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The weather is bad today too. The clouds had completely hidden the sun, even if the weather wasn't windy, the coldness of the air was giving painful stabs to every open part of her. From judging the sorrowful scene created by clouds, it's going to rain soon. But that's not important. Not at all now.
The dusty trail that lay towards the dead end, to the ravine, was both amusing and scary for her. Although later she got used to it too, something about the ravine was almost calling. As if a sea siren alluring its prey. Standing by the side of the ravine was dangerous, but she felt nothing but giving in to it, becoming its prey, and so what? She can't do this anymore, it only got worse in the end..
-"The white nights.. you.. and me,
And the moon guiding us across Neva
That moon witnessed our hearts,
That moon reminds me of you.."
She took a step towards the edge. The slight dampness of the ground had softened the edges, she saw the crumbles of dirt rolling down from up, racing to the deep end. The scene made her feel dizzy as to how deep the ravine was, but never mind, she'll forget it soon, it all will end soon.
-"Andrei, do you think it hurts? I think it does, but I don't think I can crawl back even if it does. I.."
The sentence was stopped as she gasped, her bare feet stumbled to the damp soil, causing many crumbles to fall over the edge. She eventually stepped back immediately.
Sitting on the ground, clutching her knees out of building up frustration to failed suicide, her gaze digs deep into places that are too far from here. Still hopeful? Or was it a break from her delusions? That made her feel bad - to be out of her delusions. She got startled by the rain dripping on her arm. Then on her head, and so the rest of the places. Her eyes glanced back at the old cabin, her body got up involuntarily, walking like a zombie out of hunger, the discomfort splattered on her face out of the hard ground as being shoeless. She did the regular routine as they did whenever it rained: taking the metal tools and accessories inside, so they would not get rusty for the next uses.
-"Here we go, Andrei, now they'll keep their good state. I know you don't like it when they get rusty, it honestly shucks"
She placed them carefully on the corner, then opened the shelf to see if there was any rope left. Yes, there were some left. Grabbed them, and stepped outside again. The rain was almost pouring now. It was colder than before, making her body shake and shiver like a cursed creature. Actually, she looked like one right now. Hair is in its utter messy state, her arms and legs have gotten thin, making her look even smaller than before. She tugged the rope on the tree's bent-over branch, then tugged the rope in a circle. Her hands moved amusingly fast, but she didn't care about it. She just hoped she would succeed this time.
-"Andrei.. can I get a kiss for the last time? A farewell one. I know, lately I asked a lot, but.. I promise this will be the last. Please? Andrei, ..please.."
The last words came out muffled as a tight rope held her throat up in the air, her feet kicked the ground with it's all its strength, muffled grunts came out of her until it stopped entirely..
The rain continued pouring