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Tim Bradford hated the watch commander’s chair. It wasn’t the responsibility—he could handle that. It was the way it put him right in the middle of everything. Every problem, every decision, every conversation he didn’t want to have but had to anyway.
Grey was out for the afternoon, which meant Tim was filling in—clipboard on the desk. Coffee going cold. Radio murmuring low.
The front doors slid open. Tim looked up automatically—and his stomach dropped.
Chris Sanford.
He looked… cheerful. Nervous in that eager, slightly-too-earnest way that always made Tim grind his teeth. Chris walked toward the desk like he belonged there, like he wasn’t walking straight into the worst possible conversation Tim could imagine.
“Hey,” Chris said brightly. “Is Lucy around?”
Tim’s expression didn’t change. He was very good at that.
“She’s on patrol,” Tim replied evenly. “What can I help you with?”
Chris glanced around, lowering his voice like he was sharing a secret. “Oh—uh—nothing official. I just figured I’d stop by since I was in the area.”
Tim nodded, already knowing this wasn’t true. Chris shifted on his feet, hands in his jacket pockets. “So… I was hoping to get your opinion on something.”
Tim felt it before Chris even finished the sentence—a tightness in his chest. A warning bell, “My opinion,” Tim repeated carefully.
“Yeah,” Chris said, smiling. “You know Lucy really well. Better than most people. And I know you’d be honest.”
Tim’s jaw flexed once.
Chris pulled out his phone and unlocked it, scrolling. “I’m thinking about engagement rings.”
There it was.
The room didn’t spin. Tim didn’t flinch. He didn’t react at all—at least on the outside. On the inside, something sharp and heavy settled behind his ribs.
Chris smiled ear to ear, turned the phone so Tim could see. Several images filled the screen. Every ring is loud. Permanent. Performative. Nothing about who she actually is.
There’s the first one: a giant princess-cut diamond, so oversized it looks top-heavy, perched on a thin, delicate band like it might snap under its own ego. The next, a square-on-square nightmare—a cushion-cut diamond set inside a thick square bezel, then mounted on a squared-off band. Every edge is harsh. Industrial. It looks less like an engagement ring and more like something you’d get for surviving a corporate merger. The last is a custom ring, apparently. Thick band. Heavy setting. The diamond is decent, but the metal overwhelms it—too much presence, too much control. It would catch on to everything. It would be felt constantly.
Like a reminder.
“For Lucy,” Chris continued, almost worshipful. “I want it to be perfect. And I know you know her taste—what she likes, what she wouldn’t.”
Tim stared at the phone.
Lucy’s hands flashed through his mind—small, strong, steady. The way she gestured when she talked. The way she fidgeted when she was nervous. The way she wore simple jewelry was understated and meaningful.
“She doesn’t like anything too flashy,” Tim said after a beat, voice level, “Clean lines. Nothing that’ll get in the way at work.”
Chris nodded eagerly, “Yeah, that sounds like her.”
Tim nodded too, because that was the role he was playing. “She prefers white gold or platinum,” Tim added, because of course he knew that. Because Lucy had mentioned it once, offhand, years ago. “Something she’ll wear…forever.”
Chris’s smile widened again, “I knew you’d be the right person to ask.”
Tim forced a small smile in return, "You planning to ask her soon?”
“Soon,” Chris said. Then, softer, more sincere, “I just want to make her happy.”
That sentence landed like a quiet punch.
Chris slipped his phone back into his pocket, relief all over his face. “Thanks, man. Really. I appreciate it.”
“No problem,” Tim replied automatically.
Chris hesitated, “If you see her before I do—don’t say anything, obviously.”
Tim’s smile didn’t falter. “I wouldn't dream of it.”
Chris laughed lightly, gave a friendly nod, and headed back toward the doors. Tim watched him go. Only when the doors shut did Tim finally look down. His hands were clenched around the clipboard so tightly his knuckles had gone white. He exhaled slowly, deliberately, forcing the air out of his lungs like he was defusing a bomb.
Tim laid the clipboard down and took a sip of his now-cold coffee, his gaze shifted to the officers as they moved around the bullpen, life continuing as if nothing had just shifted permanently inside his chest.
Lucy Chen was going to get engaged.
Tim put the brave face back on—the one he’d worn his entire career in the LAPD. He won’t say it to the world nor admit it to himself, but the day Lucy marries Chris, a part of his heart, the part that belongs to her, and the one he’s too afraid to show, will die. Loving Lucy had never been about what he wanted; it had always been about wanting her to be happy—even if it broke him to make it happen.
Tim was still at Grey’s desk when Lucy walked back into the station. He’s halfway through a stack of reports when Lucy’s voice cuts through the bullpen.
“Chris, I’ve already told you—I’m not ready for that.”
Tim doesn’t look up
He doesn’t have to.
He knows that tone. Knows the way Lucy gets when she’s trying to be reasonable while her instincts scream something else entirely.
He glances through the glass anyway.
Lucy moves to her desk, phone pressed to her ear, shoulders rigid. One hand is wrapped around her coffee cup, as if it’s the only solid thing keeping her anchored.
“Because moving in together is a big step,” she exhales sharply. “Chris, please don’t do that. I didn’t say never. I said not yet.”
Lucy’s shoulders lift as she inhales. Drops them slowly, like she’s talking herself down from a ledge.
“Because I like my space,” she says, quieter now. “Because I just got my life back the way I want it. Because—because I’m allowed to not be ready.”
She turns slightly, angling her body away from the room, voice lowering.
“I’m not afraid of commitment,” she argues. “I’m just not ready.”
Tim leans back in his chair, jaw set. He’s supposed to be neutral. Professional. Detached, but all he can see is the way Lucy’s eyes flick toward the glass—toward him—before she catches herself and looks away, like she’s too afraid to give herself an out.
“Chris,” she says, “I’m at work. We’ll talk later.”
For a moment, she just stands there, phone in her hand, staring at nothing. Then she exhales, long and shaky, and drops into her chair.
Tim pretends to read the report in front of him. Pretends he didn’t see the frustration written all over her face. Pretends he didn’t hear every word.
Lucy rubs her temples, then lets her head fall back against the chair. Her eyes close. Just for a second.
When she opens them, she catches Tim watching.
Not staring.
Watching.
He gives her a small but honest smile. Nothing official. Nothing that crosses the line before he returns to the paperwork in front of him.
Lucy looks away first, because though unspoken, it feels dangerous. When she picks up her coffee again, her hand is shaking.
And Tim hates the watch commander’s desk a little more than he did before—because it puts him close enough to see when Lucy’s uncomfortable…
…and far enough away that he can’t do a damn thing about it.