looked awkward a bit uncomfortable as he nodded “yeah.”
None of the addressed how it happened, but both of them knew there was no need for that.
Mark straightened, giving the car one last look before turning back toward the house.
“I know a guy who can sort it,” he said. “Can’t promise it’ll be a perfect match.”
“Doesn’t matter,” Oscar said quickly—too quickly. “I’ll fix it properly when I’m home.”
Mark glanced at him again.
Said nothing.
But he didn’t miss it.
They didn’t go back inside right away.
Mark made a call, short, practical, stepping a few meters away while Oscar stayed by the car, leaning lightly against it, arms folded. He didn’t listen to the conversation—didn’t need to. The outcome was already decided.
A mirror.
Temporary.
Good enough.
By the time they stepped back inside, the house felt different—less quiet. Footsteps. Light, unhurried.
“Well, that’s a surprise.”
Oscar looked up.
Ann stood at the edge of the kitchen, still half-asleep but smiling, clearly caught off guard.
“Oscar?”
“Hi,” he said, straightening slightly.
She didn’t hesitate.
Crossed the space quickly and pulled him into a brief hug, warm, easy, like no time had passed at all.
“You could’ve said you were coming,” she said, pulling back just enough to look at him properly. “I would’ve made something better than whatever’s in the fridge right now.”
Oscar huffed a quiet breath, something close to a smile.
“Didn’t plan it.”
“That sounds like you,” she said lightly, already turning toward the kitchen. “Sit. Both of you. I’ll fix something.”
Mark didn’t argue.
Neither did Oscar.
It didn’t take long before the kitchen filled with small, familiar sounds—plates, cutlery, the low hum of conversation that didn’t need much effort.
Oscar sat at the table, hands wrapped loosely around a fresh cup of coffee, watching more than participating.
It felt… easy.
Too easy.
Ann moved between them, asking questions without pressing for answers, filling the space naturally.
“How long are you staying?” she asked at one point, glancing over her shoulder.
“Not long,” Oscar replied.
“Of course not,” she said, like she’d expected that.
Mark sat across from him, quieter now, just observing, occasionally adding something but mostly letting the moment settle.
For a while, nothing felt complicated.
No noise. No pressure. Just breakfast. Untill-
Oscar’s phone buzzed against the table.
He glanced down.
Saw the name.
Lando.
His fingers stilled around the cup.
He knew he should decline. He knew it immediately. This wasn’t the place. Not the time.
The phone buzzed again.
Ann didn’t notice.
Mark did.
Didn’t say anything.
Oscar exhaled quietly, already knowing he wasn’t going to ignore it.
“Sorry,” he muttered, pushing his chair back slightly. “I’ll—”
He didn’t finish it.
Didn’t need to.
He stepped away from the table, answering as he moved out of the room, voice lower now.
“Hi.”
The doorframe cut off whatever came next.
Back at the table, the atmosphere shifted just slightly.
Not broken.
Just changed.
Mark leaned back in his chair, watching the space Oscar had just left.
Ann followed his gaze for a second, then looked back at him.
“Everything alright?”
Mark hummed quietly.
“Yeah.”
Then, almost to himself— “Probably.”
Oscar sat on the steps in front of the entrance, the morning sun already warm against his face. The stone was still cool beneath him, grounding, steady, in contrast to the low buzz still sitting somewhere in his chest.
His phone pressed loosely against his ear.
For a second, all he heard was movement on the other end—fabric, maybe footsteps.
“So you do pick up your phone.”
Lando’s voice came through lighter than Oscar expected.
Oscar huffed quietly, tilting his head back slightly, eyes closing against the sunlight. “Timing’s not great.”
“Yeah, I noticed,” Lando said. “You disappeared after quali.”
Oscar dragged his free hand over his face, lingering there for a second longer than necessary.
“Busy.”
A pause followed. Not awkward. Just… there.
Oscar could hear faint noise on Lando’s side—voices in the background, distant, controlled. The kind of noise that never really stopped around him.
“Did you watch?” Lando asked.
Oscar’s gaze dropped back down, focusing on the edge of the step, thumb tracing a small crack in the stone.
“…a bit.”
“A bit,” Lando repeated, like he didn’t believe it.
Oscar didn’t correct him.
Instead, he leaned forward slightly, elbows resting on his knees, shifting his weight as if settling into the conversation rather than answering it.
“You went wide in two,” he said, tone even. “Didn’t really have a choice after that.”
Silence, brief but noticeable.
“Yeah,” Lando said. “Bit messy.”
Oscar’s eyes flicked briefly toward the driveway, to where his car sat just out of sight, the missing mirror already accounted for in his head like it was still there.
“You recovered it well,” he added.
It wasn’t praise.
Not exactly.
But it landed like it was.
Lando exhaled quietly on the other end. “Still not enough.”
Oscar’s jaw shifted slightly.
He didn’t answer that.
A bird passed overhead, cutting briefly across the sunlight. Oscar followed it for a second, just to have something else to look at.
“You sound tired,” Lando said.
Oscar let out a short breath, something almost like a laugh.
“That obvious?”
“Little bit.”
Oscar leaned back now, bracing himself with one hand behind him, letting the sun hit his face fully. His eyes closed again for a moment.
“Didn’t sleep much.”
“Yeah.”
Another pause. This one longer.
“Are you at work?” Lando asked.
Oscar’s eyes opened.
He stared straight ahead now, unfocused, like he wasn’t really looking at anything.
His grip on the phone tightened slightly.
“No.”
It came too quickly.
Too flat.
There was a quiet shift on the other end. Not in what Lando said just in how he didn’t say anything for a second.
Then a soft exhale.
“Right.”
Oscar dropped his gaze again, watching his own shadow stretch across the step, distorted slightly by the angle of the sun.
He could’ve said more.
Didn’t.
“I’ll let you go,” Lando said after a moment.
Oscar nodded once, automatically.
“Yeah.”
He shifted his weight again, sitting a bit straighter now.
“You did well.”
There was a small pause, then a quiet huff from the other end.
“You said that already.”
“I mean it.”
Neither of them rushing to end it. Neither of them adding anything either.
“Talk later?” Lando asked.
Oscar’s fingers tightened slightly around the phone.
Just enough to notice.
“…yeah.”
The line went quiet.
Oscar stayed on the steps after the call ended, the phone still in his hand.
The screen had gone dark, but his thumb brushed over it again almost automatically, unlocking it without thinking.
He stared at it.
The light hit the screen just right, forcing him to tilt it slightly, but he didn’t look away. His thumb hovered near the edge like he might swipe it away, lock it again, do something—
He didn’t.
Oscar exhaled slowly, something tight in his chest he didn’t quite name, his grip on the phone shifting just slightly.
He should put it away.
He knew that.
The door behind him opened softly.
“Thought you already ran away.”
Oscar didn’t react immediately. He blinked, like he’d been pulled out of something, and looked up.
Ann stood in the doorway, one hand resting against the frame, the other wrapped around a mug.
“Not yet,” he said.
She hummed, stepping outside, letting the door fall shut behind her. As she moved closer, her gaze flicked down briefly—
And stopped.
Oscar noticed too late.
He locked the phone quickly, a fraction too fast to be casual.
Ann didn’t say anything right away. Just looked at him for a second, longer than necessary. A small pause. Then, softer—
“So… did you finally find someone?”
Oscar let out a quiet breath, something between a laugh and a deflection.
“No.”
She raised a brow.
“It’s just a friend.”
Ann held his gaze for a moment.
Then nodded, easy.
“Okay.” A small smile. “It’s a nice photo, though.”
She didn’t push. Didn’t need to. Oscar smiled faintly, but didn’t say anything.
They sat there for a moment, side by side, the quiet settling around them again. The kind of quiet that didn’t ask for anything.
The morning stretching slowly into something softer.
“Mark said you should get ready,” Ann said after a while. “Something about a mechanic.”
“Right.” Oscar nodded, pushing himself up. “I should go.”
Oscar didn’t rush.
He moved through the house slower than before, like the quiet from outside had followed him in and settled somewhere in his shoulders. Grabbed what he needed, didn’t say much more than a quick goodbye to Ann, and stepped back out before the moment could stretch into something he didn’t know how to handle.
The air felt warmer now. Brighter.
Mark was already in the car.
Engine running, one hand resting loosely at the top of the wheel, the other tapping lightly against it in a rhythm that wasn’t quite impatience, but close.
Oscar slid into the passenger seat, pulling the door shut a little quieter than necessary. The familiar smell hit him immediately leather, something faintly mechanical, something distinctly Mark.
For a second, he just sat there. Hands resting loosely in his lap.
The car pulled out smoothly.
Gravel shifted under the tyres before they reached the road, the sound fading quickly into the low hum of the engine. The gate closed behind them without either of them looking back.
Houses passed slowly at first. Quiet streets. Open windows. Someone watering a garden. Normal.
Oscar watched it all without really seeing it.
Mark didn’t say anything.
Let the silence stretch.
Long enough that it became something you noticed.
Oscar adjusted slightly in his seat, elbow coming up to rest against the window, his temple leaning lightly against his hand. The glass was still cool.
Outside, the road widened, the pace picking up just enough to smooth everything out.
“What made you come all the way out here?”
The question landed simply. No edge, no pressure.
Oscar answered without thinking.
“Eight thousand.”
The words came out too quickly. Too easily. He realised it a second too late.
Mark’s fingers stilled briefly against the wheel.
Not stopping.
Just… pausing.
Oscar shifted in his seat, rolling his shoulder once like he was working something out of it. He kept his gaze on the road ahead, not quite looking at anything specific. The passing lines blurred slightly, steady, repetitive.
“You need money?”
Oscar’s head turned slightly, just enough.
His brow tightened.
“No.”
Too quick.
He knew it.
“It’s just—” he paused, not because he didn’t have an answer, but because none of them sounded right.
Mark didn’t look at him.
Didn’t react outwardly.
Just kept his eyes on the road, one hand steady on the wheel, the other resting now, still.
Oscar exhaled quietly, slower this time, like he was trying to even something out. His gaze dropped briefly to his hands, fingers flexing once before settling again.
He glanced out the window.
The scenery had shifted fewer houses now, more open space, longer stretches of road.
“The usual is getting boring.”
Mark didn’t interrupt.
Didn’t fill it.
“Needed something new.”
Oscar leaned his head back slightly, letting it rest against the seat, eyes half-lidded as he watched the light flicker across the dashboard with the movement of the car.
“A change of scenery,” he added after a while, voice firmer this time.
That got something. Not visible at first—just a slight change in how Mark held the wheel. A fraction tighter.
“Right,” Mark said.
It lingered—not agreement, not disbelief. Just… filed away.
Oscar shifted again, dragging a hand briefly over his face before letting it drop back to his lap. His phone rested against his thigh, screen down, like he didn’t want to accidentally see it again.
The engine hummed steadily beneath them, the road stretching out ahead. Neither of them spoke—but the silence wasn’t empty. It carried weight. They got the business done quickly. No unnecessary questions. No small talk.
Just a mirror, a price, and a short exchange that didn’t need anything more.
Back at the house, Oscar didn’t waste time.
Tools out, sleeves pushed up slightly, working in quiet focus. The fit wasn’t perfect—he could see it immediately—but it held. Solid enough. It would last.
For now, that was all that mattered.
He stepped back once, checking it from a distance, then gave a small nod to himself.
Good enough.
Inside, Ann tried to convince him to stay—dinner, something proper. He declined. Easy. Didn’t drag it out. Didn’t make it a thing. A quick goodbye. A brief thank you.
And then—
He was back in the car.
The engine turned over smoothly.
The road stretched ahead.
This time, he didn’t hesitate.
He was already gone.
Notes:
Ugh I love this chapter so much what the hell.
I’m so happy I decided to write in Oscar’s pov too (I didn’t intend that from the start) but I love to see glimpses from his perspective.
🫶
Chapter 19: Data run
Notes:
The content in my life is getting wilder, saw the guy yesterday, his life is a mess and somehow I don’t want to save him, yeah I’m up for helping however o want but not in a “I love you I’ll fix it” but in a “you’re a good human and you don’t deserve this” way.
So yeah, I’m over it.
And now I’m chilling in the garden with my senior car, drinking a Sakura no sugar red bull, life is good. Drama free.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The break before Imola was a real one this time.
They didn’t need him at the MTC at all, not even for a day, so Lando went straight to Monaco, skipping the usual back and forth. It felt strange at first, having nothing scheduled, no briefings waiting, no simulator hours to fill. Just… time.
Being home helped.
He didn’t do much with it.
No plans, nothing structured. The days passed quietly, blending into each other in a way he hadn’t had in a while. Late mornings, slower starts, coffee that didn’t have to be rushed, windows open just enough to let the noise of the city in without really becoming part of it.
He saw a few friends, briefly, nothing that turned into a full night out. No big dinners, no distractions he had to keep up with. It wasn’t avoidance exactly.
Just… not needed.
He did stream, though.
Much to Max’s delight.
What started as “just one session” turned into hours, then more the next day, then again after that. Games changed, conversations didn’t easy, constant, overlapping. Jokes that didn’t need context, comments thrown out without thinking, laughter that came naturally, without effort.
The chat kept moving the entire time.
Faster than he could read most of it, messages stacking over each other, but some still caught his eye—people glad he was back, telling him they’d missed this, missed him just being normal for a bit.
He didn’t react to most of it. But he noticed. It filled the space. Not completely—but enough.
The rest of the time, he kept himself busy in quieter ways.
A bit of training, just enough to stay sharp. Some time in the sim remotely, not required, but familiar. Reviewing bits of Miami again, not the whole race, just sections corners, decisions, things that could’ve been slightly different.
Not dwelling.
Just… checking.
The noise from Miami hadn’t fully gone away either. Some still called it luck, others already moving on focused on what came next.
Lando didn’t say anything about it.
Didn’t need to.
For a moment, he considered going to Australia.
The thought came and went more than once, usually late, when the days slowed down and there wasn’t much left to distract him. It wouldn’t have been difficult—just a flight, a few days, nothing complicated.
He didn’t go.
He told himself it didn’t make sense.
Too far for just a few days. Too much effort in the middle of a season. That wasn’t really it—he didn’t want to come off as needy.
Didn’t want to show up where he wasn’t expected, uninvited into something that didn’t quite belong to him.
Oscar had his own life. His own rhythm—things Lando wasn’t part of.
And Lando—
Had no idea where he stood in that.
For now, he was just glad to have a place in the Aussie’s life at all.
Even if it meant waking up earlier than he needed to.
Like now.
His phone rang somewhere beside him, the sound dragging him out of sleep far too quickly.
“Hi,” he mumbled, voice barely working.
“Were you still sleeping?” Oscar asked, clearly amused.
“Mhmm.”
It was the only sound Lando managed.
“I wanted to show you the beauty that just came into the shop,” Oscar said, a faint teasing note in his voice. “But I’ll let you sleep.”
That was enough.
Lando’s eyes opened immediately, interest cutting through the exhaustion.
“What is it?” he asked, pushing himself up slightly.
“An XKSS.” Oscar said it like it was nothing.
“What?”
Lando was sitting up before his brain had fully caught up, already reaching for his phone, pressing the video call button without hesitation.
The call connected.
For a second, he was disappointed.
Instead of Oscar, the camera showed the car—sleek, polished, impossibly clean. Even through a screen, it looked unreal.
“Osc,” Lando whined, dragging a hand through his hair, suddenly regretting not going to Australia a lot more than he had a minute ago. “Osc.”
“Lan,” Oscar laughed.
“Can you ask the owner if they’re willing to sell?”
A quiet chuckle.
The camera shifted.
“Oh, hi.”
“Hi, Lan.”
Now that Lando could see him, he paused for a second.
Oscar looked tired.
Not just a little properly tired. Faint shadows under his eyes, hair slightly messy, longer than Lando remembered.
Still unfairly good-looking. That hadn’t changed. It just felt different, seeing him like this. Lando didn’t get to see him often not properly.
Oscar wasn’t the type to send photos of himself, and they rarely called like this. Most of what Lando had were memories. And a handful of photos he’d taken back in March.
“No,” Oscar added, like he’d already had the conversation. “The owner’s not selling. Asked before.”
Lando pouted, dropping back into the pillow with a groan.
“So you just woke me up to torture me?”
“Lan, it’s ten already,” Oscar said, unimpressed. “You should get up and eat a proper breakfast.”
Lando made a face at that, though it softened almost immediately, his attention drifting back to the screen. The car was still somewhere behind Oscar now, half in frame, but he barely looked at it anymore.
His focus had shifted.
“You look tired,” he said instead.
Oscar shrugged it off like it was nothing, shifting the phone slightly, the angle changing as he moved through the space. The background wasn’t quiet—tools, movement, something metallic hitting a surface, voices further away.
Busy.
“I’m fine.”
Lando didn’t argue.
Just watched him for a second longer than necessary, like he was trying to place something he couldn’t quite name.
“Did you sleep at all?” he asked anyway.
Oscar huffed something that might’ve been a laugh, might’ve been avoidance.
“Enough.”
That meant no.
Lando pushed himself up a bit more, resting against the headboard now, phone propped up as he ran a hand through his hair. He looked more awake, but not by much.
“You’ve been busy,” he said, tone lighter now, like he wasn’t asking anything serious.
Oscar didn’t answer right away.
Just shifted the phone again, showing a different angle of the workshop, then back to himself.
“Something like that.”
Before Lando could say anything else—
“You calling your boy again, boss?”
The voice came from somewhere behind Oscar, loud enough to carry.
Oscar didn’t even turn fully.
Just lifted his hand slightly, a quick, dismissive motion off camera.
Lando couldn’t see it properly.
But he could guess.
A small smile pulled at the corner of his mouth.
“Your boy?” he repeated, raising a brow.
Oscar rolled his eyes, already moving, stepping away from wherever the voice had come from.
“Ignore him.”
Lando let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head slightly. “Sure.”
The noise in the background faded a little as Oscar moved, the space around him quieter now, more contained.
For a second, neither of them said anything.
It wasn’t awkward.
Just… short.
“I’ll let you get back to it,” Lando said after a moment, shifting slightly, like the weight of getting up was catching up to him again.
“Yeah,” Oscar nodded. “You too.”
Lando hesitated, just for a second.
“Send me more of that car.”
Oscar smirked faintly.
“Thought you were getting up for breakfast.”
“After.”
A small pause.
Then—
“Alright.”
The call ended without much more.
Lando stared at the screen for a second after it went dark, thumb hovering briefly before dropping the phone onto the bed beside him.
The room was quiet again. Too quiet. He exhaled slowly, dragging a hand over his face.
Something about that—being referred to like that, his boy—made him smile. More than it should have.
But Oscar’s reaction hadn’t been anything unusual. The same unbothered expression, the same dismissive tone, like it didn’t mean anything at all.
Lando swallowed slightly, gaze drifting to the ceiling, then pushed the thought aside as he forced himself up.
Breakfast. Right.
—
The trip to Italy was a welcome change.
No long travel, no heavy time difference—no jet lag dragging behind him. That was something Lando always appreciated about the European part of the season.
Imola felt different the moment he arrived.
The crowd was wild, as always.
Red everywhere. Flags, shirts, caps—the Ferrari logo impossible to miss, to the point it almost felt overwhelming. But he understood it.
They were proud.
Even when the team wasn’t doing well, the dedication never wavered. The loyalty, the noise, the way they showed up anyway—
It was something Lando had always been in awe of.
The paddock was already alive by the time Lando arrived.
Not loud—not yet but busy in that constant, underlying way. People moving in every direction, cameras already out, voices blending into something familiar.
He adjusted his bag on his shoulder as he made his way toward the gates, sunglasses pushed up slightly against the sun.
“Look who decided to show up early.”
Lando glanced over.
Carlos stood by the barrier, pass clipped on, coffee in hand, looking far too comfortable for media day.
“Don’t get used to it,” Lando said, walking over. “One-time thing.”
Carlos huffed a laugh, pushing himself off the barrier. “Yeah, I was going to say. Something felt off.”
They fell into step easily, heading toward the entrance together.
For a moment, it was quiet, just the noise of the paddock around them filling the space.
“You do anything interesting with your free time?” Carlos asked.
“Yeah,” Lando nodded. “Caught up on sleep.”
Carlos made a small approving sound. “Of course.”
A beat.
“So nothing?”
“Pretty much.”
Carlos smirked slightly. “Saw you were streaming.”
They slowed near the gate as a few people filtered through ahead of them, badges being checked one by one.
“Yeah, a bit,” Lando said. “Max has been on my ass about that for months.”
Carlos let out a quiet laugh, shifting his weight slightly.
“Don’t act like you didn’t love it.”
Lando just shrugged. “Could be worse.”
Carlos glanced at him, another small smile pulling at the corner of his mouth.
“Yeah. Like you’d go a day without your fans’ attention.”
Lando snorted softly at that.
They reached the front, Carlos tapping his pass against the scanner.
A beep.
“Come on,” he said, already stepping through. “Let’s get this over with.”
Lando followed, adjusting his bag again as the noise picked up on the other side.
Media day.
He brought his camera with him for the first time since Japan.
It felt almost out of place at first, the weight of it in his hand unfamiliar again, but he didn’t question it. Just let it hang from his shoulder as he moved through the paddock, slipping into something easier without really thinking about it.
He spent what free time he had walking around, not rushing anywhere in particular, stopping when he felt like it. Talking to whoever crossed his path, short conversations that didn’t lead anywhere, easy, unforced. He lifted the camera every now and then, snapping photos that didn’t need to mean anything—corners of the paddock, people mid-conversation, small moments no one else paid attention to.
It wasn’t important.
But it grounded him.
It felt closer to himself again.
Not the version shaped by pressure, expectations, constant noise—but something quieter, more familiar. The way things had been before everything started to matter a little too much.
He stopped for fans when they called his name, didn’t rush past them like he sometimes would on busier days. Took photos, signed caps, smiled like it didn’t cost him anything.
And it didn’t.
Not here.
On the fan stage, it was the same bright, easy, leaning into it just enough to give them what they wanted. Jokes, quick answers, playing it up when needed.
But when the questions shifted—
he did too.
His tone steadied, answers cleaner, more precise. No hesitation, no openings left where they didn’t need to be. He didn’t avoid anything, didn’t deflect more than necessary.
Just controlled it.
It wasn’t a switch.
Not fully.
More like a balance.
Between who he was when no one was watching.
And who he knew he had to be when they were.
—
FP1 was uneventful.
Lando barely paid attention to it by the end, treating it more like something to get through than something to analyse. FP2 was the same P2, a strong result—but he didn’t let himself sit on it for too long.
It wasn’t enough—and it couldn’t be. He didn’t stop caring.
If anything, he just tried to care differently.
Less overthinking, less pulling apart every detail the moment it happened. Letting things settle instead of chasing perfection corner by corner.
It didn’t make him slower.
If anything it helped.
By the evening, he stepped away from it completely.
Dinner with George and Alex, something easy, familiar. No race talk that lasted too long, no pressure creeping back in.
“You’ve been kind of distant lately,” George said at some point, leaning back slightly in his chair. “No partying after winning, not hanging around the paddock as much.”
“Yeah, I feel like I haven’t seen you in ages,” Alex added quickly.
“We hung out before Miami,” Lando shot back, a smile already pulling at his face.
Alex pointed a finger at him, unimpressed. “That was ages ago.”
Lando huffed a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “Alright, alright. I’ll stop slacking.”
“You better,” Alex said, still pointing at him.
Lando just raised his hands slightly in surrender, the smile not leaving his face.
For a moment, it was just that.
Easy.
Like nothing else was waiting for him after.
Back at the hotel, the noise of the day finally settled.
The room was quiet in a way the paddock never was—no movement, no voices bleeding through walls, just the low hum of the city somewhere outside, distant enough not to matter.
Lando dropped his bag by the door, kicking his shoes off without much thought as he moved further in. The lights stayed dim, just enough to see without it feeling too bright after a long day under cameras and sun.
Dinner lingered in the back of his mind.
The easy laughter, the way nothing had really mattered for a couple of hours.
It didn’t follow him in here.
He sat on the edge of the bed for a moment, elbows resting on his knees, phone loose in his hand. The screen lit up as he unlocked it, more out of habit than intention.
Nothing new.
He leaned back slowly, letting himself fall into the mattress, staring at the ceiling.
Qualifying tomorrow.
His mind drifted there automatically corners, braking points, small adjustments he could make, things that might matter when it came down to tenths. It was quieter than usual, though. Less noise around it.
Less overthinking.
He didn’t pull it apart. Didn’t need to. For a second, his thumb hovered over his messages. Then he opened them—scrolled, stopped.
No new messages.
He stared at it for a moment longer than necessary.
Then locked the phone again, letting it drop onto the bed beside him.
It wasn’t anything.
Didn’t have to be.
Lando exhaled slowly, dragging a hand over his face before pushing himself up again. He crossed the room, pulling the curtains slightly aside, looking out over the dim lights stretching across the city.
Tomorrow would be louder.
Faster.
For now—it was quiet. And for once, that didn’t feel like a problem.
FP3 went better.
He was fastest.
But that didn’t mean much—not yet.
It wasn’t something he let himself sit with, not something to relax into. If anything, it just sharpened the edges a bit more.
Two hours in the engineering room followed almost immediately.
Lando sat forward in his chair, elbows resting on his knees at first, eyes fixed on the screen as the data rolled through. Traces, overlays, sector comparisons his lap against the others, against his own previous runs. Small differences, barely visible unless you knew exactly where to look.
Next to him, Will talked him through it, calm and methodical, clicking between screens, highlighting corners, braking zones, throttle application.
“Here,” Will pointed, zooming into Turn 7. “You’re carrying a bit more speed on entry, but you lose it on exit.”
Lando leaned in slightly, narrowing his eyes at the graph.
“Yeah,” he murmured. “Rear just… doesn’t stick the same.”
They rewound it.
Watched it again.
“Try earlier rotation,” Will said. “You’re holding it too long.”
Lando nodded, already visualising it. Not just the data how it felt in the car. The slight delay on turn-in, the moment the rear didn’t quite follow the way he wanted it to.
They moved on.
Corner by corner.
Some things were good.
Better than good.
His minimum speeds were strong, braking consistent, no unnecessary spikes or corrections. Compared to Friday, the car looked more stable beneath him, more predictable.
But there were still places—
small ones—
where time slipped away.
Turn 2.
Turn 9.
The final sector.
“Here you hesitate,” Will noted at one point, tapping the screen lightly.
Lando didn’t argue.
He saw it.
Felt it again just looking at it.
“I know,” he said quietly.
They compared it to Max. Carlos. Pato.
Small differences. Tiny margins—that was the problem. No big fix. No obvious mistake to correct. Just details. And details took time.
Lando leaned back for a moment, rolling his shoulders before sitting forward again almost immediately, attention snapping back to the screen.
“Run it again,” he said.
Will did.
They went through it slower this time.
Frame by frame in some sections, breaking it down until it wasn’t just data anymore but something Lando could translate back into instinct.
“Don’t chase the entry,” Will added after a while. “You’re already quick enough there.”
Lando let out a small breath through his nose.
“Feels slow when I don’t.”
“It’s not.”
A pause.
Lando nodded once.
They kept going.
At some point, someone dropped off drinks.
Neither of them paid much attention.
The room stayed quiet apart from Will’s voice, the occasional click of the mouse, the low hum of the screens.
Time passed without either of them noticing.
By the end of it, nothing had dramatically changed.
The lap wasn’t suddenly perfect, the car wasn’t suddenly flawless. But it was clearer. And that was enough.
Lando pushed himself up from the chair, stretching slightly, a small exhale leaving him as he rolled his neck.
“Alright,” he said.
Not satisfied.
But ready.
That was all he needed.
The first two rounds of qualifying went smoothly. Not spectacular, not dominant—but clean. Controlled. Lando didn’t need to be the fastest yet, just fast enough to move on, and that’s exactly what he did.
Q3 was where it shifted.
The first lap wasn’t bad. Not perfect, but solid enough—until the car started to feel off. Not in one obvious way, nothing he could immediately point to. Just… wrong.
Unstable.
Like it wouldn’t settle.
He adjusted on the next run, tried to drive around it instead of through it, but the more he pushed, the more it pushed back. The rear stepping out just enough to cost him confidence, the front not quite biting when he needed it to.
It felt like fighting something that wouldn’t give.
And Lando pushed anyway.
Got everything out of it that he could.
It still wasn’t enough.
P4.
Behind George, Max and Pato.
Lando sat back slightly in the car, hands still on the wheel for a moment longer than necessary, eyes flicking up to the timing screen as it settled.
It was fine.
He’d recovered from worse.
He stayed in the paddock long after he needed to.
Long after most of the lights had dimmed, the noise fading with every passing hour as people packed up and left. It wasn’t to linger, not to talk—if anything, he avoided it.
Instead, he slipped away.
One of the quieter rooms.
Rarely used.
A portable simulator set up in the corner.
Lando dropped into the seat without much thought, headset on, hands already settling on the wheel like they belonged there.
Lap after lap, again and again. He wasn’t chasing time—not exactly. He was chasing the feeling.
The instability from Q3—he replayed it over and over, trying different approaches, different lines, small adjustments that barely registered on the surface but mattered underneath.
Earlier rotation. Softer on entry. More patience on exit. Reset. Go again. Hours passed—he didn’t notice.
The outside world faded completely, replaced by the rhythm of braking points, throttle inputs, the hum of the sim filling the quiet room.
Sometimes it clicked.
Briefly.
A corner taken just right, the car doing exactly what he wanted it to.
Then it slipped again.
He didn’t stop.
Not until his hands started to ache slightly, grip tightening without him realising, shoulders stiff from holding tension for too long.
He only stopped when his phone buzzed, snapping him out of it.
Lando paused the session, pulling the headset off before reaching for his phone.
Up for drinks?
Of course it was Daniel.
No result ever seemed to put him in a bad mood these days.
Lando rolled his eyes slightly.
Drinks before a race—
that was something he might’ve said yes to once.
Not now.
He was already typing a reply when another notification came through.
Talk when you’re free?
He answered that one.
yeah
He went back to Daniel’s message, thumbs hovering for a second before starting to type something that sounded like a proper excuse.
He didn’t finish it.
The phone rang.
“Hi, superstar.”
The accent was thick, familiar.
“Are you off?”
“Don’t call me that,” Lando said, rolling his eyes even if Oscar couldn’t see it. “Yeah, just finishing up.”
He pushed himself out of the simulator, legs unsteady for a second after sitting too long, body slower to catch up than his mind.
“Long debrief?” Oscar asked.
“No.” The answer came quickly. “I was in the simulator.”
He stepped away from it, running a hand through his hair, the quiet of the room settling back in around him.
“Lan, you shouldn’t push yourself so much.” Oscar’s voice was calm as ever.
Lando gathered his things quickly, already moving toward the door.
“I’m not,” he said, a bit too fast. “Just didn’t have anything else to do.”
“You could rest properly.”
There was something slightly off about the conversation. Not wrong.
Just… off.
“Did you eat?”
Lando let out a quiet laugh. “What is this, a checklist?”
“Answer the question.”
Lando sighed, pushing the door open and stepping out into the paddock. It was almost empty now, most of the lights dimmed, no photographers, no fans lingering—everyone else already gone.
“Not yet.”
“Shocking.”
“I’m heading back to the hotel,” Lando said, a faint smile pulling at his lips despite himself. “I’ll get something.”
“Good.”
Silence settled for a moment, broken only by the sound of his car unlocking, then the engine starting.
“I should go,” Oscar said eventually.
“Yeah.”
“Good luck tomorrow.” The Aussie’s voice softened, just for a second.
“Thanks.”
Lando didn’t move right away.
The line stayed open for a moment longer.
Then it went quiet.
—
Lando woke to the quiet buzz of his phone against the bedside table.
A voice note.
From Oscar.
He played it without thinking, still half-asleep, eyes barely open.
“Track’s going to rubber in a lot today,” Oscar’s voice came through, slightly rough, like he’d been up longer than he should’ve been. “If the rear starts moving mid-corner, don’t fight it on entry.”
A brief pause.
“Let it rotate. You’ll get a better exit.”
That was it.
He didn’t think much of it at the time.
He would later.
—
The start was clean.
Not perfect—but clean enough.
Lando held position into Turn 1, keeping it tight through the opening corners, avoiding the chaos behind as the field stretched out quickly.
P4.
George ahead.
Close enough to matter.
Lando didn’t rush it.
He stayed there for the first laps, watching, studying—where he was stronger, where the gaps opened just enough to hint at something more.
Lap 11.
He made the move. Not aggressive, precise. George covered the inside—too early.
Lando let the car rotate through the corner instead of forcing it, carrying the exit speed with him—
And was through before the next braking zone.
P3.
By lap 14, Pato pitted.
A slow stop.
Just enough.
Lando slipped into P2.
Max ahead.
Nine seconds. Lando saw it on the dash, didn’t react. He wasn’t chasing it—not yet. The race settled. Rhythm over chaos.
Lap 29.
His turn.
The stop was clean, but the rejoin dropped him back into traffic. For a moment, the race compressed again—cars ahead, tyres not quite in the window yet.
Two laps.
That was all it took.
Back to P3.
Then P2 again when Pato cycled through.
Max was gone.
Twenty seconds now.
Lando didn’t fight it. Didn’t need to. He shifted focus to tyres, engine.
Bringing it home.
Lap 47.
Another stop.
Fresh hards.
The heat made everything harder to manage, the track taking more than it gave.
He dropped to P3.
Pato ahead again.
Five seconds.
“His tyres look gone,” Lando said over the radio, calm, controlled. A suggestion more than a complaint.
No orders came.
Papaya rules.
Race.
Lap 59.
Four laps to go. The gap closed slowly—not enough. Then a mistake. Small, but visible. Lando saw it.
Into Turn 2, they went side by side.
He didn’t force the entry, didn’t fight it. Let the car rotate. Better exit and through.
P2.
The gap to Max was still there.
Untouchable. But it didn’t matter, not really. Second place. Clean. Controlled. Earned.
Losing to Max wasn’t the worst outcome.
Not when it looked like this. Not when it felt like this. He was the champion, after all—and a friend. And this time—
There was no luck in it at all.
—
The debrief was quick.
At least on Lando’s side.
Good performance. Good strategy. Solid outcome.
Pato and his team stayed longer, still going through things by the time Lando was already free to go.
He didn’t rush back. No reason to.
“Oi!”
Lando slowed, already knowing who it was before he turned.
Daniel walked up with a grin. “We’re going out. No excuses.”
Lando rolled his eyes, but smiled anyway. “Nothing to celebrate, mate.”
Daniel threw an arm around his shoulders. “Where did the kid who celebrated P4 go? Also—we’re celebrating Maxy tonight. So you’re coming.”
That—
he could agree with.
Max becoming a father was something worth showing up for.
Daniel gave him a place and time, pointing at him once. “I’ll come drag you out if you don’t.”
“Yeah, yeah.”
Back at the hotel, Lando didn’t waste time.
A quick shower, washing out the last of the champagne, running a hand through his hair until it felt clean again.
He styled it loosely, curls falling into place without much effort.
A simple button-down.
He caught his reflection for a second, adjusting the collar slightly.
He didn’t need to impress anyone.
But he wanted to feel good. And look it too.
The place wasn’t hard to find.
Loud music spilled out into the street before Lando even stepped inside, bass heavy enough to feel through the ground. Lights flickered through the windows, silhouettes moving, laughter carrying over everything else.
He hesitated for half a second at the entrance. Then—he stepped in. It hit him all at once.
Noise, heat, voices overlapping, glasses clinking somewhere to his left. The kind of chaos that wasn’t really chaos, just… people. Familiar faces, unfamiliar ones, all blending together under dim lights and something vaguely expensive in the air.
“Finally!”
A hand grabbed his shoulder before he could even properly look around.
Danny.
Of course.
“Took you long enough,” Daniel added, already pulling him further in like there was no option of standing still.
“I said I’d come,” Lando muttered, though the faint smile was already there.
“Yeah, but I didn’t believe you.”
That tracked.
They pushed through the crowd, Daniel greeting people as they passed, dragging Lando along like he was part of the plan rather than an addition to it.
At the center of it, it was calmer. Or at least—less chaotic.
Max stood with a drink in hand, relaxed in a way only he could be after a race win. A few others gathered around him, talking, laughing, nothing over the top.
“Look who showed up,” Max said, glancing over.
“Had to,” Lando replied. “Big day.”
Max smirked slightly. “You’re just here for the free drinks.”
“Obviously.”
Someone handed Lando a drink at some point he didn’t catch who—and he took it without thinking, letting himself settle into the group.
It was easy.
That was the thing.
Conversations overlapped, shifted, moved without needing structure. Daniel jumped between topics like always, Max stayed mostly still, throwing in comments just often enough to keep things going. Carlos mentioned the race, briefly, but it didn’t stick. Not tonight.
Lando leaned back slightly, glass in hand, listening more than speaking for a while.
It felt… normal.
Like it used to.
“Still boring now?” Daniel asked suddenly, nudging him.
Lando rolled his eyes. “I’m literally here.”
“Yeah, but are you fun?”
“That’s subjective.”
Daniel grinned. “That’s a no.”
Lando huffed a quiet laugh, shaking his head.
“You finished P2 and you’re acting like you came last,” Charles added from the side.
Lando shrugged lightly. “Just didn’t feel like a win.”
Max glanced at him briefly.
“Wasn’t supposed to be.”
Simple.
Lando nodded once.
That was enough.
The night carried on around them, conversations shifting, people coming and going. At some point, the group changed slightly—George appeared, Alex not far behind, the dynamic shifting but staying just as easy.
Lando checked his phone without really thinking about it.
A new message.
From Oscar.
I saw you’re going out. Good.
A second one followed almost immediately.
P2 is still something to celebrate.
Lando stared at the screen for a second.
A small smile pulled at his lips before he could stop it.
He didn’t reply. Not right away.
Instead, he locked the phone and slipped it back into his pocket, letting himself fall back into the conversation like nothing had happened.
But something had shifted. Not enough to change anything on the surface. Just… there.
“Where’d you go?” George asked, noticing the brief absence.
“Nowhere,” Lando said easily.
“Zoned out,” Alex added.
“Thinking about life,” Daniel said dramatically.
Lando snorted. “Yeah, that’s exactly it.”
“Scary,” Daniel nodded.
The laughter came easily after that. And for a while Lando didn’t think about anything else.
Not the race. Not the sim. Not tomorrow. Just the moment. It wasn’t loud in his head anymore—just… quiet enough.
At some point, he stepped away.
Not far.
Just enough to breathe.
The air outside was cooler, the music muffled now, reduced to a distant pulse behind the walls. The street was mostly empty, a few people smoking, nothing like the energy inside.
Lando leaned back against the wall, exhaling slowly, letting the quiet settle properly this time.
He pulled his phone out again.
Unlocked it.
The message was still there.
P2 is still something to celebrate.
He read it again, then typed. Paused. Deleted it, typed again.
you stalk me online now?
He stared at it for a second.
Then sent it.
The reply didn’t come immediately.
That was fine.
Lando slid the phone back into his pocket, tilting his head back slightly as he looked up at the night sky, barely visible between buildings.
For a moment everything felt… steady. Not perfect, but good enough.
Inside, someone shouted his name.
Lando pushed himself off the wall, adjusting his shirt slightly before heading back in.
The noise hit him again immediately.
But this time he didn’t hesitate.
He moved through the crowd easier now, slipping back into it, the music louder, the lights harsher—but manageable.
He grabbed another drink from the bar. Not caring what it was.
“Oi—come on,” Carlos appeared beside him. “Don’t stand there like a grandpa.”
Lando scoffed. “I’m not—”
Carlos didn’t wait, just grabbed his wrist and pulled him toward the dance floor.
For a second, Lando just stood there.
Then he let go.
Not completely.
But enough.
He laughed, not even sure at what, just the moment, the ease of it. The kind that didn’t need thinking.
For a while—there was nothing else. No pressure. No expectations.
Just the music.
The crowd.
And him, somewhere in it.
It wasn’t perfect.
But it was real.
Notes:
I mean it’s not worse right?
Can ya’ll guess how many more chapters of the suffering are left? 🫣
Chapter 20: No strategy
Notes:
Did y’all watch the race? I was so sad they moved it to a time I was still at work 😭😭 and I honestly don’t know how it needed because I WAS WATCHING, as much as work allowed me that is. And I saw the Lestappen mini fight 😭 but then suddenly Max dropped and I was like fuck that, and haven’t even checked the results yet. I only know both Kimi and Lando got podium 😭😭😭😭
I’m so heartbroken I can’t tbh.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Monaco was one of Lando’s favourite races.
Not necessarily because of the track itself—if he was honest, it was one of the more boring ones. A street circuit, narrow, unforgiving, almost impossible to overtake with how big the cars had become.
But that wasn’t why he liked it.
It was simple.
He got to go home.
No hotel rooms. No constant moving. No unfamiliar ceilings to wake up to. Just his own flat, his own space, the quiet comfort of something that actually belonged to him.
It made everything feel… easier.
And then there was the energy. Different from anywhere else.
Heavier, somehow. Louder without needing to be. The kind that sat in the air before anything had even happened.
It was an iconic track, after all.
His family were coming too.
Lando didn’t feel pressured by that.
Not really.
But still—
he wanted to make them proud.
Monaco woke up before he did. It always did.
By the time Lando stepped out onto the balcony, cup of tea in hand, the city was already alive boats cutting through the harbour, voices carrying up from the streets below, the low, distant hum of engines starting somewhere along the circuit.
He leaned against the railing, letting it settle.
This was why he liked it. No rush. No hotel corridors, no early shuttles—just his own space, his own routine, the quiet before everything else caught up.
He stayed there a little longer than he needed to.
Then went back inside.
By Thursday, the paddock was already alive.
And Lando showed up in Quadrant merch like it was just another day, sunglasses on, jacket sitting loose on his shoulders—casual, like he hadn’t thought about it at all.
It turned heads.
Not in a dramatic way.
Just enough.
Everything closer, louder, more contained. People everywhere, movement constant, cameras already waiting before he’d even properly stepped in.
“Home race, sort of,” someone said as he passed.
Lando just smiled lightly.
“Yeah. Sort of.”
Monaco blurred the lines a little—driver, person, home. All of it felt closer than usual.
The fan stage was the usual chaos.
Fans screaming, phones up, questions flying—some serious, some not even close.
Lando answered easily, slipping into it without effort.
He hesitated, though, when the host asked about his favourite Monaco winner.
Weighing it.
“You on Sunday!” someone shouted from the crowd.
Lando smirked.
“Yeah,” he said, nodding slightly. “Me on Sunday.”
The confidence wasn’t real.
But it didn’t matter.
Miami came up again. Imola too. Whether he could carry it forward, whether this was the weekend, whether Monaco changed things.
Lando answered the same way he always did.
Calm.
Measured.
Nothing more than necessary.
FP1 and FP2 blurred together.
The car felt good.
Not perfect, never perfect but close enough that he didn’t need to fight it every corner. That was already more than most weekends gave him.
Not as fast as Ferrari was this time. And as much as Lando’s wanted to win he realised he wouldn’t mind if Charles did. It was a special one, winning your home race, and the Brit wanted that for his friend.
He didn’t overthink it.
Didn’t sit with the data longer than needed, didn’t chase every tenth like it was something slipping away from him.
He let it be.
Back home that evening, the city hadn’t slowed down.
If anything, it felt louder.
He dropped his keys by the counter, moving through the flat without turning on more lights than necessary. The familiar space grounded him again almost instantly, the noise outside kept at just enough distance to not matter.
His phone buzzed once.
He glanced at it.
A message.
From Oscar.
How’s it looking?
Lando stared at it for a second.
good
The reply came a little later.
I’m glad.
That was it.
Lando huffed a quiet breath, something almost like a smile tugging at the corner of his mouth before he locked the phone and set it aside.
It was enough.
Saturday came quickly.
By the time he got to the track, there wasn’t much left to figure out.
No big changes, no last-minute adjustments that would suddenly make the difference.
Just details.
He sat in the garage for a moment longer than usual, helmet resting beside him, gloves loose in his hands. Around him, the team moved as always focused, efficient, nothing out of place.
Lando rolled his shoulders once, then again, like he was settling into something.
Monaco wasn’t about pushing harder—it was about precision. No mistakes. No hesitation. Just the lap.
He stood up, picking up his helmet, the noise of the paddock fading slightly as his focus narrowed.
By the time he stepped into the car there was nothing else left.
Just him.
And the track.
Q1 and Q2 went the way they were supposed to.
Clean.
Controlled.
Nothing to worry about with the car they had underneath him.
There was a red flag when Kimi put his Mercedes in the wall, a brief yellow later when George had an issue, but neither of it touched Lando’s laps.
It stayed simple.
Get through.
Move on.
Q3 was different.
The first run—almost perfect. Sector one purple. Sector two, better. By the time he crossed the line, it was P1.
Pato just behind, losing a bit of grip on the final sector.
Close.
But not enough.
They went early for the second run.
Old tyres.
A small gamble.
Pato crossed first this time, cleaner lap, calmer and went for P1.
For a moment.
Then Lando came through.
0.015 faster. He didn’t react. Not yet.
He didn’t relax, eyes lifting to the timing screen as the rest of the grid finished their laps.
Max didn’t improve.
Charles jumped up to P2, splitting Lando from his teammate.
One by one— they tried. None of them beat it.
“That’s pole, Lando,” Will’s voice came through. “With a lap record—1:09.954.”
Pole.
Monaco.
“That’s good,” Lando replied, calm. “Thank you, guys.”
He pulled into parc fermé, stopping in the number one spot, the engine cutting as the noise rushed back in all at once.
For a second, he just sat there.
Hands still on the wheel.
Breathing steady.
Then he climbed out, stepping onto the car just long enough for the cameras.
The noise built. Voices. Flashes.
The white fireproof caught the light as he pulled his helmet off, running a hand through his hair.
He moved quickly after that.
To the team first—hands on his shoulders, quick pats, a grin from Zak.
Then to his parents.
“Oh, my baby.”
His mum pulled him into a tight hug.
“I’m so proud of you.”
And that—that’s when it hit.
Pole in Monaco.
A track where overtaking barely existed.
Where starting first meant everything.
For the first time since Australia it felt possible.
—
Lando’s morning started quietly.
For a while, Monaco hadn’t caught up to him yet.
He stayed in bed longer than he should have after waking up, staring up at the ceiling, not quite ready to move.
His phone rested beside him.
Music playing softly through the room now, low enough to fade into the background.
He let it.
Didn’t check anything.
Didn’t rush.
Just lay there.
Through the open balcony doors, the city was already waking up—distant noise carrying in, engines, voices, something building beneath it all.
Lando turned his head slightly, listening for a second.
Then he closed his eyes again, just for a moment longer. The calm didn’t last. When he finally got up, it all sped up again.
Training with Jon, short and sharp, just enough to wake everything up. No talking, just routine, movement, focus.
A quick breakfast after, barely tasting it.
Then the rest.
Recording. Brief media bits. Strategy meeting straight after, screens, numbers, voices layering over each other.
“Track evolution’s high.”
“Traffic’s going to be the biggest factor.”
“Lap one is everything.”
Lando nodded where he needed to, said what was expected, took it all in without holding onto it too tightly.
By the time he stepped into hospitality, it felt like the day had already been going for hours.
“Hey.”
He turned.
His mum.
For a second, everything slowed again.
“There you are,” she said, stepping closer.
No big moment—just a quick hug. Warm. Grounding.
“You good?” She asked watching his face closely.
Lando let out a shaky breath “Yeah.”
She looked at him for a second longer.
Then nodded.
“It’ll be alright.” She patted him on the cheek, playfull but th touch was gentle.
Simple.
Lando let out a small breath.
“Yeah,” he said.
And this time he believed it.
She didn’t stay long.
Didn’t need to.
When she walked away, the noise came back in around him, louder again, sharper.
It was almost time to be in the car.
His phone buzzed in his hand.
A message.
Brake earlier into Rascasse. Get it rotated once, don’t correct it twice.
Lando read it once. Then again. He locked the phone.
By the time he headed toward the garage it was already in his head.
—
The start wasn’t perfect.
Lando locked up into Turn 1, front tyres protesting as the car pushed just slightly wider than he wanted. For a split second, it looked like an opening like the kind of mistake Monaco punished immediately.
But he held it.
Kept the car under him, kept the line, kept the lead.
Charles stayed close through the opening laps, exactly where Lando expected him to be. Close enough to apply pressure, not quite close enough to attack. Monaco didn’t allow for much more than that not unless someone made a mistake.
Lando didn’t.
He settled quickly.
Not rushing, not forcing anything. Just hitting his marks, corner after corner, letting the rhythm come to him instead of chasing it. That was the difference now—he didn’t need to overdrive to prove anything.
By lap 7, the gap was 1.6 seconds.
Out of DRS.
That was enough.
For now.
Behind them, Pato hovered in third, close at first but not quite able to match the pace. The race stretched into shape, gaps forming just enough to make things feel stable, even if Monaco never really allowed for comfort.
Lap 20.
“Box, box.”
Lando didn’t question it.
Clean entry, no hesitation.
The stop—
2.7 seconds.
Not ideal.
He knew it before the car even dropped back to the ground.
The rejoin was worse.
P4.
Traffic.
The kind that didn’t look like much on paper, but in Monaco meant everything. Cars ahead just slow enough to cost time, just difficult enough to pass that it forced patience instead of progress.
Lando exhaled slowly.
Adjusted.
Didn’t fight it.
They reacted quickly.
Pato was brought in to cover Charles, to protect the position but his stop was worse.
3.8 seconds.
Lando caught it on the timing screen—a glance. A small, quiet flicker of satisfaction. Then it was gone. Focus back where it needed to be. Charles pitted. Lando moved up.
P2.
Max ahead.
Ten seconds.
It wasn’t a gap you chased in Monaco.
It was a gap you acknowledged.
Lap 29, Max pitted, and Lando inherited the lead, though it didn’t feel like one yet. The tyres weren’t settled, the race wasn’t stable, and Monaco didn’t reward thinking too far ahead.
Lap 40.
“Push.”
The call came through, simple and direct—build the gap. Lando did. Not aggressively, not recklessly. Just clean. Precise.
Every corner placed exactly where it needed to be. No corrections, no wasted movement, no overdriving. He let the car rotate, trusted it on exit, managed the tyres without letting them fall away.
The gap to Charles stretched.
Four seconds.
Then five.
Behind him, Pato remained in third, close enough to stay relevant but not enough to interfere.
Lap 50, second stop, hards—clean this time—but he came out P2 behind Max again.
The dirty air hit immediately.
The car felt heavier, less responsive, the front not quite biting the same way, the rear needing more care on exit. Everything required more attention, more patience.
Lando adjusted.
Didn’t fight it.
Behind him, Charles started to close, not dramatically.
But enough.
A second here.
Half a second there.
Lando felt it before he saw it.
He managed it.
Didn’t panic.
Just drove.
He Pato joined—lap 73, within DRS. Now it tightened. No room for error, no breathing space, just pressure stacking behind him. Lando didn’t look back, didn’t need to he knew where they were. He kept it clean, controlled, no corrections, no overdriving.
Every braking zone.
Every exit.
Every fraction of grip.
The car moved under him, but he didn’t overcorrect.
He didn’t chase the lap—just controlled it. Lap after lap. The gap to Max ahead wasn’t coming down, and it wasn’t supposed to. This wasn’t a race he won on pace. It was one he had to hold together.
Then the final laps. Max stayed out longer than expected. Lando noticed, didn’t question it—just drove. Then the call came.
Max was pitting.
Last lap.
The gap collapsed, and just like that, Lando was back in the lead.
He didn’t react immediately—didn’t celebrate, didn’t speak. Just drove. One lap. Clean. No mistakes. He crossed the line.
P1.
Monaco.
For a second—
nothing.
Then—
“P1, Lando. P1.”
He exhaled.
Not explosive, not overwhelming—just settling.
He’d done it.
Monaco.
The most precise track on the calendar, the one where mistakes ended everything—and he hadn’t made one when it mattered.
It wasn’t luck. Not chaos. Not even pace.
Strategy.
This time, it worked in his favour.
Max’s call made the difference—but Lando had been there to take it.
Ready.
And that was what mattered.
It took him a moment.
“Monaco, baby!” he shouted, voice breaking into something brighter, louder than before. “P1 in Monaco—we did it. Thank you, guys.”
He’d done it. He’d won Monaco—the race everyone dreamed about, and now it was his. His first win since Australia. His first real break of light. His hope.
He didn’t say anything else on the radio.
He pulled into parc fermé, engine cutting as the noise rushed in.
Out of the car, onto the nose fist raised, just for a second.
Then he ran.
Straight into the team.
Hands everywhere on his shoulders, his helmet, his back. It didn’t matter. He’d done it. And he hadn’t done it alone.
His parents were next.
His mum pulled him into a tight hug, holding on just a second longer than usual.
His dad stood just behind her, a proud smile already there.
“Best birthday gift I ever got.”
Lando huffed out a quiet breath, something close to a laugh, but it didn’t quite make it.
It settled somewhere deeper.
He nodded once.
“Yeah.”
And for the first time since Australia he believed it.
Not hoped.
Not pushed himself to think it.
He could win this.
—
It was all a blur after.
The interviews, the podium, the anthem, champagne—congratulations, smiles, hugs. One thing bleeding into the next before he could properly take any of it in.
He checked his phone.
Just for a second.
Long enough to see it.
Proud of you.
Lando smiled.
Then someone was already pulling him away again—and the moment slipped.
—
The lights in the club were dim, music loud, bass vibrating through the floor like a second heartbeat. Champagne still lingered on Lando’s skin, mixed now with sweat and something citrusy someone had spilled on him an hour ago.
He’s won Monaco.
Monaco.
Lando was in the middle of the dance floor when a firm hand grabbed his arm.
“Carlos!” he shouted, relief and excitement blending in his voice.
“Congratulations, winner!” Carlos yelled over the music, grinning as he pulled Lando toward the bar. “Shots?”
Lando’s grin widened. Yes. Shots. He deserved shots. He’d just won Monaco.
They navigated the crowded floor, weaving between laughing fans, drivers, and random party-goers. Lando was vaguely aware of other F1 drivers around waving, clapping him on the back — but the world had narrowed down to Carlos and the promise of alcohol.
At some point he’d ended up back at the table, practically folded in half against Danny, who was holding him upright with one arm like this had happened before.
“C’mon mate, it’s time to go home,” Daniel said, voice pitched into that weird older-brother register he only used when someone was about to make a mistake.
“Nooo,” Lando protested, words sticking together. “I want to dance some more.”
His legs, however, had officially clocked out.
Daniel shook his head. “It’s almost two. Sleep. Water. Regret prevention.”
“What?” The mention of time cut through the haze just enough. Lando blinked up at him. “Two?”
His brain did slow, clumsy maths.
Australia.
“It’s morning already,” he gasped suddenly, straightening with surprising determination. “I need to call Oscar.”
And just like that, he was on his feet, weaving toward the exit before Daniel could fully react.
“Who?” Daniel followed immediately, concern sharpening his tone. Lando had drunk a lot. A lot.
“Oscar,” Lando replied as if that explained everything, fingers fighting his jeans pocket. “It’s morning there! He’ll be awake. I need to know if he— if he has thoughts. On the race. On the strategy. On the—”
He was fully rambling now, words tumbling over each other.
Daniel caught up just as Lando finally yanked his phone free.
“Lando, slow down. Who is Oscar?” Daniel asked, gently but firmly taking the phone from his hand before he could unlock it.
“Piastri,” Lando said, frowning like Daniel was being dense.
Daniel froze.
“What?”
“Piastri,” Lando repeated, reaching again. “I need to tell him I nailed Rascasse. He said brake earlier, rotate it once—don’t fix it twice—and I did. I actually did it, Dan.”
Daniel blinked.
“Piastri? As in the Piastri?” His tone shifted — disbelief mixing with something sharper. “The street racer from Australia Piastri?”
“Yes,” Lando said impatiently, like Daniel was the one not keeping up. “He’ll want to know. He likes data.”
Daniel stared at him for a long second.
“Okay,” he said carefully, like he was diffusing a bomb. “We are not drunk-calling an illegal race champion from a Monaco nightclub.”
“It’s not drunk-calling!” Lando protested, already staggering toward the exit. “It’s professional feedback!”
“Professional feedback?” Daniel echoed, following him outside with long, unhurried strides. “At two a.m.?”
The sudden quiet felt almost violent after the music. The harbour lights shimmered in the distance, yachts glowing like floating cities.
Lando went quiet.
That silence said more than any argument could have.
Daniel stopped walking.
“Lando,” he said more seriously now, arms crossing over his chest. “Since when are you calling Piastri for post-race debriefs?”
Lando reached for his phone again, slower this time.
“Since… since…” he trailed off, brain buffering through alcohol and emotion.
Daniel didn’t let it go.
“Since when?” he repeated, softer now. Observant. Too observant.
Lando looked up at him, defensive even through the haze.
“He helped,” he insisted. “With the car. With the lines. He—”
And yeah, maybe Lando had failed to update Daniel on… everything.
For all the older Australian knew, it had ended that night in Perth. A reckless story. A one-off.
Nobody in his life really knew about Oscar.
Not Max.
Not his siblings.
Definitely not his team.
And that hadn’t been accidental.
Lando had been selfish.
He’d wanted Oscar separate. Untouched by paddock politics. Untouched by press questions. A part of his life that wasn’t filtered through sponsors and strategy meetings.
Something that was just his.
“That’s it,” Daniel muttered, shaking his head. “We’re going to mine.”
For once, Lando didn’t argue.
The fight drained out of him as fast as it had flared up.
Daniel bundled him into a taxi, gave the driver an address, and they rode in silence — Monaco lights flashing across the window like passing thoughts neither of them voiced.
At Daniel’s flat, Lando was made to sit at the kitchen counter like a child in trouble.
A glass of water.
Then another.
Aspirin pressed into his palm.
“Drink,” Daniel ordered.
Lando obeyed.
Somewhere between the third glass of water and the fourth sigh, the story started spilling out.
Melbourne before the race.
The early arrival.
The few days on the road.
Koalas.
One bed.
The wall.
The Senna.
The late-night calls after testing.
The advices before the races.
The quiet “proud of you” that had meant more than the podium.
Daniel listened the entire time. No interruptions. Just nodding slowly, jaw tightening in places he didn’t comment on.
The phone — and the call to Oscar wasn’t forgotten.
Just… set aside.
When Lando finally slumped sideways onto the couch, half-asleep, the sharp edges of his emotions dulled, he stared at the ceiling.
“Have you even done it?” he asked suddenly, voice small.
“Done what?”
“Raced.”
Daniel frowned. “You mean in a street race?”
A pause.
“No,” he said firmly. “I don’t think I have enough courage to risk it all like that.”
Lando swallowed.
Daniel leaned back in his chair.
“You remember what happened to Kubica?” he continued quietly. “It was legal. Rally. But he still lost everything. Career never really recovered.”
Lando knew the story.
A promising Formula One career.
One crash.
One moment.
And the trajectory changed forever.
He turned his head slightly, staring at nothing.
“I did,” Lando admitted, voice barely above a whisper. “After Melbourne. Oscar drove. I was in the passenger seat.”
Daniel’s expression shifted immediately.
Worry. Real worry.
“I felt better than at any track ever,” Lando confessed.
The words hung there.
Heavy.
Honest.
There was a long stretch of silence after that. The kind that forces you to sit with what you’ve just said.
Daniel scrubbed a hand down his face.
“Forget all I said back then,” he muttered finally.
Lando blinked slowly. “What?”
Daniel looked at him — not joking now. Not teasing.
“That man is trouble.”
Not said with hatred.
Not even disapproval.
Just fact.
And somehow that made it worse.
—
When Lando woke up the next morning in Daniel’s guest room, the hangover wasn’t the worst thing he felt.
It was the guilt.
And the regret.
The conversation with Daniel from the night before sat heavy in his chest, replaying in fragments — the disbelief in Danny’s voice, the quiet warning at the end.
That man is trouble.
Lando groaned softly and rolled onto his back, pressing the heel of his palm into his eyes.
The room was too bright. His head hurt. His mouth tasted like regret and tequila.
But worse than all of that was the slow, creeping realization of how stupid he’d been.
Not the drinking.
Not the club.
The car.
Getting into the car with Oscar that night in Melbourne.
The trust he put into the Aussie.
At the time it had felt thrilling. Alive. Like something electric running through his veins.
Now it just felt reckless.
Trust wasn’t something he should rely on like that. Not blindly.
He was a professional driver for God’s sake. He knew better than most that accidents didn’t care how talented you were.
They just happened.
Lando sighed and rolled onto his side, digging under the pillow until his fingers found his phone. The screen lit up immediately when he unlocked it, flooding his eyes with notifications.
Messages.
So many messages.
Team group chat.
His manager.
Max.
His mum.
Random congratulations from half the paddock.
He ignored almost all of them.
His thumb went straight to one chat.
Oscar.
The messages there were simple.
Congratulations winner.
You did well.
Call me when you wake up?
Those had been sent around the exact time Lando had been trying to call him from outside the club.
The irony made his stomach twist.
There were more messages below.
The party must have been long.
Good, you deserve to celebrate.
I’ll be up late if you’re still in for a chat.
These were newer. Forty minutes ago. Lando frowned, checked the time—12:07 pm. Which meant… He checked the Melbourne clock on his phone. Just after midnight in Australia.
He dragged a hand down his face.
So Oscar had waited.
Stayed awake.
For him.
The guilt twisted sharper in his stomach.
He covered his eyes with his hand for a moment, letting out a slow breath. The room was quiet. Too quiet. He tried to listen for any sounds outside — footsteps, a kettle, Daniel moving around the flat — but there was nothing.
Just silence.
Lando looked back at the phone.
His fingers hovered over the keyboard.
For a moment he didn’t move.
Then his thumbs started working before his brain could stop them.
you still up?
He hit send.
His fingers were still hovering over the screen when the phone buzzed violently in his hand.
Incoming call.
Oscar.
Lando stared at it for half a second.
Then answered.
“Hi,” he croaked, voice rough with sleep and dehydration.
There was a small burst of static, then Oscar’s voice came through — low, calm, a little tired.
“Morning, winner.”
Lando huffed softly.
“Don’t start.”
“I’m not,” Oscar said. “You won Monaco. That’s objectively impressive.”
Lando rubbed his face with one hand, suddenly very aware of the mess he must look like.
“You waited up,” he said quietly.
There was a small pause.
“Yeah.”
“Why?”
Another pause.
“Because I wanted to congratulate you properly,” Oscar said.
The simplicity of the answer made something in Lando’s chest tighten.
He shifted under the covers, staring at the ceiling now.
But the damage was already done.
The late-night conversation with Daniel was alive in his head again.
“…Daniel knows.”
Silence.
Not long.
But long enough.
Long enough for Lando to pull the phone slightly away from his ear, checking the screen like the call might’ve dropped.
It hadn’t.
He brought it back, swallowing. His grip tightened just a little.
“Oh.”
Lando closed his eyes. “Yeah.”
He pressed the phone closer this time, like that would somehow make the silence easier to handle.
It didn’t.
He exhaled quietly, trying to keep his voice steady, like he hadn’t just dropped something he couldn’t take back.
Oscar didn’t say anything. And somehow that was worse.
Because silence meant thinking.
And thinking meant—
When Oscar finally spoke, his tone was lighter again—but something underneath it had shifted.
“Did he give the standard illegal street racer equals bad influence speech?”
Lando huffed weakly.
“Something like that.”
“Fair.”
Oscar chuckled quietly.
There was a small stretch of silence before he spoke again.
“Do you believe it?”
Did Lando?
The facts were there.
Oscar did put him at risk.
Not just physically — though that part alone should have been enough. One wrong move on a dark Melbourne road, one driver misjudging a corner, one police car appearing at the wrong moment, and Lando’s entire career could have been dragged into something ugly.
If the wrong journalist got hold of that story, it wouldn’t just be embarrassing.
It would be a scandal.
Sponsors hated scandals.
Teams hated distractions.
His whole image the smiling, controlled, professional race winner — could crack overnight.
It was the way Oscar made him feel like he mattered. Like he was someone more than the driver standing on podiums and doing sponsor interviews. Like he existed outside the polished version of himself the world knew.
Oscar saw him.
Not the brand. Not the statistics.
Just him.
Lando stared at the ceiling, phone pressed to his ear as the silence stretched between them.
Oscar didn’t rush him. Didn’t fill the space with jokes or deflections. He just waited.
Which somehow made the question heavier.
“…I don’t know,” Lando admitted finally, voice quiet.
There was a faint shift on the other end of the line — fabric rustling, maybe Oscar leaning back in a chair somewhere.
“That’s understandable,” he said simply.
Lando frowned at the ceiling.
“You’re not even going to deny it?”
“Deny what?”
“That you’re a bad influence.”
For a moment there was only the soft hum of the phone line.
Then Oscar let out a quiet breath that almost sounded like a laugh.
“I’m an illegal street racer, Lando.”
“Well when you say it like that—”
“I break traffic laws for fun,” Oscar continued calmly, like he was listing basic facts. “I race people for money. I drive a car that shouldn’t even be on the road.”
Lando rolled onto his side, staring at the blank wall now.
“Wow, you’re really selling yourself.”
“Statistically speaking,” Oscar went on, ignoring that, “I’m not a great career move for a Formula One driver.”
That pulled a reluctant snort out of Lando.
“God,” he muttered, rubbing his face, “you sound like my PR manager.”
“I’m just realistic.”
Another silence settled between them.
Not uncomfortable.
Just… thoughtful.
Lando traced a crack in the paint on Daniel’s guest room wall with his eyes, brain still foggy from alcohol and sleep and the strange heaviness of the conversation.
Then, quietly, he asked,
“…Are you trying to talk me out of this?”
Oscar didn’t answer immediately.
The pause stretched just long enough for Lando’s stomach to twist.
When Oscar finally spoke, his voice was softer than before.
“No.”
Something warm flipped in Lando’s chest.
“I’m just making sure you understand what this is.”
Lando swallowed.
“And what is this?”
Another pause.
Longer this time.
Like Oscar was choosing his words carefully.
“A bad idea,” he said eventually.
The bluntness of it made Lando huff a quiet breath.
“You’re unbelievable.”
“I’m honest.”
“That’s not honesty, that’s sabotage.”
Oscar chuckled softly, the sound quiet through the speaker. “I don’t want to be the cause of any problems for you.”
The words landed heavier than anything else he’d said so far.
Lando stared at the ceiling, the phone warm against his ear, Daniel’s guest room still and silent around him. Somewhere outside a car passed on the street below, tyres hissing faintly against the road.
Problems.
That was the word everything kept circling back to.
Daniel. The team. The invisible PR managers living in the back of his head.
For a few seconds Lando just breathed, thumb tracing absent circles against the edge of his phone case.
Then the thought slipped out before he could stop it.
“Then why are you still here?”
The moment the question left his mouth, his stomach dropped.
Too much.
Too heavy.
Too honest.
He squeezed his eyes shut, already wishing he could grab the words out of the air and shove them back into his throat.
The silence that followed didn’t help.
It stretched long enough for doubt to creep in, for Lando’s brain to start spiralling into a dozen different explanations — maybe Oscar would laugh it off, maybe he’d dodge the question entirely, maybe he’d say something sensible and careful and distant.
Lando shifted under the covers, suddenly very aware of how fast his heart was beating.
He almost spoke again, almost tried to take it back.
But he couldn’t now.
So he waited.
On the other end of the line, Oscar breathed in quietly.
“Because I like you.”
The answer came steady. Simple. Honest in a way that knocked the air straight out of Lando’s chest.
There was no hesitation in it.
No joke layered over the top to soften it.
Just the truth.
Lando swallowed, his throat suddenly dry.
“And I’ll be here,” Oscar added, just as calm, “as long as you’ll have me.”
The room felt smaller somehow, like the walls had shifted closer without noticing.
Lando turned his head against the pillow, staring at the wall again like it might somehow help him process what had just been said.
Oscar didn’t rush to fill the silence that followed.
He never did.
He just stayed there on the line, steady and patient like always, as if he had all the time in the world.
Oscar made it feel easy.
Too easy.
Like none of it was complicated. Like none of it was risky. Like there wasn’t something sitting underneath all of it that Lando couldn’t quite name but couldn’t ignore either.
Notes:
Are we having a brake through or just more angst?
And Monaco should be a happy one for Lando he just won 🥺
But at least Oscar did man up and confessed (at least halfway).
Chapter 21: Lock up
Notes:
I was not supposed to update until tomorrow, but it was sooooo slow today at work I actually edited the whole chapter, so figured might as well post it.
My life has been pleasantly uneventful so far this week, fingers crossed it stays that way 😩🙏
Also I’m sleep deprived because had a nightmare my head chef was reading this and woke up before 5am wtf?
Anyway enjoy!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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The Spanish Grand Prix came and went in a blur of heat, strategy meetings and endless laps around the circuit.
He finished second. Again. Good result. Solid points. Nothing really to write home about.
Oscar texted him before the race like he always did.
Good luck.
Another message came sometime during the race window, probably when he was watching the timing screens.
A quick observation about one of Lando’s exits.
Oscar always noticed things like that.
Lando didn’t see it until much later.
By the time he finally had a moment to check his phone — after the debriefs, the interviews, the long walk back through the paddock another message was already waiting.
Good race.
Lando typed a reply.
But before he could send another one, before the conversation could properly start, the little “last seen” time told him everything he needed to know.
It was already late in Australia. Oscar had gone to sleep.
It was fine.
Lando told himself it was fine.
His mood had nothing to do with the confession from that night in Monaco. Nothing to do with the quiet I like you that still echoed in his head when he tried to fall asleep.
It was a lie.
Because underneath all the excuses — the championship pressure, the media noise, the endless travel Lando knew the real reason for the distraction sitting in the back of his mind.
It was Oscar.
Or more precisely—the way Lando felt about him. He was conflicted. Confused. Completely unsure what to do with any of it.
Oscar was trouble.
The Aussie admitted it himself.
A risk.
Reckless in ways Lando had spent his entire career trying to avoid.
Continuing whatever this was between them didn’t make sense.
On paper, it was a terrible idea. And yet… Lando didn’t want to imagine his life without him in it.
And that was the most ridiculous part of all.
They had known each other for what?
Three months?
They spent barely a week together before the season started.
And somehow…
Somehow Lando still didn’t want it to end.
—
A quick stop in Woking, a break before Canada. Lando went home, but something about Monaco didn’t sit right anymore.
He was pacing.
Couldn’t sleep. Couldn’t even breathe properly.
Every time he closed his eyes, it was—
I like you.
Every time he tried to call, to text—something casual, something normal, something that would take them back to how it was—
he hit a wall.
—
Monaco was quieter at night.
Not silent never that—but softer. The kind of quiet that let thoughts get louder than they should.
Lando sat on the edge of his couch, elbows on his knees, phone in his hands, screen lighting up his face in the dim room. The windows were open, letting in the distant hum of the harbour, the occasional car passing somewhere far below.
He hadn’t turned the lights on.
Hadn’t really done much of anything since getting back.
Just… sat.
Thinking.
Overthinking.
His camera rested beside him on the couch. He scrolled through the photos for the first time since—well, since Australia. He hadn’t been able to look before. It had felt like pressing on something bruised, like it would only make it worse.
Now—
he couldn’t stop.
The same words looping over and over again like they’d carved themselves into the back of his mind.
I like you.
Lando exhaled sharply, dragging a hand down his face before unlocking his phone again.
He hesitated, then pressed call. It rang longer than he expected—long enough for doubt to creep in. Then—
“Hello?” a familiar voice came through, rough with sleep and confusion. “Do you know what time it is?”
Lando let out a breath that almost sounded like a laugh. “Yeah.”
A pause.
“…Are you dying?” Max asked.
“No.”
“Okay, good, because that’s the only acceptable reason you’re calling me at—” there was a shuffle, probably him checking his phone, “—one in the morning.”
A yawn cut through the end of it.
Lando pushed himself upright, pacing once across the living room before turning back again. Bare feet against cold floorboards.
“I think I fucked up.”
That woke him up. There was a shift on the other end, sheets moving, a quiet thud like Max sitting up.
“…Right,” Max said slowly, his voice still rough with sleep. “That’s more interesting. What did you do?”
Outside the windows, Monaco was still awake. Headlights moved along the harbour below, distant and blurred.
Lando huffed, rubbing his eyes. “I don’t know if I did anything, that’s the problem.”
“Brilliant start.” More rustling on the other end.
Lando ignored that.
“It’s just—there’s this… situation.”
Max didn’t say anything.
Which somehow made it worse.
Lando grabbed the abandoned water bottle off the coffee table, twisting the cap open just to have something to do with his hands.
“With someone,” Lando added, like that helped.
“Shocking,” Max muttered.
Lando rolled his eyes, even though he couldn’t see it.
“I’m serious.”
“I can tell. You never call me unless something’s wrong or you’re bored.”
“Thanks.”
“You’re welcome. Hang on,” more rustling. A door. Faint footsteps. “Okay. Continue.”
Lando shifted, dragging his feet up onto the couch, leaning back into the cushions.
“He—” he stopped, jaw tightening slightly. “He said he liked me.”
Max went quiet for half a second.
“…Okay.”
“That’s it?” Lando frowned. “That’s your reaction?”
That was why Max was his best friend.
No pressure. No interrogation. No immediate who the hell is that?
Just rolling with it.
“What do you want me to say? Congratulations? You’re lovable, mate.” Max sounded more awake now. Amused.
Lando scrubbed a hand over his face, already regretting making this call.
“Can you not?”
“I’m being supportive.”
“You’re being annoying.”
“Same thing.”
Lando let out a quiet breath, but it didn’t ease anything.
“He said it in Monaco,” he went on, voice quieter now. “After the race. And I didn’t—I didn’t really say anything back. Not properly.”
As he spoke, he drifted toward the kitchen fully, opening the fridge and staring into it blankly before shutting it again.
A small pause.
“And you haven’t seen him since?” Max asked, gentler now.
Lando let out a short, bitter laugh.
“I haven’t seen him since March. He’s in Australia.”
The words sounded worse out loud.
Silence. Then the quiet creak of a mattress.
“…Right,” he said, softer. “Yeah, okay.”
Lando leaned back against the counter, head tipping toward the ceiling.
“It’s not just—random.”
“…Yeah,” Max said quietly. “I figured.”
Silence settled between them for a moment.
Not awkward. Just… heavier now.
A car passed somewhere below outside, tyres hissing faintly against streets.
“And now?” Max asked.
Something clinked faintly on Max’s side. Glass maybe.
“And now it’s weird,” Lando admitted. “Not bad. Just—off. He texts, but it’s short. Calls don’t last. It’s like something shifted and I don’t know how to fix it.”
He pulled himself up onto the counter slightly this time, elbows braced against his knees.
“And you’ve tried talking to him about it?”
Lando hesitated “…No.”
Max exhaled softly.
“Of course you haven’t,” He sighed through the words, tired but unsurprised.
“I was going to,” Lando defended, sitting up slightly. “I just—didn’t know how to start that conversation without making it worse.”
“So instead you’re making it worse by doing nothing.”
“That’s not helpful.”
“It’s accurate.”
Lando groaned softly, letting his head fall back for a second.
“I don’t even know what I want,” he admitted.
That part felt heavier.More honest than anything else he’d said.
Max didn’t answer immediately this time. When he did, his voice was quieter. “Yeah, you do.”
Lando frowned slightly.
“No, I don’t.”
“Mate,” Max said, a hint of a laugh in it now, “you’re calling me in the middle of the night because a guy said he likes you and now you’re panicking because he’s pulling back.”
Lando went still.
“You know what you want.” His voice had lost most of the teasing by then.
Silence stretched.
The kind that settles instead of presses.
Lando stared at his reflection in the dark kitchen window for a second too long.
“I just—” he started, then stopped, shaking his head slightly even though Max couldn’t see it. “It’s complicated.”
“It’s really not.”
“It is.”
“You like him?”
Lando didn’t answer.
“That wasn’t rhetorical.” Max added just to clarify.
“…Yeah.”
“Great. There we go. Problem solved.”
That’s not solving anything,” Lando muttered.
“It literally is.” a quiet snort came through the speaker.
“It’s not that simple.”
Max sighed, shifting again on the other end.
“You haven’t dated anyone since Luisa, right?”
Lando blinked slightly at that. “…No.”
“Because you’ve been too busy with racing, or because you didn’t want to?”
“Both.”
Right,” Max said. “So you’ve spent, what—three years focusing on nothing but your career, and now you finally like someone and your first instinct is to panic and do absolutely nothing?”
When he put it like that—
Lando grimaced.
“I’m not panicking.”
“You called me in the middle of the night.”
“Okay, maybe a little.”
Max huffed a quiet laugh.
“Look, I’m not saying it’s not messy,” he said. “But when has that ever stopped you before?”
Lando stared down at his hands, fingers fidgeting with the sleeve of his hoodie.
“This is different.” his voice came out quieter that time. Less defensive.
“Why?”
He hesitated, jaw tightening slightly.
“Because it actually matters.”
This time, Max didn’t answer immediately. No joke. No quick comeback. The apartment went still around him after that.
Lando could hear faint movement, like he’d shifted properly awake now.
“…Then go for it,” he said eventually.
Simple.
Lando let out a quiet, disbelieving breath, pushing himself off the counter and pacing back toward the living room.
“That’s it?”
“What else do you want? A PowerPoint?”
Lando dragged a hand through his hair again.
“I want—” he stopped, shaking his head. “I don’t know.”
Max exhaled softly.
“You’re allowed to want something that isn’t racing, you know.”
Lando paused by the window, staring out at the harbour lights.
“You deserve that,” Max added, his voice softened around the edges, sleep still clinging to it. “You’ve built everything else. You don’t have to be miserable on top of it.”
Somewhere below, a motorbike tore through the street. Loud. Brief. Gone again.
Lando didn’t answer. Just leaned his shoulder against the cool glass.
Still messy.
Still complicated.
But—clearer.
“…What if it goes wrong?” he asked quietly.
“Then it goes wrong.”
Max yawned quietly after it, like the statement cost him absolutely no emotional energy.
Lando was pacing again without noticing now. He let out a short breath, something between a laugh and a sigh.
“That’s reassuring.”
“It’s realistic,” Max replied. “Doing nothing? That’s you deciding it ends badly before it even starts.”
That landed.
Lando stopped walking.
“Okay,” he said finally.
Max caught it immediately.
“Okay?”
“Yeah.” Lando tightened his grip on his phone slightly. “I’ll… do something about it.”
“Good. About time.”
Lando rolled his eyes, but there was a faint smile there now as he dropped back onto the couch.
“Go back to sleep.”
“Yeah, I will,” Max muttered. “Try not to ruin your life before morning.”
Lando could hear him settling back down properly now.
“No promises.”
“Fantastic.”
The line stayed open for a second longer.
Then—“Hey, Lando?”
“Yeah?”
A beat.
“Don’t overthink it.”
Lando huffed quietly.
“…Yeah.”
The line clicked quiet.
Lando stayed there for a second, phone still against his ear even after the call ended. The apartment felt different then.
Not fixed.
Not perfect.
But quieter.
He stared at his phone for a moment longer, thumb already moving before he could stop it.
Messages. Scrolled. Stopped.
Oscar.
His thumb hovered over the screen just for a second, before he locked the phone again.
—
The decision didn’t feel like one.
More like something that had already been made, catching up to him too late.
By the time Lando registered it, he was already in the driver’s seat, engine running, fingers tapping lightly against the wheel.
The RS6 idled low beneath him, quiet for what it was.
Not flashy. Not something that turned heads. Just… fast.
He adjusted the mirrors out of habit, eyes fixed ahead for a second longer than necessary before reaching for his phone.
No home address. That part hadn’t changed. But the shops was still there, saved in his history like it had been waiting.
Lando pulled up the navigation, jaw tightening slightly as the route appeared on the screen.
He didn’t think about it.
Didn’t give himself the time to.
Just shifted the car into gear and pulled out.
The roads stretched ahead of him, unfamiliar but easy enough to follow, the hum of the engine steady beneath him. He didn’t turn the radio on. Didn’t need the noise.
His grip tightened slightly on the wheel. The Audi moved smoothly under him—controlled, responsive. For a second, it almost felt like Oscar’s.
Lando exhaled sharply, shifting his hand on the wheel, like that thought had come too close.
The city blurred past, the light already starting to dip, the sun dragging itself lower across the horizon, stretching shadows across the road.
He didn’t slow down.
Didn’t second guess it.
If Oscar was in town he’d be there.
He was always there.
The garage wasn’t hard to find.
Half open, lights spilling out onto the pavement, the low hum of tools and voices carrying into the evening air like nothing had changed.
Lando killed the engine and stayed there for a second, hands still on the wheel.
This was stupid.
He grabbed the cap from the passenger seat, pulling it low, the mask following a second later with a quiet exhale.
It felt ridiculous.
Still not enough to risk it.
He stepped out and headed inside. The smell hit first. Oil. Rubber. Metal.
Familiar.
Grounding.
“Yeah?” a voice cut through.
Lando looked up.
Noah stood a few steps in, rag in hand, already watching him with a kind of guarded patience.
“How can I help you?”
Straight to the point.
Lando pushed the mask down slightly, suddenly aware of how this looked.
“I’m—” he hesitated, then forced it out, “I’m looking for Oscar.”
It came out awkward.
Too quick.
Noah didn’t move.
“He’s not here.”
Sharp.
Immediate.
Like he’d said it before.
Lando blinked, thrown off.
“No—no, I’m his friend,” he said even quicker, a bit too defensive. “Um—Lan? I’ve been here before. With him.”
A pause.
Noah’s eyes flicked over him again, slower this time.
The voice, name. Recognition settled in.
“…Right,” he said.
Not suspicion anymore.
Something else.
Lando shifted slightly under it.
“He’s still not here,” Noah added, tone different now. Lighter. Like he’d figured something out. “Took off earlier.”
“How long ago?” Lando asked, already tense.
Noah shrugged. “Not long. Maybe an hour.”
Too close.
“Where?”
“It’s just a local thing.” Noah exhaled, shaking his head faintly.
Another brief pause.
Not hesitation this time.
Decision.
“…Winton. Up near Benalla.”
Of course.
Track.
Race.
Lando almost laughed at the irony—illegal race, right next to a proper circuit—but it didn’t quite land. Not with his chest this tight.
He nodded once, already stepping back.
“He won’t be back tonight,” Noah added. “They’re running late.”
“Yeah,” Lando muttered. “I figured.”
He turned, hand already on the doorframe.
“Oi.”
Lando stopped.
Noah glanced over his shoulder, like it didn’t matter.
“Mokoan,” he said. “Lookout. That’s where they start.”
Lando held his gaze for a second.
Got it.
“…Yeah.”
“Does he know you’re here?”
“No.”
Noah nodded once, like that confirmed something.
Lando didn’t stay.
Out, quick steps, door, car, the Avant roared to life before the door fully shut.
Phone. Map. Route.
Mokoan.
Less than three hours.
Less if he pushed it.
He reversed too fast, corrected, then pulled out hard onto the road.
The road was empty, the car steady under him, smooth in a way that didn’t match his head. Lando kept his eyes forward, hands firm on the wheel, focusing on lines, corners, speed. Simple. Contained.
What are you even going to say?
His grip tightened, then eased. He shifted up, pushed a little harder. It doesn’t matter. If he doesn’t care, it doesn’t matter.
The city had fallen away behind him, replaced by long stretches of dark road and the occasional flash of headlights. He glanced at the map—still time.
What if you’re late?
A small correction, breath in, out, eyes back ahead.
What if he doesn’t even notice you?
That one stayed longer than the rest. Lando shook it off, jaw tightening, forcing his focus back to the road. The car held steady, predictable, almost familiar.
The numbers dropped. Forty. Twenty. Closer. Too close to turn this into something small again.
What if this was a mistake?
The road curved and he followed it cleanly, not answering, not letting himself. It doesn’t matter.
Then the dark ahead shifted—faint light, too steady to be anything else. A second later the sound followed, low and distant, engines cutting through the quiet.
Lando leaned forward slightly, grip tightening.
There.
He didn’t slow down.
He felt it before he saw it. The atmosphere shifted, the tension inside him tightening.
Lights first—too bright for nothing, cutting through the dark. Then sound. Engines, sharp and constant, echoing across open space, voices overlapping, music bleeding from somewhere in the crowd. Lando slowed just enough to turn off, gravel crunching as he pulled up at the edge.
Engine off. Door open. Already moving.
People were gathered along the rise, all looking in the same direction, pointing, talking over each other.
Lando followed their line of sight.
Below the hill—
there it was.
Three cars, too fast, too close, tearing through the dark.
He didn’t need to see the driver to know.
The line. The commitment. Late on the brakes, rotating the car just once—
clean.
But something was different.
The car.
Not the black matte he remembered.
White.
Bright.
Shiny enough to catch what little light there was, reflecting it back in flashes as it moved.
It stood out.
The cars disappeared from view for a moment, swallowed by the road.
Then—
engines climbed again.
They came back up toward the hill, fast.
Oscar in front.
One lap to go.
He watched as Oscar lined the Senna back into place, right beside a black 911. White against black. Stillness before chaos.
The crowd shifted when she stepped out—long black hair, heels too high for gravel, flag in hand.
For a second—
déjà vu.
Perth. Standing in the dark, watching the McLaren for the first time, impressed, hooked, rooting for a driver he only knew as Piastri.
Back when he didn’t know anything.
Now—
he did.
He knew his name was Oscar. Twenty-four. That everything he had, he built himself. Three younger sisters he adored, spoiled without even trying. Surfing—questionable, and he was shamelessly aware of it. Food always good, always worth it. He knew places, real ones, the kind you don’t find unless someone shows you. Knew where to find koalas like it was nothing.
He knew how he felt at night. Warm. Solid. Easy to stay next to.
And the moles—
constellations Lando had already memorised without meaning to.
The flag dropped.
The cars launched.
Lando’s focus snapped back instantly, eyes locking on one thing.
The line.
Oscar held it clean, controlled, pushing just enough, and Lando saw it—the difference, the detail no one else would clock.
Commit earlier on throttle.
There.
The exit.
No hesitation.
On the power sooner, the car snapping forward clean, gaining just enough to matter.
The engines faded down the hill, sound stretching longer than the view, and for a second Lando just stood there, breath uneven, thoughts catching up.
How did he get here?
How did one reckless night turn into this?
Something that didn’t feel optional anymore.
The cars came back into view, faster now, tighter, wheel to wheel, no space, no margin, and Lando’s focus snapped back as Oscar held it.
Still in front.
Still clean.
Still his.
Lando stepped closer to the edge without thinking.
The cars came back into view on the road down the hill, faster now, tighter, wheel to wheel, no space, no margin, and Lando’s focus snapped back to Oscar as he held it.
Still in front.
Still clean.
Still his.
Lando stepped closer to the edge without thinking.
The gap between them barely existed, speed doing the rest, both holding it longer than they should.
For a second it looked like the Porsche might edge ahead—
just enough—
Then they were gone. Swallowed by the road. The sound lingered, then thinned.
Waiting took over.
Lando didn’t move, eyes fixed on the empty stretch.
He thought about Oscar’s confidence, the way he said he didn’t really lose anymore. How proud he was of the car he built. How a loss could turn a night into something sharp, something wrong—even more with Lando there.
The engines came back first.
Climbing.
Closer.
Then the lights—
flickering as the cars pushed back up the hill into the final stretch.
Still close.
Still fighting.
The Porsche went for it again, late, aggressive—
Oscar didn’t react.
Just placed the car.
Turn in.
Clean.
Rotate once.
Earlier on the power.
The car hooked up, snapping forward, gaining just enough.
The gap opened.
Small.
Decisive.
By the time the road straightened, he was clear.
First.
The sound broke cheers, movement, people rushing forward as the cars slowed.
Lando exhaled, chest tight.
He did it.
Lando moved immediately, slipping between people, trying to keep him in sight. But the crowd got there first.
Thick. Loud. Hands everywhere, voices overlapping, bodies pressing in. Girls leaning too close, laughing, congratulating, like they belonged in his space.
Lando pushed forward anyway.
“—sorry—” he muttered, shoulder knocking past someone.
No gap.
“Oscar!” he called.
Nothing.
Too loud.
He tried again, louder. “Oscar!”
The crowd shifted, closing again.
Lando exhaled sharply, pulling his phone out, thumb already moving—“Sorry,” someone said, bumping into him.
He barely reacted, grip tightening on his phone as he typed faster, trying to see past the bodies, trying to catch a glimpse of Oscar—if he’d seen it, if he’d even reached for his phone.
But Oscar wasn’t looking.
Leaning against the car, talking to someone like nothing else existed.
“Osc!” Lando tried again, sharper now, something breaking through.
That one landed.
Oscar looked up.
Straight at him.
Lando didn’t hesitate, pushing through the crowd, eyes locked as Oscar said something to the person beside him, then pushed himself off the car.
Slow.
Measured.
Like he didn’t quite trust it. Like he didn’t believe Lando was actually there.
The crowd shifted before he even reached them, parting without being asked, making space for him.
Respect.
For a second—
nothing moved.
The noise was still there, loud, messy, people talking, laughing, engines ticking as they cooled—
but it all felt distant.
Lando stopped.
Just short of him. Close enough now. Too close to pretend this wasn’t real. Oscar didn’t say anything. Didn’t move closer either. He just looked at him, like he was trying to figure it out. Like he didn’t trust what he was seeing.
Lando swallowed, breath uneven, hand still wrapped tight around his phone like he’d forgotten it was there.
“I—”
He stopped.
Not that.
Not here.
Instead he stepped forward no hesitation.
Hands catching Oscar’s shirt, pulling him in before he could think, like he might disappear if he didn’t.
Not careful.
Not gentle.
Just there.
Oscar went still.
For a beat—nothing.
Then his hand came to Lando’s side, slow, grounding. The other followed, resting against the back of his head, hesitant for a second before settling.
Lando pressed in, cheek against his chest, breath uneven, grip too tight to be casual.
Oscar didn’t pull him closer. Didn’t push him away. Just stayed there.
They stayed like that a second too long. Long enough for people to notice. Long enough for it to mean something. And still—neither of them moved.
Oscar pulled back first.
Not harsh. Not sudden.
His hand came up, palm resting against Lando’s mask-covered cheek for just a second.
“You shouldn’t be here.”
Lando just looked at him.
No answer.
No idea what the right one even was.
Oscar didn’t say anything else.
Just took his wrist, firm but not rough, guiding him through the crowd toward the Senna. The people moved without question, space opening for him again.
He opened the passenger door.
Lando didn’t argue. Just got in, pulling the seatbelt across his chest with slightly unsteady hands.
Oscar walked around the car in silence, got in, started the engine. Still nothing.
He pulled away smoothly, like this was just another drive.
The silence wasn’t awkward. Just—charged.
Lando sat still, hands in his lap, not trusting his voice.
“Where are we going?” he asked eventually, quieter than he meant to.
“Home.”
Simple.
Final.
Lando swallowed. “I—” He took a shaky breath. “We can’t. I left a car there.”
Oscar glanced at him briefly.
Sharp.
Unreadable.
“I’ll take care of it in the morning.”
That was it. No explanation. No discussion. Just fact.
The road stretched out in darkness, headlights cutting a narrow path through it. Neither of them spoke.
Lando sat still, mask and cap off in the privacy of the car, eyes fixed on the darkness outside, replaying everything—Monaco, the call he didn’t make, the look on Oscar’s face just now. He didn’t know what to say. Didn’t know if saying anything would make it better or worse.
Oscar just drove.
Steady. Focused. Like this was simple.
Like it wasn’t.
Lando tried not to make a fuss. Maybe if he stayed quiet, stayed still, Oscar would cool down from—whatever this was.
He yawned, jet lag catching up to him, but there was no chance he’d fall asleep. Not now. Not with his mind running like this.
Maybe he’d read it all wrong. Maybe Oscar didn’t feel the same after all. Or maybe he’d been too impulsive, flying to Australia without saying anything first. Showing up like that—alone, unannounced, in a place he didn’t know—had been stupid.
He didn’t dare look at him.
Afraid he’d see something he couldn’t ignore.
The tension sat heavy between them, thick enough to feel.
Lando swallowed, staring ahead, chest tight.
He’d wanted to fix it.
Instead it felt like he’d just ruined the best thing he had.
They arrived in Melbourne just around four in the morning.
When the door closed behind them, there was a small pause. Neither of them said anything, the quiet swallowing them whole, broken only by the sound of shoes slipping off and things being dropped in different places.
Oscar flicked the light on, and Lando was taken aback. The flat was a mess—still in better shape than his own, but nothing like the tidy space he’d seen back in March.
He didn’t comment on it. This wasn’t the time. Things were tense enough.
Just like in the car, neither of them spoke. Not when Oscar handed him a set of comfortable clothes to change into, not when he disappeared into the bathroom. The awful stillness of the flat was filled only by the sound of running water.
Lando was still in the living room by the time Oscar came out, changed, hair slightly damp. The Brit stood there awkwardly, like he didn’t quite know what to do with himself—like stepping into the bedroom on his own would be crossing some unspoken line.
“Let’s go to sleep,” the Aussie finally said, already moving, pushing the bedroom door open.
The room was slightly less messy. Only a few pieces of clothing scattered across the floor.
Oscar climbed into bed like it was nothing, like this was normal, like he expected Lando to follow.
But Lando just stayed where he was, lingering in the doorway.
“Lan, please.”
“No.” His voice was shaky as he said it. “We should talk.”
“Lando, please. It’s the middle of the night. We’ll talk in the morning.” Oscar’s tone was firm, even if there was something softer underneath.
“No.” The Brit echoed, steadier this time. “You live for adrenaline, but suddenly I’m where you draw the line?”
That made Oscar sit up properly.
“You act all caring and lovely—treating me like I’m something precious, taking me on road trips, showing me koalas, teaching me how to surf, cuddling me, kissing my fucking forehead—” Lando’s voice was already breaking, tears gathering too fast. “—just to barely talk to me for the next months.”
“Lan—” Oscar tried, but he was cut off again.
“Then you drop that stupid line on me, and I don’t even know what it means, because you don’t act like you want anything more than a friendship.”
“What was I supposed to do? You were leaving.” Oscar’s voice stayed calm, in sharp contrast to Lando’s “I couldn’t ask you to stay”
“Then don’t tell me you like me if you don’t mean it.”
“Of course I meant it.” Oscar stood, taking a few careful steps closer.
“Then why are you acting like this?” he snapped. “Like me showing up here is some kind of problem for you?”
Oscar stilled.
“You’ve been cold all night,” Lando continued, voice cracking harder now. “Like I’m bothering you. Like this—” he gestured vaguely between them “—is something you need to deal with instead of something you actually want.”
Silence hit the room for half a second.
Then—
“That’s the problem.”
“Me liking you?” he asked, genuinely thrown.
“Yes—because I’m fucking in love with you.” Lando’s voice cracked on it, louder now, like he couldn’t hold it in anymore. “And you were just fine with me leaving, acting all casual, never having time for me—”
Something in Oscar’s head snapped.
He didn’t hear the rest. He didn’t need to.
He closed the distance in two quick steps, one hand coming up to Lando’s waist, the other cupping his jaw steady, sure—and kissed him.
It wasn’t soft—quite the opposite. It was messy, a collision, teeth clashing as Lando was still mid-sentence.
The Brit tensed for half a second before leaning in, like he’d been waiting for it just as much as Oscar had.
The younger pulled back just enough to look at him, breath uneven now, something sharper in his eyes.
“Say that again.”
“What?” Lando blinked, still catching up.
“What you just said.”
A beat.
Lando searched his face, like he needed to be sure this wasn’t about to disappear.
“I’m in love with you.”
Oscar inhaled sharply.
For a second he didn’t say anything.
Didn’t move.
Like the words had landed somewhere he wasn’t ready for.
“—fuck,” he muttered under his breath, more to himself than to Lando.
His hand tightened slightly at Lando’s waist.
“You don’t just—” he stopped, jaw tightening, eyes flicking away for a second before snapping back. “You don’t just show up here and say that like it doesn’t—”
He cut himself off.
Because it did.
It changed everything.
Lando’s chest tightened. “Then say something.”
Oscar let out a breath, frustrated, almost overwhelmed.
They just looked at each other for a second—too close, too aware.
Oscar’s hands were still on him.
Still grounding.
Still there.
“You think I was fine with you leaving?” Oscar said, voice lower now. “You think that was easy?”
Lando didn’t answer, he know how.
Oscar huffed out something that almost sounded like a laugh, but there was nothing light about it.
“I didn’t say anything because if I did—” he stopped again, shaking his head slightly. “I’d hold you back.”
“And what about now?” Lando asked, quieter.
That—
that was the question.
Oscar held his gaze.
Didn’t look away this time.
His hand shifted slightly, thumb brushing along Lando’s jaw without thinking.
“Now you’re here,” he said.
Not an answer.
Not really.
But not nothing either.
“You don’t have to say it back.” Lando’s voice was steady—too steady for how much it cost him.
For a moment neither of them moved, just staring at each other, the silence suddenly thick enough to choke on.
“There’s no coming back from that,” Oscar said.
Not a warning. A fact.
Like he was giving Lando one last chance to change his mind.
Lando didn’t hesitate.
“I don’t want to go back.”
The Aussie looked into his eyes for a long moment, searching for any hesitation, anything that would tell him Lando wasn’t sure, that this was a mistake.
But there was nothing.
Just calm.
Hope.
Oscar’s grip at his hip loosened—not to pull away, just softer now. His other hand came up again, brushing over Lando’s cheek, surer this time.
“I love you.” His voice was calm nothing like the fire underneath it.
“—fuck—”
He didn’t get to finish.
Lando closed the distance first.
Their lips collided again—no hesitation this time.
Everything they hadn’t said, everything they’d been holding back, poured into it at once. It deepened quickly, messy, desperate, like neither of them quite knew where to stop.
Lando’s grip tightened in Oscar’s shirt, breath uneven, body softening against his like he’d finally let go of something.
Oscar didn’t think about it.
Didn’t slow down.
His hands found Lando’s hips, pulling him closer, lifting him without breaking the kiss. Lando’s legs wrapped around him instinctively, fingers sliding into his hair, holding on just as tightly.
They moved together without really deciding to, back toward the bed, steps uneven, rushed.
Oscar sat down, steadying him, hands still firm at his sides, like he didn’t trust himself to let go yet.
The kiss broke—
but only just.
His lips moved lower, slower now, along Lando’s jaw, down the line of his neck, each touch more deliberate, less frantic but no less intense.
Lando exhaled sharply, head tipping back, hands tightening in his hair.
Everything about it felt— too much.
In the best way.
Lando’s hips rolled with deliberate slowness, pressing the hard line of his cock against Oscar through the thin fabric of their clothes. The friction dragged a sharp, broken hiss from Oscar’s throat as Lando’s firm ass ground back against him in return.
“Easy, baby,” Oscar whispered, voice low and rough, lips brushing just below Lando’s ear.
Lando answered with a soft, needy moan, his hips continuing that torturous rhythm, sending sparks racing up Oscar’s spine.
“Fuck, Lan—”
“No,” Lando whined instantly, arching into the touch. “Don’t call me that.”
Oscar’s lips curved into a smirk against his skin. His hands settled firmly on Lando’s hips, holding him steady without forcing him still. “Then what should I call you?”
“Osc, please…” The plea dissolved into another desperate whine as Lando’s fingers tightened in Oscar’s hair.
Oscar hummed softly, pressing a feather-light kiss to the sensitive spot beneath his ear. “Baby, stop. We don’t have to rush this.”
“No.” Lando’s breath came faster, chest heaving. “I’ve waited long enough.”
Oscar stilled for a second.
Not pulling away.
Not giving in either.
Just looking at him.
Really looking.
“I know,” he murmured, voice gentle but honest.
Lando’s breath hitched, dark eyes flickering with something raw and vulnerable. “Then don’t stop,” he whispered, voice dropping into a low, certain plea. “Please.”
Oscar’s hesitation lasted only a heartbeat.
His grip tightening just enough to ground them both. “Baby… if we keep going, I won’t be able to hold back.”
Lando’s answer was immediate and fierce. “Good.”
The Brit surged up first, crashing their mouths together in a deep, demanding kiss.
That was all it took.
Oscar’s control slipped.
In one swift motion he flipped Lando onto his back, the Brit landing with a soft bounce against the mattress. Lando stared up at him, eyes blown wide and dark, chest rising and falling rapidly, lips already swollen. He looked wrecked, and they’d barely started.
Oscar paused.
Just for a second.
Drinking in the sight.
Lando spread out on his bed, flushed and breathless, still half-dressed in clothes that belonged to Oscar. This beautiful, stubborn, incredible man offering himself up so completely.
Then the hunger took over.
Oscar grabbed the hem of Lando’s shirt and yanked it upward, tossing it aside. He descended like a man starved, mouth hot and urgent against every inch of newly exposed skin. He kissed down Lando’s neck, across his collarbones, over the firm planes of his chest, and lower still—tracing the defined ridges of his stomach with lips, tongue, and teeth, as if he could memorise the shape of him through touch alone.
Lando arched beneath him, a broken moan spilling from his lips, fingers tangling tighter in his hair.
Oscar didn’t rush.
Even when Lando did.
Every reaction—he noticed.
Adjusted.
Stayed with him.
He could feel the hard line of Lando’s cock pressing insistently against his stomach, throbbing with every heartbeat, begging for attention.
The Brit’s fingers tugged desperately at the hem of Oscar’s shirt, silently pleading for him to take it off, but Oscar ignored it for now. He was too lost in the man beneath him—too focused on drawing out every soft sound, every shiver, every sigh.
His lips trailed lower, slow and deliberate, kissing down the centre of Lando’s chest, over the taut muscles of his abdomen, savouring the way Lando’s skin flushed hotter under his touch.
When he reached the waistband, he stopped.
Looked up.
Their eyes met.
Lando’s face was pure bliss—lips parted, cheeks flushed deep pink, eyes heavy-lidded and dark with want. No words were needed. That expression told Oscar everything.
With a low, reverent breath, Oscar hooked his fingers into both the sweats and boxers at once and dragged them down Lando’s hips in one smooth motion, freeing his cock. It sprang up against his stomach, flushed and leaking at the tip.
Oscar’s gaze drank him in, slow and hungry.
He leaned in and pressed a soft, open-mouthed kiss just above the base of Lando’s cock, then another slightly higher, teasingly close but not quite where Lando needed him most. Lando’s hips twitched, a needy whine escaping his throat as his fingers threaded tighter into Oscar’s hair.
“Osc…” The name came out shaky, full of love and desperation.
“I’ve got you,” he said quietly.
Then finally—
gave in.
His mouth closing around him, slower than Lando wanted, but steady, controlled. One hand anchoring his hip, the other following where his mouth didn’t.
He didn’t rush it.
Kept him right there—
hovering.
Until Lando’s reactions got sharper, more desperate.
Then he pulled back.
A quiet exhale.
“Patience, baby,” Oscar murmured, voice rough but gentle, pressing a soothing kiss to the inside of Lando’s thigh.
Lando let out a frustrated whine, hips twitching, but his eyes were soft and full of trust. Oscar kissed his way back up Lando’s body until they were face to face again. He brushed curls from Lando’s forehead, thumb stroking his cheek with quiet affection.
“Hey…” Oscar said softly, voice low and warm. “What do you need?”
Lando blinked, still breathing hard, a flicker of shyness crossing his flushed face. “I… I want you to um…” he whispered. “If that’s okay.”
Oscar felt his breath catch a little at the way Lando asked it. He cupped Lando’s face with both hands and kissed him slow and deep, pouring every bit of love into it. “Whatever you want, baby.“
“Just— go slow please?” Oscar’s heart squeezed at how small and vulnerable he sounded. He cupped Lando’s cheek, thumb stroking tenderly.
Oscar didn’t interrupt.
Just watched him.
Eyes soft.
Waited.
Lando’s cheeks burned darker. “I’m not a virgin. It’s just… been a while.”
“How long?”
Lando’s voice was barely audible. “Before I met you.”
The confession hit Oscar like a wave. The thought that Lando hadn’t wanted anyone else since the moment they met — that he’d been waiting for him — made something deep and possessive bloom in his chest, wrapped in pure tenderness.
Oscar’s breath caught in his lungs for a second. He kissed him deeply, warm and consuming, until Lando forgot what he’d even been nervous about.
When he pulled back, his eyes were dark with hunger and devotion.
Oscar took his time preparing him.
He slicked his fingers generously and worked Lando open with patient, thorough care — one finger first, then two, scissoring gently while observing him closely.
When Lando started pushing back instead of pulling away—
Oscar’s hand tightened slightly.
He lowered his head further, spreading his cheeks and pressing his tongue flat against that tight, sensitive ring.
Lando cried out sharply, back arching off the bed. “Osc— oh my god—”
Oscar ate him out with the same selfless devotion, tongue circling and dipping inside, humming in quiet pleasure at every broken moan and tremor.
“Osc please.” Lando cried underneath him.
He only stopped when Lando was shaking, hole fluttering greedily and slick with spit and lube.
Oscar finally pulled his own clothes off, tossing them carelessly onto the floor before reaching for the bottle again.
Lando watched him squeeze out what looked like the last of it and let out a breathless, slightly shaky laugh, trying to sound casual through the heat still burning under his skin. “Jesus… you go through that stuff fast, huh?”
Oscar glanced up briefly, completely unaware of the jealousy hidden underneath the joke.
“I’ve been jerking off like crazy because of you.”
The words landed with embarrassing ease. Like it was the most obvious thing in the world.
Lando stared at him for a second, face instantly burning hotter.
“Oh.”
A quiet smile tugged at Oscar’s mouth then, softer this time as he leaned back over him.
“Yeah,” he murmured, pressing another slow kiss against his lips. “You’ve been ruining me a bit.”
The atmosphere eased up. Lando’s shy embarrassment melted away, replaced by something deeper, more intimate.
Oscar reached toward the nightstand after a moment, fingers brushing over a pack of condoms before pulling one out automatically.
Lando watched him for a second.
Then gently caught his wrist.
Oscar paused immediately, eyes flicking back to his face.
“You sure?” he asked quietly.
Lando nodded, slow but certain, eyes still glassy and trusting. “I want you.”
Oscar took his time slicking his cock, coating every inch until it glistened. He settled between Lando’s spread thighs, one hand gently stroking the inside of Lando’s leg as he lined himself up.
The blunt head of his cock pressed against Lando’s slick, fluttering hole, but he didn’t push in right away. Instead, he rocked forward just enough to tease, letting Lando feel the pressure without breaching him yet.
He pushed in slowly, so slowly, inch by careful inch. The tight heat of Lando’s body enveloped him gradually, squeezing around the head of his cock before yielding further. Oscar watched every micro-expression flicker across Lando’s face — the way his brows drew together, the soft parting of his lips, the flutter of his lashes.
“Fuck… Osc,” Lando gasped, hands flying up to grip Oscar’s shoulders tightly. His body tensed for a heartbeat, breath catching.
Oscar froze immediately, buried only halfway. One hand stroked soothing circles over Lando’s hip while the other brushed damp curls back from his forehead. “You’re doing so well.”
They stayed like that for long moments, Oscar holding perfectly still inside him, letting him adjust.
He leaned down to press gentle kisses along Lando’s jaw, his neck, the sensitive spot just below his ear.
Eventually Lando’s shoulders loosened. A tiny, experimental roll of his hips followed, testing the stretch. Oscar felt the shift and smiled against his skin.
“More,” Lando whispered, voice shaky but certain.
Oscar gave it to him slow, shallow thrusts at first, barely pulling out before sliding back in deeper each time. He kept his weight braced on one forearm so he could watch Lando’s face the entire time, cataloguing every hitch of breath, every flutter of eyelids, every soft moan that spilled from his lips.
Lando whimpered, legs wrapping tighter around Oscar’s waist, pulling him deeper. The new angle made Oscar brush against that sensitive spot inside him, drawing a sharp, broken cry from Lando’s throat.
“There?” Oscar asked, repeating the motion with careful precision.
“Yes— fuck, yes,” Lando moaned, nails digging into Oscar’s shoulders. “Don’t stop…”
Oscar didn’t. He kept the rhythm steady and deep, grinding against Lando’s prostate with every measured thrust. His free hand wrapped around Lando’s neglected cock, stroking him in perfect time — long, slick pulls that matched the roll of his hips. Pre-come leaked steadily over his fingers, making the glide smoother, filthier.
He varied the pace just enough to keep Lando on edge without tipping him over: slow, languid rolls of his hips when Lando started trembling too hard, then slightly firmer, deeper strokes when Lando begged for it with wordless whines.
Oscar’s mouth never left Lando’s skin for long. He kissed his way across Lando’s chest, sucking lightly at one nipple until it pebbled under his tongue, then moving to the other. He traced the line of Lando’s collarbone with his teeth, then soothed the mark with his lips. Every touch was deliberate, worshipful.
Oscar breathed against his sternum, voice thick. “…fuck.”
Lando’s moans grew louder, more desperate. His hips started meeting Oscar’s thrusts, chasing the pleasure. Oscar could feel him clenching rhythmically around his cock, getting closer with every stroke.
“Osc— I’m… I’m close,” Lando panted, eyes squeezing shut.
Oscar’s hand sped up just a fraction on Lando’s cock while his thrusts stayed deep and consistent, hitting that perfect spot over and over. “Let go, baby.”
The words tipped Lando over the edge.
His back arched sharply off the bed, a strangled cry tearing from his throat as his orgasm crashed through him. His hole clenched tight around Oscar’s cock in pulsing waves, and he spilled hot and messy over Oscar’s fist, across his own stomach and chest. Oscar worked him through every shudder, stroking him gently, murmuring soft words of encouragement until Lando was trembling and boneless beneath him.
Only when Lando’s breathing started to even out did Oscar finally let himself chase his own release. He buried his face in the crook of Lando’s neck, hips snapping forward a little faster, a little deeper, until pleasure coiled tight and snapped. He came with a low, shuddering groan, pulsing deep inside Lando’s body, filling him with warm spurts.
For a long moment afterward, Oscar stayed buried to the hilt, both of them breathing hard, skin slick with sweat. He pressed soft, lazy kisses to Lando’s temple, his cheek, the corner of his swollen lips quiet, reverent touches while he waited for Lando to come back down to earth.
When Lando finally hummed contentedly and nuzzled closer, Oscar smiled against his hair. He eased out of him slowly and carefully, mindful of how sensitive he still was.
“Don’t go,” Lando whined softly, reaching out.
“I’m not going far,” Oscar chuckled, pressing a quick kiss to his forehead. “Just getting something to clean us up, baby.”
He slipped out of bed for only a moment, grabbing a soft towel and a bottle of water. When he returned, he settled back beside Lando and wiped him down with gentle strokes — first his stomach and chest, then carefully between his legs.
Slowing every time Lando twitched from overstimulation and kissing the spot.
Once they were both clean, Oscar helped Lando take a few sips of water, then pulled him close again. Lando melted into his chest immediately, one leg sliding between Oscar’s as he tucked his face into the crook of his neck.
“Better?” Oscar asked quietly, fingers threading gently through Lando’s curls.
Lando nodded against his skin, letting out a contented sigh. “Yeah… much better.”
Oscar smiled, pressing one last soft kiss to the top of his head. “Good. Get some rest.”
They stayed tangled together like that, breathing slow and steady, the quiet warmth of the room wrapping around them.
Notes:
Did y’all think it’ll be more suffering and miscommunication and angst? Nope, we’re getting into our FLUFF ERA (mostly).
LANDO FINALLY GREW A PAIR YAAAAY.
I’m so excited for everyone to finally read it omg, I love it so much I’m so happy I could cry.
Thank you for trusting me and bearing with me throught the in between 🫶😭🫶
Chapter 22: Checkered flag
Notes:
Had such an busy weekend at work I’m actually dead 🫠
Also updates will be a bit slower for a while, twice a week probably because I just started to glue rhinestones on my jacket and it’s such a pain 😭
I’m going to the GP in two months and I’m such a mess 😂
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Lando woke up to an empty bed.
For a split second, something in his chest tightened—sharp, instinctive then settled just as quickly.
Typical Oscar.
He shifted slightly and immediately felt it.
A dull ache, low and unmistakable, pulling a quiet breath from him as he stilled for a second, blinking up at the ceiling.
…right.
Heat crept up his neck, a mix of embarrassment and something softer, something that made his chest feel too full instead of tense.
Last night.
The race.
The drive.
The argument.
The kiss.
The I love you.
His stomach flipped slightly not bad. Just… a lot.
But it still felt a little unreal, like his brain hadn’t fully processed it yet. Like if he didn’t look too closely, it would stay soft around the edges.
The smell reached him before anything else.
Food.
Lando frowned slightly, then huffed out a quiet breath, already swinging his legs off the bed.
He dragged a hand over his face, exhaling slowly, then pushed himself up more carefully this time, movements slower, more deliberate as his body reminded him exactly how little rest he’d actually gotten.
The flat was brighter than last night, early morning light slipping through the windows, catching on everything in a way that made it feel more real than he was quite ready for.
He followed the sound.
And there he was.
Oscar stood at the stove, back turned, focused on whatever was in the pan, movements easy, automatic. Like this was normal. Like mornings like this happened all the time.
Lando paused in the doorway for half a second.
Just looking.
Taking it in.
Being here. In Oscar’s space. With the Aussie doing something as simple as cooking, like nothing had changed.
Like everything hadn’t.
Something in Lando’s chest softened. Before he could think about it, he moved. Crossed the space quietly and slipped his arms around Oscar from behind, pressing himself in, cheek brushing against his shoulder as he tucked himself close.
Oscar stilled for the briefest moment.
Then let out a quiet breath “A bit clingy this morning, aren’t you?”
There it was. That light, familiar tone. So normal it almost made Lando’s chest ache.
He pulled back slightly, just enough to frown, heat creeping up his neck. “I just—” he muttered, suddenly defensive. “Wanted some attention from my boyfriend.”
The word slipped out before he could stop it.
Boyfriend.
It hung there.
Too real.
Too easy.
Lando’s stomach flipped again, sharper this time. He let go almost immediately. “Forget it—”
Oscar moved faster.
The heat under the pan clicked down without him even looking, his hand already catching Lando’s wrist before he could step away.
“Hey—”
He pulled him back in, not rough, just firm, like he wasn’t giving him the option to disappear into that.
Lando barely had time to react before Oscar turned properly, guiding him back until he was pressed lightly against the table.
“Don’t do that,” Oscar said, quieter now.
And then he lifted him—just enough to sit him up on the table, hands steady at his sides, keeping him there. Right where he wanted him. Then he leaned in and kissed him. It wasn’t gentle. Not really.
It landed firm, certain, like Oscar had already decided this was happening and Lando didn’t get a say in stopping it.
Lando’s breath caught immediately, hands coming up on instinct, grabbing at the front of Oscar’s shirt like he needed something to hold onto. The kiss deepened fast, not messy like last night, but heavier—slower, controlled in a way that made it hit harder.
Oscar’s hands stayed at his sides at first, steady, keeping him in place on the counter, thumbs pressing just enough to ground him there.
Lando leaned into it without thinking.
Chasing.
Always chasing.
“Osc—” he breathed against his mouth, barely pulling back before Oscar followed, cutting him off with another kiss, deeper this time, lips parting, taking his time like he wasn’t in any rush to get anywhere else.
Lando made a small sound half surprised, half relieved—fingers tightening in his shirt.
“Osc breakfast,” he muttered, words slipping out between kisses.
Oscar huffed quietly against his mouth. “Can wait.”
“You’re impossible,” he muttered, already leaning back into him.
That earned him something softer, barely there—a breath of a laugh that disappeared the second Oscar kissed him again.
This time slower.
More deliberate.
Like he was choosing every second of it.
Lando shifted on the table, pulling him closer, knees brushing against Oscar’s sides, trying to close the space that somehow still existed between them.
Oscar let him.
For a second.
Then his hands moved—firmer now sliding from Lando’s sides to his hips, pulling him right to the edge, eliminating whatever distance was left.
The change pulled a sharper reaction out of Lando, his breath catching as he leaned forward, completely giving up on pretending he wanted to stop this.
“Osc—” he tried again, but it came out weaker this time, less like a protest, more like a warning he didn’t actually mean.
Oscar didn’t answer.
Just shifted his mouth from Lando’s lips to his jaw instead, slower now, dragging the kiss along his skin, down to his neck, where he lingered just long enough to feel the reaction it pulled from him.
Lando’s head tipped back slightly, a quiet breath escaping before he could stop it, fingers tightening again in Oscar’s hair.
“Oscar.” The name came out half-protest, half-plea. He wasn’t even sure what he was asking for anymore.
“Shh…” Oscar’s voice dropped low against his ear, warm and steady. “What kind of boyfriend would I be if I didn’t make sure you were taken care of first?”
The word boyfriend landed soft but heavy. Lando’s stomach flipped again — that same mix of too much and not enough.
Oscar didn’t wait for an answer.
He kissed down Lando’s neck once more, slow and deliberate, then lower across his collarbone, over the centre of his chest. His hands stayed firm on Lando’s hips, keeping him right on the edge of the table, grounded.
Lando’s breath hitched when Oscar’s mouth moved further down not just from the touch, but from how easy this felt now. Like nothing was in the way anymore.
The younger traced the line of his stomach. Lando’s legs parted instinctively — like his body had already decided before he could think about it.
Knees pressing against Oscar’s sides as he tried to pull him closer.
“Osc…” It came out shaky, needy — and he hated how little control he had over it, loved how easily Oscar pulled it out of him.
His hand slid into Oscar’s hair again, not pushing, just holding on.
Oscar paused, lips brushing just above the waistband of the loose shorts Lando had pulled on. He looked up — eyes dark, steady, watching every flicker across Lando’s face.
Lando’s cheeks burned.
He felt exposed like this — not just physically, but in a way that had nothing to do with being half-dressed and everything to do with how much Oscar could see.
Oscar didn’t say anything.
He simply hooked his fingers into the waistband and eased the shorts down, letting them drop to the floor. Then he leaned in and pressed a slow, open-mouthed kiss to the inside of Lando’s thigh, then higher.
When Oscar’s tongue finally pressed flat and warm against him, Lando’s whole body jolted. A broken sound slipped out, his back arching as his fingers tightened in Oscar’s hair.
Oscar hummed quietly — the vibration low and steady and took his time. His tongue moved with deliberate care, circling, pressing, exploring.
One hand stayed anchored on Lando’s hip, holding him steady. The other slid up, wrapping around Lando’s cock with a slow, firm stroke.
Lando gasped sharply, hips twitching between the dual sensations — Oscar’s tongue working him open and his hand stroking him in the same unhurried rhythm.
“Osc— fuck—” Lando’s voice cracked, head falling back. His free hand gripped the edge of the table, knuckles whitening.
The ache from last night mixed with the new heat, a reminder of everything that had changed like his body hadn’t caught up with it either.
Oscar didn’t rush.
He kept the pace measured, tongue dipping inside while his hand stroked long and steady, thumb occasionally brushing over the head to spread the slickness.
Every time Lando tried to chase the feeling — hips pushing forward Oscar’s grip on his hip tightened just enough to hold him in place, grounding him.
Lando was trembling now, thighs shaking on either side of Oscar’s head. Soft whines and broken gasps spilled out of him as the sensations built, slow and deep. Oscar noticed every reaction — and adjusted without being asked.
He eased off when Lando’s breath hitched too sharply, pressed firmer when the sounds turned needier.
“Oscar…” Lando gasped again, voice thinner, almost overwhelmed. “I— I can’t—”
Oscar hummed once more against him, the sound warm and reassuring. His hand kept its steady rhythm while his tongue worked deeper, relentless in its quiet focus.
It built slower than he expected.
Deeper.
Not sharp.
Not rushed.
Just overwhelming in a way that made his chest tighten along with everything else.
He came with a choked moan, body arching tight, thighs clamping around Oscar’s head as he pulsed over Oscar’s fist and across his own stomach.
Oscar stayed with him through every shudder tongue gentling, hand stroking him through the aftershocks until Lando was trembling and spent, breath coming in ragged gasps.
Only then did Oscar pull back. He pressed one last soft kiss to the inside of Lando’s thigh before rising to his feet.
He wiped his mouth with the back of his hand, then looked at Lando really looked — taking in the flushed cheeks, the glassy eyes, the way Lando was still gripping the table like it was the only thing keeping him upright.
Oscar stepped between Lando’s legs again, one hand coming up to cup the back of his neck, thumb stroking gently.
Lando leaned forward on instinct, forehead dropping to Oscar’s shoulder, breathing hard against his shirt.
Oscar held him there, steady and quiet, letting him come down.
After a long moment, Oscar’s voice came low, barely above a whisper against Lando’s hair.
“Breakfast’s getting cold.”
Lando let out a weak, breathless laugh, still half-hidden against Oscar’s shoulder. “Shut up.”
Oscar’s mouth curved into the faintest smile. His hand kept stroking the back of Lando’s neck, slow and soothing.
They stayed like that for another quiet minute — Lando catching his breath, Oscar grounding him with nothing but his solid presence and the gentle rhythm of his touch.
Oscar didn’t let him go far.
The second Lando’s weight tipped forward properly, one arm was already steady around his back, the other under his thighs without much effort.
“Easy,” he murmured, more instinct than instruction.
Lando made a quiet sound in protest, something half-formed and lazy, but didn’t fight it. If anything, he leaned into him more, head tucked against his shoulder like that was where it belonged now.
Oscar carried him back to the bedroom without a word.
Set him down carefully on the bed, slower this time, like he was making sure Lando was actually settled before letting go.
“Stay,” he said quietly, already reaching for the towel from the side.
Lando huffed softly. “Wasn’t planning on running anywhere.”
Oscar didn’t react but his lips twitched as he focused, movements efficient but gentle as he wiped him down, slower around the parts he knew would be sensitive. Every time Lando shifted, even slightly, Oscar’s touch got gentler without comment.
It wasn’t awkward.
Didn’t feel like something new.
Just… taken care of.
When he was done, Oscar leaned down briefly, pressing a quick, absent-minded kiss to his shoulder.
“I’ll be back in a second,” he said. “Don’t fall asleep.”
Lando let out a quiet breath of a laugh. “No promises.”
Oscar’s mouth twitched.
“I made breakfast,” he added, like that explained everything. “We’ll eat first. Shower after.”
Practical.
Of course.
Lando nodded, even if Oscar was already turning away.
“Okay.”
Oscar hesitated for half a second—like he wanted to say something else—then didn’t. Just left.
The room went quiet, softer than before. Lando stared at the ceiling, breath still uneven, body heavy against the sheets. Everything felt like too much. In the best way.
His chest tightened slightly as it all started settling—the race, the argument, the way everything had shifted overnight.
Nothing was going back to how it was anymore. And he didn’t want it to. The word slipped out before he could stop it.
Boyfriend.
It still felt big, but not wrong.
The door opened before he could think about it any further.
Lando pulled up on his elbows, blinking toward the sound.
Oscar stepped back in, balancing a tray like this was the most normal thing in the world.
“Still awake,” he noted, setting it down carefully on the bed.
“Barely,” Lando muttered, pushing himself up a bit, slower this time.
Oscar didn’t comment on that either—just adjusted the pillows behind him without asking, making sure he was actually comfortable before handing him a plate.
“Eat.”
Lando looked at it, then at him. “Bossy.”
“You’re welcome.”
That got a small smile out of him.
They ate like that for a minute.
Quiet not awkward, not tense—just… different. The kind of quiet that wasn’t empty, just waiting.
Lando could feel it sitting there between them—unsaid, inevitable. Oscar noticed too. Of course he did. He always did.
He set his fork down first. Didn’t look away. “We should talk.”
There it was.
Lando’s stomach dropped, just a fraction.
“Now you want to talk?” he huffed lightly, something nervous slipping through despite the attempt at a joke.
“Lan.” Soft. Not quite a warning, but enough. The air shifted. Neither of them rushed it.
Oscar leaned back slightly, one arm resting along the edge of the bed, fingers tapping once against the fabric like he was choosing his words carefully—
but Lando moved first.
“I’m not—” he started, then stopped, shaking his head slightly like he was correcting himself mid-thought. “I’m not going back to how it was.”
Oscar’s jaw tightened, just a fraction, then eased again.
“Good,” he said.
Because neither was he.
Oscar didn’t look away.
“But I need you to know something first,” he said, voice calm, steady—too steady for how much sat underneath it.
Lando stilled slightly, something in his chest tightening. “Okay…”
Oscar exhaled quietly, fingers tapping once against the mattress before going still.
“It might affect your life if it gets out,” he said. “I want you to hear it from me first.”
A pause settled between them. Not dramatic. Just honest.
Lando huffed a small breath, eyes dropping for a second before coming back to him. “The racing… it— it’s not gonna scare me off. It hasn’t yet.”
That got the faintest flicker out of Oscar, gone just as quickly but his shoulders eased—barely. “It’s not the biggest thing.”
That landed differently.
Lando frowned slightly. “Then what is?”
Oscar held his gaze a second longer this time, like he was checking something—making sure Lando wasn’t going to pull away halfway through this.
“My dad owns a company,” he said. “A big one.”
A beat.
“Money was never really an issue for me back then. Not in the usual way.”
Lando blinked, thrown off just enough for it to show. “Okay…”
“I was racing properly,” Oscar continued, tone even, controlled. “Karting, moving up. I moved to England when I was fourteen—better school, better teams. It was supposed to go somewhere.”
His jaw tightened, just slightly. “It didn’t.”
Lando didn’t interrupt. Didn’t joke. He just watched him, quieter now.
“My parents split the year after,” Oscar said. “And my dad decided that was it. No more professional racing. I could keep it as a hobby, at most.”
He paused briefly, eyes drifting somewhere past Lando for just a second before continuing.
“He wanted me to focus on something stable. Education. The company, eventually.”
Lando felt something tight twist painfully in his chest.
“And you said no.”
Oscar nodded once. “I came back. Just not for that.”
Simple.
Too simple.
“I cut him off,” he added. “Didn’t take anything with me.”
Lando stared at him, trying to piece it together, leaning forward just a little without noticing.
“You just—left?”
Oscar gave a small shrug. “Wasn’t really an option for me to stay.”
But it had been a choice. That was the difference.
“I wasn’t going to give that up,” he said, quieter now. “Not like that.”
The room fell still again. Oscar let it sit—then continued, shifting slightly, one hand bracing behind him like he needed the grounding.
“If this—” a small, deliberate gesture between them “—goes anywhere… if it becomes public…”
His voice didn’t change—still calm, still controlled. “That’s when it gets messy.”
The words settled heavily somewhere beneath Lando’s ribs.
“How messy?”
Oscar held his gaze.
“People will start looking,” he said. “I’ve kept distance between me and that part of my life, but it wouldn’t take much to connect it. I was racing. There’s a trail.”
A beat.
“And when they do,” he added, slower now, “it won’t just be me they’re talking about anymore.”
That was the point. That was why he was saying it now. Before Lando went any deeper. Before this became something neither of them could step back from. Silence stretched. Heavy this time. Real.
Lando swallowed, his gaze dropping briefly to where Oscar’s hand rested against the mattress before lifting again.
“Do you care?” he asked finally.
About what it could cost him. People digging into his life because of this. Lando getting pulled into all of it.
Oscar didn’t hesitate.
“No.”
Immediate.
Certain.
Then, softer—
“But I don’t want to catch you off guard.”
Silence stretched differently this time. Heavy this time in a way that stayed.
Lando exhaled slowly, dragging a hand through his hair, shoulders loosening as he forced himself to actually think instead of react.
“I don’t care about that,” he said at first, too quick, too instinctive. “About the company, or—any of it.”
Oscar didn’t react or move, and that made Lando pause. Because he couldn’t just brush it off.
“…okay,” he exhaled, dragging a hand through his hair, grounding himself. “No, that’s not— I just—”
He looked back at him properly now.
“I’m not going anywhere,” he said, quieter, but steadier this time. “Not because of something like that.”
Lando held his gaze, something softer settling in where the tension had been.
“I want us to figure it out,” he said, softer now. “Whatever it looks like.”
Not dismissing it anymore.
Not fully understanding it either.
But not backing away.
His fingers tightened slightly in the sheets.
“I meant what I said,” he added after a second, quieter again. “I’m not going back to how it was.”
Oscar watched him. Really watched him this time—not just what he was saying, but how he got there. And that mattered more than the words.
“Come here,” he said finally, reaching to set the plates aside.
Lando didn’t hesitate, shifting closer, careful even in that, before settling into him, melting the second Oscar’s arms closed around him.
Oscar let himself relax with him there.
Properly.
Something in his chest easing in a way he hadn’t let happen in a long time—if ever.
He exhaled slowly, hand coming up to Lando’s hair, fingers brushing through the curls without thinking.
“When do you have to be back?” he asked quietly.
“I’ve got a flight Monday,” Lando murmured against him. “Latest.”
Oscar nodded slightly, pressing a soft kiss into his hair.
“Then we’ve got time.”
Not a promise.
Not a solution.
But not nothing either.
Lando had shifted at some point, half sprawled over Oscar now, cheek pressed against his chest, fingers lazily tracing the fabric of his shirt. Oscar’s hand moved in slow, absent patterns along his back, not really thinking about it.
Just… there.
“Osc?” Lando murmured.
“Mm.”
“You gonna fall asleep on me?”
A faint huff of a breath. “Maybe.”
Lando smiled slightly against him, about to say something else when the phone buzzed on the bedside table.
Neither of them moved.
It buzzed again.
“You gonna get that?” Lando muttered.
Oscar exhaled through his nose, clearly considering ignoring it before reaching over and grabbing it. He didn’t even check the name. “Yeah?”
“What the hell is wrong with you?” Noah’s voice came through immediately, loud enough for Lando to hear.
“Good morning to you too.”
“I thought you were dead.”
Oscar frowned slightly. “What are you on about?”
“I thought your boy murdered you.” he added “or fucked you stupid.”
That made Oscar go still. Not tense—just still.
“…how do you know he’s here?” he asked, slower now, choosing to ignore the latter comment.
Noah laughed. “How do you think he knew where to find you?”
Lando froze slightly against him. Oscar’s eyes flicked down to him for a split second, something clicking into place.
“Right,” he muttered.
“Anyway,” Noah went on, “are you coming in or what?”
“No.”
No hesitation.
“…no?” Noah repeated.
“No.” He echoed, cuddling Lando a bit closer.
Lando’s mouth twitched.
“That’s it? No explanation?”
“Busy.”
A sharp huff on the other end. “Yeah, I gathered that. What about the Phantom you were working on?”
“You can finish it.”
A pause. “…you want me to finish it?”
“Yes.”
“I’m not touching that unless you’re here.”
Oscar sighed quietly. “It’s a three grand job.”
That did it.
“…right. I can finish it.”
Lando snorted softly into his shoulder. Oscar ignored him.
“Thought so.”
“Try not to die, yeah?”
Oscar hung up before he could add anything else.
For a second, the room went quiet again.
Then—
“Soo,” Lando echoed, lifting his head slightly to look at him. “Your boy?”
Oscar rolled his eyes, but there was already a faint smile pulling at his mouth as he leaned in, closing the space between them before Lando could say anything else.
The kiss landed quick—
and then didn’t stop.
Lando made a soft, surprised sound against his mouth, hands coming up instinctively, catching in the front of Oscar’s shirt as he got pulled into it. It wasn’t slow, not careful—just easy and a little reckless, like Oscar was shutting him up on purpose.
Which—
he absolutely was.
Lando tried to pull back just enough to say something, breath catching, but Oscar followed immediately, stealing it again, deeper this time, just to prove a point.
“Osc—” Lando started, barely getting the word out before it dissolved into another quiet sound when Oscar tilted his head, kissing him properly now.
It only lasted a few seconds longer—
before Oscar pulled back just as suddenly as he’d started — no lingering.
No hesitation.
“We should get up,” he said, like that hadn’t just happened.
Lando blinked at him, a little dazed, lips parted. “No.”
Oscar paused for exactly a second.
Then, very deliberately, “Yes.”
He leaned in just enough to press a quick kiss to the racer’s cheek and slipped out of bed, already moving, grabbing the plates on his way out like this had been the plan all along.
Lando watched him go for about three seconds before groaning quietly and dragging himself up after him.
The moment his feet hit the floor—
“Fuck,” he muttered under his breath.
Worth it.
Still — fuck.
He shuffled out slower this time, following the sound of running water, finding Oscar already at the sink, sleeves pushed up, rinsing one of the plates.
Lando didn’t say anything.
Just walked straight up behind him and wrapped his arms around his waist, pressing in like he hadn’t just seen him thirty seconds ago.
Oscar stopped mid-motion.
“…seriously?”
Lando just hummed against his back, cheek resting between his shoulders.
Oscar stood there for a second, like he was deciding whether to finish what he was doing or not.
Then he exhaled quietly, turning the tap off. The plate stayed in his hand for another second before he set it down in the sink with a soft clink.
“You’re unbelievable,” he muttered.
Lando smiled slightly against him. “You love it.”
Oscar turned in his hold, not fully pulling away, just enough to look at him properly.
“Debatable.”
But his hands were already on Lando’s sides, not pushing him away. Just there.
Lando leaned into it without thinking, a little too easily, a little too comfortable.
Oscar’s eyes flicked over him quickly, taking in the slower movements, the way he was standing.
“…you’re sore.”
“Shut up.” The Brit could feel the heat coming up to his cheeks.
Oscar sighed quietly “I’m serious.”
“I know, that’s the problem.”
That got the faintest twitch of a smile out of Oscar.
“Come on, we need a shower.” Oscar murmured, already stepping back, grabbing his hand instead and pulling him along before he could complain properly.
Lando followed, slower this time, and Oscar adjusted without thinking—his hand sliding to his hip, steadying him as they moved through the flat.
It wasn’t even conscious anymore.
Just instinct.
By the time they reached the bathroom, Oscar was already a step ahead, pushing the door open and guiding him inside. He let go just long enough to turn on the light, then came back to him, hands quick and certain as he helped him out of his clothes.
No hesitation.
No awkwardness.
Just easy.
Lando didn’t protest—just watched him for a second, something softer settling in his expression before he let it go again, letting Oscar take the lead.
The shower turned on, steam already beginning to gather as Oscar adjusted the temperature, testing it with his hand before nodding slightly to himself.
Then he reached for Lando again.
“Come here.”
Lando stepped in closer, and Oscar kept his hand on him as they moved under the water together, steady and deliberate.
It hit warm.
Immediate.
Lando exhaled quietly, shoulders dropping as the heat sank in, head tipping forward for a second like his body was finally catching up with everything.
Oscar didn’t move away.
His hand settled low on Lando’s side again, thumb brushing once—absent, automatic.
Lando leaned into it without thinking, closing the small space between them, forehead briefly brushing Oscar’s shoulder before he straightened again, slower this time.
The water ran over both of them, steady, quiet.
No rush.
No pressure.
Oscar reached for the shampoo, working it through Lando’s curls with careful hands, slower than necessary, fingers threading gently, making sure he didn’t catch or pull. He tipped his head slightly to rinse it out, one hand still anchoring him in place like he didn’t trust him not to slip.
Lando barely moved.
Just let him.
Eyes half-closed, breathing even, body loose in a way that only came from feeling safe enough not to think about it.
Oscar noticed.
Of course he did.
His hand lingered for a second longer than it needed to before dropping back to Lando’s side again, thumb brushing once more—same place, same motion.
Grounding.
They shifted around each other easily after that passing the soap between them, adjusting without speaking, small touches that came and went without drawing attention to themselves.
Nothing rushed.
Nothing forced.
The water shut off eventually, but neither of them moved right away.
Lando stayed where he was, leaning lightly into Oscar, eyes still half-closed like he hadn’t quite decided to come back to reality yet.
Oscar watched him for a second, then reached for a towel, draping it over his shoulders and rubbing it gently through his hair.
“Come on,” he murmured. “You’re gonna fall asleep standing up.”
Lando made a quiet sound that could’ve been a protest—or agreement. Hard to tell.
He didn’t move.
Oscar’s mouth twitched slightly.
“Lan.”
Nothing.
Oscar huffed softly, not annoyed—just… familiar with this already. He dried him off a bit more properly, slower around his hair, then stepped back just enough to look at him.
“You planning on living here now?”
Lando cracked one eye open. “Warm.”
“Yeah, that’s how showers work.” The Aussie chuckled.
“Don’t ruin it.”
Oscar shook his head faintly, reaching for another towel for himself before wrapping it loosely around his waist.
Then he stepped back in, hands settling on Lando’s arms, grounding, steady.
“Baby,” he said, quieter this time, nudging him gently, “time to get out.”
That did it.
Barely.
Lando sighed like it cost him something, but let himself be guided forward, stepping out of the shower with Oscar right there to steady him when his footing slipped just slightly.
“Careful,” Oscar muttered, more automatic than anything.
Lando didn’t argue this time.
Just stayed close.
He handed him a towel properly, watching long enough to make sure he was actually using it before turning to grab some clothes, tossing a shirt in his direction.
Lando caught it lazily, not even checking what it was before pulling it on.
“Yours?” he asked.
“Obviously.”
“Good.”
Oscar didn’t ask why.
He already knew.
By the time they made it out of the bathroom, Lando was still half-draped against him, slower, softer, like his body hadn’t caught up with the rest of him yet.
Oscar adjusted around it without thinking, one hand steady at his back as they moved into the living room.
“Go sit,” he said, nudging him lightly toward the couch.
Lando sank deeper into the couch the second he sat down, head tipping back, eyes closing like he might actually drift off this time.
Oscar disappeared into the kitchen without much thought, the quiet sounds of movement carrying through the flat—cupboard doors, the kettle, something set down a little too carefully.
Normal.
Grounding.
By the time he came back, Lando hadn’t moved much, just shifted slightly onto his side, one arm tucked under his head.
Oscar set the mug down within reach on the table, not saying anything at first.
Lando cracked one eye open, noticing it anyway. “That for me?”
Oscar glanced at him briefly. “Yeah.”
He pushed himself up just enough to grab it, fingers brushing Oscar’s for a second before settling back again.
Oscar sat down beside him, close without really thinking about it, one leg tucked slightly against the couch as he leaned back.
It didn’t take long.
Lando shifted again, slower this time, until he was half leaning into him, shoulder pressing lightly against Oscar’s side.
Oscar’s hand found him automatically.
Settled.
Started moving again—those same absent patterns along his back, like it had never stopped.
A few quiet seconds passed.
Then—
“Osc?” Lando said after a moment, voice soft against his chest.
“Mm,” Oscar hummed, barely opening his eyes.
“What happened to your flat?”
That got a small reaction.
Subtle—but there.
Oscar’s hand paused for half a second before continuing, a little less mindless this time.
“…it looks like it usually does,” he admitted, a hint of something like embarrassment slipping into his voice. “When you were here last time—”
He trailed off.
Lando didn’t interrupt, just shifted slightly so he could look up at him properly, watching instead of pushing.
Oscar exhaled quietly.
“You remember I said my sister comes by sometimes?” he said. “Hattie.”
Lando nodded once.
“She usually stays here when I’m not around,” Oscar went on. “Closer to her uni. And she—” he huffed a small breath, something softer now “—she cleans. As a thank you, I guess. Even though I told her she doesn’t have to.”
Lando’s mouth twitched slightly. “And here I thought I’d need to hire a cleaning crew before you come over to mine.”
That got a quiet huff out of Oscar.
“There’s no need, Lan.”
Oscar turned the TV on after a while, but neither of them were really watching it.
Something low, half-forgotten dialogue filling the room, more background than anything else.
Lando had stretched out along the couch at some point, one leg hooked loosely over Oscar’s, head tipped back against the cushions. He’d been talking—about nothing, really—something that kept drifting off halfway through sentences.
Oscar let him.
Didn’t interrupt.
Just stayed there, one hand resting low on Lando’s side, thumb moving in slow, absent patterns like it had all day.
It slowed gradually until it stopped. Oscar noticed before anything else. The shift.
The way Lando’s weight settled properly, not leaning anymore—just… there.
He glanced down.
Completely out.
Oscar huffed a quiet breath through his nose, something softer than amusement pulling at his mouth as he adjusted slightly, shifting his hand just enough to keep him from slipping.
Didn’t wake him.
Didn’t move more than he had to.
Just stayed.
Letting the Brit rest. He needed that with the jet lag, on top of everything else.
The flat was quiet. Not empty. Not tense. Just easier somehow. The kind of quiet that finally let Oscar breathe.
His gaze drifted back to the TV for a second, not really seeing it, before settling somewhere else entirely.
On him.
Lando’s hair was still damp at the ends, curls softer now, a little messier than usual where they’d fallen into place on their own. His breathing was even, steady—completely gone.
No guard.
No thinking.
Just—here.
Oscar’s hand moved again, slower this time, almost like he didn’t want to wake him but didn’t quite want to stop either.
He hadn’t planned for this—not like this. Not this easy. Not this steady.
For a second, something in his chest tightened—old instinct, familiar.
Then Lando shifted slightly in his sleep, hand curling a little tighter in the fabric of Oscar’s shirt like it had earlier.
And it eased.
Just like that.
Oscar exhaled slowly, leaning his head back against the couch.
…yeah.
Alright.
He wouldn’t mind staying like this.
By the time Lando woke up, the light had changed again.
Lower.
Warmer.
He blinked slowly, disoriented for a second before registering where he was—how he was—and the fact that he’d somehow ended up half on top of Oscar again.
“…did I fall asleep?” he muttered, voice rough.
Oscar didn’t look down. “No.”
Lando squinted up at him. “You’re a terrible liar.”
“Yeah.”
That got the faintest twitch of a smile out of him.
Lando shifted, pushing himself up slightly, rolling his shoulders like he was trying to shake the last of it off.
“…what time is it?”
Oscar shrugged lightly. “Late enough.”
His arm tightened slightly around Lando, like he wasn’t quite ready to let him go yet.
Helpful.
Lando huffed quietly, dragging a hand through his hair before glancing toward the window, taking in the softer light.
Then back at him.
“Can we go for a ride?” he asked.
It came out casual, like he hadn’t thought about it. Like it just… happened. Oscar looked at him properly then. Measured it.
Then nodded once. “Alright.”
He couldn’t say no to him anyway.
They didn’t rush it.
Shoes somewhere near the door, keys grabbed without much thought, the kind of movement that came from being comfortable enough not to overthink it.
Lando shamelessly pulled on Oscar’s hoodie before grabbing his phone.
A frown. “…wait.”
Oscar glanced back at him. “What?”
Lando stared at the screen for a second, eyebrows pulling together.
“I just got an email from the rental place.” He said scanning the text on his phone “They said the car’s been returned.”
Oscar didn’t react.
Didn’t even slow down.
Just reached for the door, pulling it open.
“…yeah.”
Lando blinked, looking up at him. “Yeah?”
Oscar shrugged, like it was nothing. “Told you I’d sort it.”
“How?”
Another shrug, as he pulled Lando a little closer.
“A friend.”
That was it. No elaboration. No explanation.
Lando stared up at him for a second longer, trying to figure out if he was serious.
He was.
Of course he was.
“Of course,” Lando muttered, but there was no real bite to it—just something softer, almost impressed.
Oscar’s mouth twitched faintly before leaning in for a quick kiss.
The air outside was cooler.
Not cold—just enough to feel different after the warmth of the flat, grounding in a way that made Lando breathe a little deeper without thinking about it.
Oscar locked the door behind them, keys already in his hand.
Lando hovered a step ahead, shifting his weight from one foot to the other, that quiet kind of energy back under his skin now that he’d actually woken up.
Not restless.
Just… lighter.
They stepped into the dim light of the street, the world quieter now—late enough that everything had slowed, but not empty.
The car sat where Oscar had left it—clean, still. Lando slowed as he approached it, just for a second.
His gaze flicked over it, something in his expression shifting—barely there.
Something about it—
He frowned slightly.
“…did you—”
He stopped. The thought didn’t land. Didn’t fully form.
“Nothing,” he muttered, shaking it off as he reached for the passenger door.
Oscar glanced at him briefly.
Said nothing.
Lando slid into the passenger seat like it was normal, like it had always been this way, a familiar kind of quiet settling in as he exhaled, head tipping back for a second before he looked over again.
Oscar started the engine. Low, controlled, familiar. Lando watched his hands for a second—how easy it looked, how natural—then looked away again.
“…you’re still not letting me drive, yeah?”
Oscar didn’t even hesitate. “No.”
“Unbelievable.”
“You’ll live.”
Lando huffed, but there was no real bite to it, just something softer as he leaned back into the seat.
That got the faintest flicker of a smile out of Oscar.
They pulled out slowly—no rush, no pressure. Just easing into it.
The city passed around them in soft blurs of light—streetlamps stretching across the windshield, reflections shifting over the glass, quiet movement in the distance.
Lando turned slightly in his seat, one arm resting against the door, watching instead of talking for once.
“…missed this,” he said after a moment.
Oscar glanced at him briefly, something warmer in his expression. “Yeah?”
“Yeah.”
Oscar’s hand settled over Lando’s thigh—and stayed there.
Steady.
Grounding.
Not fleeting this time.
They didn’t decide where they were going. They just drove, turning where it felt right, staying where the road opened up.
Talked a little—half sentences, quiet comments—but mostly let the silence sit between them, easy and unforced.
At some point, Lando’s gaze drifted again.
Not to the road.
To him.
Watching the way Oscar drove—relaxed, steady, like he always had. One hand loose on the wheel, the other resting warm and solid against him.
Familiar. Too familiar. Something in Lando’s chest eased at the sight of it. Like his body remembered before his head did.
Long drives. Late nights.
Oscar behind the wheel, him in the passenger seat, talking about nothing until it turned into something.
Or nothing at all.
Just… this.
The road opened up ahead of them, darker, quieter.
Oscar pressed the accelerator just enough, the engine responding smoothly under his control.
Not pushing.
Just… moving.
Lando let his head fall back against the seat again, eyes half-lidded now, one hand tapping lazily against his thigh—just under Oscar’s.
Tired. But not heavy anymore. Just… here. They didn’t say anything. Didn’t need to. Lando smiled to himself, small and soft, like it had nowhere else to be. The city lights faded behind them. The road stretched out ahead.
And for once—
it felt exactly like it used to.
Just… without the part where it ended.
Notes:
Aren’t they just like 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹
My babies ❤️
Also thank you for all the love in the last chapter I was like whaaaaat 😭😭😭
And what time zones are y’all in because I updated the chapter went to sleep and woke up to over 10 comments, confused af 😂
Chapter 23: New regulations
Notes:
Hi, we’re baaaaack.
I’ve read something for the first time since I started writing this a few days ago, how crazy is that 😭
I used to read ALL THE TIME now I just write, write and write and if I’m not I think about what’s next in the story.
And even crazier is how this story has no actual plot in my head, I just go one chapter at a time seeing where it goes 😭
I HAD a plan for it when I started, it was supposed to be fun and light but it turned out into a full on romance on its own wtf
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Lando woke up alone in bed.
Disappointing—but not surprising.
Oscar didn’t have as much time off as he’d made it sound like, and Lando couldn’t expect him to just pause his life because he’d decided to show up.
He stayed there for a second anyway, staring at the ceiling, before pushing himself up with a quiet exhale.
Maybe he could do something for him, for once.
Stop by the garage.
Bring lunch.
Or just… be there.
He dragged himself out of bed and into the kitchen, still half asleep, movements slow and automatic as he reached for the kettle, leaning against the counter while it heated.
Tea first.
Game plan after.
“Morning, sleepy.”
Lando’s head snapped up. Oscar was standing in the doorway, like he hadn’t left at all.
“I thought you went to work,” Lando said, a hint of confusion slipping through.
“Didn’t feel like it.” Oscar shrugged lightly as he crossed the space, leaning in to press a soft kiss into Lando’s hair. “They’ll manage without me for a couple of days.”
That—was new.
That didn’t quite line up with what Lando had seen before.
But at the same time, it did.
Because Oscar had taken off with him for a whole week back in March without hesitation, without even mentioning work.
And yet—he’d been at the garage all the time after that.
Talking about it. Being there.
Lando had just… assumed.
Assumed Oscar worked that much because he had to. But now it didn’t really seem like that was the case at all.
Lando looked up at him properly this time, something quieter settling behind his eyes as the kettle clicked off beside him.
Oscar didn’t seem to notice.
Or maybe he did.
“Tea?” he asked, already reaching for the cupboard, like nothing about that was out of the ordinary.
Lando watched him for a second longer before moving, pulling two cups out coffee in one, tea in the other—hands working on autopilot as they carried everything through to the living room.
They settled easily.
Like they’d done this before.
“So no work for the boss today?” Lando teased, glancing over at him as he curled slightly into the corner of the couch.
Oscar gave him a look at that, faintly unimpressed. “Told you, I don’t need to work that much.”
Lando hummed softly, like he was just taking that in.
“Thought you said you still take a lot on,” he said after a moment, tone lighter now, more thoughtful than anything else. “You’ve been working a lot lately.”
Oscar didn’t answer straight away.
Not avoiding it—just considering.
“Yeah,” he said eventually, quieter this time. “I do.”
His gaze dropped briefly to his cup before lifting again, something a little more closed off there now.
“Just depends.”
On what, he didn’t say.
Lando didn’t push. Not yet. He watched him for another second before leaning back into the couch, letting it settle instead of pulling at it.
“Right,” he said lightly after a beat, like it didn’t matter all that much, “On what?”
Oscar’s gaze stayed on him for a second.
Measuring.
Not defensive—just… deciding how much to give.
“On what I need,” he said finally.
Vague.
Too vague.
Lando’s brow twitched slightly, not quite a frown.
“That’s not really an answer.”
Oscar huffed a quiet breath through his nose, leaning back into the couch, one arm stretching along the back behind Lando like this wasn’t a conversation that mattered.
“It is,” he said. “I don’t take on more than I have to.”
Lando tilted his head, watching him carefully. Because that… still didn’t line up.
“You were busy,” he said, softer now. Not accusing. Just… stating it. “Like, properly busy.”
Oscar’s fingers tapped once against his cup.
Then stilled.
“Yeah,” he said.
Still no explanation. Lando waited instead of filling the silence this time. And that—that was what made Oscar look at him again. Quieter now.
“I just had a few things I wanted sorted,” he added.
There it was not a lie, but not the truth either. Something in between.
Lando’s eyes flicked over his face, like he was trying to decide whether to take it or not.
“…sorted?” he echoed.
Oscar’s mouth twitched faintly.
“Lan.”
Soft.
A warning, though not a sharp one.
Just enough.
Lando held his gaze for a second longer.
“Alright.” He said his voice slightly hurt, “don’t tell me if you don’t want to.”
Oscar’s expression shifted, just slightly.
Not closed off anymore.
Not closed off anymore. Just… quieter. He glanced down at his cup for a moment before looking back at him with a quiet sigh.
“I wanted to go to Silverstone.”
Simple.
No build-up.
No drama.
Lando blinked.
“…what?”
Oscar shrugged, like it wasn’t anything worth making into a big deal.
“Your home race,” he said. “I didn’t know how things were gonna be between us by then, but—”
He paused for a second to take a breath.
“I wanted to be there.”
That was it—no emphasis, no weight added to it. And somehow, that made it heavier.
Lando stared at him, something shifting behind his eyes as the pieces started lining up.
The long hours.
The way Oscar had brushed it off.
The distance.
“You were—” he started, then stopped, trying to catch up with it. “You were working like that just to—what, fly over for a weekend?”
Oscar’s mouth twitched faintly. “It’s not exactly cheap, Lan.”
“That’s not—” Lando exhaled, dragging a hand through his hair, still looking at him like he couldn’t quite place it. “You didn’t even know if I’d—”
“I didn’t need to.”
Simple.
Certain.
“I just wanted the option.”
Lando went quiet.
His hand, still resting between them, shifted slightly—fingers brushing against Oscar’s wrist without really meaning to.
He didn’t pull back.
“…you’re ridiculous,” he muttered, softer now.
Oscar huffed lightly. “Yeah.”
But his hand was already there—settling low on Lando’s side again, thumb brushing once like it always did.
Automatic.
Grounding.
Lando leaned into it this time.
Not subtle.
Closing the space properly as his other hand came up, slower, more deliberate—fingers brushing along Oscar’s jaw before settling against his cheek.
“You could’ve told me,” he said after a moment. Not accusing. Just… honest.
Oscar held his gaze.
“Didn’t think it mattered.”
And that that said more than anything else. Lando looked at him for a second longer. Then shook his head slightly, a quiet breath leaving him.
“It does.” He said kissing Oscar softly.
He leaned in and kissed him.
Soft.
Careful at first—just a brush of lips, warm and lingering. But it didn’t stay light for long. Because something in Lando’s chest had already tipped over.
Oscar had just… done all of that. Quietly. Without saying anything. Without asking for anything back.
And Lando—felt it. Every bit of it.
The kiss deepened slowly, naturally, his hand coming up to the side of Oscar’s neck, fingers slipping into his hair without thinking, holding him there like he didn’t want to lose the moment.
Oscar responded just as easily, one hand settling at Lando’s side, grounding, steady—but there was something heavier underneath it now.
Lando shifted closer.
Not rushed.
Just… needing to be there.
They only pulled back when they had to, breaths uneven, still close enough to feel it.
“So will you let me fly you out?” Lando asked, a hint of a smile tugging at his mouth.
Oscar’s lips twitched.
“No.”
Lando pouted. “Rude.”
Oscar didn’t move away.
If anything, he pulled him in closer, settling him properly into his lap.
“But I’ll let you pay for the hotel.”
There it was—smug.
Lando rolled his eyes, already playing along. “Should I inform the team to book a room with two beds?”
Oscar looked at him—actually surprised for half a second. “Don’t you dare.”
He leaned in again.
This time—more certain.
More possessive.
Lando’s breath caught slightly, hands tightening in the front of his shirt as he met him halfway, no hesitation left in it now.
The kiss deepened quickly, less careful than before, like whatever had been holding them back earlier had finally slipped.
Oscar’s grip at his side tightened, pulling him closer, keeping him there like he wasn’t letting him go again.
Lando shifted in his lap without thinking, closing whatever space was left between them, a quiet breath escaping against Oscar’s mouth.
“Osc—”
It wasn’t a protest.
Not really.
Oscar didn’t answer.
Just kissed him again, slower this time, but heavier, like he meant it.
Lando’s hand slid into his hair again, holding on, grounding himself in it.
For a second, neither of them pulled away.
Then—
Oscar’s hand slipped lower, steady, guiding before he pulled back.
“Alright, Mr. Norris,” he said, like nothing had just happened. “Go take a shower while I fix breakfast.”
Lando stared at him for a second, eyes a little wide. Then he pouted. “You’re so mean.”
Oscar’s brow lifted, faintly amused. “How so?”
“We were having a moment,” Lando said, accusatory. “And you just—ruined it.”
Oscar huffed out something close to a laugh, stepping back in without hesitation. His hands came up to Lando’s cheeks, warm, steady—
“Oh, I’m sorry, baby.”
He leaned in and kissed him again—
quick.
Mocking.
Just enough to make a point.
Then pulled back like he hadn’t just undone his own argument.
“Shower.”
Lando huffed quietly, dragging a hand over his face before pushing himself up.
“Unbelievable.”
But he went anyway. Oscar watched him for a moment, just long enough to make sure he actually left, before turning toward the kitchen.
His movements settled into something familiar the second he stepped in.
Automatic.
Grounded.
The cupboard door opened, oats already in his hand before he really thought about it. He filled the pot, set it on the stove, adjusting the heat without looking.
Simple.
Easy.
He reached for the fruit next, knife moving in steady, precise motions—nothing rushed, nothing wasted. Strawberries, banana. Whatever was there.
Enough.
His mind wasn’t fully on it.
It drifted—back to the couch, to what Lando had said, to the way he’d looked at him when he realised.
It matters.
Oscar exhaled quietly through his nose, like he was brushing the thought off before it could settle too deep.
Honey instead of sugar.
A small adjustment.
The kind that didn’t need to be said out loud.
The oats thickened slowly, steam curling up as Oscar stirred, the spoon tapping lightly against the side of the pot. Normal. That was the point.
He reached to turn the heat down when he heard movement behind him. Bare footsteps. Slower than usual. He didn’t turn immediately.
Lando hovered in the doorway for a second before stepping in, still damp, hair falling into his face, one of Oscar’s shirts hanging loose on him like he hadn’t really thought about what he grabbed.
He looked tired.
Not badly.
Just… softer around the edges.
Oscar glanced at him briefly, then back at the stove.
“You took your time.”
“Fell asleep for a minute,” Lando admitted, voice still rough.
That tracked.
Oscar shifted the pot off the heat, grabbing a bowl without making a thing out of it.
Lando didn’t go for the table.
Instead, he came up behind him, slower this time, arms slipping around Oscar’s waist like he needed the contact more than anything else.
No comment.
Just there.
Oscar stilled for half a second—then carried on.
“You’re gonna have to let go if you want food,” he said, not turning.
“I don’t,” Lando muttered, pressing in slightly.
Oscar exhaled quietly, setting the spoon down.
Not annoyed.
Just… adjusting.
His hand came down over Lando’s wrist briefly, thumb brushing once without thinking before he shifted slightly in his hold.
“Go sit,” he said, quieter this time.
Lando didn’t argue.
Just took a second longer before letting go and moving past him, dropping onto the couch instead of the table.
Oscar watched that.
Didn’t comment.
The Aussie set the bowls down on the table in front of him before sitting beside him, close but not crowding.
Lando shifted slightly, pulling one leg up under himself, fingers idly tracing the fabric of Oscar’s sleeve.
The room stayed quiet for a minute. They ate. Oscar reached for the remote, putting something low on in the background—music, more than anything.
Then—a buzz.
His phone lit up on the coffee table.
Oscar didn’t react. Lando did. His eyes flicked over without thinking—and stilled.
“…when did you take that?”
Oscar glanced over, following his line of sight. Didn’t reach for it. “Take what?”
Lando leaned forward, picking the phone up. The screen was still on.
Him.
Turned away, camera lifted toward the koalas high up in the tree. Not posed. Not even aware.
“I didn’t see you take that.”
Oscar’s mouth twitched faintly. “You weren’t really paying attention.”
That landed.
Lando looked back at him, something quieter settling behind his eyes. “You made it your lock screen.”
Oscar shrugged like it didn’t carry any weight. “Yeah.”
He didn’t take the phone back.
Lando looked at it for another second, then set it down again—closer to Oscar this time. Not where it had been.
He leaned in, pressing a brief kiss to Oscar’s shoulder. “Didn’t think you were the type.”
Saying it out loud was a mistake.
The second Oscar looked at him—amused, already halfway to a comeback—Lando knew.
“Is it a crime to have a picture of my boyfriend?”
Lando’s whole face burned. He looked away quickly, focusing back on his breakfast like that would help.
“You can’t just say it like that,” he muttered between bites.
Oscar let out a quiet chuckle but didn’t let it go. He shifted on the couch, one leg sliding over so Lando ended up half boxed in between them.
“Like what?” His voice dropped slightly, just enough to be deliberate. “I thought you liked that word.”
Lando didn’t answer straight away. He just looked at him—still flushed, still caught somewhere between embarrassed and something warmer he wasn’t even trying to hide anymore.
“…shut up,” he muttered, but there was no bite to it.
Oscar’s mouth twitched. “Make me.”
That did it.
Lando leaned in first this time—not careful, not thinking it through, just closing the space like he needed to get the last word in somehow. Oscar let him for a second, then his hand came up to the back of Lando’s neck, steady, grounding, pulling him in properly—slowing it down, taking control of it again.
The kiss shifted. Less teasing. Heavier.
Lando’s breath caught slightly, his hand tightening in the front of Oscar’s shirt as he leaned into it without thinking. Oscar didn’t rush it, didn’t let it get messy—just kept him there, exactly where he wanted him.
His other hand slid to Lando’s hip, firm enough to keep him in place when he shifted closer, instinctive, chasing the contact.
“Careful, baby,” Oscar murmured against his mouth, low, almost a warning.
That—
Lando felt that.
A small, sharp inhale, like the word landed somewhere deeper than anything else had so far.
He didn’t slow down.
If anything, he leaned in again, deeper this time, less hesitant, like he’d already decided where this was going and wasn’t interested in stopping now.
Oscar huffed softly, something close to a laugh slipping through before it disappeared when he kissed him back—firmer now, answering it properly.
The room felt smaller, quieter. The music still played somewhere in the background, but neither of them were paying attention anymore.
Lando shifted again, knee pressing into the couch beside Oscar, closing the space completely. Oscar’s grip tightened slightly at his hip—not stopping him, just keeping control of it.
“Lan—” he started, quieter this time, then, softer.
Lando ignored that too.
Of course he did.
He kissed him again, slower now but deeper, like he was trying to say something he couldn’t quite put into words.
Oscar felt it.
His hand slid higher, steady, thumb brushing once like he was grounding him there before it stilled again.
They pulled back just enough, foreheads nearly touching, breath uneven.
“…food’s getting cold,” Oscar said eventually, voice lower than before.
Lando didn’t move. Didn’t even glance at the table. “Don’t care.”
Oscar’s mouth twitched faintly. His thumb brushedd once more, softer this time.
“Yeah,” he murmured, “I know, baby.”
Oscar leaned over, taking the bowl from the table—only to bring a spoon up in front of Lando’s mouth.
Lando blinked at it, then at him. “You gonna feed me like a toddler now?”
Oscar glanced between him and the spoon, unimpressed. “Will you stop acting like one and eat your breakfast?”
Lando rolled his eyes, but took the bowl back without another word. He still didn’t move though, staying exactly where he was—half against him.
Oscar smirked faintly, satisfied, and picked up his own breakfast.
It wasn’t the most practical position to eat in, but if it meant Lando actually finished it, Oscar wasn’t about to complain.
“I need to go grocery shopping,” he said after a moment, like it was already decided. “We’re running low.”
Lando glanced at him, suspicious. “Aren’t you meal prepping?”
“Was supposed to do it yesterday.” Oscar took both their now empty bowls once they were done. “But someone decided to show up unexpectedly.”
Lando huffed quietly at that, but didn’t move away.
Oscar leaned in, pressing a brief kiss to his forehead before standing up.
It took Lando maybe half a second to decide before he was already moving.
“I’m coming too.”
He didn’t wait for an answer just pushed himself up and disappeared into the bedroom, already digging through Oscar’s closet for something more appropriate.
“It’ll take half an hour at most,” Oscar said, leaning against the doorframe, watching him.
There was no point arguing.
Lando looked like an excited puppy, already halfway dressed in a soft grey sweater and jeans, energy practically buzzing under his skin.
Oscar exhaled quietly through his nose.
“Alright,” he said finally. “But we’re walking.”
Lando nodded immediately, a bright, easy smile breaking across his face like that had never been in question.
Oscar shook his head faintly, stepping forward just long enough to grab a cap and pull it down over Lando’s curls before they headed out.
The June air was cooler than Lando remembered, not cold but not the warmth of March either.
He noticed it for about a second.
Then Oscar’s hand found his.
Lando’s smile softened, something quieter settling in as he let himself be pulled along without comment.
The shop was close enough that the walk barely lasted a few minutes.
Inside, Oscar reached for a basket.
Lando swapped it for a cart without a word.
Oscar exhaled quietly. “We don’t need that much.”
Lando ignored him completely, already pushing it forward. Oscar just put the basket back and followed, not even trying to argue.
They moved through the aisles like that—Oscar picking out things they actually needed, Lando adding whatever caught his attention without much thought. Something sweet. Something unnecessary. Something he didn’t even look at properly before dropping it in.
“Lan.”
Lando had just grabbed a full tub of ice cream.
“What?”
“You can’t eat that much sugar,” Oscar said, careful with it.
“Course I can.” Lando looked at him like that was obvious. “I’ll just work out more later.”
“Baby,” Oscar said softly, “we both know you won’t.”
“I will.”
Oscar took one thing out.
Lando replaced it with two more.
Oscar didn’t even react this time.
By the time they reached the checkout, the cart was a mix of both of them—actual food and a concerning amount of snacks.
Oscar glanced at it once, then at Lando, but didn’t comment.
His sisters would be quite happy with this—once Lando left, he’d still have half of it untouched.
By the time they stepped back outside, the air had warmed a little, the street a bit busier with early afternoon traffic.
Oscar took the heavier bag without a word, handing the other to Lando before their fingers found each other again—easy, like it had never really stopped.
Lando didn’t wait long.
By the time they’d made it halfway down the street, he was already digging into the bag, pulling out a Kinder bar and unwrapping it like it had been the entire point of the trip.
Oscar glanced at him. “We just bought that.”
“Yeah,” Lando said around a bite, completely unbothered.
“I’m locking all the chocolate if you won’t want to eat dinner.” There was no real threat in Oscar’s voice.
“We just had breakfast,” Lando protested, a little muffled. “I’m not eating dinner yet.”
Oscar huffed quietly, but his grip on Lando’s hand didn’t loosen.
They didn’t rush it.
Didn’t need to.
Lando stayed close, shoulder brushing his every now and then, chocolate already half gone as he walked like this was the most normal thing in the world.
“You bought half the store,” Oscar said after a moment.
“I did not.”
Oscar tilted the bag slightly. “We’ve got ice cream stacked for a month.”
“That’s called planning.” Lando smiled faintly, taking another bite. “You’re just boring.”
“Yeah.”
Neither of them pulled away.
The walk back felt even shorter.
By the time they reached the flat, Oscar shifted the bags in one hand to unlock the door, pushing it open with his shoulder.
Lando dropped the bag on the counter—still chewing—like he’d been there for weeks instead of a day.
Oscar glanced at him, unimpressed, but didn’t push it.
He just closed the door behind them, the quiet of the flat settling back in around them different now.
Oscar took both bags into the kitchen, unpacking without much thought—vegetables, meat, dairy into the fridge, pasta into the cupboard. The sweets he left on the counter for now, undecided, since he didn’t exactly have a designated place for them.
Lando leaned against the counter, watching closely. Studying, almost.
By the look on his face, he was clearly trying to decide which one to go for next.
Oscar glanced at him a few times while he worked, debating whether to stop him or not.
“…these are my favourite,” he said eventually, pointing at one of the navy packages.
“These are a big thing in Australia, aren’t they?” Lando glanced up briefly before opening the Tim Tams. “Danny said they’re not that good.”
“Ricciardo has no taste,” Oscar scoffed, leaning in to steal a bite straight from Lando’s hand.
“Hey!” Lando snapped, pulling it back too late. “That is mine!”
Oscar just smirked, completely unbothered. Then, without warning, his hands settled on Lando’s hips, guiding him up onto the counter in one smooth motion.
“What are you gonna do about it?” he asked, voice low, teasing.
Lando stared at him for a second, caught off guard, eyes a little too wide.
“…not fair.”
Oscar’s mouth twitched. “Life’s unfair, baby.”
Lando frowned at that, still holding the half-eaten Tim Tam like he’d forgotten about it completely. “You just stole my food.”
“Yeah.”
“And now you’re acting like—” he stopped, because Oscar had stepped closer again. Too close.
“Like what?” Oscar asked quietly.
Lando didn’t answer. Didn’t move either. His hands stayed braced against the counter behind him, even as Oscar’s grip at his hips tightened just enough to keep him there—steady, controlled.
“You’re staring,” Oscar added, softer now.
“I’m not.”
“You are.”
Lando swallowed hard enough that Oscar noticed.
“Shut up.”
Oscar huffed a quiet breath, something amused slipping through but it didn’t last. Not when Lando leaned in first. This time it wasn’t hesitant, not careful—just there.
Oscar caught the kiss immediately, one hand sliding from Lando’s hip to his side while he kissed him back hard enough to pull a quiet breath out of him almost instantly.
The Tim Tam slipped from Lando’s hand at some point, hitting the counter with a soft thud neither of them acknowledged.
Lando shifted against him instinctively, chasing the contact harder now, all the teasing gone from his expression completely.
“Careful,” Oscar murmured against his mouth, though there wasn’t much warning left in it anymore.
Lando ignored him entirely.
Of course he didn’t.
His fingers caught in the front of Oscar’s shirt instead, pulling him closer like Oscar hadn’t already closed every possible inch between them.
And that—
that was where Oscar finally stopped pretending he still had control over this.
His hand tightened harder against Lando’s hip as he kissed him properly this time, slower at first, deep enough to drag a shaky breath from him before it turned messy almost immediately.
Like neither of them really knew how to do this carefully anymore.
Lando’s fingers twisted tighter in his shirt with every kiss, every pull of Oscar’s mouth against his, and God—
how the hell had Oscar managed to hold back before this?
Back when Lando had looked at him like this and Oscar still forced himself to stop.
Back when every touch had to end before it became dangerous.
Now Lando was kissing him openly, breathless and impatient beneath his hands, and Oscar honestly didn’t think he’d survive going back to pretending he didn’t need him after this.
“Still think it’s unfair?” Oscar asked quietly against his lips, voice rougher now.
Lando only shook his head weakly before kissing him again immediately like he physically couldn’t help himself.
That nearly finished Oscar off right there.
“Jesus Christ,” he muttered softly before sliding his hands beneath Lando’s thighs and lifting him cleanly off the counter.
Lando let out a breathless laugh at the sudden movement, legs wrapping automatically around Oscar’s waist while his arms looped around his neck.
Oscar carried him across the apartment without slowing down, kissing him the entire way.
By the time Oscar lowered him onto the couch both of them were breathing harder, clothes already half displaced from impatient hands.
He brushed a curl off Lando’s forehead with his thumb, eyes dark and focused as he took him in.
He looked beautiful—glossy eyes, swollen lips, flushed cheeks. Gorgeous. Absolutely breathtaking.
“So pretty,” he murmured quietly, thumb brushing along Lando’s cheek instinctively.
Lando melted immediately.
The next kiss softened slightly after that, but only slightly.
Oscar’s hands slipped beneath Lando’s shirt slowly this time, dragging it upward until Lando lifted his arms automatically to help pull it off.
The rest of their clothes followed without much thought after that.
Not rushed.
Just impatient enough that fingers kept catching against fabric between kisses.
Oscar took his time, hands mapping over Lando like he was reacquainting himself, slow kisses trailing down his chest, along his ribs, pausing wherever it pulled the strongest reaction.
When Lando arched, trying to pull him closer, Oscar steadied him with a hand at his waist, grounding him until he softened again.
Every reaction only made Oscar worse.
“Fuck,” Lando breathed softly when Oscar bit lightly near his ribs.
Oscar glanced up immediately, visibly pleased with himself.
“Sensitive?”
Lando flushed harder instantly. “No.”
Oscar kissed him again before he could hide properly from it.
Slow enough to make Lando melt back into the couch beneath him.
When Oscar reached for the lube afterward, it was without hesitation.
Completely natural.
Lando blinked at the bottle before looking back at him suspiciously despite how wrecked he already looked.
“Why do you keep that in your living room?”
Oscar barely even paused, one corner of his mouth lifting faintly.
“Took it out this morning,” he admitted simply. “Figured you’d get impatient eventually.”
That dragged something dangerously soft across Lando’s expression.
“Cocky,” he mumbled weakly.
Oscar only kissed him again instead of answering.
He prepped him carefully after that, but not slowly enough to hide how badly Oscar wanted him.
Every stretch of his fingers pulled another sound from Lando’s throat.
Every new angle made his breath a little more uneven.
Oscar noticed every shiver that ran through him. He leaned down to kiss his temple, his cheek, murmuring soft and low against his ear.
“I’ve got you,” he murmured quietly against his mouth at one point, thumb brushing slowly across Lando’s hip when he tensed slightly.
Lando nodded immediately.
Completely trusting.
That almost ruined Oscar more than anything else.
When Lando was ready, trembling and breathing shakily, Oscar moved over him again.
He pushed into him slow and steady, not rushing it, letting the moment stretch until there was no space left between them and both of them felt it.
Oscar stayed there, forehead pressed to Lando’s, letting them both feel it—the closeness, the warmth, the quiet connection.
“There you are,” he whispered softly before kissing him again.
The first few thrusts stayed slow.
Measured.
Oscar kept himself steady even while his grip tightened hard enough at Lando’s thigh to leave marks.
Every movement felt deliberate.
Deep enough to pull another breathless sound from Lando’s mouth.
Controlled enough that Oscar could feel every reaction underneath him.
And somehow that undid him more than losing control ever could.
Lando’s hands roamed his back, nails pressing in whenever pleasure spiked, legs wrapped tight around Oscar’s waist like he wanted to keep him there forever.
Oscar kept their faces close, breathing the same air, eyes locked whenever Lando’s fluttered open.
Oscar kept one hand tangled with his the entire time, fingers tight enough that Lando could probably feel his pulse racing through them.
Because despite everything—
Oscar was still losing his mind a little over the fact that he actually got to have this.
Got to have him.
When Lando’s breath hitched and his body started to shake, Oscar’s hand found his cock easily, matching the rhythm, keeping him right on the edge with every movement.
“Osc—”
“I know, baby,” Oscar murmured immediately, kissing him before he could lose the words entirely.
The pace only got deeper after that.
More deliberate.
Every thrust grounded enough to leave Lando shaking beneath him while Oscar stayed impossibly steady through all of it.
Lando pulling him closer every time like he physically couldn’t get enough.
Oscar honestly couldn’t either.
Lando came first with a wrecked sound against Oscar’s mouth, clinging tight, pulsing warm between them while Oscar kept stroking him gently through every wave, drawing it out until Lando was trembling and boneless beneath him.
Only then did Oscar let himself go, pressing deep as he came with a low, ragged exhale against Lando’s neck.
He stayed inside him for a long time afterward, arms wrapped around Lando, holding him close while their heartbeats slowly settled.
Soft kisses pressed to Lando’s shoulder, his jaw, the corner of his mouth.
Lando didn’t move.
Didn’t even try.
He stayed exactly where he was, half-melted into the couch, breathing still uneven, fingers loosely curled against Oscar’s.
Lando looked completely ruined beneath him when Oscar finally lifted his head enough to look properly.
Flushed cheeks.
Swollen lips.
Half-lidded eyes still struggling to focus.
Beautiful.
“Stay,” he murmured, already shifting.
Lando made a quiet sound—something between agreement and protest but didn’t open his eyes.
Oscar smiled faintly before eventually forcing himself to move long enough to grab a towel.
Oscar disappeared only for a moment.
When he came back, Lando only shifted slightly toward him, almost on instinct while Oscar knelt beside him.
“Hey,” he said quietly, brushing his thumb along Lando’s side. “Need you a bit.”
Lando barely reacted—just a small move, enough.
That was all Oscar needed.
He worked gently, unhurried, cleaning him up with the same focus he’d had before—careful, attentive, like it mattered.
Every time Lando flinched, even slightly, Oscar’s touch softened without comment. Lando didn’t argue—just let himself be handled, head turned into the cushion.
When he was done, Oscar didn’t move away straight away.
He just rested his hand briefly at Lando’s side, grounding, making sure he was actually okay before shifting back.
He worked gently, unhurried, cleaning him up with the same focus he’d had before—careful, attentive, like it mattered.
Every time Lando flinched, even slightly, Oscar’s touch softened without comment. Lando didn’t argue—just let himself be handled, head turned into the cushion.
When he was done, Oscar didn’t move away straight away.
He just rested his hand briefly at Lando’s side, grounding, making sure he was actually okay before shifting back.
He grabbed a soft blanket from the bedroom before returning to Lando’s side.
“Hey,” he said softly, noticing Lando was watching him now. “Make some room for me?”
Lando tried—and failed—to move, a quiet huff leaving him.
Oscar smiled faintly and helped instead, careful as he shifted him just enough to squeeze into the limited space. He pulled the blanket over them before wrapping his arms around Lando, close and protective.
“I love you,” Oscar breathed into his curls, pressing a soft kiss there.
“Love you too,” Lando mumbled, already half asleep.
Notes:
Hope you’re not sick of all the kisses because we’re just getting started 😭🫶
Chapter 24: Loud & Clear
Notes:
Is it the ao3 curse if I’m not vibing with my job anymore at all and want to quit? I used to love this place so much but I feel like lately there’s only been bad weekends 😭
Also I think about switching the updates since I noticed there’s more feedback when I post in the evening. Idk.
Anyway was supposed to update it tomorrow but I had such a bad day at work I needed to focus on something nice so here we are.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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Lando didn’t know how long he’d been asleep. Long enough for the room to feel different—quieter, but not in the same way as before. Something shifted.
He blinked slowly, eyes adjusting, and then—
Right.
A blanket was tucked around him, warm, pulled up just enough to cover him—and suddenly he was very aware of the fact that he was completely naked.
Lando grabbed it tighter without thinking, pulling it up as he pushed himself upright, a quiet breath leaving him as his body protested. Okay. Maybe not moving so fast.
A soft clatter came from the kitchen.
Voices.
Lando stilled.
Oscar—and someone else.
That was new.
He glanced down at himself, hesitated for half a second, then reached blindly for his clothes. He managed to find his boxers on the floor, pulling them on quickly before wrapping the blanket loosely around his shoulders anyway.
The voices grew clearer as he moved closer, steps slower this time.
“…wait—you’re home?” There was a light laugh in it. Surprise. Not sharp—just thrown off “I thought you had that race tonight.”
Lando paused just before the doorway.
“Shh,” Oscar said, voice calm. “Not so loud.”
“Wha—”
That was enough for Lando to gather himself and step into the kitchen, curiosity winning over hesitation.
Both Oscar and the girl stilled at the same time.
Lando took a second to actually look at her—and it clicked immediately.
Right. The girl from TikTok. Oscar’s sister. Hattie.
“Hi,” Lando said, voice still rough from sleep, pulling the blanket a little tighter around himself.
Hattie just stared at him for a second, completely speechless.
Then something shifted—recognition, followed by something much sharper.
“You’re kidding,” she said, turning to look at Oscar. “You finally grew the balls to do something about that?”
“Hattie,” Oscar said, voice sharp—warning.
She ignored it completely.
“No, I’m serious,” she went on, glancing back at Lando with a grin. “I’m really happy for you. Finally snatching your childhood crush.”
That—Lando blinked, the words taking a second to actually land.
“…what?”
“Hattie,” Oscar said again, sharper this time.
She waved him off like it meant nothing.
“No, for real,” she went on, looking back at Lando now, eyes lighting up with something between amusement and disbelief.
Oscar’s jaw tightened. “Drop it.”
She didn’t even hesitate.
“Always Norris this, Norris that,” she continued, counting on her fingers. “Did you see his last race, did you see that overtake, did you—”
“Hattie.”
“—honestly, it was exhausting,” she finished, like she hadn’t been interrupted at all. “You were unbearable.”
Lando blinked, then let out a small, disbelieving huff of a laugh.
“Wait—really?” he asked, glancing at Oscar.
Hattie nodded immediately. “Oh yeah. It was a bit much.”
Oscar dragged a hand over his face. “That’s not—”
“And then he just stopped,” she added, cutting him off again. “Like, completely. Didn’t watch anything anymore. It was weird.”
Lando tilted his head slightly, more amused than anything now.
“What, I got boring or something?”
Oscar shot her a look. “Are you done?”
She ignored him again, clearly enjoying herself. “No, I think you just got too media-trained for his taste.”
That earned her a sharper look.
“Hattie.”
Lando snorted quietly at that, the sound slipping out before he could stop it.
“Harsh,” he muttered, glancing between them. “Bit rude.”
“Not wrong,” she shrugged.
Oscar stepped in then, cutting it off before she could say anything else.
“Alright. That’s enough.”
His voice carried that older brother authority Lando recognised immediately — calm, firm, the exact tone Oliver used whenever he’d had enough of something.
It made both him and Hattie pause for a second.
Then Lando looked back at Oscar, the faint hint of a smile still tugging at his mouth.
“…so a fan, huh?” he repeated lightly.
Oscar didn’t answer.
Which, somehow, was worse.
He just exhaled sharply, clearly done with the conversation, before his gaze dropped—and immediately narrowed.
“Put some clothes on.”
Lando blinked at him. “I am—”
“You’re not,” Oscar cut in flatly, already moving.
Hattie snorted under her breath.
Lando glanced down at himself like he’d only just remembered, the blanket still loosely hanging off his shoulders, boxers doing very little to help his case.
“I’m fine,” he said, a bit defensive. “It’s not even cold.”
Oscar didn’t argue.
He just pulled his hoodie off and tossed it at him. “Put it on.”
Lando caught it, but when he shifted to stand properly, the movement caught him off guard—a slight wince, quick but there.
Oscar noticed immediately.
Of course he did.
“Careful” he said quietly, tone dropping without thinking.
Hattie’s eyes flicked between them, something curious sparking.
Lando shot him a look, half warning, half embarrassed, before dragging the hoodie over his head anyway, sleeves swallowing his hands.
“…happy?” he muttered.
Oscar didn’t answer straight away. Just gave him a quick once-over, making sure he was actually steady before nodding once.
“Better.”
Hattie made a small, delighted sound. “Oh my god.”
“Don’t,” Oscar said, sharper now.
“I didn’t even say anything,” she shot back, grin widening.
“You were about to.”
Lando huffed out a quiet laugh despite himself, shifting his weight carefully this time.
“Can we not do this in the kitchen?” he said, glancing between them. “Feels like I’ve walked into something.”
“You have,” Hattie said brightly, already turning toward the living room. “Come on.”
Oscar sighed, dragging a hand over his face.
“You’re not interrogating him.”
“No promises.”
Lando glanced back at Oscar as he followed, a hint of a smirk still there.
“You started it,” he said lightly.
Oscar didn’t respond. But he followed anyway.
Hattie dropped onto the couch, turning toward Lando fully now, attention locked in.
“So,” she started, tilting her head slightly, “how long has this been going on?”
Lando lingered near the edge of the room for a second before easing himself down onto the opposite end of the couch—careful, slower than usual, adjusting like he didn’t quite trust his body yet.
“Define this,” he said, glancing at her.
Oscar stayed by the doorway, leaning his shoulder against the frame, arms crossed loosely. Watching. Not interrupting—yet.
“Don’t start,” he said, but there was no real weight behind it.
“I’m not starting, I’m catching up,” Hattie shot back, then pointed at Lando. “You. Answer.”
Lando shifted slightly, pulling one leg up under himself, sleeves of Oscar’s hoodie covering half his hands.
“We’ve known each other a while,” he said, easy, non-committal.
Hattie narrowed her eyes. “That’s not what I asked.”
“Close enough.”
That earned a small huff from her—half annoyed, half amused. “Oh, I like you,” she decided.
“Stop encouraging him,” Oscar muttered from the doorway.
“I just wanna know,” she continued, ignoring him. “Because from my perspective, my brother just casually has a boyfriend in his kitchen and no one thought to mention it.”
“It’s been two days,” Oscar cut in.
That made her pause.
She turned her head slowly to look at him, “…what?”
“Two days,” he repeated, pushing off the doorframe now, stepping further into the room.
Hattie blinked, then looked back at Lando.
“Two days,” she echoed, “…you’re lying.”
Lando let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “He’s not.”
“You are,” she insisted, pointing between them. “There is no way this is two days.”
Oscar exhaled quietly, already regretting engaging.
“I thought you were together since March,” she added, like it was obvious.
It made Oscar go still for a second. Just long enough for Lando to catch it. “…since March?” he repeated, glancing at him.
Oscar looked away first. “You’re making things up.”
“I’m not,” Hattie said immediately. “There was literally a suitcase here. From Nice.”
Oscar dragged a hand over his face. “That’s what I get for letting you anywhere near my place.”
“I didn’t go through anything,” she shot back. “It was right there.”
Lando’s mouth twitched slightly, amused now, gaze flicking between them.
“Oh, that’s bad,” he murmured.
Hattie leaned forward a bit, clearly pleased with herself. “He tried to act like it wasn’t a thing.”
“It wasn’t,” Oscar said, sharper this time.
Lando tilted his head slightly, still watching him. “Complicated?”
Oscar didn’t answer.
Just looked at him for a second then away again.
Hattie leaned back against the couch, folding her arms, satisfied. “Yeah,” she said. “That sounds about right.”
Oscar exhaled through his nose, running a hand through his hair before finally giving up on controlling any of it “Are you done?”
“Not even close.”
Lando smiled faintly at that, settling a little deeper into the couch.
“Osc, can you make me tea?” he asked, voice almost too innocent.
Oscar looked at him, one brow lifting. “Now?”
Lando just blinked at him.
Oscar sighed. “Alright.” He turned toward the kitchen, already giving in. “But try not to start a war while I’m gone.”
“That depends on her,” Lando said lightly.
Hattie waited until Oscar disappeared fully into the kitchen before shifting slightly on the couch, turning more toward Lando.
She didn’t speak straight away.
Lando looked at her, something between curiosity and hesitation.
“Go on,” she said finally, one brow lifting—she looked way too much like Oscar like that. “I can see it.”
Lando huffed a quiet breath, glancing down for a second before looking back at her.
“So… how bad was it?”
Hattie didn’t even pause.
“I mean, not like he had a fan account or anything,” she said, already grinning.
Then she let out a small laugh.
“But enough for me to recognise you,” Hattie shrugged. “You were just his go-to reference for everything.”
Lando stilled for a second.
“Okay…” Lando said a bit thrown.
“We told him a million times to do something about it,” she went on, ignoring him completely. “Ask that mate of his for your number or something—”
“Wha—” Lando tried, but she kept going.
“But then he just stopped,” she added, more offhand now. “And we kind of forgot about it after a while—”
Oscar came back then, cutting her off mid-sentence.
Two cups of tea in his hands.
He didn’t ask what they were talking about.
Just set one down in front of Hattie, the other in Lando’s hands—fingers brushing briefly, grounding and then sat down between them.
Deliberate. Like he was placing himself there for a reason. A quiet barrier.
“So how did you two meet?” Hattie asked smoothly, switching the topic like she hadn’t just been exposing her brother five seconds ago.
“Uh—” Lando hesitated, glancing between them, not entirely sure how much she was supposed to know.
“At a race,” Oscar said casually, settling back into the couch.
His arm came up behind Lando without thinking, resting along the backrest—close enough to be obvious, natural enough to not be commented on.
Hattie snorted, reaching for her tea. “You? At a GP?”
“Didn’t say it was his,” Oscar replied, completely unfazed.
Lando nearly choked on his tea.
So she knows.
Hattie glanced between them, clearly catching that reaction, but didn’t say anything about it. She just took another sip of her drink instead, looking far too satisfied with herself already.
Then she paused slightly, like she was carefully deciding what to ask next.
“Okay,” she said eventually. “Who said ‘I love you’ first?”
“For god’s sake, Hattie,” Oscar dragged a hand over his face. “Can you be any more nosy?”
“I mean—” she started, a smirk already forming, “he’s in your flat, in your clothes, you’re making him tea on command and not hiding him from me—” she ticked it off on her fingers, “—there had to be an I love you.”
“That’s it,” Oscar cut in, already done. “Finish your tea and kindly get out.”
He didn’t sound angry.
Just tired.
“And not a word to Edie and Mae.”
Hattie didn’t even look offended.
“Can I at least take the car?” she asked instead, completely shameless.
Oscar raised a brow. “Will you tell them?”
“…no,” she said, far too slowly to be convincing.
The Aussie just sighed, “It’s in the garage. Noah will give you the keys.”
Lando made a small choking sound into his cup.
Hattie took her time finishing the tea after that, dragging it out just enough to be annoying about it.
Oscar didn’t rush her.
Just watched.
“Alright,” she said eventually, pushing herself up from the couch. “I’m going.”
“Mm.”
She paused by the door, glancing between them again. Like she was debating saying something else. Then, of course—“Don’t do anything I wouldn’t do.”
“Jesus Christ, Hattie—”
“I’m serious,” she cut in, already grinning. “Be responsible.”
Oscar just pointed at the door.
She laughed under her breath, slipping her shoes on and then she was gone. The door clicked shut.
And the second it did, Oscar moved.
He pulled Lando closer, burying his face into his curls like he’d been holding off the entire time.
Lando let out a breath he hadn’t realised he’d been holding, shoulders softening before a quiet chuckle slipped out.
“So… you didn’t have a poster?”
Oscar didn’t even hesitate. “No.”
Lando’s pouted, glancing up at him. “Shame.”
“You’ve got enough fans for that,” the Aussie said teasing.
“You were halfway there!”
Oscar glanced down at him, something amused breaking through.
“Not even close,” he muttered.
Lando smiled faintly, shifting a little closer without really thinking about it, the oversized hoodie bunching at his wrists.
Oscar didn’t move straight away.
Just stayed there for a second longer, looking down at him like he was deciding something.
Then he moved.
One arm under Lando’s knees, the other at his back, lifting him up in one smooth motion.
“Oi—!” Lando squeaked, instinctively grabbing onto him.
“Dinner’s almost ready,” Oscar said easily, like this was completely normal, carrying him into the kitchen.
Lando stared at him for a second. “You could’ve just said that.”
“Mm.”
Oscar set him down on the counter, hands lingering at his waist for a second longer than necessary before pulling back—leaning in just enough to press a quick kiss to his lips.
“I could’ve stayed in the living room,” Lando pouted.
Oscar glanced at him, one brow raised, already turning back to the stove. “We’re not eating another meal on the sofa.”
“Why not?” Lando asked, a bit annoyed now.
Oscar didn’t even look back.
“Baby.”
That was it. No explanation. Lando managed to stay mad for all of five minutes, sitting there with his arms crossed, pointedly avoiding Oscar—until the smell hit him.
“So…” he started, voice suddenly very innocent, “what are we eating?”
Oscar glanced at him, amused. “Steak.”
Lando’s eyes lit up instantly, a smile breaking through. “Did I say how much I love you?”
“Yeah, you’ve mentioned,” Oscar said, rolling his eyes—but he stepped closer anyway, leaning in for another quick kiss.
“Go sit at the table.”
This time, Lando didn’t argue.
He just slid off the counter—movement a bit slower, a bit more careful than he probably meant it to be.
“Careful, baby,” Oscar said, one hand coming to his hip to steady him.
Lando shot him a look. “This is your fault.”
“Oh, is it?” Oscar chuckled.
Lando narrowed his eyes at him, accusing. “Even worse than the surfing.”
“Yeah?”
“Yeah,” he nodded, already moving toward the table. “The board wasn’t even that big.”
He earned himself a look. Amused. Knowing.
“Should I be sorry?” Oscar asked.
“Yes,” Lando said, dropping into the chair a bit too quickly before correcting himself. “I’m injured.”
They settled into it easily.
Food, quiet, the occasional clink of cutlery—nothing forced into the space.
Lando leaned back slightly in his chair, one leg stretched out under the table, nudging Oscar’s without really thinking about it.
Oscar didn’t move it away.
“Weren’t you supposed to be somewhere today?” Lando asked after a moment, like the thought had only just come back to him.
Oscar didn’t answer immediately, still focused on his food for a second too long.
“A race?”
A small pause.
“Yeah.”
Lando nodded, setting his fork down, already reaching for his phone. “Where is it?”
Oscar shrugged lightly. “Creswick.”
Lando frowned slightly, typing it in.
“That’s not even far,” he muttered, glancing at the map. “Like… an hour?”
“Bit over,” Oscar said.
Lando looked up at him, thinking. Actually thinking now.
“You can still make it.”
Oscar shrugged once, small and indifferent on the surface. “Could.”
That answer landed strangely.
Lando’s brows pulled together slightly. “But?”
Another pause. Oscar’s fork slowed against the plate before stopping completely.
“Don’t really need to go.”
“It’s fine,” Lando added quickly, like he didn’t want him to overthink it. “I can just chill, maybe take another nap.”
Oscar watched him for a moment, like he was trying to figure out what was behind that.
“Baby, it’s fine,” he said eventually. “I can skip one race.”
That didn’t sit right.
Lando shook his head slightly, not letting it drop. He didn’t want Oscar pausing his life just because he was there. Not again.
“You could just take me with you,” he said instead.
Oscar raised a brow.
“I’ll behave,” Lando added quickly, like that was the key part. “Promise.”
That earned him a small huff.
“Last time you ‘behaved’ you ended up in my car,” Oscar said, a smirk tugging at his mouth.
“That was different,” Lando shot back, picking up his fork again, pushing his food around more than actually eating.
“Was it?”
Lando rolled his eyes, but there was no real bite to it.
“I’ll just watch,” he said, softer now.
Oscar studied him for a second longer this time.
“You really wanna go?”
Lando nodded immediately, resting his chin against his hand while he looked back at him with that same stupidly open expression Oscar was rapidly learning he had absolutely no defence against.
“Yeah,” he said. “Just… no racing for me.”
Oscar exhaled softly through his nose.
Like he already knew he was losing this argument.
“Baby,” he tried anyway, “you’re still sore.”
“I’m fine.”
Lando said it so easily too. Completely unconcerned.
And honestly?
Oscar needed to get a grip.
Because somehow, somewhere between march and now, this man had managed to wrap him around his finger without even trying.
Oscar didn’t even bothered arguing anymore.
“Alright,” he sighed finally. “We go. We watch.”
Lando smiled immediately, like that was more than enough.
“And if you start limping, we’re leaving.”
“I’m not limping,” Lando said, mildly offended.
Oscar just raised a brow.
They finished eating without dragging it out, conversation fading naturally as Lando pushed the last bit of food around his plate more than actually eating.
Oscar stood first, grabbing their plates to drop them in the sink before coming back to help Lando up, hand steady at his side as he pulled him to his feet.
Lando followed him, of course he did.
They dressed quickly, Lando finally pulling on his pants and glancing down at the oversized hoodie, still very much not his, while Oscar grabbed a cap and settled it over his curls like it was habit.
They were out the door a minute later, steps easy, familiar, like this wasn’t new anymore.
Lando stopped the moment they reached the car, eyes narrowing slightly as he looked at it, something not lining up.
“You going?” Oscar asked, already at the passenger side, opening the door like there was nothing to question.
Lando didn’t move.
His gaze stayed on the car, brows pulling together.
Lando hesitated a second longer, then gave in, sliding into the seat, still looking around like the inside might explain the outside.
It didn’t.
Oscar shut the door, rounded the front, and got in, the engine starting with that same low, controlled purr as he pulled out like nothing had changed.
Lando kept looking. At the reflection in the window.
At the side mirror.
At the way the light hit the paint.
“…you painted it,” he said finally, not quite a question.
“No.”
Lando turned his head slowly.
“Oscar.”
“It’s a wrap.” That didn’t help.
Lando shifted in his seat, angling himself slightly toward him now, one arm resting against the door as he kept looking between him and the road.
“That still doesn’t answer why.”
Oscar’s grip adjusted slightly on the wheel, subtle, almost unconscious.
“Had to redo a panel,” he said after a second.
Lando stilled.
His eyes flicked back to the side of the car again, sharper now, like he was trying to see through it.
“…what?”
“A guy clipped me last month,” Oscar added, tone flat, like it barely registered. “Took the mirror with him. Scratched the side.”
The words landed strangely.
Too casual for what they meant.
Lando’s gaze dropped, following the line of the door, imagining it—impact, angle, how it must’ve hit.
“And you just wrapped the whole thing?” he asked, quieter now.
Oscar shrugged slightly. “Cheaper. Faster.”
Of course.
Lando leaned back into the seat, exhaling through his nose, still picturing it for a second longer than he meant to.
“You didn’t think to mention that?”
“Baby,” Oscar said, his free hand coming to Lando’s thigh, squeezing softly, grounding, “it’s not a big deal.”
It was.
Lando knew it was.
He knew exactly what that kind of hit could turn into, how quickly things could go wrong and out there, help wasn’t waiting. No medical team. No one ready the second something happened. Maybe no one at all.
He swallowed, taking Oscar’s hand into his own, squeezing his fingers just enough.
“Did you at least win?” he asked, voice uneven.
Oscar glanced at him, then lifted their joined hands, pressing a soft kiss to the Brits knuckles.
“You know I did.”
Lando let out a quiet breath, something easing in his chest despite everything.
He knew he couldn’t do much more than that.
Just trust him. Trust that he knew what he was doing. That he’d be fine.
The rest of the drive settled after that.
Not silent—just quieter. The kind of silence that didn’t need filling.
The road stretched out ahead of them, streetlights thinning as they moved further out, the car steady under Oscar’s hands like it had never been touched, never been hit, never needed fixing at all.
Lando shifted slightly in his seat, adjusting the cap as it slipped lower over his eyes, one hand disappearing into the pocket of the hoodie without much thought.
A second later, there was a faint crinkle. Oscar’s eyes flicked toward him briefly. Lando pulled out a slightly squished candy bar, looking at it like it had just appeared there.
“Huh.”
Oscar’s mouth twitched. “…when did you take that?”
Lando glanced at him, already peeling it open.
“I didn’t.”
“Right.”
“I didn’t,” he repeated, taking a bite like that proved his point. “It was just there.”
Oscar huffed quietly under his breath, shaking his head.
“Sure.”
Lando just smiled to himself, settling back into the seat, chewing slowly, like this was completely normal behaviour. He broke off a piece after a second, holding it out toward Oscar without looking at him.
Oscar didn’t hesitate, leaning slightly to take it, eyes still on the road.
The car slowed as they pulled into the lot, the atmosphere shifting immediately—lights, people, the low hum of engines carrying through the air.
Lando straightened slightly in his seat, attention snapping forward, curiosity taking over before he could stop it.
Oscar guided the car toward the edge, smooth as ever, slotting it into place like he’d done it a hundred times before.
And he probably had.
The engine cut.
For a second, neither of them moved.
Then Oscar reached over, adjusting the cap on Lando’s head again, pulling it a little lower.
“Stay close,” he said, like earlier. Like it mattered.
Lando nodded once.
Then reached for the handle.
The car door shut with a muted thud behind them, the sound swallowed almost immediately by the low hum of the lot.
Engines. Voices. Laughter somewhere off to the side.
Lando stepped out beside him, gaze flicking around, taking it in not as sharp as the first time, not as overwhelming, but still… alive in a way that felt different from everything else.
Closer.
Messier.
Real.
His fingers found Oscar’s hand without thinking, just there.
Oscar didn’t comment on it. Didn’t look down. Just let his hand settle around Lando’s, firm and easy, like it belonged there.
They moved through it slowly.
Not rushing.
People glanced over some curious, some recognizing Oscar, a few doing double takes that lingered a second too long—but nothing like before. No shift in the air. No tension snapping into place.
Just awareness.
Lando stayed close. Not hiding—just not drifting either. His shoulder brushed Oscar’s once, then again, like he was making sure he was still there, and Oscar adjusted slightly each time without breaking stride.
They stopped near a car with it’s hood up, two guys bent over it, voices low but edged.
“—it’s not the intake—”
“It is, you’re just—”
Oscar stepped in without hesitation. “Your mapping’s off,” he said simply.
Both of them looked up, recognition flickering quick and contained.
“Yeah?” one of them said, straightening slightly. “Gonna charge me for the tip?”
Oscar just gave him a look. But there was no tension as the guy smirked at him and gave Oscar a high five.
Lando hovered just behind him, still close, still holding on, listening more than anything, eyes flicking over the engine, the parts, the way they spoke.
Different world.
Same language.
One of the guys glanced at him briefly.
“Your mate?”
Oscar didn’t look back.
“Lan.”
That was it. Nothing more.
The guy nodded once like it was enough, attention already drifting back to the car. No questions, no reactions. Just noted.
“Car’s looking different,” the other one said after a moment, nodding vaguely toward where the Senna sat.
Oscar shrugged lightly. “Yeah.”
Lando caught that.
Didn’t react.
Just tightened his grip slightly for a second, then let it settle again.
“Oi.” The voice came from behind them—closer now, familiar. Oscar turned. Lando followed a second later. Noah.
He looked between them once—quick, assessing, taking in the hand, the distance (or lack of it), the way Lando stood just slightly angled toward Oscar.
His mouth twitched.
“Didn’t think you’d bring your boy here,” he said, tone easy, but quieter than the others.
Oscar didn’t answer.
Didn’t deny it either.
Lando tilted his head slightly, meeting his gaze.
“Hi.”
Noah huffed a small breath through his nose, something like amusement flickering there.
“Couldn’t skip a race, huh?” the other man added from behind them.
“Nah, just came to watch,” Oscar said, pulling Lando a bit closer without thinking.
“Oscar Piastri stepping out of a race?”
There was a faint edge of disbelief in it, but it stayed low, contained, like everything else here.
Oscar didn’t react too much.
Just shifted his weight slightly, thumb brushing once over the back of Lando’s hand like it didn’t mean anything.
“Yeah.”
That was all he gave.
No explanation.
No performance.
Noah’s eyes flicked between them again, catching that small movement, the way Lando stayed close without being told to.
Something in his expression shifted—just a fraction.
“Right,” he said, like he was figuring out more than was being said out loud.
Lando glanced between them, catching the tone more than the words, the way everything here sat just under the surface.
Different rules. Same game.
He adjusted his grip slightly, fingers threading properly through Oscar’s this time, more deliberate. Not hiding.
Not letting go either.
“Shame,” the other guy muttered, leaning back against the car. “Would’ve liked to see that.”
Oscar huffed quietly. “You’ve seen it.”
Lando’s gaze drifted past them, toward the stretch of road at the edge of the lot, cars pulling in and out, engines revving low, anticipation building in that subtle way that didn’t need announcing.
It felt different being here now. Less like stepping into something unknown. More like standing at the edge of it.
Noah followed his line of sight.
“You sure?” he asked Oscar, tone casual, but there was something underneath it.
Testing.
Oscar didn’t answer straight away.
Just looked down at Lando for a second—quick, checking.
Then back at Noah.
“Not tonight.”
Again.
Noah held his gaze for a second longer this time, like he was weighing it, then glanced down briefly at their hands, at the way Lando leaned just slightly into Oscar without thinking about it.
Something clicked.
Not said.
Just… understood.
His eyes flicked briefly to Lando, then back to Oscar.
“You’re wasting a good night,” he said, tone easy, almost offhand, like it didn’t matter either way.
Oscar didn’t take the bait.
Lando did.
Just slightly.
His brows pulled together for a second, gaze shifting between them, trying to piece together the code.
Noah rolled one shoulder in a small shrug, glancing back toward the road where another car pulled up, engine cutting with a sharp rev.
“I’ll be around,” he added after a moment, quieter, like it was nothing.
It wasn’t a suggestion.
Not really.
More like—
an option, left there.
Oscar’s grip on Lando’s hand shifted again, subtle, almost grounding.
He didn’t answer straight away.
Lando looked at him then, properly this time.
“You can go,” he said, like it had just occurred to him, but it hadn’t. “I’m fine.”
Oscar’s eyes dropped to him immediately. “Baby—”
“I mean it,” Lando cut in, softer, but steadier. “I’m not the one racing tonight.”
A small pause.
Then, lighter—
“I’ll behave.”
That earned him the smallest exhale through Oscar’s nose.
Not quite a laugh.
Close.
Noah’s mouth twitched, like he was enjoying this more than he should.
“I’ll keep an eye on him,” he said again, a little more direct this time, but still easy, still giving Oscar room to refuse.
Oscar looked between them—Noah, then Lando.
Weighing it.
Lando squeezed his hand once, deliberate.
“Go,” he said, quieter now. “I want to watch.”
That—landed.
Different from before.
Not pushing.
Just honest.
Oscar held his gaze for a second longer, like he was checking for something—hesitation, doubt, anything. Didn’t find it.
His thumb brushed once more over Lando’s hand.
Then he let go.
“Stay with him,” he said, more to Lando than Noah.
“I will.”
Another second.
Then Oscar stepped back, already shifting, already changing, slipping into that sharper version of himself as he turned toward the cars.
And this time—
he didn’t say he wasn’t racing.
He just didn’t say anything more.
Lando watched him go. Didn’t follow. Didn’t move straight away either, just stood there for a second longer than necessary, eyes tracking Oscar’s back as he slipped into the car, into that version of himself that fit here so easily—different, sharper, where he belonged.
“C’mon,” Noah said beside him, already turning. “Better view this way.”
Lando blinked once, then followed, falling into step without argument.
They didn’t go far, just enough to get a clear line of sight toward the road—cars starting to line up properly now, engines revving in short bursts, people shifting into place without being told. Just… knowing.
Lando leaned slightly against a low barrier, arms folding loosely, but his attention stayed locked ahead.
First car launched.
The Senna.
Then another.
The sound hit first—sharp, aggressive, cutting through everything else—then the movement, headlights disappearing into the dark stretch of road.
He felt it.
That familiar pull in his chest.
Different setting.
Same instinct.
“Not bad,” Noah muttered beside him, watching too.
Lando huffed softly. “Bit messy.”
That earned him a glance—quick, assessing.
“Different?” Noah asked, casual.
Lando shrugged one shoulder. “A bit.”
Noah’s mouth twitched like he didn’t believe that for a second, but he didn’t push it, just nodded once and looked back toward the road.
The cars came back around fast. Too fast. One slightly ahead, the others trailing, engines cutting as they slowed, the next set already pulling forward to line up.
Round one done.
No celebration. No drama. Just reset.
Lando shifted his weight slightly, eyes tracking everything—lines, braking points, the way each driver handled the corners. He didn’t even realise he was doing it.
“Yeah,” Noah said after a moment, like it confirmed something for him.
Lando glanced at him. “What?”
“Nothing.” That wasn’t convincing.
Lando narrowed his eyes slightly but let it go, attention snapping back as the next set lined up.
Round two started cleaner. Better launches. Tighter lines.
Lando leaned forward just slightly this time, focus sharpening without him meaning to.
“See that?” he muttered, more to himself than anything. “Too early on throttle—”
Noah snorted quietly. “Yeah. Thought the same.”
That made Lando glance at him again, a hint of amusement flickering.
“Good eye for a circuit driver,” Noah added, teasing, but without a trace of bite.
Lando stilled for a second before relaxing again.
It was fine. Oscar trusted him.
That was enough for Lando to do the same.
The second round finished—cleaner, faster, the gap smaller this time.
Lando let out a quiet breath, something restless settling under his skin.
“Relax,” Noah said, like he’d noticed. “He’s not even trying yet.”
It made him still. Just for a second, because yeah.
He knew.
—
Three more to go.
Oscar rested his hand loosely on the wheel, eyes forward, but his mind wasn’t fully on the lineup. He’d already clocked them strengths, mistakes, who pushed too hard, who held back. He knew where they’d break, where they’d hesitate, where he wouldn’t. That part was easy. It always was.
What wasn’t was the way his focus kept slipping. Not away, not unfocused—just… elsewhere. Back.
Lando.
Somewhere behind the line, probably leaning slightly forward the way he did when he got into it, eyes locked on the road, seeing everything, not missing a single mistake.
Watching him.
That shifted something.
Oscar exhaled slowly, rolling his shoulders once as he reset his grip on the wheel. He didn’t need to prove anything here. Not really. He’d done it before. Again and again.
But his jaw tightened slightly.
He wanted to.
Not for the crowd. Not for the people lining the edges, pretending they weren’t watching too closely.
For him.
Because Lando knew what fast looked like. Knew what control felt like. Knew the difference between someone getting lucky and someone being better.
Oscar’s thumb tapped once against the wheel, impatient. He wanted that look—not surprise, not curiosity. Recognition. The kind that didn’t need words.
He adjusted slightly in his seat, foot hovering, timing already ticking in his head.
Flag down.
Off.
Everything narrowed, noise fading as focus sharpened into something clean and precise.
This was his.
No data. No radios. No one telling him what to do.
Just instinct. And control.
He didn’t need to look back. He knew Lando was watching.
And for the first time in a long time—
Oscar wanted to win for more than just himself.
—
Lando didn’t move, not even realising he’d leaned forward until Noah’s shoulder brushed his.
The car cut through the corner clean.
Too clean.
“Show off,” he muttered under his breath, no real bite to it.
He didn’t look away.
Didn’t miss it—the control, the restraint, the way Oscar wasn’t pushing, just choosing when to.
His grip tightened slightly against the barrier.
Yeah.
He knew exactly what he was doing.
—
By the time the final round lined up, the air had changed. Less noise, less movement, everything sharper, more focused.
One car beside him.
That was it.
Oscar flexed his fingers once against the wheel, settling his grip. The engine idled low beneath him, steady, controlled—like it knew what was coming. So did he. No nerves, not really. Just that familiar edge, the one that made everything else fall away.
A hand lifted somewhere ahead. No countdown, no warning.
He launched clean.
Not aggressive—controlled. The car hooked immediately, no wasted movement, just forward, sharp and precise as he fed the throttle in exactly where it needed to be. First shift, second—the other car stayed with him, right there.
He could still feel him there.
The first corner came fast. He braked later, not by much—just enough. Turned in smoother. No correction, no fight, the car doing exactly what he asked of it, downforce pressing it into the asphalt. Out. On power early.
He edged ahead. Half a car.
Not enough to relax.
The other driver pushed harder now, he could hear it in the engine, feel it in the way the car lingered just within reach, trying to force it. Oscar didn’t respond to that, didn’t match the aggression. He stayed precise. That was the difference.
Second corner tighter. The rear shifted just slightly, a controlled slide, held exactly where he wanted it before snapping cleanly back into line.
Still ahead.
The final stretch opened. This was where most people went all in. Oscar didn’t. He just executed—throttle clean, line perfect, no wasted movement.
The other car fell back. Not dramatically. Just enough.
Enough to know.
And then it was done.
Oscar eased off, the engine dropping from that sharp scream into something lower, calmer, like nothing had happened at all. He didn’t react straight away, didn’t celebrate, just drove, letting it settle.
Then his gaze lifted, not to the crowd, not to the others—
just Lando.
And there it was.
That look.
Recognition.
Yeah.
That was worth it.
Notes:
This fic is seriously just writing itself as I go, I remember when I came up with the race idea that somebody commented the’d love to see more of Oscar’s races and I was like “yeah we should do that” and just went ahead and wrote this 😂
I honestly don’t have a big picture for the fic in my mind anymore I KNOW exactly how I want the ending scene to go.
I kinda have an idea how I want to adress the major topics.
The rest? Just freestyle.
So sometimes I’m as shook as you are with how it goes 😭
Chapter 25: Clean air
Notes:
Hi, editing this chapter took me waaaaay longer than it should have.
I’m so sorry I can’t keep up with all the comment’s especially that I get easily overwhelmed by all the love 🫶
But I read every single one and even brag to that one coworker friend about how popular I am 😂
Anyway enjoy xx
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
For once, Lando didn’t wake up alone.
The first thing he felt was Oscar’s arms around him, strong and steady, holding him close against his chest.
Light filtered in through the curtains, soft and warm, the kind that didn’t demand anything from them. No alarms, no schedules, no one knocking on the door.
Just quiet.
Lando sighed, shifting slightly, pressing back into the warmth like he could disappear into it.
“Good morning, baby.”
Oscar’s voice was low, still edged with sleep, his thumb tracing something slow and absent-minded along Lando’s side like he’d been doing it for a while.
“Yeah… it is good,” Lando mumbled.
A small pause.
Then, softer—“Can we stay like this forever?”
Oscar’s hand stilled for just a second. Not enough for Lando to notice properly. Then it moved again, slow and steady, like before.
“Mm,” he hummed, pressing a quiet kiss into Lando’s hair. “We can stay for a bit.”
Not forever.
But enough.
Lando didn’t argue. Didn’t point it out. Just shifted slightly, turning his head enough to press his face properly into Oscar’s chest, like that was close enough.
“What do I owe the honour of Mr Piastri staying in bed this late?” he teased, voice still half-asleep.
Oscar hummed, the sound low against him.
“Mm… my boyfriend was clingy,” he said easily. “Didn’t want to let me go when I tried to get up.”
Lando huffed softly, tightening his hold just a fraction.
“You didn’t look like you were trying that hard.”
The Aussie’s grip tightened just slightly as he leaned down, voice lower now, closer to Lando’s ear.
“Yeah?” He paused for a second just for dramatics. “Want me to try again?”
That made the Brit finally open his eyes, just enough to shoot Oscar a narrow look. “Don’t you dare.”
“What are you gonna do about it?” Oscar murmured, already closer.
Lando held his gaze for a second—
like he meant it.
Like he was actually going to stop him.
And he did.
His hand slid up, catching at the back of Oscar’s shirt, pulling him down before he could move — and their lips met, soft at first, almost testing, like neither of them was in a rush to break it.
It didn’t stay soft.
It never really did.
The kiss deepened, all teeth and breath and no real rhythm, the kind that didn’t care about being careful. Lando shifted under him, pressing up just enough to close whatever space was left between them, a soft, half-laughed exhale getting lost somewhere between their mouths.
Oscar followed without thinking.
Of course he did.
A quiet breath left him, half-caught against Lando’s mouth, his hand settling more firmly at his side, keeping him there like it mattered.
“Convinced to stay?” Lando muttered, barely pulling back.
Oscar huffed something that might’ve been a laugh. Then leaned in again—this time without asking.
It didn’t start slow this time.
No hesitation, no testing—just immediate, like whatever space they’d had a second ago didn’t exist anymore. Lando’s breath caught, hand tightening in Oscar’s shirt as he pulled him closer, like that wasn’t already happening fast enough.
Oscar leaned into it fully, pressing him back into the mattress, one hand braced beside him, the other sliding along his side, firm, grounding.
Messier.
The kiss broke and came back just as quick, barely a second to breathe before it crashed together again, all heat and no patience. Lando let out a small, uneven moan, somewhere between a laugh and something softer, tilting his head to chase it properly this time.
“Thought you were getting up,” he murmured, words brushing against Oscar’s mouth.
Oscar didn’t answer.
Didn’t need to.
His grip tightened slightly instead, pulling him in again, sharper this time, like that was answer enough.
By the time he pulled back, it wasn’t far.
Never far.
Just enough to breathe, forehead resting briefly against Lando’s.
“…that your way of keeping me here?” he murmured.
“Did it work?” Lando asked, all wide eyes.
Oscar looked at him for a moment, something like disbelief flickering across his face—how fast he could switch like that was almost ridiculous—before letting out a quiet chuckle.
“Yeah, baby,” he said. “We can stay in bed a bit longer.”
He pressed a soft kiss to Lando’s forehead, shifting slightly, trying to sit up without fully pulling away.
“Um…” Lando hesitated, looking at him. “I’m hungry.”
Oscar blinked at him, one brow lifting. “You want me to make breakfast?”
Lando considered it for a second, still not fully awake.
“…no. Can we eat out?”
Oscar just shook his head, amused—they both already knew the answer and made another attempt to get up.
“But five more minutes,” Lando said quickly, pulling him back down before he could.
They didn’t hurry getting ready. Lando took his time in the shower, tried to tame his curls, then went through Oscar’s closet in search of something that felt right.
It kind of felt like a date.
Was it a date?
The Brit wasn’t sure.
He was the one who suggested it, so didn’t that make it his call? Or should he have asked Oscar first… or was that too much?
Oscar leaned against the doorframe, arms loosely crossed, watching.
He’d been there for a while.
Long enough to see Lando go through three different shirts, hesitate, change his mind, then circle back like the first one might’ve been right after all.
He didn’t say anything.
Didn’t need to.
There was something about it—about the way Lando stood there, half-focused, half somewhere else, like this mattered more than he wanted to admit.
Like he was trying.
Oscar’s gaze dipped briefly, taking in the oversized hoodie, the way it sat on him, sleeves still a little too long.
His.
He didn’t comment on that either.
Lando huffed quietly under his breath, holding up another option, squinting at it like it might give him an answer.
“This one or—” he started, glancing over and stilled when he noticed Oscar.
“…what?”
Oscar didn’t move.
“Nothing.” That wasn’t convincing.
Lando narrowed his eyes slightly. “You’ve been standing there for ages, haven’t you?”
“Maybe.”
Then, a little softer—“You done yet?”
Lando rolled his eyes, but there was no real bite to it, turning back to the closet anyway.
“Shut up.”
Oscar’s mouth twitched. “Take the first one.”
Lando shot him a look—but put it on anyway.
They didn’t stay much longer after that. Lando slipped his phone into his pocket and followed Oscar outside.
The air was cooler there, fresher—enough to wake him up a little more than expected.
Oscar unlocked the car and opened the passenger door without saying anything. Lando got in easily. Familiar now. A small routine.
The drive wasn’t long. Quiet in the comforting way—just the low hum of the engine, Oscar’s hand resting on Lando’s thigh, the occasional glance.
The car stopped at a small café, tucked between two narrow streets, the kind of place you’d miss if you didn’t know it was there.
Inside, it was warm. Soft chatter, the clink of cups, sunlight spilling through the windows.
They took a seat by one of them, light falling across the table, catching on the edge of Lando’s sleeve. He looked around for a second, taking it in.
Then back at Oscar. “…you come here a lot?”
Oscar glanced up from the menu. “No, but Edie said it’s nice.”
Lando paused for a moment, weighing it—whether to ask or just leave it.
He didn’t.
“Is this a date?”
Oscar chuckled. “Do you want it to be a date?”
Lando looked at him, a bit thrown. He hadn’t thought about that.
“I… don’t know?”
Oscar sighed softly, but his eyes gave him away—there was so much affection in his gaze Lando felt it with his whole body.
“Tell you what, baby.” He reached across the table, taking Lando’s hand in his. “I’ll take you on a real date. Not a spontaneous breakfast trip.”
Lando looked at him for a second, like he was trying to figure out if that was serious.
“…proper date?” he echoed, a bit quieter now.
Oscar shrugged lightly, like it wasn’t a big deal.
“Yeah.” He nodded once. “But you’ll have to let me plan it.”
Lando’s thumb brushed once over his knuckles.
“Okay.”
No one had ever really planned a date for him before. Usually, he was the one making the decisions, figuring everything out. This… felt different.
He felt taken care of with Oscar.
Dangerously so.
When the waitress came to take their order, Lando realised he hadn’t even looked at the menu.
“We’ll have the banana and date French toast, and the avo toast with bacon,” Oscar said with an easy smile. “An Earl Grey and a black coffee, please.”
Lando watched the waitress walk off before turning back to him, narrowing his eyes slightly.
“I hope the banana one is for me.”
Oscar reached for his hand, lifting it just enough to press a soft kiss to it.
“I don’t think I’d survive that much sugar in the morning, baby.”
They only pulled apart when the food came, but Lando still slid one of his feet closer to Oscar’s, nudging lightly against his ankle—playing footsie like a teenager under the table.
Oscar glanced at him, the corner of his mouth lifting, but didn’t say anything.
Lando focused on his plate for a second, cutting into the French toast
“Subtle,” he muttered.
Lando just grinned, like he wasn’t even going to pretend. The first few bites passed easy, quiet in that comfortable way.
“So how are your other two sisters?” Lando asked. Oscar had mentioned them a few times, but never said much. “As scary as Hattie?”
Oscar looked at him, amused for a second.
“Edie will analyse you in this weird, quiet way,” he said. “Less chaotic, but still…” He shrugged slightly. “And Mae’s a sweetheart. She’s still young, but I hope that doesn’t change.”
Lando hummed softly.
The feeling behind it was strangely familiar. Different people. Different family. Same kind of fondness underneath it.
His fingers tapped absently against the mug in his hands before something clicked suddenly into place.
“—wait.”
Oscar glanced up.
Lando frowned slightly, replaying the conversation in his head.
“Hattie said something yesterday…” he started, slower now. “About you asking someone for my number.”
He paused, fingers stilling against his plate.
“…what was that about?”
Oscar paused, fork hovering halfway to his mouth before he set it back down.
“I probably should’ve mentioned it,” he said after a moment. “Just… didn’t think it mattered.”
Lando watched him, something shifting in his expression—curiosity, edged with something a little heavier.
Oscar exhaled quietly.
“I used to know Max.”
“…Verstappen?” Lando asked, not quite following.
Oscar shook his head slightly.
“No. Fewtrell.” His voice dropped a fraction. “We used to race together. Back in England.”
Lando blinked at him once, then again—like Oscar had just explained how to build a car from the ground up, not something this simple.
His brain worked for a second before he finally spoke, “You know my best friend?”
Oscar’s expression softened immediately.
“I’m sorry, baby. I know I should’ve said it earlier.” He held his gaze, something quieter slipping in. “But it was a long time ago. I haven’t talked to him in years.”
Lando held his gaze for a second longer, like he was trying to place it somewhere in his head, then nodded once.
“Okay,” he said easily, and that was it. No questions, no pushing. He went back to his food like nothing had really changed.
But it lingered.
Not just Max—the timing. The fact that they could’ve met earlier. Years earlier. Before all of this, before it got complicated.
Lando frowned slightly, pressing his fork into the French toast. Weird. He didn’t like that thought. Didn’t sit right.
Oscar watched him then really looked. The slight crease between his brows, the way his mouth sat somewhere between neutral and something else.
“Baby,” he said, reaching for his hand again. “I didn’t try to keep it from you.”
Lando glanced at him, the frown easing just slightly.
“I know,” he said, quieter now.
Lando glanced at him, the frown easing just slightly.
“I know,” he repeated, with a small sigh. “I don’t think you did.”
His fingers shifted in Oscar’s hand, not pulling away—just settling.
“It’s just…” he hesitated, like he didn’t quite know how to phrase it, then shook his head lightly. “Weird, I guess.”
That was all he gave. He reached for his tea, like the conversation ended there. Oscar didn’t push it. Just squeezed his hand gently before letting go, like that was enough for now.
“Eat,” he said lightly, nodding toward Lando’s plate. “Before it gets cold.”
Lando exhaled softly through his nose, something closer to a smile returning this time.
“Yes, mum.”
Oscar looked at him flatly. “That’s new,” he muttered.
Lando didn’t answer that but his eyes drifted toward Oscar’s plate instead.
“Yours looks better.”
Oscar didn’t even hesitate. “It is.”
Lando looked offended immediately, “That’s so rude.”
The Aussie just rolled his eyes, but cut a piece of his own breakfast before lifting the fork toward Lando.
Lando leaned in to take the bite.
“No,” he decided immediately. “Mine’s better. This isn’t sweet enough.”
Oscar just chuckled, not arguing.
Neither of them seemed particularly eager to move yet. Lando lingered over the last of his tea, tapping the spoon lightly against the cup before finally pushing it away.
“Okay,” he said, stretching slightly. “What’s next?”
Oscar glanced at him, one brow lifting. “You tell me.”
Lando thought about it for a second. “Walk?”
Outside, the air felt different now—warmer, busier, the city properly awake.
Lando stepped out first, blinking slightly in the light before glancing back at Oscar.
Oscar just took his hand without question and led him through a few streets, turning into a narrow passage.
Lando blinked—then lit up immediately.
“It gives Camden vibes!” he said, already looking around like he was trying to take everything in at once. “Have you even been to London?”
“Yes,” Oscar said simply, his attention more on Lando than the shops.
“Doesn’t it give you Camden vibes?” he pressed, turning to him with wide eyes.
“I don’t think I’ve been there,” Oscar admitted. “So… not really.”
Lando looked genuinely offended.
“Oscar, how could you? That’s like one of the most important places to visit when you’re in London!” He didn’t even give him a chance to defend himself. “We need to fix that. We’ll do all the touristy things when you visit—I’ll take you to Chinatown, and we can even ride the London Eye if you want!”
He kept going, already building the whole plan out loud. Oscar didn’t interrupt.
He just watched him, a soft smile settling on his face as Lando casually mapped out a future that felt real.
He didn’t comment on the fact that Lando could probably go ten minutes at most in his own country without being recognised.
It felt manageable.
They could make it work.
They wandered through the arcade, window shopping without really buying anything, Lando stopping every few steps to point something out or comment on something random.
But their hands stayed together.
They drifted out of the there slowly, neither of them in any hurry.
The streets were busier now, people moving past them in a steady flow, voices blending into the background.
Lando adjusted his grip slightly, lacing their fingers together properly this time.
Oscar glanced down at it for a second, but didn’t say anything.
“Careful,” he muttered after a beat. “Getting clingy again.”
Lando huffed. “You love it.”
A small smile tugged at Oscar’s mouth.
“Maybe.”
He leaned in, pressing a soft kiss into Lando’s curls.
Lando kept looking around, attention catching on random things—a street performer, a dog passing by, something in a shop window that made him stop for a second before moving on again.
Oscar stayed with him.
Always did.
They wandered like that for a while.
Then—“What’s that?” Lando asked, pointing ahead.
The building stood open and wide at the end of the street, pale stone catching the sunlight, tall columns framing the entrance. Broad steps stretched out in front of it, people scattered across them—sitting, talking, passing through like it was just another part of the city.
But it didn’t feel like that.
It felt… quieter.
Like stepping closer would automatically lower your voice.
“The Victoria Library,” Oscar said, adding casually, “I’ve probably spent too much time in there while I was at uni.”
Lando’s attention shifted immediately.
“Can we go inside?”
Oscar couldn’t say no to him.
The shift in atmosphere was immediate—quieter, calmer, the kind of place that made you lower your voice without even thinking about it.
“I kinda miss this place,” Oscar said with a small laugh. “Haven’t been here in a while.”
“Always knew you were a nerd,” Lando teased. “Did you have a favourite table?”
“Yeah, actually.”
And of course he did.
Oscar guided him through the space like he knew it by heart—turns taken without hesitation, small shortcuts, little details pointed out along the way.
Lando followed, slower now, taking it in.
“I mean… I didn’t finish school,” he said after a moment, smiling a bit awkwardly. “So I’m not one to judge.”
Oscar glanced at him.
“It’d be a bit tricky for you to do both—school and a career like yours,” he said easily. “You’re too hard on yourself, baby.”
Lando looked away slightly, shoulders lifting in a small shrug.
“I bet you’d manage,” he muttered, quiet enough that Oscar didn’t catch it.
Or at least didn’t react to it.
They didn’t stay too long.
Long enough to walk, to look, to let Oscar show him that part of his life.
Then back outside.
They grabbed drinks to go—something cold this time—and made their way toward the Yarra.
The city softened there.
Water moving slowly beside them, the sun warm but not overwhelming, people passing by without paying too much attention.
For a while, they didn’t talk much.
Just walked.
Hands still tied together.
Comfortable.
Easy.
“Alright,” Oscar said after a while. “Ready to go home, Mr Norris?”
Lando glanced at him, like he’d been pulled out of something.
“Do we have to?” he asked, quieter than before.
Oscar’s expression softened.
“We don’t have to rush,” he said, thumb brushing lightly over the back of Lando’s hand. “But you’ve got a long day tomorrow.”
Lando huffed softly, like he knew that already.
“Yeah,” he muttered.
Then he shifted closer, shoulder brushing into Oscar’s as they started walking again—slower this time, like stretching out the last of it.
They didn’t talk much on the way back.
Didn’t need to.
Just stayed close, hands still linked, steps falling into the same rhythm without thinking about it.
By the time they reached the car, the city felt louder again.
Sharper.
Like something had shifted.
Oscar unlocked it, glancing at Lando briefly before opening the door for him.
Lando slid in, quieter now.
The drive back was calm, but not as light as before. Not heavy. Just—aware.
Lando watched the city pass by through the window, fingers still loosely curled in the sleeve of Oscar’s shirt.
Like he hadn’t fully let go yet. Oscar didn’t say anything, just rested a hand on his thigh again—steady, grounding. Lando leaned into it without thinking.
None of them moved for a second after the car stopped.
The engine ticked softly beneath them as the silence settled back in around the car.
Then Oscar exhaled quietly and came around to Lando’s side out of habit more than anything, opening the door like it was automatic now.
Lando stepped out, waiting without thinking until Oscar was next to him again.
Then inside.
They slipped their shoes off, and for a moment neither of them moved—just stood there in the hallway.
Lando glanced up.
Oscar was already looking at him.
Eyes soft, a faint, almost disbelieving smile on his lips.
“I’m so in love with you,” he said quietly, reaching up to cup Lando’s face. “You have no idea.”
He paused for a moment, choosing his words.
“I’m not making the same mistake of letting you go again.”
That was everything Lando needed to hear.
The certainty. The promise.
“Yeah?” Lando breathed, eyes slightly glassy now. “Don’t complain later… you’re not getting rid of me.”
Oscar’s mouth softened.
“Yeah.”
He leaned in first.
The kiss wasn’t rushed.
It was slow, deliberate—like he meant every second of it.
Lando melted into it almost immediately, hands finding the back of Oscar’s neck, holding on like he wasn’t planning to let go anytime soon.
It deepened anyway. It always did.
Something in the way Oscar pulled him closer, his hand still warm against Lando’s jaw—grounding, firm, like he needed to feel that he was actually there.
Lando’s breath caught softly, the sound slipping between them as he leaned in further, closing a distance that didn’t really exist anymore.
Oscar’s hands slid down to his hips, steady, guiding him back until Lando’s shoulders pressed lightly against the door.
Lando made a soft sound into the kiss anyway, already chasing more.
It always got like this eventually.
With Oscar it only took one real kiss before Lando started feeling greedy.
The kiss deepened naturally after that, slower turning messier in tiny increments.
Breaths mixing.
Mouths parting.
“Fuck,” Lando whispered against his mouth before kissing him again immediately.
Oscar huffed a quiet breath through his nose, almost amused, but his grip tightened slightly on Lando’s waist anyway.
Needy.
Lando was already getting needy.
His hips pressed forward without thinking and Oscar felt it instantly.
“So impatient,” Oscar murmured softly against his lips.
“You kissed me first.” Lando frowned at him immediately like he’d been personally offended, “Deal with the consequences.”
Lando was already chasing—hips pressing forward, fingers tightening in Oscar’s hair, a soft sound escaping his mouth.
Oscar let him lead, for a second.
Then he pulled back just enough, forehead resting against Lando’s, breath warm, uneven now.
His hands stayed firm on Lando’s hips.
“Bedroom,” he murmured, voice low.
Before Lando could answer, Oscar slid his hands under his thighs and lifted him effortlessly. Lando let out a surprised breath, legs wrapping around Oscar’s waist on instinct as he was carried down the short hallway.
“Osc—” Lando started, half-laughing, half-breathless, but Oscar only hummed quietly and pressed a kiss to the side of his neck.
When they reached the bedroom, Oscar barely got Lando onto the mattress before Lando was pulling him straight back down again.
His hands were already under Oscar’s shirt, impatient and messy about it.
“Osc—”
“Baby,” Oscar murmured, catching both his wrists briefly. “Breathe for a second.”
Lando looked absolutely gone already. Flushed cheeks. Pupils blown wide.
Still looking at Oscar like he wanted to crawl inside his ribcage.
“I don’t want slow,” he said impatiently.
Something hot twisted low in Oscar’s stomach at the honesty of it.
Oscar studied him for another heartbeat, then nodded once. He released Lando’s wrists and let him push at his chest until Oscar rolled onto his back for a moment—only for Lando to pull him right back on top.
Lando melted into it with a soft sound, arching up automatically while Oscar pinned him gently back into the mattress.
Lando shivered hard at that.
Fuck.
Oscar was trying very hard to stay in control here.
Mostly because the second he stopped trying, this would turn into something significantly less soft.
Lando tugged his shirt halfway off his shoulders with growing frustration.
“You’re wearing too many clothes.”
Oscar huffed a laugh through his nose before finally pulling the thing over his head properly.
Lando stared for maybe half a second before dragging him back down by the jaw to kiss him again.
By the time they got fully undressed, Lando was practically vibrating beneath him. His thighs kept spreading wider instinctively every time Oscar touched him. Every kiss turned into another little breathless sound.
Oscar kissed down his throat slowly while reaching toward the nightstand.
Lando immediately whined.
“You’re impatient,” Oscar muttered.
“Yes.”
At least he was honest.
Oscar slicked his fingers properly before sliding one hand down between Lando’s thighs again.
Lando watched him, breath already coming faster, hips shifting restlessly against the sheets.
Oscar leaned down, kissing him deeply as one finger eased inside, then another, working him open slowly until Lando was arching beneath him, soft broken moans filling the space between them.
“Relax for me,” Oscar murmured softly against his jaw.
“Osc…” Lando gasped, fingers digging into Oscar’s shoulders. “Please.”
Oscar added another finger slowly.
Lando cursed under his breath and grabbed onto Oscar’s shoulders hard enough to sting.
“That good?” Oscar asked quietly.
Lando looked genuinely offended by the question.
“You know it is.”
That actually made Oscar laugh once.
Then he curled his fingers deeper and Lando stopped functioning again.
“Fuck— fuck, Oscar—”
There.
That.
Oscar could spend the rest of his life listening to that sound.
Lando’s whole body kept reacting before he could think about it thighs twitching apart wider, back arching slightly every time Oscar pressed against that spot again.
“Osc,” he whispered eventually, hurrying him.
Oscar hummed against his lips, then slowly pulled his fingers back. He slicked himself thoroughly and lined up, pressing the head of his cock against Lando’s entrance. He pushed in slowly and both of them lost composure immediately.
Lando’s whole body tightened instantly, breath catching hard enough that Oscar felt it against his shoulder.
“Fuck—”
His nails dragged down Oscar’s back a second later when Oscar pushed deeper.
Every time.
Every single fucking time.
Lando’s breath stuttered, hands tightening on Oscar’s back as he was filled, stretched in the most perfect way. Oscar paused when he was fully seated, forehead dropping to Lando’s shoulder, giving him a moment to adjust.
“Move,” he breathed, voice thick with want.
Oscar kissed him hard before doing exactly that.
The first thrust knocked the breath out of both of them.
Lando’s fingers dug hard into Oscar’s back while Oscar buried himself deeper with another slow roll of his hips.
It stopped feeling coordinated after that.
The rhythm kept breaking whenever they kissed too hard or Lando got overwhelmed and clung onto him tighter.
Oscar couldn’t stay graceful about it because Lando kept making those soft ruined sounds directly into his ear every time he hit deeper.
“Right there,” Lando gasped suddenly.
Oscar felt his control snap slightly at the edges.
“There?”
“Yes— fuck—”
Oscar hit the same spot again and Lando actually shook beneath him, one hand wrapped around his cock, stroking in time with his movements—long, firm pulls matching the slow roll of his hips.
That did something genuinely dangerous to Oscar’s brain.
After that his thrusts got rougher without meaning to. Still controlled. Still careful. But deeper now, needier.
Like he physically couldn’t get close enough.
Lando seemed to love that development.
His legs wrapped tighter around Oscar’s waist while he dragged him down into another messy kiss, moaning helplessly into his mouth every few seconds now.
“You feel so good,” Lando whispered suddenly.
Oscar actually lost rhythm for a second.
Because of course he did.
Because Lando said things like that mid-sex in the same tone people used for confessions.
“Jesus Christ,” Oscar muttered roughly against his throat before thrusting deeper again.
Lando cried out softly beneath him.
There it was.
That reaction Oscar kept chasing every single time.
“That’s it,” he breathed. “Fuck, baby…”
When Lando finally came, it was with a quiet, wrecked moan, body arching tight beneath him while he clenched hard around Oscar in pulsing waves.
Oscar kept his hand moving through it automatically while Lando shook beneath him, still making those small broken sounds into his shoulder every few seconds.
“That’s it,” Oscar breathed roughly against his skin. “Good boy… fuck…”
That finally did it.
Oscar barely got one more thrust in before he followed after him, burying his face against Lando’s neck with a low groan while his entire body went weak for a second.
He eased out carefully and pulled Lando against his chest.
Lando curled into him immediately, face tucked into the warm space beneath Oscar’s collarbone, one leg sliding between his.
Oscar’s hand found its way into Lando’s curls, combing through them slowly.
They stayed tangled together in the quiet, the weight of their confessions and the afternoon still warm between them.
Lando barely moved, still tucked into him, breathing slow now, even—like everything had finally settled.
For a while, neither of them said anything.
The room stayed quiet around them except for uneven breathing and the occasional creak of sheets whenever Lando shifted closer again.
Oscar pressed another kiss into his curls automatically.
Lando hummed softly at that, already half asleep against him.
It should’ve felt peaceful.
Instead Oscar could feel his pulse getting worse the longer he thought about the drawer across the room.
Oscar’s fingers kept moving through his curls absentmindedly, tracing the same pattern over and over again.
He should’ve been relaxed. He wasn’t.
Lando shifted slightly, pressing closer without thinking, his hand sliding lazily across Oscar’s chest.
“Mm,” he mumbled, voice soft, half-asleep. “You’re warm.”
Oscar let out a quiet breath, his hand stilling for just a second before starting again.
“Baby,” he said softly.
Lando hummed in response, not moving.
Oscar hesitated. Just for a moment.
“Can you—” he stopped, exhaling quietly. “Can you sit up for a second?”
That got his attention.
Lando pulled back slightly, blinking up at him, brows pulling together in a small frown.
“…what?”
Oscar smiled, but it didn’t quite reach his eyes this time.
“Just sit up for a second.”
Lando frowned a little, but pushed himself up anyway, shifting back against the headboard, the sheet slipping slightly as he moved.
“…you’re being weird.”
“Yeah,” Oscar muttered. “I know.”
That didn’t help.
Lando watched him closely as Oscar got up, running a hand briefly through his hair like he was trying to steady himself. He crossed the room, slower than usual, and for the first time that day he hesitated.
Actually hesitated.
Lando’s stomach flipped.
The Aussie opened the drawer, slowly like he wasn’t entirely sure what he was doing anymore then reached in anyway.
When he turned back, there was something small in his hand. Not obvious, but enough.
Lando stilled, eyes narrowing slightly as he tried to place it.
Oscar came back over, slower now, like each step mattered more than the last. He stopped at the edge of the bed, not sitting—just standing there for a second, looking at him.
“…what’s going on?” Lando asked, quieter this time.
Oscar exhaled softly, glancing down at what he was holding before looking back up. “Okay, this is gonna seem weird now,” he admitted awkwardly. “Not really sure why I did it at all.”
That didn’t make Lando feel any better.
“Oscar—”
“I just wanted to give you this before you go.”
That—shifted something. Lando’s gaze dropped, properly this time.
He froze.
The ring sat in Oscar’s hand like it didn’t belong there. Like it belonged somewhere else. Somewhere familiar.
Lando’s brows pulled together, confusion flickering—then something sharper, something clicking into place.
“…wait,” he said quietly.
Oscar didn’t interrupt.
Lando leaned forward slightly, eyes fixed on it now. The deep blue stone caught the light—
and—
“Oh.” His breath caught. “That’s—”
He looked up at Oscar, then back at the ring, like he needed to check again. “That’s from Sydney.”
Not a question.
“Yeah.” Oscar’s mouth twitched, just slightly.
Lando blinked at him. “You—” he let out a small, disbelieving breath. “You went back for it?”
“Yeah.”
Just that. No explanation, no big moment. And somehow that made it worse.
Lando stared at it, something tight pulling in his chest now, fingers twitching slightly like he didn’t know whether to reach for it or not.
“I didn’t even—” he started, then stopped, shaking his head faintly. “I—”
“I know.”
Of course he did. Of course he fucking did.
Lando let out a breath that almost turned into a laugh, but didn’t quite make it. “That’s…” he shook his head again, softer this time. “That’s so—”
He didn’t finish it.
Didn’t need to.
Oscar shifted his weight slightly, something uncertain flickering through his expression now. “You don’t have to—”
Lando reached for it.
Careful.
Like it might disappear if he moved too fast.
He took it from Oscar’s hand, turning it between his fingers, watching the way the stone caught the light exactly the same way it had back then.
“…you said it suited my eyes,” he murmured, almost to himself.
Oscar huffed quietly. “It does.”
Lando swallowed, his thumb brushing over the surface of the ring, slower now. Processing—not just the ring, everything behind it.
“…put it on,” he said after a second, voice quieter.
Oscar blinked. “You sure?”
Lando looked up at him then.
Yeah.
“Yeah.”
Oscar stepped closer, taking his hand carefully—more careful than he needed to be. Like it mattered. Like this mattered.
He slid the ring onto his finger. It fit. He already knew it.
Lando’s breath hitched slightly as he looked at it, turning his hand just a little.
Same as before.
But different now.
Lando didn’t move straight away.
Just sat there for a second, hand still lifted slightly between them, turning the ring slowly like he was trying to catch it in every angle of light.
Oscar watched him but didn’t say anything. Didn’t need to.
Lando’s thumb brushed over the stone again, slower this time, like he was memorising it. The way it looked. The way it felt.
A small smile tugged at his mouth.
Lando shifted then, reaching for him without thinking, tugging him down as he leaned back into the pillows again.
Oscar followed easily.
He always did.
They settled back into the sheets, Lando half sprawled against him, their legs tangling without effort, Oscar’s arm slipping around his waist automatically.
Lando brought his hand back up between them.
Lando lifted his hand between them again, still looking at it. Not obsessively. Just quietly.
Like it meant more than he quite knew what to do with yet.
Oscar rested his chin briefly against the top of his head, watching the way his fingers kept moving—turning the ring, tapping it lightly against his thumb, like he needed the constant reminder it was actually there.
“You’re staring,” he murmured.
“Mm,” Lando hummed. “Let me.”
Oscar smiled faintly into his hair.
For a while, neither of them spoke. They just lay there together. Warm. Close.
“…you like it?” Oscar asked after a bit, softer now.
Lando didn’t look up. “Yeah,” he said simply.
Then, quieter—“Yeah, I really do.”
That was enough.
Oscar’s hand tightened slightly at his waist, something settling in his chest he didn’t bother putting into words.
They stayed like that a little longer.
Long enough for the moment to soften at the edges. Long enough for it to feel real.
Then—
“We need a shower,” Oscar said eventually, voice low but lighter now.
Lando huffed softly, still looking at his hand.
“In a minute.”
Oscar raised a brow. “You said that ten minutes ago.”
“No, I didn’t.”
“You did.”
Lando finally glanced up at him, a small grin breaking through. “You’re making that up.”
Oscar leaned down, brushing a quick kiss to his hair. “Am not.”
Lando rolled his eyes but stayed where he was, still turning the ring between his fingers. Still not ready to let the moment end.
“Five more minutes,” Lando murmured.
And this time—he didn’t have to let go.
Not really.
Just for a while.
Notes:
The thing is I haven’t written smut in years and never published it before so at first I was shhhhhhhy.
But as I kept going I actually started to feel better about it so now when I edit the earlier chapters I hate them and rewrite half the smut 😭
Hope you still like the mess 😭
ALSO THEY DID NOT GET THE ENGAGED… yet 😏
Chapter 26: New livery
Notes:
I am so sorry for the kinda late update but I thought I’d edit the chapter while watching yesterdays race since it usually gets boring halfway BUT GUYS THIS ONE… a masterpiece.
This race got me in a chokehold TILL THE END. That was so iconic.Remember how I said before I’m not really a Landoscar fan on the track? I screamed (it was 10pm for me) “THAT’S MY WORLD CHAMPION” on Lando’s overtake in the start because I’d take anyone but George Russel as winner. I don’t know what my problem with this man is, but I can not stand him for shit.
Then this morning I had my nails appointment first thing in the morning, had to do grocery shopping, wash my car (it was disgusting), other adult responsibilities AND THEN MY MUM CALLED.
My sisters asshole, manchild boyfriend broke up with her and as ecstatic as I am, I had to call her and calm her down since she decided it’s an AMAZING idea to drive home 1,5 hours while bawling her eyes out in a car with an broken gearbox. So there went my plans of editing.
But don’t worry as I calmed her down I went to editing and heard this pathetic meowing so I went to look for the cats (we’ve got four at home).
I couldn’t find one but the meowing stopped, I figured I’d open the balcony as I was already up and guess what. MY MUM LEFT my CAT ON THE BALCONY FOR THE WHOLE NIGHT. My poor baby is traumatised.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Steam still clung to the mirror when they stepped back into the room.
Everything felt a little quieter after—skin warm, hair damp, the sharp edge of earlier softened into something slower.
Lando dragged a towel through his curls, not really drying them properly, just enough to stop the water from dripping down his neck. The ring caught the light again when he moved, a small flicker of blue against his skin.
He noticed it.
Of course he did.
His thumb brushed over it absentmindedly as he crossed the room.
Oscar watched him from the doorway for a second, arms loosely folded, taking in the way Lando kept glancing at his hand like he still didn’t quite believe it was there.
“You’re staring again,” he said.
Lando didn’t even look up. “Shut up.”
There was no bite to it.
Oscar huffed quietly, pushing off the doorframe and stepping back inside.
The room felt different now. Not bad. Never bad. Just… lighter somehow.
Lando moved toward the bed, dropping the towel somewhere behind him without really paying attention, already reaching for his phone where he’d left it earlier.
The screen lit up, and just like that, reality slipped back in. Lando stared at it for a second, lips pressing together slightly.
“The schedule is bullshit,” he groaned, tossing his phone aside and flopping dramatically onto the bed.
“Hmm.” Oscar picked it up, glancing at the still-lit screen. “Doesn’t seem worse than usual.
“It is,” Lando insisted, pouting. “They want me to do a horrific amount of videos with Pato. Pato,” he rolled onto his back, staring at the ceiling. “Why can’t it be Danny or Carlos again?”
Oscar watched him for a second before sitting down next to him, fingers sliding into his still-damp curls.
“I thought you two were cool.”
“We are,” Lando said, a bit uncertain. “It’s just… not the same.”
Lando shrugged, still staring at the ceiling. “I don’t know. With Carlos it was just—easy. Like we didn’t have to think about it. And Danny…” he huffed a quiet laugh, “Danny was just chaos.”
A small pause.
“I liked that.”
Oscar hummed, but there was something quieter in it now. “And Pato’s not?”
“He is,” Lando said quickly. “Just—different. We don’t have that… thing.”
“That thing,” Oscar repeated.
“Yeah,” Lando said, turning his head slightly to look at him. “Like—natural. You know? You don’t have to force it.”
Oscar’s hand stilled for half a second before continuing, slower now.
“Right.”
Lando watched him for a second, something flickering across his expression.
“…you jealous?” he asked, just a little too casually.
Oscar didn’t look at him. “No.”
“That was quick.”
“I’m not,” Oscar said, but there was a faint edge of something there now. Not sharp—just enough to notice.
Lando’s mouth twitched. “You are.”
“I’m really not.”
“You soooo are,” Lando insisted, pushing himself up slightly onto one elbow, watching him now.
Oscar finally glanced at him.
“I just think it’s interesting,” he said evenly, “how highly you speak of your ex-teammates.”
Lando blinked at him for a moment—
“Oh my god,” he let out a laugh, dropping back onto the bed. “You’re actually jealous.”
“I’m not jealous,” Oscar said, but this time there was a hint of a smile breaking through.
Lando turned his head again, grin spreading. “You’re jealous of Carlos.”
“I’m not jealous of Carlos.”
“And Danny.” Lando snorted softly.
Oscar rolled his eyes. “Definitely not Ricciardo.”
“That sounded personal.”
“It wasn’t.” But the answer came just a fraction too fast.
Lando hummed, clearly unconvinced, reaching up to grab Oscar’s wrist lightly.
“You don’t have to be,” he said, softer now.
Oscar looked at him again.
“I’m yours.”
That landed differently. The teasing faded just slightly. Oscar’s expression shifted, something quieter settling in.
“…yeah,” he said after a second, leaning in to give him a soft kiss.
Lando smiled faintly, tugging him down a little.
“Yeah.”
It came out softer than the teasing before it, but not heavy. Just… matter-of-fact.
Oscar’s expression shifted slightly at that, something quieter settling in.
Lando’s mouth twitched, like he was satisfied with that, and dropped back fully onto the bed again.
“But also,” he added, glancing back at him, “you’d hate being my teammate.”
Oscar snorted. “I would not.”
“You would,” Lando insisted. “I’m annoying.”
“I’m aware.”
“I’d distract you on purpose,” Lando went on.
Oscar raised a brow at him. “You already do that.”
“That’s different.”
“How?”
Lando grinned. “There are no cameras on you.”
“Right. That’s reassuring.”
“It should be,” Lando said easily. “I’m a menace on camera.”
“You’re a menace in general.”
“True.”
A small pause settled between them again, easy, familiar. Lando stretched slightly where he was lying, one arm thrown over his eyes, the other still idly turning the ring.
Oscar watched him for a second before asking, “You hungry?”
Lando didn’t even think about it. “Yeah.”
“What do you want?”
A pause.
“…food.”
Oscar huffed. “Helpful.”
Lando peeked at him from under his arm. “You asked.”
Oscar didn’t argue.
He just reached for his phone, scrolling for a second before placing the order without comment.
Lando watched him from his spot, head tilted slightly. “…what did you get?”
“You’ll see,” Oscar said, setting the phone aside.
“That’s suspicious.”
Oscar raised a brow, his hand slipping into Lando’s hair.
“What if I don’t like it?”
The Aussie rolled his eyes. “You will.”
Lando just narrowed his eyes at him, but shifted closer anyway, chasing the touch.
It was peaceful for a moment again.
Oscar didn’t comment.
Just watched him as he made himself comfortable—barefoot, hoodie still on, completely at home in a place that technically wasn’t his.
The knock came not long after.
Oscar pushed himself up first, heading for the door while Lando stayed exactly where he was, not even pretending he might help.
“Get mine first,” Lando called after him.
Oscar didn’t answer.
A second later—“Please?”
That earned him a quiet huff from the hallway.
By the time Oscar came back, Lando had shifted just enough to make space on the bed—but not enough to actually get up.
Oscar leaned in the doorway for a second, watching him.
“We’re not eating in bed.”
That made Lando push himself up onto his elbows to look at him.
“I don’t want to move,” he said with a pout. “Bring it here.”
“No.”
“Osc.” Lando tried again, this time with puppy eyes.
Oscar watched him for a moment before sighing. “How about the couch?”
Lando pretended considering it for a moment. “…fine.”
He got up slower than necessary, dragging his feet like this was a personal inconvenience. On the way, he grabbed one of the containers from the counter, already opening it before he even sat down.
Oscar followed with the rest, setting everything out on the coffee table.
Lando dropped onto the couch, immediately pulling his legs up, sitting sideways like he planned to stay there for hours. Oscar sat next to him—slightly more put together for about five seconds, before Lando leaned into him again.
Of course.
Oscar adjusted without comment, one arm settling around him automatically.
“Okay, yeah,” Lando hummed around a bite. “It is good.”
Oscar’s mouth twitched. “Told you.”
“Don’t get cocky.”
They ate like that—close, quiet, easy. Lando stole from Oscar’s container without asking. Oscar let him, only nudging his hand away just enough to pretend he cared.
“Get your own.”
At some point, the TV came on.
Neither of them really paid attention to what was playing. Just noise—something to fill the space while they stayed exactly where they were.
Lando finished first, pushing the empty container aside before settling back properly, head dropping against Oscar’s shoulder.
A small exhale.
Oscar glanced down at him, then at the ring when it caught the light again as Lando moved.
He didn’t say anything.
Just reached over, taking the container from his hand and setting it aside properly.
“Can I get dessert now?” Lando asked, not opening his eyes.
Oscar huffed quietly. “Yes.”
Lando’s head snapped up at that. “Really?” he asked, eyes widening as he looked at him.
“You’re an adult, baby. You don’t have to ask,” Oscar teased—
but Lando was already up before he finished the sentence.
He disappeared into the kitchen, only to come back a second later with his hands full of sweets.
Oscar watched him, amused. “You’re not eating all that.”
“Half’s for you.”
He dropped everything on the table, wrappers already half-open before he settled, legs folding back up under him like before.
Oscar looked at the pile, then at Lando. “We’re getting a sugar coma from all that.”
“Speak for yourself,” Lando said easily, already unwrapping something else.
Oscar huffed quietly, but shifted a little closer anyway, letting Lando lean back into him again without resistance.
Lando offered him one of the sweets without looking. Oscar took it with a found eye roll.
The TV kept playing in the background—some random show neither of them were actually following. Lando reacted to it anyway, quiet comments under his breath, the occasional huff of a laugh like he was paying attention.
Oscar wasn’t.
He was watching Lando instead.
He kept fidgeting with the ring between bites, turning it, tapping it lightly against his thumb. Still not used to it. Still aware of it.
“You’re staring again,” Lando said suddenly, not looking at him.
Oscar didn’t deny it this time. “You’re doing it on purpose.”
“I’m not,” he bite back mid chew.
“You are.”
Lando glanced at him then, mouth twitching slightly. “You like it.”
Oscar rolled his eyes, but leaned in to steal a soft kiss anyway.
Lando let him.
Of course he did.
It started easy—barely there, just lips brushing, familiar and warm.
No rush.
No need.
Lando shifted slightly, turning more toward him without breaking it, one hand coming up to rest lightly against Oscar’s side, like he needed something to anchor himself to.
Oscar’s hand slid from his shoulder to his jaw, thumb brushing once along his cheek before settling there.
The kiss lingered.
Slow.
Uncomplicated.
Lando breathed out softly against his mouth, the sound almost a sigh, and leaned in again before Oscar could pull back properly.
Not asking.
Just—
staying.
Oscar huffed the smallest breath of a laugh against his lips, but didn’t move away, letting him have it.
Letting it stretch.
Their foreheads brushed for a second when they shifted, noses nudging slightly out of place before settling again.
Messy in the quietest way.
Lando’s fingers curled a little tighter in Oscar’s shirt, not pulling—just holding.
Still there.
Still real.
Oscar tilted his head slightly, deepening it just enough to make it count, careful, controlled.
No urgency.
Just time.
When they finally pulled back, it wasn’t far.
Barely a breath between them.
Lando didn’t open his eyes straight away, lips still parted slightly, like he hadn’t quite caught up with the fact that it had ended.
Oscar watched him for a second.
Soft.
Then nudged his nose lightly against his.
“Greedy,” he murmured.
Lando’s mouth twitched, eyes still closed. “You started it.”
“Did I?”
“Yeah.”
Then Lando leaned in again, quick and soft, like he just needed one more. Oscar let him have it this time. Gentle now. Shorter.
Lando lingered anyway, lips brushing once more like he couldn’t quite leave it there, hand flattening lightly against Oscar’s chest.
Oscar stayed close, forehead resting against his, breath warm between them.
A quiet pause.
“…yeah,” Lando murmured, more to himself than anything.
He didn’t pull back straight away.
Just another second—
then he settled against him again like nothing had happened.
Like everything had.
Oscar’s hand slid back into his hair, slow, absent. “What time’s your flight tomorrow?”
Lando went still in his arms. Not subtly. Just completely still.
Oscar felt it immediately, his hand pausing for a second before he leaned back slightly to look at him.
Lando’s eyes were a little too wide.
“…baby?” Oscar said again, quieter this time.
Lando blinked once, like his brain had just caught up with something it should’ve already known.
“…right.”
Oscar’s gaze didn’t move from him. “Lando.”
A small pause.
Then—
“I might’ve…” Lando started, voice careful, like he was testing how bad this was going to sound. A faint, guilty smile pulled at his lips. “Not booked it yet.”
Oscar stared at him.
Not annoyed—just… processing.
“You didn’t book your flight.”
“I was going to.” Lando pushed himself up a little, breaking the easy way he’d been leaning into him. He dragged a hand over his face, exhaling through his nose like he was trying to buy himself a second. “I got distracted.”
Oscar’s eyes flicked down briefly—to the sweets, the half-finished food, the way Lando’s knee was still pressed against his like he hadn’t fully pulled away.
“With what?” he asked.
Lando huffed a quiet breath, a small, almost sheepish smile pulling at his mouth as he gestured vaguely between them. “Everything?”
That landed.
Not enough to fix it—
but enough.
Oscar leaned back into the couch, his hand dropping from Lando’s hair to his shoulder, thumb pressing there absentmindedly.
“You’ve known about this for days.”
“Yeah.”
“And you just… didn’t do it.”
“I forgot,” said, voice fake sweet.
Oscar blinked at him before echoing “You forgot.”
Lando finally looked at him properly, expression open, unbothered in a way that didn’t feel careless—just certain. “I’ll find one.”
Oscar held his gaze for a second longer, then reached past him for the phone on the table.
“Hey—” Lando shifted immediately, leaning over him slightly.
“No.”
“I can do it,” he tried to take the phone back but there was no use.
“You’re not doing it.”
Oscar unlocked it, already scrolling, his shoulder brushing Lando’s as he leaned back into place.
“I was about to,” Lando muttered, though he didn’t try very hard to take it back.
“You weren’t.”
“…I was thinking about it.”
“That doesn’t count.” The Aussie sighed already typing.
Lando huffed, but instead of arguing, he just sank back against him again, like that solved everything. His head found Oscar’s shoulder without asking, like it belonged there.
Oscar didn’t move him.
Of course he didn’t.
“You’re paying for this,” Oscar added, eyes still on the screen.
“Yeah, I figured.”
Lando reached blindly toward the table, grabbing another sweet, unwrapping it slowly, the crinkle of plastic filling the space between them.
“…how bad is it?”
Oscar didn’t answer.
Lando leaned over to look, shoulder pressing into him again.
He winced “Okay—yeah, that’s bad.”
Oscar raised a brow. “That’s really bad.”
Lando dropped back, chewing like that might somehow soften the number. “It’s fine.”
“It’s not fine.”
“It’s fine,” Lando repeated, turning his head slightly so his cheek brushed against Oscar’s shoulder. “I make questionable financial decisions all the time.”
“That’s not reassuring.”
“It shouldn’t be.” Lando chuckled trying to ease the mood.
Oscar shook his head, but there was a faint smile there now as he tapped through the last steps.
A second later, he locked the phone and dropped it onto Lando’s lap.
“Done.”
Lando glanced down at it, then back at him, something almost smug creeping in. “See? Easy.”
“That wasn’t you.”
“Still counts.”
Oscar huffed quietly.
Lando nudged the phone aside with the back of his hand, like it wasn’t important anymore, then shifted closer again, properly this time.
His leg hooked over Oscar’s.
Arm draped lazily across his middle.
Like that was the solution to everything.
Oscar huffed quietly, but his hand came back to him anyway, settling at his waist, thumb brushing once, absent.
“You’re lucky I deal with you,” he murmured.
“You love me,” Lando replied instantly.
Oscar didn’t argue.
They stayed like that for a second, not saying anything.
Until Lando tilted his head slightly, pressing a quick, lazy kiss to his jaw before settling back again, like that was enough.
“Still worth it,” Lando said, already half distracted again, fingers finding the ring and turning it slowly.
Oscar watched that for a moment.
Then leaned back into the couch, letting his head rest properly this time.
“Next time,” he said, “you book it first.”
“Next time?” Lando echoed, a smirk pulling at his lips as he shifted up again, closing the space between them.
Oscar barely had time to react before Lando kissed him—soft, a little smug, like he’d already decided the answer.
“You’re a menace,” Oscar chuckled against his lips.
Lando looked at him, fake shy. “But your menace?”
Oscar rolled his eyes, but pulled him closer anyway, one arm secure around his shoulders while the other slid into his hair.
“…mine.”
Lando didn’t move after that. He just stayed where he was, half draped over him, like he’d decided that was enough effort for the night. The TV played quietly in the background, low and unfocused.
Oscar glanced down at him after a while. “You’re falling asleep.”
“I’m not,” Lando murmured, voice already soft, words blurring. A beat. “Just resting.”
Oscar huffed quietly but didn’t argue. His hand stayed in Lando’s hair, slower now, fingers moving through soft curls.
A few minutes passed. Lando didn’t say anything else. Oscar shifted just enough to see his face properly.
Eyes closed.
Breathing even.
Gone.
Something in his chest tightened—not in a bad way. Just there.
He watched him a second longer than necessary, taking in how easily he’d settled, like this was normal. Like this was safe.
That part still got to him.
Lando had always been easy to read when he was awake—loud, expressive, impossible to miss. But like this, though, quiet and unaware, it felt different. Softer.
He looked younger like this. Less guarded.
Oscar’s thumb brushed lightly along his hairline before he even realised it.
Careful.
Like he might wake him.
He didn’t.
Thank god he didn’t.
Oscar leaned down slightly, pressing a soft kiss into his curls before settling back again.
This—this was new.
Not the closeness. Not the way Lando fit against him like he belonged there.
That had always been there.
But the quiet.
The ease.
The way Lando could just fall asleep on him like there was nowhere else he needed to be.
Like Oscar was enough.
His jaw tightened slightly.
Because he still didn’t fully get it.
How someone like Lando—so bright, so easy to love—had chosen him.
Still chose him.
Oscar’s hand slid down to his side, holding him there without thinking. Grounding—for both of them.
The ring caught the light when Lando shifted.
Still there.
Oscar exhaled slowly. He’d almost missed all of this. His fingers tightened for a second, then relaxed again. He wasn’t making that mistake twice. Not now. Not when this finally felt real.Possible.
He reached for the remote, lowering the volume until the room softened.
Lando shifted closer, pressing into him without waking, his hand curling into Oscar’s shirt.
Oscar stilled for a second—then leaned into it, “…yeah,” he murmured, mostly to himself.
His hand returned to Lando’s hair, slow, steady.
This time, he didn’t question it.
He just stayed.
—
Morning came slowly.
Not all at once—just light slipping through the curtains, settling quietly across the room.
Oscar woke with Lando tucked against him, back pressed to his chest, exactly how he’d put him to bed the night before.
Like he’d never moved.
Like he’d just… stayed.
Oscar didn’t move straight away.
The ring catching weak morning light when Lando shifted slightly beneath the blankets.
His arm was wrapped around Lando’s waist, hand resting flat against his stomach, thumb brushing once without thinking.
Breathing slow and even.
Oscar watched him for a moment, eyes tracing over small details without really meaning to—the mess of his hair, the way his shoulders rose and fell, the faint line of sleep still lingering in his expression.
The ring caught the light when Lando shifted slightly.
Still real.
Something in his chest settled at that.
Oscar leaned in slightly, his face brushing closer to the back of Lando’s neck.
He pressed a kiss there.
Barely there at first.
Lando didn’t wake.
Oscar didn’t pull back far—just enough before leaning in again, pressing another kiss lower, more deliberate, his mouth lingering for a second against warm skin.
Then another.
And another.
He didn’t rush it—just a slow, steady trail, each one placed with the same quiet certainty, lips pressing, lifting, returning again along the same line of his neck and shoulder.
Lando shifted faintly, but didn’t wake.
Oscar’s arm tightened slightly around his waist, holding him closer as he kept going, kisses stacking into each other now—not messy, just persistent, unhurried, impossible to ignore.
His breath warmed Lando’s skin between each one.
Another kiss.
And another.
That did it.
Lando stirred properly this time, a quiet sound slipping out as his head tipped back slightly, exposing more of his neck without thinking.
“…mm—” he breathed, somewhere between a complaint and a sigh.
Oscar felt the exact moment Lando started waking beneath him.
Still didn’t stop.
Lando’s hand moved then, slow and uncoordinated, reaching back blindly until it found Oscar’s arm. His fingers curled into it immediately, pulling it tighter around himself.
“Osc…” he mumbled, voice rough with sleep, barely opening his eyes.
Oscar hummed softly against his shoulder.
Lando shifted again, pressing back into him fully now, like he was trying to get closer even though there wasn’t really any space left.
“You’re annoying,” he muttered, but there was no weight to it, words soft and warm.
Oscar’s mouth twitched, pressing another kiss just below his shoulder.
Lando let out a quiet breath, something closer to a pleased sound this time, his grip tightening slightly as he dragged Oscar’s arm further across his chest.
“Don’t stop,” he added, contradicting himself immediately.
Oscar huffed quietly.
“Thought you were asleep.”
“I was,” Lando said, eyes still closed, already melting back into him. “You woke me up.”
“That was the idea.”
Lando made a small sound at that, turning his head just enough to nudge back against him, almost impatient.
Then, after a second—
“Come here,” he mumbled.
Like Oscar wasn’t already holding him.
He shifted again, trying to turn in his arms, slow and clumsy with sleep, until he could face him properly.
The moment he did, he didn’t hesitate — just leaned in, capturing Oscar’s mouth in a sleepy, slightly clumsy kiss that still carried all the warmth of waking up beside him.
Oscar answered without a word, one hand cupping the back of Lando’s head while the other stayed anchored low on his back, keeping him close. The kiss started soft and slow, lazy with leftover sleep, but it quickly deepened as Lando made another small, hungry noise and pressed himself flush against Oscar’s body.
Oscar didn’t hurry.
He let the kiss stretch, savouring the way Lando melted into him, the way his fingers dug into Oscar’s shoulders like he was afraid the feeling might slip away.
When Lando’s hips began to roll in restless little movements, Oscar rolled them gently until Lando was flat on his back beneath him, still wrapped up in warm sheets and dim morning light and settled between his thighs automatically.
Lando looked devastating like this.
Sleepy eyes.
Swollen lips.
Hair completely ruined already.
All soft and warm beneath Oscar’s hands.
Lando’s hands wandered restlessly over Oscar’s back, tracing muscle and skin like he needed to memorise every line. Oscar caught one of those wandering hands, threading their fingers together and pressing it lightly into the pillow beside Lando’s head, while his free hand traced a slow path down Lando’s side.
“Slowly,” Oscar murmured against Lando’s lips, voice low and steady. “I’ve got you.”
Lando exhaled shakily, eyes half-lidded and dark. “No,” he muttered, contradicting himself immediately, hips shifting again. “Or—no—just—keep doing that.”
Oscar’s mouth twitched faintly.
Without a word, he sat back on his heels, hands sliding down Lando’s sides until his fingers caught the hem of Lando’s shirt. He peeled it off slowly, letting the fabric drag over his skin, then tossed it aside. The moment Lando’s chest was bare, Oscar leaned down again, mouth following the path his hands had just taken.
He kissed Lando’s collarbones first, slow and open-mouthed, then drifted lower to the soft dip just beneath them. There he lingered, sucking gently until a faint bruise began to bloom — low enough that any shirt would hide it completely. Lando’s breath stuttered, one hand coming up to fist in Oscar’s hair.
“Osc—” it slipped out, quieter this time.
Oscar soothed the fresh mark with his tongue, then kept moving, lips brushing lower across his ribs, down his stomach, mouth warm against skin while Lando kept squirming softly beneath him every time Oscar’s teeth caught lightly somewhere sensitive.
By the time he reached Lando’s hips, his breathing had gone properly uneven.
He sucked a second mark there — slow, intentional, hidden away where no one else would ever see it. Lando arched into the feeling with a quiet, broken sound, fingers tightening in Oscar’s hair.
Oscar finally hooked his fingers into the waistband of Lando’s boxers and slid them down his legs, tossing them off the bed.
He took off his own shirt in one smooth motion, then settled lower, kissing along the inside of Lando’s thighs. His mouth moved higher, pressing warm, open kisses to the sensitive skin there.
Slow enough that Lando started making frustrated little noises above him.
“Oscar,” he complained weakly.
Oscar only looked up at him once, visibly pleased with himself, before finally giving him what he wanted.
He spread him open gently and pressed his tongue flat against him warm and slow, just for a moment — while one slick finger eased inside at the same time.
Oscar didn’t rush it.
Another slow drag of his tongue while his finger curled gently inside him.
Then another.
A second finger stretching him open carefully while Lando’s thighs trembled around his shoulders.
Every sound falling from his mouth felt addictive.
Soft moans.
Broken breaths.
Oscar could’ve stayed there for hours honestly.
Especially when Lando started rocking helplessly against his mouth, fingers buried tight in Oscar’s hair while quiet little please, please sounds slipped out between breaths.
“Don’t stop—please don’t stop,” he added, voice thin, almost breathless.
Oscar finally kissed his way back up his body before he completely lost his mind.
Lando pulled him down into another kiss immediately, messy this time, desperate around the edges while Oscar kept working his fingers inside him slowly.
Stretching him open while Lando melted harder into the mattress beneath him with every curl of his hand.
Then Lando’s mouth left his and attached itself to Oscar’s neck instead.
Sucking softly beneath his jaw.
Another mark for another.
Oscar’s breath caught quietly at that, hips pressing down instinctively against Lando’s.
“Baby,” he breathed.
Lando only hummed against his throat and bit down gently.
Oscar pulled his fingers away before this turned into something embarrassing.
He shoved his boxers down quickly before settling back between Lando’s thighs again, one hand stroking slowly along his leg while he lined himself up.
Then he pushed in. Slow. Steady. One deep thrust until he was fully buried inside him.
They both exhaled shakily at the feeling. Oscar dropped his forehead against Lando’s immediately.
Warm.
Tight.
Perfect.
Lando’s legs wrapped around his waist without thinking, pulling him impossibly closer while his fingers dragged down Oscar’s back with a shaky breath.
Oscar stayed still for a second just to feel him properly.
Then he began to move slow, rolling thrusts that built gradually, each one deep and measured. He kept one hand braced beside Lando’s head, the other stroking Lando’s cock in the same unhurried rhythm.
“So perfect, baby,” Oscar murmured against Lando’s temple, voice low and rough with restraint.
Lando moaned softly, nails dragging down Oscar’s back as he met every thrust.
“You feel—fuck—” he broke off, breath catching, pulling him closer.
Lando whimpered and pulled him even closer.
Oscar kept the pace steady, deep, grinding against that spot inside him with every roll of his hips. He kissed Lando’s neck, his shoulder, the corner of his mouth, whispering quiet praises between each breath.
“That’s it… just like that… I’ve got you.”
Another helpless little movement of his hips.
Like he physically couldn’t stay still through it.
Lando’s moans turned breathier, more desperate, his body arching to chase every thrust. Oscar never sped up — he just kept that same deep, rolling rhythm, stroking Lando’s cock in time, eyes locked on his face the whole time.
Lando kept breaking apart beneath him piece by piece, every little sound going straight to Oscar’s head.
“That’s it,” Oscar whispered against his mouth. “Good boy.”
Lando actually shook at that. Oscar felt it immediately. The way his body tightened. The way his hips jerked helplessly into Oscar’s hand.
They came almost at the same time.
Lando first — a quiet, shuddering moan as he clenched tight around Oscar, spilling hot between them. Oscar followed right after, burying his face in Lando’s neck with a low, restrained groan, pulsing deep inside him as pleasure rolled through his body.
Oscar didn’t pull out.
He stayed buried to the hilt, arms wrapped around Lando, holding him close while their breathing slowly evened out.
His hand stroked lazily up and down Lando’s side as he tried to memorise every detail—
The way Lando’s chest rose and fell against his.
The faint sheen of sweat on his skin.
The soft, sated sound he made when Oscar shifted just slightly inside him, the way his fingers still clutched Oscar’s back like he never wanted to let go.
Oscar closed his eyes, pressing his face into the curve of Lando’s neck, breathing him in.
He wanted to remember this exact moment — the warmth, the quiet, the way Lando fit perfectly against him — for as long as he could.
Oscar did move eventually, just enough to slip out, not wanting to cause any discomfort to Lando.
The Brit shifted slightly, not pulling away either just enough to breathe properly, his hand sliding lazily up Oscar’s back.
Quiet.
Soft.
Like it was supposed to be.
For a moment, neither of them spoke, letting everything settle. They didn’t need to. There was nothing left unsaid anymore.
Lando let out a small breath, somewhere between content and tired, his fingers tracing absent patterns against Oscar’s skin.
“…hi,” he mumbled after a second.
Oscar huffed quietly against his neck. “Hi, baby.”
That was it.
No big moment.
Lando tilted his head slightly, pressing a slow, lazy kiss against Oscar’s jaw before settling back again, like he wasn’t planning to move anytime soon.
Oscar’s hand stayed where it was, thumb brushing absently along his side. Grounding.
Making it last a little longer.
Lando shifted again, just slightly, enough to look at Oscar properly.
“Can—” he took a small breath, trying to keep his voice steady, “can I spend my summer break here?”
Oscar looked at him for a moment—taking in the nervous expression, the glossy eyes, the way his voice dipped at the end like he was afraid of the answer.
His hand came up to Lando’s cheek, stroking it gently. “How about we spend it at yours?”
That made Lando perk up immediately, eyes widening.
“You’d do that?” His voice was a mix of shock and disbelief.
“Of course.”
“I— I don’t mind, really.” Lando started to spiral. “You’re already going to Silverstone for me, I don’t want to bother you with another trip like that—”
“Baby.” Oscar stopped him before he could go on, thumb brushing over his cheek. “I want to.”
That left Lando speechless, because no one had ever rearranged their life for him like that.
“Really?” he asked, quieter.
“Really.”
Oscar pulled him in closer, kissing him lazily for a moment, like it was sealing it.
“I also wouldn’t mind seeing your car collection,” he added with a smirk, lightening the mood just enough.
Lando narrowed his eyes at him immediately.
“Oh, so that’s why you’re coming,” he muttered, nudging him lightly. “Not for me. For the cars.”
Oscar huffed quietly. “Obviously.”
“That’s rude.”
“You’ll survive.”
Lando squinted at him for another second, then leaned in anyway, pressing a quick, slightly dramatic kiss to his mouth.
“I hope you know,” he murmured against his lips, “I will be offended if you like one more than me.
Oscar’s mouth twitched. “That’s a high bar.”
Lando gasped softly, pulling back. “You’re unbelievable.”
“Mm.” Oscar brushed his thumb along his cheek again, calm as ever. “I love you more, though.”
That softened it instantly.
Lando tried to hold onto the offended look for a second longer, then failed, melting back into him with a quiet huff.
A small pause settled between them again—easy, familiar.
Oscar let it sit for a moment, then, “We should shower.”
“No,” Lando whined, sinking further into the bed.
Oscar huffed quietly. “Lando—”
“I don’t want to get up,” he mumbled. “You spent me.”
Oscar’s mouth twitched. “I did not—”
“You did,” Lando cut in, eyes half-lidded. “I can’t move. This is your fault.”
Oscar watched him for a second.
Then—without another word—he slid an arm under Lando’s back and the other beneath his legs.
Lando blinked. “Osc—”
Too late. He was lifted clean off the bed. A quiet, surprised laugh slipped out as his arms came up around Oscar’s shoulders on instinct.
“You’re so annoying,” he muttered, already settling against him.
Oscar didn’t answer, just adjusted his grip and carried him toward the bathroom.
“…I wasn’t done lying there,” Lando added, softer now, head resting against his shoulder.
“Tragic,” Oscar said dryly, nudging the door open.
By the time he set him down, it was only to turn the water on.
Lando stayed right where he was, leaning back against the sink, watching him without moving.
Of course he did.
Oscar stepped back in, guiding him under the stream once it warmed.
Lando leaned into him immediately. Didn’t even pretend otherwise.
“Stand properly,” Oscar murmured.
“I am,” Lando replied, not moving.
Oscar huffed quietly, steadying him with a hand at his waist as the other reached for the soap.
Lando’s forehead dropped briefly to his shoulder, eyes closing as Oscar worked—slow, careful, unhurried. Like it was the most natural thing in the world.
The water shut off eventually.
Neither of them rushed.
Oscar reached for a towel first, stepping closer again without thinking, pressing it into Lando’s hands before grabbing another for himself.
Lando barely used it.
Just stood there for a second, damp and warm, watching Oscar instead.
Just stood there for a second, damp and warm, watching Oscar instead.
Watching water still sliding slowly down his chest. The way his muscles flexed with every movement. The way his damp hair kept falling into his eyes.
The faded marks along his neck Lando had left there earlier.
Comfortable in a way Lando still wasn’t entirely used to seeing. Like being loved had quietly settled into him already.
“You’re staring again,” Oscar said, not looking at him.
Lando didn’t deny it. “You’re doing things.”
“That’s vague.”
“That’s intentional.”
Oscar huffed quietly, dragging the towel through his hair before tossing it aside.
Lando stepped closer again, like he hadn’t learned anything, like distance just didn’t exist for him anymore.
His fingers caught lightly at Oscar’s side.
“Don’t start,” Oscar said, already knowing.
“I’m not,” Lando said, absolutely starting.
Oscar glanced at him then.
Didn’t move away.
Instead, he leaned in, pressing a quick, easy kiss to Lando’s mouth—like it was the most natural thing in the world before pulling back just enough to take the towel from his hands.
“C’mere.”
Lando didn’t argue—of course he didn’t just let himself be pulled closer as Oscar started drying him off, slow and careful, like there was no rush at all.
“You’re treating me like I can’t do it myself,” Lando muttered, not sounding like he minded.
“You can’t,” Oscar said simply.
“That’s rude.”
Lando’s mouth twitched, hands settling lightly at Oscar’s sides as he let him finish.
Didn’t even pretend otherwise.
Oscar’s hands slowed eventually, the towel dragging once more through Lando’s hair before he let it drop around his shoulders.
“There,” he said, like that solved everything.
Lando hummed, still close, still not moving away. “Thanks.”
Oscar raised a brow but didn’t say anything, just reaching for a clean shirt and pulling it on.
Lando watched him the entire time.
“You’re staring again,” Oscar said.
“I like you,” Lando replied, like that explained everything.
It kind of did.
Oscar just shook his head slightly and reached for another shirt, tossing it at him.
“Get dressed.”
Lando caught it, but didn’t move straight away, fingers toying with the fabric.
“…do I have to?”
“Yes.”
“…what if I don’t?” Lando asked slowly, teasing.
Oscar glanced at him. “Then you miss your flight.”
That landed.
Not heavy.
Just… there.
Lando’s expression shifted for a second, something quieter slipping in before he covered it with a small huff, pulling the shirt over his head.
“Fine.”
They moved slower after that. Not dragging it out. Just… not rushing.
Lando wandered back into the room first, still fixing his hair with one hand, the other already reaching for his phone.
Oscar followed, grabbing his watch, keys—the small things that made everything feel a little more real.
Lando flopped onto the bed for a second, checking something on his screen.
“…I hate schedules,” he muttered.
Oscar glanced over. “You should try respecting them.”
“I do,” Lando said, not convincing at all. “Sometimes.”
Oscar didn’t bother arguing. Instead, he stepped closer, nudging Lando’s leg lightly.
“Up.”
A beat.
“…no.”
Oscar didn’t even bother responding. He just reached down, grabbing his wrist and pulling him up in one smooth motion.
Lando let himself be pulled, stumbling forward slightly before catching himself against Oscar’s chest.
“See?” Oscar said. “Not that hard.”
“You’re annoying,” Lando muttered.
“You’ve mentioned.”
Lando didn’t move away though. Of course he didn’t.
He stayed there for a second longer than necessary, hands loosely gripping Oscar’s shirt, like he was about to say something—then didn’t.
Instead, he leaned in, pressing a quick kiss to his mouth. Not rushed. Not desperate. Just… certain.
Oscar answered it just as easily, one hand coming up to the back of his neck, keeping him there for a second longer before pulling back.
“…we should go soon,” he said quietly.
Lando nodded. Didn’t let go straight away, “…yeah.”
“Breakfast on the way?” Oscar asked, a small smile tugging at his mouth.
Lando nodded again, trying to match it—but it didn’t quite hit.
Oscar’s expression softened slightly. “Baby.”
“I know,” Lando sighed. “It just sucks.”
Oscar’s hand came up briefly to his neck, thumb brushing there, grounding.
“I’ll see you in three weeks,” he said quietly. “Yeah?”
They grabbed the few things Lando had brought with him—passport, phone, charger before heading downstairs together.
The Brit wasn’t even ashamed, stealing another one of Oscar’s hoodies.
Oscar unlocked the car first before automatically reaching over to open Lando’s door for him too.
“How will you survive a whole week without clothes?” Oscar asked, starting the car.
“Will buy whatever I need,” Lando shrugged. “The team has some branded stuff, it’s fine.”
Oscar glanced at him. “You’re ridiculous, you know?”
There was no real bite in his voice, but Lando still decided to play offended.
“Didn’t really have time to pack,” he said, crossing his arms. “Had a plane to catch.”
“Yeah? And what was so important that got you in a hurry like that?” Oscar teased.
“An oblivious, stupid Aussie,” Lando answered. “Who didn’t get the memo that he should’ve kissed me three months ago.”
“Doesn’t sound too smart. You shouldn’t chase after him,” Oscar chuckled, resting a hand on Lando’s thigh.
“Yeah, well, apparently I love him, so that’s impossible.”
They stopped at a red light. Oscar pulled the handbrake up, shifted into neutral, and leaned closer to Lando.
His free hand tilted Lando’s chin up, making him look at him.
“He loves you too, baby.”
And he kissed him.
Lando leaned into it immediately, like he’d been waiting for it, hand coming up to rest against Oscar’s jaw, holding him there.
It wasn’t rushed.
Oscar let it linger, thumb brushing once against Lando’s cheek as their lips moved slowly, like neither of them was in a hurry to pull away.
Lando followed when he shifted back a fraction, closing the distance again without thinking, like he wasn’t done yet.
A quiet breath slipped out of him between it, something softer than before.
Oscar’s hand tightened slightly at his jaw, grounding, keeping it there for just a second longer—
Then he pulled back, just enough, eyes flicking briefly toward the light.
“Green,” he murmured, sitting back properly into his seat.
“Not fair.” Lando pouted, it got him a soft squeeze on his thigh.
Oscar pulled up by the same bakery he did last time, and went to grab food while Lando stayed put in the car.
He sank into the seat, watching through the window. People passed by, caught in their own routines. The wind moved lightly through the trees, cars rolling past like nothing had changed.
Everything looked… normal.
Lando exhaled slowly, head tipping back against the seat for a second before his gaze drifted back toward the bakery.
Oscar was still inside. Somewhere in there. Doing something as ordinary as buying breakfast.
And somehow that felt stranger than anything else.
That this—whatever this was—was real.
Not rushed.
Not a one-off.
Not something that would disappear the second he got on a plane.
Lando’s fingers tapped lightly against his thigh, restless in a way he couldn’t quite place.
Three weeks. It didn’t feel like a long time.
It didn’t feel short either.
Just…
Manageable.
He glanced back toward the door again, almost without thinking. Waiting. Not worried. Just—wanting him back already.
Oscar came back quickly, carrying a bag and two takeaway cups.
Lando straightened slightly the second he saw him, taking both without question as Oscar slipped back into the driver’s seat.
“Thanks,” he muttered, already peeking inside the bag.
Oscar just hummed, pulling away from the curb.
They didn’t go far.
The same spot as last time—quiet, a little removed, the airport stretching out in the distance, planes moving slowly across the horizon.
Familiar.
They stayed in the car, passing things back and forth between them, eating without much conversation. Not awkward. Just… quieter than before.
Every now and then, Lando glanced up through the windshield, tracking a plane as it lifted, disappearing into the sky.
Oscar noticed.
Didn’t comment.
Just nudged the tea into his hand when he forgot about it.
“Drink,” he said.
Lando did.
They finished eventually, slower than necessary, like neither of them was in a rush to be done with it.
But time didn’t really care about that.
Oscar gathered the empty wrappers, tossing them back into the bag before looking at Lando—properly this time.
He watched him for a moment, then leaned over, pressing a soft kiss to his forehead.
“I thought we were past that?” Lando teased.
The Aussie rolled his eyes. “Come here.”
Lando smiled at that and clumsily climbed into Oscar’s lap. It wasn’t comfortable with how little space the supercar provided, but neither of them cared.
“I miss you already,” the Brit muttered, a faint pout pulling at his lips as Oscar’s arms wrapped around his waist.
“We’ll be fine, baby.” His hand moved once along Lando’s back, slow, grounding, before settling there.
“We should go,” he said quietly.
Lando didn’t move.
Of course he didn’t.
For a second longer, he just stayed where he was, tucked into him, like he could stretch the moment if he held on tight enough.
“…yeah.”
He shifted reluctantly, climbing back into his own seat, adjusting his hoodie like that helped.
It didn’t.
Oscar started the car, his hand finding Lando’s thigh, settling like it belonged there.
This time, neither of them tried to fill the silence.
They didn’t need to.
The airport came up too quickly.
Oscar pulled up to the drop-off lane, the familiar rush of people and movement around them, doors opening and closing, engines idling, voices blending into background noise.
Normal.
Too normal.
The car stopped.
Neither of them moved.
Lando glanced out the window, then back at Oscar.
“…okay.” Not really meaning anything. Just saying something.
Oscar looked at him like he had back in the room—like he was taking it in, making sure it stayed.
“Come here,” he said softly.
Lando didn’t hesitate.
He leaned over the console, catching his mouth in a kiss that was quicker than before, but not careless.
Certain.
Familiar.
Something they both knew.
Oscar’s hand came up to the back of his neck, holding him there for a second longer before letting go.
“Text me when you land,” he murmured.
“I will.” He paused for a second before asking quietly “…we’re okay, yeah?”
Oscar’s thumb brushed once along his jaw. “We’re more than okay.”
That settled it.
Lando nodded once, like he needed that confirmation, then reached for the door handle before he could overthink it.
He stepped out, before closing the door with a soft thud.
The air felt different outside—colder, sharper.
He leaned down slightly, looking back in through the window.
Oscar was still there.
Watching him.
Lando lifted his hand in a small, almost awkward wave.
Oscar shook his head faintly, a hint of a smile pulling at his mouth.
“Go,” he mouthed.
Lando did.
He turned, heading toward the entrance, blending into the crowd after a few steps. He didn’t look back this time.
Didn’t need to.
Because for the first time, it didn’t feel like a goodbye.
Notes:
That one 🥺🥺🥺
But Oscar promised they’ll be fine! We trust Oscar!
Also please don’t hold back from pointing out mistakes as you can see in the begging notes I had a hard time editing it 😭
Chapter 27: Damage control
Notes:
I might add a proper note in the morning for now I’ll just say I hate editing chapters where they text.
And now I’m going to try to sleep or die in no peace because my teeth hurts like a bitch.
Love you!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Travelling between time zones was something Lando didn’t think he’d ever get used to. Especially ones as extreme as this.
His phone said it was still Monday when he finally landed in Canada—barely a few hours after he’d taken off, when in reality he’d been travelling for almost an entire day.
It didn’t feel real.
He checked the Melbourne clock.
Already the next morning.
Lando exhaled quietly, as he made his way out of the airport, scanning for the car the team had sent for him.
landed
He sent it without thinking.
The reply came almost immediately.
Took you long enough.
Lando rolled his eyes, a small smile tugging at his mouth despite himself.
yeah? feels like it was only six hours
Lando stepped out of the airport, already scanning for the car when his phone buzzed in his hand.
Oscar.
Of course.
He answered immediately.
“Hi, baby.” The familiar accent came through the line. “Had a good trip?”
“Osc,” Lando whined, still scanning the parking lot for something familiar. “It’s been awful.”
The car was easy to spot. Black, waiting. Nik in the front seat.
Lando opened the door, sliding into the passenger seat mid-conversation.
“Where the hell did you disappear to?”
No hello. Typical.
Lando didn’t even look up. “Around.”
Nik huffed, pulling away from the curb. “That’s not an answer.”
“It’s the only one you’re getting.”
Lando leaned back, gaze drifting to the window again.
“…yes, I did eat,” he murmured into the phone. “Heading to the hotel.”
A quiet breath slipped out of him, something softer settling into his expression.
“…miss you.” That one wasn’t subtle.
Nik’s eyes flicked to him. Lando caught it for half a second, then looked away again, like he hadn’t noticed.
Maybe that was better. Testing here. Not with Zak. Not with Andrea. Nik would react first.
And right now—he wasn’t reacting badly.
It wasn’t like he was closeted—his team knew very well that he liked both women and men. But coming out was one thing. Being in an actual relationship… that was different.
“Miss you more,” Oscar replied, voice softer now.
Lando’s mouth twitched slightly at that, gaze still fixed on the window.
“You’re supposed to say something cocky,” he muttered. “You’re getting soft.”
Oscar laughed on the other end. “Should I hang up?” he teased.
“I mean, you probably do have things to do,” Lando said, voice smaller now.
“Nothing more important than you, baby,” Oscar reassured him.
Lando exhaled quietly. “No, go. It’s fine. Call you later?”
“Yeah.”
Lando pulled the phone away first this time, ending the call before he could drag it out longer than necessary.
The silence in the car settled differently now.
Not empty nor awkward.
Just… noticeable.
Nik didn’t say anything straight away. He waited.
Lando didn’t look at him, just dropped his phone onto his lap, gaze still on the passing streets outside.
A few seconds passed.
Then—“…so,” Nik started, casual in a way that wasn’t actually casual at all, “you wanna tell me what that was?”
Lando didn’t react immediately.
Just leaned his head back slightly against the seat.
“What did it sound like?”
Nik huffed. “Not like ‘around.’”
That got a small smile out of Lando. “Good observation.”
Nik glanced at him briefly. “You’ve been off grid for a day and come back talking like that on the phone.”
“And?”
“And,” Nik repeated, “I’m asking.”
Lando finally looked at him then, measured and careful. Not defensive. Just checking.
“Just someone,” he said.
Not a lie. Not the full truth either.
Nik held his gaze for a second longer, then looked back at the road.
“…right.” He paused, choosing his words carefully. “Just give me a heads up before going public, yeah? We’ll need an actual game plan.”
And that was it. No pushing. No judgment. No unnecessary comments. Just quiet understanding. Lando leaned back a little, a small smile pulling at his mouth. Yeah. He had someone on his side.
The hotel room felt bigger than it should’ve.
Too quiet.
Lando dropped the bag Nik had so kindly provided by the door, not bothering to unpack, just standing there for a second like he’d forgotten what he was supposed to do next.
It hadn’t felt like a goodbye before. It still didn’t, not really. Until now. His hand reached for his phone automatically. Oscar. Of course.
going to fall asleep in the next five seconds
call you tomorrow?
He threw in a teary eyes emoji for good measure. The reply came almost instantly.
Sure baby, sleep well.
A second later—
I love you.
Lando’s mouth twitched, something soft settling in his chest.
love you too
He dropped the phone onto the pillow, a small smile still there. He didn’t bother changing—just stripped off the dirty clothes and buried himself in the sheets.
The only thing he kept on was the ring, fingers absentmindedly turning it as his eyes slipped shut.
—
The morning didn’t last long.
It never really did on race weeks.
Lando barely had time to wake up properly before Jon had him up and moving again—training, stretches, the usual routine that didn’t care how little sleep he’d had or how far he’d travelled.
It helped a little. Kept his mind occupied. Stopped it from drifting too far.
There was a short meeting after—briefing, schedules, the usual reminders about media and timings—nothing he hadn’t heard a hundred times before.
He nodded along anyway, half listening, half counting down the minutes.
By the time they were done, he was finally free.
Well—
as free as he ever got on a race weekend.
He had to go shopping.
Desperately.
It only really hit him that morning how stupid it was to not pack anything when he found himself pulling on a team polo just to have something clean to wear.
Jon hadn’t even commented.
That almost made it worse.
He’d called reception right after, asking—begging—for emergency laundry service. Just for the hoodie.
Oscar’s hoodie.
There was no chance he was stepping out in anything branded.
Which was how he ended up in the closest shopping mall he could find, a few bags already in hand, hovering between two pairs of shoes when his phone buzzed.
Take the grey one.
Also good morning, love.
Lando huffed out a quiet laugh, glancing down at the bag in his hand.
Barely 6 a.m. in Melbourne.
Of course he was already up.
hi
thank god i did
The reply came almost instantly.
Will you finally stop stealing mine?
Lando rolled his eyes, still standing there with both pairs in hand.
no chance
A short pause.
Figured.
He glanced down at the shoes again, then back at the screen, shifting his weight slightly.
you love it really
The typing bubble appeared almost immediately.
I like knowing you make the right decisions.
Lando huffed quietly.
that’s not what I said
I know.
That made his mouth twitch.
He looked between them one more time, then lifted his phone, snapping a quick picture.
which ones?
A beat.
White.
No hesitation.
Lando smiled faintly, handing the other pair back. He ended up in the next store ten minutes later, already halfway through a rack of jeans.
Lando pulled out two pairs, holding them up in front of himself with a slight frown.
“…right,” he muttered, already reaching for his phone again.
these or no
The reply came almost instantly.
Try them on.
Lando rolled his eyes, but grabbed both anyway, heading for the fitting room.
A minute later—
this is effort btw
He sent one picture. Then another. Then another. One slightly turned. One with his foot against the mirror. One where he’d clearly stopped pretending to care.
Then he just stood there awkwardly in the tiny fitting room, waiting for a reply.
Turn around.
Lando snorted, shaking his head, but did it anyway, angling the phone over his shoulder for another shot.
you’re enjoying this
Focus.
He huffed quietly, switching into the second pair, already taking another picture before he even looked properly.
okay but these might be better
Another photo followed. Then another. Just in case. This time, the typing bubble stayed a little longer.
First ones.
No hesitation there. Of course not.
Lando glanced at himself again, shifting slightly, like that might change something.
It didn’t.
rude
Accurate.
That made his mouth twitch.
He changed back without arguing, grabbing the first pair again.
fine
you win
I know.
The rest of the shopping went pretty much like that. Quick decisions, short replies, Oscar somehow always right. A photo, a pause, one word—and that was it.
Lando stopped questioning it after a while.
By the time he made it back to the hotel, arms full and phone still warm in his hand, it didn’t feel like he’d done any of it alone. Like Oscar had been there the whole time—just out of sight.
Lando barely made it through the door before dropping the bags by the bed, kicking it shut behind him with his heel. He slipped his shoes off and reached for his phone, pressing the video call button. It rang longer than usual, but it wasn’t declined.
“Hi,” he said as soon as Oscar’s face appeared on the screen.
His hair was still damp, water clinging to the ends, a towel draped loosely over his shoulders.
“Hi, baby.” Oscar smiled, propping the phone up on the coffee table as he sat down on the couch.
He was only in his underwear, which was—mildly disappointing.
“Did you just get out of bed?” Lando asked, narrowing his eyes slightly. “It’s already ten there.”
“Nah. Just came back from a run,” Oscar rolled his eyes. “Wanna show me what you bought?” he added, like that settled everything.
Lando’s mouth twitched, already reaching for the bags. “Yeah—wait.”
He shuffled closer to the bed, dragging one of them up beside him before angling the phone.
“Okay, you’re not allowed to change your mind now,” he said, pulling the first thing out—then paused. “No, wait.”
He quickly propped the phone up with a couple of pillows, adjusting it until Oscar had a clear view.
“Better,” he muttered, before tugging his shirt off and pulling on the first one he’d bought. “What do we think for media day?”
“Looking good, baby,” Oscar smiled.
“Okay.”
Lando pushed himself up from the bed to change next, grabbing the jeans Oscar had approved earlier.
“Mm. Turn around,” Oscar said, leaning a little closer to the phone.
Lando rolled his eyes, but did a full spin anyway.
There was a faint pause on Oscar’s end.
“Yeah, no. You’re not going out like that.”
“What? Why?” Lando dropped back onto the bed, closer to the phone now. “Do they look bad? I knew I should’ve taken the other ones.”
“They look too good on you, baby,” he said, a slight grimace pulling at his mouth, like he didn’t like the idea of Lando walking out in them. “You can wear them to Silverstone.”
That left Lando speechless.
That stupid, lovely, possessive man of his.
“Oscar Piastri, are you for real?” Lando giggled, snapping out of it.
Oscar didn’t even try hiding it. “Very.”
Lando shook his head, dropping back onto the bed, the phone shifting slightly as he propped himself up on one elbow.
“You’re unbelievable,” he muttered, but there was no bite to it.
“I’m just protecting my sanity.”
That wasn’t denial.
Of course he wasn’t ashamed of that.
Lando glanced down at the jeans again, then back at the screen, a faint smile still lingering.
“…I like them though.”
“I know,” Oscar said simply.
That landed.
Lando huffed quietly, dragging a hand through his hair before pushing himself up again. “Fine. I’ll save them.”
“Good,” Oscar said, just as calm as before. “So I can take them off you.”
Lando froze for half a second because of that.
“You’re ridiculous,” he muttered, rolling his eyes as he turned away, busying himself with the next bag like that would help.
It didn’t.
A faint flush still crept up his neck. Oscar said nothing about it. Of course he didn’t. Which honestly made it worse. He just watched him for a second, the corner of his mouth tugging upward slightly.
“That’s all?” he asked, a hint of a smirk slipping through.
Lando paused mid-movement, glancing back at the phone. “…what?”
“The shopping,” Oscar said, like that’s all he meant.
Lando narrowed his eyes slightly. “You’re so annoying,” he muttered, but there was no heat behind it as he grabbed the next thing anyway. “Okay—this one you’re not allowed to be weird about.”
Oscar raised a brow, settling back against the couch. “We’ll see.”
Lando rolled his eyes and disappeared out of frame for a second, reappearing as he tugged the shirt into place, adjusting it once, then again, like he couldn’t decide how he felt about it. It sat different—looser, slightly shorter, not something he’d usually go for.
“…well?” he asked, glancing between the screen and his reflection.
Oscar didn’t answer straight away, just looked—properly this time. Then, “That one stays.”
Lando blinked. “…you’re serious?”
“Yeah.”
A small pause, then, quieter, “It looks good on you.”
Lando glanced back at himself, shifting slightly, like that might change his mind about it.
“Yeah.”
He didn’t change out of it straight away, just reached for the next bag, pulling something else out, holding it up to the camera for half a second before tossing it aside again.
“That one’s boring,” he decided.
Oscar huffed quietly. “You bought it.”
“I know.”
He went through another couple of things the same way—quick shows, shorter comments, less thinking now. The decisions came easier, automatic, like they’d already found the rhythm of it.
By the end, half the clothes were spread across the bed, the rest still in bags, and Lando finally dropped back onto the mattress with a quiet exhale, phone shifting in his hand as he looked at the screen again.
“Okay,” he said, a little breathless. “Now I’m done.”
Oscar’s mouth twitched faintly. “Finally.”
“Oi. You asked for it,” Lando shot back, voice lightly accusing.
“Guess that’s on me,” Oscar said, teasing, before his tone softened. “Did you eat?”
“Gonna order room service in a bit,” Lando replied, settling more comfortably into the bed.
Oscar raised a brow at him, mirroring the position on his end as he leaned back against the couch. “Something diet-appropriate?”
“What are you, my trainer?” Lando narrowed his eyes.
“No,” Oscar said, a small chuckle slipping through, a hint of a smirk on his lips. “I’m your boyfriend. I need to make sure you eat properly.”
“Oh, shut up,” Lando whined, burying his face into the pillow. “Don’t you have a shop to run or something?”
“Or something,” Oscar echoed, amused. “But yeah, I should probably get going. The cars won’t fix themselves.”
Lando huffed softly into the pillow, then turned his head just enough to look back at the screen.
“Yeah.”
A small pause settled between them again.
“…text me later?”
Oscar’s expression softened slightly. “I will.”
Lando nodded once, like that was enough, pulling the phone a little closer.
“I miss you,” he added, quieter now.
“Miss you too, baby.”
The call lingered for another second. Then another. Neither seemed ready to let it go yet.
Eventually, Lando ended it first.
—
Friday didn’t start well.
FP1 put him P7—messy laps, traffic in all the wrong places, nothing quite clicking the way it should’ve. The car felt off, or maybe he did. Either way, it wasn’t clean.
A few weeks ago, that would’ve followed him out of the car. Sat heavy in his chest, replaying corners he’d missed, moments he should’ve done better.
This time was different.
He stepped out, helmet off, already letting it go.
A quick debrief. A few notes.
Then he moved on.
FP2 was better. Clean laps, better rhythm, P2 by the end of it. Something finally settling into place.
And by Saturday morning, it all came together. FP3—P1. Fastest.
And still—he looked exactly the same stepping out of the car.
Calm.
Like none of it—good or bad—was getting under his skin anymore.
—
Oscar woke up before his alarm.
He didn’t question it.
Didn’t check the time straight away, just lay there for a second, staring at the ceiling like it meant something.
When he finally reached for his phone, the screen lit up—5:47 a.m.
That was normal. Maybe a little early. But not unusual.
He got up without thinking too much about it, moving through the motions automatically—kettle on, coffee from the cabinet, the quiet hum of the apartment still half-asleep around him.
Routine.
Nothing different about it.
He leaned against the counter while it brewed, arms folded, gaze drifting somewhere unfocused.
He didn’t check the time again.
Didn’t need to.
By the time he settled on the couch, coffee in hand, the broadcast was already on.
That just made sense. He was awake anyway. Might as well watch.
The second the papaya car with the number 4 rolled out, something in his chest settled. Not relief exactly. Just… right. He didn’t stop to think about why.
Lando sat P12 in Q1 at first—traffic, a messy run, nothing clean enough to stick.
Oscar didn’t react.
He knew he’d find time.
And he was.
Q2 was clean. Nothing dramatic, nothing messy—Lando moved through it easily, lap time where it needed to be, no real pressure. Oscar barely shifted on the couch, sipping his coffee, already more focused on what came next.
Q3 was where it mattered.
He leaned forward slightly without thinking when Lando rolled out again, eyes fixed on the timing screen first, then the onboard. Soft tyres again. Of course.
It made sense.
Didn’t mean it was right.
He would’ve gone mediums. More stable through the lap, better consistency, especially with how the track was evolving. But McLaren stayed on softs, same as the rest of the session. No variation. No adjustment.
Oscar didn’t comment.
Just watched.
The first run wasn’t clean. You could see it almost immediately—slight correction mid-corner, not quite as planted on exit, nothing major but enough. Enough to cost time.
Still, it wasn’t bad.
There was more in it.
There always was.
He set the cup down without looking, attention narrowing as Lando went again. This one mattered. Final run. Track at its best. Everything lined up.
The lap started well. Sector one was good. Clean. Sector two was even better.
Oscar’s jaw tightened slightly, just enough to feel it.
Then the final corner.
Too eager on entry. Slight over-rotation. Small correction on exit. Small, but not enough to save it. He knew before he even crossed the line. A few tenths gone. Then—track limits. Deleted.
Oscar exhaled slowly through his nose, leaning back again, expression barely shifting.
P7.
Not terrible.
Not where it should’ve been.
He glanced at the screen again, like it might change if he looked long enough. But it stayed the same.
He wasn’t worried though. The pace was there. It had only been one corner. One moment. Fixable.
Oscar didn’t move straight away.
The timing screen stayed on for a few seconds longer, numbers settled, nothing changing.
Still P7.
He reached for his phone without thinking.
Morning, baby.
He paused looking at the screen for a moment, before adding:
You did well.
He didn’t wait for a reply.
Just set the phone down, stood up, and headed for the shower.
The water was too hot at first. He adjusted it without thinking, letting it run over his shoulders, head tilted slightly forward, eyes closed.
It wasn’t a bad result.
Not really. Just… not what it could’ve been.
He dried off quickly, pulling on something comfortable before grabbing his keys. Saturday or not, he still had things to do.
The shop was quiet when he got there. Of course it was. Most people didn’t work weekends unless they had to. Oscar did.
He moved through it easily—checking parts, finishing things that had been left mid-week, hands busy, mind… not entirely.
His phone buzzed once somewhere on the counter. His mum, reminding him about dinner later.
A little later, the door opened. Oscar didn’t look up immediately.
“Morning,” Noah said, already walking in like he owned the place.
“Morning.” Oscar glanced at him, brows lifting slightly. “The hell are you doing here?”
“I’m taking the Lambo.”
Oscar rolled his eyes but nodded. “Keys are in the office.”
Noah grabbed them, then paused, glancing over at him with a look that lingered just a second too long.
“…so,” he started casually, “how’s your boy?”
Oscar didn’t react straight away. He let it sit in the air. Just kept working, tightening something that didn’t really need tightening.
“He’s fine.”
Noah hummed, like he expected that.
“Yeah?”
“Yeah.”
Noah got quiet for a moment.
“Unlucky today.”
Oscar shrugged slightly. “Last corner.”
“That all it was?”
Oscar finally glanced up.
“Yeah.”
Noah held his gaze for a second, then nodded, satisfied enough.
“Right.”
He tossed the keys lightly in his hand, already turning toward the door.
“Tell him I said hi.”
Oscar didn’t answer that. Just went back to what he was doing.
The door shut behind him.
A second later, Oscar reached for his phone again.
There were no new messages from the Brit. Oscar didn’t overthink it.
It was normal. Debriefs, media, the constant pull of people needing something from him.
He’d done it before—long days at the track, back-to-back sessions, everything packed tight into a schedule that didn’t really leave space for anything else.
But never like this. Never like Formula 1. Never like what Lando dealt with now.
He set the phone back down and picked up where he left off.
The Land Rover had been sitting in the corner of the garage for weeks, half-finished, something he kept coming back to between everything else.
It wasn’t complicated work.
That was the point.
Something predictable. Something that stayed where he left it.
He slid under the chassis, tools clinking softly against the concrete as he adjusted his grip, tightening, loosening, rechecking things that didn’t strictly need it.
Time passed without him really noticing.
Just the quiet hum of the space, the occasional sound of metal shifting, the rhythm of it settling his head back into place.
By the time he checked the clock again, it was already late enough that he had to leave if he didn’t want to be late.
He washed his hands quickly, grabbed his keys, and headed out.
Dinner was… normal.
Easy.
It seemed like Hattie had kept her promise—none of his sisters said a word about Lando.
“You’ve been working a lot lately,” his mum said eventually. It wasn’t a question. “Are you having trouble?”
Oscar paused for a second. He hadn’t expected that.
“Of course not,” he said, keeping his voice as calm as ever. “I was thinking of taking a proper vacation.”
It wasn’t a lie. Silverstone could count.
Hattie made a small noise at that, and Oscar shot her a quick warning look.
“Oh, that’s wonderful, dear. You deserve it with all the hard work,” Nicole smiled at him. “Do you have somewhere in mind?”
“Not yet.” He shrugged, hoping that would be the end of it.
“England is nice around this time, isn’t it?” Hattie chimed in, far too pleased with herself. “Or maybe Monaco, if you’re feeling fancy?”
Oscar didn’t rise to it. He just reached for his glass instead, like that ended the conversation.
It didn’t.
Mae leaned forward slightly, resting her chin in her hand, watching him with a look that already meant trouble.
“Speaking of vacation,” she said casually, “you remember my birthday party in August, right?”
Oscar glanced at her. “When is it?”
Mae stared at him. “You’re joking.”
“I’m asking.”
“Twenty-third,” she said, like that alone should be enough. “Big deal. You have to be there.”
“I’ll be there.”
That seemed to satisfy her for about half a second.
“Good,” Mae nodded, before her mouth curved into a small, knowing smile. “Are you bringing a plus one?”
Hattie made a quiet noise behind her. Oscar didn’t look at either of them.
“No.”
“Mm.” Mae didn’t sound convinced. “Because I heard something about a—what was it—”
“Mae.”
She grinned. “—a British person?”
Nicole shot him a look, but it was too late now.
Oscar exhaled slowly through his nose, setting his glass down. “You hear a lot of things.”
“Yeah,” Mae tilted her head slightly. “Funny how they’re all the same thing.”
Oscar didn’t answer. Didn’t need to.
Mae’s smile only widened.
“Right,” she said, satisfied enough. “So I’ll expect two of you.”
“You’ll expect one,” Oscar corrected calmly.
“Mm.”
His phone buzzed against the table, slicing through the moment. Oscar let it sit for a second before it buzzed again. This time he looked down. Lando.
He picked it up immediately.
“Excuse me,” he said, already standing.
Mae’s smile turned sharper.
“Say hi to your not plus one for me,” she called after him.
Oscar didn’t comment on that. He just stepped outside, the door clicking shut softly behind him before he raised the phone to his ear.
“Your plus one?” Lando asked instead of a greeting, a hint of curiosity in his voice.
Oscar’s mouth twitched slightly.
“Hello, baby. Nice to hear you too.” There was no real bite to it.
“Don’t deflect,” Lando said, accusing.
“I’m not.”
“You are.”
Oscar huffed quietly, leaning back against the wall. “It’s a family thing.”
“That doesn’t answer my question.” Oscar could practically see him narrowing his eyes.
“It wasn’t meant to.” A small pause. “…she meant you.”
Lando went quiet for half a second.
“What?”
“Apparently the girls filled her in,” Oscar added, like he was clarifying something obvious. “She heard about the British person who left a suitcase at my place in March.”
The line went quiet again. That amused him more than it should’ve.
“Oh, okay—that’s—” Lando exhaled. “Okay.”
“Did you think I had a different plus one?” Oscar teased, a faint smirk pulling at his lips.
“No?” Lando’s voice wasn’t entirely sure.
“Are you saying or asking?”
“Oh, shut up,” he mumbled. “I cannot believe your whole family knows about my suitcase.”
“They don’t.”
“They absolutely do.”
Oscar’s mouth twitched. “It’s not that serious.”
“It is,” Lando insisted. “I’m never recovering from that.”
“Don’t be dramatic, baby,” Oscar said, a quiet chuckle slipping through.
“I’m serious,” Lando huffed, and Oscar could picture it—the slight pout, the way he’d drop back onto the bed like the world had personally wronged him. “I’m never coming to Australia again.”
“You will.”
“Debatable.”
Oscar pushed himself off the wall, walking a few steps further down the hallway before settling onto the low step outside, elbows resting loosely on his knees, phone pressed to his ear.
A small pause settled between them, filled only by the faint noise of the street and Lando shifting on the other end.
“…how bad did it look?”
Not tense.
Just checking.
Oscar glanced down at the ground, tracing an absent line with his thumb against the edge of his phone. “You lost it in the last corner.”
“I know,” Lando sighed. Oscar could hear the movement—fabric shifting, probably dragging a hand through his hair. “I felt it.”
“You were quick everywhere else.”
“Yeah.”
Oscar leaned back slightly, head tipping against the wall behind him, eyes half-lidded as he listened to the quiet on the other end.
Another pause followed, shorter this time.
“It’s fine,” Lando added after a second, softer now. “Could’ve been worse.”
Oscar hummed faintly in agreement.
“Still P7,” Lando went on, a hint of his usual tone slipping back in. “I’ll survive.”
“You will.” He nodded.
“Don’t sound too relieved.”
Oscar’s mouth twitched at that. “I’m always relieved when you survive.”
That got a quiet laugh out of him—soft, familiar.
Oscar let it sit there for a second, listening to it fade.
“There it is,” he said.
“Shut up.”
But he could hear the smile now.
Oscar let the quiet settle for a second after Lando’s laugh faded, the faint sound of movement on the other end filling the space between them.
“You sound tired,” he said eventually.
“I am,” Lando admitted, no hesitation this time. “Long day.”
“Go to sleep.”
“In a minute.”
Oscar huffed quietly. “Lando—”
“I will,” he cut in, softer now. “Just… give me a second.”
Oscar didn’t argue.
Didn’t want to.
He shifted slightly where he sat, gaze drifting out into the street again as the line stayed open.
A faint rustle came through the phone—fabric, movement, the dull thud of something hitting the mattress.
“Alright,” Lando murmured after a moment. “I’m in bed.”
“Good.”
A small pause.
“You’ll be fine tomorrow,” Oscar added, voice steady.
“I know.”
And he sounded like he meant it. Another second passed.
“…call you after?” Lando asked, quieter now.
“Yeah.”
The pauses between replies stretched longer now, and from the way Lando’s breathing had evened out, Oscar could tell he was close to falling asleep.
“Night, baby,” Oscar said softly. “I love you.”
“Love you too,” Lando mumbled.
The call lingered before either of them let it end. Eventually, Lando hung up first. Oscar stayed still for a second after the line went quiet, phone loose in his hand. The silence didn’t feel empty anymore. Just… calm.
He pushed himself up after a moment, heading back inside, the noise of dinner picking up again as if nothing had changed.
Not really.
He sat back down, picking up the conversation where it left off, answering when he needed to, listening when he didn’t.
But his phone stayed closer now.
Face down.
Within reach.
—
Oscar woke up before his alarm again.
He knew why this time.
He didn’t reach for his phone straight away, just sat there for a second, hand dragging through his hair as the quiet settled around him. The race was already done. Whatever had happened—had already happened.
He exhaled softly and reached for it anyway.
Unlocked it.
Results.
He didn’t need to scroll.
Lando.
DNF.
Oscar blinked once. Read it again. Same answer.
His jaw tightened slightly as he opened the race summary, thumb moving faster now, controlled but not slow either.
Lap 67.
Collision.
Papaya closing in, straight into Turn 13—too late on the brakes. Contact. The car didn’t move after that.
Oscar locked the screen before it could replay.
A second passed. Then another.
He leaned forward, elbows resting on his knees, staring at nothing for a moment. Fighting for P4. Three laps to go. And then—that.
His hand dragged down his face once before he reached for the phone again. No messages. Nothing new. Debrief. Everything that came after.
Call me when you can?
He didn’t add anything else. Didn’t know what. Just locked the phone again, letting it fall back onto the bed as he leaned his head against the wall behind him.
“Shit,” he muttered under his breath.
Monday didn’t wait for him.
Oscar got up, got dressed, coffee the same as always, keys in hand like nothing had changed. There was work to finish if he wanted everything wrapped before Silverstone, and he didn’t give himself much room to argue with that.
The shop was already warm when he got in, quiet in that early way that usually helped him focus.
Not this time.
He picked up where he’d left off with the Land Rover, sliding the creeper under it and rolling beneath the chassis. One hand reached up automatically, tightening a few loose fittings, checking things by feel more than sight before shifting slightly to reach further in.
It just didn’t settle the same.
His phone stayed on the workbench, screen up this time.
Within reach.
Noah noticed. Of course he did.
“You waiting for it to grow legs and walk away or something?” he muttered, passing by.
Oscar didn’t look up. “Working.”
“Yeah, I can see that,” he looked at him a moment longer before adding. “You’ve checked it like five times in the last minute.”
“I haven’t.”
“You have.”
Oscar reached for the torque wrench, setting it to spec before tightening the last bolt—once, twice then stopping, staring at it like he couldn’t remember if he’d already done it.
“Don’t you have something to do?”
“I am doing something,” Noah said easily. “Watching you spiral.”
Oscar didn’t react to that.
He slid out from under the car, wiping his hands on a rag before moving to the front, popping the bonnet and checking the radiator hose clamp, tightening it slightly even though it didn’t need it.
The phone stayed on the table, and so did Oscar’s attention. When it buzzed, he reached for it before he even thought about it—
Noah snorted. “There it is.”
Oscar flipped him off without looking, already stepping back, wiping his hand quickly against his jeans as he glanced at the screen.
Lando.
“Go on,” Noah added, amused. “Take it. Wouldn’t want you to combust.”
Oscar didn’t answer that as well.
Just turned and headed for the office, shutting the door behind him before lifting the phone to his ear.
“Hey.”
“Hi.”
Oscar closed the door behind him, leaning back against it. “You okay?”
“I’m fine.” It was too quick. “Were you watching?”
“No.” Oscar didn’t push yet. “But I saw the replays.”
A sharp exhale came through the line.
“Yeah, well—” Lando cut himself off, then started again, voice tighter now. “It’s just stupid.”
Oscar stayed quiet.
“I had more pace,” Lando went on, words coming faster now. “I was all over him for laps, just stuck there. And then—nothing. No call, no swap, just let us race it out.”
A beat.
“They could’ve done something.”
Oscar’s brows pulled together slightly.
“They always go on about papaya rules,” Lando added, sharper now. “But what’s the point if it just screws you over?”
Oscar didn’t interrupt.
“I’ve been there longer,” Lando continued. “I know how to manage it, I had the pace—”
Another pause, this one felt heavier.
“I’m supposed to be the one they back.”
That landed differently. Oscar straightened slightly.
“Lando.”
“I’m serious,” he pushed. “It’s unfair.”
Oscar exhaled, his voice stayed even as he said, “You drove into him.”
A brief silence settled between them. Just enough.
“I know,” Lando snapped, defensive. “That’s not the point.”
“It is,” Oscar said calmly. “You wouldn’t want them handing it to you,” he added. “You want to earn it.”
Lando didn’t answer straight away.
Oscar didn’t fill it.
“You’d know it wasn’t yours.”
Silence lingered on the line. The tension hadn’t gone away, but something about it had changed.
“I—” Lando stopped, exhaling. “…yeah.”
Oscar leaned his head back slightly against the door.
“It’s just…” Lando tried again, voice less sharp now. “It’s stupid. Everyone says I’m the first driver, but I’m not.”
Oscar pushed himself off the door, moving to the desk and sitting down, one hand resting against his temple.
“I know, baby,” he said, softer now.
“I helped bring the team back,” Lando went on, quieter but heavier. “Spent years there, hours in the sim, everything—and what for?”
Oscar stayed quiet for a moment. There wasn’t really anything to say. He understood now. The result didn’t matter. Neither did the crash, not really. This was about Lando’s place in all of it. And whether it still meant something.
Oscar leaned forward slightly, phone pressed closer to his ear.
“It wasn’t for nothing,” he said finally.
Simple. Steady.
Lando didn’t respond immediately.
“They wouldn’t be where they are without you,” Oscar added, quieter now.
A small shift came through the line—fabric, movement.
“…doesn’t feel like it,” Lando muttered.
Oscar’s jaw tightened slightly, but his voice stayed even.
“I know.” A beat. “But that doesn’t mean it’s not true.”
The silence settled between them again. Not heavy this time. Just thoughtful.
Lando let out a slow breath.
“…yeah.” His voice still not convinced.
But not pushing anymore either.
Oscar let it sit for a second, then shifted the tone just enough—
“You still drove into him, by the way.”
“Oh, shut up,” Lando groaned.
There he was.
Oscar’s mouth twitched. A quiet exhale came through the line, less sharp this time.
“I know,” Lando muttered. “Don’t remind me.”
“Hard to forget,” Oscar replied easily, leaning back in the chair, one ankle hooking over the other.
“Yeah, well,” he huffed before ding softer. “…car felt good though.”
Oscar glanced down at the floor, nodding slightly to himself. “It did.”
“Properly good,” Lando added, a bit more energy creeping back in. “I was just stuck, couldn’t get past and then—”
He stopped himself. Didn’t go back there. Good.
Oscar didn’t push it. “Next time.”
“Yeah.”
“…you working?”
“Trying to.”
That got a different reaction. “Sorry.”
“For what?”
“Distracting you.”
Oscar’s mouth twitched again. “You’re not.”
“You are,” Lando said automatically.
“I’m finishing up anyway,” Oscar said, tone easy. “I’ll be home in an hour.”
“Yeah?”
“Yeah.”
A pause. “Call you then.”
“Okay.”
Softer now. “I’ll wait.”
Oscar’s grip on the phone tightened slightly. “Don’t force yourself to stay awake.”
“I will.”
Of course he would.
“…alright,” Lando added after a second. “See you in a bit.”
“Yeah.”
Oscar hung up first.
He stayed where he was for a moment longer, phone still in his hand, staring at nothing in particular.
A small exhale slipped out of him, quieter than before. That soft, stubborn, impossible boy of his.
Oscar dragged a hand through his hair, shaking his head faintly to himself.
Yeah, that was—something.
Something he wouldn’t mind keeping.
He pushed himself up from the chair.
Work.
Right.
He stepped out of the office, pulling the door open—and didn’t look back.
Notes:
Funny how we just had Canada but a year later.
Chapter 28: Overcut
Notes:
Guys I had the best weekend, went to visit family in the countryside, drank a bit too much with my aunt, played a bit too hard with my cousins kids (two six and one five years old). Then stubbornly decided I’m alright to get back on a bike (I was not alright, I was drunk out of my mind and it was the first time driving a bike in NINE years for me), fell to the ground, drove into a fence. But I survived.
And now to end the nice weekend we’ve got a chapter up 🫶
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Lando had to attend the F1 movie premiere—because he wasn’t Max Verstappen. He couldn’t get out of it.
New York didn’t feel real.
Just a quick stop on his way home.
But it was too loud, too bright, too full of people who had nothing to do with racing—and yet somehow knew exactly who he was.
He had a whole team helping him get ready in the hotel room, which felt a bit ridiculous. He wasn’t a movie star. He was a racer.
But work was work—and Lando would be lying if he said he didn’t find it fun.
He snapped a quick photo of himself in the mirror before leaving and sent it to Oscar.
You look good, superstar.
Lando giggled quietly at that, sending back a pouting emoji.
Baby.
Oscar corrected himself.
Lando glanced up briefly, like someone might’ve noticed, before locking his phone again.
Cameras flashed the moment he stepped out of the car, voices overlapping, names being called from every direction like he was supposed to keep up with all of it.
He didn’t.
Just smiled, adjusted his jacket slightly, and kept moving.
It was different from race weekends.
There, it was controlled. Structured.
Here—
it was chaos dressed up as something polished.
He didn’t overthink it. There was no point.
A charming smile, a few jokes thrown into interviews, easy interactions with other drivers scattered through the crowd.
Almost the whole grid was there. That made it easier—knowing he wasn’t doing it alone.
The movie was… fine.
A bit overdone, maybe. Laid on thick in places.
But good, if you weren’t part of the world it was trying to portray.
He lingered for a while after the screening.
“What the hell was that?” Carlos muttered at some point, champagne in hand.
“Beats me,” Lando chuckled, though he didn’t feel quite as strongly about it.
It was just a movie.
By the time it was over, the noise didn’t follow him out.
New York stayed behind.
Just like that.
Monaco felt exactly like it always did.
Too bright, too still, the kind of quiet that only really existed when no one was around to break it.
Lando dropped his bag just inside the door, keys following a second later with a dull clink against the counter. For a moment, he just stood there, taking it in like he hadn’t been gone at all.
Nothing had changed.
Of course it hadn’t.
He moved through the apartment without thinking—window cracked open, jacket off, suitcase dragged further in. It was still half-unpacked from the last time, clothes folded badly, a few things left where he’d clearly meant to sort them later.
He didn’t.
Figured it could wait a little longer.
He reached for his phone.
Call me when you get home, yeah?
Oscar’s reply from earlier.
Lando’s mouth twitched slightly as he dropped onto the couch, stretching out before pressing the video call button.
It barely rang.
Oscar was already in bed, lights off, the faint glow from the screen catching the edges of his face, hair still slightly damp like he’d just showered.
“Hello, handsome,” Lando teased, shifting the phone slightly.
Oscar blinked at the screen for a second, slow, then a small smirk tugged at his lips.
“Hi, beautiful.” His voice was lower, rougher with sleep.
Lando noticed that immediately.
“Did I wake you?”
“No.” A beat. “Was trying sleep to thought.”
Lando huffed a quiet laugh, settling deeper into the couch. “Yeah, well. That didn’t last long.”
Oscar didn’t answer straight away.
His eyes moved instead—slow, deliberate—taking in the way Lando was sprawled out, still dressed, light spilling in behind him from the balcony.
“…it’s still bright there,” he muttered.
“Mm.” Lando turned his head slightly, glancing toward the window before looking back. “Yeah.”
Oscar hummed quietly, shifting against the pillows, phone angled a little closer now.
“You just get in?”
“Yeah. Like ten minutes ago.”
“And you called me.”
Lando’s mouth twitched. “You told me to.”
Oscar didn’t deny it.
A small pause settled between them, easy, but not empty.
Lando adjusted slightly, dragging a hand through his hair, the movement slow, unbothered.
Oscar’s gaze followed it without thinking.
“…shit,” he muttered under his breath, more to himself than anything.
Lando’s brows lifted slightly. “What?”
Oscar blinked once, like he’d just caught up with himself, then let out a quiet breath.
“Nothing,” he said too quickly, before adding, softer, “Even tired, you still look hot.”
A small pause.
Lando didn’t comment that.
Instead, his mouth twitched slowly, something a bit sharper settling into his expression.
“Yeah?”
Oscar immediately looked like he regretted saying it.
“…don’t,” he muttered, shifting slightly against the pillows.
Lando huffed a quiet laugh, pushing himself up a little on the couch, bringing the phone closer.
“No, no—” he said lightly. “You don’t get to say that and then pretend you didn’t.”
Oscar dragged a hand over his face. “I didn’t pretend anything.”
“You literally said nothing right before it.”
“That was before.”
Lando smiled at that, slow and deliberate. “Right.”
He shifted again—this time very much aware of what he was doing—settling back into the couch, stretching out just a little more.
Oscar noticed.
Of course he did.
“…you’re doing that on purpose,” he said, voice lower now.
“Doing what?”
Oscar didn’t answer immediately. Just looked at him.
“Don’t start.”
Lando’s smile widened slightly. “Start what?”
The challenge hung in the air for a moment.
“Something you can’t finish.”
That landed.
Lando stilled just for a second, then tilted his head, studying him.
“…who says I can’t?”
Oscar held his gaze.
Didn’t answer.
Didn’t need to.
Lando shifted again, slower this time, adjusting the phone just slightly—angle changing, light catching differently across him. Not accidental. Not anymore.
Oscar’s eyes didn’t leave him for a second.
His jaw tightened just a fraction, eyes tracking the movement before flicking back up to Lando’s face.
“…you’re insufferable,” he muttered.
“Yeah?” Lando’s voice stayed light, but there was something under it now. “Still looking though.”
Oscar exhaled quietly through his nose, dragging a hand through his hair, pushing it back.
The silence that followed wasn’t sharp anymore.
Just… there.
Lando shifted slightly on the couch, the earlier edge gone, something easier settling in instead.
“I miss you,” he said, a faint pout tugging at his lips.
Oscar’s expression softened without him really meaning it to.
“Yeah?”
“Yeah.”
He paused for a second.
“…it’s quieter here,” Lando added, glancing briefly toward the balcony before looking back at the screen.
Oscar hummed softly, shifting further into the pillows.
“Come here then,” he murmured, voice low, half-asleep already.
Lando huffed a quiet laugh. “Bit far.”
“Mm.”
The pause stretched again. Comfortable this time. Easy. Oscar’s eyes had already started to close.
“You should sleep,” Lando said, softer now.
“Trying.”
“Clearly not very well.”
Oscar’s mouth twitched faintly.
“Stay on?” he asked, quieter this time.
Lando didn’t hesitate. “Yeah.”
The line stayed open, the faint sound of Oscar’s breathing settling into something slower, steadier. He shifted slightly on the couch, lowering the volume on his end, eyes lingering on the screen a second longer than necessary. Oscar was already half gone—eyes closed, phone slipping a little before settling against the pillow. Still there. Just… quieter.
Lando smiled softly seeing him.
“Yeah,” he murmured under his breath, more to himself than anything.
He stayed like that for a bit, longer than he needed to, letting the silence sit, letting it feel like something instead of nothing. It was different, having someone there without actually being there. Not empty. Not quiet in the same way.
Eventually, he pushed himself up from the couch, grabbing his charger and plugging his phone in before setting it on the counter, angled just enough to keep Oscar in view. Not that he was looking anymore. Still.
He moved around the apartment a bit aimlessly at first, like he wasn’t entirely sure what to do with himself now that he had time. Then his eyes landed on the pile of clothes half spilling out of his suitcase.
Right.
Laundry it was.
He crouched down, sorting through it without much care, tossing things into the machine, pausing every now and then when something looked like it might actually matter. He used to be worse with this. Or maybe he just didn’t care enough before. Hard to tell.
The machine started with a dull hum, filling the apartment with just enough background noise to make it feel less still.
Cleaning, though…
He made it halfway through clearing the kitchen before losing interest, a glass abandoned by the sink, a cloth left somewhere he’d forget about in an hour. He stood there for a second, looking around like that might somehow make it look better.
It didn’t.
“Yeah, no,” he muttered, dragging a hand through his hair.
That wasn’t happening.
He dropped back onto the couch instead, reaching for his phone without really thinking, thumb hovering for a second before unlocking it. Oscar hadn’t moved. Still asleep. Still there.
Lando watched him for a moment, quieter now.
That was new.
Not the call. Not really.
Just… this.
He exhaled slowly, looking away before he could sit on that thought for too long, already opening a browser instead. Cleaning services. Monaco. A few options popped up. He skimmed through them, not reading properly, then tapped on one and booked it without much hesitation.
That would do.
Better than whatever he’d just attempted.
He let the phone drop back against his chest for a second, staring up at the ceiling, listening to the faint hum of the washing machine and the softer, steadier sound coming from the call.
Summer break wasn’t that far off.
Lando huffed quietly, something almost like a smile pulling at his lips.
Yeah.
Better to sort it now.
The two days he spent at home were… quiet.
He didn’t do much—just lingered around, moved from room to room without much purpose, spent more time on the phone than he usually would.
Talking to Oscar, mostly.
It wasn’t a bad change.
He caught up on sleep, finally unpacked properly just to pack again, a bit more organised this time. Made sure to take his camera too, almost as an afterthought.
Something about it felt… easier.
Not fixed.
Just—better than before.
England hit differently.
Louder. Busier. Familiar in a way Monaco never really was.
Lando barely had time to think about it before he spotted the car pulling up, Max already leaning across the seat to shove the passenger door open before he’d even properly stopped.
“Get in.”
Lando rolled his eyes, but did, dropping his bag at his feet as he slid into the seat. The door shut with a dull thud, the faint smell of coffee and something minty hitting him immediately.
Max didn’t pull away straight away.
Just looked at him.
Lando frowned slightly, tugging his seatbelt across his chest. “…what?”
Max shook his head once, like he was resetting himself, then let out a quiet breath through his nose. “You’re unbelievable.”
“Alright?”
The engine hummed as Max finally pulled out, merging into traffic a little sharper than necessary.
“No, actually,” he continued, one hand tapping lightly against the steering wheel. “Last time I hear from you, you’re having a full meltdown in the middle of the night over some guy—”
Lando groaned immediately, dropping his head back against the seat. “Oh my god—”
“—and then you disappear,” Max went on, like he hadn’t even spoken. He glanced over briefly, then back to the road. “Nothing. Not a message, not a call. Just gone.”
“I didn’t disappear.”
“You did.” Max flicked his indicator on, changing lanes smoothly. “Good thing you’re famous, at least I could check if you were alive on Instagram.”
Lando huffed a quiet laugh despite himself, dragging a hand over his face before settling back into the seat. “I was busy.”
“Doing what?”
A beat.
Outside, the city blurred past—grey roads, too many cars, everything moving just a little too fast.
Lando shrugged, gaze drifting to the window. “Stuff.”
Max made a face, tapping his fingers once against the wheel. “Right. Very convincing.”
Silence settled for a second, filled only by the low hum of the engine and the indicator clicking off.
Max adjusted his grip slightly, glancing at Lando again, longer this time.
“…so?” he added, more casually now, like he hadn’t just been annoyed. “You gonna explain that, or are we just pretending it didn’t happen?”
Lando shifted in his seat, elbow resting against the door, head leaning slightly into his hand.
“…it’s complicated,” he said after a moment.
Max snorted, a short breath of amusement. “Yeah, because you definitely cry over nothing.”
“I wasn’t crying.”
“You were absolutely crying.”
Lando rolled his eyes, but there was no real bite to it, just a faint pull at the corner of his mouth.
“Shut up.”
Max’s mouth twitched slightly, something satisfied settling into his expression, but he didn’t push again straight away.
Didn’t need to.
The car kept moving, steady now, the city stretching out in front of them.
Max didn’t push it for the rest of the drive.
Didn’t mean he forgot.
By the time they got to Lando’s London flat, the conversation had settled into something easy again—music low, the city blurring past, nothing said that actually mattered.
That lasted right up until the door shut behind them.
Lando barely had time to drop his bag before Max turned to him, leaning back slightly against the counter, arms crossing loosely.
“Sit.”
Lando narrowed his eyes slightly. “You’re unbelievable.”
“Yeah,” Max shrugged.
Lando huffed but dropped onto the couch anyway, leaning back like that somehow made it his decision.
“What, are you gonna make me put my hands in my lap too?”
Max watched him for a second.
Then—
“Spill.”
That was worse.
Lando dragged a hand to the back of his neck, shifting slightly before letting out a breath.
“Okay, so—funny thing.”
Max didn’t move.
“I got myself a boyfriend.”
Max huffed lightly, pushing himself off the counter and walking over, dropping onto the couch beside him.
“No shit. That much I gathered,” he said, glancing at him. “Or at least I hoped it went in that direction after you just went missing.”
Lando shifted slightly, shoulders tightening just a fraction.
That had been the easy part.
“Yeah, well…” he started, gaze dropping briefly before coming back up. “Even funnier.”
Max raised a brow.
“You actually know him.”
A pause.
Max’s expression didn’t change straight away.
Then—
“What?”
A beat.
“Who?”
“Oscar,” Lando said, like that explained everything.
It didn’t.
Max just stared at him for a second, completely blank.
“Who the hell is Oscar?”
Lando glanced away briefly, then back at him, already knowing this wasn’t going to go smoothly.
“…Oscar Piastri.”
That seemed to short-circuit him for a second.
Not gently.
Max’s expression didn’t change straight away—if anything, it went more still, like his brain had paused for a second to catch up.
Lando could see it happen in real time—confusion, then recognition, then something else entirely.
“…how the hell do you know Ossie?”
“What the hell, mate,” Lando shot back immediately, sitting up a little. “Don’t call my boyfriend by a nickname.”
Max blinked at him.
“Your—” he cut himself off, then let out a short, disbelieving laugh. “You’re serious.”
“Very.”
Max leaned back slightly, dragging a hand over his face.
“I’ve been calling him that for years,” he muttered. “You don’t get to gatekeep him now.”
Lando frowned. “Since when?”
Max glanced at him. “Since before you even knew he existed.”
That didn’t help.
“Yeah, well,” Lando huffed, crossing his arms slightly. “Still my boyfriend.”
Max snorted quietly, shaking his head.
“Right,” he said. “Care to explain how the hell that happened?”
Lando shifted slightly, uncrossing his arms, already bracing himself.
“It’s not that deep,” he started.
Max gave him a look. “Don’t start like that.”
“I’m serious,” Lando insisted. “We met at an event back in March. When I was in Australia.”
“With Daniel?” Max clarified.
“Yeah.”
Max nodded once, like that tracked. “Okay.”
“We just—talked,” Lando went on, shrugging slightly. “Got along. Nothing crazy.”
Max squinted at him. “You’re lying already.”
“I’m not.”
“You are.”
“You want to hear it or not?” Lando raised a brow at him.
Max made a face but waved for him to continue.
“Anyway,” Lando pushed on, “I went back earlier before the season started properly, spent some time there—”
“Earlier?” Max cut in. “How early?”
“Like… a bit early.”
“That’s not an answer,” Max pushed.
“It’s enough of one.” Lando rolled his eyes, leaning back against the couch.
Max stared at him, unimpressed.
Lando ignored it.
“We went on a road trip,” he added, like that was casual.
Max blinked. “You what?”
“A road trip.”
“With Piastri?”
“Yes, Max.”
Max leaned back slightly, looking at him like he was trying to piece together a completely different timeline.
“…right.”
Lando huffed quietly. “And then, I don’t know, we just… kept talking.”
“That’s your explanation?” Max asked, brows raised.
“That’s what happened,” Lando said, a bit more defensive now.
“That’s not what happened,” Max shot back immediately. “You don’t just ‘go on a road trip’ with someone and then casually end up dating them.”
Lando shrugged, a small smile tugging at his lips. “Worked out, didn’t it?”
Max stared at him for a second longer, then let out a short breath, shaking his head.
“You’re insane.”
“Bit harsh.”
“No,” Max said, pointing at him slightly. “You. Him. That whole situation. Insane.”
Lando didn’t even try to argue that.
They sat there for a moment, silence stretching around them, everything settling into place.
“I’ll drop the rest,” Max said finally, voice calmer now. “For now.”
Lando rolled his eyes, but didn’t argue. He wasn’t entirely comfortable keeping things from Max—but it wasn’t just his story to tell. Not all of it. He’d need to check with Oscar first. Then maybe.
“What is he up to anyway?” Max broke the silence. “He was doing good, and then just… disappeared one day.”
“Umm.” Lando hesitated. “He’s got his own garage.”
Max raised a brow but didn’t interrupt this time.
“He finished college as an engineer,” Lando went on, a little more steady now. “Specialises in supercars.”
He tried not to show how proud he was. Didn’t quite manage.
Max noticed. Of course he did.
He leaned back slightly, one hand coming up to his mouth, thumb brushing over his lip as he thought.
Something shifted.
“Fuck,” he muttered after another beat. “I can’t believe that bastard actually did it on his own.”
Lando’s head turned sharply toward him. “…what?”
“I told him a million times I could introduce him to you,” Max said, almost to himself. “He always said no.”
Lando blinked.
Max glanced over at him briefly. “Said he’d do it himself.”
A beat.
Lando frowned slightly. “What?”
Max huffed a quiet laugh, but there was no real humor in it.
“Stubborn bastard. Would never admit his crush on you.”
That landed harder than anything else.
“Prideful too. Wanted to make it big first—be worth it,” Max shook his head faintly.
Lando didn’t answer.
Didn’t move, either.
“Did he—” he swallowed, throat suddenly dry. “Did he tell you that?”
“Of course not,” Max said, a quiet chuckle slipping through. “But he’s not exactly the type to do anything the easy way.”
“…yeah.”
That was all Lando managed.
Max watched him for a second, then leaned back again.
“He’d never admit it out loud,” he added. “But he wanted to impress you. If you ever met.”
Lando’s gaze had gone slightly unfocused, fixed somewhere past the room, trying to piece it together.
Max let the silence sit for a second before finishing, quieter now—
“Yeah… he said he’d meet you in Formula 1. Or not at all.”
Lando didn’t say anything.
Max watched him for a second, longer than before, like he was trying to figure out how far that had landed.
“…you alright?” he asked eventually.
Lando blinked, like he’d just come back to the room.
“Yeah.”
Max didn’t look convinced.
“Right.” A beat. “You look like I just told you he’s been planning this since karting.”
Lando huffed a quiet breath, dragging a hand over his face. “He hasn’t.”
“Good,” Max nodded. “Because that’d be weird.”
“That’d be your fault somehow,” Lando said, narrowing his eyes at him.
“How the hell would it be my fault?” Max shot back, sitting up slightly.
Lando paused, like he was actually trying to come up with something.
“…why didn’t you tell me about him earlier?”
“I did,” Max said immediately. “You just didn’t care.”
“That’s not true.”
“It is.”
Lando frowned slightly. “…you could’ve at least mentioned he was—” he stopped himself, then waved a hand vaguely.
Max raised a brow. “What?”
Lando glanced away for a second before mumbling, “…wasn’t hard to look at.”
Max snorted. “You’re unbelievable.”
The rest of the evening passed easier.
Conversation slipping back into something familiar—half-finished stories, stupid jokes, the TV humming quietly in the background.
No more heavy topics.
Max eventually headed out, the door clicking shut behind him.
And just like that, Lando was alone.
The flat felt too quiet once Max left, and Lando didn’t even try to sit still.
He moved instead—kitchen to living room and back again, picking up his phone, putting it down, then grabbing it again without really thinking.
He always said no. He’d do it himself. Meet you in Formula 1—or not at all.
That didn’t make sense.
Because Oscar—his Oscar the one who’d looked him dead in the eye and said he had no character, like it was the most obvious thing in the world, didn’t match that. That wasn’t the same person. It couldn’t be.
Except—
Lando slowed slightly, running a hand through his hair, frowning harder.
It did match.
That was the problem.
Because the garage made sense now. The way Oscar never talked about himself unless he had to, the way everything about it felt earned, deliberate, like he’d chosen that path and stuck to it no matter what.
No shortcuts. No Max. Nothing. He’d do it himself. That fit too well.
But then the other part—
I always thought you had no character. Whenever I saw you online.
That wasn’t nothing either. That hadn’t been neutral. It had been flat, honest, completely unbothered. The same tone he used for everything else.
So which one was it?
Because both of them felt like him.
Lando let out a quiet breath, pacing again, faster this time, like if he moved enough it would start making sense.
Meet you in Formula 1. Or not at all. That wasn’t casual. That wasn’t something you say about someone you don’t rate. You don’t build your life around someone you think has nothing there.
Unless he didn’t think that.
Unless that was the part that didn’t line up.
Hattie said it. Max said it. Oscar didn’t.
That stuck.
Because if it was true, he would’ve said it. Wouldn’t he? He didn’t seem like the type to hide things like that—not when he’d had no problem saying worse.
Lando dropped onto the couch, leaning forward, elbows on his knees, staring at nothing in particular, his phone still in his hand. His thumb brushed against the side of it, hovering without unlocking it.
Unless—
He just… didn’t say things like that. Not like that. Not out loud.
He’d do it himself.
Lando exhaled slowly, dragging a hand down his face.
“…for years,” he thought, and that part still didn’t sit right. Not fully. But it didn’t feel wrong either. Just incomplete. Like there was something in the middle he wasn’t seeing yet.
He leaned back slightly, gaze drifting up for a second before dropping back to the phone in his hand. Still hovering. Still not doing anything.
Still stuck somewhere between those two versions of him.
Lando stared at his phone for a second longer.
Didn’t open anything. Didn’t type. Just—sat there.
The thoughts didn’t go anywhere. Didn’t settle.
They just… slowed.
Blurred at the edges.
At some point, he pushed himself up, barely thinking about it, moving through the flat on autopilot. Lights off. Door shut.
The quiet followed him anyway.
He didn’t figure it out.
Didn’t even get close.
But he stopped trying.
Tomorrow.
—
There were messages waiting for him when he woke up.
Hi baby, you still up?
Sent hours ago—morning in Melbourne.
Call me when you wake up.
That one was recent.
Lando dragged a hand through his hair, exhaling slowly before pressing call.
It barely rang twice before Oscar picked up.
“Hi,” Lando said, voice still rough from sleep.
“Morning,” Oscar replied, easy, awake.
“Yeah.” Lando said it a bit quieter.
A small pause.
Oscar hummed softly, then added, amusement in his tone, “You went to sleep early.”
Lando huffed a faint breath. “Yeah, well. Long day.”
“Mm. Miracles do happen.”
Lando shifted, sitting up a bit more against the headboard, not answering.
A faint smile slipped into Oscar’s voice. “How’s England?”
“Grey,” the Brit answered shortly.
“Yeah, that tracks.”
“Thrilling.”
The silence that followed wasn’t awkward. Just slightly off. Subtle enough that most people probably wouldn’t have noticed. Oscar did.
“Baby, you alright?” he asked, the concern in his tone making something in Lando twist.
“I—” he closed his eyes, trying to steady his voice. “Yeah, I’m fine.”
Oscar didn’t say anything straight away. Which was worse.
“Lando.” The Aussie tried again, firmer this time.
“It’s nothing—”
The phone started to vibrate against his ear before he could finish.
Video call.
Lando pulled it away slightly, glancing at the screen before answering.
Oscar’s face filled it—hair a bit messy, still at the garage, eyes sharper than he let on.
He took one look at Lando and went still.
“…yeah,” he said quietly. “You’re not fine.”
And that—
That did it.
Lando looked away immediately, dragging a hand through his hair.
“I said it’s nothing,” he muttered, but there was no bite left in it.
“Want to tell me what’s wrong?” the younger asked, not pushing, not demanding—just there, offering to listen.
Lando sank back into the bed, burying half his face into the pillow, tugging the sheets a little tighter around himself like that might shield him from it.
Oscar didn’t say anything, just watched him—eyes steady, softer now.
“So…” Lando started, voice a bit uncertain. “I talked to Max yesterday.”
A small pause.
“…and he said some things.”
Oscar didn’t interrupt, just waited patiently for Lando to gather his thoughts.
But something in his expression shifted—like Lando’s behaviour made more sense now.
“Said you had a crush on me,” Lando said after a quiet exhale. “And—that you always refused when Max tried to introduce us…”
They fell silent. Lando a little shaken, his head a bit of a mess, but not spiralling like the day before. Oscar, on the other hand, stayed calm. As always.
“Is that all?” he asked gently, still not pushing, just making sure.
Lando watched him for a second, weighing it—like he could still back out if he wanted to.
He couldn’t.
“You said you’d meet me in Formula 1 or not at all,” he added, voice quieter now. “But you told me I had no character when we first met.”
Another pause. Heavier this time.
“So which is true?” Lando asked finally, gathering all his courage.
“Both and neither,” Oscar said finally.
That didn’t help.
Lando frowned, confusion settling in deeper.
Oscar let out a small breath, the corner of his mouth lifting slightly. “I didn’t have a crush on you,” he clarified. “Not back then. I didn’t know you.”
He got silent, before adding slower:
“But I did want to meet you.”
That made Lando look up from behind the sheets.
The Aussie shifted slightly, resting back, gaze steady on the screen.
“I looked up to you,” he continued, quieter now. “Not just as a driver.”
A faint smile tugged at his lips, softer this time.
“As a person too. You just seemed—” he paused briefly, searching for the word, “easy. Funny. Just… good to be around. From what I saw. From what Max said.”
He fell silent after that, giving Lando space to process it. Not overexplaining, not defending—just stating it and leaving it there.
“What changed?” Lando asked after a moment, trying to understand.
Oscar’s mouth twitched faintly, but there was no real amusement behind it.
“I kind of missed my chance, didn’t I?” he said. “The moment I had to stop racing… the idea of ever meeting you just—” he took a shaky breath, “went with it.”
Lando shifted on the bed, sitting up properly now so he could see him better.
“You could’ve asked Max,” he said, a little more insistent than before.
Oscar shook his head once.
“It would’ve felt like cheating.”
Yeah—that matched.
It lined up with everything Max had said—
and everything Lando already knew about him.
Things started to click, slowly, the tension easing without Lando really noticing.
“You didn’t seem to like me very much when we first met,” he mumbled, looking away.
Oscar’s expression softened slightly.
“You were different,” he said simply. “After Formula 1.”
Lando glanced back at him.
“More… polished,” Oscar added. “Careful.”
He shifted slightly, still watching him.
“Didn’t really match what I’d seen before.”
He stopped himself, trying to choose his next words carefully.
“And I’d already—” he stopped himself briefly, like he hadn’t meant to say that much.
Another beat.
“…moved on from the idea of it.”
Lando frowned slightly.
Oscar let out another quiet breath, his gaze dropped for a second before coming back.
“Didn’t really see the point in holding onto something that wasn’t going to happen.”
There was another pause after that, softer this time.
They just looked at each other through the screen—both understanding something the other hadn’t said out loud.
Oscar, how wrong he’d been back then.
Lando… that it had meant more than he’d realised.
“But it did happen,” Lando said quietly.
He shifted slightly, pulling the sheets up a little higher, like he could get closer through the screen if he tried.
Oscar’s smile softened, something warmer settling in his expression.
“And I’m really glad it did,” he said, voice quieter now. “More than I probably should be.”
A small pause.
“I love you, baby.”
He held his gaze this time.
“Don’t doubt that.”
Lando didn’t answer straight away.
Not because he didn’t want to—
Just because it all finally made sense.
Maybe they weren’t meant to meet back then.
But they were always going to meet eventually.
He just looked at him—softer now, the earlier tension gone completely.
“I know,” he murmured after a moment. “I love you too.”
Oscar’s smile went wider, as if a weight was lifted of his shoulders.
Lando moved slightly, pulling the sheets a bit down.
“…we could’ve been together longer,” he mumbled, almost under his breath.
Oscar’s smile didn’t fade.
“Probably,” he said. “Would’ve been a mess, though.”
There was a knock against the office door.
“Oscar?” Noah’s voice came through, slightly muffled. “You got a second?”
Oscar glanced toward the door, then back at the screen.
Lando followed his gaze, already understanding.
“Go,” he said quietly.
Oscar hesitated for half a second.
“I’ll call you later.”
“Yeah.”
Another small pause.
“Don’t spiral again without me,” Oscar added, softer now.
Lando huffed faintly. “Shut up.”
That was enough.
The call ended, but Lando stayed where he was for a second longer, phone still in his hand, staring at the dark screen like it might light up again.
The room was quiet around him—too quiet now.
He exhaled slowly, dragging a hand over his face before letting it fall back against the pillow.
For once, his head wasn’t racing.
Not completely, anyway. Just… quieter.
Outside, something shifted—cars moving down the street, the muffled sounds of morning starting up.
Lando huffed softly under his breath and pushed himself up, the sheets falling away as he swung his legs over the side of the bed.
“…alright,” he muttered, to himself.
He didn’t rush it.
Shower, clothes, something vaguely resembling breakfast from whatever he found in the flat.
Nothing special. Nothing planned.
Just moving, one thing after the other, until he found himself outside with no real destination in mind.
The shop wasn’t anything special.
Small, quiet, tucked between a pharmacy and something that looked permanently closed. The kind of place you only noticed if you were already halfway past it.
Lando hesitated for a second before pushing the door open anyway.
A faint bell chimed above him.
Inside, it was even quieter. Fluorescent lights, slightly too bright. Shelves packed too close together. A radio playing softly somewhere behind the counter.
He didn’t look around much.
Just headed straight for the fridge at the back, scanning for something with enough caffeine to function.
His fingers brushed against a can—then stopped.
He blinked.
Looked again.
…no way.
It sat there like it belonged, tucked between a dozen others, nothing about it standing out to anyone else.
Except it did.
Because it was his.
His neon yellow. His blobs. His name.
Lando stared at it for a second longer than necessary, like his brain needed a moment to catch up.
He’d completely forgotten it was supposed to be out.
“…oh,” he said under his breath, something small and surprised slipping into his voice.
He reached for it properly this time, turning it slightly in his hand, thumb brushing over the design like that would somehow confirm it was real.
It was.
A slow smile pulled at his lips before he could stop it.
Quiet.
Unforced.
No one else in the shop paid him any attention.
“…that’s actually sick,” he murmured to himself.
For a second, he just stood there.
Looking at it.
Not thinking about anything else.
Then he pulled his phone out, the smile growing without him realising.
A quick photo of the fridge.
Another with the can in his hand.
A slightly better one.
Then a selfie.
It turned into a full photo shoot in the middle of a random shop, just him, his phone, and his energy drink can.
He bought it—of course he did snapping one last photo in the security mirror on his way to the counter.
Outside, he popped the lid open and took a sip.
He knew how it tasted. He’d been part of making it.
But something about it now—
standing there, holding it, seeing it on a shelf like it belonged—
felt better.
Lando pulled his phone out again, thumb hovering for a second before tapping into Max’s chat.
look what I just found
He attached one of the photos without overthinking it.
A reply came almost immediately.
oh my god
you’re insufferable already
Lando sent a middle finger emoji in response.
He huffed a quiet laugh, shaking his head slightly as he started walking again.
“Sorry—are you Lando?”
He glanced up.
A girl stood a few steps away, already halfway into stepping closer, like she hadn’t fully decided to yet.
“Yeah,” he said, still a little distracted, smile lingering.
“Oh—sorry, I just—” she let out a small laugh, holding up her phone. “Could I get a photo? Really quick.”
“Yeah, yeah—of course.”
They shuffled slightly to the side without really thinking about it.
It took a second to line up properly, both of them adjusting at the same time.
Then—
“Perfect, thank you so much.”
“No worries.”
And just like that, she was gone again, already turning back the way she came.
Max was typing again.
you’re not going to shut up about this, are you?
Lando’s thumb hovered for a second before switching chats.
found it in a random shop btw
He hit send before he could overthink it, then switched back.
deal with it.
He slipped his phone back into his pocket, taking another sip as he kept walking.
Somewhere between the chaos and the quiet—
this felt right.
Notes:
That one is deep?
Chapter 29: Holding position
Notes:
Editing this one was suspiciously easy.
But in the life updates OUR TOILET BROKE DOWN, it wasn’t only two long days of stress but also a shit ton of money spent 🥲 The ao3 curse strikes again and I honestly considered going back to my own flat for that but it’s all fixed now.
Anyways since my tumblr was a flop what I should expect I haven’t used that platform in ages I decided to do twitter (X) because if there is something I do constantly is write shit there so you’re free to follow and interact @/urfavwriterN 🫶🫶
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Chapter Text
It was early afternoon when they arrived in Oxford. The McLaren rolled into the parking space a bit crooked, but that wasn’t what mattered—Lando had already spotted the cameras pointed at them.
He wanted to make a stylish entrance.
“Ready?” he smirked, pushing his sunglasses down onto his nose.
“Bet,” Max answered, already opening the door, not waiting for him.
They grabbed their bags from the car, casual like it was normal, completely unbothered by the cameras around them.
The director met them in the lobby.
“You can just go around as you please,” he explained while the crew fitted microphones under their shirts. “We won’t interfere much just small tips.”
Lando smiled at that.
They checked the room out first. It wasn’t spacious, nothing like what he was used to while travelling, but it was comfortable.
The first thing Lando did was drop onto the bed, testing it with a small bounce.
“That is comfy,” he said, one hand slipping behind his head.
“We’re working.” Max nudged him with his foot as he passed, already heading for the window.
“Speak for yourself,” Lando muttered, closing his eyes for a second. “I’m relaxing.”
They didn’t stay in the room for long.
Soon enough, they were back out, moving through the hotel without much purpose—just drifting from space to space, checking out whatever caught their attention, like actual guests instead of anything planned.
That was how they ended up in the spa.
“Can you change into robes?” the director asked.
Lando and Max glanced at each other, the same mischievous smile already there.
Of course they could.
“Uhh—this is fancy,” Lando said straight into the small microphone, glancing toward the camera as someone helped him with the robe.
“Don’t get used to it,” Max added from somewhere beside him.
They settled onto the chairs, leaning back, eyes closing almost at the same time.
For a moment—
it worked.
Quiet. Still. Almost convincing.
“Can we get some relaxation music?” Lando asked suddenly, breaking it completely.
“Are you serious?” Max groaned.
“What?” Lando opened his eyes, turning his head just enough to see him already looking over.
“We were having a moment here.”
The crew actually put the music on.
And, somehow, it worked.
They settled back again, quieter this time. The noise faded, the air warm, still—Lando’s thoughts slipping away almost immediately, his body going completely limp, thumb brushing absently over his ring.
And before he knew it—
he was gone.
He had no idea how long he’d been out, but he knew it hadn’t been long enough.
“Oi, mate—” Max’s voice came too close to his ear.
“Did you really fall asleep on the job?”
Lando blinked his eyes open slowly, barely reacting.
“Wouldn’t be the first time,” he said, like it was a completely reasonable answer.
Max stared at him for a second.
“Unbelievable.”
They made it to the gym.
Very briefly.
Not even pretending they were about to work out—just a quick look around, a bit of showing off, joking about things they weren’t going to touch anyway.
“Aren’t you supposed to be an athlete?” Max asked, an amused look on his face as Lando was already heading back toward the door.
“Oh, shut it.”
They didn’t stay.
It went on like that—drifting through the hotel, finding every corner they could, slipping into places they probably weren’t meant to be, commenting on everything like it was part of the plan.
Eventually, they were guided toward the restaurant.
“Are we gonna eat?” Lando asked as they walked in, already more interested.
“Maybe,” Max muttered.
They sat.
Lando picked up the menu, scanning it like it actually required effort, eyes narrowing slightly as if this was the most important decision he’d make all day.
For a second, his mind drifted.
To Oscar.
To what he’d probably pick without thinking.
Lando huffed quietly under his breath.
“Can I have the cherry tart?” he asked, glancing up toward the camera.
Max snorted beside him. “Not very diet appropriate.”
“Didn’t ask you.”
He got the dessert anyway.
They did a few aesthetic shots, answered a couple of questions, and that was it.
By the time they were done, it didn’t really feel like work.
Just—
a few hours spent somewhere too nice, doing whatever they wanted while someone else called it a shoot.
“Alright, that’s it,” someone said eventually.
That was enough.
Lando pushed his chair back, grabbing his things without much thought, Max already halfway up before him.
No big wrap.
No moment.
Just—done.
The rest of his stay in England was peaceful.
He visited his family—this time properly. Stayed longer than just a few hours, with no obligations hovering over him.
“Can you please stop growing?” he asked his nieces with a pout.
“No!” Mila answered immediately, speaking for both of them.
Lando huffed softly, shaking his head.
It was good.
To spend time with all of them for once—everyone there, all of his siblings around the table, the kind of evening that made his mum happier than she let on.
Back in London, he streamed with Max.
Call of Duty, of course.
Max was insufferable about it—especially when he beat him.
“Skill issue,” he muttered, not even trying to hide the grin.
Lando rolled his eyes, already queueing the next game.
The chat went insane the moment he went live.
Messages flying too fast to read properly, all caps, spam, people just glad he was back.
Lando’s phone buzzed on the desk.
He didn’t check it immediately.
Didn’t even notice at first.
Max was talking—something about loadouts—and Lando was halfway through responding when it buzzed again.
“Hold on—” he glanced down.
Oscar.
That alone was enough.
His mouth twitched slightly before he even opened it.
“What?” Max asked, catching it immediately.
Lando ignored him, unlocking his phone quickly under the desk.
You look ridiculous.
Nice sweater though.
He huffed a quiet breath, thumbs already moving.
right?
it’s my bf’s btw
also aren’t you ridiculous for stalking me online?
He hit send, then tossed the phone back down like it hadn’t mattered.
Max was still looking at him.
“Chat’s asking what got you smiling like that,” he said, a smirk tugging at his lips.
“Nothing,” Lando said, not even trying to sound convincing.
He tried to get his head back into the game, but it kept drifting, so he checked his phone again.
Someone has to make sure you’re not embarrassing yourself.
He chuckled quietly to himself, thumb brushing over the screen for a second longer than necessary before looking back up.
“I gotta go.”
“Already?” Max frowned.
Lando dragged a hand through his hair. “Yeah—early flight tomorrow and all.”
The look Max gave him said he didn’t believe that for a second. “You’re getting boring.”
Lando huffed, already reaching to end the stream. “Shut up.”
The silence in the room didn’t last long—he called Oscar before he even stood up from his chair.
“And here I thought you were actually going to sleep early for once,” Oscar said instead of a greeting.
Lando giggled, already climbing into bed.
“Hi.”
Oscar was already up—judging by the background and the faint sounds coming from the kitchen.
“Morning, baby,” the Aussie smiled, his bunny teeth showing.
“How much did you see?” Lando asked, pulling the sleeves of the sweater over his hands.
“Enough to know you should stick to racing,” Oscar said with a smirk, propping his phone against the counter so he could make his coffee.
“Oi, I haven’t played in a while—I’m just a bit rusty,” Lando defended, a pout forming.
“Don’t worry,” Oscar added easily, “you still look pretty even when you lose.”
That made Lando’s cheeks heat up.
“Are you always this flirty in the morning?” Lando mumbled, thankful the faint light in the room didn’t give him away.
“Only with curly-haired boys,” Oscar said casually, not looking away from his cup.
“So there’s more?” Lando narrowed his eyes.
“Nah,” Oscar shrugged slightly, “I’m currently only interested in one.”
“You’re so annoying,” Lando sighed, dragging a hand over his face.
“And you should sleep—you’ve got a flight at six in the morning,” Oscar said, picking his phone back up as he made his way to the living room.
“Don’t remind me.”
“Baby,” Oscar said, meant as a warning but his voice came out softer than he probably intended.
“I know, I know,” Lando replied, rolling his eyes. “I’ll go in a bit.”
“You don’t want to show up to media day with bags under your eyes.” Oscar took a sip of his coffee, raising a brow.
“I’ll survive.”
“That’s not the point.”
Lando shifted further into the pillows, pulling the sleeves over his hands again.
“You worry too much.”
“Someone has to.”
A small pause settled between them—quieter now.
Lando’s gaze softened slightly, studying him through the screen.
“Did you sleep well?” he asked.
“Mm,” Oscar hummed. “Good enough.”
Lando didn’t look convinced.
“You’re worse than me.”
That got a quiet huff out of the Aussie. “Go to sleep, Lan.”
Lando sighed, but there was no real resistance left in it.
“Stay on?” he asked, a bit quieter.
Oscar didn’t hesitate. “Yeah.”
Lando shifted, settling properly this time, phone angled beside him.
“Night,” he murmured. “I love you.”
“Night, baby,” Oscar said, softer now. “Love you too.”
He didn’t wake up to Oscar still on the call, but to a string of texts from the Aussie instead.
You up?
Baby, I can’t call you right now got a client in.
Wake up before you miss your flight.
Lan, seriously.
He smiled softly at them, but it didn’t last long once he checked the time.
5:18 a.m.
Barely enough to make it to the airport.
I’m up
He texted Oscar before jumping out of bed.
No time for anything—just a splash of water to his face, grabbing the last of his things, shoving them into his suitcase.
Then out.
Still in the clothes he’d fallen asleep in.
He barely made it.
Security, boarding, a rushed apology somewhere in between Lando didn’t remember half of it. Just the moment he dropped into his seat, breath still uneven.
The flight was quick, as usual within Europe, and he had just enough time to shower and make himself presentable at the hotel before media swallowed him whole.
By the time he stepped into the paddock, everything had already snapped back into place—lanyard, team kit, people moving with purpose.
“Morning.”
Routine.
He rolled his shoulders slightly, settling back into it.
His phone buzzed once in his pocket.
You made it?
A small smile.
yeah
He locked it again.
Game time.
It was surprisingly easy to get his head into the right space, without the usual anxiety pressing down on him.
Apart from the interviews, the team spent a lot of time filming content for the F1 movie—which was just as cool as it was ridiculous, in Lando’s opinion.
He couldn’t quite decide which one it was.
It didn’t leave much time to think.
Which was probably a good thing.
He barely made it through the last round of interviews before someone was already waving him over again—fan stage, a big crowd gathering near the front, music playing just a bit too loud for the time of day.
Lando huffed a quiet breath, pushing his sunglasses up slightly as he stepped up.
“Alright,” he muttered under his breath.
This part he could do.
Easy.
A few questions, some laughs, signing whatever got handed to him—the usual.
Playing nice with his teammate.
It blurred together quickly.
Names, faces, voices—smiles that came naturally, jokes that didn’t need thinking about.
The crowd was amazing, and Lando could feel the energy even from the stage.
If there was one part of media day he didn’t mind, it was this.
The day started to wind down after that. The chaos softened, everything slowing just a little.
Lando was more than ready to head back.
“Oi.”
He glanced over.
Carlos.
Of course.
He was leaning against the barrier like he’d been there a while, sunglasses on, watching him with that same amused look.
“You’ve been MIA again. What’s going on?”
The Spaniard stepped up beside him, throwing an arm over Lando’s shoulders as they started walking.
“I haven’t,” Lando said, far too innocently to be convincing.
Carlos snorted quietly.
“Yeah, alright.”
They moved toward the exit, pace unhurried now that everything had settled.
“Going to dinner later,” Carlos added. “Max, Daniel—maybe a few others. You’re coming. No excuses.”
Lando huffed softly. “Ugh, fine.”
He tried to sound annoyed, but it didn’t quite land. Socialising didn’t sound like a bad idea.
Dinner was loud.
Too many voices, too many conversations happening at once half of it overlapping, none of it really important.
Lando didn’t mind.
He was actually… happy.
He sat somewhere in the middle of it, listening more than talking, laughing when it felt right, letting the noise fill the space without needing to do much else.
The atmosphere was easy, like it usually was with them. Whatever tension existed on track stayed there. It didn’t follow them here.
“You haven’t taken that ring off since Miami.”
Charles noticed, he always notices thing like that.
Lando’s thumb brushed over the signet automatically, just humming in response.
“Did you get engaged or something?” Max joked, making Lando blush furiously.
“What—no,” he said too quickly.
“You sure? Got a bit red,” the Monegasque teased.
“No—it… it was a gift,” Lando said, but all eyes were on him now, everyone clearly amused by his reaction.
“From whom?” Carlos smirked.
“…my boyfriend,” Lando said quietly.
The table fell silent for a long moment.
“Oh?” Daniel leaned back slightly, brows raised, like he’d already figured it out.
Carlos’s grin only widened. “You’ve been busy.”
Charles huffed a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “You just casually drop that?”
Lando rolled his eyes immediately. “Shut up.”
“Yeah, we should all shut up while you spill,” Daniel pushed.
But Lando didn’t budge. He didn’t say anything more about the mysterious boyfriend, even when both Daniel and Carlos hinted that they knew.
Eventually, the topic shifted when the teasing stopped working.
But the thought stayed with Lando.
He knew he could be a little oblivious, but he’d know if he was engaged, right? He’d notice Oscar proposing.
It was a silly thought, really. Nobody thought about marriage after a few days together, especially not someone like Oscar—so put together, so reserved.
But at the same time, it suited the Aussie. A reckless, spontaneous engagement.
Lando wouldn’t mind that.
He’d say yes in a heartbeat.
And that—
that was what scared him the most.
He didn’t go to sleep right after getting back to the hotel, even though he probably should have.
He checked the time. It was after four a.m. in Melbourne, which meant Oscar would be up in less than two hours.
He could wait that long.
Lando scrolled through his phone, playing mindless games just to kill time.
He was getting oddly invested in one of those Reddit podcasts on TikTok when his phone buzzed with a voice note.
For a second, he considered ignoring it—but it was Oscar, after all.
“Morning, baby.” The Australian accent was thicker like this, voice still rough from sleep. “I hope you’re already asleep.”
Lando smiled to himself.
“Glad you had fun at dinner… just hope not as much as you would’ve had with me.”
Lando didn’t need to hear more, he pressed call right away.
It barely rang, “…you’re not asleep.”
“It’s evening,” Lando said, already pushing himself up against the headboard. “Relax.”
A quiet exhale came through the line.
“You stayed up.”
He didn’t answer. Instead, he pulled the phone back and tapped the screen. A second later, the call switched to video.
Oscar’s face filled the screen—hair messy, hoodie thrown on. He looked like he’d just woken up.
Lando smiled a little at that.
“…hi,” he said, softer now.
Oscar squinted slightly at the screen. “You look tired.”
“Woah, don’t flatter me this much.”
Oscar rolled his eyes, but the faint smile gave him away. “Fishing for compliments, are we?”
“Sue me for wanting my boyfriend to find me attractive.” Lando pouted.
“You’re always pretty, baby.” The other’s voice was soft, sincere and it made Lando smile again.
“You listened to the voice note?”
“Yeah.” Lando shrugged lightly, but his eyes didn’t leave the screen. “Bit jealous, are you?”
“Maybe.”
That did something to him. Lando’s smile shifted, softer now, fondness settling beneath it. His boyfriend.
That was still… new.
Saying it out loud earlier, hearing it back in his own voice, seeing the way the others reacted—
It hadn’t felt wrong.
If anything, it felt… right.
Too right.
His thumb brushed absentmindedly against the ring again.
“…what’s that?” Oscar asked, catching it immediately.
Lando glanced down, like he’d forgotten he was wearing it.
“Nothing.”
“Mm.”
Oscar didn’t push. Of course he didn’t.
Lando rolled it slightly around his finger anyway, watching the movement for a second longer than necessary.
“They thought I got engaged,” he said after a moment, like it was nothing.
Oscar’s brows lifted slightly. “Yeah?”
“Yeah.”
They both fell silent for a moment.
Lando looked back up at him.
“I said no… obviously.” He paused, watching him. “But I did say I have a boyfriend.”
Oscar’s mouth twitched, something in his eyes lighting up at that. “Good.”
Lando leaned back slightly against the headboard, still watching him.
“Possessive.”
“Get used to it,” Oscar smirked.
Lando felt his cheeks heat up as he huffed softly, but the smile didn’t leave.
“Yeah, yeah.”
A small pause settled between them.
The Brit watched as Oscar got ready for the day, moving through the flat—phone propped somewhere on the counter, the angle shifting slightly every time he passed. The sound of cupboards opening, a kettle clicking on, quiet background noise filling the space between them.
Lando didn’t say anything.
Just watched.
Oscar moved in and out of frame, grabbing something, setting it down again, running a hand through his hair without really thinking. It was all… normal.
Easy.
Lando shifted slightly, pulling the blanket higher without thinking, eyes still fixed on the screen.
“You should sleep,” Oscar said after a moment, quieter now.
“In a bit.”
“You say that every time.”
“Mm.”
Oscar only rolled his eyes but didn’t push.
He just carried on—coffee in hand now, leaning briefly against the counter, glancing back at the screen like he was making sure Lando was still there.
He was.
Lando’s gaze softened slightly, the earlier edge gone completely.
“Tell me what you’ve been working on,” he said, a little quieter.
Oscar didn’t hesitate.
“Yeah.”
Lando settled deeper into the pillows, phone angled just right, listening more than anything else.
That was enough.
—
FP1 was fine—mostly because Lando wasn’t driving in it.
One of McLaren’s F2 drivers, Alex, was in his car, which gave him more time to chill. Less time to prepare, technically—but it was fine. As long as the car came back in one piece, Lando didn’t mind.
By the time FP2 came around, he’d gone over the data at least a dozen times and even squeezed in a nap in the motorhome.
He was well rested.
Ready to go.
And it turned out he hadn’t missed much in the first practice.
When it was finally his turn in the car, he was flying.
Every corner, every apex hit just right.
He came out fastest.
Same in FP3 the next day.
It didn’t even bother him that Pato was hovering right behind.
He felt amazing.
Like the weight of the first few races of the season had never been there at all.
And it carried into qualifying. No hesitation, no overthinking—just clean laps. Q1, through easily. Q2, faster. Everything clicking in a way it hadn’t in weeks.
By the time Q3 came around, the pressure was there—but it didn’t stick.
Lando rolled out of the garage, visor down, hands steady on the wheel. “Let’s go,” he muttered.
First run—strong. Not enough. He knew it before the engineer even said it.
One more.
The last lap. Track clear, tyres in the window, everything exactly where it needed to be.
He pushed. No lift through the fast section, braking late, the car right on the edge but never over it.
Across the line—P1.
Lando exhaled sharply, a grin breaking through before he could stop it. “Yes.”
The radio lit up instantly, voices overlapping, louder than usual. He barely heard it.
Pole.
Back in parc fermé, it hit properly the noise, the people, the cameras—but this time it didn’t feel heavy. It felt earned.
He pulled himself out of the car, helmet off, hair a mess, still smiling.
“Nice one,” someone said as he passed.
“Yeah,” Lando nodded, breath still uneven.
He didn’t even try to hide it.
—
Proud of you, baby. Good luck today.
Lando woke up to the message and immediately knew it was going to be a good day.
will I get a prize if I win?
He didn’t have to wait long for a response—it was still early afternoon for the Aussie.
The trophy not good enough for you?
I want a kiss
He added a pout emoji.
You’ll get all the kisses you want anyway, baby.
Lando’s smile lingered as he locked his phone.
—
Lights out—clean launch. Lando holds P1 off the line, Charles slots in behind, Pato right there in P3, close enough to threaten but not quite alongside.
Red flags on lap 2. Kimi and Max come together further back, both out. It doesn’t affect him.
By lap 4, Pato clears Charles. Clean move. P2.
Now it’s just them.
Lap 7—papaya rules. They’re free to race.
Pato closes immediately, sitting right on Lando’s gearbox through the final sector. First move comes quick—late on the brakes, dives it down the inside. Lando lets it go, switches back, takes the lead again on exit. Next lap, same thing. Back and forth, clean but aggressive, both right on the limit without tipping over it.
They settle into it cat and mouse. Pato probing, Lando responding. No panic, no wasted movement. Every corner placed exactly where it needs to be.
Lap 20—Pato locks up. Front tyre smokes, the car running wide, sliding just a fraction too close. Lando reacts instantly, adjusts his line, leaves just enough space.
No contact.
They keep going.
On lap 21 Lando pits, drops to P4. Pato stays out four more laps. It doesn’t seem like much, but it could be decisive.
The heat is brutal. Track temp well over fifty degrees, tyres degrading faster than expected. Lando manages it, keeping just enough in hand without giving anything away.
By lap 28—pit cycle completes.
Back to P1.
Clean air.
For a moment, it breathes.
Pato cuts back through quickly. P2 again.
The gap stabilises—four seconds.
Not safe.
Not with him.
Lap after lap, Lando stays locked in. No overdriving, no mistakes. Just consistency, hitting every mark, every braking point, every exit.
Lap 53. Box. Clean stop. Mediums on. Pato covered the strategy a lap later. The gap came down straight away. Then—front wing damage. Nothing major. Just enough to feel it.
“We can’t fix it.”
Of course.
Now it’s everything at once—tyres, degradation, front-end grip, and the gap behind.
1.7 seconds.
Not DRS.
Still close enough to matter.
Pato is there again. Faster in places, closing inch by inch, the pressure building without forcing it.
Lando didn’t react to it. Didn’t try to force anything. Just drove.
Every lap measured. Every corner clean. Managing the car, the tyres, the damage.
Final laps—the gap barely holding, the car not quite where he wants it, but enough.
Just enough.
Across the line—
P1.
The radio exploded the moment he crossed the line.
“P1, Lando! P1! That’s a win!”
Voices over each other, louder than usual, someone almost shouting in the background.
Lando laughed, breath uneven, grip finally loosening on the wheel.
“Yes.” It came out quieter than he expected.
Relief.
More than anything else.
He slowed the car on the cooldown lap, heart still racing, everything catching up at once now that it was over.
The heat, the pressure, the last laps where it could’ve slipped away so easily but didn’t.
“Mate, that was mega,” Will added, calmer now.
“Yeah,” Lando exhaled, dragging a hand briefly off the wheel. “Yeah, that was… good.”
Good.
That was one way to put it.
He glanced up at the screens as he rolled around, seeing his name still at the top.
P1.
Still there.
Still his.
Parc fermé was chaos.
People everywhere, cameras already pushing in, noise rising the second he stepped out of the car.
Lando barely got his helmet off before someone was clapping him on the back.
“Nice one!”
“Great drive!”
“Finally!”
He laughed, shaking his head slightly, still trying to catch his breath.
Pato was there a moment later.
Close.
Of course.
They didn’t say anything at first—just a quick look, a handshake, something unspoken passing between them.
Hard racing.
Clean.
Respect.
“Almost had you,” Pato said eventually, a smirk pulling at his mouth.
“Almost,” Lando shot back.
That was enough.
The podium felt louder.
Brighter.
The kind of noise that settled into your chest and stayed there.
Lando stepped up, glancing out over the crowd for a second before looking up again, shaking his head slightly like he still didn’t quite believe it, a smile breaking through with a quiet breath.
But he did.
Now he did.
The anthem played.
Champagne followed—cold, sharp, everywhere.
Lando laughed properly this time, dodging one spray only to get caught by another a second later.
“Oi!”
Too late.
He wiped his face with the back of his hand, still smiling.
—
By the time it all calmed down—interviews, photos, hands shaken more times than he could count—it felt real.
Properly.
Not just a good weekend.
A win.
He was properly back.
—
Back in the motorhome, it was quieter.
Finally.
Lando dropped onto the couch, shoulders relaxing for the first time all day, phone already in his hand before he even thought about it.
A message.
Of course.
So proud of you, baby.
You looked so hot on the podium.
That was it.
Lando’s mouth twitched slightly, his cheeks—already warm from the race heating up even more as he stared at it for a second.
can I get my kisses now?
Sent.
Almost immediately—
Greedy.
He blinked, a small smile pulling at his lips.
He hadn’t expected Oscar to still be up—it was the middle of the night in Australia.
why are you still up?
The three dots danced on the screen for a moment.
Wanted to see you win it live.
That hit him.
Lando’s smile softened slightly, something quieter settling in his chest.
you could’ve just watched the replay
Not the same.
He stared at that for a second longer than necessary. Before he could respond, his phone rang.
He didn’t hesitate.
“Fuck, baby.” Oscar’s voice was tired, rough, but still soft—warm in a way that settled straight into his chest. “I won’t stop at kisses when I see you.”
“Yeah?” Lando teased, but his voice gave him away—slightly unsteady, too soft.
His eyes dropped to his hand.
The ring.
Still there.
He’d put it back on the moment he got out of the car.
“Mm,” Oscar hummed, nodding slightly. “Gonna kiss you silly.”
Lando chuckled softly at that. This man was ridiculous—and he was ridiculously in love with him.
“You sure you can’t come earlier?” he asked, voice smaller now, hopeful.
“I need to finish my work,” the Aussie said, a slight pause on the other end. “But just a few more days, yeah?”
“Yeah.”
Notes:
That was mostly a filler chapter not gonna lie, but the next one? Guys it’s gonna cook 😭
Chapter 30: On softs
Notes:
Had the most exhausting weekend at work, even thought it was soooo slooooow but had a lot of mental work consulting my sixteen years old coworker who made some pretty fucking questionable life choices recently.
At times like that I really appreciate the life choices I MADE, I’m 26 and my biggest problem is F1. Because I protected my sanity so well I live drama free.
(I learned to have a ‘fuck off’ mentality to everything life throws at me)
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Oscar didn’t regret staying up late, even when his alarm rang barely an hour and a half later.
How could he?
He’d watched Lando win. Heard him like that—happy, lighter than he’d been in weeks.
That alone was worth it.
He dragged himself out of bed anyway, movements slower than usual but automatic. Shower, clothes—something comfortable one last check of his bag before heading out.
Everything was packed.
Everything planned.
That part hadn’t changed.
A flicker of guilt tugged at him for not telling Lando. But it wasn’t really a lie. Not exactly. He just wanted the surprise to be worth it.
The flight had been booked weeks ago, long before he’d been sure they’d end up here—long before any of this had settled into something real. The plan had always been the same.
He’d just had to adjust it.
The airport was busy, crowded in that usual early-morning way, but everything moved quickly. Luggage, passport, security—and before he knew it, he was through.
For a moment, he considered getting a coffee, but the thought of actual sleep won, so he stuck to water instead.
Boarding, seat, noise-cancelling headphones—
and soon enough he was out, somewhere thousands of kilometres above the ground, thoughts drifting to curly hair and green-blue eyes.
He slept through almost the entire first flight, only waking up to eat something.
By the time he landed in Dubai, it was 11 a.m. local time. That meant it was three hours earlier for Lando.
He checked his phone.
No new messages. Of course—the Brit would still be asleep.
Morning baby.
No response.
Oscar used the time before his next flight to get an actual meal at one of the airport restaurants, then grabbed a coffee before boarding again.
He bought the plane Wi-Fi. He didn’t want Lando to get suspicious.
And—
he did want to talk to him.
The second flight was worse than the first. He drifted in and out of sleep, never fully resting, too tired to do anything but try.
About halfway through, his phone buzzed.
hi
i slept in
everyone’s mad
Oscar smiled at that.
You’ll be fine, baby.
it’s their fault anyway
who schedules a meeting so early
I won a gp yesterday!
and went straight on a plane back
I deserve to rest
Oscar shifted slightly in his seat, adjusting the blanket over his lap as he checked the time.
Three more hours.
Go to work, baby. Call me when you’re done, yeah?
love tou
You*
And I love you too.
Yeah—the exhaustion was definitely worth it.
Lando didn’t text again. Not when Oscar landed in Heathrow. Not when he went through passport control, nor when he grabbed another coffee before finally picking up his rental car.
It was early afternoon in the UK, the sun still high as he drove through the unfamiliar country.
At least he didn’t have to think about the side of the road. That part felt normal.
Getting access to the centre turned out to be easier than expected.
Too easy.
While looking into it, he found out his dad’s company had worked with McLaren before.
Not closely.
But enough.
A couple of emails.
That was all it took to get a pass.
It was… strange, finding out from a website that his father’s company had been involved with his boyfriend’s team.
But it made things easier.
And he used it.
Finding Lando’s car in the parking lot wasn’t hard—he recognised the plates immediately and parked as close as he could.
Judging by the staff heading out of the building, carrying equipment, the shoot was done.
Soon.
Oscar leaned back against the car, arms loosely crossed, watching the entrance without really looking like he was.
He didn’t have to wait long.
His phone buzzed.
‘m dead
A small smile pulled at his lips.
He pushed himself off the car and pressed call.
“Hi, baby,” he said softly as soon as it connected.
“Why aren’t you sleeping, Mr Piastri?” Lando’s voice came through with background noise—people talking, doors opening, the low chaos of everything wrapping up.
“Had something to take care of,” Oscar replied, a faint smirk tugging at his mouth as his gaze stayed fixed on the entrance. “You done with work?”
“Yeah, I’m just getting out.” There was a whine in his voice now. “I’m so hungry, Osc.”
“How about burgers for dinner?”
More noise—voices, Lando saying a quick goodbye to someone.
And then—
there he was.
Hoodie—Oscar’s. Sunglasses low on his nose, phone pressed to his ear, hair a mess in a way that made something in Oscar’s chest tighten.
“…Jon would kill me,” Lando was saying, still completely unaware.
“How about steak?” he tried again.
“Oh, yes,” Lando groaned. “There’s this amazing place—can we go there when yo—”
He stopped mid-step.
Just—stopped.
The exhaustion dropped from his face, replaced by something else entirely. His hand, still holding the phone, lowered slightly, like his brain hadn’t quite caught up with what he was seeing.
Oscar didn’t move.
Just looked at him.
“How about now?” he asked.
That was enough.
Lando blinked once—
and then he was moving.
One second frozen, the next already crossing the distance, arms wrapping around Oscar as he practically jumped into him.
Oscar caught him mid-air—of course he did—supporting both of their weight, holding him tight.
“Hi, baby,” he whispered, pressing a kiss somewhere between Lando’s cheek and ear.
“I— you—” Lando rambled, still not letting go. “How—”
He pulled back just enough to look at him properly.
And then it caught up with him. Not in one overwhelming wave. Just enough to feel it.
His eyes watered slightly, a breath catching in his chest like he hadn’t quite figured out how to handle this yet.
“You’re here,” he said, softer now.
“I promised you kisses, didn’t I?” Oscar teased, one of his hands coming up to cup Lando’s cheek. “How about we get out of here, hmm? So I can finally do it properly.”
Lando just nodded, still a little overwhelmed, not trusting his voice yet. He pulled away from the hug reluctantly but instead of heading to his own car, he walked straight past it and climbed into the passenger seat of Oscar’s rental.
Oscar raised a brow as he got in as well. “You’re just going to ditch your car here?”
“Don’t care.”
Lando hurriedly put his London address into the GPS, and Oscar pulled out, his hand finding Lando’s as soon as they were clear of the Technology Centre—anchoring both of them.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” Lando asked, playing with his fingers.
“Wanted to surprise you.” Oscar smiled, squeezing his hand slightly.
“Unbelievable,” the Brit said, but there was no real bite to it.
Oscar lifted their joined hands, pressing a soft kiss to the back of Lando’s.
“Are you really flying back next Tuesday, or was that a lie too?” Lando narrowed his eyes at him.
“Depends how long you’ll have me,” Oscar teased, before adding, “I’ve got my flight booked for Friday.”
“Really?”
“Yes, baby.”
“You’re not leaving earlier,” Lando stated, his tone not leaving much room for argument.
“Wouldn’t dream of it,” Oscar chuckled, glancing at him briefly. “How was work?”
“It was actually so fun.” Lando launched into it—talking about the shoot, the outfits they had him wear, the interview, and how he still had to sit through a proper briefing and go over data after.
Oscar just listened, taking in every word, noticing the way Lando’s voice lifted when he got excited, how his grip tightened when something annoyed him.
The long trip, the lack of sleep—
none of it mattered.
Not when he had this.
Even if it was just for a few days.
They reached London just as the sun was setting, the city glowing in that soft, golden light. Lando finally let go of his hand so Oscar could park and grab his suitcase from the back.
The door had barely closed behind them when Lando closed the distance, leaning in without hesitation.
Oscar’s hands found his hips automatically, pulling him closer as they both melted into it. The kiss was slow, soft—unrushed, like they finally had all the time in the world.
Just… taking each other in.
It didn’t stay that way.
Lando’s grip tightened around Oscar’s neck tightened as he pressed closer, like he needed more, like the distance between them hadn’t quite disappeared yet.
Oscar let out a quiet breath against his lips, hands sliding from his hips to his lower back, pulling him even closer.
“Missed you,” Lando murmured against his lips.
“I know,” Oscar said softly, brushing his nose against his. “I felt it.”
That was all it took.
Lando kissed him again—deeper this time, less careful, all the restraint from earlier slipping away as he pushed him back a step, then another, until they hit the wall.
Oscar didn’t stop him.
Didn’t want to.
His hands tightened instinctively, fingers pressing into Lando’s sides as he let himself be moved, head tipping back just enough to give him more room, more access.
Lando took it.
Of course he did.
Lando took it, already reaching before Oscar had fully offered it.
The kiss turned sharper, needier, weeks apart catching up with them all at once, his hands sliding up, then down again, restless, like he didn’t know where to settle first.
“Oscar—” he breathed, voice already a little gone.
“I’m here,” Oscar murmured back, grounding more than anything, closing whatever space was left between them.
That seemed to undo him completely.
Lando pressed in again, a quiet, frustrated sound leaving him as his forehead dropped briefly against Oscar’s shoulder, like it was all just a bit too much at once.
Oscar’s hand came up instinctively, fingers brushing through his hair, steady, reassuring.
“Bedroom,” Lando muttered, already pulling back just enough to grab his hand.
“Weren’t you hungry?” Oscar huffed a quiet laugh under his breath, letting himself be dragged along without resistance.
“Later.”
Lando didn’t give him time to argue. He tugged Oscar down the hallway, their fingers laced tight, footsteps hurried but not frantic. The moment the bedroom door clicked shut behind them, Lando was on him again pushing him gently toward the bed while his mouth found Oscar’s in a deep, needy kiss.
Oscar let himself be moved, exhaustion heavy in his limbs, but warmth spread fast through his chest anyway. Not fighting it. Never would.
He sat on the edge of the bed and pulled Lando between his legs, hands sliding under his hoodie to feel bare skin, thumbs pressing in like he needed to check he was actually there.
“Missed this,” Lando whispered against his lips, already tugging Oscar’s shirt up. Oscar helped him pull it off, then did the same with Lando’s hoodie, letting it drop to the floor.
That part never got old.
The way Lando looked at him like this—open, a bit wrecked already, like he didn’t quite know what to do with himself. Like he still couldn’t believe Oscar was actually here.
The sight of Lando’s bare torso made something tight and fond bloom in Oscar’s chest. He leaned in and started kissing him everywhere—slow, open-mouthed presses along his collarbones, down the centre of his chest, across his ribs. He didn’t rush it. Didn’t want to.
Lando’s hands settled in his hair, fingers threading through it as he tugged him closer. Not demanding. More about keeping him there.
Oscar hooked his fingers into Lando’s waistband and slid his joggers and boxers down in one smooth motion. Lando stepped out of them, then pushed Oscar back until he was lying on the bed. Oscar pulled Lando on top of him, hands roaming over his back and thighs.
He flipped them gently so Lando was on his back again. Oscar kissed his way down Lando’s body once more, slower this time, savouring every reaction, like he had time now—like he meant to take it. When he reached Lando’s cock, he gave it a few slow, lingering kisses, but his real focus was lower.
Lando shifted slightly against the mattress before reaching beneath the pillow beside him.
Oscar glanced up just in time to see a bottle being held out towards him.
A smile immediately tugged at the corner of his mouth.
“Prepared?”
Lando’s face went warm.
“Shut up.”
Oscar laughed softly and took it from him, leaning up just enough to press a quick kiss against his stomach.
He spread Lando’s thighs wider, leaned in, and pressed his tongue flat against him—warm, slow, teasing for just a few seconds before pushing a finger inside alongside it. He licked and stretched him at the same time, devouring him slowly.
Lando rocked back against his mouth and hand, like he couldn’t get close enough, soft, desperate sounds falling from his lips.
Oscar pulled his tongue away, replacing it with a second finger, and kissed his way back up to Lando’s mouth.
Lando made a soft, frustrated sound, hips shifting closer, like he was already chasing something he couldn’t quite reach yet. Oscar’s hands followed the movement instinctively, settling at his waist, pulling him in, keeping him there.
Lando’s lips found Oscar’s neck instead, sucking softly at the skin, leaving faint, warm marks of his own, like he needed to leave something behind.
“Osc,” Lando moaned, desperate.
“Patience,” Oscar murmured, placing a kiss to his cheek, even as his own breath started to deepen.
“Please—Osc—” Lando tried again when he felt a third finger inside him, the word catching slightly on the second attempt.
“Greedy,” Oscar chuckled, biting gently into his neck—but he was already giving in, already moving. He pulled his fingers out, quickly stripping off the rest of his own clothes, stroking himself a few times.
“Wanna ride you,” Lando said, voice uneven, breathing heavily.
Oscar let him take over.
He wouldn’t have said no to him anyway.
He pushed gently at Oscar’s chest until Oscar rolled onto his back, pulling Lando with him so he was straddling his hips.
Oscar's fingers tightened slightly against his skin.
“Baby—”
“Shh.”
Lando sank down slowly taking his time, letting himself adjust inch by inch until he was fully seated.
For a moment he just stayed there. Forehead dropping briefly to Oscar's shoulder as they both caught their breath.
“Fuck,” Oscar breathed.
“Yeah.”
Only then did Lando lift his head again and begin to move. Slow, deliberate rolls of his hips that drew matching groans from both of them.
Oscar met every movement with a gentle upward thrust, hands gripping Lando's hips to help guide him. He pulled Lando down for kisses—soft, open-mouthed, lingering—before trailing his mouth to Lando's neck, sucking lightly at the skin while Lando moved above him.
“Yeah…” Oscar murmured against Lando’s collarbone, voice low and rough with tiredness and want. “Just like that.”
Lando moaned softly, hips rolling deeper, one hand braced on Oscar’s chest while the other tangled in his hair. Oscar kept thrusting up to meet him, pulling him down for more kisses whenever he could—messy, breathless, full of quiet affection.
The pace stayed slow, but the heat between them built steadily. Lando’s moans grew breathier, his movements becoming a little less controlled as pleasure coiled tighter. Oscar’s hands roamed his back and thighs, grounding him even as he let Lando lead, keeping him there.
When Lando got close, clenching just a little more around him, Oscar took his cock into his hand, stroking it in the same rhythm as he was being ridden.
“Come for me,” he whispered, voice low and rough.
Lando came with a shuddering moan, breath breaking completely, body tightening around Oscar as he spilled over his fist.
The feeling pulled Oscar over the edge right after—a quiet, restrained groan as he pulsed deep inside him, hips pressing up one last time.
They stayed like that for a long moment, breathing hard, Lando slumped against Oscar’s chest, like moving wasn’t even an option yet.
Oscar’s arms wrapped around him automatically, one hand stroking slowly up and down his back as he tried to memorise every detail the warmth of Lando’s skin, the way his breath tickled his neck, the faint tremble still running through his thighs, the way his fingers still clutched Oscar’s shoulders like he never wanted to let go.
Oscar’s hand kept moving over Lando’s back, slower now, like he was finally running out of energy. He let himself relax, everything finally settling into place.
Oscar closed his eyes, pressing a soft kiss to Lando’s temple.
“Told you,” Oscar murmured, “I’m not gonna stop on kisses.”
Lando chuckled, holding onto him even tighter.
He was exhausted—bone-tired from the flights and the lack of sleep—but right now, none of it mattered.
Not when he had this.
Oscar’s hand kept moving over Lando’s back, slower now, like he was finally running out of energy. He let himself relax, everything settling into place, exactly how it should be.
At first, Lando didn’t notice—just stayed there, pressed into him, listening to the steady rhythm of his breathing.
Then—
“…Osc?” he said softly, pulling back just enough to look at him.
Nothing.
Not properly.
Oscar’s eyes were closed, his breathing slow, even—completely gone.
Lando blinked once, then let out a quiet breath, something soft settling in his chest.
“Seriously?” he murmured, more fond than anything.
He shifted carefully, easing some of his weight off him, one hand coming up to brush through Oscar’s hair, gentler this time.
“Could’ve at least warned me,” he added under his breath.
But he didn’t wake him. He couldn’t bring himself to. Instead, he slipped out of bed on slightly shaky legs, heading to the bathroom to grab a wet towel. He cleaned them both up carefully, movements slower now, more deliberate.
“Sleep,” he whispered when Oscar shifted faintly under his touch.
Then he pulled a blanket over him, tucking it around the younger properly, like he was making sure he’d stay there.
Only after that did Lando grab his phone from his jeans pocket and slide back into bed beside his boyfriend, careful not to wake him.
Lando stayed close, one hand resting lightly on Oscar’s side, like he wasn’t planning on going anywhere.
For a moment, he just… stayed there.
Listening.
Watching the slow rise and fall of Oscar’s chest, the way his face had completely relaxed, all the usual sharpness gone with sleep.
Yeah.
He deserved that.
Lando exhaled softly and reached for his phone, careful not to move too much. The screen felt a bit too bright, his head still foggy, thoughts slower than usual.
Food.
Right.
He blinked at it for a second longer than necessary, scrolling without really reading, before settling on something familiar.
Chinese.
Easy.
Warm.
Quick.
Good enough.
Ordering it took more effort than it should’ve—wrong address at first, then almost sending it without actually choosing anything—but he got there eventually, dropping the phone back onto the bedside table with a quiet sigh.
Oscar didn’t move.
Of course he didn’t.
Lando glanced down at him and leaned over to give him a quick kiss, before carefully slipping out of bed again, this time moving a little slower, more aware of the dull ache settling into his muscles.
He pulled on a pair of boxers and grabbed Oscar’s hoodie from the floor, tugging it over his head. It was too big but that didn’t stop the small, automatic smile tugging at his lips.
The kitchen felt colder. Quieter.
Lando moved around it without thinking too much—kettle on, cups out, leaning lightly against the counter while he waited, eyes half-lidded.
He yawned, dragging a hand over his face.
The kettle clicked.
He made the tea slowly, careful not to spill anything, then paused, staring at the cups for a second like he was debating something.
“…tray,” he said to himself, like it was a genius idea.
It took him a bit longer than it should have to gather everything—tea, cutlery, napkins they probably didn’t need—but eventually he got it all balanced. By the time the food arrived, he almost forgot he’d ordered it.
The knock startled him slightly.
He shuffled to the door, grabbed the bag, muttered a quick thanks, and carried everything back inside like it was far more complicated than it actually was.
Back to the bedroom.
Oscar hadn’t moved.
Still exactly where he left him.
Lando set everything down carefully on the bedside table before climbing back onto the bed, one knee sinking into the mattress as he leaned over him.
“Hey,” he said softly, brushing a hand through Oscar’s hair. “Osc… wake up.”
He didn’t even move.
“You need to eat something.”
He nudged him gently this time, a little smile slipping through despite himself.
“C’mon, I ordered food. That was effort.”
“Lan?” Oscar muttered, voice rough with sleep, like he’d forgotten where he was for a second.
“Yeah, silly,” Lando chuckled softly, leaning down to press a kiss to his cheek. “Wake up.”
Oscar frowned slightly, eyes still closed, one hand shifting blindly until it found Lando’s side, fingers curling there like he needed to make sure he was actually there.
“…what time is it?”
“Food time,” Lando said, nudging him again. “C’mon, we’re having Chinese.”
Oscar cracked one eye open, squinting up at him, still not fully there. “You ordered?”
“Yeah, didn’t burn the kitchen down, so—successful evening,” Lando said, a bit smug despite himself. “I made the tea myself though.”
That got a faint huff out of him.
Oscar looked at him properly now—messy hair, oversized hoodie, slightly flushed, still a bit wrecked and something in his expression softened completely.
“…come here.”
Lando didn’t hesitate.
He shifted closer immediately, letting himself be pulled in, half falling against him as Oscar wrapped an arm around his waist, still clearly not planning on getting up anytime soon.
“You’re meant to be eating,” Lando mumbled, though he didn’t move away.
“In a minute,” Oscar murmured, voice still thick with sleep, pressing his face lightly into Lando’s shoulder. “Just—give me a second.”
Lando huffed quietly, but his hand came up anyway, brushing through Oscar’s hair again, softer now.
“Fine,” he said. “But only because I missed you.”
“Mm,” Oscar hummed, tightening his hold slightly.
Lando stayed there for another moment, letting Oscar wake up properly, fingers still absentmindedly running through his hair.
“Alright,” he said after a bit. “Food’s gonna get cold.”
Oscar made a quiet, displeased sound at that, tightening his hold for a second longer before finally loosening his grip.
“Tragic,” he muttered, though he didn’t let go completely.
“You can go back to sleep after we eat,” Lando laughed softly, nudging him. “I didn’t struggle through ordering for nothing.”
That got him moving.
Slowly.
Oscar pushed himself up with a quiet exhale, dragging a hand over his face, still half asleep as he blinked around the room like he was reorienting himself.
Lando was already reaching for the bags, pulling them closer, opening containers with a bit more focus than before.
“Careful,” Oscar muttered, voice still rough. “You look like you might drop that.”
“I will not—” Lando paused mid-movement, adjusting his grip. “Okay, maybe.”
That earned him a small, tired smile.
They settled back against the headboard, legs tangled without really thinking about it, food spread out between them in a way that wasn’t particularly organised but worked well enough.
For a while, it was quiet.
Just the soft clink of containers, the kind of silence that didn’t feel empty.
Lando leaned into him at some point, shoulder pressing against Oscar’s side, not even noticing when he did it.
Oscar did.
His arm came up automatically, settling around Lando’s shoulders, pulling him a little closer as he kept eating with the other hand.
“You okay?” he asked quietly.
“Mm,” Lando hummed, mouth full. “Better now.”
Oscar pressed a quick kiss to his hair before continuing to eat.
They didn’t finish everything.
At some point, Lando just… slowed down, movements getting lazier, head tipping slightly against Oscar’s shoulder.
“Sleepy,” he mumbled.
“Shocking,” Oscar replied dryly, but softer now.
Lando didn’t even react to that properly.
Just set the container aside and shifted, turning into him fully this time.
Oscar sighed quietly, setting his own food down as well.
“C’mon,” he murmured, guiding him back down properly, pulling the blanket over both of them.
Lando went easily, already half gone, curling in close without hesitation. Oscar’s arms wrapped around him instinctively, holding him there, like he wasn’t planning on letting go anytime soon.
“I love you,” he whispered, more to the moment than anything else.
Lando didn’t answer.
He was already asleep.
Oscar watched him for a second longer, thumb brushing lightly over his shoulder before his own eyes started to close.
Yeah.
He’d take the trip a thousand times again just to have this.
That was worth it.
—
Lando woke up warm.
Properly warm.
Well rested, for once, something steady and calm settling in his body before he even opened his eyes.
There was a hand in his hair—slow, absentminded strokes and lips pressing lazy kisses to his face every now and then, like whoever was doing it had nowhere else to be.
He smiled before he even woke up fully.
Then his eyes opened, slowly, and—
Oscar.
Looking at him like that.
Soft. Awake. Already there.
“Morning, baby,” Oscar said, voice still rough with sleep, shifting them slightly so Lando was pulled closer, more on top of him.
Close enough to kiss him again.
Slow.
Unhurried.
Their lips met, still heavy with sleep, the kiss soft—nothing like the night before, no urgency, no rush. Just… there.
Oscar’s hand stayed in his hair, fingers threading through it gently, guiding him closer without really needing to.
Lando hummed quietly against his lips, one hand coming up to rest on Oscar’s chest, feeling the steady rise and fall beneath his palm.
Another kiss.
Then another.
Barely breaking apart in between, just enough to breathe, to look at each other for half a second before leaning back in.
Lando shifted slightly, pressing closer without thinking, like he was still chasing the warmth even though he was already wrapped in it.
Oscar let him. Like he was going to stop him.
One of his hand moved to Lando’s jaw brushing it lightly between kisses, slow, grounding, like he was just as content to stay here for as long as it took.
Lando’s eyes fluttered shut again at some point, smile still there, softer now.
Another kiss.
And then—
“Hi,” he mumbled quietly against Oscar’s lips. “You were staring.”
Oscar pulled back just slightly—not much, just enough to look at him properly. “Didn’t realise I’m not supposed to look at my pretty boyfriend.”
Lando didn’t answer, just buried his face into Oscar’s chest as his cheeks warmed.
“Getting shy on me, baby?” the Aussie teased, fingers still moving gently through his hair.
“Shut up,” Lando mumbled into his hoodie. “…but don’t stop.”
Oscar huffed a quiet laugh at that, hand never pausing, if anything slowing even more, softer now.
“Wasn’t planning to.”
Lando stayed tucked into him for a moment longer, fingers loosely gripping Oscar’s arm.
“…what time is it?” he mumbled.
Oscar’s hand didn’t stop moving in his hair. “Don’t know.”
“You’re lying.”
“Mm,” Oscar hummed. “Doesn’t matter. I’m not letting you go anyway.”
Lando shifted slightly, pressing closer instead of pulling away.
“I don’t have anything today,” he said quietly.
Oscar’s hand slowed for just a second.
“I know,” he said, and there was something faintly smug in it—like he’d counted on that.
A small pause settled between them.
Then Oscar shifted him slightly, guiding him so Lando had to look at him properly.
“We need a shower,” he decided.
Lando groaned immediately, letting his head drop back against the pillow.
“No.”
“Baby,” Oscar tried again.
“No, I’m sore,” Lando whined, pulling the most pathetic puppy eyes he could manage like that was going to help.
“Oh, are you now?” Oscar’s brow lifted as he looked at him.
“Yes.” Lando didn’t drop the expression. “And it’s your fault.”
Oscar rolled his eyes and shifted, pulling Lando up with him until he was sitting on his hips instead. It drew a small, surprised sound out of him.
“You weren’t complaining last night,” he said, a smirk tugging at his lips as he looked up at him, hands firm on Lando’s sides like he was proving a point.
“You’re the worst,” Lando muttered, looking away.
The Aussie didn’t comment. He just sat up, one arm steady around Lando so he wouldn’t fall, and in one smooth motion pushed himself off the bed—lifting him with him.
“Osc—” Lando yelped, grabbing onto him instinctively, but it broke into laughter almost immediately. “Oscar!”
Oscar didn’t even slow down.
“Relax,” he said, far too calm for someone currently carrying him across the room.
“I am relaxed—put me down!” Lando protested, still laughing, legs shifting slightly like he was considering escaping but not actually committing to it.
“No.”
“Oscar—”
“You said you were sore,” he added, like that explained everything, adjusting his grip just slightly as he walked. “I’m helping.”
“That’s not helping!” Lando shot back, but he was already clinging to him properly now, arms looped around his neck.
“Mm. Seems like it is.”
Oscar didn’t slow down until they reached the bathroom.
Lando was still half-laughing when he got set down on the counter, hands bracing on either side of him as he watched Oscar move.
And—right.
He hadn’t bothered getting dressed.
Lando’s eyes lingered a second longer than necessary, a smile tugging at his lips as he bit it back like that would help.
The way his muscles shifted with every movement, broad shoulders, easy, natural—
God.
Lando couldn’t quite believe this was his. That he got to have this—him.
He watched as Oscar leaned over the tub, turning the water on, checking the temperature with his hand like it actually mattered.
Lando just… watched.
“Stop staring,” Oscar said without looking back.
“I’m not.”
Oscar glanced at him then, unimpressed.
Lando didn’t even try to argue properly this time, just smiled softer now, still very much staring.
The water filled slowly, steam starting to rise.
“C’mon,” Oscar said after a moment, turning back to him. “In.”
Lando slid off the counter, letting Oscar guide him without complaint this time, stepping into the tub with a quiet sigh as the warmth settled in.
Oscar got in right after, settling back against the edge and pulling Lando between his legs.
Lando’s body relaxed automatically, eyes drifting half-closed—but not for long.
Because Oscar was still right there.
Still very much—
Lando cleared his throat softly, looking away for half a second before inevitably looking back.
“We’re supposed to be washing,” he said dryly.
“Trying,” Lando muttered, not convincing at all. “You’re distracting.”
“Useless,” Oscar chuckled, dipping the cloth back into the water.
“Not my fault.”
Oscar just shook his head, but there was a hint of a smile as he reached out, brushing the cloth over Lando’s shoulder—slow, careful.
“You good?” he asked.
“Mm. Yeah.”
More than.
Oscar’s touch stayed steady, moving over his arms, his shoulders, grounding, unhurried.
“…you’re the best,” Lando said eventually, a small sigh slipping out with it.
“I know.”
“Cocky.” That earned him a small smile.
By the time Oscar was done, Lando had sunk lower into the water, completely relaxed, eyes nearly closed. “…don’t wanna get out,” he mumbled.
Oscar leaned back slightly, watching him.
“Funny,” he said lightly. “You didn’t want to get in either.”
Lando cracked one eye open.
“That was different.”
“Out,” Oscar said, softer this time.
“No.”
Oscar huffed a quiet laugh. “Baby.”
“Five more minutes,” Lando bargained immediately, sinking deeper on purpose.
Oscar shook his head—but didn’t move to pull him out just yet.
Instead, his hand came up again, brushing damp fingers through Lando’s hair, slower this time.
“Three,” he said.
Eventually, Oscar won the negotiations and they got out of the bath.
He dried them both off, quick but careful, then pulled one of his hoodies back over Lando’s head before finally getting dressed himself.
Lando watched that part a bit too closely.
He wasn’t sure if he was relieved or disappointed when it ended.
A few minutes later they drifted into the kitchen together, still warm from the bath and entirely unwilling to be more than a few feet apart.
Oscar headed straight for the fridge.
“Seriously?” Oscar asked, opening the fridge.
There was nothing.
Well—almost nothing.
Just a few cans of Lando’s Monster.
“Well, if I knew you’d be here earlier, I would’ve gone shopping,” Lando defended himself, leaning against the counter while he waited for the water to boil.
Oscar grabbed one of the cans anyway, popping it open and taking a long sip.
Lando watched him closely.
“…well?”
Oscar glanced at him, unimpressed. “Not enough sugar. Too much energy.”
A beat.
“Just like you.”
Lando stared at him for a second, genuinely offended before —“Oi—I’m plenty sweet.”
“Mm,” Oscar hummed, taking another sip. “So why are you always eating so much chocolate?”
Lando narrowed his eyes slightly, pushing off the counter.
“You’re so mean to me,” he shot back, stepping closer.
Oscar raised a brow.
Lando took another step, tilting his head up, batting his eyelashes in the most exaggerated way possible before his hands came up to loop around Oscar’s neck, smile turning almost painfully sweet.
“Admit it,” he murmured. “I’m cute.”
Oscar rolled his eyes, but he set the can down anyway, one hand coming up to cup Lando’s face, the other settling at his hip like it belonged there.
“The cutest,” he said, leaning in for a quick kiss.
Lando smiled into it.
Eventually, they settled for last night’s leftovers—standing too close in the kitchen, shoulders brushing, hands finding each other without thinking.
Neither of them in a hurry to go anywhere.
Not yet.
Notes:
FIRST OF ALL OSCAR YOU ROMANTIC MUPPET?????
Guys I need some love after the disaster that Monaco was 😭😭😭😭
When I saw Max out I wasn’t even dissapointed anymore, when I saw Lando out I was like ‘here we go again’ BUT CHARLIE?????? 😭😭😭😭
Chapter 31: Lift and coast
Notes:
Hi I’m sorry if the chapter is weird, but I just edited it and I’m sick, pretty sure I’ve got a fever rn 😭
Idk what happened, I just randomly woke up on Monday sick, and it’s not severe but annoying, and I’m going back to work tomorrow (had three days off, thought it’d go away, it didn’t) so yeah.Also I made the Charles’s helmet from Lego today, and I swear to god if they design their car’s like that no wonder they’re shit, it was the most confusing Lego I’ve ever done.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
They ended up on the couch at some point.
Lando sprawled on top of Oscar, all warm weight and loose limbs, like a human blanket, doing absolutely nothing. Oscar scrolled through his phone with one hand, the other resting absentmindedly on Lando’s back, while the Brit hovered somewhere between awake and asleep.
“We should probably leave the house at some point,” Lando mumbled suddenly.
Oscar paused, glancing down at him. “Why?”
“Because,” Lando huffed, lifting his head just enough to look at him, “you can’t come all this way just to watch me do nothing.”
“You’re not doing nothing,” Oscar replied, tightening his arms around him slightly. “You’re cuddling me.”
Lando rolled his eyes but leaned in anyway, pressing a quick, mocking kiss to his lips.
“You took me on all these adventures,” he said, voice still light, teasing more than anything. “I don’t want you to think I’m boring.”
“But I want to be boring with you,” Oscar said, something in his tone almost—pouty.
Lando froze for a second, staring at him like he’d just heard that wrong.
Then he broke.
“Wait—” he laughed, lifting himself up properly to look at him. “Oscar Piastri, are you being clingy?”
“Yes,” Oscar said, without hesitation. No shame. Just… certain.
“That’s new,” Lando grinned. “But we’re going anyway.”
“No, you’re sore,” Oscar tried, even if it didn’t sound very convincing. “You should rest before the weekend.”
Lando just looked at him.
Oscar held his gaze for a second—
and then sighed.
They didn’t rush getting ready, but they were out quickly enough.
Both in sunglasses. Lando had one of his usual caps on—plain, no logo, nothing that would make him stand out.
And just like that, they were on their way.
London was crowded. It always was. People rushing past, caught up in their own day, cutting through the slower clusters of tourists who stopped every few steps, cameras in hand, taking it all in.
Lando had brought his camera too.
Partly to blend in a bit more.
But mostly—he just wanted to capture it. This. Them.
He hadn’t used it in a while.
They walked through central London, Lando pointing things out every now and then, not really sticking to anything for long.
“There’s a Christmas market here in winter,” he said as they passed by The National Gallery. “It’s not big, but—it’s nice.”
A few blocks later—
“I think they filmed Harry Potter somewhere around here,” he added, glancing around like he might suddenly recognise it.
Oscar hummed, clearly more interested in him than the surroundings.
“Should we go to the LEGO Store?” Lando went on, already half-turning as if ready to change direction. “There’s always a massive queue—Osc, it’s an opportunity.”
“Do you want LEGO, or are you just excited there’s no line?” Oscar asked, raising a brow.
Lando didn’t answer.
Which was answer enough.
They didn’t go to the store.
Instead, Lando veered off, cutting behind Leicester Square and straight into Chinatown, the crowd thickening almost immediately.
“Baby,” Oscar said, noticing it right away as people closed in around them.
“It’s fine,” Lando replied, already moving, but his words didn’t stop Oscar’s hand from finding his.
Fingers lacing together without hesitation.
Lando glanced back at him, a small smile pulling at his lips as he tightened his grip just slightly.
“Trust the adventure,” he said, tugging him along.
They moved through it all—past restaurants and small shops, weaving between people, Lando guiding them through the crowd like he knew exactly where he was going.
Which, apparently, he did.
The noise followed them at first.
Then faded.
Step by step, the streets narrowed, the crowd thinning until they turned into a side alley—quieter, almost tucked away from everything they’d just walked through.
A small souvenir shop sat to one side.
Next to it, a bubble tea place, half-hidden, easy to miss if you didn’t know where to look.
Lando slowed then, finally stopping.
“Here,” he said, like he’d just proven a point.
They went inside and Lando marched straight to the counter.
“You didn’t even look at the menu,” Oscar said, brows scrunching slightly.
“I know what I’m doing.”
He said it with full confidence, already rattling off the order like he’d done it a hundred times before—something overly sweet for himself, something lighter, citrusy for Oscar.
He paid, grabbed the drinks, and turned back with a small, satisfied look. “Trust me,” he added, handing one over.
Oscar eyed it for a second before taking a careful sip. Lando didn’t even try to hide that he was watching him.
“…okay,” Oscar admitted after a beat. “That’s actually good.”
Lando lit up immediately. “Told you.”
The smile that followed was dangerously close to smug. Oscar huffed under his breath but took another sip anyway.
They stayed there for a moment longer, half out of the way, the noise of the street just distant enough not to matter.
Oscar leaned back against the wall, one hand wrapped around the cup, sunglasses slipping slightly down his nose as he glanced around.
Lando didn’t say anything.
He just reached for his camera.
Quick.
Quiet.
Click.
Oscar’s head turned immediately. “Did you just—”
“Nothing,” Lando said far too quickly, already lowering it.
Oscar didn’t push it, just shook his head with a small smile.
Lando glanced at the screen for half a second, something satisfied pulling at his expression before he looked back up. “You look good.”
Oscar raised a brow, amused. “…that’s illegal.”
“I’m pretty sure there’s a law that says I can take as many pictures of my boyfriend as I want,” Lando shrugged, already reaching for his hand again.
That slowed him down for a second.
But before Oscar could answer, Lando was already tugging him along. “C’mon.”
“Where?” Oscar asked, but he let himself be pulled along anyway.
“Just—walk.”
They slipped back into the crowd, shoulders brushing as they moved.
Oscar glanced at him, amused. “Weren’t you complaining about being sore this morning?”
Lando didn’t even hesitate. “I got better.”
“That’s not how that works.”
“Shut up,” Lando muttered, tightening his grip slightly as he led them forward.
Oscar followed.
Of course he did.
They didn’t go far.
Just far enough for the noise to dull a little, the crowd thinning again as they turned off the main street. The bright signs faded behind them, replaced by quieter storefronts and the occasional passerby.
Lando slowed his pace without really thinking about it, still holding onto Oscar’s hand as he glanced around.
“There,” he said after a second, nodding toward a small set of steps tucked between buildings.
It wasn’t anything special.
Just… quiet.
Oscar followed without question, letting himself be pulled along until they both dropped down, shoulders brushing as they sat.
For a moment, neither of them said anything.
Lando took another sip of his drink, making a face like it was somehow even sweeter than before.
Oscar noticed. “That’s too much, isn’t it?”
“No,” Lando said immediately, then paused. “…maybe a bit.”
Oscar huffed a quiet laugh.
Without a word, he reached across, took Lando’s cup and swapped it with his own.
Lando blinked, “Oi.”
Oscar ignored him completely and took a sip from the drink he’d just stolen. The look on his face suggested it was, in fact, offensively sweet.
Lando watched him for a second. Then smiled despite himself.
They stayed like that for a second—close, not really doing anything, just watching the world move a little slower around them.
Lando bumped his shoulder lightly into Oscar’s.
“Not as exciting as a road trip, but… you having fun?” he asked, voice a little quieter now.
Oscar looked at him for a moment, something soft settling in his expression, before leaning in and pressing a kiss to his cheek.
“I’m just happy to be with you,” he said simply.
It made Lando blush, just a little, as he leaned more into him.
“Liar,” he mumbled, a quiet laugh slipping out. “You live for adventures and adrenaline.”
Oscar’s arm came up instinctively, settling around his shoulders, pulling him closer.
“I kinda like it when we slow it down.”
They sat like that for a while, drinks in hand, shoulders pressed lightly together.
People passed in front of them in a steady rhythm—voices overlapping, footsteps echoing faintly against the pavement, bits of conversation drifting in and out without ever fully settling. Laughter somewhere close, a door opening and closing, the low hum of the city carrying on around them.
It wasn’t quiet.
Not really.
But compared to where they’d just been, it felt like it. Lando’s foot nudged lightly against Oscar’s, absentminded, more habit than intention as he took another sip of his drink, still humming pleasantly.
Oscar noticed, of course.
He always did.
But he didn’t say anything.
Just shifted slightly closer instead, his arm still around Lando, grounding in a way that didn’t need to be pointed out.
A couple walked past them, arguing softly about directions. Someone else stopped just at the corner, checking their phone before moving on again. The world kept going, fast and messy and loud in its own way—
and they just… didn’t.
Lando leaned back a little, one hand resting loosely against his thigh, the other still wrapped around the cup. His sunglasses had slipped down his nose just enough that he could look over the top of them, eyes tracking nothing in particular.
He didn’t feel the need to fill the silence.
Didn’t feel like he had to be anything other than exactly this.
Next to him, Oscar stretched his legs out a bit more, ankle crossing over the other, posture loose, relaxed in a way he rarely let himself be anywhere else. His fingers tapped lightly against the plastic of the cup, slow, uneven, like he wasn’t even aware he was doing it.
For a second, Lando glanced at him instead of the street.
Just—looked.
The line of his jaw, the way his hair fell slightly out of place, the faint crease between his brows that never fully went away.
It was honestly unfair how handsome he was without even trying.
“Hmm?” Oscar hummed, catching him staring.
“Nothing,” Lando shrugged, a small smirk pulling at his lips. “Just admiring the view.”
“Mm,” Oscar replied, turning his head slightly to look at him properly, a soft smile forming. “Mine’s still better.”
“You can’t do that,” Lando protested immediately, flushing.
“What? Flirt back?” Oscar chuckled, clearly amused.
Lando didn’t answer, just huffed quietly and turned his head away, a pout settling on his lips—more for show than anything.
Oscar huffed quietly, leaning in to press another quick kiss to Lando’s cheek before pushing himself to his feet. He held out a hand toward him. “C’mon, baby. I reckon we should eat something proper.”
Lando took it without hesitation, letting himself be pulled up before tightening his grip instead, already turning them in the opposite direction.
“I know a place.”
Before Oscar could even question it, he was being tugged along again.
Oscar let himself be led for a minute before finally glancing around, brows pulling together slightly. “You’re very confident for someone who won’t tell me where we’re going.”
“Relax,” Lando shot back over his shoulder, not slowing down. “You’ll like it.”
“That’s what you said about the drink.”
“And you did like yours.”
Oscar hummed, unconvinced, but didn’t argue further, letting Lando weave them through the streets with that same easy certainty.
They stopped in front of a building that looked—
well.
Normal.
Oscar looked up at it, then back at Lando.
“…this is a pub.”
“It’s a Spoons,” Lando corrected immediately, already pushing the door open.
“That doesn’t clarify anything,” Oscar said, a little thrown.
Lando blinked at him, genuinely confused. “How did you live in England and never go to a Spoons?”
“I was underage. And in a posh private school,” Oscar admitted, a little sheepish. “Didn’t exactly get to explore.”
Lando just shook his head, like that was a personal failure on Oscar’s part, and pulled him inside.
The noise hit first—voices layered over each other, cutlery clinking, someone laughing too loudly from somewhere in the back. The place was busy, not packed, but full enough to feel alive. Slightly sticky tables, mismatched chairs, lighting that tried its best and didn’t quite succeed.
Oscar paused for half a second, taking it in.
Lando didn’t.
“C’mon,” he said, already pulling him further in, scanning the room before spotting an empty table. “This is good, trust me.”
“That’s your second ‘trust me’ today,” Oscar noted, sitting down anyway.
“And both times I’ve been right.”
“We’ll see.”
Lando ignored that, already pulling his phone out. “What do you want?”
Oscar glanced around once more before looking back at him. “You’re the expert here. Show me what you’ve got.”
“I can decide,” Lando said, a little too confidently—like he was reassuring himself as much as Oscar.
He tapped through the app quickly, clearly familiar with it, barely hesitating as he added things to the order.
Oscar watched him for a second, something amused tugging at his expression. “You come here a lot?”
“Not really,” Lando shrugged. “But it’s good. And easy.”
That made sense.
A moment later, Lando locked his phone and set it down. “Done.”
“That fast?”
“Efficiency,” Lando said, leaning back in his chair like he’d just accomplished something impressive.
Oscar huffed a quiet laugh, shaking his head slightly.
Around them, the noise carried on—someone calling out across the room, glasses clinking nearby, the low hum of conversation filling every gap. It wasn’t polished. It wasn’t quiet.
But it was—
easy.
Lando reached across the table without thinking, his fingers brushing against Oscar’s before settling there properly.
Oscar didn’t pull away.
Of course he didn’t.
“What school did you go to, anyway?” Lando asked, glancing at him curiously.
“Haileybury.”
“What?” Lando nearly choked, staring at him. “How posh are you?”
“Not much anymore,” Oscar said with a small chuckle.
“So you’re, like, rich-rich?” Lando pushed, clearly invested now, chin resting on his fist as he watched him.
“I thought we already established that,” Oscar sighed, though there was no real annoyance in it. “I’m not. My father is.”
“Yeah, but like—how much?”
Before Oscar could answer, a waitress appeared, setting down their food one plate after another, until the table was suddenly—
full.
“Enjoy,” she said with a quick smile before disappearing again.
Oscar blinked, looking between the spread and Lando.
“Seriously?”
Because it was a lot.
Lando, meanwhile, had already stolen a chip.
“Osc, focus,” he said around it, like the question was still the priority.
Oscar huffed, shaking his head slightly, but played along. “I mean—not as rich as your dad, but… close enough, I guess.”
“So I’m not impressing you with my money?” Lando asked, before he could stop himself.
Oscar’s hand stilled halfway to his mouth as he looked at him, completely thrown.
“…do you want to impress me with your money?”
Lando blinked, matching his expression for a second, brain clearly trying to catch up with what he’d just said.
“…no.”
Oscar stared at him for a beat longer—
and then broke.
Laughter spilled out of him, unfiltered, his whole body shaking slightly, that bright, open grin showing.
“That was stupid,” Lando admitted, laughing too now.
Oscar reached for his hand without thinking, still smiling as he lifted it to his lips, pressing a soft kiss there.
“I love you, baby.”
Lando didn’t say anything for a moment, just stuffed his mouth with garlic bread like he’d forgotten the conversation entirely.
Oscar was still chuckling under his breath as he reached for one of the chicken bites.
Then—
“…you do have a Lamborghini as a company car, after all,” Lando said, like it had just occurred to him mid-chew.
Oscar paused.
“Yeah.” Oscar nodded—and Lando noticed immediately.
Hesitation.
“You don’t have to get into that,” he said, a little softer now, taking a sip of his drink.
“No, it’s fine.” Oscar dragged a hand through his hair, exhaling quietly. “It was a gift from my dad. Eighteenth birthday. I didn’t really know what to do with it until I opened the shop… so I just made it a company car.”
“Oh.”
That wasn’t what Lando had expected.
Oscar shrugged slightly, already pulling it back to something lighter. “Makes a terrible car for a mechanic shop. Completely useless.”
A small laugh followed. “The boys use it to hit on girls, though. That part’s kind of funny.”
“Oh?” Lando leaned forward a little, eyes narrowing just enough to be suspicious. “Did you ever use it like that?”
“Don’t think it’d work on the boy I want,” Oscar smirked. “He’s got a garage full of cars like that.”
Lando blinked once—then flushed, looking away. “You’re actually unbearable.”
“You say that now,” Oscar shrugged slightly, voice lower, softer, “like you don’t look at me like you want it.”
Lando blinked once. Twice. His cheeks burned hotter. “Focus on the food, Piastri.”
Oscar smirked, more to himself than to the Brit who still refused to look at him.
He knew he’d won that one.
They didn’t leave straight away.
Lando made a half-hearted attempt to finish everything he’d ordered, Oscar stealing from his plate more than eating his own, until eventually they both gave up, pushing things aside with quiet agreement.
“Full?” Lando asked, already knowing the answer.
“Regrettably,” Oscar muttered, leaning back slightly.
“Told you it’s good,” Lando grinned.
Oscar raised a brow at him. “Yeah—not the healthiest, though.”
“We can always lose the calories later,” Lando smirked, a flicker of confidence slipping through.
Oscar huffed a quiet laugh, pushing himself to his feet. “Oh, now you want to tease?”
Lando just smiled, pleased with himself.
“C’mon, baby,” Oscar added, holding out a hand. “We’ve been productive enough today.”
Lando took his hand, standing up. “We’re getting snacks.”
Oscar looked at him, unimpressed. “You’re unbelievable.”
“You’ll thank me later.”
“I already don’t.”
Lando just grinned, tightening his grip on his hand as they made their way out.
The air outside felt cooler.
Quieter, too—like the city had shifted into something slower while they’d been inside.
They didn’t rush.
Didn’t need to.
Lando walked a little ahead at first, still holding onto Oscar’s hand, pulling him along with that same easy confidence until they passed a small shop on the corner.
He stopped mid-step.
“Oh—wait.”
Oscar barely had time to react before he was being tugged inside.
The shop was small, a bit cramped, shelves packed with too many options.
Lando immediately split off, scanning everything like it was a serious task.
Oscar followed slower, hands in his pockets now, watching more than anything.
“What are we getting?” he asked.
“Essentials,” Lando replied, already grabbing something without looking.
Oscar huffed quietly, but didn’t interfere, letting him pile up snacks with questionable decision-making.
Chocolate.
Crisps.
Something he definitely didn’t recognise.
“That’s too much,” Oscar pointed out eventually.
Lando glanced down at his hands, then back at him. “…no, it’s not.”
“It is.”
“Stop judging me.”
Oscar didn’t argue, just rolled his eyes, a fond smile tugging at his lips.
They paid—Oscar taking the bags, because of course he did.
Lando grabbed his camera instead, mumbling something about the light as he started snapping random photos on the way out.
At some point, he got distracted by a stray cat stretched out in the sun on the pavement and immediately crouched down to pet it.
Oscar slowed, watching him for a moment.
Then, quietly, he pulled out his phone.
Click.
Lando didn’t notice.
Too busy crouched on the pavement, talking softly to the cat like it actually understood him, fingers gentle as they brushed through its fur. Completely unguarded. Completely himself.
A small smile found its way onto Oscar’s lips.
He stayed there for a second longer than necessary, just… watching.
The way Lando’s shoulders relaxed when he laughed under his breath, the way he leaned in without thinking, like the rest of the world had stopped mattering for a moment. No cameras. No expectations. No pressure.
Just him.
And somehow, Oscar got to see this side of him. Not the version the world knew. This one. Soft. Ridiculous. Real.
The one who dragged him into random shops and ordered too much food and got distracted by cats in the middle of the street.
His.
The realization settled in slowly. Not loud. Not dramatic. Just certain.
A warmth spread through his chest, slow and steady, something deeper than the rush he was used to chasing.
Yeah.
He was lucky.
More than he probably deserved.
“Oi, you still with me?” Lando called, still crouched, but now looking over at him, camera halfway up like he’d just taken a photo.
“Yeah,” Oscar blinked, snapping out of it. “Just tired.”
“Home?” Lando straightened, taking a few steps toward him.
“Mm.” Oscar tilted his head slightly. “Kiss first?”
Lando rolled his eyes, but stepped in anyway, pressing a quick kiss to his lips.
They didn’t say anything more on the way back.
The city blurred around them, quieter now, the streets a little less crowded, the air cooler against their skin. Their hands stayed linked the whole way, swinging slightly between them without either of them really noticing.
By the time they reached the flat, Lando was already digging his keys out of his pocket, the door opening with a familiar click.
Lando tied his shoes off before even stepping fully inside.
Oscar followed, dropping the bags by the door and doing the same, slower this time, his movements heavier now that everything was catching up with him.
The flat was warm. Quiet. Still.
Lando padded further in, already peeling off his hoodie as he went, tossing it somewhere that definitely wasn’t where it belonged.
Oscar watched it land, then looked back at him.
“Nice,” he said dryly.
“Shut up,” Lando shot back, but there was no bite to it.
He disappeared into the kitchen for a second, returning with two glasses without really asking, handing one to Oscar like it was routine.
Oscar took it with a quiet hum, taking a sip before setting it down somewhere nearby.
Neither of them made it much further.
The couch got them first.
Lando dropped onto it without hesitation, pulling Oscar down with him like it was expected, like that’s where they were always going to end up.
Oscar let himself fall into it, exhaling softly as he sank back, one arm coming up automatically as Lando shifted closer, folding into him without thinking.
“Comfy?” The Aussie chuckled, but didn’t get a response.
Lando just hummed nudging closer, one leg thrown over Oscar’s, completely settling in.
Oscar’s hand came up to his hair, fingers threading through it slowly, the motion automatic, grounding.
The room stayed quiet.
No TV.
No music.
Just the soft rustle of fabric, the steady rhythm of breathing, the faint sounds of the city outside, distant enough not to matter.
Lando shifted slightly, mumbling something unintelligible into Oscar’s shirt.
“Mm?” Oscar hummed.
“…nothing.”
A pause.
Then, softer—“Good day.”
Oscar’s hand slowed for a second, then continued, gentler this time.
“Yeah,” he murmured. “It was.”
Lando shifted slightly, then pushed himself up just enough to look at him.
“I love you.”
Oscar’s hand stilled in his hair.
For a second, neither of them moved.
Lando didn’t look away this time—just held it, eyes soft but steady, like he meant every part of it. No teasing, no deflection. Just… there.
It caught somewhere in Oscar’s chest, quiet but heavy, the kind of feeling that didn’t need words to be understood.
He didn’t answer.
Not like that.
Instead, he reached up, fingers brushing lightly along Lando’s jaw as he leaned in, closing the space between them.
The kiss wasn’t rushed.
Wasn’t desperate.
Just… his.
Slow and deliberate, like he had nowhere else to be, like he wanted Lando to feel it—every bit of it. Soft at first, then deeper in a way that still stayed gentle, grounding more than anything else.
Lando melted into it almost immediately, one hand coming up to rest against Oscar’s chest, holding onto him like he wasn’t planning on letting go anytime soon.
Lando didn’t move far when they pulled apart, still hovering close, like he hadn’t quite decided whether he was done yet.
Oscar’s hand stayed at his jaw, thumb brushing lightly along his cheek, slower now. His forehead rested lightly against Lando’s.
“You say that like it’s a big revelation,” Oscar murmured.
“It is,” Lando said quietly. “Every time.”
That got him.
A small smile, softer this time.
“Yeah?” Oscar said, voice just as soft. “Good thing I love you too then.”
Lando just hummed, dropping back down against him, like the moment had settled instead of ended.
“Snacks,” he mumbled after a second.
Oscar huffed a quiet laugh. “Of course.”
Lando didn’t move.
“Go on then,” Oscar nudged lightly.
“No,” Lando replied instantly. “You go.”
Oscar sighed, but there was no real resistance in it. He shifted carefully, easing Lando off him before getting up, heading to the hallway to grab the abandoned bag—and Lando’s camera, which had been left behind with it.
“You are going on a proper diet tomorrow,” he added on his way back.
“Rude,” Lando muttered, not sounding particularly bothered.
Oscar dropped back onto the couch beside him, the bag landing between them.
They ended up half-sitting, half-lying again, passing things back and forth without much thought—Lando stealing more than he offered, Oscar pretending not to notice.
At some point, Lando settled properly against him, head resting on his shoulder, chewing slower now, movements getting lazier with every bite.
Oscar’s hand found his hair again without thinking, fingers threading through it gently, steady and familiar.
“What if I soft-launch us?” Lando asked, reaching for his camera on the table.
Oscar’s hand stilled for just a second in his hair before continuing, slower now. “Soft—what, us?”
Lando glanced at him, brows pulling together slightly before he looked back at the screen, scrolling through the photos.
“Soft launch,” he repeated, like it should’ve been obvious. “Like… I post pictures of you, but not really you. No face, nothing obvious.”
Oscar hummed quietly, considering it more than reacting. “Did you talk to your team about that?”
Lando’s thumb paused mid-scroll.
“Not yet,” he admitted, a little more careful now. “But I’ve hinted at it a few times.”
Oscar let out a quiet laugh at that. “I think you should talk to them first.”
“This would be nice,” Lando said after a moment, lifting the camera so Oscar could see, his voice dipping just slightly. “You wouldn’t mind?”
Oscar looked at the screen.
It was him.
Head tilted just enough, face half-hidden, sunlight washing over the frame—soft, almost golden.
Not obvious.
But close enough.
He hummed quietly, taking it in for a second longer before leaning in to press a kiss to Lando’s hair.
“Yeah,” he said, a hint of a smile in his voice. “My pretty, amazing boyfriend wanting to tell the world I’m his—how inconvenient.”
Lando huffed immediately. “That’s not what I said.”
Oscar just smiled against him, not pulling away.
“Not funny.”
“Mm,” Oscar murmured. “It is a bit.”
They stayed like that for a while, scrolling through the photos, passing snacks back and forth without really thinking about it, movements getting slower, quieter.
At some point, the camera slipped from Lando’s hands, forgotten somewhere between them.
Oscar noticed.
At some point, the camera slipped from Lando’s hands, forgotten somewhere between them. His eyes drifted shut without him even noticing. Oscar noticed.
“Bed,” he said softly after a moment, more statement than suggestion.
Lando made a quiet noise in protest, shifting closer instead of moving.
“No.”
“You’re falling asleep on me.”
“I’m not,” Lando mumbled, already half gone.
Oscar huffed a quiet laugh, hand brushing through his hair once more before nudging him slightly. “C’mon, baby.”
It took a second.
Then another.
Eventually, Lando pushed himself up with a small groan, dragging himself to his feet like it was the hardest thing he’d done all day.
“Tragic,” he muttered.
No rush. No reason for one.
Lando grabbed his hoodie from where it had been abandoned earlier, pulling it back on as he walked, while Oscar picked up the forgotten snacks and camera, setting them aside properly.
By the time he got to the bedroom, Lando was already halfway under the covers.
Of course he was.
Oscar shook his head slightly, amused, as he finished getting ready, movements slower now, heavier with exhaustion.
When he finally slipped into bed, Lando shifted immediately, like he’d been waiting for it, turning into him without even opening his eyes.
Oscar’s arm came around him automatically.
Familiar.
Easy.
“Good?” he murmured.
Lando hummed something that might’ve been a yes.
That was enough.
Oscar pressed a soft kiss into his hair, letting his eyes fall shut.
The day settled around them, quiet and complete.
Notes:
THIS WAS MY TIME TO SHINE, WHY? I’ve been to London a dozen times (my sister lives in England) and I could navigate the centre without any gps I swear.
Also Wetherspoons had to get an honorary mention since it is SUCH A BRITISH THING. Also I love a good spoons 😭 (I have a weird obsession with them but they’re fascinating) (my sister works as a manager there).
I actually wrote that like a month(?) ago and I’ve been craving their cheesy bacon chips ever since 🥺
