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"I wonder what happened that day.. I don't remember but this photo... " Cheng xiaoshi let out a sigh, it wasn't always that xiaoshi does this. Xiaoshi is a very energetic and a kind soul who can be a bit of handful sometimes.. Always upto something. But sometimes xiaoshi can be quiet after rough dives but this time.. It's not the aftermath of a heavy dive but a picture.. A picture he wants to know more about.. A picture that he took..of his mother when he was a child.
It's been so many years since xiaoshi saw his parents.. After that incident years ago.. He lost both his parents, even though he knows his mother is there somewhere.. Alive and trying to save his father he still worries.. Sometimes he have nightmares about his parents too.. Dreams like.. His parents are kn front of him, laughing with him (they look like the best family) but then they tell him to be a good boy and wait at home and then.. They just walk away.. Leaving a young xiaoshi all alone in the time photo studio. Well that's the story for some other day! What he's doing right now is wondering what happened that day.. Even though he remember that time but there is something.. Something that he just can't remember and he needs to know that or he won't be able to sleep at night.
And so xiaoshi decided he needs to dive.
But he also knows that if he asks lu guang, he won't allow xiaoshi to dive back as it would be too personal (well it def is) and he knows how emotional of a person xiaoshi is.. What if he changes something after going back? Won't that make too much drastic changes?
So xiaoshi decided that he won't tell lu guang. Lu guang can't find out about it. He would just go back and live his own life.. Who knows him better than he himself? He can control his own emotions (he can right?)
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"Alright, shouldn't be too hard" Xiaoshi looked at the photo one last time.. A picture of his mother..that he took when her mother let him hold the camera ..she was smiling in the photo.. It was such a good picture. "This is not the time to be emotional let's do it" And so with a clap xiaoshi found himself back in the past. His first instinct after going back is to look at his hands and limbs. Small.. Yes.. He's in the past so his mother should be.. "What happened xiaoshi? Are you okay? " Xiaoshi looked in the front to see the one who said that.. Of course xiaoshi already knew it. His eyes met with his mother.. So real.. She looks so real.. "You okay honey?" "A-ye-yeah I'm fine" Xiaoshi's initial words came out slightly broken even though he tried to laugh it off "xiaoshi.. Are you afraid?" "Of .. What? " Xiaoshi's heart was beating a little faster.. Did she caught on? "You don't want to be alone right? I promise mommy will come back as soon as she can ok? Just today ok? I'll bring you your favorite snacks alright?" Xiaoshi didn't even realised.. He didn't even realised how he flinched slightly.. Was she gonna leave again? He knew from his memory that she will come back of course she will but.. Trauma is not something easy to forget and xiaoshi has abandonment issues. Maybe she saw that little flinch.. "Here .. Give your mommy a hug". She didn't waited for xiaoshi to respond or even initiate the hug.. She just went and gave him a big warm hug. Xiaoshi tried to control his emotions so much but at that hug.. All his control seem to have disappeared and the next thing he noticed was that he was shedding tears.. Oh no.. That wasn't supposed to happen.. He changed the first thing.. He's such an idiot. "Shh.. Don't cry mommy promise she would come back as soon as she's done with her work". She gently wiped off the tears and gave xiaoshi a big smile that made xiaoshi smile too. " Now that's a good boy".
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