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Harry had been fourteen the first time he met Louis Tomlinson.
He’d just moved to town a week before school started, still figuring out bus routes and which shops wouldn’t judge him for buying three chocolate bars at once.
He walked into the school courtyard that first morning with curls too big for his head and a polite little smile that made him look like prey to every bored teenager on campus.
Louis was sixteen, sprawled on top of a picnic table like he owned the place, legs crossed, voice carrying across the yard as he told some outrageous story to a group of boys. He was all sharp cheekbones and a grin that said he’d probably been in trouble since birth.
Their eyes met for half a second before Louis hopped off the table, walked right up to him, flicked one of Harry’s curls with a kind of fond familiarity he hadn’t earned yet, and announced, “Right. You’re mine now.”
Harry, who had prepared for this day by rehearsing “hello, I’m new,” over and over to himself in the mirror, blinked at him with wide, green eyes and breathed, “Okay.”
And that was genuinely all it took. From that moment, they were a matched set.
Louis pulled Harry under his wing like it was instinct. Within a week, Harry was folded into the older boys Louis hung around with, Zayn, Oli, and Ed, and the ones in his own year, Niall and Liam.
A group dynamic formed instantly.
When Harry met Niall at lunch, he sat with a cheese sandwich and that timid little smile he did when he felt out of place. Niall took one look, gasped dramatically, and plopped down beside him like he’d found a stray kitten. “Jesus Christ, lad,” he said, already unpacking his lunchbox, “you look underfed. Here, have half me roll.”
And he meant half, too. Not the crust. Not a nibble. A full, clean fifty percent of his chicken mayo roll, split down the centre like a sacred offering.
From that moment, Niall became his emotional support golden retriever, loud, sunny, and physically incapable of letting Harry walk anywhere alone.
He dragged Harry to the bus, to the canteen, to football matches he didn’t even enjoy. He once cried laughing when Harry tripped over a cone at PE but hugged him straight after because he “felt bad for laughing.” He treated Harry like a baby brother, fiercely and wholeheartedly.
Niall was also the first to say out loud: “You two are basically married.” While pointing very unsubtly between Harry and Louis.
Zayn was the opposite, cool, quiet and unbothered by everything, except injustice and ugly shoes.
For the first week, he barely acknowledged Harry beyond a nod, so Harry naturally assumed he didn’t like him. Then one afternoon, a Year 10 muttered “the curly one’s a bit girly” under his breath while passing.
Before Harry could even process it, Zayn’s chair screeched backward as he stood up, eyebrows raised, mouth set, already taking off his hoodie like he was clocking into work. “Say that again,” he said calmly, which was somehow infinitely more terrifying.
The Year 10 fled and Zayn sat back down, shrugged, looked at Harry, and said. “People are so dumb.”
From that day on, Zayn became Harry’s unspoken bodyguard. If anyone upset him, Zayn appeared out of nowhere. If Harry was quiet, Zayn would nudge him gently for answers.
He was soft for Harry in the way only Zayn could be, secretly and violently.
Liam slid into Harry’s life like a concerned dad who was only sixteen years old. He saw Harry’s biology homework once and immediately appointed himself as his academic supervisor.
“Mate,” he said on day three, leaning over Harry’s shoulder like a strict tutor, “commas exist for a reason.”
Harry hadn’t asked for help, but he got it anyway. Entire rewritten paragraphs, sticky notes and full colour-coded study plans.
He got attached surprisingly fast, to Harry’s earnestness, his gentle humour, the way he teased Liam for his “walking rulebook energy.”
Liam always protested he wasn’t that bad, while handing Harry a laminated timetable of his classes.
He kept Harry grounded, made sure he ate, drank water and didn’t panic over assignments. He became the reliable big brother, the one who held the group together.
And he was endlessly patient with Harry. Especially when Louis wasn’t.
Oli was chaos in a hoodie. He took one look at Harry… sweet, polite Harry, and saw a blank canvas.
By day two he was teaching Harry absolute filth, the kind of phrases Louis banned from being repeated in public. Harry didn’t even understand half of them, which only made it worse, because he used them anyway, like a well-meaning granddad trying to sound modern.
Oli nearly died laughing and Louis nearly murdered Oli.
There was an actual group meeting about it, where Oli was officially banned from teaching Harry new slang, speaking to Harry unsupervised and looking at Harry with the “I’m about to corrupt him” face.
Oli broke all three rules regularly. But he was also the first to take Harry under his wing at parties, make sure he didn’t drink too much and guide him away from creepy older kids.
He was a menace, but a protective one. And he adored Harry. He just showed it by ruining him linguistically.
Ed was the eccentric redhead who saw everything as inspiration.
Every hangout, every stupid moment, every inside joke, all of it went into a notebook or a voice memo. Harry would trip on a pavement crack and Ed would hum, “Mm, that’s a bridge in a future chorus.”
He’d sit on Louis’s living room floor with his guitar while the boys played FIFA and narrate their antics in song. Harry prayed every melody stayed private because Ed had an alarming talent for capturing things like: “Harry drank a whole milkshake in one go and now he’s farting.”
Ed also had a softness that balanced the group.
He saw Harry’s sensitivity and treated it gently, asking “you good?” in a quiet way, writing him birthday songs, giving him little poems on scraps of paper. He was the sentimental glue of the friend group.
And through all of it, Louis was basically fused to Harry’s side. Where Harry went, Louis followed. Where Louis led, Harry trailed behind like his shadow.
He draped himself over Harry’s shoulders, tugged him down hallways, ruffled his curls, stole his snacks, defended him without thinking and shared beds with him like it was the easiest thing in the world.
He made Harry feel safe and Harry made Louis feel needed.
There was no jealousy, no tension, no disaster brewing, just two boys growing up side by side, orbiting so close they didn’t notice they were one small shift away from collision.
•
In Year 10, on one of those late spring afternoons when school felt like background noise and life was mostly made of sun, grass and boys shouting over football matches, Louis had dragged Harry out to the back field after the bell, claiming the weather was too good to waste inside revising, and Harry, weak, pathetic and loyal, followed him without argument.
Louis was in that navy jumper he’d had for years, the one frayed at the cuffs. Harry secretly loved it because it smelled like Louis’s house.
They lay on the grass with their backpacks as pillows. Louis was talking about something ridiculous, Niall getting stuck in a bush or Zayn nearly punching someone for calling his art “cute” and Harry was laughing, full and easy, the kind of laugh that left him breathless.
Then Louis turned his head and looked at him, sunlight catching his eyes, all blue and bright and stupidly beautiful. He had a smear of grass on his cheekbone, fringe stuck to his forehead from heat, and was smiling like Harry was the only person left in the world.
Something in Harry’s chest just shifted. It was so small it could’ve been nothing, a flutter, a flip, a soft ache blooming under his ribs.
He stopped laughing without meaning to and Louis’s smile softened, like he’d noticed something change. “You alright, H?” Quiet, familiar and caring in that effortless Louis way.
Harry swallowed. “Yeah, just… thinking.”
“Dangerous concept, that.” Louis teased, nudging their shoulders together.
The touch was small, nothing they hadn’t done a thousand times, but Harry felt it everywhere. His heartbeat stuttered, then raced, then tried to climb into his throat like a traitor.
He realised, in that terrifying, slow-motion way, that he wanted to stay here like this forever. Just them, the world quiet and golden. And suddenly that was a huge problem.
Because boys weren’t supposed to feel like this about their best mates, and Louis definitely didn’t feel like that back. Probably. Maybe. Harry wasn’t really sure.
Sometimes, actually… Louis looked at him in a way that made the entire world stall, like Harry was the only thing in the room worth seeing. Those moments were fleeting, but they carved themselves into Harry’s ribs and refused to leave, and over the years, a list formed in Harry’s head, reasons, hints, accidental gestures, the soft evidence that Louis might feel something more.
Harry never admitted it aloud, but the list lived there, tight and secret. So he shoved it all down, hard, where thoughts went to die. He forced a grin, “Think I’m just tired.”
Louis hummed. “You wanna walk home with me?”
Walk home with me. So normal and yet, so devastating, but Harry nodded, hoping his face wasn’t red.
•
Harry’s eighteenth birthday should’ve felt exciting. A milestone. Adulthood and all that bollocks.
Instead, he was sitting cross-legged on his bedroom floor at nearly midnight, picking at a loose thread on his jeans while Louis lay sprawled across his bed like he owned the place.
Music played quietly from Harry’s speaker, something soft, something Louis chose because Harry “had shit taste.”
Harry huffed, cheeks pink. “Everyone else has done stuff, like proper stuff. And I’m here turning eighteen without even having my first kiss.”
Louis looked over from where he was tossing a stress ball up and down. He had that little smirk, the one that said he found Harry adorable even when he was spiralling. “You’re acting like being unkissed is a crime,” Louis drawled.
Harry groaned, flopping backward dramatically. “It’s fucking embarrassing.”
“No it’s not.”
“Yes, it is.”
Louis rolled his eyes and sat up, stretching his legs out so his socks brushed against Harry’s thigh. “Harry, for fuck’s sake. Half the lads in our year probably kiss like washing machines anyway. You’re not missing much.”
“That’s not comforting.”
Louis snorted, shoved the stress ball at him, then paused. Harry didn’t notice at first, as he was too busy sulking. But Louis had gone still, head tipped slightly, eyes flicking over Harry with something unreadable.
Then he shifted off the bed and sat down in front of Harry, close enough that their knees touched, “H,” he said, voice lower now, almost patient, “Look at me.”
Harry lifted his head. He barely had time to breathe before Louis leaned in, one hand sliding up to cradle Harry’s jaw, thumb brushing the corner of his mouth like it was instinct.
Harry froze, “Lou?”
Then Louis kissed him, and not just a peck either. It was a slow, warm press of lips. Gentle, sure, but absolutely a kiss. Firm and intentional.
Louis tilted his head the slightest bit, lips moving once, soft and careful, like giving Harry something he’d wanted without him having to ask.
Harry’s entire body lit up, he felt it in every limb, every nerve. His heart punched against his ribs so hard he thought Louis would feel it through his palm. Then Louis pulled back, thumb still stroking Harry’s cheek for a heartbeat longer than necessary.
He smiled, that stupid, dazzling, sunshine smile that always ruined Harry. “There you go,” he murmured. “Tick that off your list.”
Harry just stared at him, breath uneven, eyes wide, lips tingling like they’d been set on fire and Louis laughed softly, totally oblivious. “Don’t look so shocked. It’s just a kiss.”
But it wasn’t, not for Harry. It was everything.
He swallowed hard, nodding even though his world had tilted on its axis. “Yeah, just a kiss.” he whispered. “Thanks.”
Louis didn’t notice the crack in his voice. Or the way Harry watched him for the rest of the night like he’d been given a glimpse of something he wasn’t supposed to see.
Harry went to bed hours later with his fingers pressed to his lips, feeling the ghost of Louis there long after he’d gone.
He never forgot the kiss. Louis on the other hand acted like he had donated Harry a kidney and moved on.
For the first week, Harry lived in a blurry haze of maybe he meant something and I’m going to spontaneously combust. After that, he shoved it into the vault marked never speak of this or you’ll die and pretended nothing was different.
But everything was different. Not in a dramatic, cinematic way, just in the small ways that built up over months until Harry didn’t know where the ache ended and he began.
•
At some point, Louis got a girlfriend.
She was nice, she was pretty and she liked Harry… at first, and Harry liked her too. I mean, he wanted to like her and he really did try. But then came the first offhand comment.
They were at Nando’s one afternoon, all squeezed into a booth, when she laughed and said to Louis, “Does he have to come everywhere with us?”
Louis blinked at her, genuinely confused. “It’s Nando’s. Harry loves Nando’s.”
She rolled her eyes lightly. “Okay… but does he always have to sit right next to you?”
Harry stiffened where he sat and Louis didn’t miss it. He stared at her like he wasn’t entirely sure he’d heard correctly. “Yes?” he said, like it was obvious, like gravity or the sun rising in the morning.
She didn’t say anything after that, but the air shifted. Harry felt it, subtle but sharp, the judgement, the dismissiveness, and Louis felt it too. His jaw locked in that tiny way Harry had learned to recognise.
She didn’t last the week.
When Niall asked Louis why they had broken up, Louis just shrugged as if the answer were self-explanatory, “She was rude about Harry.”
He said it like that was all anyone needed to know. And for Louis, it absolutely was.
•
The next one lasted three whole weeks, which was a record.
She didn’t like that Harry hugged Louis when he arrived or that Louis hugged him back, or that Harry sat on the arm of Louis’s chair, or that Louis played with Harry’s curls without thinking.
She finally snapped one day after Harry leaned into Louis on the sofa to show him a TikTok.
“Why are you always touching each other?”
Harry went red instantly, jerking back. His stomach twisted, shame creeping up his throat.
Louis’s whole face changed, shutters slamming down. “You don’t get to comment on my friends,” he said coldly.
“Friends don’t sit on top of each other, Louis.” she snapped.
Louis laughed, sharp and humourless.
“You seriously think you get to police how I act with my best friend?”
She crossed her arms. “It’s weird. People talk.”
“Then tell them to stop.”
She blinked. “Would you choose him over me?”
Louis face hardened and he didn’t even hesitate. “Every time.”
When she scoffed and left the house, Harry sat frozen beside Louis, heart beating wildly, but Louis just shrugged, “Not gonna date someone who’s jealous of my best mate.”
Harry nodded, pretending he wasn’t trembling.
•
Louis brought the third girlfriend to the pub one night, and everything was fine, until Harry came back to the table after buying drinks.
She smirked and said, “Does he just follow you everywhere? He’s like your little pet.”
Louis’s jaw flexed, dangerous and sharp. Harry opened his mouth to laugh it off, but Louis spoke over him. “Don’t fucking call him that.”
“Oh relax, I’m joking.”
Louis didn’t blink. “Well don’t.”
“It’s not my fault he’s always hanging…” but Louis cut her off by pushing his chair back, then he stood, put his coat on and snapped, “We’re done.”
She sputtered, “Are you serious?!”
He nodded, utterly calm. “No one talks about my boy like that.”
Zayn choked on his beer and Harry nearly had a cardiac event, but Louis didn’t notice, he just walked Harry home like nothing happened, muttering about “disrespectful people” while Harry tried not to melt into a puddle.
•
By late that year, the group had an ongoing bet on how long each girlfriend would last.
Oli threw himself onto Louis’s sofa and pointed at him dramatically. “Two weeks. I’m calling it now. Two weeks before she accidentally insults Harry.”
Niall snorted. “Five days. She’s gonna say he’s clingy. They always do.”
Zayn didn’t even look up from his phone. “Three days. She’ll say they’re weird, and Louis will bolt for the hills.”
Liam folded his arms and sighed like a disappointed parent. “I think Louis subconsciously chooses the worst women alive so he doesn’t have to deal with his feelings.”
Louis turned, frowning. “What feelings?”
Harry immediately wished the floor would swallow him alive. “Let’s not talk about feelings.” He sank further into the carpet like he was trying to merge with it.
Oli grinned and Louis ignored them. “Seriously. What feelings?”
Zayn finally looked up. “Don’t worry about it, mate. You’ll figure it out when you’re sixty.”
Harry groaned. “Please stop talking.”
In Harry’s head, it was torture. Every breakup made it harder to deny the nagging thought:
Is Louis protecting me… or protecting something he doesn’t want to admit?
But he pushed it down, because wanting was dangerous. And assuming would destroy everything.