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The ball was on the field, spinning like crazy across the wet grass, kicking up a little trail of dirt as it went. Their team was already ahead, and the whole vibe was super intense, like everyone just knew something else was about to go down. Then Ranma strolled up and took control without even announcing himself—it was just this natural, inevitable move, like his body had been tracking the ball's path since before it even started rolling. His legs moved with this automatic precision, and he just sped up. Hiro got into position to receive the pass, all confident and ready, but the ball came in way too hot. It shot off like a perfect line, impossible to intercept, and slammed into the net with this solid thwack that made the whole thing shudder. For like a second, the whole world just stopped, and then everyone erupted.
"GOOOOOAL!"
The other team's goalie dropped to his knees, just staring at the net like it had personally betrayed him. He managed to mutter, all bitter and defeated, "Dude… what do they even feed him?"
"I dunno dude ¿Rice?," some guy whispered from behind, with this totally random serious face.
Everyone cracked up immediately, and Ranma Saotome's name spread through the student section like an electric current. They were all celebrating Furinkan High's star athlete, mobbing him, hoisting him up on their shoulders, shaking him around with all that hype like his win was theirs too. He blushed, as usual. I mean, yeah, he liked having that title; he just wasn't super into all the attention… okay, who are we kidding. He's a total diva who still hasn't figured out how to handle his own fame. When they finally put him down, he shot a wink at the girls watching from the bleachers. More than a few of them swooned. It was this light, almost casual gesture, but the effect was instant. It was a great moment, like, perfectly imperfect.
"So, Saotome," one of the guys said, slapping him on the back, "you ever think about joining the club for real, or you just gonna keep helping everyone out like public property?"
"Got stuff to do at home, guys. Can't."
"Yeah, yeah, yeah… excuses. Oh, hey, look who's here. I bet you already…"
The guy didn't get to finish. Ranma quickly clamped a hand over his mouth, barely smiling to kinda soften it. "Dude, Dai. Don't be gross. I'm not about that."
Everyone else laughed like it was the perfect punchline. Nobody seemed to take him seriously. Ranma just sighed, rolled his eyes, and quickly grabbed his stuff, moving with that practiced efficiency of someone who's been through this scene a million times. "I gotta bounce."
"Ooooooh," a bunch of them chorused. "Star athlete's off to meet the cutest girl!"
The cheering followed them all the way to the exit. The second they got past the main school gate, both the star athlete and the cutest girl let out this huge breath at the exact same time and just dropped their whole perfect persona act. Their shoulders slumped a little, all the tension just vanished like someone had opened a pressure valve.
"Oh man… that was terrifying."
Ranma's voice was totally different: higher, more relaxed, almost unrecognizable. His whole body language had shifted too; his movements were less like a performance now, more real, more like he was just tired instead of basking in glory. The girl stretched her arms behind her head, loosening up with this super chill move.
"If it helps, you're a really good actor. Almost had me going. Especially that wink, it almost made you look 'manly.'"
"Ughhh… you're so mean. You shouldn't treat your 'boyfriend' like that."
"Yeah, right," she shot back, amused, a little blush creeping in that she didn't seem to mind. "I'll just tell your actual boyfriend."
Ranma made a face instantly. "I told you, there's nothing going on with Kuno. He's a creep who wants to date me and some other girl at the same time. Using girls as a cover? I hate that."
"What about Ryoga?"
"Ew. He's like a brother to me."
"Thanks for the vote of confidence."
The voice came from right behind them, flat and dry, no introduction needed. Ryoga shuffled up with his hands in his pockets, wearing his usual annoyed expression. "I'd have to be crazy to get with this one," he added. "She's used, goods."
Ranma and Akane answered at the exact same time, with that synced-up thing you only get from pure habit: "We told you you're gross, Ryoga."
He just shrugged like it was no big deal. Right then, a girl came up behind Akane and casually wrapped her arms around her waist, like it was the most basic greeting ever.
"Hey, beautiful."
Akane turned immediately, relaxing when she saw who it was. "Hey, Yuka. What's up?"
No verbal answer. Yuka just kissed her, calm and confident, no rush, no need to hide. It was intense enough that Ranma quickly looked away, uncomfortable more out of reflex than actual embarrassment. Ryoga let out this long, dramatic, totally put-upon sigh.
"Yeah, yeah, we get it, you two are madly in love. Can you maybe do that in a room?"
Yuka just stuck her tongue out at him without really pulling away, then laughed and grabbed Akane's hand, tugging her along as they walked off. Ranma and Ryoga were left behind, watching them disappear down the hall, wrapped in that silence that always follows a carefully rehearsed show.
"Why don't you ever say anything?"
The question just hung there between them, like a rock nobody wanted to pick up. Ranma kept walking for a few steps before answering, in that same soft voice he used when he had to pretend to be calm, though now it had lost that light, easy vibe from a few minutes ago. "It's not my place, Ryoga."
"She's your girlfriend!"
"No. She's not."
The answer came out too fast, too sharp, like it had been pushed out of a place that had been full for a while. His eyes got all watery, which totally clashed with the way his lip was trembling and his breathing was all messed up, like he was trying really hard to hide it. Ranma stared straight ahead, dodging any eye contact, like just meeting someone's gaze would make him completely fall apart.
"She's Yuka's girlfriend, or Sakura's, or Yae's… or whoever's girl of the moment." He paused just long enough to swallow something he really didn't want to say out loud. "I'll tell you what I am: a beard. Because I'm bi, because I'm not how a 'guy should be,' everyone who's supposed to know thinks I'm just…"
Ryoga didn't answer right away. He just walked next to him, hands in his pockets, kinda staring at the ground. Finally he let out this long sigh, the kind that carries way more exhaustion than judgment. "Dude, I think you should just come out already."
Ranma turned his head just enough for his look to be a total warning. "Let me remind you of one name: Gosunkugi."
The silence that followed hit instantly. Ryoga sighed again, but this time with way less attitude, just accepting the memory hit. That guy's story was like this shared scar they both carried: a reminder of what can happen when someone decides to be visible in the wrong place, at the wrong time. It was also why Akane and Ranma worked as each other's cover, this convenient fake relationship that protected both of them from an environment way too ready to judge.
"Okay, fine," he finally said. "You heading to your mom's or we got time to walk around?"
It took Ranma a second to pull himself together. Then he flashed this huge, almost over-the-top smile, the kind you build with effort instead of actual feeling. "Let's walk. Wanna hit the bookstore."
Ryoga raised an eyebrow, immediately looking smug. "Gonna pick up the latest volume of The MILF's Tale?"
The look Ranma shot him left zero doubt about where that idea came from. "Ryoga."
"Yeah?"
"You're a creep, just like every other guy."
Ryoga grinned, totally pleased with himself. "But I'm your creep, sis."
"You're an idiot. That's what you are."
"Aww, how sweet, girl!"
Ranma lifted his hand like he was gonna smack him, but let it drop before following through. Not worth it. They kept walking.
The bookstore was like any other: that same smell of old paper mixed with new plastic, the same shelves crammed with the same titles over and over, the same clerk with her permanent resting grumpy face behind the counter. A few otaku were lurking around in silence, flipping through manga with this almost religious focus. It was a predictable place, comforting in its total monotony. Ranma usually went for technical manuals, buying novels, checking the sports almanac for college options or new dojos popping up in tournaments, and sometimes browsing the new releases section. He almost never paid attention to manga or light novels; it wasn't that he didn't like them, but a lot of the ones Ryoga shared were… uncomfortable. Too close to fantasies he didn't really want to examine too closely.
So it was weird when his eyes landed on this one specific spine. He saw his name.
That alone was enough to make him turn his head for a better look, pulled by this almost automatic curiosity, the kind of random coincidence that usually gets a quick smile. Sharing a name with a character wasn't a big deal. But when he clearly read Saotome Ranma, Tendo Akane, the sisters' names, Tendo Soun, and his absent dad's name, the coincidence stopped being funny. It got creepy. His body reacted before his brain could even come up with an explanation. He grabbed the volumes off the shelf. Held them. Took them to the counter and bought them.
The weirdest part wasn't even the manga itself. It was Ryoga's silence. Last time Ranma had bought a manga—one by Fumi Yoshinaga—the guy hadn't shut up the whole walk home, making snide comments with this twisted grin about how he was maybe "joining the dark side." Now he said nothing. Not one jab. Not one question. He just walked next to him with this unusual focus, like he'd decided to watch instead of interrupt.
They were almost back to the dojo when Ryoga finally broke the silence. "What do you need all those notebooks for?"
Ranma stopped and looked at him, genuinely confused. "Notebooks?"
Ryoga snatched the bag without asking. Opened it. What they both saw inside weren't mangas, but notebooks of different sizes, some hardcover, some plain, all brand new. Ranma blinked a few times, like that would somehow change the contents. "Huh? Did I…?"
It took him a few seconds to react. Then he just shrugged, forcing this casual vibe that didn't quite fit. "Guess I wanna try writing for a bit."
Ryoga watched him for another few seconds, like he was trying to find a crack in that explanation, but finally handed the bag back without comment. Ranma, for his part, just blamed it on being low on iron and vitamin D. It was a lame excuse, but it worked. Sometimes bodies do weird stuff when you don't take care of them enough. No reason to dig deeper.
So he kept going with his daily routine, all calm and almost mechanical. Had to take care of the dojo, help his mom with samples, make sure everything was in order, handle cleaning: wipe down the mats, air out the tatami, make sure everything was ready for the next day. The tasks just kept coming, one after another, predictable, tangible. A world of concrete actions that didn't ask any questions. A temporary shelter from that nagging feeling that something, somewhere between the bookstore and his memory, just didn't quite fit.
At lunch he was sitting across from his mom. Steam from the rice rose in soft threads, and the sound of chopsticks against ceramic marked this domestic rhythm, calming, almost hypnotic.
"You okay, sweetie?”
To his mom, her son was the perfect picture of obedience and good behavior. He'd always been that way: chill, polite, consistent. Normally he'd chat about little things throughout the day, tiny details that didn't really matter but were full of affection—how his best friend was a total headache, how Akane had stepped up her guard game, how training went well. Always ready for a pat on the head, a simple compliment, and that smile she saved just for him. But today wasn't like that.
Ranma looked confused. Not like a surface-level kinda uneasy; there was something heavier in his face, this quiet fear that hadn't quite taken shape yet. He looked like a kid who'd seen something impossible and still didn't know how to put it into words. He looked up from his bowl and stared at her with this intensity that made her swallow hard before she could hold his gaze.
"Mom? What kind of person do you think I am?"
The question hung in the air like a rope pulled way too tight.
"What's bringing this on, honey?"
Ranma dropped his gaze almost instantly. "Nothing… never mind."
Silence settled over the table. Not awkward in an obvious way; it was more like a heavy silence, stuffed with thoughts that couldn't find a way out. When they finished eating, they both got up at almost the same time and started getting tomorrow's lunch ready. The movement of their hands, chopping veggies, the sound of running water… everything happened in complete quiet.
His mom kept watching her son out of the corner of her eye, like she could solve some mystery just by looking hard enough. There was this nagging feeling in her heart that something was shifting beneath the surface, something she didn't know how to name or protect him from. Tomorrow they'd have the whole day together; they'd teach their iaido class like always, share the dojo, that safe space they'd both built so patiently. Maybe then she'd find the right moment to ask again.
Ranma, meanwhile, went up to his room with his mind totally stuck on repeat.
What the hell was that?
The question just kept looping with no answer. The silence of his room offered zero comfort. The bag with his sports almanac and the "notebooks" was still in the corner, right where he'd left it. Just sitting there like this mute proof that something didn't add up. For a long moment he just stood there, staring at it, like touching it would confirm something irreversible. Finally he got up, walked over, and grabbed it. Before opening it he took a deep breath, filling his lungs with this almost ceremonial slowness. But instead of the notebooks he'd seen with Ryoga, these looked like mangas that had caught his attention—mangas of Ranma ½.
The cover showed a martial artist named Saotome Ranma. The name was the same, the face… not exactly. There were obvious similarities, but also differences that were hard to ignore. The guy in the manga was more cartoony, more over-the-top, like he'd been simplified to fit inside lines of ink. Still, the recognition was instant and totally unsettling.
The differences were huge and barely there at the same time. They were both martial artists. They both had a friend named Akane and a friend named Ryoga. Tatewaki was still a blind, rude creep. Everyone he knew showed up as drawings with similar behaviors, but less… real. Lighter. Simpler. Like someone had taken their lives and boiled them down to a comedy of repeated gags. The further he got into the story, the more uncomfortable he felt.
The romance between Akane and that Ranma was awkward, stupid, weirdly cute. So obvious it was almost ridiculous. And yet it gave him this twinge of jealousy he couldn't quite place. Ryoga, in those pages, couldn't see him. He wondered if Akane could. If some version of her actually saw him.
He slowly closed one of the volumes. The room felt quieter than before. More closed in. He decided sleeping was the best move. Maybe tomorrow he could ask Akane something indirect, test the waters without revealing too much.
Akane.
Both Akanes were cute, obviously. The real Akane had even shorter hair, a pixie cut that showed off the delicate shape of her neck. Her sweet eyes, somewhere between hazel and mahogany, always seemed about to say something she never quite got out. She was super into fashion, almost as much as she was into martial arts. She loved stuffed animals and little dogs, a detail that totally clashed with the image she projected to the outside world. To most people, she was this perfect girl; to the people who knew her at the dojo, she was a total badass fighter. To the people who were actually close to her… she was just complex. Cute and clumsy. Human.
The kind of person who made his heart do that quiet flip, that constant reminder that his heart didn't know how to follow simple categories. A bisexual heart that beat just as hard for tenderness and strength, for softness and edge. A heart that, no matter how much he tried to ignore it, kept finding Akane as this point of gravity he couldn't quite escape.
—|—
That day Ranma imagined another life with his dad. One where they'd traveled through China without interruptions, without abandonments or half-assed returns. He saw himself crossing mountains wrapped in mist, temples perched on cliffs, monasteries where the air smelled like incense and damp wood. Martial arts academies hidden in narrow valleys, stone courtyards where students trained until sunrise erased their shadows. In that life he could shoot energy blasts from his hands, leap impossible distances, shatter rocks with a single precise move. He had supernatural abilities that didn't seem absurd, just inevitable. Natural, even. As his eyes closed, that alternative existence became sharper than his own, like he was remembering it instead of just imagining it.
"Hey, boy. Wake up! You've got a lot to learn today, starting with some warm-ups."
The voice arrived before the world did. When he opened his eyes, the sky was that light gray that didn't belong to his room. The air was cold, dry. In front of him, a tall figure, huge.
His... dad?
Ranma remembered his dad clearly: those big hands, that broad back, his solid frame stuffed into those chiropractor uniforms that always looked too tight for someone who could never sit still. A hard guy to forget, especially because of all the times he'd just check out on the family, disappear with some vague promises, and come back with that same carefree grin. Until one day he just didn't come back. That easygoing attitude made him both loved and hated in equal measure. He'd also had these expectations for Ranma that the kid could never quite meet, expectations that were never fully said out loud but were always just there. But the guy in front of him didn't feel like a memory; he felt solid. Real.
There was no time for questions. The guy launched himself straight at Ranma, a roundhouse kick right to the face, fast and clean. For a split second, he didn't know what was more terrifying: that his dad would attack his own kid without warning, or that his body reacted with a speed he'd never experienced before. He moved before thinking, deflected the impact, and rolled to the side. The kick kept going and slammed into the ground with brutal force, leaving a crater in the earth and splitting a nearby rock into pieces.
Both things were totally supernatural. And yet, the reflexes that had saved him felt natural. Amazing, even. Any move he'd ever made in any sport in his real life was clumsy compared to this. The world seemed to respond perfectly to every movement, like his body knew things his mind hadn't caught up to yet.
The guy's strikes got faster. Stronger. More precise. Each attack cut through the air with this sharp, unnatural sound. There didn't seem to be any limits. Ranma responded without thinking—dodging, blocking, countering with a flow that wasn't quite his own. It was terrifying. It was thrilling.
"Come on, old man, you're getting rusty."
The words were out of his mouth before he could stop them. The attitude shocked him almost as much as how easily he'd dodged that shot to the torso. Where did that come from? He'd never talk to his dad like that, not even in his most bitter fantasies. Not even if he thought the old man was a total jerk.
The man smiled, this huge, proud grin. "You're definitely my son. I'm proud of how much you've progressed."
The compliment hit harder than any kick. His face flushed immediately, this automatic, childish reaction. That distraction was all it took. The second his focus wavered, the guy found an opening and threw him to the ground with a clean, precise hold.
"Hey, that's cheating, old man!"
"Anything goes, boy. Weakness doesn't always come from the things that hurt us; sometimes it comes from the things that make us vulnerable and happy. Be wary of those who only flatter you."
The words hung in the cold morning air. Ranma felt this weird echo in his chest, like it made sense on some level he couldn't quite articulate. Why did what he said actually make sense? Why did it sound like a lesson he'd always wanted to hear from his dad at some point? The guy let out this deep, satisfied laugh.
"Alright, kiddo. Make breakfast. We've got a lot to do."
If the fight had been automatic, what came next was even more so. His body moved with an efficiency that needed no instructions. He walked into the nearby vegetation, gathered insects, roots, plants he didn't recognize and yet somehow knew were edible or dangerous. He didn't hesitate. Didn't need to think. It was like someone else's memories were guiding his every move.
When he got back to camp—because that's what it was, a makeshift camp in the middle of some mountain landscape—he dropped the ingredients on a flat surface. From a huge backpack, he pulled out a thick book and a worn journal. The book had detailed illustrations of plants and insects, notes in Chinese about toxicity, preparation, and medicinal properties. The journal, on the other hand, was full of rough sketches and personal notes, quick observations written in messy handwriting.
Ranma flipped through both like they were familiar. He compared what he'd gathered to the illustrations, confirmed details, tossed out anything questionable. Then he lit a small fire and started cooking with steady, confident movements. The noodles he used looked like they'd been sun-dried during the trip, from some uncertain origin. Still, the end result smelled warm, nutritious, weirdly comforting. As the water boiled and steam rose in soft spirals, his feelings kept swinging between how little sense any of this made and what was supposed to be his life… his real life.
His dad seemed busy with other stuff, reading and plotting out some route. After a few moments, the guy put the map away with the casualness of someone who'd folded it hundreds of times and pointed at the mountain range drawn in ink with this calm certainty that seemed unshakeable. The camp smelled like faint smoke and damp earth; water boiled in a blackened pot and steam rose slowly, the whole scene almost… solemn.
"Kiddo, we're heading to Qinghai, and after that, we're going back to Japan."
The words hung there with this weird finality, like going back was some ancient certainty, repeated so many times it didn't even need to be a promise anymore. Ranma held his chopsticks without realizing he'd stopped eating. There was something in the way his dad said it, the ease with which he included that "we're going back," that squeezed his chest with this soft, persistent pressure. He watched the profile of the man who smiled with excitement, blowing on his soup while mentally running through routes and supplies, like planning a future together was the most natural thing in the world.
—|—
"What… was that?"
Ranma's eyes snapped open with a short gasp. His bedroom ceiling greeted him in silence—white, still, way too clean after the living texture of that dream. It took him a few seconds to figure out why his pillow was wet. When he touched his face, his fingers found the cold trail of tears that had kept falling even after he woke up. He didn't make a sound; he just sat there, back slightly hunched, like he was still waiting to hear the crackle of firewood or his dad's voice calling him from the other side of the fire.
The room offered none of that. Just the desk with the mangas scattered everywhere, his phone next to them, and morning light filtering through the window. Ranma dropped his feet to the floor and leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees while staring at the open volumes like they were the remains of some ritual someone had interrupted halfway through.
He picked one up.
The paper crackled with that familiar sound that had always felt comfortable to him, almost domestic. He flipped through pages slowly, letting the panels parade in front of his eyes while something in his chest kept tightening with every scene. That other Ranma ran, jumped, ate whatever he found along the way; he survived with an ease that seemed totally natural. There were scars, hits, constant absurdity, but there was also continuity. A thread connecting each day to the next.
A heavy hand on the protagonist's head in one panel made him stop. Genma was laughing, huge, satisfied. The gesture was clumsy, invasive even, but it was filled with a familiarity that didn't need explanation. Ranma kept staring at that frame longer than necessary. His fingers tensed slightly on the page's edge, leaving a faint crease in the paper. There was something in that drawn laugh he couldn't shake: the ease with which that man occupied the space next to his son, the way the closeness felt inevitable.
He turned the page more roughly than he meant to.
Akane appeared in the next scene, caught mid-gesture of irritation, hair in motion, that energy of hers vibrating even in ink. Ranma felt his breath hitch slightly before he even registered it. The female version of the protagonist was right there next to her, sharing the frame with a naturalness that didn't ask permission. They leaned toward each other in the middle of their argument, occupying the same space with the confidence of people who've repeated that proximity so many times they don't question it anymore.
Ranma's thumb moved down to the edge of the panel and stayed there, still, tracing the line of a drawn shoulder with an attention that felt almost involuntary. There was a comfort in that closeness that felt foreign to him and, at the same time, painfully recognizable. He watched their posture, the way both bodies oriented toward each other without effort. Something in his stomach clenched, a brief, sharp sensation that didn't quite become a clear thought. It just stayed there, persistent.
He slammed the manga shut. The sharp sound echoed in the room and faded without an echo. Ranma kept the volume resting on his knees, staring at the cover without really seeing it. His distorted reflection peered back from the shiny lamination, fractured in curves of light that shifted every time he breathed. He looked away toward the desk and set the volume down with a care he didn't remember deciding on.
His phone was right there. He grabbed it almost by reflex, unlocked the screen, and typed the title with short, precise movements, like the simple act of typing could organize something inside his chest:
"Ranma ½”
…
—|—
When he finally got the chance to go downstairs for breakfast, the house was already awake. The sweet smell hit him from the kitchen before he could see anything—a warm, spiced aroma that didn't belong to regular weekends. To his surprise, the food was already made even though it was his turn. Saturday and Sunday breakfasts were usually simple, almost ritual: some light soup, rice, stir-fried veggies, and a little bit of meat. A domestic routine that repeated with the steadiness of something safe.
But this morning, his mom had made carrot pancakes, golden on the edges, soft in the middle. His favorites. On the side sat vegetable and salmon onigiri, carefully wrapped, like each one had been placed on the plate after thinking twice about it.
"Are we celebrating something?"
His mom looked up from the stove and smiled at him with a calm that didn't quite reach her eyes.
"Just… thought you needed it."
A bowl of miso soup was slowly spinning in the microwave. The electric hum filled the seconds between them as Ranma sat down. He watched his mom in silence, the way she arranged the plates, the almost ceremonial precision of her movements. Even if that dream was real, even if there was something incomprehensible seeping into his life, he wouldn't trade this woman for anything.
"Thanks."
The blush hit his face before he could stop it. His cheeks warmed up fast, and he looked down at his plate, focusing on the steam rising from the pancakes. The first bite left a warm feeling on his tongue, familiar, comforting. For a few seconds he ate without thinking about anything else, holding onto that moment of normalcy like it was fragile.
He took a deep breath before speaking again.
"I was thinking about Dad."
His mom's porcelain spoon stopped in mid-air. It didn't drop, didn't clink against the plate. It just hung there for a moment before lowering slowly. His mother's gaze darkened, barely noticeable, and her teeth pressed into her lower lip with a restrained gesture. Ranma fidgeted with the fork between his fingers, crumbling his pancake without realizing it.
"I think I'm old enough to know what happened."
He scratched the back of his neck awkwardly, like the words had come out too direct once he'd said them. The soft sound of the soup spinning in the microwave marked the time it took for his mom to answer. When she spoke, her voice was low, steady, with that gentle firmness she used at the dojo when teaching someone to hold a stance.
"Your father loved you, he loves you as much as someone like him can love… unfortunately, his way of loving was full of judgment and prejudice. Expectations he couldn't… that couldn't be true, and violence was such a dark part of him that he had to get rid of it to be by your side… sadly… the violence consumed him. But he… loved you, as much as someone like him can love."
She repeated that last sentence with a strange cadence, like it was a memorized fragment that had to stay intact so she wouldn't fall apart. Her eyes dropped to the surface of her soup. The steam covered her face for a moment. She picked up her spoon and kept eating with small, methodical movements.
Silence settled over the table again, heavier than before. Ranma watched the way his mom held the spoon, the slight stiffness in her fingers, how she avoided looking directly at him. There was something ancient in that stillness, a memory that seemed to live under the house's skin.
After a few moments, she spoke again.
"His way of being violent kept him from seeing what was dangerous for you… it had kept me from seeing it. When I realized and we talked about it, he… left… he couldn't accept…"
The sentence hung there. Ranma looked up slowly. His voice came out lower than he expected.
"That I wasn't a normal man?"
The question floated between them, heavy, inevitable. His mom raised her eyes to him. In her gaze there was exhaustion, but also a steady clarity, almost serene.
"He couldn't accept that he wasn't a normal man"
Her fingers tightened around the spoon. She set it down in the bowl without a sound. For a moment, it seemed like she was going to say something else, but the memory came first. It reflected in her pupils with a sharpness that made her blink. "He made me fear for your safety," the woman thought before remembering.that scene—her with the family katana, eyes bloodshot, and a disappointed man, because by his standards, he hadn't raised a son who gotta be a man at all.