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Have you ever fallen in love, truly in love? Or have you fallen into a false love trap?
There's two types of love out there.
There is the pure and genuine kind, the best of the two. A love so pure that it makes you feel safe, safe from judgment, hate and neglect. The pure love, it makes you crave the being of your partner. It makes you crave such minor and quite frankly... the most odd of actions.
Pure love, the feeling of just wanting to gaze into the eyes of your lover. To feel their stare fall upon yours, to even catch a blink of their lids towards your direction. This love, it's blinded with greatness. Promises are made and they are met with the best feelings of acceptance, you fall in love with the person who shows you their true self.
No matter the flaws of your lover, they seem to compliment your abilities, their flaws aren't flaws at all. They're parts and reasons to love the other much more, you see their flaws, you bask them in. Their flaws are perfect.
The love they showed from the moment they met you, their attentiveness towards your every success, big or small, doesn't change with time. They cherish every waking moment by your side, even if it's repetitive, they tell you every moment they can.
You never doubt their love, never doubt their actions.
That's the true meaning of pure love.
Then...
There's the traps.
The promises and the greatness that is shown, but never truly fulfilled.
Promises that warm your ears, but never your heart.
They're fantasies that you chose to believe, you fall hard and fast for them for the simple fact that no one has said them before. You crumble to them and give your all, and for what?
False promises of love.
Traps so big that you drown in them, you can't find the way out. That's not love, it never will be.
The biggest trap of them all, you fall in love with who they portrayed themselves to be at the start, they make you believe that that's who they are. Someone who is loving and caring, who loves you.
Only for it to result in nothing. They trap you in this false love, they change over time. The loving acts suddenly stop, they no longer take time to be with you, they make excuses for the smallest things. You start to doubt everything.
That's not love, it never will be.
There's two types of love.
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Faint rapid tapping was heard throughout the house, squeaking of floorboards being pestered by the bed. It all seemed to creak, it all made noise, it was unmistakably uncomfortable. Panting followed soon after, groans of pleasure being heard as the tapping became more frequent.
"S-Scourge.. slow down.. a-a bit.." a soft tender voice whispered, the owner of the voice groaned uncomfortably, where their body was meant to feel pleasure and rush of lust, he felt uncomfortable. Too much discomfort to even let his cock fully erect.
"I'm almost.. there Shadow~.." the other moaned, going faster, his hands pinned the ebony one onto the bed. His hips moving back and forth rapidly, making the floorboards creak louder, the tapping of the bed post thumped against the wall more.
A small whimper was heard from the ebony hedgehog, he panted as he tried to adjust. He agreed to have sex once again, yet he thought it would be different. He wanted to have sex, he wanted to be pleasured by his boyfriend. To feel that rush of lust, a rush he craved for. Something that was promised to him, a false promise, like always.
"Oh~.. whimper like that.. I'll fill you up, real good~.." the green one didn't seem to find a problem, his thrusts became more erratic, knowing that it caused Shadow to unconsciously whimper. He continued. Harder. Faster.
The ebony one gasped at the movements again, Shadow groaned, hardly able to move, "Scourge.. g-go slow.." he pleaded, only for his pleas to be answered with a hand over his mouth. The muzzle of his boyfriend rested over his neck, panting heavily as he groaned and tightened the grip on the tan muzzle.
"I know you like this~.. you love when I do this~.." he panted, a lewd laugh leaving his lips as he felt his lust reach its peak. He shivered tenderly in pleasure, harshly bringing his hips down, ensuring his cock was buried deep into the ebony one.
Shadow huffed, whimpering once more, his sounds muffled. He shut his eyes tightly, his eyes suddenly felt a sting, he whimpered again, feeling the way his boyfriend cock twitched inside of him. He knew the green one had finished, the sounds of his harsh and erratic breathing being let out into his neck.
The aftermath seemed so rushed, the moment Scourge pulled out he began to get himself changed. Leaving Shadow on the bed, not even bothering to look in his direction. Ruby eyes glanced at him, watching as he got himself composed, he looked around for his own clothes. His muzzle turned red from embarrassment.
'Why did I let it happen again...'
He questioned himself. Something he did far too often with Scourge.
"That was great, you were great." Scourge complimented, his tone was anything but praiseful. It sounded bored, dreading every syllable that came out. He gave his body a stretch as he pulled his shirt down.
Shadow nodded, not saying a word. He slowly pulled his shirt down, covering his lower body. He felt ashamed of himself, he felt so dirty.
"Anyways, I have to go. I'll see you later." The ebony one looked up almost instantly, he looked confused and hurt, more than he already was. "What..? You said you would stay the night.." he asked softly, his tone pleading for his boyfriend to stay.
'Please, don't leave me like this...'
His answer was a dreaded sigh, "Shadow, I can't. You know I can't, I only had enough time to come see you for a bit, I can't stay." Scourge looked at the ebony one, ignoring the expression on his face, not caring for it.
"But.. you promised me. You said if we had sex you would stay the night.. I-I had things prepared for us, I made dinner, I got the movie you like.. I even got small chocolates for dessert.. please.." he begged, moving closer to the edge of the bed. He felt some pain from his back, Scourge had been too rough again. Yet the pain didn't matter, he needed to stop his boyfriend from leaving so soon.
Scourge watched, sighing heavily. "I made plans for the rest of the night, we can do this again next time, okay?" Before Shadow could protest, Scourge pulled him in for a kiss. Forcing his tongue into the ebony one's mouth, he gripped onto the black and red quills, pulling them back slightly.
Shadow had no choice but to accept the kiss, even if it was rough and not what he wanted. He was deprived of any attention, he wanted his boyfriend to pay attention to him. Yet, that seemed too much to ask for.
Scourge knew that. It was all some game for him, he only cared for what Shadow could provide him, so he was stringing him along. He grinned into the kiss once he felt Shadow place his hands on his shoulders, gently pulling him back towards the bed.
He wrapped an arm around his waist, a hand placed on the side of his tan cheek. His touch was suddenly gentle, slipping it to the back of ebony quills, tilting his head upward and continuing to passionately kiss him. His hand firmly holding his waist close, pressing his half naked body onto himself.
The green one leaned over Shadow, gently pinning him to the bed once again. He knew how to get to Shadow, he knew exactly what he had to do. He gently pulled back, leaving the ebony one panting, his face carefully snuggled between his shoulder and neck, licking softly. His tongue graced upward, trailing the saliva trail with soft kisses.
As expected, Shadow moaned. His hands holding the back of the green quills, tenderly, his moans were gentle. It was rare that he experienced the gentleness of his boyfriend, the gentleness he fell in love with, the way he felt like he was the only one for him.
He fell in love with a false promise.
Every touch on his body was gentle and tender with love, it was exactly what he was craving from his boyfriend. The rare act made him want to crave it much more, he would do anything for it to continue, he allowed more than the kisses to happen, again.
The cycle continued.
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Everyone in the office wooed at the ivory hedgehog as he opened the door to his office, inside was a rather large bouquet of beautiful red roses, two big balloons that seemed to take up all the space inside. The words 'happy 2 years anniversary' are written on them.
Amber eyes stared with shock, a dark embarrassed blush flushed his muzzle. A blush that was hard to hide, he quickly went inside and shut the door. Holding it close with the weight of his body, he groaned looking down, quickly he pulled his phone out of his pocket. A glare contorted his face, quickly pressing on the contact that had sent the embarrassing gift. A few moments and a few rings went by before it was answered with a cheerful tone of his boyfriend.
"Sonic, what did I say about sending me these embarrassing things to my work! Are you kidding me!?" He growled angrily, not letting his boyfriend answer, he continued to ramble on angrily. "Do you have any idea how embarrassed I am? Everyone in the office is 'woo-ing' as if this is some normal thing! We have been together for two years, stop embarrassing me."
Without another word they hung up on the phone, walking up to the balloons and roses. He angrily ripped the note that was over it, reading it over.
'Here's to two wonderful years with you, my love'
Silver hesitated for a moment, he looked at the roses. Shaking his head and crumbling the paper between his hands, "when will he learn.. I hate these gestures.." he mumbled, grabbing the envelope opener, without hesitating he stabbed the two balloons, he crumbled the plastic wrap of the balloons and stuffed them in the trash bin.
He grabbed one of the roses and plucked the petals carelessly, throwing them on top of the balloons. He took his phone and took a picture, sending an angry message to his boyfriend.
'Next time, I'll burn them. Stop acting like this, it's foolish.'
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He sent the message, placing his phone onto his desk. He grabbed the vase that the roses were in and moved them off, placing them over to the other side of his office. At the end was another table, filled with more roses. Small boxes of chocolates and some snacks, all things Sonic had sent through the months, bottles of non-alcoholic wine, some decorations and more roses.
It was the same issue every month. By the time the 22nd of every month arrived, his office was filled with meaningless gifts ranging from chocolates, baked goods, snacks, roses, pictures, drinks, plushies etc any type of thing that could be thought of as gifts. Silver had them all, in the corner of shame, as he called it.
He couldn't wrap his mind around how over the top Sonic was, even two years into their relationship he was still trying to keep up this overly glorified honeymoon phase. He knew that Sonic was big on giving gifts, that was the one thing that attracted him to the blue one.
Yet, as time went on. It became so repetitive, it was dreaded, it built irritation. How can his boyfriend be so giving?
Silver hardly ever did anything to deserve the gifts, or even bothered himself to give anything back. He put the bare minimum into the relationship, yet Sonic seemed to be completely in love, head over heels for the ivory one. He never understood and it seems, he never will.
To Silver, he continued with the relationship for the simple fact, it was just convenient now. He cared for Sonic, sure. He could say many times he loved the blue one, but his actions never showed it. He was highly irritable when he was with his boyfriend, he loved him. But, he questioned himself far too many times.
The love Sonic gave Silver, he couldn't ever give back. It was too much effort, effort he wasn't willing to put into it.
Once he sat back on his chair, he looked over to the arrangement of the gifts. Staring at them without a thought in mind, most of the sweets had been taken from his co-workers or the cleaners that came after everyone was done with work. He never ate any of them, even if they were of expensive tastes.
"Ugh.. Sonic, why do you make everything so difficult.." the ivory one reached for his phone at the edge of the table, unlocking it. The last message was open, the picture he had sent Sonic. He glanced at it, reading it over.
'Next time, I'll burn them. Stop acting like this, it's foolish.'
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Sonic groaned, placing his head onto the table he sat at, a frown placed over his face as he closed his eyes. "It happened again.." he whined out loud, he began to grow frustrated.
"Oh Sonic.." a soft voice spoke gently, before a gentle hand was on his head patting his quills down carefully. "You know.. there's a straight girl out there, begging to have a guy like you~" she teased, snickering as she saw the way Sonic's face contorted into a deeper frown.
"I rather chop my dick off then fuck a girl.. no offense.." he said looking up at the one patting his head, he watched how she leaned to the side letting out a burst of laughter. He chuckled a little at his own statement, her laugh becoming contagious, he snickered a bit.
"With the way you describe the things you do with it.. I think it could make for a good dildo~" she laughed harder, retracting her hand and slightly covering her mouth. Sonic couldn't help but laugh along, shaking his head "Cream, shut up.." he spoke between his laughter.
The laughter lasted for a few comfortable seconds, Sonic leaned back on the chair he sat at, letting out a sigh. Cream smiled gently, pulling a chair and sitting beside him, she gently tapped on his lap, "What's going through your head?" She spoke softly, watching her friend with a sympathetic smile.
"Maybe Silver is right.. I should just stop acting this way, ya know?" He started, taking a few seconds to think, Cream nodded, not saying anything to allow him to talk.
"Anytime I've done something big for our anniversary it's a problem, but it's the way I show him how happy I am with him.. even if at times I'm not too happy, I can't change the way I am. I've tried. It's just wrong." He leaned forward rubbing the side of his head as he groaned.
"It didn't bother him at the start, in fact he loved it, he said it was one of the reasons he fell in love with me. But now, he hates it? Does he hate me or what?" He looked over to the rabbit beside him, wanting advice or any outsider view. Cream sighed gently, taking a moment to think about what was said, with a gentle nod she began to speak.
"You know honeymoon phases disappear, right?"
"Yes, I know.. but if they fade why isn't it gone for me the way it is for Silver?"
The rabbit watched the struggle her best friend was going through, she sighed again, gently rubbing his back, once again being careful with his quills. "Sonic.. you need to have a talk with him about this, you keep avoiding it. I would love to help you, I would.. but he's your boyfriend. He's the only one that can give you a straight answer."
Sonic's gaze saddened slightly, shrugging as he looked at the table. His hands fidgeting with the edge of the table cloth, he stayed quiet for a few moments, taking a deep look at his own relationship. He knew what was wrong from the start, he always knew. Yet, he turned a blind eye, he wanted to live in the small fantasy for as long as he could.
There was no love, at least not from Silver, his relationship had turned into a routine, as most relationships do. It turned into a routine, he did things because it became scheduled, he smiled because he knew he had to be happy. But, he wasn't happy. The relationship had become convenient, and he feared.
Oh, he feared greatly that Silver knew it too. Hell, he's been showing that their relationship is just convenient for months, maybe a year. Yet, Sonic still loved and cared for the ivory one, even if it was routine. He was afraid to break the routine, afraid of the uncertainty that it brought along.
"I avoid it.. because I'm scared the answer he will give me.. is the one I already knew." He spoke softly, his finger twirling a loose strand on the table cloth.
"And what is the answer?"
"It's all over.."
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The two hedgehogs had many things in common when it came to their relationships, their lovers seemed to have zero care for them, unless it gained some interest. As amazing and wonderful as their relationships had started, it was something that turned sour far sooner than it should have.
Sonic fell in love with Silver from the moment they met, he was someone who had his eye from their first interaction, their love was fast and intense. By the end of their first date they had already slept with each other, the way Sonic viewed it, it was as if their relationship was meant to last forever. To him it didn't mean that Silver was 'easy' for having sex after their first date, it rather meant that it was a connection that brought them to it.
Whereas, Silver didn't see any of what Sonic did. He needed relief from his worries from that week, he didn't feel any sort of connection other than sexual attraction towards the blue one, the way he charmed him, it was just about that. Unexpectedly, Sonic continued to pursue him. Time and time again, Silver gave in. Purely because he enjoyed the way Sonic fucked him.
Aside from the sexual pleasures, there wasn't a lot of attraction towards who Sonic could be as a lover. His overly need to show affection, his random acts of care, gifts and any form of public display was extremely unappealing. It had become a regular argument between the two, where Silver would reprimand his boyfriend.
As for Shadows' relationship, he only wished to have more than he could get. The love that was once shared with Scourge faded within weeks of making their relationship official. Starting off as friends, Scourge had a liking to the ebony one, he made it very clear by constantly flirting with him, giving him loving attention and doing things that would interest him.
Yet, it was all done with impure intentions. For the moment they had officially started to date, his flirting stopped, he lost interest in the things that Shadow would be interested in, hardly ever spending time with him. Shadow would make plans for their dates, dinners at restaurants close by, sometimes further ones with hopes to have a weekend away, they were all canceled last minute.
The excuses that were used seemed to be the only things Shadow would hear. If the rare occasion came that they could meet, Scourge was anything but loving. Despite Shadows attempts to ignite that spark between them again, the only thing that brought it back was sleeping with him. At first it didn't bother Shadow, he found some pleasure in it, he could have his boyfriend close again, he could feel loved even if it meant for a moment or two. He settled for the little that was given, growing used to it.
But, his mind always wandered, what had changed for them to get this way?
A question that pestered the two hedgehogs, one that never seemed to have a good enough answer or explanation. The sparks of love they once felt were completely gone, replaced by a routine.
A routine that both were scared to break, each having their own reasons. Shadow would constantly hope that one day, someday, Scourge would treat him as he did at the start of their relationship. He was in love with a memory that wouldn't ever come back. He wouldn't dare to part ways with the green one, he just hoped to get the one he fell in love with back.
For Sonic, denial over his relationship was the only thing keeping him in it. He refused to let himself believe what he feared the most, he was stuck in a loveless relationship. Yet, their sex life was perfect, it only made him confused. If there was no love, how did the sex start? Due to this, Sonic refused to believe there was no interest from Silver, after all, who would sleep with someone they didn't care for?
Questions just piled up, more often than not there was no way to answer them, perhaps there never would be an answer. Yet, the moment that the two would meet, the comfort that they could provide to each other would bring them closer, it would shine a much needed light over their situations.
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End of Chapter 1, To Be Continued.
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